首页 >出版文学> The Tinker’s Wedding>第49章
  Butthoughthetotalwantofsensibilitytopersonalinjury,topersonaldangeranddistress,would,insuchsituations,takeawaythewholemeritofself-command,thatsensibility,however,mayveryeasilybetooexquisite,anditfrequentlyisso。Whenthesenseofpropriety,whentheauthorityofthejudgewithinthebreast,cancontrolthisextremesensibility,thatauthoritymustnodoubtappearverynobleandverygreat。Buttheexertionofitmaybetoofatiguing;itmayhavetoomuchtodo。Theindividual,byagreateffort,maybehaveperfectlywell。Butthecontestbetweenthetwoprinciples,thewarfarewithinthebreast,maybetooviolenttobeatallconsistentwithinternaltranquillityandhappiness。ThewisemanwhomNaturehasendowedwiththistooexquisitesensibility,andwhosetoolivelyfeelingshavenotbeensufficientlybluntedandhardenedbyearlyeducationandproperexercise,willavoid,asmuchasdutyandproprietywillpermit,thesituationsforwhichheisnotperfectlyfitted。Themanwhosefeebleanddelicateconstitutionrendershimtoosensibletopain,tohardship,andtoeverysortofbodilydistress,shouldnotwantonlyembracetheprofessionofasoldier。Themanoftoomuchsensibilitytoinjury,shouldnotrashlyengageinthecontestsoffaction。Thoughthesenseofproprietyshouldbestrongenoughtocommandallthosesensibilities,thecomposureofthemindmustalwaysbedisturbedinthestruggle。Inthisdisorderthejudgmentcannotalwaysmaintainitsordinaryacutenessandprecision;andthoughhemayalwaysmeantoactproperly,hemayoftenactrashlyandimprudently,andinamannerwhichhehimselfwill,inthesucceedingpartofhislife,beforeverashamedof。Acertainintrepidity,acertainfirmnessofnervesandhardinessofconstitution,whethernaturaloracquired,areundoubtedlythebestpreparativesforallthegreatexertionsofself-command。
  Thoughwarandfactionarecertainlythebestschoolsforformingeverymantothishardinessandfirmnessoftemper,thoughtheyarethebestremediesforcuringhimoftheoppositeweaknesses,yet,ifthedayoftrialshouldhappentocomebeforehehascompletelylearnedhislesson,beforetheremedyhashadtimetoproduceitspropereffect,theconsequencesmightnotbeagreeable。
  Oursensibilitytothepleasures,totheamusementsandenjoymentsofhumanlife,mayoffend,inthesamemanner,eitherbyitsexcessorbyitsdefect。Ofthetwo,however,theexcessseemslessdisagreeablethanthedefect。Bothtothespectatorandtothepersonprincipallyconcerned,astrongpropensitytojoyiscertainlymorepleasingthanadullinsensibilitytotheobjectsofamusementanddiversion。Wearecharmedwiththegaietyofyouth,andevenwiththeplayfulnessofchildhood:butwesoongrowwearyoftheflatandtastelessgravitywhichtoofrequentlyaccompaniesoldage。Whenthispropensity,indeed,isnotrestrainedbythesenseofpropriety,whenitisunsuitabletothetimeortotheplace,totheageortothesituationoftheperson,when,toindulgeit,heneglectseitherhisinterestorhisduty;itisjustlyblamedasexcessive,andashurtfulbothtotheindividualandtothesociety。Inthegreaterpartofsuchcases,however,whatischieflytobefoundfaultwithis,notsomuchthestrengthofthepropensitytojoy,astheweaknessofthesenseofproprietyandduty。Ayoungmanwhohasnorelishforthediversionsandamusementsthatarenaturalandsuitabletohisage,whotalksofnothingbuthisbookorhisbusiness,isdislikedasformalandpedantic;andwegivehimnocreditforhisabstinenceevenfromimproperindulgences,towhichheseemstohavesolittleinclination。
  Theprincipleofself-estimationmaybetoohigh,anditmaylikewisebetoolow。Itissoveryagreeabletothinkhighly,andsoverydisagreeabletothinkmeanlyofourselves,that,tothepersonhimself,itcannotwellbedoubted,butthatsomedegreeofexcessmustbemuchlessdisagreeablethananydegreeofdefect。Buttotheimpartialspectator,itmayperhapsbethought,thingsmustappearquitedifferently,andthattohim,thedefectmustalwaysbelessdisagreeablethantheexcess。Andinourcompanions,nodoubt,wemuchmorefrequentlycomplainofthelatterthanoftheformer。Whentheyassumeuponus,orsetthemselvesbeforeus,theirself-estimationmortifiesourown。
