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  "Thenbehold,thesmokesuddenlydecreased。Were—
  doubledoureffortstofloodthebottomoftheship。Intwodaystherewasnosmokeatall。Everybodywasonthebroadgrin。ThiswasonaFriday。OnSaturdaynowork,butsailingtheshipofcoursewasdone。Themenwashedtheirclothesandtheirfacesforthefirsttimeinafortnight,andhadaspecialdinnergiventhem。Theyspokeofspontaneouscombustionwithcontempt,andimpliedTHEYweretheboystoputoutcombustions。Some—
  howweallfeltasthoughweeachhadinheritedalargefortune。Butabeastlysmellofburninghungabouttheship。CaptainBeardhadholloweyesandsunkencheeks。
  Ihadnevernoticedsomuchbeforehowtwistedandbowedhewas。HeandMahonprowledsoberlyabouthatchesandventilators,sniffing。ItstruckmesuddenlypoorMahonwasavery,veryoldchap。Astome,IwasaspleasedandproudasthoughIhadhelpedtowinagreatnavalbattle。O!Youth!
  "Thenightwasfine。Inthemorningahomeward—
  boundshippassedushulldown,——thefirstwehadseenformonths;butwewerenearingthelandatlast,JavaHeadbeingabout190milesoff,andnearlyduenorth。
  "Nextdayitwasmywatchondeckfromeighttotwelve。Atbreakfastthecaptainobserved,’It’swonder—
  fulhowthatsmellhangsaboutthecabin。’Aboutten,thematebeingonthepoop,Isteppeddownonthemain—
  deckforamoment。Thecarpenter’sbenchstoodabaftthemainmast:Ileanedagainstitsuckingatmypipe,andthecarpenter,ayoungchap,cametotalktome。Heremarked,’Ithinkwehavedoneverywell,haven’twe?’
  andthenIperceivedwithannoyancethefoolwastry—
  ingtotiltthebench。Isaidcurtly,’Don’t,Chips,’andimmediatelybecameawareofaqueersensation,ofanabsurddelusion,——Iseemedsomehowtobeintheair。I
  heardallroundmelikeapent—upbreathreleased——asifathousandgiantssimultaneouslyhadsaidPhoo!——
  andfeltadullconcussionwhichmademyribsachesud—
  denly。Nodoubtaboutit——Iwasintheair,andmybodywasdescribingashortparabola。Butshortasitwas,Ihadthetimetothinkseveralthoughtsin,asfarasIcanremember,thefollowingorder:’Thiscan’tbethecarpenter——Whatisit?——Someaccident——Submarinevolcano?——Coals,gas!——ByJove!wearebeingblownup——Everybody’sdead——Iamfallingintotheafter—
  hatch——Iseefireinit。’
  "Thecoal—dustsuspendedintheairoftheholdhadgloweddull—redatthemomentoftheexplosion。Inthetwinklingofaneye,inaninfinitesimalfractionofasecondsincethefirsttiltofthebench,Iwassprawlingfulllengthonthecargo。Ipickedmyselfupandscram—
  bledout。Itwasquicklikearebound。Thedeckwasawildernessofsmashedtimber,lyingcrosswiseliketreesinawoodafterahurricane;animmensecurtainofsoiledragswavedgentlybeforeme——itwasthemainsailblowntostrips。Ithought,Themastswillbetopplingoverdirectly;andtogetoutofthewayboltedonall—fourstowardsthepoop—ladder。ThefirstpersonIsawwasMahon,witheyeslikesaucers,hismouthopen,andthelongwhitehairstandingstraightonendroundhisheadlikeasilverhalo。Hewasjustabouttogodownwhenthesightofthemain—deckstirring,heavingup,andchangingintosplintersbeforehiseyes,petrifiedhimonthetopstep。Istaredathiminunbelief,andhestaredatmewithaqueerkindofshockedcuriosity。IdidnotknowthatIhadnohair,noeyebrows,noeyelashes,thatmyyoungmustachewasburntoff,thatmyfacewasblack,onecheeklaidopen,mynosecut,andmychinbleeding。Ihadlostmycap,oneofmyslippers,andmyshirtwastorntorags。OfallthisIwasnotaware。
  Iwasamazedtoseetheshipstillafloat,thepoop—deckwhole——and,mostofall,toseeanybodyalive。Alsothepeaceoftheskyandtheserenityoftheseawereistinctlysurprising。IsupposeIexpectedtoseethemconvulsedwithhorror……Passthebottle。
  "Therewasavoicehailingtheshipfromsomewhere——intheair,inthesky——Icouldn’ttell。PresentlyI
  sawthecaptain——andhewasmad。Heaskedmeeagerly,’Where’sthecabin—table?’andtohearsuchaquestionwasafrightfulshock。Ihadjustbeenblownup,youunderstand,andvibratedwiththatexperience,——Iwasn’tquitesurewhetherIwasalive。Mahonbegantostampwithbothfeetandyelledathim,’GoodGod!don’tyouseethedeck’sblownoutofher?’Ifoundmyvoice,andstammeredoutasifconsciousofsomegrossneglectofduty,’Idon’tknowwherethecabin—tableis。’Itwaslikeanabsurddream。
