andmanyyearsagoIgaveitasalovegagetoayouthtowhomI
promisedmyselfinmarriage。
Doubtlessallyourtaleistruealso,sir,andIthankyouforyourcourtesyinbringingitsofar。
Itisasadtale,averysadtale。
Andnow,sir,asImaynotaskyoutostayinthishousewhereIlivealone,andthereisnoinnnear,Iproposetosendservingmentoconductyoutomybrother’sdwellingthatissomethingmorethanamileaway,ifindeed,’sheaddedslowly,’youdonotalreadyknowthepath!
Thereyouwillfindentertainment,andtherethesisterofyourdeadcompanion,MaryBozard,willbegladtolearnthestoryofhisstrangeadventuresfromyourlips。’
Ibowedmyheadandanswered,’First,senora,Iwouldprayyouranswertomyfriend’sdyingprayerandmessage。’
’Itischildishtosendanswerstothedead。’
’StillIprayforthemasIwaschargedtodo。’
’Howreadsthewritingwithinthisring,sir?’
’Hearttoheart,Thoughfarapart,’
Isaidglibly,andnextinstantIcouldhavebittenoutmytongue。
’Ah!youknowthatalso,butdoubtlessyouhavecarriedtheringformanymonthsandlearnedthewriting。
Well,sir,thoughwewerefarapart,andthoughperchanceIcherishedthememoryofhimwhoworethisring,andforhissakeremainedunwed,itseemsthathisheartwentastraying——tothebreastindeedofsomesavagewomanwhomhemarried,andwhoborehimchildren。
Thatbeingso,myanswertotheprayerofyourdeadfriendisthatIforgivehimindeed,butImustneedstakebackthevowswhichIsworetohimforthislifeandforever,sincehehasbrokenthem,andasbestI
may,strivetocastouttheloveIborehimsinceherejectedanddishonouredit,’andstandingupLilymadeasthoughshetoreatherbreastandthrewsomethingfromher,andatthesametimesheletfalltheringuponthefloor。
Iheardandmyheartstoodstill。
Sothiswastheendofit。
Well,shehadtherightofme,thoughnowIbegantowishthatI
hadbeenlesshonest,forsometimeswomencanforgivealiesoonerthansuchfrankness。
Isaidnothing,mytonguewastied,butagreatmiseryandwearinessenteredintome。
StoopingdownIfoundthering,andreplacingitonmyfinger,Iturnedtoseekthedoorwithalastglanceatthewomanwhorefusedme。
HalfwaythitherI
pausedforonesecond,wonderingifIshoulddowelltodeclaremyself,thenbethoughtmethatifshewouldnotabateherangertowardmedead,herpityformelivingwouldbesmall。
Nay,Iwasdeadtoher,anddeadIwouldremain。
NowIwasatthedoorandmyfootwasonitsstep,whensuddenlyavoice,Lily’svoice,soundedinmyearsanditwassweetandkind。
’Thomas,’saidthevoice,’Thomas,beforeyougo,willyounottakecountofthegoldandgoodsandlandthatyouplacedinmykeeping?’
NowIturnedamazed,andlo!Lilycametowardsmeslowlyandwithoutstretchedarms。
’Oh!foolishman,’shewhisperedlow,’didyouthinktodeceiveawoman’sheartthusclumsily?
YouwhotalkedofthebeechintheHallgarden,youwhofoundyourwaysowelltothisdarkchamber,andspokethewritingintheringwiththeveryvoiceofonewhohasbeendeadsolong。
Listen:Iforgivethatfriendofyourshisbrokentroth,forhewashonestinthetellingofhisfaultanditishardformantolivealonesomanyyears,andinstrangecountriescomestrangeadventures;moreover,Iwillsayit,Istilllovehimasitseemsthathelovesme,thoughintruthIgrowsomewhatoldforlove,whohavelingeredlongwaitingtofinditbeyondmygrave。
ThusLilyspoke,sobbingasshespoke,thenmyarmsclosedroundherandshesaidnomore。
AndyetasourlipsmetIthoughtofOtomie,rememberingherwords,andrememberingalsothatshehaddiedbyherownhandonthisverydayayearago。
Letuspraythatthedeadhavenovisionoftheliving!
