Peopleconstantlycameandwentinthewaiting-room,whichwassometimesquitefull,andagainemptyofallbutthemselves。Inthecourseoftheirobservationstheyformedmanycordialfriendshipsandbitterenmitiesuponthegroundofpersonalappearance,orparticularsofdress,withpeoplewhomtheysawforhalfaminuteuponanaverage;andtheytooksuchakeeninterestineveryone,thatitwouldbehardtosaywhethertheyweremoreconcernedinanoldgentlemanwithvigorouslyuprightiron-grayhair,whosatfrontingthem,andreadingalltheeveningpapers,orayoungmanwhohurledhimselfthroughthedoor,boughtaticketwithterrificprecipitation,burstoutagain,andthenrandownadepartingtrainbeforeitgotoutofthestation:theylovedtheoldgentlemanforacertainstubbornbenevolenceofexpression,andiftheyhadbeenfriendsoftheyoungmanandhisfamilyforgenerationsandfeltboundifanyharmbefellhimtogoandbreakthenewsgentlytohisparents,theirnervescouldnothavebeenmoreintimatelywroughtuponbyhishazardousbehavior。Still,astheyhadtheirticketsforNewYork,andhewasgoingoutonamerelylocaltrain,——toBrookline,I
believe,theycouldnot,evenintheiranxiety,repressafeelingofcontemptforhisunambitiousdestination。
TheywerealreadyascompletelycutofffromlocalassociationsandsympathiesasiftheywereathousandmilesandmanymonthsawayfromBoston。Theyenjoyedthelonelyflaringofthegas-jetsasagustofwinddrewthroughthestation;theysharedthegloomandisolationofamanwhotookaseatinthedarkestcorneroftheroom,andsattherewithfoldedarms,thegeniusofabsence。Inthepatronizingspiritoftravellersinaforeigncountrytheynotedandapprovedthevasesofcut-
flowersintheboothoftheladywhocheckedpackages,andthepotsofivyinherwindows。“ThesepoorBostonians,“theysaid;“havesomeloveofthebeautifulintheirruggednatures。“
Butafterallwassaidandthought,itwasonlyeighto’clock,andtheystillhadanhourtowait。
Basilgrewrestless,andIsabelsaid,withasubtileinterpretationofhisuneasiness,“Idon’twantanythingtoeat,Basil,butIthinkIknowtheweaknessesofmen;andyouhadbettergoandpassthenexthalf-houroveraplateofsomethingindigestible。“
Thiswassaid’constizza’,theleastlittlesuggestionofit;butBasilrosewithshamefulalacrity。“Darling,ifit’syourwish——“
“It’smyfate,Basil,“saidIsabel。
“I’llgo,“heexclaimed,“becauseitisn’tbridal,andwillhelpustopassforoldmarriedpeople。“
“No,no,Basil,behonest;fibbingisn’tyourforte:Iwonderyouwentintotheinsurancebusiness;yououghttohavebeenalawyer。Gobecauseyoulikeeating,andarehungry,perhaps,orthinkyoumaybesobeforewegettoNewYork。
“Ishallamusemyselfwellenoughhere!“
Isupposeitisalwaysalittleshockingandgrievoustoawifewhensherecognizesarivalinbutchers’-meatandthevegetablesoftheseason。
Withherslenderrelishesforpastryandconfectioneryandherdaintyhabitsoflunching,shecannotreconcilewiththeideaofherhusband’scapacityforbreakfasting,dining,supping,andhotmealsatallhoursofthedayandnight——astheywriteitonthesign-boardsofbarbariceating-houses。ButisabelwouldhaveonlyherselftoblameifshehadnotperceivedthistraitofBasil’sbeforemarriage。Sherecurrednow,ashisfiguredisappeareddownthestation,tomemorableinstancesofhisappetiteintheirEuropeantravelsduringtheirfirstengagement。“Yes,heateterriblyatSusa,whenIwastoofullofthenotionofgettingintoItalytocareforbouillonandcoldroastchicken。AtRomeI