  "Doyouknowwhathewantednext?Well,hewantedtotrimtheyards。Veryplacidly,andasiflostinthought,heinsistedonhavingtheforeyardsquared。
  ’Idon’tknowifthere’sanybodyalive,’saidMahon,almosttearfully。’Surely,’hesaidgently,’therewillbeenoughlefttosquaretheforeyard。’
  "Theoldchap,itseems,wasinhisownberth,wind—
  ingupthechronometers,whentheshocksenthimspin—
  ning。Immediatelyitoccurredtohim——ashesaidafter—
  wards——thattheshiphadstrucksomething,andheranoutintothecabin。There,hesaw,thecabin—tablehadvanishedsomewhere。Thedeckbeingblownup,ithadfallendownintothelazaretteofcourse。Wherewehadourbreakfastthatmorninghesawonlyagreatholeinthefloor。Thisappearedtohimsoawfullymysterious,andimpressedhimsoimmensely,thatwhathesawandheardafterhegotondeckweremeretriflesincom—
  parison。And,mark,henoticeddirectlythewheelde—
  sertedandhisbarkoffhercourse——andhisonlythoughtwastogetthatmiserable,stripped,undecked,smolderingshellofashipbackagainwithherheadpointingatherportofdestination。Bankok!That’swhathewasafter。Itellyouthisquiet,bowed,bandy—
  legged,almostdeformedlittlemanwasimmenseinthesinglenessofhisideaandinhisplacidignoranceofouragitation。Hemotionedusforwardwithacom—
  mandinggesture,andwenttotakethewheelhim—
  self。
  "Yes;thatwasthefirstthingwedid——trimtheyardsofthatwreck!Noonewaskilled,orevendisabled,buteveryonewasmoreorlesshurt。Youshouldhaveseenthem!Somewereinrags,withblackfaces,likecoal—
  heavers,likesweeps,andhadbulletheadsthatseemedcloselycropped,butwereinfactsingedtotheskin。
  Others,ofthewatchbelow,awakenedbybeingshotoutfromtheircollapsingbunks,shiveredincessantly,andkeptongroaningevenaswewentaboutourwork。Buttheyallworked。ThatcrewofLiverpoolhardcaseshadinthemtherightstuff。It’smyexperiencetheyalwayshave。Itistheseathatgivesit——thevastness,thelone—
  linesssurroundingtheirdarkstolidsouls。Ah!Well!
  westumbled,wecrept,wefell,webarkedourshinsonthewreckage,wehauled。Themastsstood,butwedidnotknowhowmuchtheymightbecharreddownbelow。
  Itwasnearlycalm,butalongswellranfromthewestandmadeherroll。Theymightgoatanymoment。Welookedatthemwithapprehension。Onecouldnotfore—
  seewhichwaytheywouldfall。
  "Thenweretreatedaftandlookedaboutus。Thedeckwasatangleofplanksonedge,ofplanksonend,ofsplinters,ofruinedwoodwork。Themastsrosefromthatchaoslikebigtreesaboveamattedundergrowth。
  Theintersticesofthatmassofwreckagewerefullofsomethingwhitish,sluggish,stirring——ofsomethingthatwaslikeagreasyfog。Thesmokeoftheinvisiblefirewascomingupagain,wastrailing,likeapoisonousthickmistinsomevalleychokedwithdeadwood。Alreadylazywispswerebeginningtocurlupwardsamongstthemassofsplinters。Hereandthereapieceoftimber,stuckupright,resembledapost。Halfofafife—railhadbeenshotthroughtheforesail,andtheskymadeapatchofgloriousblueintheignoblysoiledcanvas。A
  portionofseveralboardsholdingtogetherhadfallenacrosstherail,andoneendprotrudedoverboard,likeagangwayleadinguponnothing,likeagangwayleadingoverthedeepsea,leadingtodeath——asifinvitingustowalktheplankatonceandbedonewithourridiculoustroubles。Andstilltheair,thesky——aghost,somethinginvisiblewashailingtheship。
  "Someonehadthesensetolookover,andtherewasthehelmsman,whohadimpulsivelyjumpedoverboard,anxioustocomeback。Heyelledandswamlustilylikeamerman,keepingupwiththeship。Wethrewhimarope,andpresentlyhestoodamongstusstreamingwithwaterandverycrest—fallen。Thecaptainhadsurren—
  deredthewheel,andapart,elbowonrailandchininhand,gazedattheseawistfully。Weaskedourselves,Whatnext?Ithought,Now,thisissomethinglike。
  Thisisgreat。Iwonderwhatwillhappen。Oyouth!