Andnowthereislittleleftformetotellandmytaledrawstoitsend,forwhichIamthankful,forIamveryoldandwritingisawearinesstome,sogreatawearinessindeedthatmanyatimeduringthepastwinterIhavebeenneartoabandoningthetask。
ForawhileLilyandIsatalmostsilentinthissameroomwhereI
writeto-day,forourgreatjoyandmanyanotheremotionthatwasmixedwithit,cloggedourtongues。
Thenasthoughmovedbyoneimpulse,wekneltdownandofferedourhumblethankstoheaventhathadpreservedusbothtothisstrangemeeting。
Scarcelyhadwerisenfromourkneeswhentherewasastirwithoutthehouse,andpresentlyabuxomdameentered,followedbyagallantgentleman,alad,andamaiden。
TheseweremysisterMary,herhusbandWilfredBozard,Lily’sbrother,andtheirtwosurvivingchildren,RogerandJoan。
WhensheguessedthatitwasIcomehomeagainandnoother,LilyhadsentthemtidingsbytheservantmanJohn,thatonewaswithherwhomshebelievedtheywouldbegladtosee,andtheyhadhurriedhither,notknowingwhomtheyshouldfind。
Norweretheymuchthewiseratfirst,forIwasmuchchangedandthelightintheroomshonedim,butstoodperplexed,wonderingwhothisstrangermightbe。
’Mary,’Isaidatlength,’Mary,doyounotrememberme,mysister?’
Thenshecriedaloud,andthrowingherselfintomyarms,sheweptthereawhile,aswouldanyofuswereourbeloveddeadsuddenlytoappearbeforeoureyes,aliveandwell,andherhusbandclaspedmebythehandandsworeheartilyinhisamazement,asisthefashionofsomemenwhentheyaremoved。
ButthechildrenstoodstaringblanklytillIcalledthegirltome,whonowwasmuchwhathermotherhadbeenwhenweparted,andkissingher,toldherthatI
wasthatuncleofwhomperhapsshehadheardasdeadmanyyearsago。
Thenmyhorse,thatallthiswhilehadbeenforgotten,havingbeencaughtandstabled,wewenttosupperanditwasastrangemealtome,andaftermeatIaskedfortidings。
NowIlearnedthatthefortunewhichmyoldmasterFonsecahadlefttomecamehomeinsafety,andthatithadprosperedexceedinglyunderLily’scare,forshehadspentbutverylittleofitforhermaintenance,lookingonitalwaysasatrustratherthanasherown。
WhenmydeathseemedcertainmysisterMaryhadenteredonhershareofmypossessions,however,andwithithadpurchasedsomeoutlyinglandsinEarshamandHedenham,andthewoodandmanorofTyndaleHallinDitchinghamandBroome。
TheselandsImadehastetosayshemightkeepasagiftfromme,sinceitseemedthatIhadgreaterrichesthanIcouldneedwithoutthem,andthissayingofminepleasedherhusbandWilfredBozardnotalittle,seeingthatitishardforamantogiveupwhathehasheldformanyyears。
ThenIheardtherestofthestory;ofmyfather’ssuddendeath,ofhowthecomingofthegoldhadsavedLilyfrombeingforcedintomarriagewithmybrotherGeoffrey,whoafterwardshadtakentoevilcourseswhichendedinhisdeceaseattheageofthirty-one;oftheendofSquireBozard,Lily’sfatherandmyoldenemy,fromanapoplexywhichtookhiminasuddenfitofanger。
Afterthisitseemed,herbrotherbeingmarriedtomysisterMary,LilyhadmoveddowntotheLodge,havingpaidoffthechargesthatmybrotherGeoffreyhadheapeduponhisheritage,andboughtoutmysister’srightstoit。
AndhereattheLodgeshehadlivedeversince,asadandlonelywoman,andyetnotaltogetheranunhappyone,forshegavemuchofhertimetogoodworks。
Indeedshetoldmethathaditnotbeenforthewidelandsandmoneyswhichshemustmanageasmyheiress,shewouldhavebetakenherselftoasisterhood,theretowearherlifeawayinpeace,sinceIbeinglosttoher,andindeeddead,asshewasassured,——forthenewsofthewreckofthecarakfounditswaytoDitchingham,——shenolongerthoughtofmarriage,thoughmorethanonegentlemanofconditionhadsoughtherhand。
