FormanymonthsweheardnomoreofdeGarciaorofIsabelladeSiguenza。
Bothhadvanishedleavingnosign,andwesearchedfortheminvain。
AsformeIfellbackintomyformerwayoflifeofassistanttoFonseca,posingbeforetheworldashisnephew。
Butitcameaboutthatfromthenightofmyduelwiththemurderer,mymaster’shealthdeclinedsteadilythroughtheactionofawastingdiseaseoftheliverwhichbaffledallskill,sothatwithineightmonthsofthattimehelayalmostbedriddenandatthepointofdeath。
Hismindindeedremainedquiteclear,andonoccasionshewouldevenreceivethosewhocametoconsulthim,recliningonachairandwrappedinhisembroideredrobe。
Butthehandofdeathlayonhim,andheknewthatitwasso。
Astheweekswentbyhegrewmoreandmoreattachedtome,tillatlength,hadIbeenhisson,hecouldnothavetreatedmewithagreateraffection,whileformypartIdidwhatlayinmypowertolessenhissufferings,forhewouldletnootherphysiciannearhim。
Atlengthwhenhehadgrownveryfeebleheexpressedadesiretoseeanotary。
Themanhenamedwassentforandremainedclosetedwithhimforanhourormore,whenheleftforawhiletoreturnwithseveralofhisclerks,whoaccompaniedhimtomymaster’sroom,fromwhichIwasexcluded。
Presentlytheyallwentaway,bearingsomeparchmentswiththem。
ThateveningFonsecasentforme。
Ifoundhimveryweak,butcheerfulandfulloftalk。
’Comehere,nephew,’hesaid,’Ihavehadabusyday。
Ihavebeenbusyallmylifethrough,anditwouldnotbewelltogrowidleatthelast。
DoyouknowwhatIhavebeendoingthisday?’
Ishookmyhead。
’Iwilltellyou。
Ihavebeenmakingmywill——thereissomethingtoleave;notsoverymuch,butstillsomething。’
’Donottalkofwills,’Isaid;’Itrustthatyoumayliveformanyyears。’
Helaughed。
’Youmustthinkbadlyofmycase,nephew,whenyouthinkthatIcanbedeceivedthus。
Iamabouttodieasyouknowwell,andIdonotfeardeath。
Mylifehasbeenprosperousbutnothappy,foritwasblightedinitsspring——nomatterhow。
Thestoryisanoldoneandnotworthtelling;moreover,whicheverwayithadread,ithadallbeenonenowinthehourofdeath。
Wemusttravelourjourneyeachofus;whatdoesitmatteriftheroadhasbeengoodorbadwhenwehavereachedthegoal?
Formypartreligionneithercomfortsnorfrightensmenowatthelast。
Iwillstandorfallupontherecordofmylife。
IhavedoneevilinitandIhavedonegood;theevilIhavedonebecausenatureandtemptationhavebeentoostrongformeattimes,thegoodalsobecausemyheartpromptedmetoit。
Well,itisfinished,andafteralldeathcannotbesoterrible,seeingthateveryhumanbeingisborntoundergoit,togetherwithalllivingthings。
Whateverelseisfalse,Iholdthistobetrue,thatGodexistsandismoremercifulthanthosewhopreachHimwouldhaveustobelieve。’
Andheceasedexhausted。
OftensincethenIhavethoughtofhiswords,andIstillthinkofthemnowthatmyownhourissonear。
AswillbeseenFonsecawasafatalist,abeliefwhichIdonotaltogethershare,holdingasI
dothatwithincertainlimitsweareallowedtoshapeourowncharactersanddestinies。
ButhislastsayingsIbelievetobetrue。
Godisandismerciful,anddeathisnotterribleeitherinitsactorinitsconsequence。
PresentlyFonsecaspokeagain。
’Whydoyouleadmetotalkofsuchthings?
TheywearymeandIhavelittletime。
Iwastellingofmywill。
Nephew,listen。
ExceptcertainsumsthatIhavegiventobespentincharities——notinmasses,mindyou——IhaveleftyouallI
possess。’
’YouhaveleftittoME!’Isaidastonished。
’Yes,nephew,toyou。
Whynot?
