首页 >出版文学> Montezuma’s Daughter>第14章
  FormanymonthsweheardnomoreofdeGarciaorofIsabelladeSiguenza。
  Bothhadvanishedleavingnosign,andwesearchedfortheminvain。
  AsformeIfellbackintomyformerwayoflifeofassistanttoFonseca,posingbeforetheworldashisnephew。
  Butitcameaboutthatfromthenightofmyduelwiththemurderer,mymaster’shealthdeclinedsteadilythroughtheactionofawastingdiseaseoftheliverwhichbaffledallskill,sothatwithineightmonthsofthattimehelayalmostbedriddenandatthepointofdeath。
  Hismindindeedremainedquiteclear,andonoccasionshewouldevenreceivethosewhocametoconsulthim,recliningonachairandwrappedinhisembroideredrobe。
  Butthehandofdeathlayonhim,andheknewthatitwasso。
  Astheweekswentbyhegrewmoreandmoreattachedtome,tillatlength,hadIbeenhisson,hecouldnothavetreatedmewithagreateraffection,whileformypartIdidwhatlayinmypowertolessenhissufferings,forhewouldletnootherphysiciannearhim。
  Atlengthwhenhehadgrownveryfeebleheexpressedadesiretoseeanotary。
  Themanhenamedwassentforandremainedclosetedwithhimforanhourormore,whenheleftforawhiletoreturnwithseveralofhisclerks,whoaccompaniedhimtomymaster’sroom,fromwhichIwasexcluded。
  Presentlytheyallwentaway,bearingsomeparchmentswiththem。
  ThateveningFonsecasentforme。
  Ifoundhimveryweak,butcheerfulandfulloftalk。
  ’Comehere,nephew,’hesaid,’Ihavehadabusyday。
  Ihavebeenbusyallmylifethrough,anditwouldnotbewelltogrowidleatthelast。
  DoyouknowwhatIhavebeendoingthisday?’
  Ishookmyhead。
  ’Iwilltellyou。
  Ihavebeenmakingmywill——thereissomethingtoleave;notsoverymuch,butstillsomething。’
  ’Donottalkofwills,’Isaid;’Itrustthatyoumayliveformanyyears。’
  Helaughed。
  ’Youmustthinkbadlyofmycase,nephew,whenyouthinkthatIcanbedeceivedthus。
  Iamabouttodieasyouknowwell,andIdonotfeardeath。
  Mylifehasbeenprosperousbutnothappy,foritwasblightedinitsspring——nomatterhow。
  Thestoryisanoldoneandnotworthtelling;moreover,whicheverwayithadread,ithadallbeenonenowinthehourofdeath。
  Wemusttravelourjourneyeachofus;whatdoesitmatteriftheroadhasbeengoodorbadwhenwehavereachedthegoal?
  Formypartreligionneithercomfortsnorfrightensmenowatthelast。
  Iwillstandorfallupontherecordofmylife。
  IhavedoneevilinitandIhavedonegood;theevilIhavedonebecausenatureandtemptationhavebeentoostrongformeattimes,thegoodalsobecausemyheartpromptedmetoit。
  Well,itisfinished,andafteralldeathcannotbesoterrible,seeingthateveryhumanbeingisborntoundergoit,togetherwithalllivingthings。
  Whateverelseisfalse,Iholdthistobetrue,thatGodexistsandismoremercifulthanthosewhopreachHimwouldhaveustobelieve。’
  Andheceasedexhausted。
  OftensincethenIhavethoughtofhiswords,andIstillthinkofthemnowthatmyownhourissonear。
  AswillbeseenFonsecawasafatalist,abeliefwhichIdonotaltogethershare,holdingasI
  dothatwithincertainlimitsweareallowedtoshapeourowncharactersanddestinies。
  ButhislastsayingsIbelievetobetrue。
  Godisandismerciful,anddeathisnotterribleeitherinitsactorinitsconsequence。
  PresentlyFonsecaspokeagain。
  ’Whydoyouleadmetotalkofsuchthings?
  TheywearymeandIhavelittletime。
  Iwastellingofmywill。
  Nephew,listen。
  ExceptcertainsumsthatIhavegiventobespentincharities——notinmasses,mindyou——IhaveleftyouallI
  possess。’
  ’YouhaveleftittoME!’Isaidastonished。
  ’Yes,nephew,toyou。
  Whynot?
