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第5章

  However,nothingelsepassedatthattime;itwasbutasur-
  prise,andwhenhewasgoneIsoonrecoveredmyselfagain。
  Hehadstayedlongerwithme,buthehappenedtolookout
  atthewindowandseehissisterscomingupthegarden,so
  hetookhisleave,kissedmeagain,toldmehewasveryserious,
  andIshouldhearmoreofhimveryquickly,andawayhewent,
  leavingmeinfinitelypleased,thoughsurprised;andhadthere
  notbeenonemisfortuneinit,Ihadbeenintheright,butthe
  mistakelayhere,thatMrs。Bettywasinearnestandthe
  gentlemanwasnot。
  Fromthistimemyheadranuponstrangethings,andImay
  trulysayIwasnotmyself;tohavesuchagentlemantalkto
  meofbeinginlovewithme,andofmybeingsuchacharming
  creature,ashetoldmeIwas;thesewerethingsIknewnot
  howtobear,myvanitywaselevatedtothelastdegree。
  Itis
  trueIhadmyheadfullofpride,but,knowingnothingofthe
  wickednessofthetimes,Ihadnotonethoughtofmyown
  safetyorofmyvirtueaboutme;andhadmyyoungmaster
  offereditatfirstsight,hemighthavetakenanylibertyhe
  thoughtfitwithme;buthedidnotseehisadvantage,which
  wasmyhappinessforthattime。
  Afterthisattackitwasnotlongbuthefoundanopportunity
  tocatchmeagain,andalmostinthesameposture;indeed,it
  hadmoreofdesigninitonhispart,thoughnotonmypart。
  wasthus:
  theyoungladieswereallgonea-visitingwiththeir
  mother;hisbrotherwasoutoftown;andasforhisfather,he
  hadbeeninLondonforaweekbefore。
  Hehadsowellwatched
  methatheknewwhereIwas,thoughIdidnotsomuchasknow
  thathewasinthehouse;andhebrisklycomesupthestairsand,
  seeingmeatwork,comesintotheroomtomedirectly,and
  beganjustashedidbefore,withtakingmeinhisarms,and
  kissingmeforalmostaquarterofanhourtogether。
  Itwashisyoungersister’schamberthatIwasin,andasthere
  wasnobodyinthehousebutthemaidsbelow-stairs,hewas,
  itmaybe,theruder;inshort,hebegantobeinearnestwithme
  indeed。
  Perhapshefoundmealittletooeasy,forGodknows
  Imadenoresistancetohimwhileheonlyheldmeinhisarms
  andkissedme;indeed,Iwastoowellpleasedwithittoresist
  himmuch。
  However,asitwere,tiredwiththatkindofwork,wesatdown,
  andtherehetalkedwithmeagreatwhile;hesaidhewas
  charmedwithme,andthathecouldnotrestnightordaytill
  hehadtoldmehowhewasinlovewithme,and,ifIwasable
  tolovehimagain,andwouldmakehimhappy,Ishouldbethe
  savingofhislife,andmanysuchfinethings。
  Isaidlittleto
  himagain,buteasilydiscoveredthatIwasafool,andthatI
  didnotintheleastperceivewhathemeant。
  Endof
  Thenhewalkedabouttheroom,andtakingmebythehand,
  Iwalkedwithhim;andbyandby,takinghisadvantage,he
  threwmedownuponthebed,andkissedmetheremost
  violently;but,togivehimhisdue,offerednomannerof
  rudenesstome,onlykissedagreatwhile。
  Afterthishe
  thoughthehadheardsomebodycomeupstairs,sogotofffrom
  thebed,liftedmeup,professingagreatdealofloveforme,
  buttoldmeitwasallanhonestaffection,andthathemeant
  noilltome;andwiththatheputfiveguineasintomyhand,
  andwentawaydownstairs。
  IwasmoreconfoundedwiththemoneythanIwasbeforewith
  thelove,andbegantobesoelevatedthatIscarceknewthe
  groundIstoodon。
  Iamthemoreparticularinthispart,that
  ifmystorycomestobereadbyanyinnocentyoungbody,they
  maylearnfromittoguardthemselvesagainstthemischiefs
  whichattendanearlyknowledgeoftheirownbeauty。
  Ifa
  youngwomanoncethinksherselfhandsome,sheneverdoubts
  thetruthofanymanthattellsherheisinlovewithher;forif
  shebelievesherselfcharmingenoughtocaptivatehim,’tis
  naturaltoexpecttheeffectsofit。
  Thisyounggentlemanhadfiredhisinclinationasmuchashe
  hadmyvanity,and,asifhehadfoundthathehadanopportunity
  andwassorryhedidnottakeholdofit,hecomesupagainin
  halfanhourorthereabouts,andfallstoworkwithmeagainas
  before,onlywithalittlelessintroduction。
  Andfirst,whenheenteredtheroom,heturnedaboutandshut
  thedoor。
  ’Mrs。Betty,’saidhe,’Ifanciedbeforesomebody
  wascomingupstairs,butitwasnotso;however,’addshe,
  ’iftheyfindmeintheroomwithyou,theyshan’tcatchme
  a-kissingofyou。’ItoldhimIdidnotknowwhoshouldbe
  comingupstairs,forIbelievedtherewasnobodyinthehouse
  butthecookandtheothermaid,andtheynevercameupthose
  stairs。
  ’Well,mydear,’sayshe,’’tisgoodtobesure,however’;
  andsohesitsdown,andwebegantotalk。
  Andnow,though
  Iwasstillallonfirewithhisfirstvisit,andsaidlittle,hedid
  asitwereputwordsinmymouth,tellingmehowpassionately
  helovedme,andthatthoughhecouldnotmentionsuchathing