This,withsomeminormatters,suchasthebirthanddeathofchildren,andthestoryofthegreatstormandfloodthatsmoteBungay,andindeedthelengthofthevaleofWaveneyinthosedays,wasallthetalethattheyhadtotellwhohadgrownfromyouthtomiddleageinquiet。
Forofthecrowningandendofkingsandofmatterspolitic,suchasthedownfallofthepowerofthePopeofRomeandthesackingofthereligioushouseswhichwasstillinprogress,Imakenomentionhere。
Butnowtheycalledformine,andIbeganitatthebeginning,anditwasstrangetoseetheirfacesastheylistened。
Allnightlong,tillthethrushessangdownthenightingales,andthedawnshoneintheeast,IsatatLily’ssidetellingthemmystory,andthenitwasnotfinished。
Sowesleptinthechambersthathadbeenmadereadyforus,andonthemorrowItookitupagain,showingthemtheswordthathadbelongedtoBernalDiaz,thegreatnecklaceofemeraldswhichGuatemochadgiventome,andcertainscarsandwoundsinwitnessofitstruth。
NeverdidIseefolksomuchamazed,andwhenIcametospeakofthelastsacrificeofthewomenoftheOtomie,andofthehorridendofdeGarciawhodiedfightingwithhisownshadow,orratherwiththeshadowsofhisownwickedness,theycriedaloudwithfear,astheyweptwhenItoldofthedeathsofIsabelladeSiguenzaandofGuatemoc,andofthelossofmysons。
ButIdidnottellallthestorytothiscompany,forsomeofitwasforLily’searalone,andtoherIspokeofmydealingswithOtomieasamanmightspeakwithaman,forIfeltthatifIkeptanythingbacknowtherewouldneverbecompletefaithbetweenus。
ThereforeIsetoutallmydoubtsandtroublings,nordidIhidethatIhadlearnedtoloveOtomie,andthatherbeautyandsweetnesshaddrawnmefromthefirstmomentwhenIsawherinthecourtofMontezuma,orthatwhichhadpassedbetweenusonthestoneofsacrifice。
WhenIhaddoneLilythankedmeformyhonestyandsaiditseemedthatinsuchmattersmendifferedfromwomen,seeingthatSHEhadneverfelttheneedtobedeliveredfromthetemptationofstrangeloves。
StillwewereasGodandNaturehadmadeus,andthereforehadlittlerighttoreproacheachother,oreventosetthatdownasvirtuewhichwasbutlackofleaning。
Moreover,thisOtomie,hersinofheathenismnotwithstanding,hadbeenagreat-heartedwomanandonewhomightwelldazzlethewanderingeyesofman,daringmoreforherlove’ssakethanevershe,Lily,couldhavedared;andtoendwith,itwasclearthatatlastImustchoosebetweenweddingherandaspeedydeath,andhavingswornsogreatanoathtoherIshouldhavebeenperjuredindeedifIhadleftherwhenmydangersweregoneby。
Thereforeshe,Lily,wasmindedtoletallthismatterrest,norshouldshebejealousifIstillthoughtofthisdeadwifeofminewithtenderness。
Thusshespokemostsweetly,lookingatmethewhilewithherclearandearnesteyes,thatIeverfanciedmustbesuchasadorntheshiningfacesofangels。
Ay,andthosesameeyesofherswerefilledwithtearswhenItoldhermybittergriefoverthedeathofmyfirstbornandofmyotherbereavements。
Foritwasnottillsomeyearsafterwards,whenshehadabandonedfurtherhopeofchildren,thatLilygrewjealousofthosedeadsonsofmineandofmyeverpresentloveforthem。
NowthetidingsofmyreturnandofmystrangeadventuresamongthenationsoftheIndieswerenoisedabroadfarandwide,andpeoplecamefrommilesround,ay,evenfromNorwichandYarmouth,toseemeandIwaspressedtotellmytaletillIgrewwearyofit。
AlsoaserviceofthanksgivingformysafedeliverancefrommanydangersbylandandseawasheldinthechurchofSt。Mary’shereinDitchingham,whichservicewasnolongercelebratedaftertheritesoftheRomishfaith,forwhileIhadsojournedafar,thesaintswerefallenliketheAztecgods;theyokeofRomehadbeenbrokenfromofftheneckofEngland,andthoughalldonotthinkwithme,Iforonerejoicedatitheartilywhohadseenenoughofpriestcraftanditscruelties。
