首页 >出版文学> The Wreck of the Golden Mary>第1章
  THEWRECK
  IwasapprenticedtotheSeawhenIwastwelveyearsold,andIhaveencounteredagreatdealofroughweather,bothliteralandmetaphorical。IthasalwaysbeenmyopinionsinceIfirstpossessedsuchathingasanopinion,thatthemanwhoknowsonlyonesubjectisnexttiresometothemanwhoknowsnosubject。Therefore,inthecourseofmylifeIhavetaughtmyselfwhateverIcould,andalthoughIamnotaneducatedman,Iamable,Iamthankfultosay,tohaveanintelligentinterestinmostthings。
  Apersonmightsuppose,fromreadingtheabove,thatIaminthehabitofholdingforthaboutnumberone。Thatisnotthecase。
  JustasifIwastocomeintoaroomamongstrangers,andmusteitherbeintroducedorintroducemyself,soIhavetakenthelibertyofpassingthesefewremarks,simplyandplainlythatitmaybeknownwhoandwhatIam。IwilladdnomoreofthesortthanthatmynameisWilliamGeorgeRavender,thatIwasbornatPenrithhalfayearaftermyownfatherwasdrowned,andthatIamontheseconddayofthispresentblessedChristmasweekofonethousandeighthundredandfifty—six,fifty—sixyearsofage。
  WhentherumourfirstwentflyingupanddownthattherewasgoldinCalifornia——which,asmostpeopleknow,wasbeforeitwasdiscoveredintheBritishcolonyofAustralia——IwasintheWestIndies,tradingamongtheIslands。Beingincommandandlikewisepart—ownerofasmartschooner,Ihadmyworkcutoutforme,andIwasdoingit。Consequently,goldinCaliforniawasnobusinessofmine。
  But,bythetimewhenIcamehometoEnglandagain,thethingwasasclearasyourhandheldupbeforeyouatnoon—day。TherewasCaliforniangoldinthemuseumsandinthegoldsmiths’shops,andtheveryfirsttimeIwentupon’Change,Imetafriendofmine(aseafaringmanlikemyself),withaCaliforniannuggethangingtohiswatch—chain。Ihandledit。Itwasaslikeapeeledwalnutwithbitsunevenlybrokenoffhereandthere,andthenelectrotypedallover,aseverIsawanythinginmylife。
  Iamasingleman(shewastoogoodforthisworldandforme,andshediedsixweeksbeforeourmarriage—day),sowhenIamashore,I
  liveinmyhouseatPoplar。MyhouseatPoplaristakencareofandkeptship—shapebyanoldladywhowasmymother’smaidbeforeIwasborn。Sheisashandsomeandasuprightasanyoldladyintheworld。Sheisasfondofmeasifshehadeverhadanonlyson,andIwashe。WelldoIknowwhereverIsailthatsheneverlaysdownherheadatnightwithouthavingsaid,"MercifulLord!blessandpreserveWilliamGeorgeRavender,andsendhimsafehome,throughChristourSaviour!"Ihavethoughtofitinmanyadangerousmoment,whenithasdonemenoharm,Iamsure。
  InmyhouseatPoplar,alongwiththisoldlady,Ilivedquietforbestpartofayear:havinghadalongspellofitamongtheIslands,andhaving(whichwasveryuncommoninme)takenthefeverratherbadly。Atlast,beingstrongandhearty,andhavingreadeverybookIcouldlayholdof,rightout,IwaswalkingdownLeadenhallStreetintheCityofLondon,thinkingofturning—toagain,whenImetwhatIcallSmithickandWatersbyofLiverpool。I
  chancedtoliftupmyeyesfromlookinginataship’schronometerinawindow,andIsawhimbearingdownuponme,headon。
  Itis,personally,neitherSmithick,norWatersby,thatIheremention,norwasIeveracquaintedwithanymanofeitherofthosenames,nordoIthinkthattherehasbeenanyoneofeitherofthosenamesinthatLiverpoolHouseforyearsback。But,itisinrealitytheHouseitselfthatIreferto;andawisermerchantoratruergentlemanneverstepped。
  "MydearCaptainRavender,"sayshe。"Ofallthemenonearth,I
  wantedtoseeyoumost。Iwasonmywaytoyou。"
  "Well!"saysI。"ThatlooksasifyouWEREtoseeme,don’tit?"
