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  ThereinsslackenedinCharleyGaylord’shandastheydrewupbeforeashowilypaintedhousewithmanygablesandaroundtower。“Hereweare,“hesaid,turningtoEverett,“andIguessweunderstandeachother。“
  Theyweremetatthedoorbyathin,colorlesswoman,whomGaylordintroducedas“mysister,Maggie。“SheaskedherbrothertoshowMr。Hilgardeintothemusicroom,whereKatharinewishedtoseehimalone。
  WhenEverettenteredthemusicroomhegavealittlestartofsurprise,feelingthathehadsteppedfromtheglaringWyomingsunlightintosomeNewYorkstudiothathehadalwaysknown。Hewonderedwhichitwasofthosecountlessstudios,highupundertheroofs,overbanksandshopsandwholesalehouses,thatthisroomresembled,andhelookedincredulouslyoutofthewindowatthegrayplainthatendedinthegreatupheavaloftheRockies。
  Thehauntingairoffamiliarityabouttheroomperplexedhim。Wasitacopyofsomeparticularstudioheknew,orwasitmerelythestudioatmospherethatseemedsoindividualandpoignantlyreminiscenthereinWyoming?Hesatdowninareadingchairandlookedkeenlyabouthim。Suddenlyhiseyefelluponalargephotographofhisbrotherabovethepiano。Thenitallbecamecleartohim:thiswasveritablyhisbrother’sroom。IfitwerenotanexactcopyofoneofthemanystudiosthatAdriancehadfittedupinvariouspartsoftheworld,wearyingofthemandleavingalmostbeforetherenovator’svarnishhaddried,itwasatleastinthesametone。IneverydetailAdriance’stastewassomanifestthattheroomseemedtoexhalehispersonality。
  AmongthephotographsonthewalltherewasoneofKatharineGaylord,takeninthedayswhenEveretthadknownher,andwhentheflashofhereyeortheflutterofherskirtwasenoughtosethisboyishheartinatumult。Evennow,hestoodbeforetheportraitwithacertaindegreeofembarrassment。Itwasthefaceofawomanalreadyoldinherfirstyouth,thoroughlysophisticatedandatriflehard,andittoldofwhatherbrotherhadcalledherfight。Thecamaraderieofherfrank,confidenteyeswasqualifiedbythedeeplinesabouthermouthandthecurveofthelips,whichwasbothsadandcynical。Certainlyshehadmoregoodwillthanconfidencetowardtheworld,andthebravadoofhersmilecouldnotconcealtheshadowofanunrestthatwasalmostdiscontent。Thechiefcharmofthewoman,asEveretthadknownher,layinhersuperbfigureandinhereyes,whichpossessedawarm,lifegivingqualitylikethesunlight;
  eyeswhichglowedwithasortofperpetualsalutattotheworld。Herhead,Everettrememberedaspeculiarlywell-shapedandproudlypoised。Therehadbeenalwaysalittleoftheimperatrixabouther,andherposeinthephotographrevivedallhisoldimpressionsofherunattachedness,ofhowabsolutelyandvaliantlyshestoodalone。
  Everettwasstillstandingbeforethepicture,hishandsbehindhimandhisheadinclined,whenheheardthedooropen。Averytallwomanadvancedtowardhim,holdingoutherhand。Asshestartedtospeak,shecoughedslightly;then,laughing,said,inalow,richvoice,atriflehusky:“YouseeImakethetraditionalCamilleentrance——withthecough。Howgoodofyoutocome,Mr。Hilgarde。“
  Everettwasacutelyconsciousthatwhileaddressinghimshewasnotlookingathimatall,and,asheassuredherofhispleasureincoming,hewasgladtohaveanopportunitytocollecthimself。Hehadnotreckonedupontheravagesofalongillness。
