首页 >出版文学> Montezuma’s Daughter>第38章
  WhenIsaidthemIwasexpectingdeathindeed,buttorenouncethemnowthatitsshadowwasliftedfromme,ifonlyforalittlewhile,wouldhavebeentheactofacoward。
  ForgoodorevilIhadgivenmyselftoMontezuma’sdaughter,andImustabidebyitorbeshamed。
  StillsuchwasthenoblenessofthisIndianladythateventhenshewouldnottakemeatmyword。
  Foralittlewhileshestoodsmilingsadlyanddrawingalockofherlonghairthroughthehollowofherhand。
  Thenshespoke:
  ’Youarenotyourself,Teule,andIshouldbebaseindeedifImadesosolemnacompactwithonewhodoesnotknowwhathesells。
  Yonderonthealtarandinamomentofdeathyousaidthatyoulovedme,anddoubtlessitwastrue。
  Butnowyouhavecomebacktolife,andsay,lord,whosetthatgoldenringuponyourhandandwhatiswritteninitscircle?
  Yetevenifthewordsaretruethatyouhavespokenandyoulovemealittle,thereisoneacrosstheseawhomyoulovebetter。
  ThatIcouldbear,formyheartisfixedonyoualoneamongmen,andattheleastyouwouldbekindtome,andIshouldmoveinthesunlightofyourpresence。
  Buthavingknownthelight,Icannotlivetowanderinthedarkness。
  Youdonotunderstand。
  IwilltellyouwhatIfear。
  Ifearthatif——ifwewerewed,youwouldwearyofmeasmendo,andthatmemorywouldgrowtoostrongforyou。
  Thenbyandbyitmightbepossibleforyoutofindyourwaybackacrossthewaterstoyourownlandandyourownlove,andsoyouwoulddesertme,Teule。
  ThisiswhatI
  couldnotbear,Teule。
  Icanforegoyounow,ay,andremainyourfriend。
  ButIcannotbeputasidelikeadancinggirl,thecompanionofamonth,I,Montezuma’sdaughter,aladyofmyownland。
  Shouldyouwedme,itmustbeformylife,Teule,andthatisperhapsmorethanyouwouldwishtopromise,thoughyoucouldkissmeonyonderstoneandthereisbloodfellowshipbetweenus,’
  andsheglancedattheredstaininthelinenrobethatcoveredthewounduponherside。
  ’Andnow,Teule,Ileaveyouawhile,thatImayfindGuatemoc,ifhestilllives,andotherswho,nowthatthestrengthofthepriestsisshattered,havepowertoprotectyouandadvanceyoutohonour。
  ThinkthenonallthatIhavesaid,anddonotbehastytodecide。
  OrwouldyoumakeanendatonceandflytothewhitemenifIcanfindameansofescape?’
  ’Iamtoowearytoflyanywhere,’Ianswered,’evenifIcould。
  Moreover,Iforget。
  MyenemyisamongtheSpaniards,hewhomI
  havesworntokill,thereforehisfriendsaremyfoesandhisfoesmyfriends。
  Iwillnotfly,Otomie。’
  ’Thereyouarewise,’shesaid,’forifyoucomeamongtheTeulesthatmanwillmurderyou;byfairmeansorfoulhewillmurderyouwithinaday,Isawitinhiseyes。
  NowrestwhileIseekyoursafety,ifthereisanysafetyinthisblood-stainedland。’
  Otomieturnedandwent。
  Iwatchedthegoldencurtainsclosebehindher;thenIsankbackuponthecouchandinstantlywaslostinsleep,forIwasfaintandweak,andsodazedwithweariness,thatatthetimeIscarcelyknewwhathadhappened,orthepurposeofourtalk。
  Afterwards,however,itcamebacktome。
  Imusthavesleptformanyhours,forwhenIawokeitwasfaronintothenight。
  Itwasnightbutnotdark,forthroughthebarredwindowplacescamethesoundoftumultandfighting,andredraysoflightcastbytheflamesofburninghouses。
  Oneofthesewindowswasabovemycouch,andstandingonthebedIseizedthesillwithmyhands。
  Withmuchpain,becauseofthefleshwoundinmyside,I
  drewmyselfuptillIcouldlookthroughthebars。
  ThenIsawthattheSpaniards,notcontentwiththecaptureoftheteocalli,hadmadeanightattackandsetfiretohundredsofhousesinthecity。
  Theglareoftheflameswasthatofaluridday,andbyitIcouldseethewhitemenretreatingtotheirquarters,pursuedbythousandsofAztecs,whohungupontheirflanks,shootingatthemwithstonesandarrows。
  NowIdroppeddownfromthewindowplaceandbegantothinkastowhatIshoulddo,foragainmymindwaswavering。
  ShouldIdesertOtomieandescapetotheSpaniardsifthatwerepossible,takingmychanceofdeathatthehandsofdeGarcia?
