welcomemydeath,forIhavelivedtoknowshameanddefeatandtorture,andtoseemypeopletheslavesoftheTeule,butstillI
saythatGodwillrewardyouforthisdeed。’
Thentheymurderedhiminthemidstofagreatsilence。
AndsofarewelltoGuatemoc,themostbrave,thebestandthenoblestIndianthateverbreathed,andmaytheshadowofhistormentingsandshamefulendliedeepuponthefameofCortesforsolongasthenamesofbothofthemarerememberedamongmen!
FortwomoremonthsIjourneyedhomewardandatlengthIreachedtheCityofPines,wellthoughwearied,andhavinglostonlyfortymenbyvariousmisadventuresoftravel,tofindOtomieingoodhealth,andoverjoyedtoknowmesafewhomshethoughtnevertoseeagain。
ButwhenItoldherwhatwastheendofhercousinGuatemocshegrievedbitterly,bothforhissakeandbecausethelasthopeoftheAztecwasgone,andshewouldnotbecomfortedformanydays。
FormanyyearsafterthedeathofGuatemocIlivedwithOtomieatpeaceintheCityofPines。
Ourcountrywaspoorandrugged,andthoughwedefiedtheSpaniardsandpaidthemnotribute,nowthatCorteshadgonebacktoSpain,theyhadnohearttoattemptourconquest。
Savesomefewtribesthatlivedindifficultplaceslikeourselves,allAnahuacwasintheirpower,andtherewaslittletogainexcepthardblowsinthebringingofaremnantofthepeopleoftheOtomiebeneaththeiryoke,sotheyletusbetillamoreconvenientseason。
IsayofaremnantoftheOtomie,forastimewentonmanyclanssubmittedtotheSpaniards,tillatlengthweruledovertheCityofPinesaloneandsomeleaguesofterritoryaboutit。
IndeeditwasonlyloveforOtomieandrespectfortheshadowofherancientraceandname,togetherwithsomereverenceformeasoneoftheunconquerablewhitemen,andformyskillasageneral,thatkeptourfollowingtogether。
AndnowitmaybeaskedwasIhappyinthoseyears?
Ihadmuchtomakemehappy——nomancouldhavebeenblessedwithawifemorebeautifulandloving,noronewhohadexampledheraffectionbymoresignaldeedsofsacrifice。
Thiswomanofherownfreewillhadlainbymysideonthestoneofslaughter;overridingtheinstinctsofhersexshehadnotshrunkfromdippingherhandsinbloodtosecuremysafety,herwithadrescuedmeinmanyatrouble,herlovehadconsoledmeinmanyasorrow:surelythereforeifgratitudecanconquertheheartofman,mineshouldhavebeenatherfeetforeverandaday,andsoindeeditwas,andinasenseisstill。
Butcangratitude,canloveitself,oranypassionthatrulesoursouls,makeamanforgetthehousewherehewasborn?
CouldI,anIndianchiefstrugglingwithafallenpeopleagainstaninevitabledestiny,forgetmyyouthandallitshopesandfears,couldIforgetthevalleyoftheWaveneyandthatFlowerwhodwelttherein,andforswornthoughImightbe,couldIforgettheoaththatIoncehadsworn?
