首页 >出版文学> Doctor Marigold>第2章

第2章

  Wehadoursigns,too,andtheywashundredsinnumber。Sometimesshewouldsitlookingatmeandconsideringhardhowtocommunicatewithmeaboutsomethingfresh,——howtoaskmewhatshewantedexplained,——andthenshewas(orIthoughtshewas;whatdoesitsignify?)solikemychildwiththoseyearsaddedtoher,thatI
  half—believeditwasherself,tryingtotellmewhereshehadbeentoupintheskies,andwhatshehadseensincethatunhappynightwhenshefliedaway。Shehadaprettyface,andnowthattherewasnoonetodragatherbrightdarkhair,anditwasallinorder,therewasasomethingtouchinginherlooksthatmadethecartmostpeacefulandmostquiet,thoughnotatallmelancholy。[N。B。IntheCheapJackpatter,wegenerallysounditlemonjolly,anditgetsalaugh。]
  Thewayshelearnttounderstandanylookofminewastrulysurprising。WhenIsoldofanight,shewouldsitinthecartunseenbythemoutside,andwouldgiveaeagerlookintomyeyeswhenIlookedin,andwouldhandmestraighttheprecisearticleorarticlesIwanted。Andthenshewouldclapherhands,andlaughforjoy。Andasforme,seeinghersobright,andrememberingwhatshewaswhenIfirstlightedonher,starvedandbeatenandragged,leaningasleepagainstthemuddycart—wheel,itgivemesuchheartthatIgainedagreaterheighthofreputationthanever,andIputPicklesondown(bythenameofMim’sTravellingGiantotherwisePickleson)forafypunnoteinmywill。
  Thishappinesswentoninthecarttillshewassixteenyearold。
  BywhichtimeIbegantofeelnotsatisfiedthatIhaddonemywholedutybyher,andtoconsiderthatsheoughttohavebetterteachingthanIcouldgiveher。ItdrewamanytearsonbothsideswhenI
  commencedexplainingmyviewstoher;butwhat’srightisright,andyoucan’tneitherbytearsnorlaughterdoawaywithitscharacter。
  SoItookherhandinmine,andIwentwithheronedaytotheDeafandDumbEstablishmentinLondon,andwhenthegentlemancometospeaktous,Isaystohim:"NowI’lltellyouwhatI’lldowithyou,sir。IamnothingbutaCheapJack,butoflateyearsIhavelaidbyforarainydaynotwithstanding。Thisismyonlydaughter(adopted),andyoucan’tproduceadeafernoradumber。Teachherthemostthatcanbetaughtherintheshortestseparationthatcanbenamed,——statethefigureforit,——andIamgametoputthemoneydown。Iwon’tbateyouasinglefarthing,sir,butI’llputdownthemoneyhereandnow,andI’llthankfullythrowyouinapoundtotakeit。There!"Thegentlemansmiled,andthen,"Well,well,"
  sayshe,"Imustfirstknowwhatshehaslearnedalready。Howdoyoucommunicatewithher?"ThenIshowedhim,andshewroteinprintedwritingmanynamesofthingsandsoforth;andweheldsomesprightlyconversation,Sophyandme,aboutalittlestoryinabookwhichthegentlemanshowedher,andwhichshewasabletoread。
  "Thisismostextraordinary,"saysthegentleman;"isitpossiblethatyouhavebeenheronlyteacher?""Ihavebeenheronlyteacher,sir,"Isays,"besidesherself。""Then,"saysthegentleman,andmoreacceptablewordswasneverspoketome,"you’reacleverfellow,andagoodfellow。"ThishemakesknowntoSophy,whokisseshishands,clapsherown,andlaughsandcriesuponit。
  Wesawthegentlemanfourtimesinall,andwhenhetookdownmynameandaskedhowintheworlditeverchancedtobeDoctor,itcomeoutthathewasownnephewbythesister’sside,ifyou’llbelieveme,totheveryDoctorthatIwascalledafter。Thismadeourfootingstilleasier,andhesaystome:
  "Now,Marigold,tellmewhatmoredoyouwantyouradopteddaughtertoknow?"
  "Iwanther,sir,tobecutofffromtheworldaslittleascanbe,consideringherdeprivations,andthereforetobeabletoreadwhateveriswrotewithperfecteaseandpleasure。"
  "Mygoodfellow,"urgesthegentleman,openinghiseyeswide,"whyI
  can’tdothatmyself!"
  Itookhisjoke,andgavehimalaugh(knowingbyexperiencehowflatyoufallwithoutit),andImendedmywordsaccordingly。
  "Whatdoyoumeantodowithherafterwards?"asksthegentleman,withasortofadoubtfuleye。"Totakeheraboutthecountry?"
  "Inthecart,sir,butonlyinthecart。Shewillliveaprivatelife,youunderstand,inthecart。Ishouldneverthinkofbringingherinfirmitiesbeforethepublic。Iwouldn’tmakeashowofherforanymoney。"
  Thegentlemannodded,andseemedtoapprove。
  "Well,"sayshe,"canyoupartwithherfortwoyears?"
  "Todoherthatgood,——yes,sir。"
  "There’sanotherquestion,"saysthegentleman,lookingtowardsher,——"canshepartwithyoufortwoyears?"