  Ourownprideandvanitypromptustoaccusethemofprideandvanity,andweceasetobetheimpartialspectatorsoftheirconduct。Whenthesamecompanions,however,sufferanyothermantoassumeoverthemasuperioritywhichdoesnotbelongtohim,wenotonlyblamethem,butoftendespisethemasmean-spirited。
  When,onthecontrary,amongotherpeople,theypushthemselvesalittlemoreforward,andscrambletoanelevationdisproportioned,aswethink,totheirmerit,thoughwemaynotperfectlyapproveoftheirconduct,weareoften,uponthewhole,divertedwithit;and,wherethereisnoenvyinthecase,wearealmostalwaysmuchlessdispleasedwiththem,thanweshouldhavebeen,hadtheysufferedthemselvestosinkbelowtheirproperstation。
  Inestimatingourownmerit,injudgingofourowncharacterandconduct,therearetwodifferentstandardstowhichwenaturallycomparethem。Theoneistheideaofexactproprietyandperfection,sofarasweareeachofuscapableofcomprehendingthatidea。Theotheristhatdegreeofapproximationtothisideawhichiscommonlyattainedintheworld,andwhichthegreaterpartofourfriendsandcompanions,ofourrivalsandcompetitors,mayhaveactuallyarrivedat。WeveryseldomIamdisposedtothink,weneverattempttojudgeofourselveswithoutgivingmoreorlessattentiontoboththesedifferentstandards。Buttheattentionofdifferentmen,andevenofthesamemanatdifferenttimes,isoftenveryunequallydividedbetweenthem;andissometimesprincipallydirectedtowardstheone,andsometimestowardstheother。
  Sofarasourattentionisdirectedtowardsthefirststandard,thewisestandbestofusall,can,inhisowncharacterandconduct,seenothingbutweaknessandimperfection;
  candiscovernogroundforarroganceandpresumption,butagreatdealforhumility,regretandrepentance。Sofarasourattentionisdirectedtowardsthesecond,wemaybeaffectedeitherintheonewayorintheother,andfeelourselves,eitherreallyabove,orreallybelow,thestandardtowhichwecompareourselves。
  Thewiseandvirtuousmandirectshisprincipalattentiontothefirststandard;theideaofexactproprietyandperfection。
  Thereexistsinthemindofeveryman,anideaofthiskind,graduallyformedfromhisobservationsuponthecharacterandconductbothofhimselfandofotherpeople。Itistheslow,gradual,andprogressiveworkofthegreatdemigodwithinthebreast,thegreatjudgeandarbiterofconduct。Thisideaisineverymanmoreorlessaccuratelydrawn,itscolouringismoreorlessjust,itsoutlinesaremoreorlessexactlydesigned,accordingtothedelicacyandacutenessofthatsensibility,withwhichthoseobservationsweremade,andaccordingtothecareandattentionemployedinmakingthem。Inthewiseandvirtuousmantheyhavebeenmadewiththemostacuteanddelicatesensibility,andtheutmostcareandattentionhavebeenemployedinmakingthem。Everydaysomefeatureisimproved;everydaysomeblemishiscorrected。Hehasstudiedthisideamorethanotherpeople,hecomprehendsitmoredistinctly,hehasformedamuchmorecorrectimageofit,andismuchmoredeeplyenamouredofitsexquisiteanddivinebeauty。Heendeavoursaswellashecan,toassimilatehisowncharactertothisarchetypeofperfection。Butheimitatestheworkofadivineartist,whichcanneverbeequalled。Hefeelstheimperfectsuccessofallhisbestendeavours,andsees,withgriefandaffliction,inhowmanydifferentfeaturesthemortalcopyfallsshortoftheimmortaloriginal。Heremembers,withconcernandhumilation,howoften,fromwantofattention,fromwantofjudgment,fromwantoftemper,hehas,bothinwordsandactions,bothinconductandconversation,violatedtheexactrulesofperfectpropriety;andhassofardepartedfromthatmodel,accordingtowhichhewishedtofashionhisowncharacterandconduct。Whenhedirectshisattentiontowardsthesecondstandard,indeed,thatdegreeofexcellencewhichhisfriendsandacquaintanceshavecommonlyarrivedat,hemaybesensibleofhisownsuperiority。But,ashisprincipalattentionisalwaysdirectedtowardsthefirststandard,heisnecessarilymuchmorehumbledbytheonecomparison,thanheevercanbeelevatedbytheother。