  OrshouldIstayamongtheAztecsiftheywouldgivemeshelter,andwedOtomie?
  Therewasathirdchoice,indeed,tostaywiththemandleaveOtomiealone,thoughitwouldbedifficulttodothisandkeepmyhonour。
  OnethingIunderstood,ifImarriedOtomieitmustbeatherownprice,forthenImustbecomeanIndianandgiveoverallhopeofreturningtoEnglandandtomybetrothed。
  Ofthis,indeed,therewaslittlechance,still,whilemyliferemainedtome,itmightcomeaboutifIwasfree。
  ButoncemyhandsweretiedbythismarriageitcouldneverbeduringOtomie’slifetime,andsofarasLilyBozardwasconcernedIshouldbedead。
  HowcouldIbethusfaithlesstohermemoryandmytroth,andontheotherhand,howcouldIdiscardthewomanwhohadriskedallforme,andwho,tospeaktruth,hadgrownsodeartome,thoughtherewasoneyetdearer?
  Aherooranangelmightfindapathoutofthistangle,butalas!Iwasneithertheonenortheother,onlyamanafflictedasothermenarewithhumanweakness,andOtomiewasathand,andverysweetandfair。
  Still,almostIdeterminedthatIwouldavailmyselfofhernobleness,thatIwouldgobackuponmywords,andbeghertodespisemeandseemenomore,inorderthatImightnotbeforcedtobreakthetroththatIhadpledgedbeneaththebeechatDitchingham。
  ForIgreatlydreadedthisoathoflife-longfidelitywhichIshouldbeforcedtoswearifIchoseanyotherpath。
  ThusIthoughtoninpitiableconfusionofmind,notknowingthatallthesematterswerebeyondmyordering,sinceapathwasalreadymadereadytomyfeet,whichImustfollowordie。
  Andletthisbeaproofofthehonestyofmywords,since,hadIbeendesirousofglozingthetruth,Ineedhavewrittennothingofthesestrugglesofconscience,andofmyownweakness。
  Forsoonitwastocometothis,thoughnotbyherwill,thatImusteitherwedOtomieordieatonce,andfewwouldblamemefordoingthefirstandnotthelast。
  Indeed,thoughIdidwedher,Imightstillhavedeclaredmyselftomyaffiancedandtoalltheworldasaslaveofeventsfromwhichtherewasnoescape。
  Butitisnotallthetruth,sincemymindwasdivided,andhaditnotbeensettledforme,Icannotsayhowthestrugglewouldhaveended。
  Now,lookingbackonthedistantpast,andweighingmyactionsandcharacterasajudgemightdo,Icansee,however,thathadIfoundtimetoconsider,therewasanothermatterwhichwouldsurelyhaveturnedthescaleinfavourofOtomie。
  DeGarciawasamongtheSpaniards,andmyhatredofdeGarciawastherulingpassionofmylife,astrongerpassioneventhanmyloveforthetwodearwomenwhohavebeenitsjoy。
  Indeed,thoughheisdeadthesemanyyearsIstillhatehim,andevilthoughthedesirebe,eveninmyageI
  longthatmyvengeancewasstilltowreak。
  WhileIremainedamongtheAztecsdeGarciawouldbetheirenemyandmine,andImightmeethiminwarandkillhimthere。
  ButifIsucceededinreachingtheSpanishcamp,thenitwasalmostsurethathewouldbringaboutmyinstantdeath。
