’Yes,yes,’saidLoveday;andtheydescendedintothegarden。
Heretheyturnedoversundryflatstonesandkilledtheslugsshelteredbeneaththemfromthecomingheatoftheday,talkingofslugsinalltheirbranches——ofthebrownandtheblack,ofthetoughandthetender,ofthereasonwhythereweresomanyinthegardenthatyear,ofthecomingtimewhenthegrass-walksharbouringthemweretobetakenupandgravellaid,andoftherelativelyexterminatorymeritsofapairofscissorsandtheheeloftheshoe。
Atlastthemillersaid,’Well,really,Bob,I’mhungry;wemustbeginwithouther。’
Theywereabouttogoin,whenDavidappearedwithhasteinhismotions,hiseyeswiderverticallythancrosswise,andhischeeksnearlyallgone。
’Maister,I’vebeentocallher;andas’adidn’tspeakIrapped,andas’adidn’tanswerIkicked,andnotbeinglatchedthedooropened,and——she’sgone!’
Bobwentofflikeaswallowtowardsthehouse,andthemillerfollowedliketheratherheavymanthathewas。ThatMissMatildawasnotinherroom,orascrapofanythingbelongingtoher,wassoonapparent。Theysearchedeveryplaceinwhichshecouldpossiblyhideorsqueezeherself,everyplaceinwhichshecouldnot,butfoundnothingatall。
CaptainBobwasquitewildwithastonishmentandgrief。Whenhewasquitesurethatshewasnowhereinhisfather’shouse,heranintoMrs。Garland’s,andtellingthemthestorysohastilythattheyhardlyunderstoodtheparticulars,hewentontowardsComfort’shouse,intendingtoraisethealarmthere,andalsoatMitchell’s,Beach’s,Cripplestraw’s,theparson’s,theclerk’s,thecampofdragoons,ofhussars,andsoonthroughthewholecounty。Buthepaused,andthoughtitwouldbehardlyexpedienttopublishhisdiscomfitureinsuchaway。IfMatildahadleftthehouseforanyfreakishreasonhewouldnotcaretolookforher,andifherdeedhadatragicintentshewouldkeepalooffromcampandvillage。
InhistroublehethoughtofAnne。Shewasanicegirlandcouldbetrusted。Toherhewent,andfoundherinastateofexcitementandanxietywhichequalledhisown。
’’Tissolonelytocruiseforherallbymyself!’saidBobdisconsolately,hisforeheadallinwrinkles,’andI’vethoughtyouwouldcomewithmeandcheertheway?’
’Whereshallwesearch?’saidAnne。
’O,intheholesofrivers,youknow,anddownwells,andinquarries,andovercliffs,andlikethat。YoureyesmightcatchtheloomofanybitofashawlorbonnetthatIshouldoverlook,anditwoulddomearealservice。Pleasedocome!’
SoAnnetookpityuponhim,andputonherhatandwent,themillerandDavidhavinggoneoffinanotherdirection。Theyexaminedtheditchesoffields,BobgoingroundbyonefenceandAnnebytheother,tilltheymetattheoppositeside。Thentheypeepedunderculverts,intoouthouses,anddownoldwellsandquarries,tillthetheoryofatragicalendhadnearlyspentitsforceinBob’smind,andhebegantothinkthatMatildahadsimplyrunaway。However,theystillwalkedon,thoughbythistimethesunwashotandAnnewouldgladlyhavesatdown。
’Now,didn’tyouthinkhighlyofher,MissGarland?’heinquired,asthesearchbegantolanguish。
’Oyes,’saidAnne,’veryhighly。’
’Shewasreallybeautiful;nononsenseaboutherlooks,wasthere?’
’None。Herbeautywasthoroughlyripe——nottooyoung。Weshouldallhavegottoloveher。Whatcanhavepossessedhertogoaway?’