  "SuddenlyMahonsightedasteamerfarastern。Cap—
  tainBeardsaid,’Wemaydosomethingwithheryet。’
  Wehoistedtwoflags,whichsaidintheinternationallanguageofthesea,’Onfire。Wantimmediateassis—
  tance。’Thesteamergrewbiggerrapidly,andby—and—
  byspokewithtwoflagsonherforemast,’Iamcomingtoyourassistance。’
  "Inhalfanhourshewasabreast,towindward,withinhail,androllingslightly,withherenginesstopped。Welostourcomposure,andyelledalltogetherwithexcite—
  ment,’We’vebeenblownup。’Amaninawhitehelmet,onthebridge,cried,’Yes!Allright!allright!’andhenoddedhishead,andsmiled,andmadesoothingmo—
  tionswithhishandasthoughatalotoffrightenedchil—
  dren。Oneoftheboatsdroppedinthewater,andwalkedtowardsusupontheseawithherlongoars。FourCalashespulledaswingingstroke。ThiswasmyfirstsightofMalayseamen。I’veknownthemsince,butwhatstruckmethenwastheirunconcern:theycamealongside,andeventhebowmanstandingupandholdingtoourmain—chainswiththeboat—hookdidnotdeigntolifthisheadforaglance。Ithoughtpeoplewhohadbeenblownupdeservedmoreattention。
  "Alittleman,drylikeachipandagilelikeamonkey,clamberedup。Itwasthemateofthesteamer。Hegaveonelook,andcried,’Oboys——youhadbetterquit。’
  "Weweresilent。Hetalkedapartwiththecaptainforatime,——seemedtoarguewithhim。Thentheywentawaytogethertothesteamer。
  "WhenourskippercamebackwelearnedthatthesteamerwastheSommerville,CaptainNash,fromWestAustraliatoSingaporeviaBataviawithmails,andthattheagreementwassheshouldtowustoAnjerorBa—
  tavia,ifpossible,wherewecouldextinguishthefirebyscuttling,andthenproceedonourvoyage——toBankok!
  Theoldmanseemedexcited。’Wewilldoityet,’hesaidtoMahon,fiercely。Heshookhisfistatthesky。
  Nobodyelsesaidaword。
  "Atnoonthesteamerbegantotow。Shewentaheadslimandhigh,andwhatwasleftoftheJudeafollowedattheendofseventyfathomoftow—rope,——followedherswiftlylikeacloudofsmokewithmastheadspro—
  trudingabove。Wewentalofttofurlthesails。Wecoughedontheyards,andwerecarefulaboutthebunts。
  Doyouseethelotofusthere,puttinganeatfurlonthesailsofthatshipdoomedtoarrivenowhere?Therewasnotamanwhodidn’tthinkthatatanymomentthemastswouldtoppleover。Fromaloftwecouldnotseetheshipforsmoke,andtheyworkedcarefully,passingthegasketswitheventurns。’Harborfurl——aloftthere!’criedMahonfrombelow。
  "Youunderstandthis?Idon’tthinkoneofthosechapsexpectedtogetdownintheusualway。WhenwedidIheardthemsayingtoeachother,’Well,I
  thoughtwewouldcomedownoverboard,inalump——
  sticksandall——blamemeifIdidn’t。’’That’swhatI
  wasthinkingtomyself,’wouldanswerwearilyanotherbatteredandbandagedscarecrow。And,mind,theseweremenwithoutthedrilled—inhabitofobedience。Toanonlookertheywouldbealotofprofanescallywagswithoutaredeemingpoint。Whatmadethemdoit——
  whatmadethemobeymewhenI,thinkingconsciouslyhowfineitwas,madethemdropthebuntoftheforesailtwicetotryanddoitbetter?What?Theyhadnopro—
  fessionalreputation——noexamples,nopraise。Itwasn’tasenseofduty;theyallknewwellenoughhowtoshirk,andlaze,anddodge——whentheyhadamindtoit——andmostlytheyhad。Wasitthetwopoundstenamonththatsentthemthere?Theydidn’tthinktheirpayhalfgoodenough。No;itwassomethinginthem,somethinginbornandsubtleandeverlasting。Idon’tsayposi—
  tivelythatthecrewofaFrenchorGermanmerchant—
  manwouldn’thavedoneit,butIdoubtwhetheritwouldhavebeendoneinthesameway。Therewasacomplete—
  nessinit,somethingsolidlikeaprinciple,andmasterfullikeaninstinct——adisclosureofsomethingsecret——ofthathiddensomething,thatgift,ofgoodorevilthatmakesracialdifference,thatshapesthefateofnations。
  "Itwasthatnightattenthat,forthefirsttimesincewehadbeenfightingit,wesawthefire。Thespeedofthetowinghadfannedthesmolderingdestruction。A
  bluegleamappearedforward,shiningbelowthewreckofthedeck。Itwaveredinpatches,itseemedtostirandcreeplikethelightofaglowworm。Isawitfirst,andtoldMahon。’Thenthegame’sup,’hesaid。’Wehadbetterstopthistowing,orshewillburstoutsuddenlyforeandaftbeforewecanclearout。’Wesetupayell;
  rangbellstoattracttheirattention;theytowedon。AtlastMahonandIhadtocrawlforwardandcuttheropewithanax。Therewasnotimetocastoffthelashings。
  Redtonguescouldbeseenlickingthewildernessofsplintersunderourfeetaswemadeourwaybacktothepoop。
  "Ofcoursetheyverysoonfoundoutinthesteamerthattheropewasgone。Shegavealoudblastofherwhistle,herlightswereseensweepinginawidecircle,shecameuprangingclosealongside,andstopped。Wewereallinatightgrouponthepooplookingather。Everymanhadsavedalittlebundleorabag。Suddenlyacon—
  icalflamewithatwistedtopshotupforwardandthrewupontheblackseaacircleoflight,withthetwovesselssidebysideandheavinggentlyinitscenter。CaptainBeardhadbeensittingonthegratingsstillandmuteforhours,butnowheroseslowlyandadvancedinfrontofus,tothemizzen—shrouds。CaptainNashhailed:’Comealong!Looksharp。Ihavemail—bagsonboard。IwilltakeyouandyourboatstoSingapore。’
  "’Thankyou!No!’saidourskipper。’Wemustseethelastoftheship。’
  "’Ican’tstandbyanylonger,’shoutedtheother。
  ’Mails——youknow。’
  "’Ay!ay!Weareallright。’
  "’Verywell!I’llreportyouinSingapore……
  Good—by!’