  IhavenorelationslivingandI
  havelearnedtoloveyou,IwhothoughtthatIcouldnevercareagainforanymanorwomanorchild。
  Iamgratefultoyou,whohaveprovedtomethatmyheartisnotdead,takewhatIgiveyouasamarkofmygratitude。’
  NowIbegantostammermythanks,buthestoppedme。
  ’Thesumthatyouwillinherit,nephew,amountsinalltoaboutfivethousandgoldpesos,orperhapstwelvethousandofyourEnglishpounds,enoughforayoungmantobeginlifeon,evenwithawife。
  IndeedthereinEnglanditmaywellbeheldagreatfortune,andIthinkthatyourbetrothed’sfatherwillmakenomoreobjectiontoyouasason-in-law。
  Alsothereisthishouseandallthatitcontains;
  thelibraryandthesilverarevaluable,andyouwilldowelltokeepthem。
  Allislefttoyouwiththefullestformality,sothatnoquestioncanariseastoyourrighttotakeit;indeed,foreseeingmyend,Ihaveoflatecalledinmymoneys,andforthemostpartthegoldliesinstrongboxesinthesecretcupboardinthewallyonderthatyouknowof。
  ItwouldhavebeenmorehadI
  knownyousomeyearsago,forthen,thinkingthatIgrewtoorichwhowaswithoutanheir,Igaveawayasmuchaswhatremainsinactsofmercyandinprovidingrefugeforthehomelessandthesuffering。
  ThomasWingfield,forthemostpartthismoneyhascometomeasthefruitofhumanfollyandhumanwretchedness,frailtyandsin。
  Useitforthepurposesofwisdomandtheadvancingofrightandliberty。
  Mayitprosperyou,andremindyouofme,youroldmaster,theSpanishquack,tillatlastyoupassitontoyourchildrenorthepoor。
  Andnowonewordmore。
  Ifyourconsciencewillletyou,abandonthepursuitofdeGarcia。
  TakeyourfortuneandgowithittoEngland;wedthatmaidwhomyoudesire,andfollowafterhappinessinwhateverwayseemsbesttoyou。
  WhoareyouthatyoushouldmeetoutvengeanceonthisknavedeGarcia?
  Lethimbe,andhewillavengehimselfuponhimself。
  Otherwiseyoumayundergomuchtoilanddanger,andintheendloselove,andlife,andfortuneatablow。’
  ’ButIhavesworntokillhim,’Ianswered,’andhowcanIbreaksosolemnanoath?
  HowcouldIsitathomeinpeacebeneaththeburdenofsuchshame?’
  ’Idonotknow;itisnotformetojudge。
  Youmustdoasyouwish,butinthedoingofit,itmayhappenthatyouwillfallintogreatershamesthanthis。
  Youhavefoughtthemanandhehasescapedyou。
  Lethimgoifyouarewise。
  Nowbenddownandkissme,andbidmefarewell。
  Idonotdesirethatyoushouldseemedie,andmydeathisnear。
  IcannottellifweshallmeetagainwheninyourturnyouhavelainasIlienow,orifweshapeourcoursefordifferentstars。
  Ifso,farewellforever。’
  ThenIleantdownandkissedhimontheforehead,andasIdidsoI
  wept,fornottillthishourdidIlearnhowtrulyIhadcometolovehim,sotrulythatitseemedtomeasthoughmyfatherlaytheredying。
  ’Weepnot,’hesaid,’forallourlifeisbutaparting。
  OnceI
  hadasonlikeyou,andourswasthebitterestoffarewells。
  NowI
  gotoseekforhimagainwhocouldnotcomebacktome,soweepnotbecauseIdie。
  Good-bye,ThomasWingfield。
  MayGodprosperandprotectyou!
  Nowgo!’
