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  Thusthingswentontillthisdayofmymother’sdeath。
  ButbeforeIgofurtherImusttellthatSquireBozardlookedwithnofavouronthefriendshipbetweenhisdaughterandmyself——andthis,notbecausehedislikedme,butratherbecausehewouldhaveseenLilyweddedtomyelderbrotherGeoffrey,myfather’sheir,andnottoayoungerson。
  Soharddidhegrowaboutthematteratlastthatwetwomightscarcelymeetexceptbyseemingaccident,whereasmybrotherwaseverwelcomeattheHall。
  Andonthisaccountsomebitternessarosebetweenustwobrothers,asisapttobethecasewhenawomancomesbetweenfriendshoweverclose。
  ForitmustbeknownthatmybrotherGeoffreyalsolovedLily,asallmenwouldhavelovedher,andwithabetterrightperhapsthanIhad——forhewasmyelderbythreeyearsandborntopossessions。
  ItmayseemindeedthatIwassomewhathastytofallintothisstate,seeingthatatthetimeofwhichIwriteIwasnotyetofage;butyoungbloodisnimble,andmoreoverminewashalfSpanish,andmadeamanofmewhenmanyapure-bredEnglishmanisstillnothingbutaboy。
  Forthebloodandthesunthatripensithavemuchtodowithsuchmatters,asIhaveseenoftenenoughamongtheIndianpeoplesofAnahuac,whoattheageoffifteenwilltaketothemselvesabrideoftwelve。
  AttheleastitiscertainthatwhenIwaseighteenyearsofageIwasoldenoughtofallinloveaftersuchfashionthatIneverfelloutofitagainaltogether,althoughthehistoryofmylifemayseemtogivemetheliewhenIsayso。
  ButItakeitthatamanmayloveseveralwomenandyetloveoneofthemthebestofall,beingtrueinthespirittothelawwhichhebreaksintheletter。
  NowwhenIhadattainednineteenyearsIwasamanfullgrown,andwritingasIdoinextremeoldage,Imaysayitwithoutfalseshame,averyhandsomeyouthtoboot。
  Iwasnotovertall,indeed,measuringbutfivefeetnineinchesandahalfinheight,butmylimbswerewellmade,andIwasbothdeepandbroadinthechest。
  IncolourIwas,andmywhitehairnotwithstanding,amstillextraordinarilydarkhued,myeyesalsowerelargeanddark,andmyhair,whichwaswavy,wascoalblack。
  InmydeportmentIwasreservedandgravetosadness,inspeechIwasslowandtemperate,andmoreaptatlisteningthanintalking。
  IweighedmatterswellbeforeImadeupmyminduponthem,butbeingmadeup,nothingcouldturnmefromthatmindshortofdeathitself,whetheritweresetongoodorevil,onfollyorwisdom。
  InthosedaysalsoIhadlittlereligion,since,partlybecauseofmyfather’ssecretteachingandpartlythroughtheworkingsofmyownreason,IhadlearnedtodoubtthedoctrinesoftheChurchastheyusedtobesetout。
  Youthispronetoreasonbylargeleapsasitwere,andtoholdthatallthingsarefalsebecausesomeareprovedfalse;andthusattimesinthosedaysIthoughtthattherewasnoGod,becausethepriestsaidthattheimageoftheVirginatBungayweptanddidotherthingswhichIknewthatitdidnotdo。
  NowIknowwellthatthereisaGod,formyownstoryprovesittomyheart。
  Intruth,whatmancanlookbackacrossalonglifeandsaythatthereisnoGod,whenhecanseetheshadowofHishandlyingdeepuponhistaleofyears?