  Thelong,loosefoldsofherwhitegownhadbeenespeciallydesignedtoconcealthesharpoutlinesofheremaciatedbody,butthestampofherdiseasewasthere;simpleanduglyandobtrusive,apitilessfactthatcouldnotbedisguisedorevaded。Thesplendidshoulderswerestooped,therewasaswayingunevennessinhergait,herarmsseemeddisproportionatelylong,andherhandsweretransparentlywhiteandcoldtothetouch。Thechangesinherfacewerelessobvious;theproudcarriageofthehead,thewarm,cleareyes,eventhedelicateflushofcolorinhercheeks,alldefiantlyremained,thoughtheywereallinalowerkey——older,sadder,softer。
  Shesatdownuponthedivanandbegannervouslytoarrangethepillows。“IknowI’mnotaninspiringobjecttolookupon,butyoumustbequitefrankandsensibleaboutthatandgetusedtoitatonce,forwe’venotimetolose。AndifI’matrifleirritableyouwon’tmind?——forI’mmorethanusuallynervous。“
  “Don’tbotherwithmethismorning,ifyouaretired,“urgedEverett。“Icancomequiteaswelltomorrow。“
  “Gracious,no!“sheprotested,withaflashofthatquick,keenhumorthatherememberedasapartofher。“It’ssolitudethatI’mtiredtodeathof——solitudeandthewrongkindofpeople。
  Yousee,theminister,notcontentwithreadingtheprayersforthesick,calledonmethismorning。Hehappenedtoberidingbyonhisbicycleandfeltithisdutytostop。Ofcourse,hedisapprovesofmyprofession,andIthinkhetakesitforgrantedthatIhaveadarkpast。Thefunniestfeatureofhisconversationisthatheisalwaysexcusingmyownvocationtome——condoningit,youknow——andtryingtopatchupmypeacewithmyconsciencebysuggestingpossiblenobleusesforwhathekindlycallsmytalent。“
  Everettlaughed。“Oh!I’mafraidI’mnotthepersontocallaftersuchaseriousgentleman——Ican’tsustainthesituation。
  AtmybestIdon’treachhigherthanlowcomedy。Haveyoudecidedtowhichoneofthenobleusesyouwilldevoteyourself?“
  Katharineliftedherhandsinagestureofrenunciationandexclaimed:“I’mnotequaltoanyofthem,noteventheleastnoble。Ididn’tstudythatmethod。“
  Shelaughedandwentonnervously:“Theparson’snotsobad。
  HisEnglishneveroffendsme,andhehasreadGibbon’sDeclineandFall,allfivevolumes,andthat’ssomething。Then,hehasbeentoNewYork,andthat’sagreatdeal。Buthowwearelosingtime!DotellmeaboutNewYork;Charleysaysyou’rejustonfromthere。Howdoesitlookandtasteandsmelljustnow?IthinkawhiffoftheJerseyferrywouldbeasflagonsofcod-liveroiltome。WhoconspicuouslywalkstheRialtonow,andwhatdoesheorshewear?ArethetreesstillgreeninMadisonSquare,orhavetheygrownbrownanddusty?DoesthechasteDianaontheGardenTheatrestillkeephervestalvowsthroughalltheexasperatingchangesofweather?Whohasyourbrother’soldstudionow,andwhatmisguidedaspirantspracticetheirscalesintherookeriesaboutCarnegieHall?Whatdopeoplegotoseeatthetheaters,andwhatdotheyeatanddrinkthereintheworldnowadays?Yousee,I’mhomesickforitall,fromtheBatterytoRiverside。Oh,letmedieinHarlem!“Shewasinterruptedbyaviolentattackofcoughing,andEverett,embarrassedbyherdiscomfort,plungedintogossipabouttheprofessionalpeoplehehadmetintownduringthesummerandthemusicaloutlookforthewinter。Hewasdiagramingwithhispencil,onthebackofanoldenvelopehefoundinhispocket,somenewmechanicaldevicetobeusedattheMetropolitanintheproductionoftheRheingold,whenhebecameconsciousthatshewaslookingathimintently,andthathewastalkingtothefourwalls。
  Katharinewaslyingbackamongthepillows,watchinghimthroughhalf-closedeyes,asapainterlooksatapicture。Hefinishedhisexplanationvaguelyenoughandputtheenvelopebackinhispocket。Ashedidsoshesaid,quietly:“HowwonderfullylikeAdrianceyouare!“andhefeltasthoughacrisisofsomesorthadbeenmetandtidedover。
  Helaughed,lookingupatherwithatouchofprideinhiseyesthatmadethemseemquiteboyish。“Yes,isn’titabsurd?
