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第1章

  AsthestreetsthatleadfromtheStrandtotheEmbankmentareverynarrow,itisbetternottowalkdownthemarm-in-arm。
  Ifyoupersist,lawyers’clerkswillhavetomakeflyingleapsintothemud;youngladytypistswillhavetofidgetbehindyou。
  InthestreetsofLondonwherebeautygoesunregarded,eccentricitymustpaythepenalty,anditisbetternottobeverytall,towearalongbluecloak,ortobeattheairwithyourlefthand。
  OneafternooninthebeginningofOctoberwhenthetrafficwasbecomingbriskatallmanstrodealongtheedgeofthepavementwithaladyonhisarm。Angryglancesstruckupontheirbacks。
  Thesmall,agitatedfigures——forincomparisonwiththiscouplemostpeoplelookedsmall——decoratedwithfountainpens,andburdenedwithdespatch-boxes,hadappointmentstokeep,anddrewaweeklysalary,sothattherewassomereasonfortheunfriendlystarewhichwasbestoweduponMr。Ambrose’sheightanduponMrs。Ambrose’scloak。
  Butsomeenchantmenthadputbothmanandwomanbeyondthereachofmaliceandunpopularity。Inhisguessonemightguessfromthemovinglipsthatitwasthought;andinhersfromtheeyesfixedstonilystraightinfrontofheratalevelabovetheeyesofmostthatitwassorrow。
  Itwasonlybyscorningallshemetthatshekeptherselffromtears,andthefrictionofpeoplebrushingpastherwasevidentlypainful。
  AfterwatchingthetrafficontheEmbankmentforaminuteortwowithastoicalgazeshetwitchedherhusband’ssleeve,andtheycrossedbetweentheswiftdischargeofmotorcars。Whentheyweresafeonthefurtherside,shegentlywithdrewherarmfromhis,allowinghermouthatthesametimetorelax,totremble;thentearsrolleddown,andleaningherelbowsonthebalustrade,sheshieldedherfacefromthecurious。Mr。Ambroseattemptedconsolation;
  hepattedhershoulder;butsheshowednosignsofadmittinghim,andfeelingitawkwardtostandbesideagriefthatwasgreaterthanhis,hecrossedhisarmsbehindhim,andtookaturnalongthepavement。
  Theembankmentjutsoutinangleshereandthere,likepulpits;
  insteadofpreachers,however,smallboysoccupythem,danglingstring,droppingpebbles,orlaunchingwadsofpaperforacruise。
  Withtheirsharpeyeforeccentricity,theywereinclinedtothinkMr。Ambroseawful;butthequickestwittedcried“Bluebeard!“
  ashepassed。Incasetheyshouldproceedtoteasehiswife,Mr。Ambroseflourishedhisstickatthem,uponwhichtheydecidedthathewasgrotesquemerely,andfourinsteadofonecried“Bluebeard!“inchorus。
  AlthoughMrs。Ambrosestoodquitestill,muchlongerthanisnatural,thelittleboysletherbe。SomeoneisalwayslookingintotherivernearWaterlooBridge;acouplewillstandtheretalkingforhalfanhouronafineafternoon;mostpeople,walkingforpleasure,contemplateforthreeminutes;when,havingcomparedtheoccasionwithotheroccasions,ormadesomesentence,theypasson。SometimestheflatsandchurchesandhotelsofWestminsterareliketheoutlinesofConstantinopleinamist;sometimestheriverisanopulentpurple,sometimesmud-coloured,sometimessparklingbluelikethesea。
  Itisalwaysworthwhiletolookdownandseewhatishappening。
  Butthisladylookedneitherupnordown;theonlythingshehadseen,sinceshestoodthere,wasacirculariridescentpatchslowlyfloatingpastwithastrawinthemiddleofit。Thestrawandthepatchswamagainandagainbehindthetremulousmediumofagreatwellingtear,andthetearroseandfellanddroppedintotheriver。Thentherestruckcloseuponherears——