  "Hewavedhishand。Ourmendroppedtheirbundlesquietly。Thesteamermovedahead,andpassingoutofthecircleoflight,vanishedatoncefromoursight,daz—
  zledbythefirewhichburnedfiercely。AndthenIknewthatIwouldseetheEastfirstascommanderofasmallboat。Ithoughtitfine;andthefidelitytotheoldshipwasfine。Weshouldseethelastofher。Ohtheglamourofyouth!Ohthefireofit,moredazzlingthantheflamesoftheburningship,throwingamagiclightonthewideearth,leapingaudaciouslytothesky,presentlytobequenchedbytime,morecruel,morepitiless,morebitterthanthesea——andliketheflamesoftheburningshipsurroundedbyanimpenetrablenight……
  "Theoldmanwarnedusinhisgentleandinflexiblewaythatitwaspartofourdutytosavefortheunder—
  writersasmuchaswecouldoftheship’sgear。Accord—
  ingwewenttoworkaft,whilesheblazedforwardtogiveusplentyoflight。Weluggedoutalotofrubbish。
  Whatdidn’twesave?Anoldbarometerfixedwithanabsurdquantityofscrewsnearlycostmemylife:asuddenrushofsmokecameuponme,andIjustgotawayintime。Therewerevariousstores,boltsofcanvas,coilsofrope;thepooplookedlikeamarinebazaar,andtheboatswerelumberedtothegunwales。Onewouldhavethoughttheoldmanwantedtotakeasmuchashecouldofhisfirstcommandwithhim。Hewasveryveryquiet,butoffhisbalanceevidently。Wouldyoubelieveit?Hewantedtotakealengthofoldstream—cableandakedge—anchorwithhiminthelong—boat。Wesaid,’Ay,ay,sir,’deferentially,andonthequietletthethingslipoverboard。Theheavymedicine—chestwentthatway,twobagsofgreencoffee,tinsofpaint——fancy,paint!——awholelotofthings。ThenIwasorderedwithtwohandsintotheboatstomakeastowageandgetthemreadyagainstthetimeitwouldbeproperforustoleavetheship。
  "Weputeverythingstraight,steppedthelong—boat’smastforourskipper,whowasinchargeofher,andI
  wasnotsorrytositdownforamoment。Myfacefeltraw,everylimbachedasifbroken,Iwasawareofallmyribs,andwouldhavesworntoatwistintheback—
  bone。Theboats,fastastern,layinadeepshadow,andallaroundIcouldseethecircleofthesealightedbythefire。Agiganticflamearoseforwardstraightandclear。
  Itflaredthere,withnoiseslikethewhirofwings,withrumblesasofthunder。Therewerecracks,detonations,andfromtheconeofflamethesparksflewupwards,asmanisborntotrouble,toleakyships,andtoshipsthatburn。
  "Whatbotheredmewasthattheship,lyingbroadsidetotheswellandtosuchwindastherewas——amerebreath——
  theboatswouldnotkeepasternwheretheyweresafe,butpersisted,inapig—headedwayboatshave,ingettingunderthecounterandthenswingingalongside。Theywereknockingaboutdangerouslyandcomingneartheflame,whiletheshiprolledonthem,and,ofcourse,therewasalwaysthedangerofthemastsgoingoverthesideatanymoment。Iandmytwoboat—keeperskeptthemoffasbestwecouldwithoarsandboat—hooks;buttobeconstantlyatitbecameexasperating,sincetherewasnoreasonwhyweshouldnotleaveatonce。Wecouldnotseethoseonboard,norcouldweimaginewhatcausedthedelay。Theboat—keeperswereswearingfeebly,andI
  hadnotonlymyshareofthework,butalsohadtokeepatittwomenwhoshowedaconstantinclinationtolaythemselvesdownandletthingsslide。
  "AtlastIhailed’Ondeckthere,’andsomeonelookedover。’We’rereadyhere,’Isaid。Theheaddisap—
  peared,andverysoonpoppedupagain。’Thecaptainsays,Allright,sir,andtokeeptheboatswellclearoftheship。’
  "Halfanhourpassed。Suddenlytherewasafrightfulracket,rattle,clankingofchain,hissofwater,andmil—
  lionsofsparksflewupintotheshiveringcolumnofsmokethatstoodleaningslightlyabovetheship。Thecat—
  headshadburnedaway,andthetwored—hotanchorshadgonetothebottom,tearingoutafterthemtwohundredfathomofred—hotchain。Theshiptrembled,themassofflameswayedasifreadytocollapse,andtheforetop—
  gallant—mastfell。Itdarteddownlikeanarrowoffire,shotunder,andinstantlyleapingupwithinanoar’s—