  tillhecametothisestate,yethewasresolvedtomakemehappy
  then,andhimselftoo;thatistosay,tomarryme,andabundance
  ofsuchfinethings,whichI,poorfool,didnotunderstandthe
  driftof,butactedasiftherewasnosuchthingasanykindof
  lovebutthatwhichtendedtomatrimony;andifhehadspoke
  ofthat,Ihadnoroom,aswellasnopower,tohavesaidno;
  butwewerenotcomethatlengthyet。
  Wehadnotsatlong,buthegotup,and,stoppingmyvery
  breathwithkisses,threwmeuponthebedagain;butthen
  beingbothwellwarmed,hewentfartherwithmethandecency
  permitsmetomention,norhaditbeeninmypowertohave
  deniedhimatthatmoment,hadheofferedmuchmorethan
  hedid。
  However,thoughhetookthesefreedomswithme,itdidnot
  gotothatwhichtheycallthelastfavour,which,todohim
  justice,hedidnotattempt;andhemadethatself-denialofhis
  apleaforallhisfreedomswithmeuponotheroccasionsafter
  this。
  Whenthiswasover,hestayedbutalittlewhile,buthe
  putalmostahandfulofgoldinmyhand,andleftme,making
  athousandprotestationsofhispassionforme,andofhis
  lovingmeaboveallthewomenintheworld。
  ItwillnotbestrangeifInowbegantothink,butalas!itwas
  butwithverylittlesolidreflection。
  Ihadamostunbounded
  stockofvanityandpride,andbutaverylittlestockofvirtue。
  Ididindeedcasesometimeswithmyselfwhatyoungmaster
  aimedat,butthoughtofnothingbutthefinewordsandthe
  gold;whetherheintendedtomarryme,ornottomarryme,
  seemedamatterofnogreatconsequencetome;nordidmy
  thoughtssomuchassuggesttomethenecessityofmaking
  anycapitulationformyself,tillhecametomakeakindof
  formalproposaltome,asyoushallhearpresently。
  ThusIgaveupmyselftoareadinessofbeingruinedwithout
  theleastconcernandamafairmementotoallyoungwomen
  whosevanityprevailsovertheirvirtue。
  Nothingwaseverso
  stupidonbothsides。
  HadIactedasbecameme,andresisted
  asvirtueandhonourrequire,thisgentlemanhadeitherdesisted
  hisattacks,findingnoroomtoexpecttheaccomplishmentof
  hisdesign,orhadmadefairandhonourableproposalsof
  marriage;inwhichcase,whoeverhadblamedhim,nobody
  couldhaveblamedme。
  Inshort,ifhehadknownme,and
  howeasythetrifleheaimedatwastobehad,hewouldhave
  troubledhisheadnofarther,buthavegivenmefourorfive
  guineas,andhavelainwithmethenexttimehehadcomeatme。
  AndifIhadknownhisthoughts,andhowhardhethoughtI
  wouldbetobegained,Imighthavemademyowntermswith
  him;andifIhadnotcapitulatedforanimmediatemarriage,
  Imightforamaintenancetillmarriage,andmighthavehad
  whatIwould;forhewasalreadyrichtoexcess,besideswhat
  hehadinexpectation;butIseemedwhollytohaveabandoned
  allsuchthoughtsasthese,andwastakenuponlywiththepride
  ofmybeauty,andofbeingbelovedbysuchagentleman。
  forthegold,Ispentwholehoursinlookinguponit;Itoldthe
  guineasoverandoverathousandtimesaday。
  Neverpoor
  vaincreaturewassowraptupwitheverypartofthestoryas
  Iwas,notconsideringwhatwasbeforeme,andhownearmy
  ruinwasatthedoor;indeed,IthinkIratherwishedforthat
  ruinthanstudiedtoavoidit。
  Inthemeantime,however,Iwascunningenoughnottogive
  theleastroomtoanyinthefamilytosuspectme,ortoimagine
  thatIhadtheleastcorrespondencewiththisyounggentleman。
  Iscarceeverlookedtowardshiminpublic,oransweredifhe
  spoketomewhenanybodywasnearus;butforallthat,we
  hadeverynowandthenalittleencounter,wherewehadroom
  forawordortwo,annowandthenakiss,butnofairopportunity
  forthemischiefintended;andespeciallyconsideringthathe
  mademorecircumlocutionthan,ifhehadknownbythoughts,
  hehadoccasionfor;andtheworkappearingdifficulttohim,
  hereallymadeitso。
  Butasthedevilisanunweariedtempter,soheneverfailsto
  findopportunityforthatwickednessheinvitesto。
  Itwasone
  eveninethatIwasinthegarden,withhistwoyoungersisters
  andhimself,andallveryinnocentlymerry,whenhefound
  meanstoconveyanoteintomyhand,bywhichhedirected
  metounderstandthathewouldto-morrowdesiremepublicly
  togoofanerrandforhimintothetown,andthatIshouldsee
  himsomewherebytheway。
  Accordingly,afterdinner,heverygravelysaystome,his
  sistersbeingallby,’Mrs。Betty,Imustaskafavourofyou。’
  ’What’sthat?’sayshissecondsister。
  ’Nay,sister,’sayshe
  verygravely,’ifyoucan’tspareMrs。Bettyto-day,anyother
  timewilldo。’
  Yes,theysaid,theycouldspareherwellenough,
  andthesisterbeggedpardonforasking,whichtheydidbutof
  merecourse,withoutanymeaning。
  ’Well,but,brother,’says
  theeldestsister,’youmusttellMrs。Bettywhatitis;ifitbe
  anyprivatebusinessthatwemustnothear,youmaycallher