AtthisIlookedathimblankly。“Itisn’tpossiblethat——“
Againhecutmeshortwithalaughalmostsavage。“Youneedn’ttoworryaboutSteve。Hestayedgame。“
WhatthenhadbeenthematterthatheshouldkeepseeingSteve——thathisvisionshouldsoobliteratefromhimwhatIstillshiveredat,andsoshakehimnow?ForheseemedtobegrowingmorestirredasIgrewless。Iaskedhimnofurtherquestions,however,andwewentonforseveralminutes,hebroodingalwaysinthesamefashion,untilheresumedwiththehardindifferencethathadbeforesurprisedme:-“SoEdgaveyoufeelings!Dumbagueandsoforth。“
“Nodoubtwe’renotmadethesameway,“Iretorted。
Hetooknonoticeofthis。“Andyou’dhavebeenmorecomfortableifhe’dactedsameasStevedid。Itcert’nlywasbadseeingEdtakeitthatway,Ireckon。Andyoudidn’tseehimwhenthetimecameforbusiness。Well,here’swhatitis:amanmaybesuchaconfirrnedmiscreantthatkilling’stheonlycureforhim;butstillhe’syourownspecies,andyoudon’twanttohavehimfallaroundandgrabyourlaigsandshowyouhisfearnaked。Itmakesyoufeelashamed。SoEdgaveyoufeelings,andStevemadeeverythingrighteasyforyou!“Therewasironyinhisvoiceashesurveyedme,butitfellawayatonceintosadness。“Bothwasmiscreants。ButifStevehadplayedthecoward,too,itwouldhavebeenawholeheapeasierforme。“Hepausedbeforeadding,“AndStevewasnotamiscreantonce。“
Hisvoicehadtrembled,andIfeltthedeepemotionthatseemedtogainuponhimnowthatactionwasoverandhehadnothingtodobutthink。Andhisviewwassimpleenough:youmustdiebrave。
Failureisasortoftreasontothebrotherhood,andforfeitspity。ItwasSteve’sperfectbearingthathadcaughthisheartsothatheforgotevenhisscornoftheotherman。
Butthiswasbynomeansallthatwastocome。Heharkedbacktothatnotionofaprisonerhelpingtomakeiteasyforhisexecutioner。“Easyplumbtotheend,“hepursued,hismindreviewingtheactsofthemorning。“Why,hetriedtogivemeyournewspaper。Ididn’t——“
“Oh,no,“Isaidhastily。“Ihadfinishedwithit。“
“Well,hetookdyingasnaturallyashetookliving。Likeamanshould。LikeIhopeto。“Againhelookedatthepicturesinhismind。“Noplay-actingnorlastwords。Hejusttoldgood-bytotheboysasweledhishorseunderthelimb——youneedn’ttolooksodainty,“hebrokeoff。“Youain’tgoingtogetanymoreshockingparticulars。“
“IknowI’mwhite-livered,“Isaidwithaspeciesoflaugh。“I
nevercrowdandstarewhensomebodyishurtinthestreet。Igetaway。“
Hethoughtthisover。“Youdon’tmeanallofthat。You’dnothavespokejustthatwayaboutcrowdingandstaringifyouthoughtwellofthemthatstare。Staringain’tcourage;it’strashycuriosity。Nowyoudidnothavethisthing——“
Hehadstretchedouthishandtopoint,butitfell,andhisutterancestopped,andhejerkedhishorsetoastand。Mynervesspranglikeawireathissuddenness,andIlookedwherehewaslooking。Therewerethecottonwoods,closeinfrontofus。Aswehadtravelledandtalkedwehadforgottenthem。Nowtheywereloomingwithinahundredyards;andourtraillaystraightthroughthem。
“Let’sgoaroundthem,“saidtheVirginian。
Whenwehadcomebackfromourcircuitintothetrailhecontinued:“Youdidnothavethatthingtodo。Butamangoesthroughwithhisresponsibilities——andIreckonyoucould。“
“Ihopeso,“Ianswered。“HowaboutEd?“
“Hewasnotaman,thoughwethoughthewastillthis。SteveandIstartedpunchingcattletogetherattheBordeauxoutfit,northofCheyenne。Wedideverythingtogetherinthosedays——workandplay。Sixyearsago。Stevehadmanygoodpointsonced。“
