Whenthespringseasoncameon,shecontinuedtobeasking
tomeasshecould,andIlodgedwithherforatime,tillitwas
foundnecessarytodootherwise。
Shehadsomepersonsof
characterthatfrequentlylodgedinherhouse,andinparticular
thegentlemanwho,asIsaid,singledmeoutforhiscompanion
thewinterbefore;andhecamedownagainwithanother
gentlemaninhiscompanyandtwoservants,andlodgedinthe
samehouse。
Isuspectedthatmylandladyhadinvitedhim
thither,lettinghimknowthatIwasstillwithher;butshedenied
it,andprotestedtomethatshedidnot,andhesaidthesame。
Inaword,thisgentlemancamedownandcontinuedtosingle
meoutforhispeculiarconfidenceaswellasconversation。
Hewasacompletegentleman,thatmustbeconfessed,and
hiscompanywasveryagreeabletome,asmine,ifImight
believehim,wastohim。
Hemadenoprofessionstobebut
ofanextraordinaryrespect,andhehadsuchanopinionofmy
virtue,that,asheoftenprofessed,hebelievedifheshouldoffer
anythingelse,Ishouldrejecthimwithcontempt。
Hesoon
understoodfrommethatIwasawidow;thatIhadarrivedat
BristolfromVirginiabythelastships;andthatIwaitedatBath
tillthenextVirginiafleetshouldarrive,bywhichIexpected
considerableeffects。
Iunderstoodbyhim,andbyothersof
him,thathehadawife,butthattheladywasdistemperedin
herhead,andwasundertheconductofherownrelations,
whichheconsentedto,toavoidanyreflectionsthatmightas
wasnotunusualinsuchcasesbecastonhimformismanaging
hercure;andinthemeantimehecametotheBathtodiverthis
thoughtsfromthedisturbanceofsuchamelancholycircumstance
asthatwas。
Mylandlady,whoofherownaccordencouragedthe
correspondenceonalloccasions,gavemeanadvantageous
characterofhim,asamanofhonourandofvirtue,aswell
asofgreatestate。
AndindeedIhadagreatdealofreasonto
saysoofhimtoo;forthoughwelodgedbothonafloor,and
hehadfrequentlycomeintomychamber,evenwhenIwasin
bed,andIalsointohiswhenhewasinbed,yetheneveroffered
anythingtomefurtherthanakiss,orsomuchassolicitedme
toanythingtilllongafter,asyoushallhear。
Ifrequentlytooknoticetomylandladyofhisexceeding
modesty,andsheagainusedtotellme,shebelieveditwasso
fromthebeginning;however,sheusedtotellmethatshe
thoughtIoughttoexpectsomegratificationfromhimformy
company,forindeedhedid,asitwere,engrossme,andIwas
seldomfromhim。
ItoldherIhadnotgivenhimtheleast
occasiontothinkIwantedit,orthatIwouldacceptofitfrom
him。
Shetoldmeshewouldtakethatpartuponher,andshe
didso,andmanageditsodexterously,thatthefirsttimewe
weretogetheralone,aftershehadtalkedwithhim,hebegan
toinquirealittleintomycircumstances,ashowIhadsubsisted
myselfsinceIcameonshore,andwhetherIdidnotwantmoney。
Istoodoffveryboldly。
Itoldhimthatthoughmycargoof
tobaccowasdamaged,yetthatitwasnotquitelost;thatthe
merchantIhadbeenconsignedtohadsohonestlymanaged
formethatIhadnotwanted,andthatIhoped,withfrugal
management,Ishouldmakeitholdouttillmorewouldcome,
whichIexpectedbythenextfleet;thatinthemeantimeIhad
retrenchedmyexpenses,andwhereasIkeptamaidlastseason,
nowIlivedwithout;andwhereasIhadachamberanda
dining-roomthenonthefirstfloor,asheknew,Inowhadbut
oneroom,twopairofstairs,andthelike。
’ButIlive,’saidI,
’aswellsatisfiednowasIdidthen’;adding,thathiscompany
hadbeenameanstomakemelivemuchmorecheerfullythan
otherwiseIshouldhavedone,forwhichIwasmuchobliged
tohim;andsoIputoffallroomforanyofferforthepresent。
However,itwasnotlongbeforeheattackedmeagain,and
toldmehefoundthatIwasbackwardtotrusthimwiththe
secretofmycircumstances,whichhewassorryfor;assuring
methatheinquiredintoitwithnodesigntosatisfyhisown
curiosity,butmerelytoassistme,iftherewasanyoccasion;
butsinceIwouldnotownmyselftostandinneedofany
assistance,hehadbutonethingmoretodesireofme,andthat
was,thatIwouldpromisehimthatwhenIwasanywaystraitened,
orliketobeso,Iwouldfranklytellhimofit,andthatIwould
makeuseofhimwiththesamefreedomthathemadetheoffer;
adding,thatIshouldalwaysfindIhadatruefriend,though
perhapsIwasafraidtotrusthim。
Iomittednothingthatwasfittobesaidbyoneinfinitely
obliged,tolethimknowthatIhadaduesenseofhiskindness;
andindeedfromthattimeIdidnotappearsomuchreserved
tohimasIhaddonebefore,thoughstillwithintheboundsof
thestrictestvirtueonbothsides;buthowfreesoeverour