  WiththatIputmyarminhis,andwewalkedontowardstheRoyalExchange,andwhenwegotthere,walkedupanddownatthebackofitwheretheClock—Toweris。Wewalkedanhourandmore,forhehadmuchtosaytome。HehadaschemeforcharteringanewshipoftheirowntotakeoutcargotothediggersandemigrantsinCalifornia,andtobuyandbringbackgold。IntotheparticularsofthatschemeIwillnotenter,andIhavenorighttoenter。AllI
  sayofitis,thatitwasaveryoriginalone,averyfineone,averysoundone,andaverylucrativeonebeyonddoubt。
  HeimpartedittomeasfreelyasifIhadbeenapartofhimself。
  Afterdoingso,hemademethehandsomestsharingofferthateverwasmadetome,boyorman——orIbelievetoanyothercaptainintheMerchantNavy——andhetookthisroundturntofinishwith:
  "Ravender,youarewellawarethatthelawlessnessofthatcoastandcountryatpresent,isasspecialasthecircumstancesinwhichitisplaced。Crewsofvesselsoutward—bound,desertassoonastheymaketheland;crewsofvesselshomeward—bound,shipatenormouswages,withtheexpressintentionofmurderingthecaptainandseizingthegoldfreight;nomancantrustanother,andthedevilseemsletloose。Now,"sayshe,"youknowmyopinionofyou,andyouknowIamonlyexpressingit,andwithnosingularity,whenI
  tellyouthatyouarealmosttheonlymanonwhoseintegrity,discretion,andenergy——"&c。,&c。For,Idon’twanttorepeatwhathesaid,thoughIwasandamsensibleofit。
  Notwithstandingmybeing,asIhavementioned,quitereadyforavoyage,stillIhadsomedoubtsofthisvoyage。OfcourseIknew,withoutbeingtold,thattherewerepeculiardifficultiesanddangersinit,alongwayoverandabovethosewhichattendallvoyages。ItmustnotbesupposedthatIwasafraidtofacethem;
  but,inmyopinionamanhasnomanlymotiveorsustainmentinhisownbreastforfacingdangers,unlesshehaswellconsideredwhattheyare,andisablequietlytosaytohimself,"Noneoftheseperilscannowtakemebysurprise;Ishallknowwhattodoforthebestinanyofthem;alltherestliesinthehigherandgreaterhandstowhichIhumblycommitmyself。"OnthisprincipleIhavesoattentivelyconsidered(regardingitasmyduty)allthehazardsI
  haveeverbeenabletothinkof,intheordinarywayofstorm,shipwreck,andfireatsea,thatIhopeIshouldbepreparedtodo,inanyofthosecases,whatevercouldbedone,tosavethelivesintrustedtomycharge。
  AsIwasthoughtful,mygoodfriendproposedthatheshouldleavemetowalkthereaslongasIliked,andthatIshoulddinewithhimby—and—byathisclubinPallMall。IacceptedtheinvitationandI
  walkedupanddownthere,quarter—deckfashion,amatterofacoupleofhours;nowandthenlookingupattheweathercockasImighthavelookedupaloft;andnowandthentakingalookintoCornhill,asI
  mighthavetakenalookovertheside。
  Alldinner—time,andallafterdinner—time,wetalkeditoveragain。
  Igavehimmyviewsofhisplan,andheverymuchapprovedofthesame。ItoldhimIhadnearlydecided,butnotquite。"Well,well,"sayshe,"comedowntoLiverpoolto—morrowwithme,andseetheGoldenMary。"Ilikedthename(hernamewasMary,andshewasgolden,ifgoldenstandsforgood),soIbegantofeelthatitwasalmostdonewhenIsaidIwouldgotoLiverpool。OnthenextmorningbutonewewereonboardtheGoldenMary。Imighthaveknown,fromhisaskingmetocomedownandseeher,whatshewas。I
  declarehertohavebeenthecompletestandmostexquisiteBeautythateverIsetmyeyesupon。
  Wehadinspectedeverytimberinher,andhadcomebacktothegangwaytogoashorefromthedock—basin,whenIputoutmyhandtomyfriend。"Touchuponit,"saysI,"andtouchheartily。Itakecommandofthisship,andIamhersandyours,ifIcangetJohnSteadimanformychiefmate。"