Wemusthavegonetwomilesbeforehespokeagain。“Youprob’lydidn’tnoticeSteve?Imeanthewayheactedtome?“Itwasaquestion,buthedidnotwaitformyanswer。“Steveneversaidawordtomeallthrough。Heshunnedit。Andyousawhowneighborlyhetalkedtotheotherboys。“
“Wherehavetheyallgone?“Iasked。
Hesmiledatme。“Itcert’nlyislonesomenow,forafact。“
“Ididn’tknowyoufeltit,“saidI。
“Feelit!——they’vewenttotherailroad。ThreeofthemarewitnessesinacaseatEvanston,andtheJudgewantsouroutfitatMedicineBow。Steveshunnedme。DidhethinkIwasgoingbackonhim?“
“Whatifhedid?Youwerenot。Andsonobody’sgoingtoWindRiverbutyou?“
“No。DidyounoticeStevewouldnotgiveusanyinformationaboutShorty?Thatwasright。Iwouldhaveactedthatway,too。“Thus,eachtime,hebroughtmebacktothesubject。
Thesunwasnowshiningwarmduringtwoorthreeminutestogether,andgulfsofblueopenedinthegreatwhiteclouds。
Thesemovedandmetamongeachother,andparted,likehandsspreadout,slowlyweavingaspellofsleepoverthedayafterthewakefulnightstorm。Thehugecontoursoftheearthlaybaskinganddrying,andnotonelivingcreature,birdorbeast,wasinsight。Quietwasreturningtomyrevivedspirits,buttherewasnonefortheVirginian。Andashereasonedmattersoutaloud,hismoodgrewmoreovercast。
“Youhaveafriend,andhiswaysareyourways。Youtraveltogether,youspreetogetherconfidentially,andyousuiteachotherdowntotheground。Thenonedayyoufindhimputtinghisirononanotherman’scalf。Youtellhimfairandsquarethosewayshaveneverbeenyourwaysandain’tgoingtobeyourways。
Well,thatdoesnotchangehimany,foritseemshe’sdisturbedovergettingrichquickandbeingabigmanintheTerritory。Andtheyearsgoon,untilyouareforemanofJudgeHenry’sranchandhe——isdanglingbackinthecottonwoods。Whatcanheclaim?Whomadethechoice?Hecannotsay,’HereismyoldfriendthatI
wouldhavestoodby。’Canhesaythat?“
“Buthedidn’tsayit,“Iprotested。
“No。Heshunnedme。“
“Listen,“Isaid。“Supposewhileyouwereonguardhehadwhispered,’Getmeoff’——wouldyouhavedoneit?“
“No,sir!“saidtheVirginian,hotly。
“Thenwhatdoyouwant?“Iasked。“Whatdidyouwant?“
Hecouldnotanswerme——butIhadnotansweredhim,Isaw;soI
pusheditfarther。“Didyouwantindorsementfromthemanyouwerehanging?That’saskingalittletoomuch。“
Buthehadnowanotherconfusion。“StevestoodbyShorty,“hesaidmusingly。“ItwasShorty’smistakecosthimhislife,butallthesamehedidn’twantustocatch——“
“Youaremixingthings,“Iinterrupted。“Ineverheardyoumixthingsbefore。AnditwasnotShorty’smistake。“
Heshowedmomentaryinterest。“Whosethen?“
“Themistakeofwhoevertookafoolintotheirenterprise。“
“That’scorrect。Well,TrampastookShortyin,andStevewouldnottellonhimeither。“
Istilltriedit,saying,“Theywereallinthesameboat。“Butlogicwasuseless;hehadlosthisbearingsinafogofsentiment。Heknew,knewpassionately,thathehaddoneright;
butthesilenceofhisoldfriendtohimthroughthoselasthoursleftastingthatnoreasoningcouldassuage。“Hetoldgood-bytotherestoftheboys;butnottome。“AndnothingthatIcouldpointoutincommonsenseturnedhimfromthethreadofhisownargument。Heworkedroundthecircleagaintoself-justification。
“WasithimIwasdeserting?WasnotthedesertingdonebyhimthedayIspokemymindaboutstealingcalves?Ihavekeptmywaysthesame。Heistheonethattooktonewones。ThemanI
usedtotravelwithisnotthemanbackthere。Samename,tobesure。Andsamebody。Butdifferentin——andyethehadthememory!