  OnthissaddayofwhichIwriteIknewthatLily,whomIloved,wouldbewalkingalonebeneaththegreatpollardoaksintheparkofDitchinghamHall。
  Here,inGrubswellasthespotiscalled,grew,andindeedstillgrow,certainhawthorntreesthataretheearliesttoblowofanyintheseparts,andwhenwehadmetatthechurchdoorontheSunday,LilysaidthattherewouldbebloomuponthembytheWednesday,andonthatafternoonsheshouldgotocutit。
  Itmaywellbethatshespokethuswithdesign,forlovewillbreedcunningintheheartofthemostguilelessandtruthfulmaid。
  Moreover,Inoticedthatthoughshesaiditbeforeherfatherandtherestofus,yetshewaitedtospeaktillmybrotherGeoffreywasoutofhearing,forshedidnotwishtogomayingwithhim,andalsothatasshespokesheshotaglanceofhergreyeyesatme。
  ThenandthereIvowedtomyselfthatIalsowouldbegatheringhawthornbloominthissameplaceandonthatWednesdayafternoon,yes,evenifImustplaytruantandleaveallthesickofBungaytoNature’snursing。
  Moreover,Iwasdeterminedononething,thatifIcouldfindLilyaloneIwoulddelaynolonger,buttellherallthatwasinmyheart;nogreatsecretindeed,forthoughnowordoflovehadeverpassedbetweenusasyet,eachknewtheother’shiddenthoughts。
  NotthatIwasinthewaytobecomeaffiancedtoamaid,whohadmypathtocutintheworld,butIfearedthatifI
  delayedtomakesureofheraffectionmybrotherwouldbebeforemewithherfather,andLilymightyieldtothattowhichshewouldnotyieldifoncewehadplightedtroth。
  NowitchancedthatonthisafternoonIwashardputtoittoescapetomytryst,formymaster,thephysician,wasailing,andsentmetovisitthesickforhim,carryingthemtheirmedicines。
  Atthelast,however,betweenfourandfiveo’clock,Ifled,askingnoleave。
  TakingtheNorwichroadIranforamileandmoretillI
  hadpassedtheManorHouseandthechurchturn,anddrewneartoDitchinghamPark。
  ThenIdroppedmypacetoawalk,forIdidnotwishtocomebeforeLilyheatedanddisordered,butratherlookingmybest,towhichendIhadputonmySundaygarments。
  NowasI
  wentdownthelittlehillintheroadthatrunspastthepark,I
  sawamanonhorsebackwholookedfirstatthebridle-path,thatatthisspotturnsofftotheright,thenbackacrossthecommonlandstowardstheVineyardHillsandtheWaveney,andthenalongtheroadasthoughhedidnotknowwhichwaytoturn。
  Iwasquicktonoticethings——thoughatthismomentmymindwasnotatitsswiftest,beingsetonothermatters,andchieflyastohowIshouldtellmytaletoLily——andIsawatoncethatthismanwasnotofourcountry。
  Hewasverytallandnoble-looking,dressedinrichgarmentsofvelvetadornedbyagoldchainthathungabouthisneck,andasI
  judgedaboutfortyyearsofage。
  Butitwashisfacewhichchieflycaughtmyeye,foratthatmomenttherewassomethingterribleaboutit。
  Itwaslong,thin,anddeeplycarved;theeyeswerelarge,andgleamedlikegoldinsunlight;themouthwassmallandwellshaped,butitworeadevilishandcruelsneer;theforeheadlofty,indicatingamanofmind,andmarkedwithaslightscar。
  Fortherestthecavalierwasdarkandsouthern-looking,hiscurlinghair,likemyown,wasblack,andheworeapeakedchestnut-colouredbeard。
  BythetimethatIhadfinishedtheseobservationsmyfeethadbroughtmealmosttothestranger’sside,andforthefirsttimehecaughtsightofme。
  Instantlyhisfacechanged,thesneerleftit,anditbecamekindlyandpleasantlooking。
  LiftinghisbonnetwithmuchcourtesyhestammeredsomethinginbrokenEnglish,ofwhichallthatIcouldcatchwasthewordYarmouth;thenperceivingthatIdidnotunderstandhim,hecursedtheEnglishtongueandallthosewhospokeit,aloudandingoodCastilian。
  ’IfthesenorwillgraciouslyexpresshiswishinSpanish,’Isaid,speakinginthatlanguage,’itmaybeinmypowertohelphim。’
  ’What!youspeakSpanish,youngsir,’hesaid,starting,’andyetyouarenotaSpaniard,thoughbyyourfaceyouwellmightbe。
  Caramba!butitisstrange!’andheeyedmecuriously。
  ’Itmaybestrange,sir,’Ianswered,’butIaminhaste。
  Bepleasedtoaskyourquestionandletmego。’
  ’Ah!’hesaid,’perhapsIcanguessthereasonofyourhurry。
  I
  sawawhiterobedownbythestreamletyonder,’andhenoddedtowardsthepark。
  ’Taketheadviceofanolderman,youngsir,andbecareful。
  Makewhatsportyouwillwithsuch,butneverbelievethemandnevermarrythem——lestyoushouldlivetodesiretokillthem!’