  JohnSteadimanhadsailedwithmefourvoyages。ThefirstvoyageJohnwasthirdmateouttoChina,andcamehomesecond。Theotherthreevoyageshewasmyfirstofficer。AtthistimeofcharteringtheGoldenMary,hewasagedthirty—two。Abrisk,bright,blue—eyedfellow,averyneatfigureandratherunderthemiddlesize,neveroutofthewayandneverinit,afacethatpleasedeverybodyandthatallchildrentookto,ahabitofgoingaboutsingingascheerilyasablackbird,andaperfectsailor。
  WewereinoneofthoseLiverpoolhackney—coachesinlessthanaminute,andwecruisedaboutinherupwardsofthreehours,lookingforJohn。JohnhadcomehomefromVanDiemen’sLandbarelyamonthbefore,andIhadheardofhimastakingafriskinLiverpool。Weaskedafterhim,amongmanyotherplaces,atthetwoboarding—houseshewasfondestof,andwefoundhehadhadaweek’sspellateachofthem;but,hehadgonehereandgonethere,andhadsetoff"tolayoutonthemain—to’—gallant—yardofthehighestWelshmountain"(sohehadtoldthepeopleofthehouse),andwherehemightbethen,orwhenhemightcomeback,nobodycouldtellus。Butitwassurprising,tobesure,toseehoweveryfacebrightenedthemomenttherewasmentionmadeofthenameofMr。Steadiman。
  Weweretakenabackatmeetingwithnobetterluck,andwehadworeshipandputherheadformyfriends,whenaswewerejoggingthroughthestreets,IclapmyeyesonJohnhimselfcomingoutofatoyshop!Hewascarryingalittleboy,andconductingtwouncommonprettywomentotheircoach,andhetoldmeafterwardsthathehadneverinhislifeseenoneofthethreebefore,butthathewassotakenwiththemonlookinginatthetoyshopwhiletheywerebuyingthechildacrankyNoah’sArk,verymuchdownbythehead,thathehadgoneinandaskedtheladies’permissiontotreathimtoatolerablycorrectCuttertherewasinthewindow,inorderthatsuchahandsomeboymightnotgrowupwithalubberlyideaofnavalarchitecture。
  Westoodoffandonuntiltheladies’coachmanbegantogiveway,andthenwehailedJohn。Onhiscomingaboardofus,Itoldhim,verygravely,whatIhadsaidtomyfriend。Itstruckhim,ashesaidhimself,amidships。Hewasquiteshakenbyit。"CaptainRavender,"wereJohnSteadiman’swords,"suchanopinionfromyouistruecommendation,andI’llsailroundtheworldwithyoufortwentyyearsifyouhoistthesignal,andstandbyyouforever!"AndnowindeedIfeltthatitwasdone,andthattheGoldenMarywasafloat。
  GrassnevergrewyetunderthefeetofSmithickandWatersby。Theriggerswereoutofthatshipinafortnight’stime,andwehadbeguntakingincargo。Johnwasalwaysaboard,seeingeverythingstowedwithhisowneyes;andwheneverIwentaboardmyselfearlyorlate,whetherhewasbelowinthehold,orondeckatthehatchway,oroverhaulinghiscabin,nailinguppicturesinitoftheBlushRosesofEngland,theBlueBellesofScotland,andthefemaleShamrockofIreland:ofacertaintyIheardJohnsinginglikeablackbird。
  Wehadroomfortwentypassengers。Oursailingadvertisementwasnosoonerout,thanwemighthavetakenthesetwentytimesover。Inenteringourmen,IandJohn(bothtogether)pickedthem,andweenterednonebutgoodhands——asgoodasweretobefoundinthatport。Andso,inagoodshipofthebestbuild,wellowned,wellarranged,wellofficered,wellmanned,wellfoundinallrespects,wepartedwithourpilotataquarterpastfouro’clockintheafternoonoftheseventhofMarch,onethousandeighthundredandfifty—one,andstoodwithafairwindouttosea。