  Doubtlesshehadtoldsuchataleofmealready,thatwithinanhourIshouldbehungasaspy,orotherwisemadeawaywith。
  ButIwillceasefromtheseunprofitablewonderingswhichhavebutonevalue,thatofsettingoutmystrangenecessityofchoicebetweenanabsentandapresentlove,andgoonwiththestoryofaneventinwhichtherewasnoroomtobalancescruples。
  WhileIsatmusingonthecouchthecurtainwasdrawn,andamanenteredbearingatorch。
  ItwasGuatemocashehadcomefromthefray,which,exceptforitsharvestofburninghouses,wasfinishedforthatnight。
  Theplumeswereshornfromhishead,hisgoldenarmourwashackedbytheSpanishswords,andhebledfromashotwoundintheneck。
  ’Greeting,Teule,’hesaid。
  ’CertainlyIneverthoughttoseeyoualiveto-night,ormyselfeitherforthatmatter。
  Butitisastrangeworld,andnow,ifneverbeforeinTenoctitlan,thosethingshappenforwhichwelooktheleast。
  ButIhavenotimeforwords。
  Icametosummonyoubeforethecouncil。’
  ’Whatistobemyfate?’Iasked。
  ’Tobedraggedbacktothestoneofsacrifice?’
  ’Nay,havenofearofthat。
  ButfortherestIcannotsay。
  Inanhouryoumaybedeadorgreatamongus,ifanyofuscanbecalledgreatinthesedaysofshame。
  Otomiehasworkedwellforyouamongtheprincesandthecounsellors,soshesays,andifyouhaveaheart,youshouldbegratefultoher,foritseemstomethatfewwomenhavelovedamansomuch。
  Asforme,Ihavebeenemployedelsewhere,’andheglancedathisrentarmour,’butIwillliftupmyvoiceforyou。
  Nowcome,friend,forthetorchburnslow。
  Bythistimeyoumustbewellseasonedindangers;onemoreorlesswillmatteraslittletoyouastome。’
  ThenIroseandfollowedhimintothegreatcedar-panelledhall,wherethatverymorningIhadreceivedadorationasagod。
  NowI
  wasagodnolonger,butaprisonerontrialforhislife。
  UponthedaiswhereIhadstoodinthehourofmygodheadweregatheredthoseoftheprincesandcounsellorswhowereleftalive。
  Someofthem,likeGuatemoc,werecladinrentandbloodymail,othersintheircustomarydress,andoneinapriest’srobe。
  Theyhadonlytwothingsincommonamongthem,thesternnessoftheirfacesandthegreatnessoftheirrank,andtheysattherethisnightnottodecidemyfate,whichwasbutalittlething,buttotakecounselastohowtheymightexpeltheSpaniardsbeforethecitywasdestroyed。
  WhenIentered,amaninmail,whosatinthecentreofthehalfcircle,andinwhomIknewCuitlahua,whowouldbeemperorshouldMontezumadie,lookedupquicklyandsaid:
  ’Whoisthis,Guatemoc,thatyoubringwithyou?
  Ah!Iremember;
  theTeulethatwasthegodTezcat,andwhoescapedthesacrificeto-day。
  Listen,nobles。
  Whatistobedonewiththisman?
  Say,isitlawfulthathebeledbacktosacrifice?’
  Thenthepriestanswered:’Igrievetosaythatitisnotlawfulmostnobleprince。
  Thismanhaslainonthealtarofthegod,hehasevenbeenwoundedbytheholyknife。