Whenthatceremonywasoverandallpeoplehadgonetotheirhomes,IcamebackagaintotheemptychurchfromtheHall,whereIabodeawhileastheguestofmysisterandherhusband,tillLilyandI
werewed。
AndthereinthequietlightoftheJuneeveningIkneltinthechancelupontherushesthatstrewedthegraveofmyfatherandmymother,andsentmyspirituptowardsthemintheplaceoftheireternalrest,andtotheGodwhoguardsthem。
AgreatcalmcameuponmeasIkneltthus,andIfelthowmadhadbeenthatoathofminethatasaladIhadsworntobeavengedupondeGarcia,andI
sawhowasatreefromaseed,allmysorrowshadgrownfromit。
ButeventhenIcouldnotdootherthanhatedeGarcia,no,norcanItothishour,andafterallitwasnaturalthatIshoulddesirevengeanceonthemurdererofmymotherthoughthewreakingofithadbestbeenleftinanotherHand。
WithoutthelittlechanceldoorImetLily,whowaslingeringthereknowingmetobewithin,andwespoketogether。
’Lily,’Isaid,’Iwouldaskyousomething。
Afterallthathasbeen,willyoustilltakemeforyourhusband,unworthyasIam?’
’Ipromisedsotodomanyayearago,Thomas,’sheanswered,speakingverylow,andblushinglikethewildrosethatbloomeduponagravebesideher,’andIhaveneverchangedmymind。
IndeedformanyyearsIhavelookeduponyouasmyhusband,thoughI
thoughtyoudead。’
’PerhapsitismorethanIdeserve,’Isaid。
’butifitistobe,saywhenitshallbe,foryouthhasleftusandwehavelittletimetolose。’
’Whenyouwill,Thomas,’sheanswered,placingherhandinmine。
Withinaweekfromthateveningwewerewed。
Andnowmytaleisdone。
Godwhogavemesosadandtroublousayouthandearlymanhood,hasblessedmebeyondmeasureinmymiddleageandeld。
AlltheseeventsofwhichIhavewrittenatsuchlengthweredonewithmanyadayago:thehornbeamsaplingthatI
setbeneaththesewindowsintheyearwhenweweremarriedisnowagoodlytreeofshadeandstillIlivetolookonit。
HereinthehappyvalleyoftheWaveney,saveformybittermemoriesandthatlongingforthedeadwhichnotimecansomuchasdull,yearafteryearhasrolledovermysilveringhairsinperfecthealthandpeaceandrest,andyearbyyearhaveIrejoicedmoredeeplyinthetrueloveofawifesuchasfewhaveknown。
Foritwouldseemasthoughtheheart-acheanddespairofyouthhadbutsweetenedthatmostnoblenaturetillitgrewwellnighdivine。
Butonesorrowcametous,thedeathofourinfantchild——foritwasfatedthatIshoulddiechildless——andinthatsorrow,asIhavetold,Lilyshewedthatshewasstillawoman。
Fortherestnoshadowlaybetweenus。
Handinhandwepasseddownthehilloflife,tillatlengthinthefulnessofherdaysmywifewastakenfromme。
OneChristmasnightshelaydowntosleepatmyside,inthemorningshewasdead。
grievedindeedandbitterly,butthesorrowwasnotasthesorrowsofmyyouthhadbeen,sinceageandusedulltheedgeofmortalgriefsandIknewandknowthatwearenolongspaceapart。
VerysoonIshalljoinLilywheresheis,andIdonotfearthatjourney。
Forthedreadofdeathhasleftmeatlength,asitdepartsfromallwholivelongenoughandstrivetorepentthemoftheirsins,andIamwellcontenttoleavemysafetyattheGatesandmyheavenlycomfortintheAlmightyHandthatsavedmefromthestoneofsacrificeandhasguidedmethroughsomanyperilsuponthistroubledearth。
AndnowtoGodmyFather,Whoholdsme,ThomasWingfield,andallI
havelovedandloveinHisholykeeping,bethanksandgloryandpraise!
Amen。
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