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  havejustgiventhemtheliedirect,byperformingmyEaster
  devotionspublicly;thusprovingtoallmylively
  desiretoterminatemylongcareerinthereligioninwhichIwas
  born;andIhavefulfilledthisimportantactafteradozen
  consecutiveattacksoffever,whichmademefearIshoulddie
  beforeIcouldassureyouofmyrespectandmydevotion。“
  Thisapologygavemerealpleasure。
  Ipretendedtobelievethe
  sincerityofhimwhoaddressedme,altho’hehadnotconvinced
  meofhisinnocence;andIwrotethefollowingreplytoM。de
  Voltaire,whichasillypridedictatestometocommunicateto
  you,inconjunctionwiththeletterofthephilosopher:
  “MONSIEUR:——Evenwereyouculpablefromtoomuchfriendship
  towardsthoseyoucherish,Iwouldpardonyouasarecompensefor
  theletteryouaddresstome。
  Thisoughtthemoretocharmme,as
  itgivesmethecertaintythatyouhadbeenunworthilycalumniated。
  Couldyouhavesaid,undertheveilofsecrecy,thingsdisagreeable
  toagreatking,forwhom,incommonwithallFrance,youprofess
  sincerelove?
  Itisimpossible。
  Couldyou,withgaietyofheart,
  woundafemalewhoneverdidyouharm,andwhoadmiresyour
  splendidgenius?
  Infact,couldthoseyoucallyourfriendshave
  stoopedsolowasnottohavefearedtocompromiseyou,bymaking
  youplayapartunworthyofyourelevatedreputation?
  Allthese
  suppositionswereunreasonable:Icouldnotforamomentadmitthem,
  andyourtwolettershaveentirelyjustifiedyou。
  Icannowgive
  myselfupwithoutregrettomyenthusiasmforyouandyourworks。
  Itwouldhavebeentoocruelformetohavelearntwithcertainty
  thathewhomIregardedasthefirstwriteroftheagehadbecome
  mydetractorwithoutmotive,withoutprovocation。
  Thatitisnotso
  IgivethankstoProvidence。
  “M。theducd’Aiguillondidnotdeceiveyouwhenhetoldyou
  thatIfedonyoursublimepoetry。
  Iaminliteratureaperfect
  novice,andyetamsensibleofthetruebeautieswhichabound
  inyourworks。
  Iamtobeincludedamongstthestoneswhich
  wereanimatedbyAmphion:thisisoneofyourtriumphs;butto
  thisyoumustbeaccustomed。
  “Believealsothatallyourfriendsarenotintheenemy’scamp。
  Therearethoseaboutmewholoveyousincerely,M。deChauvelin,
  forinstance,MM。deRichelieuandd’Aiguillon:thislattereulogizes
  youincessantly;andifalltheworldthoughtashedoes,youwould
  behereinyourplace。
  Butthereareterribleprejudiceswhichmy
  candorwillnotallowmetodissemble,whichyouhavetoovercome。
  Thereiswhocomplainsofyou,andthisonemustbewonover
  toyourinterests。
  Hewishesyoutotestifymorevenerationfor
  whathevenerateshimself;thatyourattacksshouldnotbeso
  vehementnorsoconstant。
  Isitthenimpossibleforyoutocomply
  hiswishesinthisparticular?
  Besurethatyouonly,insettingno
  boundsinyourattacksonreligion,doyourselfavastmischiefwith
  thepersoninquestion。
  “ItwillappearstrangethatIshouldholdsuchlanguagetoyou:
  Ionlydoittoserveyou:donottakemystatementsunkindly。
  havenowafavortoaskofyou;whichis,toincludemeinthelist
  ofthosetowhomyousendthefirstfruitsofthebrilliant
  productionsofyourpen。
  Thereisnonewhoismoredevotedto
  you,andwhohasamoreardentdesiretoconvinceyouofthis。
  “Iam,,withreal
  attachment,etc。“
  IshowedthislettertoM。deRichelieu。
  “Why,“heinquired,’haveyounotassuredhimastoyourindiscretion,
  whichhefears?“
  “Becausehisfearseemedtomeunjust,andIleaveyoutorepresent
  metohimasIam;andnow,“Iadded,“itdoesnotappeartome
  necessaryforthekingtoknowanythingofthis。“
  “Youthinkwisely,madame;whatmostdispleasedhimwastosee
  madamedePompadourinregularcorrespondencewithM。deVoltaire。“
  Ihaverelatedtoyouthisepisodeofmyhistory,thatitmay
  recompenseyouforthetiresomedetailsofmypresentation。
  resumemyrecital。
  ItoldyouthatM。deMaupeouhadtoldme
  thathewouldendeavortobringmadamelamarechaledeMirepoix,
  andintroducehertome,trustingtothefriendshipshehadevinced
  formadamedePompadourduring,thewholetimeofthefavorand
  lifeofherwhoprecededmeintheaffectionsofLouisXV。
  I
  found,tomysurprise,thathesaidnothingtomeconcerningit
  forseveraldays,whensuddenlymadamelamarechaledeMirepoix
  wasannounced。
  AtthisnameandthistitleIrosequiteinafluster,without
  clearlyknowingwhatcouldbetheobjectofthisvisit,forwhich
  Iwasunprepared。
  Themarechale,whofollowedcloselyonthe
  valet’sheels,didnotgivemetimeformuchreflection。
  Shetook
  mereally,andIhadnottimetogoandmeether。
  “Madamelamarechale,“saidI,accostingher,“whatluckychance
  bringsyoutoaplacewherethedesiretohaveyoursocietyissogreat?“
  “Itisthefeelingofrealsympathy,“shereplied,withagracious
  smile;“forIalsohavelongedforaconsiderabletimetovisit
  you,andhaveyieldedtomywishesassoonasIwascertainthat
  myadvanceswouldnotberepulsed。“
  “Ah,madame。,“saidI,“hadyouseriouslyanysuchfear?