IhavenorelationslivingandI
havelearnedtoloveyou,IwhothoughtthatIcouldnevercareagainforanymanorwomanorchild。
Iamgratefultoyou,whohaveprovedtomethatmyheartisnotdead,takewhatIgiveyouasamarkofmygratitude。’
NowIbegantostammermythanks,buthestoppedme。
’Thesumthatyouwillinherit,nephew,amountsinalltoaboutfivethousandgoldpesos,orperhapstwelvethousandofyourEnglishpounds,enoughforayoungmantobeginlifeon,evenwithawife。
IndeedthereinEnglanditmaywellbeheldagreatfortune,andIthinkthatyourbetrothed’sfatherwillmakenomoreobjectiontoyouasason-in-law。
Alsothereisthishouseandallthatitcontains;
thelibraryandthesilverarevaluable,andyouwilldowelltokeepthem。
Allislefttoyouwiththefullestformality,sothatnoquestioncanariseastoyourrighttotakeit;indeed,foreseeingmyend,Ihaveoflatecalledinmymoneys,andforthemostpartthegoldliesinstrongboxesinthesecretcupboardinthewallyonderthatyouknowof。
ItwouldhavebeenmorehadI
knownyousomeyearsago,forthen,thinkingthatIgrewtoorichwhowaswithoutanheir,Igaveawayasmuchaswhatremainsinactsofmercyandinprovidingrefugeforthehomelessandthesuffering。
ThomasWingfield,forthemostpartthismoneyhascometomeasthefruitofhumanfollyandhumanwretchedness,frailtyandsin。
Useitforthepurposesofwisdomandtheadvancingofrightandliberty。
Mayitprosperyou,andremindyouofme,youroldmaster,theSpanishquack,tillatlastyoupassitontoyourchildrenorthepoor。
Andnowonewordmore。
Ifyourconsciencewillletyou,abandonthepursuitofdeGarcia。
TakeyourfortuneandgowithittoEngland;wedthatmaidwhomyoudesire,andfollowafterhappinessinwhateverwayseemsbesttoyou。
WhoareyouthatyoushouldmeetoutvengeanceonthisknavedeGarcia?
Lethimbe,andhewillavengehimselfuponhimself。
Otherwiseyoumayundergomuchtoilanddanger,andintheendloselove,andlife,andfortuneatablow。’
’ButIhavesworntokillhim,’Ianswered,’andhowcanIbreaksosolemnanoath?
HowcouldIsitathomeinpeacebeneaththeburdenofsuchshame?’
’Idonotknow;itisnotformetojudge。
Youmustdoasyouwish,butinthedoingofit,itmayhappenthatyouwillfallintogreatershamesthanthis。
Youhavefoughtthemanandhehasescapedyou。
Lethimgoifyouarewise。
Nowbenddownandkissme,andbidmefarewell。
Idonotdesirethatyoushouldseemedie,andmydeathisnear。
IcannottellifweshallmeetagainwheninyourturnyouhavelainasIlienow,orifweshapeourcoursefordifferentstars。
Ifso,farewellforever。’
ThenIleantdownandkissedhimontheforehead,andasIdidsoI
wept,fornottillthishourdidIlearnhowtrulyIhadcometolovehim,sotrulythatitseemedtomeasthoughmyfatherlaytheredying。
’Weepnot,’hesaid,’forallourlifeisbutaparting。
OnceI
hadasonlikeyou,andourswasthebitterestoffarewells。
NowI
gotoseekforhimagainwhocouldnotcomebacktome,soweepnotbecauseIdie。
Good-bye,ThomasWingfield。
MayGodprosperandprotectyou!
Nowgo!’
