“Youleavethisland?“shesaid。“Thatmeansthatyouleaveme,wholoveyou,togoforthastheWandererwent——followingadreamtotheSouth。Well,itisbestthatyoushouldgo,forwhatevertheyhavepromisedyoubutnow,itissurethatthepriestswillkillyou,evenifyouescapethevengeanceofthegod。“Andshelookedaskanceattheshatteredstatuewhichhadsatinitsplaceforsomanygenerationsthatnoneknewwhohadsetitthere,orwhen。
“Ihavekilledthegod,“Ianswered,pointingtothecrushedviper。
“Notquite,Olaf,for,see,itstailstillmoves。“
Thenshewent,leavingmealone。IsatmyselfdownbythemurderedSteinar,andstaredathim。Couldhebereallydead,Iwondered,ordidheliveonelsewhere?MyfaithhadtaughtmeofaplacecalledValhallawherebravemenwent,butinthatfaithanditsgodsI
believednomore。ThisValhallawasbutachild’stale,inventedbyabloody-mindedfolkwholovedslaughter。WhereverSteinarandtheotherswere,itwasnotinValhalla。Then,perhaps,theysleptlikethebeastsdoafterthesehavebeenbutchered。Perhapsdeathwastheendofall。Itmightbeso,andyetIdidnotbelieveit。TherewereothergodsbesidesOdinandhiscompany,forwhatwerethosewhichwehadfoundintheWanderer’stomb?Ilongedtoknow。
Yes,Iwouldgosouth,astheWandererwent,andsearchforthem。
PerhapsthereintheSouthIshouldlearnthesecrettruth——andotherthings。
Igrewwearyofthesethoughtsofgodswhocouldnotbefound,orwho,iffound,werebutdevils。Mymindwentbacktomychildhood’sdays,whenSteinarandIplayedtogetheronthemeads,beforeanywomanhadcometowreckourlives。Irememberedhowweusedtoplayuntilwewereweary,andhowatnightsIwouldtellhimtalesthatIhadlearnedorwoven,untilatlengthwesanktosleep,ourarmsabouteachother’snecks。Myheartgrewfullofsorrowthatintheendbrokefrommyeyesintears。Yes,IweptoverSteinar,mybrotherSteinar,andkissedhiscoldandgorylips。
Theeveninggathered,thetwilightgrew,and,onebyone,thestarssprangoutinthequietsky,tillthemoonappearedandgatheredalltheirradiancetoherself。Iheardthesoundofawoman’sdress,andlookedup,thinkingtoseeFreydisa。ButthiswomanwasnotFreydisa;
itwasIduna!Yes,Iduna’sself!
Irosetomyfeetandstoodstill。Shealsostoodstill,onthefarthersideofthestoneofsacrificewhereonthatwhichhadbeenSteinarwasstretchedbetweenus。Thencameastruggleofsilence,inwhichshewonatlast。
“Haveyoucometosavehim?“Iasked。“Ifso,itistoolate。Woman,beholdyourwork。“
Sheshookherbeautifulheadandanswered,almostinawhisper:
“Nay,Olaf,Iamcometobegaboonofyou:thatyouwillslayme,hereandnow。“
“AmIabutcher——orapriest?“Imuttered。
“Oh,slayme,slayme,Olaf!“shewenton,throwingherselfuponherkneesbeforeme,andrendingopenherbluerobethatheryoungbreastmighttakethesword。“Thus,perchance,I,wholovelife,maypaysomeofthepriceofsin,who,ifIslewmyself,wouldbutmultiplythedebt,whichintruthIdarenotdo。“
StillIshookmyhead,andoncemoreshespoke:
“Olaf,inthiswayorinthatdoubtlessmyendwillfindme,for,ifyourefusethisoffice,thereareothersofsternerstuff。TheknifethatsmoteSteinarisnotblunted。Yet,beforeIdie,whoamcomeherebuttodie,Iprayyouhearthetruth,thatmymemorymaybesomewhatlessviletoyouintheafteryears。Olaf,youthinkmethefalsestofthefalse,yetIamnotaltogetherso。Harkyounow!AtthetimethatSteinarsoughtme,somemadnesstookhim。Sosoonaswewerealonetogether,hisfirstwordswere:’Iambewitched。Iloveyou。’
“Olaf,I’llnotdenythathisworshipstirredmyblood,forhewasgoodly——well,anddifferenttoyou,withyourdreamingeyesandthoughtsthataretoodeepforme。Andyet,bymybreath,IswearthatImeantnoharm。Whenwerodetogethertotheship,itwasmypurposetoreturnuponthemorrowandbemadeyourwife。Butthereupontheshipmyfathercompelledme。ItwashisfancythatIshouldbreakwithyouandbewedtoSteinar,whohadbecomesogreatalordandwhopleasedhimbetterthanyoudid,Olaf。And,asforSteinar——why,haveInottoldyouthathewasmadforme?“
“Steinar’stalewasotherwise,Iduna。Hesaidthatyouwentfirst,andthathefollowed。“
“Werethosehiswords,Olaf?For,ifso,howcanIgivethedeadthelie,andonewhodiedthroughme?Itseemsunholy。YetinthismatterSteinarhadnoreasonlefttohimand,whetheryoubelievemeorno,I
tellthetruth。Oh!hearmeout,forwhoknowswhentheywillcometotakeme,whohavewalkedintothisnestoffoesthatImaybetaken?