thoughtImustbreakwithhimonaccountofthewild-boar;andatHeidelberg,thesausageandtheham!——howcouldhe,inmypresence?ButItookhimwithallhisfaults,——andwasgladtogethim,“sheadded,endinghermeditationwithalittleburstofcandor;andshedidnoteventhinkofBasil’sappetitewhenhereappeared。
Withthethrongingofmanysortsofpeople,inpartiesandsingly,intothewaitingroom,theybecameonceagainmereobserversoftheirkind,moreorlesscriticalintemper,untilthecrowdgrewsothatindividualtraitsweremergedinthecharacterofmultitude。Eventhen,theycouldcatchglimpsesoffacessosweetorfinethattheymadethemselvesfeltlikemomentsofreposeinthetumult,andhereandtherewassomethingsogrotesqueindressofmannerthatitshoweddistinctfromtherest。Theticket-seller’sstampclickedincessantlyashesoldticketstoallpointsSouthandWest:toNewYork,Philadelphia,Charleston;toNewOrleans,Chicago,Omaha;toSt。Paul,Duluth,St。Louis;anditwouldnothavebeenhardtofindinthatanxiousbustle,thatunsmilingeagerness,animageofthewholebusyaffairoflife。Itwasnotaparticularlysanespectacle,thatimpatiencetobeofftosomeplacethatlaynotonlyinthedistance,butalsointhefuture——towhichnolineofroadcarriesyouwithabsolutecertaintyacrossanintervaloftimefullofeveryimaginablechanceandinfluence。ItiseasyenoughtobuyatickettoCincinnati,butitissomewhathardertoarrivethere。Saythatallgoeswell,isitexactlyyouwhoarrive?
Inthemidstofthedisquietthereenteredatlastanoldwoman,soveryinfirmthatshehadtobeupheldoneitherhandbyherhusbandandthehackmanwhohadbroughtthem,whileayounggirlwentbeforewithshawlsandpillowswhichshearrangedupontheseat。Theretheinvalidlaydown,andturnedtowardsthecrowdawhite,sufferingface,whichwasyetsoheavenlymeekandpeacefulthatitcomfortedwhoeverlookedatit。
Inspiritourhappyfriendsbowedthemselvesbeforeitandownedthattherewassomethingbetterthanhappinessinit。
“Whatisitlike,Isabel?“
“O,Idon’tknow,darling,“shesaid;butshethought,“Perhapsitislikesomeblessedsorrowthattakesusoutofthisprisonofaworld,andsetsusfreeofourevery-dayhatesanddesires,ouraims,ourfears。
ourselves。Maybealongandmortalsicknessmightcometowearsuchafaceinoneofustwo,andtheothercouldseeit,andnotregretthepoormaskofyouthandprettylooksthathadfallenaway。“
Sheroseandwentovertothesickwoman,onwhosefacebeamedatendersmile,asIsabelspoketoher。Achordthrilledintwoliveshithertounknowntoeachother;butwhatwassaidBasilwouldnotaskwhentheinvalidhadtakenIsabel’shandbetweenherown,asforadieu,andshecamebacktohissidewithswimmingeyes。Perhapshiswifecouldhavegivennogoodreasonforheremotion,ifhehadaskedit。Butitmadeherverysweetanddeartohim;andIsupposethatwhenatolerablyunselfishmanisoncesecureofawoman’slove,heisordinarilymoreaffectedbyhercompassionandtendernessforotherobjectsthanbyherfeelingstowardshimself。Helikeswellenoughtothink,“Shelovesme,“
butstillbetter,“Howkindandgoodsheis!“
