首页 >出版文学> The Warden by Anthony Trollope>第32章
  butperhapshemighteffectanexchange。Andthen,recollectingthattheattorney-generalwouldhardlycaretohearhowtheserviceofacathedralchurchisdividedamongtheminorcanons,stoppedshortinhisexplanations。
  SirAbrahamlistenedinpityingwonder。’Ireallythink,MrHarding,youhadbetterwaitforthearchdeacon。Thisisamostseriousstep——oneforwhich,inmyopinion,thereisnottheslightestnecessity;and,asyouhavedonemethehonourofaskingmyadvice,Imustimploreyoutodonothingwithouttheapprovalofyourfriends。Amanisneverthebestjudgeofhisownposition。’
  ’Amanisthebestjudgeofwhathefeelshimself。I’dsoonerbegmybreadtillmydeaththanreadsuchanotherarticleasthosetwothathaveappeared,andfeel,asIdo,thatthewriterhastruthonhisside。’
  ’Haveyounotadaughter,MrHarding——anunmarrieddaughter?’
  ’Ihave,’saidhe,nowstandingalso,butstillplayingawayonhisfiddlewithhishandbehindhisback。’Ihave,SirAbraham;andsheandIarecompletelyagreedonthissubject。’
  ’Prayexcuseme,MrHarding,ifwhatIsayseemsimpertinent;
  butsurelyitisyouthatshouldbeprudentonherbehalf。Sheisyoung,anddoesnotknowthemeaningoflivingonanincomeofahundredandsixtypoundsayear。Onheraccountgiveupthisidea。Believeme,itissheerQuixotism。’
  Thewardenwalkedawaytothewindow,andthenbacktohischair;andthen,irresolutewhattosay,tookanotherturntothewindow。Theattorney-generalwasreallyextremelypatient,buthewasbeginningtothinkthattheinterviewhadbeenlongenough。
  ’Butifthisincomebenotjustlymine,whatifsheandI
  havebothtobeg?’saidthewardenatlast,sharply,andinavoicesodifferentfromthathehadhithertoused,thatSirAbrahamwasstartled。’Ifso,itwouldbebettertobeg。’
  ’Mydearsir,nobodynowquestionsitsjustness。’
  ’Yes,SirAbraham,onedoesquestionit——themostimportantofallwitnessesagainstme——Iquestionitmyself。MyGodknowswhetherornoIlovemydaughter;butIwouldsoonerthatsheandIshouldbothbeg,thanthatsheshouldliveincomfortonmoneywhichistrulythepropertyofthepoor。
  Itmayseemstrangetoyou,SirAbraham,itisstrangetomyself,thatIshouldhavebeentenyearsinthathappyhome,andnothavethoughtofthesethingstilltheyweresoroughlydinnedintomyears。Icannotboastofmyconscience,whenitrequiredtheviolenceofapublicnewspapertoawakenit;but,nowthatitisawake,Imustobeyit。WhenIcamehere,IdidnotknowthatthesuitwaswithdrawnbyMrBold,andmyobjectwastobegyoutoabandonmydefence。Asthereisnoaction,therecanbenodefence;butitis,atanyrate,aswellthatyoushouldknowthatfromtomorrowIshallceasetobethewardenofthehospital。MyfriendsandIdifferonthissubject,SirAbraham,andthataddsmuchtomysorrow;butitcannotbehelped。’And,ashefinishedwhathehadtosay,heplayedupsuchatuneasneverbeforehadgracedthechambersofanyattorney-general。Hewasstandingup,gallantlyfrontingSirAbraham,andhisrightarmpassedwithboldandrapidsweepsbeforehim,asthoughhewereembracingsomehugeinstrument,whichallowedhimtostandthuserect;andwiththefingersofhislefthandhestopped,withpreternaturalvelocity,amultitudeofstrings,whichrangedfromthetopofhiscollartothebottomofthelappetofhiscoat。SirAbrahamlistenedandlookedinwonder。
  AshehadneverbeforeseenMrHarding,themeaningofthesewildgesticulationswaslostuponhim;butheperceivedthatthegentlemanwhohadafewminutessincebeensosubduedastobeunabletospeakwithouthesitation,wasnowimpassioned——nay,almostviolent。
  ’You’llsleeponthis,MrHarding,andtomorrow——’
  ’Ihavedonemorethansleepuponit,’saidthewarden;
  ’Ihavelainawakeuponit,andthatnightafternight。I
  foundIcouldnotsleepuponit:nowIhopetodoso。’
  Theattorney-generalhadnoanswertomaketothis;soheexpressedaquiethopethatwhateversettlementwasfinallymadewouldbesatisfactory;andMrHardingwithdrew,thankingthegreatmanforhiskindattention。
  MrHardingwassufficientlysatisfiedwiththeinterviewtofeelaglowofcomfortashedescendedintothesmalloldsquareofLincoln’sInn。Itwasacalm,bright,beautifulnight,andbythelightofthemoon,eventhechapelofLincoln’sInn,andthesombrerowofchambers,whichsurroundthequadrangle,lookedwell。Hestoodstillamomenttocollecthisthoughts,andreflectonwhathehaddone,andwasabouttodo。Heknewthattheattorney-generalregardedhimaslittlebetterthanafool,butthathedidnotmind;heandtheattorney-