  ItmaybeeasilybelievedthatuptothattimeIhadhadnoleisuretobeintimatewithmypassengers。Themostofthemwerethenintheirberthssea—sick;however,ingoingamongthem,tellingthemwhatwasgoodforthem,persuadingthemnottobethere,buttocomeupondeckandfeelthebreeze,andinrousingthemwithajoke,oracomfortableword,Imadeacquaintancewiththem,perhaps,inamorefriendlyandconfidentialwayfromthefirst,thanImighthavedoneatthecabintable。
  Ofmypassengers,Ineedonlyparticularise,justatpresent,abright—eyedbloomingyoungwifewhowasgoingouttojoinherhusbandinCalifornia,takingwithhertheironlychild,alittlegirlofthreeyearsold,whomhehadneverseen;asedateyoungwomaninblack,somefiveyearsolder(aboutthirtyasIshouldsay),whowasgoingouttojoinabrother;andanoldgentleman,agooddeallikeahawkifhiseyeshadbeenbetterandnotsored,whowasalwaystalking,morning,noon,andnight,aboutthegolddiscovery。But,whetherhewasmakingthevoyage,thinkinghisoldarmscoulddigforgold,orwhetherhisspeculationwastobuyit,ortobarterforit,ortocheatforit,ortosnatchitanyhowfromotherpeople,washissecret。Hekepthissecret。
  Thesethreeandthechildwerethesoonestwell。Thechildwasamostengagingchild,tobesure,andveryfondofme:thoughIamboundtoadmitthatJohnSteadimanandIwereborneonherprettylittlebooksinreverseorder,andthathewascaptainthere,andI
  wasmate。ItwasbeautifultowatchherwithJohn,anditwasbeautifultowatchJohnwithher。Fewwouldhavethoughtitpossible,toseeJohnplayingatbo—peeproundthemast,thathewasthemanwhohadcaughtupanironbarandstruckaMalayandaMaltesedead,astheywereglidingwiththeirknivesdownthecabinstairaboardthebarqueOldEngland,whenthecaptainlayillinhiscot,offSaugarPoint。Buthewas;andgivehimhisbackagainstabulwark,hewouldhavedonethesamebyhalfadozenofthem。ThenameoftheyoungmotherwasMrs。Atherfield,thenameoftheyoungladyinblackwasMissColeshaw,andthenameoftheoldgentlemanwasMr。Rarx。
  Asthechildhadaquantityofshiningfairhair,clusteringincurlsallaboutherface,andashernamewasLucy,SteadimangaveherthenameoftheGoldenLucy。So,wehadtheGoldenLucyandtheGoldenMary;andJohnkeptuptheideatothatextentasheandthechildwentplayingaboutthedecks,thatIbelievesheusedtothinktheshipwasalivesomehow——asisterorcompanion,goingtothesameplaceasherself。Shelikedtobebythewheel,andinfineweather,Ihaveoftenstoodbythemanwhosetrickitwasatthewheel,onlytohearher,sittingnearmyfeet,talkingtotheship。
  Neverhadachildsuchadollbefore,Isuppose;butshemadeadolloftheGoldenMary,andusedtodressherupbytyingribbonsandlittlebitsoffinerytothebelaying—pins;andnobodyevermovedthem,unlessitwastosavethemfrombeingblownaway。
  OfcourseItookchargeofthetwoyoungwomen,andIcalledthem"mydear,"andtheyneverminded,knowingthatwhateverIsaidwassaidinafatherlyandprotectingspirit。Igavethemtheirplacesoneachsideofmeatdinner,Mrs。AtherfieldonmyrightandMissColeshawonmyleft;andIdirectedtheunmarriedladytoserveoutthebreakfast,andthemarriedladytoserveoutthetea。LikewiseIsaidtomyblackstewardintheirpresence,"TomSnow,thesetwoladiesareequallythemistressesofthishouse,anddoyouobeytheirordersequally;"atwhichTomlaughed,andtheyalllaughed。
  OldMr。Rarxwasnotapleasantmantolookat,noryettotalkto,ortobewith,fornoonecouldhelpseeingthathewasasordidandselfishcharacter,andthathehadwarpedfurtherandfurtheroutofthestraightwithtime。Notbutwhathewasonhisbestbehaviourwithus,aseverybodywas;forwehadnobickeringamongus,for’ardoraft。Ionlymeantosay,hewasnotthemanonewouldhavechosenforamessmate。Ifchoicetherehadbeen,onemightevenhavegoneafewpointsoutofone’scourse,tosay,"No!Nothim!"