  HereImadeasthoughIwouldpasson,buthespokeagain。
  ’Pardonmywords,theywerewellmeant,andperhapsyoumaycometolearntheirtruth。
  Iwilldetainyounomore。
  WillyougraciouslydirectmeonmyroadtoYarmouth,forIamnotsureofit,havingriddenbyanotherway,andyourEnglishcountryissofulloftreesthatamancannotseeamile?’
  Iwalkedadozenpacesdownthebridle-paththatjoinedtheroadatthisplace,andpointedoutthewaythatheshouldgo,pastDitchinghamchurch。
  AsIdidsoInoticedthatwhileIspokethestrangerwaswatchingmyfacekeenlyand,asitseemedtome,withaninwardfearwhichhestrovetomasterandcouldnot。
  WhenIhadfinishedagainheraisedhisbonnetandthankedme,saying,
  ’Willyoubesograciousastotellmeyourname,youngSir?’
  ’Whatismynametoyou?’Iansweredroughly,forIdislikedthisman。
  ’Youhavenottoldmeyours。’
  ’No,indeed,Iamtravellingincognito。
  PerhapsIalsohavemetaladyintheseparts,’andhesmiledstrangely。
  ’Ionlywishedtoknowthenameofonewhohaddonemeacourtesy,butwhoitseemsisnotsocourteousasIdeemed。’
  Andheshookhishorse’sreins。
  ’Iamnotashamedofmyname,’Isaid。
  ’Ithasbeenanhonestonesofar,andifyouwishtoknowit,itisThomasWingfield。’
  ’Ithoughtit,’hecried,andashespokehisfacegrewlikethefaceofafiend。
  ThenbeforeIcouldfindtimeeventowonder,hehadsprungfromhishorseandstoodwithinthreepacesofme。
  ’Aluckyday!
  Nowwewillseewhattruththereisinprophecies,’
  hesaid,drawinghissilver-mountedsword。
  ’Anameforaname;
  JuandeGarciagivesyougreeting,ThomasWingfield。’
  Now,strangeasitmayseem,itwasatthismomentonlythatthereflashedacrossmymindthethoughtofallthatIhadheardabouttheSpanishstranger,thereportofwhosecomingtoYarmouthhadstirredmyfatherandmothersodeeply。
  AtanyothertimeIshouldhaveremembereditsoonenough,butonthisdayIwassosetuponmytrystwithLilyandwhatIshouldsaytoher,thatnothingelsecouldholdaplaceinmythoughts。
  ’Thismustbetheman,’Isaidtomyself,andthenIsaidnomore,forhewasonme,swordup。
  Isawthekeenpointflashtowardsme,andsprangtoonesidehavingadesiretofly,as,beingunarmedexceptformystick,Imighthavedonewithoutshame。
  ButspringasIwouldIcouldnotavoidthethrustaltogether。
  Itwasaimedatmyheartanditpiercedthesleeveofmyleftarm,passingthroughtheflesh——nomore。
  Yetatthepainofthatcutallthoughtofflightleftme,andinsteadofitacoldangerfilledme,causingmetowishtokillthismanwhohadattackedmethusandunprovoked。
  InmyhandwasmystoutoakenstaffwhichIhadcutmyselfonthebanksofHollowHill,andifIwouldfightImustmakesuchplaywiththisasImight。
  ItseemsapoorweaponindeedtomatchagainstaToledobladeinthehandsofonewhocouldhandleitwell,andyettherearevirtuesinacudgel,forwhenamanseeshimselfthreatenedwithit,heislikelytoforgetthatheholdsinhishandamoredeadlyweapon,andtotaketotheguardingofhisownheadinplaceofrunninghisadversarythroughthebody。
  Andthatwaswhatchancedinthiscase,thoughhowitcameaboutexactlyIcannottell。
  TheSpaniardwasafineswordsman,andhadIbeenarmedashewaswoulddoubtlesshaveovermatchedme,whoatthatagehadnopracticeintheart,whichwasalmostunknowninEngland。
  Butwhenhesawthebigstickflourishedoverhimheforgothisownadvantage,andraisedhisarmtowardawaytheblow。
  Downitcameuponthebackofhishand,andlo!hisswordfellfromittothegrass。
  ButIdidnotsparehimbecauseofthat,formybloodwasup。