  lengthoftheboats,floatedquietly,veryblackontheluminoussea。Ihailedthedeckagain。Aftersometimeamaninanunexpectedlycheerfulbutalsomuffledtone,asthoughhehadbeentryingtospeakwithhismouthshut,informedme,’Comingdirectly,sir,’andvanished。
  ForalongtimeIheardnothingbutthewhirandroarofthefire。Therewerealsowhistlingsounds。Theboatsjumped,tuggedatthepainters,ranateachotherplay—
  fully,knockedtheirsidestogether,or,dowhatwewould,swunginabunchagainsttheship’sside。Icouldn’tstanditanylonger,andswarminguparope,clamberedaboardoverthestern。
  "Itwasasbrightasday。Cominguplikethis,thesheetoffirefacingme,wasaterrifyingsight,andtheheatseemedhardlybearableatfirst。Onasetteecushiondraggedoutofthecabin,CaptainBeard,withhislegsdrawnupandonearmunderhishead,sleptwiththelightplayingonhim。Doyouknowwhattherestwerebusyabout?Theyweresittingondeckrightaft,roundanopencase,eatingbreadandcheeseanddrinkingbottledstout。
  "Onthebackgroundofflamestwistinginfiercetonguesabovetheirheadstheyseemedathomelikesalamanders,andlookedlikeabandofdesperatepirates。Thefiresparkledinthewhitesoftheireyes,gleamedonpatchesofwhiteskinseenthroughthetornshirts。Eachhadthemarksasofabattleabouthim——bandagedheads,tied—uparms,astripofdirtyragroundaknee——andeachmanhadabottlebetweenhislegsandachunkofcheeseinhishand。Mahongotup。Withhishandsomeanddisreputablehead,hishookedprofile,hislongwhitebeard,andwithanuncorkedbottleinhishand,here—
  sembledoneofthoserecklesssea—robbersofoldmakingmerryamidstviolenceanddisaster。’Thelastmealonboard,’heexplainedsolemnly。’Wehadnothingtoeatallday,anditwasnouseleavingallthis。’Heflourishedthebottleandindicatedthesleepingskipper。’Hesaidhecouldn’tswallowanything,soIgothimtoliedown,’
  hewenton;andasIstared,’Idon’tknowwhetheryouareaware,youngfellow,themanhadnosleeptospeakoffordays——andtherewillbedam’littlesleepintheboats。’’Therewillbenoboatsby—and—byifyoufoolaboutmuchlonger,’Isaid,indignantly。Iwalkeduptotheskipperandshookhimbytheshoulder。Atlastheopenedhiseyes,butdidnotmove。’Timetoleaveher,sir,’Isaid,quietly。
  "Hegotuppainfully,lookedattheflames,attheseasparklingroundtheship,andblack,blackasinkfartheraway;helookedatthestarsshiningdimthroughathinveilofsmokeinaskyblack,blackasErebus。
  "’Youngestfirst,’hesaid。
  "Andtheordinaryseaman,wipinghismouthwiththebackofhishand,gotup,clamberedoverthetaffrail,andvanished。Othersfollowed。One,onthepointofgoingover,stoppedshorttodrainhisbottle,andwithagreatswingofhisarmflungitatthefire。’Takethis!’hecried。
  "Theskipperlingereddisconsolately,andwelefthimtocommunealoneforawhilewithhisfirstcommand。
  ThenIwentupagainandbroughthimawayatlast。Itwastime。Theironworkonthepoopwashottothetouch。
  "Thenthepainterofthelong—boatwascut,andthethreeboats,tiedtogether,driftedclearoftheship。Itwasjustsixteenhoursaftertheexplosionwhenweaban—
  donedher。Mahonhadchargeofthesecondboat,andI
  hadthesmallest——the14—footthing。Thelong—boatwouldhavetakenthelotofus;buttheskippersaidwemustsaveasmuchpropertyaswecould——fortheunder—
  writers——andsoIgotmyfirstcommand。Ihadtwomenwithme,abagofbiscuits,afewtinsofmeat,andabreakerofwater。Iwasorderedtokeepclosetothelong—boat,thatincaseofbadweatherwemightbetakenintoher。
  "AnddoyouknowwhatIthought?IthoughtI
  wouldpartcompanyassoonasIcould。Iwantedtohavemyfirstcommandalltomyself。Iwasn’tgoingtosailinasquadroniftherewereachanceforindepend—
  entcruising。Iwouldmakelandbymyself。Iwouldbeattheotherboats。Youth!Allyouth!Thesilly,charming,beautifulyouth。
  "Butwedidnotmakeastartatonce。Wemustseethelastoftheship。Andsotheboatsdriftedaboutthatnight,heavingandsettingontheswell。Themendozed,waked,sighed,groaned。Ilookedattheburningship。
  "Betweenthedarknessofearthandheavenshewasburningfiercelyuponadiscofpurpleseashotbytheblood—redplayofgleams;uponadiscofwaterglitter—