  But,therewasonecuriousinconsistencyinMr。Rarx。Thatwas,thathetookanastonishinginterestinthechild。Helooked,andI
  mayadd,hewas,oneofthelastofmentocareatallforachild,ortocaremuchforanyhumancreature。Still,hewentsofarastobehabituallyuneasy,ifthechildwaslongondeck,outofhissight。Hewasalwaysafraidofherfallingoverboard,orfallingdownahatchway,orofablockorwhatnotcomingdownuponherfromtheriggingintheworkingoftheship,orofhergettingsomehurtorother。Heusedtolookatherandtouchher,asifshewassomethingprecioustohim。Hewasalwayssolicitousabouthernotinjuringherhealth,andconstantlyentreatedhermothertobecarefulofit。Thiswassomuchthemorecurious,becausethechilddidnotlikehim,butusedtoshrinkawayfromhim,andwouldnotevenputoutherhandtohimwithoutcoaxingfromothers。Ibelievethateverysoulonboardfrequentlynoticedthis,andnotoneofusunderstoodit。However,itwassuchaplainfact,thatJohnSteadimansaidmorethanoncewhenoldMr。Rarxwasnotwithinearshot,thatiftheGoldenMaryfeltatendernessforthedearoldgentlemanshecarriedinherlap,shemustbebitterlyjealousoftheGoldenLucy。
  BeforeIgoanyfurtherwiththisnarrative,Iwillstatethatourshipwasabarqueofthreehundredtons,carryingacrewofeighteenmen,asecondmateinadditiontoJohn,acarpenter,anarmourerorsmith,andtwoapprentices(oneaScotchboy,poorlittlefellow)。
  Wehadthreeboats;theLong—boat,capableofcarryingtwenty—fivemen;theCutter,capableofcarryingfifteen;andtheSurf—boat,capableofcarryingten。Iputdownthecapacityoftheseboatsaccordingtothenumberstheywerereallymeanttohold。
  Wehadtastesofbadweatherandhead—winds,ofcourse;but,onthewholewehadasfinearunasanyreasonablemancouldexpect,forsixtydays。Ithenbegantoentertworemarksintheship’sLogandinmyJournal;first,thattherewasanunusualandamazingquantityofice;second,thatthenightsweremostwonderfullydark,inspiteoftheice。
  Forfivedaysandahalf,itseemedquiteuselessandhopelesstoaltertheship’scoursesoastostandoutofthewayofthisice。
  ImadewhatsouthingIcould;but,allthattime,wewerebesetbyit。Mrs。Atherfieldafterstandingbymeondeckonce,lookingforsometimeinanawedmanneratthegreatbergsthatsurroundedus,saidinawhisper,"O!CaptainRavender,itlooksasifthewholesolidearthhadchangedintoice,andbrokenup!"Isaidtoher,laughing,"Idon’twonderthatitdoes,toyourinexperiencedeyes,mydear。"ButIhadneverseenatwentiethpartofthequantity,and,inreality,Iwasprettymuchofheropinion。
  However,attwop。m。ontheafternoonofthesixthday,thatistosay,whenweweresixty—sixdaysout,JohnSteadimanwhohadgonealoft,sangoutfromthetop,thattheseawasclearahead。Beforefourp。m。astrongbreezespringinguprightastern,wewereinopenwateratsunset。Thebreezethenfresheningintohalfagaleofwind,andtheGoldenMarybeingaveryfastsailer,wewentbeforethewindmerrily,allnight。
  Ihadthoughtitimpossiblethatitcouldbedarkerthanithadbeen,untilthesun,moon,andstarsshouldfalloutoftheHeavens,andTimeshouldbedestroyed;but,ithadbeennexttolight,incomparisonwithwhatitwasnow。Thedarknesswassoprofound,thatlookingintoitwaspainfulandoppressive——likelooking,withoutarayoflight,intoadenseblackbandageputasclosebeforetheeyesasitcouldbe,withouttouchingthem。Idoubledthelook—out,andJohnandIstoodinthebowside—by—side,neverleavingitallnight。YetIshouldnomorehaveknownthathewasnearmewhenhewassilent,withoutputtingoutmyarmandtouchinghim,thanI
  shouldifhehadturnedinandbeenfastasleepbelow。Wewerenotsomuchlookingout,allofus,aslisteningtotheutmost,bothwithoureyesandears。
  Nextday,Ifoundthatthemercuryinthebarometer,whichhadrisensteadilysinceweclearedtheice,remainedsteady。Ihadhadverygoodobservations,withnowandthentheinterruptionofadayorso,sinceourdeparture。Igotthesunatnoon,andfoundthatwewereinLat。58degreesS。,Long。60degreesW。,offNewSouthShetland;intheneighbourhoodofCapeHorn。Weweresixty—sevendaysout,thatday。Theship’sreckoningwasaccuratelyworkedandmadeup。Theshipdidherdutyadmirably,allonboardwerewell,andallhandswereassmart,efficient,andcontented,asitwaspossibletobe。