  generalhadnotmuchincommonbetweenthem;heknewalsothatothers,whomhedidcareabout,wouldthinksotoo;
  butEleanor,hewassure,wouldexultinwhathehaddone,andthebishop,hetrusted,wouldsympathisewithhim。
  Inthemeantimehehadtomeetthearchdeacon,andsohewalkedslowlydownChanceryLaneandalongFleetStreet,feelingsurethathisworkforthenightwasnotyetover。
  Whenhereachedthehotelherangthebellquietly,andwithapalpitatingheart;healmostlongedtoescaperoundthecorner,anddelaythecomingstormbyafurtherwalkroundStPaul’sChurchyard,butheheardtheslowcreakingshoesoftheoldwaiterapproaching,andhestoodhisgroundmanfully。
  TheWardenisVeryObstinate’DrGrantlyishere,sir,’greetedhisearsbeforethedoorwaswellopen,’andMrsGrantly。Theyhaveasitting-roomabove,andarewaitingupforyou。’
  Therewassomethinginthetoneoftheman’svoicewhichseemedtoindicatethatevenhelookeduponthewardenasarunawayschoolboy,justrecapturedbyhisguardian,andthathepitiedtheculprit,thoughhecouldnotbutbehorrifiedatthecrime。
  Thewardenendeavouredtoappearunconcerned,ashesaid,’Oh,indeed!I’llgoupstairsatonce’;buthefailedsignally。Therewas,perhaps,arayofcomfortinthepresenceofhismarrieddaughter;thatistosay,ofcomparativecomfort,seeingthathisson-in-lawwasthere;buthowmuchwouldhehavepreferredthattheyshouldbothhavebeensafeatPlumsteadEpiscopi!However,upstairshewent,thewaiterslowlyprecedinghim;andonthedoorbeingopenedthearchdeaconwasdiscoveredstandinginthemiddleoftheroom,erect,indeed,asusual,butoh!howsorrowful!andonthedingysofabehindhimreclinedhispatientwife。
  ’Papa,Ithoughtyouwerenevercomingback,’saidthelady;’it’stwelveo’clock。’
  ’Yes,mydear,’saidthewarden。’Theattorney-generalnamedtenformymeeting;tobesuretenislate,butwhatcouldIdo,youknow?Greatmenwillhavetheirownway。’
  Andhegavehisdaughterakiss,andshookhandswiththedoctor,andagaintriedtolookunconcerned。
  ’Andyouhaveabsolutelybeenwiththeattorney-general?’
  askedthearchdeacon。
  MrHardingsignifiedthathehad。
  ’Goodheavens,howunfortunate!’Andthearchdeaconraisedhishugehandsinthemannerinwhichhisfriendsaresoaccustomedtoseehimexpressdisapprobationandastonishment。
  ’WhatwillSirAbrahamthinkofit?Didyounotknowthatitisnotcustomaryforclientstogodirecttotheircounsel?’
  ’Isn’tit?’askedthewarden,innocently。’Well,atanyrate,I’vedoneitnow。SirAbrahamdidn’tseemtothinkitsoverystrange。’
  Thearchdeacongaveasighthatwouldhavemovedaman-of-war。
  ’But,papa,whatdidyousaytoSirAbraham?’askedthelady。
  ’Iaskedhim,mydear,toexplainJohnHiram’swilltome。
  Hecouldn’texplainitintheonlywaywhichwouldhavesatisfiedme,andsoIresignedthewardenship。’
  ’Resignedit!’saidthearchdeacon,inasolemnvoice,sadandlow,butyetsufficientlyaudible——asortofwhisperthatMacreadywouldhaveenvied,andthegallerieshaveapplaudedwithacoupleofrounds。’Resignedit!Goodheavens!’
  Andthedignitaryofthechurchsankbackhorrifiedintoahorsehairarm-chair。
  ’AtleastItoldSirAbrahamthatIwouldresign;andofcourseImustnowdoso。’
  ’Notatall,’saidthearchdeacon,catchingarayofhope。
  ’Nothingthatyousayinsuchawaytoyourowncounselcanbeinanywaybindingonyou;ofcourseyouweretheretoaskhisadvice。I’msureSirAbrahamdidnotadviseanysuchstep。’
  MrHardingcouldnotsaythathehad。
  ’Iamsurehedisadvisedyoufromit,’continuedthereverendcross-examiner。
  MrHardingcouldnotdenythis。
  ’I’msureSirAbrahammusthaveadvisedyoutoconsultyourfriends。’
  TothispropositionalsoMrHardingwasobligedtoassent。
  ’Thenyourthreatofresignationamountstonothing,andwearejustwherewewerebefore。’
  MrHardingwasnowstandingontherug,movinguneasilyfromonefoottotheother。Hemadenodistinctanswertothearchdeacon’slastproposition,forhismindwaschieflyengagedonthinkinghowhecouldescapetobed。Thathisresignationwasathingfinallyfixedon,afactallbutcompleted,wasnotinhismindamatterofanydoubt;heknewhisownweakness;heknewhowpronehewastobeled;buthewasnotweakenoughtogivewaynow,togobackfromthepositiontowhichhisconsciencehaddrivenhim,afterhavingpurposelycometoLondontodeclarehisdetermination:hedidnotintheleastdoubthisresolution,buthegreatlydoubtedhispowerofdefendingitagainsthisson-in-law。