Youcan’tneverchangeyourmemory!“
Hegaveasob。ItwasthefirstIhadeverheardfromhim,andbeforeIknewwhatIwasdoingIhadreinedmyhorseuptohisandputmyarmaroundhisshoulders。Ihadnosoonertouchedhimthanhewasutterlyovercome。“IknewSteveawfulwell,“hesaid。
Thuswehadactuallycometochangeplaces;forearlyinthemorninghehadbeenfirmwhileIwasunnerved,whilenowitwasI
whoattemptedtosteadyandcomforthim。
Ihadthesensetokeepsilent,andpresentlyheshookmyhand,notlookingatmeashedidso。Hewasalwaysveryshyofdemonstration。Andhetooktopattingtheneckofhispony。“YouMontehawss,“saidhe,“youthinkyouarewise,butthere’salotofthingsyoudon’tsavvy。“Thenhemadeanewbeginningoftalkbetweenus。
“ItiskindofpitifulaboutShorty。“
“Verypitiful,“Isaid。“Doyouknowabouthim?“theVirginianasked。
“Iknowthere’snorealharminhim,andsomerealgood,andthathehasnotgotthebrainsnecessarytobeahorsethief。“
“That’sso。That’sverytrue。Trampashasledhimindeeperthanhisstaturecanstand。NowbackEastyoucanbemiddlingandgetalong。ButifyougototryathingoninthisWesterncountry,you’vegottodoitWELL。You’vegottodealcyardsWELL;you’vegottostealWELL;andifyouclaimtobequickwithyourgun,youmustbequick,foryou’reapublictemptation,andsomemanwillnotresisttryingtoproveheisthequicker。YoumustbreakalltheCommandmentsWELLinthisWesterncountry,andShortyshouldhavestayedinBrooklyn,forhewillbeanovicehislivelongdays。Youdon’tknowabouthim?Hehastoldmehiscircumstances。Hedon’trememberhisfather,anditwaslikehecouldhaveclaimedthreeorfour。AndIexpecthismotherwasnotmuchinterestedinhimbeforeorafterhewasborn。Heranaround,andwhenhewaseighteenhegottobehelptoagroceryman。Butagirlheranwithkepttakingallhispayandteasinghimformore,andsoonedaythegrocerymancaughtShortyrobbinghistill,andfiredhim。Therewasn’tnoonetotellgood-byto,forthegirlhadtogotothecountrytoseeheraunt,shesaid。SoShortyhungaroundthestoreandkissedthegrocerycatgood-by。He’dbeenusedtofeedingthecat,andshe’dsitinhislapandpurr,hetoldme。Hesendsmoneybacktothatgirlnow。ThishyehcountryisnocountryforShorty,forhewillbeaconspicuousnoviceallhisdays。“
“Perhapshe’llpreferhonestyafterhisnarrowshave,“Isaid。
ButtheVirginianshookhishead。“Trampashasgotholdofhim。“
Thedaywasnowallblueabove,andallwarmanddrybeneath。Wehadbeguntowindinandriseamongthefirstslopesofthefoot-hills,andwehadtalkedourselvesintosilence。Atthefirstrunningwaterwemadealongnooning,andIsleptonthebareground。MybodywaslodgedsofastanddeepinslumberthatwhentheVirginianshookmeawakeIcouldnotcomebacktolifeatonce;itwastheclumpofcottonwoods,smallandfaroutintheplainbelowus,thatrecalledme。
“It’llnotbewatchingusmuchlonger,“saidtheVirginian。Hemadeitasortofjoke;butIknewthatbothofusweregladwhenpresentlywerodeintoasteepercountry,andamongitsfoldsandcarvingslostallsightoftheplain。Hehadnotslept,Ifound。
Hisexplanationwasthatthepacksneededbetterbalancing,andafterthathehadgoneupanddownthestreamonthechanceoftrout。Buthishauntedeyesgavemetherealreason——theyspokeofSteve,nomatterwhathespokeof;itwastobenoshortthingwithhim。
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