  Whenthenightcameonagainasdarkasbefore,itwastheeighthnightIhadbeenondeck。NorhadItakenmorethanaverylittlesleepintheday—time,mystationbeingalwaysnearthehelm,andoftenatit,whilewewereamongtheice。Fewbutthosewhohavetrieditcanimaginethedifficultyandpainofonlykeepingtheeyesopen——physicallyopen——undersuchcircumstances,insuchdarkness。Theygetstruckbythedarkness,andblindedbythedarkness。Theymakepatternsinit,andtheyflashinit,asiftheyhadgoneoutofyourheadtolookatyou。Ontheturnofmidnight,JohnSteadiman,whowasalertandfresh(forIhadalwaysmadehimturninbyday),saidtome,"CaptainRavender,Ientreatofyoutogobelow。Iamsureyoucanhardlystand,andyourvoiceisgettingweak,sir。Gobelow,andtakealittlerest。I’llcallyouifablockchafes。"IsaidtoJohninanswer,"Well,well,John!Letuswaittilltheturnofoneo’clock,beforewetalkaboutthat。"Ihadjusthadoneoftheship’slanternsheldup,thatImightseehowthenightwentbymywatch,anditwasthentwentyminutesaftertwelve。
  Atfiveminutesbeforeone,Johnsangouttotheboytobringthelanternagain,andwhenItoldhimoncemorewhatthetimewas,entreatedandprayedofmetogobelow。"CaptainRavender,"sayshe,"all’swell;wecan’taffordtohaveyoulaidupforasinglehour;andIrespectfullyandearnestlybegofyoutogobelow。"Theendofitwas,thatIagreedtodoso,ontheunderstandingthatifIfailedtocomeupofmyownaccordwithinthreehours,Iwastobepunctuallycalled。Havingsettledthat,IleftJohnincharge。ButIcalledhimtomeonceafterwards,toaskhimaquestion。Ihadbeentolookatthebarometer,andhadseenthemercurystillperfectlysteady,andhadcomeupthecompanionagaintotakealastlookaboutme——ifIcanusesuchawordinreferencetosuchdarkness——whenIthoughtthatthewaves,astheGoldenMarypartedthemandshookthemoff,hadahollowsoundinthem;somethingthatIfanciedwasaratherunusualreverberation。Iwasstandingbythequarter—deckrailonthestarboardside,whenIcalledJohnafttome,andbadehimlisten。Hedidsowiththegreatestattention。
  Turningtomehethensaid,"Relyuponit,CaptainRavender,youhavebeenwithoutresttoolong,andthenoveltyisonlyinthestateofyoursenseofhearing。"Ithoughtsotoobythattime,andIthinksonow,thoughIcanneverknowforabsolutecertaininthisworld,whetheritwasornot。
  WhenIleftJohnSteadimanincharge,theshipwasstillgoingatagreatratethroughthewater。Thewindstillblewrightastern。
  Thoughshewasmakinggreatway,shewasundershortenedsail,andhadnomorethanshecouldeasilycarry。Allwassnug,andnothingcomplained。Therewasaprettysearunning,butnotaveryhighseaneither,noratallaconfusedone。
  Iturnedin,asweseamensay,allstanding。Themeaningofthatis,Ididnotpullmyclothesoff——no,notevensomuchasmycoat:
  thoughIdidmyshoes,formyfeetwerebadlyswelledwiththedeck。
  Therewasalittleswing—lampalightinmycabin。Ithought,asI
  lookedatitbeforeshuttingmyeyes,thatIwassotiredofdarkness,andtroubledbydarkness,thatIcouldhavegonetosleepbestinthemidstofamillionofflaminggas—lights。ThatwasthelastthoughtIhadbeforeIwentoff,excepttheprevailingthoughtthatIshouldnotbeabletogettosleepatall。
  IdreamedthatIwasbackatPenrithagain,andwastryingtogetroundthechurch,whichhadaltereditsshapeverymuchsinceIlastsawit,andwasclovenalldownthemiddleofthesteepleinamostsingularmanner。WhyIwantedtogetroundthechurchIdon’tknow;
  butIwasasanxioustodoitasifmylifedependedonit。Indeed,Ibelieveitdidinthedream。Forallthat,Icouldnotgetroundthechurch。Iwasstilltrying,whenIcameagainstitwithaviolentshock,andwasflungoutofmycotagainsttheship’sside。