  LarsPorsenaofClusiumBythenineGodsheswore——
  andthenmorefaintly,asifthespeakerhadpassedheronhiswalk——
  ThattheGreatHouseofTarquinShouldsufferwrongnomore。
  Yes,sheknewshemustgobacktoallthat,butatpresentshemustweep。
  Screeningherfaceshesobbedmoresteadilythanshehadyetdone,hershouldersrisingandfallingwithgreatregularity。Itwasthisfigurethatherhusbandsawwhen,havingreachedthepolishedSphinx,havingentangledhimselfwithamansellingpicturepostcards,heturned;
  thestanzainstantlystopped。Hecameuptoher,laidhishandonhershoulder,andsaid,“Dearest。“Hisvoicewassupplicating。
  Butsheshutherfaceawayfromhim,asmuchastosay,“Youcan’tpossiblyunderstand。“
  Ashedidnotleaveher,however,shehadtowipehereyes,andtoraisethemtothelevelofthefactorychimneysontheotherbank。
  ShesawalsothearchesofWaterlooBridgeandthecartsmovingacrossthem,likethelineofanimalsinashootinggallery。
  Theywereseenblankly,buttoseeanythingwasofcoursetoendherweepingandbegintowalk。
  “Iwouldratherwalk,“shesaid,herhusbandhavinghailedacabalreadyoccupiedbytwocitymen。
  Thefixityofhermoodwasbrokenbytheactionofwalking。
  Theshootingmotorcars,morelikespidersinthemoonthanterrestrialobjects,thethunderingdrays,thejinglinghansoms,andlittleblackbroughams,madeherthinkoftheworldshelivedin。
  Somewhereupthereabovethepinnacleswherethesmokeroseinapointedhill,herchildrenwerenowaskingforher,andgettingasoothingreply。Asforthemassofstreets,squares,andpublicbuildingswhichpartedthem,sheonlyfeltatthismomenthowlittleLondonhaddonetomakeherloveit,althoughthirtyofherfortyyearshadbeenspentinastreet。Sheknewhowtoreadthepeoplewhowerepassingher;thereweretherichwhowererunningtoandfromeachothers’housesatthishour;therewerethebigotedworkersdrivinginastraightlinetotheiroffices;therewerethepoorwhowereunhappyandrightlymalignant。Already,thoughtherewassunlightinthehaze,tatteredoldmenandwomenwerenoddingofftosleepupontheseats。Whenonegaveupseeingthebeautythatclothedthings,thiswastheskeletonbeneath。
  Afinerainnowmadeherstillmoredismal;vanswiththeoddnamesofthoseengagedinoddindustries——Sprules,ManufacturerofSaw-dust;Grabb,towhomnopieceofwastepapercomesamiss——
  fellflatasabadjoke;boldlovers,shelteredbehindonecloak,seemedtohersordid,pasttheirpassion;theflowerwomen,acontentedcompany,whosetalkisalwaysworthhearing,weresoddenhags;
  thered,yellow,andblueflowers,whoseheadswerepressedtogether,wouldnotblaze。Moreover,herhusbandwalkingwithaquickrhythmicstride,jerkinghisfreehandoccasionally,waseitheraVikingorastrickenNelson;thesea-gullshadchangedhisnote。
  “Ridley,shallwedrive?Shallwedrive,Ridley?“
  Mrs。Ambrosehadtospeaksharply;bythistimehewasfaraway。
  Thecab,bytrottingsteadilyalongthesameroad,soonwithdrewthemfromtheWestEnd,andplungedthemintoLondon。Itappearedthatthiswasagreatmanufacturingplace,wherethepeoplewereengagedinmakingthings,asthoughtheWestEnd,withitselectriclamps,itsvastplate-glasswindowsallshiningyellow,itscarefully-finishedhouses,andtinylivefigurestrottingonthepavement,orbowledalongonwheelsintheroad,wasthefinishedwork。Itappearedtoheraverysmallbitofworkforsuchanenormousfactorytohavemade。Forsomereasonitappearedtoherasasmallgoldentasselontheedgeofavastblackcloak。