  It’salmostasawkwardaslookinglikeNapoleon——but,afterall,therearesomeadvantages。Ithasmadesomeofhisfriendslikeme,andIhopeitwillmakeyou。“
  Katharinesmiledandgavehimaquick,meaningglancefromunderherlashes。“Oh,itdidthatlongago。Whatahaughty,reservedyouthyouwerethen,andhowyouusedtostareatpeopleandthenblushandlookcrossiftheypaidyoubackinyourowncoin。Doyourememberthatnightwhenyoutookmehomefromarehearsalandscarcelyspokeawordtome?“
  “Itwasthesilenceofadmiration,“protestedEverett,“verycrudeandboyish,butverysincereandnotalittlepainful。
  Perhapsyoususpectedsomethingofthesort?Irememberyousawfittobeverygrown-upandworldly。
  “IbelieveIsuspectedapose;theonethatcollegeboysusuallyaffectwithsingers——’anearthenvesselinlovewithastar,’youknow。Butitrathersurprisedmeinyou,foryoumusthaveseenagooddealofyourbrother’spupils。Orhadyouanomnivorouscapacity,andelasticitythatalwaysmettheoccasion?“
  “Don’taskamantoconfessthefolliesofhisyouth,“saidEverett,smilingalittlesadly;“Iamsensitiveaboutsomeofthemevennow。ButIwasnotsosophisticatedasyouimagined。
  Isawmybrother’spupilscomeandgo,butthatwasaboutall。
  SometimesIwascalledontoplayaccompaniments,ortofilloutavacancyatarehearsal,ortoorderacarriageforaninfuriatedsopranowhohadthrownupherpart。Buttheyneverspentanytimeonme,unlessitwastonoticetheresemblanceyouspeakof。“
  “Yes“,observedKatharine,thoughtfully,“Inoticeditthen,too;butithasgrownasyouhavegrownolder。Thatisratherstrange,whenyouhavelivedsuchdifferentlives。It’snotmerelyanordinaryfamilylikenessoffeature,youknow,butasortofinterchangeableindividuality;thesuggestionoftheotherman’spersonalityinyourfacelikeanairtransposedtoanotherkey。ButI’mnotattemptingtodefineit;it’sbeyondme;somethingaltogetherunusualandatrifle——well,uncanny,“
  shefinished,laughing。
  “Iremember,“Everettsaidseriously,twirlingthepencilbetweenhisfingersandlooking,ashesatwithhisheadthrownback,outundertheredwindowblindwhichwasraisedjustalittle,andasitswungbackandforthinthewindrevealedtheglaringpanoramaofthedesert——ablindingstretchofyellow,flatastheseaindeadcalm,splotchedhereandtherewithdeeppurpleshadows;and,beyond,theragged-blueoutlineofthemountainsandthepeaksofsnow,whiteasthewhiteclouds——“I
  remember,whenIwasalittlefellowIusedtobeverysensitiveaboutit。Idon’tthinkitexactlydispleasedme,orthatIwouldhavehaditotherwiseifIcould,butitseemedtomelikeabirthmark,orsomethingnottobelightlyspokenof。PeoplewerenaturallyalwaysfonderofAdthanofme,andIusedtofeelthechillofreflectedlightprettyoften。Itcameintoevenmyrelationswithmymother。Adwentabroadtostudywhenhewasabsurdlyyoung,youknow,andmotherwasallbrokenupoverit。
  Shedidherwholedutybyeachofus,butitwassortofgenerallyunderstoodamongusthatshe’dhavemadeburntofferingsofusallforAdanyday。Iwasalittlefellowthen,andwhenshesataloneontheporchinthesummerdusksheusedsometimestocallmetoherandturnmyfaceupinthelightthatstreamedoutthroughtheshuttersandkissme,andthenIalwaysknewshewasthinkingofAdriance。“