  Shrieksandaterrificoutcrystruckmefarharderthanthebruisingtimbers,andamidstsoundsofgrindingandcrashing,andaheavyrushingandbreakingofwater——soundsIunderstoodtoowell——Imademywayondeck。Itwasnotaneasythingtodo,fortheshipheeledoverfrightfully,andwasbeatinginafuriousmanner。
  IcouldnotseethemenasIwentforward,butIcouldhearthattheywerehaulinginsail,indisorder。Ihadmytrumpetinmyhand,and,afterdirectingandencouragingtheminthistillitwasdone,IhailedfirstJohnSteadiman,andthenmysecondmate,Mr。
  WilliamRames。Bothansweredclearlyandsteadily。Now,Ihadpractisedthemandallmycrew,asIhaveevermadeitacustomtopractiseallwhosailwithme,totakecertainstationsandwaitmyorders,incaseofanyunexpectedcrisis。Whenmyvoicewasheardhailing,andtheirvoiceswereheardanswering,Iwasaware,throughallthenoisesoftheshipandsea,andallthecryingofthepassengersbelow,thattherewasapause。"Areyouready,Rames?"——
  "Ay,ay,sir!"——"Thenlightup,forGod’ssake!"Inamomentheandanotherwereburningblue—lights,andtheshipandallonboardseemedtobeenclosedinamistoflight,underagreatblackdome。
  ThelightshoneupsohighthatIcouldseethehugeIceberguponwhichwehadstruck,clovenatthetopanddownthemiddle,exactlylikePenrithChurchinmydream。AtthesamemomentIcouldseethewatchlastrelieved,crowdingupanddownondeck;IcouldseeMrs。
  AtherfieldandMissColeshawthrownaboutonthetopofthecompanionastheystruggledtobringthechildupfrombelow;I
  couldseethatthemastsweregoingwiththeshockandthebeatingoftheship;Icouldseethefrightfulbreachstoveinonthestarboardside,halfthelengthofthevessel,andthesheathingandtimbersspirtingup;IcouldseethattheCutterwasdisabled,inawreckofbrokenfragments;andIcouldseeeveryeyeturneduponme。
  Itismybeliefthatiftherehadbeententhousandeyesthere,I
  shouldhaveseenthemall,withtheirdifferentlooks。Andallthisinamoment。Butyoumustconsiderwhatamoment。
  Isawthemen,astheylookedatme,falltowardstheirappointedstations,likegoodmenandtrue。Ifshehadnotrighted,theycouldhavedoneverylittlethereoranywherebutdie——notthatitislittleforamantodieathispost——Imeantheycouldhavedonenothingtosavethepassengersandthemselves。Happily,however,theviolenceoftheshockwithwhichwehadsodeterminedlybornedowndirectonthatfatalIceberg,asifithadbeenourdestinationinsteadofourdestruction,hadsosmashedandpoundedtheshipthatshegotoffinthissameinstantandrighted。Ididnotwantthecarpentertotellmeshewasfillingandgoingdown;Icouldseeandhearthat。IgaveRamesthewordtolowertheLong—boatandtheSurf—boat,andImyselftoldoffthemenforeachduty。Notonehungback,orcamebeforetheother。InowwhisperedtoJohnSteadiman,"John,Istandatthegangwayhere,toseeeverysoulonboardsafeovertheside。Youshallhavethenextpostofhonour,andshallbethelastbutonetoleavetheship。Bringupthepassengers,andrangethembehindme;andputwhatprovisionandwateryoucangotat,intheboats。Castyoureyefor’ard,John,andyou’llseeyouhavenotamomenttolose。"
  MynoblefellowsgottheboatsoverthesideasorderlyasIeversawboatsloweredwithanysearunning,and,whentheywerelaunched,twoorthreeofthenearestmeninthemastheyheldon,risingandfallingwiththeswell,calledout,lookingupatme,"CaptainRavender,ifanythinggoeswrongwithus,andyouaresaved,rememberwestoodbyyou!"——"We’llallstandbyoneanotherashore,yet,pleaseGod,mylads!"saysI。"Holdonbravely,andbetenderwiththewomen。"
  Thewomenwereanexampletous。Theytrembledverymuch,buttheywerequietandperfectlycollected。"Kissme,CaptainRavender,"
  saysMrs。Atherfield,"andGodinheavenblessyou,yougoodman!"
  "Mydear,"saysI,"thosewordsarebetterformethanalife—boat。"
  Iheldherchildinmyarmstillshewasintheboat,andthenkissedthechildandhandedhersafedown。Inowsaidtothepeopleinher,"Youhavegotyourfreight,mylads,allbutme,andIamnotcomingyetawhile。Pullawayfromtheship,andkeepoff!"