  SoIwentweeping,andthatnight,beforethedawn,allwasoverwithAndresdeFonseca。
  Theytoldmethathewasconscioustotheendanddiedmurmuringthenameofthatsonofwhomhespokeinhislastwordstome。
  Whatwasthehistoryofthisson,orofFonsecahimself,Ineverlearned,forlikeanIndianhehidhistrailasstepbystephewandereddownthepathoflife。
  Heneverspokeofhispast,andinallthebooksanddocumentsthatheleftbehindhimthereisnoallusiontoit。
  Once,someyearsago,IreadthroughtheciphervolumesofrecordsthatIhavespokenof,andofwhichhegavemethekeybeforehedied。
  TheystandbeforemeontheshelfasI
  write,andinthemaremanyhistoriesofshame,sorrow,andevil,offaithdeludedandinnocencebetrayed,ofthecrueltyofpriests,ofavaricetriumphantoverlove,andoflovetriumphantoverdeath——
  enough,indeed,tofurnishhalfahundredoftrueromances。
  Butamongthesechroniclesofagenerationnowpastandforgotten,thereisnomentionofFonseca’sownnameandnohintofhisownstory。
  Itislostforever,andperhapsthisiswell。
  Sodiedmybenefactorandbestfriend。
  WhenhewasmadereadyforburialIwentintoseehimandhelookedcalmandbeautifulinhisdeathsleep。
  Thenitwasthatshewhohadarrayedhimforthegravehandedtometwoportraitsmostdelicatelypaintedonivoryandsetingold,whichhadbeenfoundabouthisneck。
  Ihavethemyet。
  Oneisoftheheadofaladywithasweetandwistfulcountenance,andtheotherthefaceofadeadyouthalsobeautiful,butverysad。
  Doubtlesstheyweremotherandson,butIknownomoreaboutthem。
  OnthemorrowIburiedAndresdeFonseca,butwithnopomp,forhehadsaidthathewishedaslittlemoneyaspossiblespentuponhisdeadbody,andreturnedtothehousetomeetthenotaries。
  ThenthesealswerebrokenandtheparchmentsreadandIwasputinfullpossessionofthedeadman’swealth,andhavingdeductedsuchsumsaswerepayablefordues,legacies,andfees,thenotariesleftmebowinghumbly,forwasInotrich?
  Yes,Iwasrich,wealthhadcometomewithouteffort,andIhadreasontodesireit,yetthiswasthesaddestnightthatIhadpassedsinceIsetfootinSpain,formymindwasfilledwithdoubtsandsorrow,andmoreovermylonelinessgotaholdofme。
  Butsadasitmightbe,itwasdestinedtoseemyetmoresorrowfulbeforethemorning。
  ForasI
  satmakingpretencetoeat,aservantcametomesayingthatawomanwaitedintheouterroomwhohadaskedtoseehislatemaster。
  GuessingthatthiswassomeclientwhohadnotheardofFonseca’sdeathIwasabouttoorderthatsheshouldbedismissed,thenbethoughtmethatImightbeofservicetoherorattheleastforgetsomeofmyowntroubleinlisteningtohers。
  SoIbadehimbringherin。
  Presentlyshecame,atallwomanwrappedinadarkcloakthathidherface。
  Ibowedandmotionedtohertobeseated,whensuddenlyshestartedandspoke。
  ’IaskedtoseeDonAndresdeFonseca,’shesaidinalowquickvoice。
  ’Youarenothe,senor。’
  ’AndresdeFonsecawasburiedto-day,’Ianswered。
  ’Iwashisassistantinhisbusinessandamhisheir。
  IfIcanserveyouinanywayIamatyourdisposal。’
  ’Youareyoung——veryyoung,’shemurmuredconfusedly,’andthematteristerribleandurgent。
  HowcanItrustyou?’
  ’Itisforyoutojudge,senora。’
  Shethoughtawhile,thendrewoffhercloak,displayingtherobesofanun。
  ’Listen,’shesaid。
  ’Imustdomanyapenanceforthisnight’swork,andveryhardlyhaveIwonleavetocomehitheruponanerrandofmercy。
  NowIcannotgobackempty-handed,soImusttrustyou。
  ButfirstswearbythineblessedMotherofGodthatyouwillnotbetrayme。’
  ’Igiveyoumyword,’Ianswered;’ifthatisnotenough,letusendthistalk。’
  ’Donotbeangrywithme,’shepleaded;’IhavenotleftmyconventwallsformanyyearsandIamdistraughtwithgrief。
  Iseekapoisonofthedeadliest。
  Iwillpaywellforit。’
  ’Iamnotthetoolofmurderers,’Ianswered。
  ’Forwhatpurposedoyouwishthepoison?’
  ’Oh!Imusttellyou——yethowcanI?
  Inourconventtherediesto-
  nightawomanyoungandfair,almostagirlindeed,whohasbrokenthevowsshetook。
  Shediesto-nightwithherbabe——thus,ohGod,thus!bybeingbuiltaliveintothefoundationsofthehouseshehasdisgraced。
  Itisthejudgmentthathasbeenpasseduponher,judgmentwithoutforgivenessorreprieve。
  Iamtheabbessofthisconvent——asknotitsnameormine——andIlovethissinnerasthoughsheweremydaughter。