SoIwentweeping,andthatnight,beforethedawn,allwasoverwithAndresdeFonseca。
Theytoldmethathewasconscioustotheendanddiedmurmuringthenameofthatsonofwhomhespokeinhislastwordstome。
Whatwasthehistoryofthisson,orofFonsecahimself,Ineverlearned,forlikeanIndianhehidhistrailasstepbystephewandereddownthepathoflife。
Heneverspokeofhispast,andinallthebooksanddocumentsthatheleftbehindhimthereisnoallusiontoit。
Once,someyearsago,IreadthroughtheciphervolumesofrecordsthatIhavespokenof,andofwhichhegavemethekeybeforehedied。
TheystandbeforemeontheshelfasI
write,andinthemaremanyhistoriesofshame,sorrow,andevil,offaithdeludedandinnocencebetrayed,ofthecrueltyofpriests,ofavaricetriumphantoverlove,andoflovetriumphantoverdeath——
enough,indeed,tofurnishhalfahundredoftrueromances。
Butamongthesechroniclesofagenerationnowpastandforgotten,thereisnomentionofFonseca’sownnameandnohintofhisownstory。
Itislostforever,andperhapsthisiswell。
Sodiedmybenefactorandbestfriend。
WhenhewasmadereadyforburialIwentintoseehimandhelookedcalmandbeautifulinhisdeathsleep。
Thenitwasthatshewhohadarrayedhimforthegravehandedtometwoportraitsmostdelicatelypaintedonivoryandsetingold,whichhadbeenfoundabouthisneck。
Ihavethemyet。
Oneisoftheheadofaladywithasweetandwistfulcountenance,andtheotherthefaceofadeadyouthalsobeautiful,butverysad。
Doubtlesstheyweremotherandson,butIknownomoreaboutthem。
OnthemorrowIburiedAndresdeFonseca,butwithnopomp,forhehadsaidthathewishedaslittlemoneyaspossiblespentuponhisdeadbody,andreturnedtothehousetomeetthenotaries。
ThenthesealswerebrokenandtheparchmentsreadandIwasputinfullpossessionofthedeadman’swealth,andhavingdeductedsuchsumsaswerepayablefordues,legacies,andfees,thenotariesleftmebowinghumbly,forwasInotrich?
Yes,Iwasrich,wealthhadcometomewithouteffort,andIhadreasontodesireit,yetthiswasthesaddestnightthatIhadpassedsinceIsetfootinSpain,formymindwasfilledwithdoubtsandsorrow,andmoreovermylonelinessgotaholdofme。
Butsadasitmightbe,itwasdestinedtoseemyetmoresorrowfulbeforethemorning。
ForasI
satmakingpretencetoeat,aservantcametomesayingthatawomanwaitedintheouterroomwhohadaskedtoseehislatemaster。
GuessingthatthiswassomeclientwhohadnotheardofFonseca’sdeathIwasabouttoorderthatsheshouldbedismissed,thenbethoughtmethatImightbeofservicetoherorattheleastforgetsomeofmyowntroubleinlisteningtohers。
SoIbadehimbringherin。
Presentlyshecame,atallwomanwrappedinadarkcloakthathidherface。
Ibowedandmotionedtohertobeseated,whensuddenlyshestartedandspoke。
’IaskedtoseeDonAndresdeFonseca,’shesaidinalowquickvoice。
’Youarenothe,senor。’
’AndresdeFonsecawasburiedto-day,’Ianswered。
’Iwashisassistantinhisbusinessandamhisheir。
IfIcanserveyouinanywayIamatyourdisposal。’
’Youareyoung——veryyoung,’shemurmuredconfusedly,’andthematteristerribleandurgent。
HowcanItrustyou?’
’Itisforyoutojudge,senora。’
Shethoughtawhile,thendrewoffhercloak,displayingtherobesofanun。
’Listen,’shesaid。
’Imustdomanyapenanceforthisnight’swork,andveryhardlyhaveIwonleavetocomehitheruponanerrandofmercy。
NowIcannotgobackempty-handed,soImusttrustyou。
ButfirstswearbythineblessedMotherofGodthatyouwillnotbetrayme。’
’Igiveyoumyword,’Ianswered;’ifthatisnotenough,letusendthistalk。’
’Donotbeangrywithme,’shepleaded;’IhavenotleftmyconventwallsformanyyearsandIamdistraughtwithgrief。
Iseekapoisonofthedeadliest。
Iwillpaywellforit。’
’Iamnotthetoolofmurderers,’Ianswered。
’Forwhatpurposedoyouwishthepoison?’
’Oh!Imusttellyou——yethowcanI?
Inourconventtherediesto-
nightawomanyoungandfair,almostagirlindeed,whohasbrokenthevowsshetook。
Shediesto-nightwithherbabe——thus,ohGod,thus!bybeingbuiltaliveintothefoundationsofthehouseshehasdisgraced。
Itisthejudgmentthathasbeenpasseduponher,judgmentwithoutforgivenessorreprieve。
Iamtheabbessofthisconvent——asknotitsnameormine——andIlovethissinnerasthoughsheweremydaughter。
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