Heisneversoelatedastolookdownwithinsolenceevenuponthosewhoarereallybelowhim。Hefeelssowellhisownimperfection,heknowssowellthedifficultywithwhichheattainedhisowndistantapproximationtorectitude,thathecannotregardwithcontemptthestillgreaterimperfectionofotherpeople。Farfrominsultingovertheirinferiority,heviewsitwiththemostindulgentcommiseration,and,byhisadviceaswellasexample,isatalltimeswillingtopromotetheirfurtheradvancement。If,inanyparticularqualification,theyhappentobesuperiortohimforwhoissoperfectasnottohavemanysuperiorsinmanydifferentqualifications?,farfromenvyingtheirsuperiority,he,whoknowshowdifficultitistoexcel,esteemsandhonourstheirexcellence,andneverfailstobestowuponitthefullmeasureofapplausewhichitdeserves。Hiswholemind,inshort,isdeeplyimpressed,hiswholebehaviouranddeportmentaredistinctlystampedwiththecharacterofrealmodesty;withthatofaverymoderateestimationofhisownmerit,and,atthesametime,ofafullsenseofthemeritofotherpeople。
  Inalltheliberalandingeniousarts,inpainting,inpoetry,inmusic,ineloquence,inphilosophy,thegreatartistfeelsalwaystherealimperfectionofhisownbestworks,andismoresensiblethananymanhowmuchtheyfallshortofthatidealperfectionofwhichhehasformedsomeconception,whichheimitatesaswellashecan,butwhichhedespairsofeverequalling。Itistheinferiorartistonly,whoiseverperfectlysatisfiedwithhisownperformances。Hehaslittleconceptionofthisidealperfection,aboutwhichhehaslittleemployedhisthoughts;anditischieflytotheworksofotherartists,of,perhaps,astilllowerorder,thathedeignstocomparehisownworks。Boileau,thegreatFrenchpoetinsomeofhisworks,perhapsnotinferiortothegreatestpoetofthesamekind,eitherancientormodern,usedtosay,thatnogreatmanwasevercompletelysatisfiedwithhisownworks。HisacquaintanceSanteuilawriterofLatinverses,andwho,onaccountofthatschoolboyaccomplishment,hadtheweaknesstofancyhimselfapoet,assuredhim,thathehimselfwasalwayscompletelysatisfiedwithhisown。Boileaureplied,with,perhaps,anarchambiguity,thathecertainlywastheonlygreatmanthateverwasso。Boileau,injudgingofhisownworks,comparedthemwiththestandardofidealperfection,which,inhisownparticularbranchofthepoeticart,hehad,Ipresume,meditatedasdeeply,andconceivedasdistinctly,asitispossibleformantoconceiveit。Santeuil,injudgingofhisownworks,comparedthem,I
  suppose,chieflytothoseoftheotherLatinpoetsofhisowntime,tothegreaterpartofwhomhewascertainlyveryfarfrombeinginferior。Buttosupportandfinishoff,ifImaysayso,theconductandconversationofawholelifetosomeresemblanceofthisidealperfection,issurelymuchmoredifficultthantoworkuptoanequalresemblanceanyoftheproductionsofanyoftheingeniousarts。Theartistsitsdowntohisworkundisturbed,atleisure,inthefullpossessionandrecollectionofallhisskill,experience,andknowledge。Thewisemanmustsupporttheproprietyofhisownconductinhealthandinsickness,insuccessandindisappointment,inthehouroffatigueanddrowsyindolence,aswellasinthatofthemostawakenedattention。Themostsuddenandunexpectedassaultsofdifficultyanddistressmustneversurprisehim。Theinjusticeofotherpeoplemustneverprovokehimtoinjustice。Theviolenceoffactionmustneverconfoundhim。Allthehardshipsandhazardsofwarmustnevereitherdisheartenorappalhim。
  Ofthepersonswho,inestimatingtheirownmerit,injudgingoftheirowncharacterandconduct,directbyfarthegreaterpartoftheirattentiontothesecondstandard,tothatordinarydegreeofexcellencewhichiscommonlyattainedbyotherpeople,therearesomewhoreallyandjustlyfeelthemselvesverymuchaboveit,andwho,byeveryintelligentandimpartialspectator,areacknowledgedtobeso。Theattentionofsuchpersons,however,beingalwaysprincipallydirected,nottothestandardofideal,buttothatofordinaryperfection,theyhavelittlesenseoftheirownweaknessesandimperfections;theyhavelittlemodesty;areoftenassuming,arrogant,andpresumptuous;greatadmirersofthemselves,andgreatcontemnersofotherpeople。