conversationwas,Icouldnotarrivetothatsortoffreedom
whichhedesired,viz。totellhimIwantedmoney,thoughI
wassecretlyverygladofhisoffer。
Someweekspassedafterthis,andstillIneveraskedhimfor
money;whenmylandlady,acunningcreature,whohadoften
pressedmetoit,butfoundthatIcouldnotdoit,makesa
storyofherowninventing,andcomesinbluntlytomewhen
weweretogether。
’Oh,widow!’saysshe,’Ihavebadnews
totellyouthismorning。’
’Whatisthat?’saidI;’arethe
VirginiashipstakenbytheFrench?’——forthatwasmyfear。
’No,no,’saysshe,’butthemanyousenttoBristolyesterday
formoneyiscomeback,andsayshehasbroughtnone。’
NowIcouldbynomeanslikeherproject;Ithoughitlooked
toomuchlikepromptinghim,whichindeedhedidnotwant,
andIclearlythatIshouldlosenothingbybeingbackwardto
ask,soItookherupshort。
’Ican’timagewhyheshouldsay
sotoyou,’saidI,’forIassureyouhebroughtmeallthe
moneyIsenthimfor,andhereitis,’saidIpullingoutmy
pursewithabouttwelveguineasinit;andadded,’Iintend
youshallhavemostofitbyandby。’
Heseemeddistastedalittleathertalkingasshedidatfirst,
aswellasI,takingit,asIfanciedhewould,assomething
forwardofher;butwhenhesawmegivesuchananswer,he
cameimmediatelytohimselfagain。
Thenextmorningwe
talkedofitagain,whenIfoundhewasfullysatisfied,and,
smiling,saidhehopedIwouldnotwantmoneyandnottell
himofit,andthatIhadpromisedhimotherwise。
Itoldhim
Ihadbeenverymuchdissatisfiedatmylandlady’stalkingso
publiclythedaybeforeof
whatshehadnothingtodowith;
butIsupposedshewantedwhatIowedher,whichwasabout
eightguineas,whichIhadresolvedtogiveher,andhad
accordinglygivenitherthesamenightshetalkedsofoolishly。
HewasinamightgoodhumourwhenheheardmesayIhad
paidher,anditwentoffintosomeotherdiscourseatthattime。
Butthenextmorning,hehavingheardmeupaboutmyroom
beforehim,hecalledtome,andIanswering,heaskedmeto
comeintohischamber。
HewasinbedwhenIcamein,and
hemademecomeandsitdownonhisbedside,forhesaidhe
hadsomethingtosaytomewhichwasofsomemoment。
Aftersomeverykindexpressions,heaskedmeifIwouldbe
veryhonesttohim,andgiveasincereanswertoonethinghe
woulddesireofme。
Aftersomelittlecavilattheword’sincere,’
andaskinghimifIhadevergivenhimanyanswerswhichwere
notsincere,IpromisedhimIwould。
Why,then,hisrequest
was,hesaid,tolethimseemypurse。
Iimmediatelyputmy
handintomypocket,and,laughingtohim,pulleditout,and
therewasinitthreeguineasandahalf。
Thenheaskedmeif
therewasallthemoneyIhad。
ItoldhimNo,laughingagain,
notbyagreatdeal。
Well,then,hesaid,hewouldhavemepromisetogoand
fetchhimallthemoneyIhad,everyfarthing。
ItoldhimI
would,andIwentintomychamberandfetchedhimalittle
privatedrawer,whereIhadaboutsixguineasmore,andsome
silver,andthrewitalldownuponthebed,andtoldhimthere
wasallmywealth,honestlytoashilling。
Helookedalittle
atit,butdidnottellit,andhuddleditallintothedraweragain,
andthenreachinghispocket,pulledoutakey,andbademe
openalittlewalnut-treeboxhehaduponthetable,andbring
himsuchadrawer,whichIdid。
Inwhichdrawertherewasa
greatdealofmoneyingold,Ibelieveneartwohundredguineas,
butIknewnothowmuch。
Hetookthedrawer,andtakingmy
hand,mademeputitinandtakeawholehandful。
Iwas
backwardatthat,butheheldmyhandhardinhishand,and
putitintothedrawer,andmademetakeoutasmanyguineas
almostasIcouldwelltakeupatonce。
WhenIhaddoneso,hemademeputthemintomylap,
andtookmylittledrawer,andpouredoutallmymoneyamong
his,andbademegetmegone,andcarryitallhomeintomy
ownchamber。
Irelatethisstorythemoreparticularlybecauseofthe
good-humourtherewasinit,andtoshowthetemperwith
whichweconversed。
Itwasnotlongafterthisbuthebegan
everydaytofindfaultwithmyclothes,withmylacesand
headdresses,and,inaword,pressedmetobuybetter;which,
bytheway,Iwaswillingenoughtodo,thoughIdidnotseem
tobeso,forIlovednothingintheworldbetterthanfineclothes。
ItoldhimImusthousewifethemoneyhehadlentme,orelse
Ishouldnotbeabletopayhimagain。
Hethentoldme,ina
fewwords,thatashehadasincererespectforme,andknew
mycircumstances,hehadnotlentmethatmoney,butgiven
itme,andthathethoughtIhadmeriteditfromhimbygiving
himmycompanysoentirelyasIhaddone。
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