  Observingthattheypassednootherhansomcab,butonlyvansandwaggons,andthatnotoneofthethousandmenandwomenshesawwaseitheragentlemanoralady,Mrs。Ambroseunderstoodthatafterallitistheordinarythingtobepoor,andthatLondonisthecityofinnumerablepoorpeople。StartledbythisdiscoveryandseeingherselfpacingacircleallthedaysofherliferoundPicadillyCircusshewasgreatlyrelievedtopassabuildingputupbytheLondonCountyCouncilforNightSchools。
  “Lord,howgloomyitis!“herhusbandgroaned。“Poorcreatures!“
  Whatwiththemiseryforherchildren,thepoor,andtherain,hermindwaslikeawoundexposedtodryintheair。
  Atthispointthecabstopped,foritwasindangerofbeingcrushedlikeanegg-shell。ThewideEmbankmentwhichhadhadroomforcannonballsandsquadrons,hadnowshrunktoacobbledlanesteamingwithsmellsofmaltandoilandblockedbywaggons。
  WhileherhusbandreadtheplacardspastedonthebrickannouncingthehoursatwhichcertainshipswouldsailforScotland,Mrs。Ambrosedidherbesttofindinformation。Fromaworldexclusivelyoccupiedinfeedingwaggonswithsacks,halfobliteratedtooinafineyellowfog,theygotneitherhelpnorattention。
  Itseemedamiraclewhenanoldmanapproached,guessedtheircondition,andproposedtorowthemouttotheirshipinthelittleboatwhichhekeptmooredatthebottomofaflightofsteps。Withsomehesitationtheytrustedthemselvestohim,tooktheirplaces,andweresoonwavingupanddownuponthewater,Londonhavingshrunktotwolinesofbuildingsoneithersideofthem,squarebuildingsandoblongbuildingsplacedinrowslikeachild’savenueofbricks。
  Theriver,whichhadacertainamountoftroubledyellowlightinit,ranwithgreatforce;bulkybargesfloateddownswiftlyescortedbytugs;
  policeboatsshotpasteverything;thewindwentwiththecurrent。
  Theopenrowing-boatinwhichtheysatbobbedandcurtseyedacrossthelineoftraffic。Inmid-streamtheoldmanstayedhishandsupontheoars,andasthewaterrushedpastthem,remarkedthatoncehehadtakenmanypassengersacross,wherenowhetookscarcelyany。
  Heseemedtorecallanagewhenhisboat,mooredamongrushes,carrieddelicatefeetacrosstolawnsatRotherhithe。
  “Theywantbridgesnow,“hesaid,indicatingthemonstrousoutlineoftheTowerBridge。MournfullyHelenregardedhim,whowasputtingwaterbetweenherandherchildren。Mournfullyshegazedattheshiptheywereapproaching;anchoredinthemiddleofthestreamtheycoulddimlyreadhername——_Euphrosyne_。
  Verydimlyinthefallingdusktheycouldseethelinesoftherigging,themastsandthedarkflagwhichthebreezeblewoutsquarelybehind。
  Asthelittleboatsidleduptothesteamer,andtheoldmanshippedhisoars,heremarkedoncemorepointingabove,thatshipsalltheworldoverflewthatflagthedaytheysailed。Inthemindsofboththepassengerstheblueflagappearedasinistertoken,andthisthemomentforpresentiments,butneverthelesstheyrose,gatheredtheirthingstogether,andclimbedondeck。
  Downinthesaloonofherfather’sship,MissRachelVinrace,agedtwenty-four,stoodwaitingheruncleandauntnervously。
  Tobeginwith,thoughnearlyrelated,shescarcelyrememberedthem;
  togoonwith,theywereelderlypeople,andfinally,asherfather’sdaughtershemustbeinsomesortpreparedtoentertainthem。
  Shelookedforwardtoseeingthemascivilisedpeoplegenerallylookforwardtothefirstsightofcivilisedpeople,asthoughtheywereofthenatureofanapproachingphysicaldiscomfort——