  ingandsinister。Ahigh,clearflame,animmenseandlonelyflame,ascendedfromtheocean,andfromitssum—
  mittheblacksmokepouredcontinuouslyatthesky。Sheburnedfuriously,mournfulandimposinglikeafuneralpilekindledinthenight,surroundedbythesea,watchedoverbythestars。Amagnificentdeathhadcomelikeagrace,likeagift,likearewardtothatoldshipattheendofherlaboriousdays。Thesurrenderofherwearyghosttothekeepingofstarsandseawasstirringlikethesightofaglorioustriumph。Themastsfelljustbeforedaybreak,andforamomenttherewasaburstandtur—
  moilofsparksthatseemedtofillwithflyingfirethenightpatientandwatchful,thevastnightlyingsilentuponthesea。Atdaylightshewasonlyacharredshell,float—
  ingstillunderacloudofsmokeandbearingaglowingmassofcoalwithin。
  "Thentheoarsweregotout,andtheboatsforminginalinemovedroundherremainsasifinprocession——thelong—boatleading。Aswepulledacrosshersternaslimdartoffireshotoutviciouslyatus,andsuddenlyshewentdown,headfirst,inagreathissofsteam。Theunconsumedsternwasthelasttosink;butthepainthadgone,hadcracked,hadpeeledoff,andtherewerenoletters,therewasnoword,nostubborndevicethatwaslikehersoul,toflashattherisingsunhercreedandhername。
  "Wemadeourwaynorth。Abreezesprangup,andaboutnoonalltheboatscametogetherforthelasttime。
  Ihadnomastorsailinmine,butImadeamastoutofaspareoarandhoistedaboat—awningforasail,withaboat—hookforayard。Shewascertainlyover—masted,butIhadthesatisfactionofknowingthatwiththewindaftIcouldbeattheothertwo。Ihadtowaitforthem。
  Thenweallhadalookatthecaptain’schart,and,afterasociablemealofhardbreadandwater,gotourlastinstructions。Theseweresimple:steernorth,andkeeptogetherasmuchaspossible。’Becarefulwiththatjuryrig,Marlow,’saidthecaptain;andMahon,asI
  sailedproudlypasthisboat,wrinkledhiscurvednoseandhailed,’Youwillsailthatshipofyoursunderwater,ifyoudon’tlookout,youngfellow。’Hewasamaliciousoldman——andmaythedeepseawherehesleepsnowrockhimgently,rockhimtenderlytotheendoftime!
  "Beforesunsetathickrain—squallpassedoverthetwoboats,whichwerefarastern,andthatwasthelastI
  sawofthemforatime。NextdayIsatsteeringmycockle—shell——myfirstcommand——withnothingbutwaterandskyaroundme。Ididsightintheafternoontheuppersailsofashipfaraway,butsaidnothing,andmymendidnotnoticeher。YouseeIwasafraidshemightbehomewardbound,andIhadnomindtoturnbackfromtheportalsoftheEast。IwassteeringforJava——
  anotherblessedname——likeBankok,youknow。Isteeredmanydays。
  "Ineednottellyouwhatitistobeknockingaboutinanopenboat。Iremembernightsanddaysofcalmwhenwepulled,wepulled,andtheboatseemedtostandstill,asifbewitchedwithinthecircleoftheseahorizon。I
  remembertheheat,thedelugeofrain—squallsthatkeptusbalingfordearlife(butfilledourwater—cask),andI
  remembersixteenhoursonendwithamouthdryasacinderandasteering—oaroverthesterntokeepmyfirstcommandheadontoabreakingsea。IdidnotknowhowgoodamanIwastillthen。Irememberthedrawnfaces,thedejectedfiguresofmytwomen,andIremembermyyouthandthefeelingthatwillnevercomebackanymore——thefeelingthatIcouldlastforever,outlastthesea,theearth,andallmen;thedeceitfulfeelingthatluresusontojoys,toperils,tolove,tovaineffort——todeath;thetriumphantconvictionofstrength,theheatoflifeinthehandfulofdust,theglowintheheartthatwitheveryyeargrowsdim,growscold,growssmall,andexpires——andexpires,toosoon——beforelifeitself。
  "AndthisishowIseetheEast。Ihaveseenitssecretplacesandhavelookedintoitsverysoul;butnowIseeitalwaysfromasmallboat,ahighoutlineofmountains,blueandafarinthemorning;likefaintmistatnoon;ajaggedwallofpurpleatsunset。Ihavethefeeloftheoarinmyhand,thevisionofascorchingblueseainmyeyes。AndIseeabay,awidebay,smoothasglassandpolishedlikeice,shimmeringinthedark。Aredlightburnsfaroffuponthegloomoftheland,andthenightissoftandwarm。Wedragattheoarswithachingarms,andsuddenlyapuffofwind,apufffaintandtepidandladenwithstrangeodorsofblossoms,ofaromaticwood,comesoutofthestillnight——thefirstsighoftheEastonmyface。ThatIcanneverforget。Itwasimpalpableandenslaving,likeacharm,likeawhisperedpromiseofmysteriousdelight。