Theylostsightoftheinvalidinthehurryofgettingplacesonthecars,andtheyneversawheragain。Themanatthewicket-gateleadingtothetrainhadthrownitup,andthepeoplewerepressingfuriouslythroughasiftheirliveshunguponthechanceofinstantpassage。Basilhadsecuredhisticketforthesleeping-car,andsoheandIsabelstoodasideandwatchedthetumult。Whentherashwasovertheypassedthrough,andastheywalkedupanddowntheplatformbesidethetrain,“Iwasthinking,“saidIsabel,“afterIspoketothatpooroldlady,ofwhatClaraWilliamssays:thatshewondersthehappiestwomenintheworldcanlookeachotherinthefacewithoutburstingintotears,theirhappinessissounreasonable,andsobuiltuponandhedgedaboutwithmisery。Shedeclaresthatthere’snothingsosadtoherasabride,unlessit’sayoungmother,oralittlegirlgrowingupintheinnocentgayetyofherheart。Shewonderstheycanlivethroughit。“
“Claraisverymuchofareformer,andwouldmakeanendofallofusmen,Isuppose,——exceptherfather,whosupportsherintheleisurethatenableshertodoherdeepthinking。Shelittleknowswhatwepoorfellowshavetosuffer,andhowoftenwebreakdowninbusinesshours,andsobupononeanother’snecks。Didthatoldladytalktoyouinthesamestrain?“
“Ono!shespokeverycalmlyofhersickness,andsaidshehadlivedablessedlife。Perhapsitwasthatmademeshedthosefewsmalltears。
Sheseemedaveryreligiousperson。“
“Yes,“saidBasil,“itisalmostapitythatreligionisgoingout。Butthenyouaretohavethefranchise。“
“Allaboard!“
Thiswarningcrysavedhimfromwhateverheresyhemighthavebeenabouttoutter;andpresentlythetraincarriedthemoutintothegas-sprinkleddarkness,withanever-growingspeedthatsoonleftthecitylampsfarbehind。Itisaphenomenonwhosecommonnessalonepreventsitfrombeingmostimpressive,thatdepartureofthenight-express。Thetwohundredmilesitistotravelstretchbeforeit,tracedbythoseslenderclews,tolosewhichisruin,andaboutwhichhangsomanydangers。Thedrawbridgesthatgapeupontheway,thetrainsthatstandsmokingandsteamingonthetrack,therailthathasbornethewearsolongthatitmustsoonsnapunderit,thedeepcutwheretheoverhangingmassofrocktremblestoitsfall,theobstructionthatapitilessmalicemayhaveplacedinyourpath,——youthinkoftheseafterthejourneyisdone,buttheyseldomhauntyourfancywhileitlasts。Theknowledgeofyourhelplessnessinanycircumstancesissoperfectthatitbegetsasenseofirresponsibility,almostofsecurity;andasyoudrowseuponthepalletofthesleepingcar,andfeelyourselfhurledforwardthroughtheobscurity,youarealmostthankfulthatyoucandonothing,foritisuponthisconditiononlythatyoucanendureit;andsomesuchconditionasthis,Isuppose,accountsformanyheroicfactsintheworld。Tothefantasticmoodwhichpossessesyouequally,sleepingorwaking,thestoppagesofthetrainhaveaweirdcharacter;andWorcester,Springfield,NewHaven,andStamfordareratherpointsindream-landthanwell-knowntownsofNewEngland。Asthetrainstopsyoudrowseifyouhavebeenwaking,andwakeifyouhavebeeninadoze;butinanycaseyouareawareofthelocomotivehissingandcoughingbeyondthestation,offlaringgas-jets,ofclatteringfeetofpassengersgettingonandoff;
thenofsomeone,conductororstation-master,walkingthewholelengthofthetrain;andthenyouareawareofaninsanesatisfactioninrenewedflightthroughthedarkness。Youthinkhazilyofthefolkintheirbedsinthetownleftbehind,whostiruneasilyatthesoundofyourtrain’sdepartingwhistle;andsoallisablankvigilorablankslumber。