Chancehadbeenagainstme,circumstancesoverpoweredme,andIthinkthattherearefewwho,couldtheyreadthisstory,wouldnotfindinitexcuseforallthatIhaddone。
Certainlythereareveryfewwho,standingwhereIstood,surroundedasIwasbydoubts,difficulties,anddangers,wouldnothaveactedasIdid。
Andyetmemorywouldriseupagainstme,andtimeupontimeIwouldlieawakeatnight,evenbythesideofOtomie,andrememberandrepent,ifamanmayrepentofthatoverwhichhehasnocontrol。
ForIwasastrangerinastrangeland,andthoughmyhomewasthereandmychildrenwereaboutme,thelongingformyotherhomewasyetwithme,andIcouldnotputawaythememoryofthatLilywhomIhadlost。
Herringwasstilluponmyhand,butnothingelseofherremainedtome。
Ididnotknowifsheweremarriedorsingle,livingordead。
Thegulfbetweenuswidenedwiththewideningyears,butstillthethoughtofherwentwithmelikemyshadow;itshoneacrossthestormyloveofOtomie,Irememberediteveninmychildren’skiss。
AndworstofallIdespisedmyselffortheseregrets。
Nay,iftheworstcanhaveaworse,therewasonehere,forthoughsheneverspokeofit,IfearedthatOtomiehadreadmymind。
Hearttoheart,Thoughfarapart,
soranthewritinguponLily’sbetrothalring,andsoitwaswithme。
Farapartwewereindeed,sofarthatnobridgethatImightimaginecouldjointhatdistance,andyetIcouldnotsaythatwehadceasedfrombeing’hearttoheart。’
Herheartmightthrobnomore,butminebeatstilltowardit。
Acrosstheland,acrossthesea,acrossthegulfofdeath——ifsheweredead——stillinsecretmustIdesirethelovethatIhadforsworn。
Andsotheyearsrolledon,bringinglittleofchangewiththem,tillIgrewsurethathereinthisfarplaceIshouldliveanddie。
Butthatwasnottobemyfate。
Ifanyshouldreadthis,thestoryofmyearlylife,hewillrememberthatthetaleofthedeathofacertainIsabelladeSiguenzaispiecedintoitsmotley。
HewillrememberhowthisIsabella,inthelastmomentsofherlife,calleddownacurseuponthatholyfatherwhoaddedoutrageandinsulttohertorment,prayingthathemightalsodiebythehandsoffanaticsandinaworsefashion。
Ifmymemorydoesnotplaymefalse,Ihavesaidthatthisindeedcametopass,andverystrangely。
ForaftertheconquestofAnahuacbyCortes,amongothersthissamefierypriestcamefromSpaintoturntheIndianstotheloveofGodbytormentandbysword。
Indeed,ofallofthosewhoenteredonthismissionofpeace,hewasthemostzealous。
TheIndianpabaswroughtcrueltiesenoughwhen,tearingoutthevictim’sheart,theyoffereditlikeincensetoHuitzelortoQuetzal,buttheyatleastdismissedhissoultotheMansionsoftheSun。
WiththeChristianprieststhethumb-screwandthestaketooktheplaceofthestoneofsacrifice,butthesoulwhichtheydeliveredfromitsearthlybondagetheyconsignedtotheHouseofHell。
OfthesepriestsacertainFatherPedrowastheboldestandthemostcruel。
Toandfrohepassed,markinghispathwiththecorpsesofidolaters,untilheearnedthenameofthe’ChristianDevil。’
Atlengthheventuredtoofarinhisholyfervour,andwasseizedbyaclanoftheOtomiethathadbrokenfromourruleuponthisveryquestionofhumansacrifice,butwhichwasnotyetsubjugatedbytheSpaniards。
Oneday,itwaswhenwehadruledforsomefourteenyearsintheCityofPines,itcametomyknowledgethatthepabasofthisclanhadcapturedaChristianpriest,anddesignedtoofferhimtothegodTezcat。
Attendedbyasmallguardonly,Ipassedrapidlyacrossthemountains,purposingtovisitthecaciqueofthisclanwithwhom,althoughhehadcastoffhisallegiancetous,Istillkeptupashowoffriendship,andifIcould,topersuadehimtoreleasethepriest。
ButswiftlyasItravelledthevengeanceofthepabashadbeenmoreswift,andIarrivedatthevillageonlytofindthe’ChristianDevil’intheactofbeingledtosacrificebeforetheimageofahideousidolthatwassetuponastakeandsurroundedwithpilesofskulls。
Nakedtothewaist,hishandsboundbehindhim,hisgrizzledlockshangingabouthisbreast,hiskeeneyesfixeduponthefacesofhisheathenfoesinmenaceratherthaninsupplicationhisthinlipsmutteringprayers,FatherPedropassedontotheplaceofhisdoom,nowandagainshakinghisheadfiercelytofreehimselffromthetormentoftheinsectswhichbuzzedaboutit。
Ilookeduponhimandwondered。
Ilookedagainandknew。
SuddenlythererosebeforemymindavisionofthatgloomyvaultinSeville,ofawoman,youngandlovely,drapedincerements,andofathin-
facedblack-robedfriarwhosmoteheruponthelipswithhisivorycrucifixandcursedherforablasphemingheretic。
Therebeforemewastheman。
IsabelladeSiguenzahadprayedthatafateliketoherownfateshouldbefallhim,anditwasuponhimnow。
Norindeed,rememberingallthathadbeen,wasImindedtoavertit,evenifithadbeeninmypowertodoso。
Istoodbyandletthevictimpass,butashepassedIspoketohiminSpanish,saying:
’Rememberthatwhichitmaywellbeyouhaveforgotten,holyfather,remembernowthedyingprayerofIsabelladeSiguenzawhommanyyearsagoyoudidtodeathinSeville。’
Themanheardme;heturnedlividbeneathhisbronzedskinandstaggereduntilIthoughtthathewouldhavefallen。
Hestareduponme,withterrorinhiseye,toseeashebelievedacommonsightenough,thatofanIndianchiefrejoicingatthedeathofoneofhisoppressors。
’Whatdevilareyou,’hesaidhoarsely,’sentfromhelltotormentmeatthelast?’