PrayasIwould,theshipwasrunout,andwesailedforLesso。There,inmyfather’shall,uponmyknees,Ientreatedhimtoholdhishand。
Itoldhimwhatwastrue:that,ofyoutwain,itwasyouIloved,notSteinar。Itoldhimthatifheforcedthismarriage,warwouldcomeofitthatmightmeanallourdeaths。Butthesethingsmovedhimnothing。
ThenItoldhimthatsuchadeedofshamewouldmeanthelossofSteinar’slordship,sothatbyithewouldgainnoprofit。Atlasthelistened,forthistouchedhimnear。Youknowtherest。Thorvald,yourfather,andRagnar,whoeverhatedme,pressedonthewardespiteallourofferingsofpeace。Sotheshipsmet,andHelahadherfill。“
“Aye,Iduna,whateverelseisfalse,thisistrue,thatHelahadherfill。“
“Olaf,Ihavebutonethingmoretosay。Itisthis:Onlyoncedidthosedeadlipstouchmine,andthenitwasagainstmywill。Aye,althoughitisshameful,youmustlearnthetruth。Myfatherheldme,Olaf,whileItookthebetrothalkiss,becauseImust。But,asyouknow,therewasnomarriage。“
“Aye,Iknowthat,“Isaid,“becauseSteinartoldmeso。“
“And,saveforthatonekiss,Olaf,Iamstillthemaidwhomonceyoulovedsowell。“
NowIstaredather。CouldthiswomanliesoblacklyoverdeadSteinar’scorpse?Whenallwassaidanddone,wasitnotpossiblethatshespokethetruth,andthatwehadbeenbutplaythingsinthehandsofanevilFate?Saveforsometriflingerror,whichmightbeforgiventoonewho,asshesaid,lovedtheworshipthatwasherbeauty’sdue,whatifshewereinnocent,afterall?
Perhapsmyfaceshowedthethoughtsthatwerepassingthroughmymind。
Attheleast,shewhoknewmewellfoundskilltoreadthem。Shecrepttowardsme,stillonherknees;shecastherarmsaboutme,and,restingherweightuponme,drewherselftoherfeet。
“Olaf,“shewhispered,“Iloveyou,Iloveyouwell,asIhavealwaysdone,thoughImayhaveerredalittle,aswomenwaywardandstillunwedareapttodo。Olaf,theytoldmeyonderhowyouhadmatchedyourselfagainstthegod,withhispriestsforjudges,andsmittenhim,andIthoughtthisthegreatestdeedthateverIhaveknown。I
usedtothinkyousomethingofaweakling,Olaf,notinyourbodybutinyourmind,onelostinmusicandinrunes,whofearedtoputthingstothetouchofwar;butyouhaveshownmeotherwise。Youslewthebear;youovercameSteinar,whowassomuchstrongerthanyouare,inthebattleoftheships;andnowyouhavebeardedOdin,theAll-
father。Look,hisheadliesthere,hewnoffbyyouforthesakeofonewho,afterall,haddoneyouwrong。Olaf,suchadeedasthattouchesawoman’sheart,andhewhodoesitisthemanshewouldwishtolieuponherbreastandbeherlord。Olaf,allthisevilpastmayyetbeforgotten。Wemightgoandliveelsewhereforawhile,oralways,forwithyourwisdomandmybeautyjoinedtogetherwhatcouldwenotconquer?Olaf,IloveyounowasIhaveneverlovedbefore,cannotyoulovemeagain?“
Herarmsclungaboutme;herbeautifulblueeyes,shimmeringwithmoonlittears,heldmyeyes,andmyheartmeltedbeneathherbreathaswintersnowsmeltinthewindsofspring。Shesaw,sheunderstood;shecastherselfuponme,shakingherlonghairoverbothofus,andseekingmylips。Almostshehadfoundthem,when,feelingsomethinghardbetweenmeandher,somethingthathurtme,Ilookeddown。Hercloakhadslippedorbeenthrownaside,andmyeyecaughttheglintofgoldandjewels。InaninstantIremembered——theWanderer’snecklaceandthedream——andwiththosememoriesmyheartfrozeagain。
“Nay,Iduna,“Isaid,“Ilovedyouwell;there’snomanwilleverloveyoumore,andyouareveryfair。Whetheryouspeaktruewordsorfalse,Idonotknow;itisbetweenyouandyourownspirit。ButthisIdoknow:thatbetwixtusrunstheriverofSteinar’sblood,aye,andthebloodofThorvald,myfather,ofThora,mymother,ofRagnar,mybrother,andofmanyanothermanwhoclungtous,andthatisastreamwhichIcannotcross。Findyouanotherhusband,IdunatheFair,sinceneverwillIcallyouwife。“
Sheloosedherarmsfromroundme,and,liftingthemagain,unclaspedtheWanderer’snecklacefromaboutherbreast。
“Thisitis,“shesaid,“whichhasbroughtalltheseevilsonme。Takeitbackagain,and,whenyoufindher,giveittothatoneforwhomitismeant,thatonewhomyoulovetruly,as,whateveryoumayhavethought,youneverhavelovedme。“
Thenshesankupontheground,andrestinghergoldenheadupondeadSteinar’sbreast,shewept。
IthinkitwasthenthatFreydisareturned;atleast,Irecallhertallformstandingnearthestoneofsacrifice,gazingatusboth,astrangesmileonherface。
“Haveyouwithstood?“shesaid。“Then,truly,youareinthewayofvictoryandhavelesstofearfromwomanthanIthought。Allthingsarereadyasyoucommanded,mylordOlaf,andthereremainsbuttosayfarewell,whichyouhadbestdoquickly,fortheyplotyourdeathyonder。“
“Freydisa,“Ianswered,“Igo,butperchanceIshallreturnagain。
Meanwhile,allIhaveisyours,withthischarge。Guardyouyonderwoman,andseehersafetoherhome,orwherevershewouldgo,andtoSteinarheregivehonourableburial。“
Thenthedarknessofoblivionfalls,andIremembernomoresavethewhitefaceofIduna,herbrowstainedwithSteinar’slife-blood,watchingmeasIwent。