  atightshoeoradraughtywindow。Shewasalreadyunnaturallybracedtoreceivethem。Assheoccupiedherselfinlayingforksseverelystraightbythesideofknives,sheheardaman’svoicesayinggloomily:
  “Onadarknightonewouldfalldownthesestairsheadforemost,“
  towhichawoman’svoiceadded,“Andbekilled。“
  Asshespokethelastwordsthewomanstoodinthedoorway。Tall,large-eyed,drapedinpurpleshawls,Mrs。Ambrosewasromanticandbeautiful;
  notperhapssympathetic,forhereyeslookedstraightandconsideredwhattheysaw。HerfacewasmuchwarmerthanaGreekface;ontheotherhanditwasmuchbolderthanthefaceoftheusualprettyEnglishwoman。
  “Oh,Rachel,howd’youdo,“shesaid,shakinghands。
  “Howareyou,dear,“saidMr。Ambrose,inclininghisforeheadtobekissed。Hisnieceinstinctivelylikedhisthinangularbody,andthebigheadwithitssweepingfeatures,andtheacute,innocenteyes。
  “TellMr。Pepper,“Rachelbadetheservant。Husbandandwifethensatdownononesideofthetable,withtheirnieceoppositetothem。
  “Myfathertoldmetobegin,“sheexplained。“Heisverybusywiththemen……YouknowMr。Pepper?“
  Alittlemanwhowasbentassometreesarebyagaleononesideofthemhadslippedin。NoddingtoMr。Ambrose,heshookhandswithHelen。
  “Draughts,“hesaid,erectingthecollarofhiscoat。
  “Youarestillrheumatic?“askedHelen。Hervoicewaslowandseductive,thoughshespokeabsentlyenough,thesightoftownandriverbeingstillpresenttohermind。
  “Oncerheumatic,alwaysrheumatic,Ifear,“hereplied。“Tosomeextentitdependsontheweather,thoughnotsomuchaspeopleareapttothink。“
  “Onedoesnotdieofit,atanyrate,“saidHelen。
  “Asageneralrule——no,“saidMr。Pepper。
  “Soup,UncleRidley?“askedRachel。
  “Thankyou,dear,“hesaid,and,asheheldhisplateout,sighedaudibly,“Ah!she’snotlikehermother。“HelenwasjusttoolateinthumpinghertumbleronthetabletopreventRachelfromhearing,andfromblushingscarletwithembarrassment。
  “Thewayservantstreatflowers!“shesaidhastily。Shedrewagreenvasewithacrinkledliptowardsher,andbeganpullingoutthetightlittlechrysanthemums,whichshelaidonthetable-cloth,arrangingthemfastidiouslysidebyside。
  Therewasapause。
  “YouknewJenkinson,didn’tyou,Ambrose?“askedMr。Pepperacrossthetable。
  “JenkinsonofPeterhouse?“
  “He’sdead,“saidMr。Pepper。
  “Ah,dear!——Iknewhim——agesago,“saidRidley。“Hewastheheroofthepuntaccident,youremember?Aqueercard。Marriedayoungwomanoutofatobacconist’s,andlivedintheFens——neverheardwhatbecameofhim。“
  “Drink——drugs,“saidMr。Pepperwithsinisterconciseness。
  “Heleftacommentary。Hopelessmuddle,I’mtold。“
  “Themanhadreallygreatabilities,“saidRidley。
  “HisintroductiontoJellabyholdsitsownstill,“wentonMr。Pepper,“whichissurprising,seeinghowtext-bookschange。“
  “Therewasatheoryabouttheplanets,wasn’tthere?“askedRidley。
  “Ascrewloosesomewhere,nodoubtofit,“saidMr。Pepper,shakinghishead。
  Nowatremorranthroughthetable,andalightoutsideswerved。
  Atthesametimeanelectricbellrangsharplyagainandagain。
  “We’reoff,“saidRidley。
  Aslightbutperceptiblewaveseemedtorollbeneaththefloor;
  thenitsank;thenanothercame,moreperceptible。Lightsslidrightacrosstheuncurtainedwindow。Theshipgavealoudmelancholymoan。
  “We’reoff!“saidMr。Pepper。Otherships,assadasshe,answeredheroutsideontheriver。Thechucklingandhissingofwatercouldbeplainlyheard,andtheshipheavedsothatthestewardbringingplateshadtobalancehimselfashedrewthecurtain。