’Idon’tknow,and,uponmylife,IshallsoonbedrovetosayI
don’tcare!’repliedthematedespairingly。’Letmepilotyedownoverthosestones,’headded,asAnnebegantodescendaruggedquarry。Hesteppedforward,leaptdown,andturnedtoher。
Shegavehimherhandandsprangdown。Beforeherelinquishedhishold,CaptainBobraisedherfingerstohislipsandkissedthem。
’O,CaptainLoveday!’criedAnne,snatchingawayherhandingenuinedismay,whileatearroseunexpectedlytoeacheye。’Ineverheardofsuchathing!Iwon’tgoaninchfurtherwithyou,sir;itistoobarefaced!’Andsheturnedandranoff。
’UponmylifeIdidn’tmeanit!’saidtherepentantcaptain,hasteningafter。’Idoloveherbest——indeedIdo——andIdon’tloveyouatall!Iamnotsofickleasthat!Imerelyjustforthemomentadmiredyouasasweetlittlecraft,andthat’showIcametodoit。Youknow,MissGarland,’hecontinuedearnestly,andstillrunningafter,’’tislikethis:whenyoucomeashoreafterhavingbeenshutupinashipforeighteenmonths,women-folksseemsonewandnicethatyoucan’thelplikingthem,oneandallinabody;andsoyourheartisapttogetscatteredandtoyawabit;butofcourseIthinkofpoorMatildamost,andshallalwayssticktoher。’
Heheavedasighoftremendousmagnitude,toshowbeyondthepossibilityofdoubtthathisheartwasstillintheplacethathonourrequired。
’Iamgladtohearthat——ofcourseIamveryglad!’saidshe,withquickpetulance,keepingherfaceturnedfromhim。’AndIhopeweshallfindher,andthattheweddingwillnotbeputoff,andthatyou’llbothbehappy。ButIwon’tlookforheranymore!No;I
don’tcaretolookforher——andmyheadaches。Iamgoinghome!’
’AndsoamI,’saidRobertpromptly。
’No,no;goonlookingforher,ofcourse——alltheafternoon,andallnight。Iamsureyouwill,ifyouloveher。’
’Oyes;Imeanto。Still,Ioughttoconvoyyouhomefirst?’
’No,yououghtnot;andIshallnotacceptyourcompany。
Good-morning,sir!’Andshewentoffoveroneofthestonestileswithwhichthespotabounded,leavingthefriendlysailorstandinginthefield。
Hesighedagain,and,observingthecampnotfaroff,thoughthewouldgotohisbrotherJohnandaskhimhisopiniononthesorrowfulcase。OnreachingthetentshefoundthatJohnwasnotatlibertyjustatthattime,beingengagedinpractisingthetrumpeters;andleavingwordthathewishedthetrumpet-majortocomedowntothemillassoonaspossible,Bobwentbackagain。
’’Tisnogoodlookingforher,’hesaidgloomily。’Shelikedmewellenough,butwhenshecamehereandsawthehouse,andtheplace,andtheoldhorse,andtheplainfurniture,shewasdisappointedtofindusallsohomely,andfeltshedidn’tcaretomarryintosuchafamily!’
HisfatherandDavidhadreturnedwithnonews。
’Yes,’tisasI’vebeenthinking,father,’Bobsaid。’Weweren’tgoodenoughforher,andshewentawayinscorn!’
’Well,thatcan’tbehelped,’saidthemiller。’Whatwebe,webe,andhavebeenforgenerations。Tomymindsheseemedgladenoughtogetholdofus!’
’Yes,yes——forthemoment——becauseoftheflowers,andbirds,andwhat’sprettyintheplace,’saidBobtragically。’Butyoudon’tknow,father——howshouldyouknow,whohavehardlybeenoutofOvercombeinyourlife?——youdon’tknowwhatdelicatefeelingsareinarealrefinedwoman’smind。Anylittlevulgaractionunreavestheirnerveslikeamarline-spike。NowIwonderifyoudidanythingtodisgusther?’
’Faith!notthatIknowof,’saidLoveday,reflecting。’Ididn’tsayasinglethingthatIshouldnaturallyhavesaid,onpurposetogivenooffence。’
’Youwasalwaysveryhomely,youknow,father。’
’Yes;soIwas,’saidthemillermeekly。
’Iwonderwhatitcouldhavebeen,’Bobcontinued,wanderingaboutrestlessly。’Youdidn’tgodrinkingoutofthebigmugwithyourmouthfull,orwipeyourlipswithyoursleeve?’
’ThatI’llswearIdidn’t!’saidthemillerfirmly。’ThinksI,there’snoknowingwhatImaydotoshockher,soI’lltakemysolidvictualsinthebakehouse,andonlyacrumbandadropinhercompanyformanners。’
’Youcoulddonomorethanthat,certainly,’saidBobgently。
’Ifmymannersbegoodenoughforwell-brought-uppeopleliketheGarlands,theybegoodenoughforher,’continuedthemiller,withasenseofinjustice。
’That’strue。ThenitmusthavebeenDavid。David,comehere!Howdidyoubehavebeforethatlady?Now,mindyouspeakthetruth!’
’Yes,Mr。CaptainRobert,’saidDavidearnestly。’Iassureyeshewasservedlikearoyalqueen。Thebestsilverspoonswezputdown,andyerpoorgrandfer’ssilvertanket,asyouseed,andthefeathercushionforhertositon——’
’NowI’vegotit!’saidBobdecisively,bringingdownhishanduponthewindow-sill。’Herbedwashard!——andthere’snothingshocksatrueladylikethat。ThebedinthatroomalwayswasashardastheRockofGibraltar!’