’RememberthedyingprayerofIsabelladeSiguenza,whomyoustruckandcursed,’Iansweredmocking。
’SeeknottoknowwhenceIam,butrememberthisonly,nowandforever。’
Foramomenthestoodstill,heedlessoftheurgingsofhistormentors。
Thenhiscouragecametohimagain,andhecriedwithagreatvoice:’Gettheebehindme,Satan,whathaveItofearfromthee?
Irememberthatdeadsinnerwell——mayhersoulhavepeace——
andhercursehasfallenuponme。
Irejoicethatitshouldbeso,foronthefurthersideofyonderstonethegatesofheavenopentomysight。
Gettheebehindme,Satan,whathaveItofearfromthee?’
Cryingthushestaggeredforwardsaying,’OGod,intoThyhandI
commendmyspirit!’
Mayhissoulhavepeacealso,forifhewascruel,atleasthewasbrave,anddidnotshrinkbeneaththosetormentswhichhehadinflictedonmanyothers。
Nowthiswasalittlematter,butitsresultswerelarge。
HadI
savedFatherPedrofromthehandsofthepabasoftheOtomie,itislikelyenoughthatIshouldnotto-daybewritingthishistoryhereinthevalleyoftheWaveney。
IdonotknowifIcouldhavesavedhim,IonlyknowthatIdidnottry,andthatbecauseofhisdeathgreatsorrowscameuponme。
WhetherIwasrightorwrong,whocansay?
ThosewhojudgemystorymaythinkthatinthisasinothermattersIwaswrong;hadtheyseenIsabelladeSiguenzadiewithinherlivingtomb,certainlytheywouldholdthatIwasright。
Butforgoodorill,matterscameaboutasIhavewritten。
Anditcameaboutalso,thatthenewviceroysentfromSpainwasstirredtoangeratthemurderofthefriarbytherebelliousandheathenpeopleoftheOtomie,andsethimselftotakevengeanceonthetribethatwroughtthedeed。
SoontidingsreachedmethatagreatforceofTlascalanandotherIndianswerebeingcollectedtoputanendtous,rootandbranch,andthatwiththemmarchedmorethanahundredSpaniards,theexpeditionbeingunderthecommandofnoneotherthantheCaptainBernalDiaz,thatsamesoldierwhomIhadsparedintheslaughterofthenochetriste,andwhoseswordtothisdayhungatmyside。
Nowwemustneedsprepareourdefence,forouronlyhopelayinboldness。
OncebeforetheSpaniardshadattackeduswiththousandsoftheirallies,andoftheirnumberbutfewhadlivedtolookagainonthecampofCortes。
Whathadbeendonecouldbedoneasecondtime——sosaidOtomieintheprideofherunconquerableheart。
Butalas!infourteenyearsthingshadchangedmuchwithus。
Fourteenyearsagoweheldswayoveragreatdistrictofmountains,whoserudeclanswouldsenduptheirwarriorsinhundredsatourcall。
Nowtheseclanshadbrokenfromouryoke,whichwasacknowledgedbythepeopleoftheCityofPinesaloneandthoseofsomeadjacentvillages。
WhentheSpaniardscamedownonmethefirsttime,Iwasabletomusteranarmyoftenthousandsoldierstoopposethem,nowwithmuchtoilIcouldcollectnomorethanbetweentwoandthreethousandmen,andofthesesomeslippedawayasthehourofdangerdrewnigh。
StillImustputaboldfaceonmynecessities,andmakewhatplayImightwithsuchforcesaslayatmycommand,althoughinmyheartIfearedmuchfortheissue。
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