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第30章

  Oppositethewharftherewasstuckinthewidegableofatwo-storiedbuildingalanternwhich,flickering,diffusedbutadull,anaemiclightfromitsdirtypanes,whileoverthelongstripofthebrokensignboardofthebuildingtherecouldbeseenstraggling,andexecutedinlargeyellowletters,thewords,“Tavernand-“Nomoreofthelegendthanthiswasvisible。
  Lanternswerehangingintwoorthreeotherspotsinthedrowsylittletown;andwherevertheirmurkystainsoflighthungsuspendedintheairtherestoodoutinreliefamedleyofgables,drab-tintedtrees,andfalsewindowsinwhitepaint,onwallsofadullslatecolour。
  SomehowIfoundcontemplationofthescenedepressing。
  Meanwhilethevesselcontinuedtoemitsteamassherockedtoandfrowithacreakingofwood,aslap-slappingofwater,andascrubbingofhersidesagainstthewharf。Atlengthsomeoneejaculatedsurlily:
  “Fool,youmustbeasleep!Thewinch,yousay?Why,thewinchisatthestern,damnyou!“
  “Offagain,thanktheLord!“addedtheraspingvoicealreadyheardfrombehindthebales,whiletoitanequallyfamiliarvoicerejoinedwithayawn:
  “It’stimeweWEREoff!“
  Saidahoarsevoice:
  “Lookhere,youngfellow。Whatwasitheshouted?“
  Hastilyandinarticulately,withagreatdealofsmackingofthelipsandstuttering,someonereplied:
  “Heshouted:’Kinsmen,donotkillme!Havesomemercy,forChrist’ssake,andIwillmakeovertoyoueverything——yes,everythingintoyourgoodhandsforever!Onlyletmegoaway,andexpiatemysins,andsavemysoulthroughprayer。Aye,I
  willgoonapilgrimage,andremainhiddenmylifelong,totheveryend。Nevershallyouhearofmeagain,norseeme。’ThenUnclePetercaughthimablowonthehead,andhisbloodsplashedoutuponme。AshefellI——well,Iranaway,andmadeforthetavern,whereIknockedatthedoorandshouted:
  ’Sister,theyhavekilledourfather!’Uponthat,sheputherheadoutofthewindow,butonlysaid:’Thatmerelymeansthattherascalismakinganexcuseforvodka。’……Aye,aterribletimeitwas——wasthatnight!AndhowfrightenedIfelt!Atfirst,Imadeforthegarret,butpresentlythoughttomyself:’No;
  theywouldsoonfindmethere,andputmetoanendaswell,forIamtheheirdirect,andshouldbethefirsttosucceedtotheproperty。’SoIcrawledontotheroof,andtherelayhiddenbehindthechimney-stack,holdingonwitharmsandlegs,whileunabletospeakforsheerterror。“
  “Whatwereyouafraidof?“abrusquevoiceinterrupted。
  “WhatwasIafraidof?“
  “Atallevents,youjoinedyouruncleinkillingyourfather,didn’tyou?“
  “Insuchanhouronehasnottimetothink——onejustkillsamanbecauseonecan’thelponeself,orbecauseitseemssoeasytokill。“
  “True,“thehoarservoicecommentedindullandponderousaccents。“Whenoncebloodhasflowedthefactleadstomoreblood,andifamanhasstartedouttokill,hecaresnothingforanyreason——hefindsgoodenoughthereasonwhichcomesfirsttohishand。“
  “Butifthisyoungfellowisspeakingthetruth,hehadaBUSINESSreason——though,properlyspeaking,evenpropertyoughtnottoprovokequarrels。“
  “Similarlyoneoughtnottokilljustwhenonechooses。Folkwhocommitsuchcrimesshouldhavejusticemetedouttothem。“
  “Yes,butitisdifficultalwaystoobtainsuchjustice。Forinstance,thisyoungfellowseemstohavespentoverayearinprisonfornothing。“
  “’Fornothing’?Why,didhenotenticehisfatherintothehut,andthenshutthedooruponhim,andthrowacoatoverhishead?Hehassaidsohimself。’Fornothing,’indeed!“
  Uponthistherapidstreamofsobbed,disconnectedwords,whichI
  hadheardbeforefromsomespeakerpouredforthanew。Somehow,I