’No,CaptainBob!Thebedswerechanged——wasn’ttheymaister?Weputthegoosebedinherroom,andtheflockone,thatusedtobethere,inyours。’
’Yes,wedid,’corroboratedthemiller。’DavidandIchanged’emwithourownhands,becausetheyweretooheavyforthewomentomove。’
’SureIdidn’tknowIhadtheflockbed,’murmuredBob。’Islepton,littlethinkingwhatIwasgoingtowaketo。Well,well,she’sgone;andsearchasIwillIshallneverfindanotherlikeher!Shewastoogoodforme。Shemusthavecarriedherboxwithherownhands,poorgirl。Asfarasthatgoes,Icouldovertakeherevennow,Idaresay;butIwon’tentreatheragainstherwill——notI。’
MillerLovedayandDavid,feelingthemselvestoberatheradesecrationinthepresenceofBob’ssacredemotions,managedtoedgeoffbydegrees,theformerburyinghimselfinthemostflouryrecessesofthemill,hisinvariableresourcewhenperturbed,therumblinghavingasoothingeffectuponthenervesofthoseproperlytrainedtoitsmusic。
Bobwassoimpatientthat,aftergoinguptoherroomtoassurehimselfoncemorethatshehadnotundressed,buthadonlylaindownontheoutsideofthebed,hewentoutofthehousetomeetJohn,andwaitedonthesunnyslopeofthedowntillhisbrotherappeared。
Johnlookedsobraveandshapelyandwarlikethat,eveninBob’spresentdistress,hecouldnotbutfeelanhonestandaffectionateprideatowningsucharelative。YethefanciedthatJohndidnotcomealongwiththesameswingingstephehadshownyesterday;andwhenthetrumpet-majorgotnearerhelookedanxiouslyatthemateandwaitedforhimtospeakfirst。
’Youknowourgreattrouble,John?’saidRobert,gazingstoicallyintohisbrother’seyes。
’Comeandsitdown,andtellmeallaboutit,’answeredthetrumpet-major,showingnosurprise。
Theywenttowardsaslightravine,whereitwaseasiertositdownthanontheflatground,andhereJohnreclinedamongthegrasshoppers,pointingtohisbrothertodothesame。
’Butdoyouknowwhatitis?’saidRobert。’Hasanybodytoldye?’
’Idoknow,’saidJohn。’She’sgone;andIamthankful!’
’What!’saidBob,risingtohiskneesinamazement。
’I’matthebottomofit,’saidthetrumpet-majorslowly。
’You,John?’
’Yes;andifyouwilllistenI’lltellyouall。DoyourememberwhathappenedwhenIcameintotheroomlastnight?Why,sheturnedcolourandnearlyfaintedaway。Thatwasbecausesheknewme。’
Bobstaredathisbrotherwithafaceofpainanddistrust。
’Foronce,Bob,Imustsaysomethingthatwillhurttheeagooddeal,’continuedJohn。’Shewasnotawomanwhocouldpossiblybeyourwife——andsoshe’sgone。’
’Yousentheroff?’
’Well,Idid。’
’John!——Tellmerightthrough——tellme!’
’PerhapsIhadbetter,’saidthetrumpet-major,hisblueeyesrestingonthefardistantsea,thatseemedtoriselikeawallashighasthehilltheysatupon。
AndthenhetoldataleofMissJohnsonandthe——thDragoonswhichwrunghisheartasmuchinthetellingasitdidBob’stohear,andwhichshowedthatJohnhadbeentemporarilycrueltobeultimatelykind。EvenBob,excitedashewas,coulddiscernfromJohn’smannerofspeakingwhataterribleundertakingthatnight’sbusinesshadbeenforhim。Tojustifythecoursehehadadoptedthedictatesofdutymusthavebeenimperative;butthetrumpet-major,withabecomingreticencewhichhisbrotheratthetimewasnaturallyunabletoappreciate,scarcelydweltdistinctlyenoughuponthecompellingcauseofhisconduct。Itwould,indeed,havebeenhardforanyman,muchlesssomodestaoneasJohn,todohimselfjusticeinthatremarkablerelation,whenthelistenerwasthelady’slover;anditisnowonderthatRobertrosetohisfeetandputagreaterdistancebetweenhimselfandJohn。
’Andwhattimewasit?’heaskedinahard,suppressedvoice。
’Itwasjustbeforeoneo’clock。’
’Howcouldyouhelphertogoaway?’
’Ihadapass。Icarriedherboxtothecoach-office。Shewastofollowatdawn。’
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