  That
  tellsmemuchlessofthemistrustyouhadofyourselfthanofthe
  badopinionyouhadconceivedofme。
  Thehonorofyourvisits——“
  “Thehonorofmyvisits!
  That’sadmirable!
  Iwishtoobtaina
  portionofyourfriendship,andtotestifytothekingthatIam
  sincerelyattachedtohim。“
  “Youoverwhelmme,madame,“criedI,muchdelighted,“andIbeg
  youtogivemeyourconfidence。“
  “Well,now,allisarrangedbetweenus:Isuityouandyouplease
  me。
  ItislongsinceIwasdesirousofcomingtoyou,butweare
  allundertheyokeofthemustabsurdtyranny:soonweshallhave
  nopermissiontogo,tocome,tospeak,toholdourtongues,without
  firstobtainingtheconsentofacertainfamily。
  Thisyokehas
  weariedme;andonthefirstwordofthechancellorofFranceI
  hastenedtoyou。“
  “Ihadbeggedhim,madame,toexpresstoyouhowmuchIshouldbe
  charmedtohaveyouwhenthekinggracedmewithhispresence。
  He
  likesyou,heisaccustomedtothedelightsofyoursociety;andI
  shouldhavebeendeeplychagrinedhadIcomehereonlytodeprive
  himofthatpleasure。“
  “Heisagoodmaster,“saidthemarechale,“heisworthyofall
  ourlove。
  Ihavehadopportunitiesofknowinghimthoroughly,
  forIwasmostintimatewithmadamedePompadour;andIbelieve
  thatmyadvicewillnotbeuselesstoyou。“
  “Iaskitofyou,madamelamarechale,foritwillbeprecioustome。“
  “Sincewearefriends,madame,“saidshe,seatingherselfina
  chair,“donotthinkillofmeifIestablishmyselfatmyease,
  andtakemystationasinthedaysofyore。
  Thekinglovesyou:
  somuchthebetter。
  Youwillhaveadoubleempireoverhim。
  He
  didnotlovethemarquise,andallowedhimselftobegovernedby
  her;forwithhim——Iaskpardonofyourexcessivebeauty——custom
  doesall。
  Itisnecessary,mydearcountess,tousethedoublelever
  youhave,ofyourowncharmsandhisconstantcustomtodo
  to-morrowwhathedoesto-daybecausehedidityesterday,and
  forthisyoulackneithergracenorwit。“
  IhadheardagreatdealconcerningmadamedeMirepoix;butI
  owntoyou,thatbeforeIheardherspeakIhadnoideawhatsort
  ofapersonshewouldprove。
  Shehadanairofsomuchfrankness
  andtruth,thatitwasimpossiblenottobecharmedbyit。
  Thegreater
  partofthetimeIdidnotknowhowtodefendmyselffromher——at
  oncesonaturalandsoperfidious;andoccasionallyIallowedmyself
  toloveherwithallmyheart,somuchdidsheseemtocherishme
  withallenthusiasm。
  Shehaddepthofwit,apiquancyofexpression,
  andknewhowtodisguisethoseinterestedadulationswithturns
  sonobleandbeautifulthatIhavenevermet,neitherbeforenor
  since,anywomanworthyofbeingcomparedwithher。
  Shewas,
  inhersingleself,awholesociety;andcertainlytherewasno
  possibilityofbeingweariedwhenshewasthere。
  Hertemperwas
  mostequable,aqualificationrarelyobtainedwithoutalossof
  warmthoffeeling。
  Shealwayspleasedbecauseherbusinesswas
  topleaseandnottolove;anditalwayssufficedhertorenderothers
  enthusiasticandardent。
  Exceptthistendencytoegotism,shewas
  thecharmofsociety,thelifeofthepartywhomsheenlivenedby
  herpresence。
  Sheknewpreciselywhentomournwiththeafflicted,
  andjokewiththemerry-hearted。
  Thekinghadmuchpleasurein
  hercompany:heknewthatsheonlythoughthowtoamusehim;and,
  moreover,ashehadseenherfrommorningtilleveningwiththe
  marquisedePompadour,herabsencefrommypartieswasinsupportable
  tohim,andalmostcontrarytotherulesofetiquetteatthechateau。
  Icannottellyouhowgreatwashissatisfaction,when,atthe
  firstsupperwhichfollowedourintimacy,hesawherenter。