  "Wehadbeenpullingthisfinishingspellforelevenhours。Twopulled,andhewhoseturnitwastorestsatatthetiller。Wehadmadeouttheredlightinthatbayandsteeredforit,guessingitmustmarksomesmallcoastingport。Wepassedtwovessels,outlandishandhigh—sterned,sleepingatanchor,and,approachingthelight,nowverydim,rantheboat’snoseagainsttheendofajuttingwharf。Wewereblindwithfatigue。Mymendroppedtheoarsandfelloffthethwartsasifdead。
  Imadefasttoapile。Acurrentrippledsoftly。Thescentedobscurityoftheshorewasgroupedintovastmasses,adensityofcolossalclumpsofvegetation,prob—
  ably——muteandfantasticshapes。Andattheirfootthesemicircleofabeachgleamedfaintly,likeanillusion。
  Therewasnotalight,notastir,notasound。Themys—
  teriousEastfacedme,perfumedlikeaflower,silentlikedeath,darklikeagrave。
  "AndIsatwearybeyondexpression,exultinglikeaconqueror,sleeplessandentrancedasifbeforeapro—
  found,afatefulenigma。
  "Asplashingofoars,ameasureddipreverberatingonthelevelofwater,intensifiedbythesilenceoftheshoreintoloudclaps,mademejumpup。Aboat,aEuropeanboat,wascomingin。Iinvokedthenameofthedead;Ihailed:Judeaahoy!Athinshoutan—
  swered。
  "Itwasthecaptain。Ihadbeatentheflagshipbythreehours,andIwasgladtoheartheoldman’svoice,tremu—
  lousandtired。’Isityou,Marlow?’’Mindtheendofthatjetty,sir,’Icried。
  "Heapproachedcautiously,andbroughtupwiththedeep—sealead—linewhichwehadsaved——fortheunder—
  writers。Ieasedmypainterandfellalongside。Hesat,abrokenfigureatthestern,wetwithdew,hishandsclaspedinhislap。Hismenwereasleepalready。’I
  hadaterribletimeofit,’hemurmured。’Mahonisbe—
  hind——notveryfar。’Weconversedinwhispers,inlowwhispers,asifafraidtowakeuptheland。Guns,thun—
  der,earthquakeswouldnothaveawakenedthemenjustthen。
  "Lookingaroundaswetalked,Isawawayatseaabrightlighttravelinginthenight。’There’sasteamerpassingthebay,’Isaid。Shewasnotpassing,shewasentering,andsheevencamecloseandanchored。’I
  wish,’saidtheoldman,’youwouldfindoutwhethersheisEnglish。Perhapstheycouldgiveusapassagesome—
  where。’Heseemednervouslyanxious。SobydintofpunchingandkickingIstartedoneofmymenintoastateofsomnambulism,andgivinghimanoar,tookanotherandpulledtowardsthelightsofthesteamer。
  "Therewasamurmurofvoicesinher,metallichollowclangsoftheengine—room,footstepsonthedeck。Herportsshone,roundlikedilatedeyes。Shapesmovedabout,andtherewasashadowymanhighuponthebridge。Heheardmyoars。
  "Andthen,beforeIcouldopenmylips,theEastspoketome,butitwasinaWesternvoice。Atorrentofwordswaspouredintotheenigmatical,thefatefulsilence;
  outlandish,angrywords,mixedwithwordsandevenwholesentencesofgoodEnglish,lessstrangebutevenmoresurprising。Thevoicesworeandcursedviolently;
  itriddledthesolemnpeaceofthebaybyavolleyofabuse。ItbeganbycallingmePig,andfromthatwentcrescendointounmentionableadjectives——inEnglish。
  Themanupthereragedaloudintwolanguages,andwithasincerityinhisfurythatalmostconvincedmeI
  had,insomeway,sinnedagainsttheharmonyoftheuniverse。Icouldhardlyseehim,butbegantothinkhewouldworkhimselfintoafit。
  "Suddenlyheceased,andIcouldhearhimsnortingandblowinglikeaporpoise。Isaid——
  "’Whatsteameristhis,pray?’
  "’Eh?What’sthis?Andwhoareyou?’
  "’CastawaycrewofanEnglishbarkburntatsea。
  Wecamehereto—night。Iamthesecondmate。Thecaptainisinthelong—boat,andwishestoknowifyouwouldgiveusapassagesomewhere。’
  "’Oh,mygoodness!Isay……ThisistheCelestialfromSingaporeonherreturntrip。I’llarrangewithyourcaptaininthemorning,……and,……Isay,……didyouhearmejustnow?’