  ThatwastheLong—boat。OldMr。Rarxwasoneofhercomplement,andhewastheonlypassengerwhohadgreatlymisbehavedsincetheshipstruck。Othershadbeenalittlewild,whichwasnottobewonderedat,andnotveryblamable;but,hehadmadealamentationanduproarwhichitwasdangerousforthepeopletohear,asthereisalwayscontagioninweaknessandselfishness。Hisincessantcryhadbeenthathemustnotbeseparatedfromthechild,thathecouldn’tseethechild,andthatheandthechildmustgotogether。Hehadeventriedtowrestthechildoutofmyarms,thathemightkeepherinhis。"Mr。Rarx,"saidItohimwhenitcametothat,"Ihavealoadedpistolinmypocket;andifyoudon’tstandoutofthegang—
  way,andkeepperfectlyquiet,Ishallshootyouthroughtheheart,ifyouhavegotone。"Sayshe,"Youwon’tdomurder,CaptainRavender!""No,sir,"saysI,"Iwon’tmurderforty—fourpeopletohumouryou,butI’llshootyoutosavethem。"Afterthathewasquiet,andstoodshiveringalittlewayoff,untilInamedhimtogoovertheside。
  TheLong—boatbeingcastoff,theSurf—boatwassoonfilled。ThereonlyremainedaboardtheGoldenMary,JohnMullionthemanwhohadkeptonburningtheblue—lights(andwhohadlightedeverynewoneateveryoldonebeforeitwentout,asquietlyasifhehadbeenatanillumination);JohnSteadiman;andmyself。IhurriedthosetwointotheSurf—boat,calledtothemtokeepoff,andwaitedwithagratefulandrelievedheartfortheLong—boattocomeandtakemein,ifshecould。Ilookedatmywatch,anditshowedme,bytheblue—light,tenminutespasttwo。Theylostnotime。Assoonasshewasnearenough,Iswungmyselfintoher,andcalledtothemen,"Withawill,lads!She’sreeling!"Wewerenotaninchtoofaroutoftheinnervortexofhergoingdown,when,bytheblue—lightwhichJohnMullionstillburntinthebowoftheSurf—boat,wesawherlurch,andplungetothebottomhead—foremost。Thechildcried,weepingwildly,"OthedearGoldenMary!Olookather!Saveher!
  SavethepoorGoldenMary!"Andthenthelightburntout,andtheblackdomeseemedtocomedownuponus。
  Isupposeifwehadallstooda—topofamountain,andseenthewholeremainderoftheworldsinkawayfromunderus,wecouldhardlyhavefeltmoreshockedandsolitarythanwedidwhenweknewwewerealoneonthewideocean,andthatthebeautifulshipinwhichmostofushadbeensecurelyasleepwithinhalfanhourwasgoneforever。Therewasanawfulsilenceinourboat,andsuchakindofpalsyontherowersandthemanattherudder,thatIfelttheywerescarcelykeepingherbeforethesea。Ispokeoutthen,andsaid,"LeteveryoneherethanktheLordforourpreservation!"
  Allthevoicesanswered(eventhechild’s),"WethanktheLord!"I
  thensaidtheLord’sPrayer,andallhandssaiditaftermewithasolemnmurmuring。ThenIgavetheword"Cheerily,Omen,Cheerily!"
  andIfeltthattheywerehandlingtheboatagainasaboatoughttobehandled。
  TheSurf—boatnowburntanotherblue—lighttoshowuswheretheywere,andwemadeforher,andlaidourselvesasnearlyalongsideofheraswedared。Ihadalwayskeptmyboatswithacoilortwoofgoodstoutstuffineachofthem,sobothboatshadaropeathand。
  Wemadeashift,withmuchlabourandtrouble,togotnearenoughtooneanothertodividetheblue—lights(theywerenouseafterthatnight,forthesea—watersoongotatthem),andtogetatow—ropeoutbetweenus。Allnightlongwekepttogether,sometimesobligedtocastofftherope,andsometimesgettingitoutagain,andallofuswearyingforthemorning——whichappearedsolongincomingthatoldMr。Rarxscreamedout,inspiteofhisfearsofme,"Theworldisdrawingtoanend,andthesunwillneverriseanymore!"
  Whenthedaybroke,Ifoundthatwewereallhuddledtogetherinamiserablemanner。Weweredeepinthewater;being,asIfoundonmustering,thirty—oneinnumber,oratleastsixtoomany。IntheSurf—boattheywerefourteeninnumber,beingatleastfourtoomany。ThefirstthingIdid,wastogetmyselfpassedtotherudder——whichItookfromthattime——andtogetMrs。Atherfield,herchild,andMissColeshaw,passedontositnextme。AstooldMr。