  guessedthatitcamefromthemaninthedirtyboots,asoncemoreherecountedthestoryofthemurder。
  “Idonotwishtojustifymyself,“hesaid。“Isaymerelythat,inasmuchasIwaspromisedareprieveatthetrial,Itoldeverything,andwasthereforeallowedtogofree,whilemyuncleandmybrotherweresentencedtopenalservitude。“
  “ButyouKNEWthattheyhadagreedtokillhim?“
  “Well,itismyideathatatfirsttheyintendedonlytogivehimagoodfright。Neverdidmyfatherrecognisemeashisson——alwayshecalledmeaJesuit。“
  Thegrufferofthetwovoicespulledupthespeaker。
  “Tothink,“itsaid,“thatyoucanactuallytalkaboutitall!“
  “Whyshouldn’tI?Myfatherbroughttearstotheeyesofmanyaninnocentperson。“
  “Afigforpeople’stears!Ifourcausesoftearswereoneandalltobemurdered,whatwouldthestateofthingsbecome?Shedtears,butneverblood;forbloodisnotyourstoshed。Andevenifyoushouldbelieveyourownbloodtobeyourown,knowthatitisnotso,thatyourblooddoesnotbelongtoyou,buttoSomeoneElse。“
  “Thepointinquestionwasmyfather’sproperty。Itallshowshowamanmayliveawhile,andearnhisliving,andthensuddenlygoamiss,andlosehiswits,andevenconceiveagrudgeagainsthisownfather……NowImustgetsomesleep。“
  Behindthebalesallgrewquiet。PresentlyIrosetopeerinthatdirection。Thepassengerinthebuffpea-jacketwassittinghuddledupagainstacoilofrope,withhishandsthrustintohissleeves,andhischinrestinguponhisarms。Asthemoonwasshiningstraightintohisface,Icouldseethatthelatterwasaslividasthatofacorpse,andhaditsbrowsdrawndownoveritsnarrow,insignificanteyes。
  Besidehim,andclosetomyhead,therewaslyingstretchedonthetopofthecoilofropeabroad-shoulderedpeasantinashortsmockandapairofpatchedbootsofwhitefelt。Theringletsofthewearer’scurlybeardwerethrustupwards,andhishandsclaspedbehindhishead,andwithox-likeeyeshestaredatthezenithwhereafewstarswereshining,andthemoonwasbeginningtosink。
  Atlength,inatrumpet-likevoicethoughheseemedtodohisbesttosoftenitthepeasantasked:
  “Youruncleisonthatbarge,Isuppose?“
  “Heis。Andsoismybrother。“
  “Yetyouarehere!Howstrange!“
  Thedarkbarge,towedagainstthesteamer’sblue-silverwashoffoam,wascleavingitlikeaplough,whileunderthemoonthelightsofthebargeshowedwhite,andthehullandtheprisoners’cagestoodraisedhighoutofthewaterastoourrighttheblack,indentatedbankglidedpastinsinuousconvolutions。
  Fromthewhole,soft,liquescentfluidscene,theimpressionwhichIderivedwasmelancholy。
  Itevokedinmyspiritasenseofinstability,alackofrestfulness。
  “Whyareyoutravelling?“
  “BecauseIwishtohaveawordwithhim。“
  “Withyouruncle?“
  “Yes。“
  “Abouttheproperty?“
  “Whatelse?“
  “Thenlookhere,myyoungfellow。Dropitall——bothyouruncleandtheproperty,andbetakeyourselftoamonastery,andthereliveandpray。Forifyouhaveshedblood,andespeciallyifyouhaveshedthebloodofakinsman,youwillstandforeverestrangedfromall,while,moreover,bloodshedisadangerousthing——itmayatanytimecomebackuponyou。“
  “Buttheproperty?“theyoungfellowaskedwithaliftofhishead。
  “Letitgo,“thepeasantvouchsafedasheclosedhiseyes。
  Ontheyoungerman’sfacethedowntwitchedasthoughawindhadstirredit。Heyawned,andlookedabouthimforamoment。Then,descryingmyself,hecriedinatoneofresentment:
  “Whatareyoulookingat?Andwhydoyoukeepfollowingmeabout?“
  Herethebigpeasantopenedhiseyes,and,withaglancefirstattheman,andthenatmyself,growled:
  “Lessnoisethere,youmitten-face!“