  "’Ishouldthinkthewholebayheardyou。’
  "’Ithoughtyouwereashore—boat。Now,lookhere——
  thisinfernallazyscoundrelofacaretakerhasgonetosleepagain——cursehim。Thelightisout,andInearlyranfouloftheendofthisdamnedjetty。Thisisthethirdtimeheplaysmethistrick。Now,Iaskyou,cananybodystandthiskindofthing?It’senoughtodriveamanoutofhismind。I’llreporthim……I’llgettheAssistantResidenttogivehimthesack,by……See——
  there’snolight。It’sout,isn’tit?Itakeyoutowitnessthelight’sout。Thereshouldbealight,youknow。A
  redlightonthe——’
  "’Therewasalight,’Isaid,mildly。
  "’Butit’sout,man!What’stheuseoftalkinglikethis?Youcanseeforyourselfit’sout——don’tyou?IfyouhadtotakeavaluablesteameralongthisGod—for—
  sakencoastyouwouldwantalighttoo。I’llkickhimfromendtoendofhismiserablewharf。You’llseeifI
  don’t。Iwill——’
  "’SoImaytellmycaptainyou’lltakeus?’Ibrokein。
  "’Yes,I’lltakeyou。Goodnight,’hesaid,brusquely。
  "Ipulledback,madefastagaintothejetty,andthenwenttosleepatlast。IhadfacedthesilenceoftheEast。Ihadheardsomeofitslanguages。ButwhenI
  openedmyeyesagainthesilencewasascompleteasthoughithadneverbeenbroken。Iwaslyinginafloodoflight,andtheskyhadneverlookedsofar,sohigh,before。Iopenedmyeyesandlaywithoutmoving。
  "AndthenIsawthemenoftheEast——theywerelookingatme。Thewholelengthofthejettywasfullofpeople。Isawbrown,bronze,yellowfaces,theblackeyes,theglitter,thecolorofanEasterncrowd。Andallthesebeingsstaredwithoutamur—
  mur,withoutasigh,withoutamovement。Theystareddownattheboats,atthesleepingmenwhoatnighthadcometothemfromthesea。Nothingmoved。
  Thefrondsofpalmsstoodstillagainstthesky。Notabranchstirredalongtheshore,andthebrownroofsofhiddenhousespeepedthroughthegreenfoliage,throughthebigleavesthathungshiningandstilllikeleavesforgedofheavymetal。ThiswastheEastoftheancientnavigators,soold,somysterious,resplendentandsomber,livingandunchanged,fullofdangerandprom—
  ise。Andthesewerethemen。Isatupsuddenly。A
  waveofmovementpassedthroughthecrowdfromendtoend,passedalongtheheads,swayedthebodies,ranalongthejettylikearippleonthewater,likeabreathofwindonafield——andallwasstillagain。Iseeitnow——thewidesweepofthebay,theglitteringsands,thewealthofgreeninfiniteandvaried,theseablueliketheseaofadream,thecrowdofattentivefaces,theblazeofvividcolor——thewaterreflectingitall,thecurveoftheshore,thejetty,thehigh—sternedoutlandishcraftfloat—
  ingstill,andthethreeboatswithtiredmenfromtheWestsleepingunconsciousofthelandandthepeopleandoftheviolenceofsunshine。Theysleptthrownacrossthethwarts,curledonbottom—boards,inthecare—
  lessattitudesofdeath。Theheadoftheoldskipper,leaningbackinthesternofthelong—boat,hadfallenonhisbreast,andhelookedasthoughhewouldneverwake。
  FartheroutoldMahon’sfacewasupturnedtothesky,withthelongwhitebeardspreadoutonhisbreast,asthoughhehadbeenshotwherehesatatthetiller;andaman,allinaheapinthebowsoftheboat,sleptwithbotharmsembracingthestem—headandwithhischeeklaidonthegunwale。TheEastlookedatthemwithoutasound。
  "Ihaveknownitsfascinationssince:Ihaveseenthemysteriousshores,thestillwater,thelandsofbrownna—
  tions,whereastealthyNemesisliesinwait,pursues,overtakessomanyoftheconqueringrace,whoareproudoftheirwisdom,oftheirknowledge,oftheirstrength。
  ButformealltheEastiscontainedinthatvisionofmyyouth。ItisallinthatmomentwhenIopenedmyyoungeyesonit。Icameuponitfromatusslewiththesea——
  andIwasyoung——andIsawitlookingatme。Andthisisallthatisleftofit!Onlyamoment;amomentofstrength,ofromance,ofglamour——ofyouth!……A
  flickofsunshineuponastrangeshore,thetimetore—
  member,thetimeforasigh,and——good—by!——Night——
  Good—by……!"
  Hedrank。
  "Ah!Thegoodoldtime——thegoodoldtime。Youthandthesea。Glamourandthesea!Thegood,strongsea,thesalt,bittersea,thatcouldwhispertoyouandroaratyouandknockyourbreathoutofyou。"
  Hedrankagain。
  "Byallthat’swonderful,itisthesea,Ibelieve,theseaitself——orisityouthalone?Whocantell?Butyouhere——youallhadsomethingoutoflife:money,love——
  whateveronegetsonshore——and,tellme,wasn’tthatthebesttime,thattimewhenwewereyoungatsea;youngandhadnothing,ontheseathatgivesnothing,excepthardknocks——andsometimesachancetofeelyourstrength——thatonly——whatyouallregret?"
  Andweallnoddedathim:themanoffinance,themanofaccounts,themanoflaw,weallnoddedathimoverthepolishedtablethatlikeastillsheetofbrownwaterreflectedourfaces,lined,wrinkled;ourfacesmarkedbytoil,bydeceptions,bysuccess,bylove;ourwearyeyeslookingstill,lookingalways,lookinganxiouslyforsomethingoutoflife,thatwhileitisexpectedisalreadygone——haspassedunseen,inasigh,inaflash——togetherwiththeyouth,withthestrength,withtheromanceofillusions。