  Idon’tknowthatitwasahardermatterofitself(fortheotherwashardenoughtome),butitwashardertogetover。However,shewaspacifiedtoitatlast,andtheseparationbetwixtuswassettled。Howitcutupbothofuswhenittookplace,andwhenI
  leftheratthedoorinthedarkofanevening,Idon’ttell。ButI
  knowthis;rememberingthatnight,Ishallneverpassthatsameestablishmentwithoutaheartacheandaswellinginthethroat;andIcouldn’tputyouupthebestoflotsinsightofitwithmyusualspirit,——no,noteventhegun,northepairofspectacles,——forfivehundredpoundrewardfromtheSecretaryofStatefortheHomeDepartment,andthrowinthehonourofputtingmylegsunderhismahoganyarterwards。
  Still,thelonelinessthatfollowedinthecartwasnottheoldloneliness,becausetherewasatermputtoit,howeverlongtolookforwardto;andbecauseIcouldthink,whenIwasanywaysdown,thatshebelongedtomeandIbelongedtoher。Alwaysplanningforhercomingback,Iboughtinafewmonths’timeanothercart,andwhatdoyouthinkIplannedtodowithit?I’lltellyou。Iplannedtofititupwithshelvesandbooksforherreading,andtohaveaseatinitwhereIcouldsitandseeherread,andthinkthatIhadbeenherfirstteacher。Nothurryingoverthejob,Ihadthefittingsknockedtogetherincontrivingwaysundermyowninspection,andherewasherbedinaberthwithcurtains,andtherewasherreading—table,andherewasherwriting—desk,andelsewherewasherbooksinrowsuponrows,pictersandnopicters,bindingsandnobindings,gilt—edgedandplain,justasIcouldpick’emupforherinlotsupanddownthecountry,NorthandSouthandWestandEast,Windslikedbestandwindslikedleast,Hereandthereandgoneastray,Overthehillsandfaraway。AndwhenIhadgottogetherprettywellasmanybooksasthecartwouldneatlyhold,anewschemecomeintomyhead,which,asitturnedout,keptmytimeandattentionagooddealemployed,andhelpedmeoverthetwoyears’
  stile。
  Withoutbeingofanawaricioustemper,Iliketobetheownerofthings。Ishouldn’twish,forinstance,togopartnerswithyourselfintheCheapJackcart。It’snotthatImistrustyou,butthatI’dratherknowitwasmine。Similarly,verylikelyyou’dratherknowitwasyours。Well!AkindofajealousybegantocreepintomymindwhenIreflectedthatallthosebookswouldhavebeenreadbyotherpeoplelongbeforetheywasreadbyher。Itseemedtotakeawayfromherbeingtheownerof’emlike。Inthisway,thequestiongotintomyhead:Couldn’tIhaveabooknew—madeexpressforher,whichsheshouldbethefirsttoread?
  Itpleasedme,thatthoughtdid;andasIneverwasamantoletathoughtsleep(youmustwakeupallthewholefamilyofthoughtsyou’vegotandburntheirnightcaps,oryouwon’tdointheCheapJackline),Isettoworkatit。ConsideringthatIwasinthehabitofchangingsomuchaboutthecountry,andthatIshouldhavetofindoutaliterarycharacterheretomakeadealwith,andanotherliterarycharactertheretomakeadealwith,asopportunitiespresented,Ihitontheplanthatthissamebookshouldbeageneralmiscellaneouslot,——liketherazors,flat—iron,chronometerwatch,dinnerplates,rolling—pin,andlooking—glass,——
  andshouldn’tbeofferedasasingleindiwidualarticle,likethespectaclesorthegun。WhenIhadcometothatconclusion,Icometoanother,whichshalllikewisebeyours。
  OftenhadIregrettedthatsheneverhadheardmeonthefootboard,andthatshenevercouldhearme。Itain’tthatIamvain,butthatYOUdon’tliketoputyourownlightunderabushel。What’stheworthofyourreputation,ifyoucan’tconveythereasonforittothepersonyoumostwishtovalueit?NowI’llputittoyou。Isitworthsixpence,fippence,fourpence,threepence,twopence,apenny,ahalfpenny,afarthing?No,itain’t。Notworthafarthing。Verywell,then。MyconclusionwasthatIwouldbeginherbookwithsomeaccountofmyself。Sothat,throughreadingaspecimenortwoofmeonthefootboard,shemightformanideaofmymeritsthere。IwasawarethatIcouldn’tdomyselfjustice。Amancan’twritehiseye(atleastIdon’tknowhowto),noryetcanamanwritehisvoice,northerateofhistalk,northequicknessofhisaction,norhisgeneralspicyway。Buthecanwritehisturnsofspeech,whenheisapublicspeaker,——andindeedIhaveheardthatheveryoftendoes,beforehespeaks’em。
  Well!Havingformedthatresolution,thencomethequestionofaname。HowdidIhammerthathotironintoshape?Thisway。ThemostdifficultexplanationIhadeverhadwithherwas,howIcometobecalledDoctor,andyetwasnoDoctor。Afterall,IfeltthatIhadfailedofgettingitcorrectlyintohermind,withmyutmostpains。Buttrustingtoherimprovementinthetwoyears,IthoughtthatImighttrusttoherunderstandingitwhensheshouldcometoreaditasputdownbymyownhand。ThenIthoughtIwouldtryajokewithherandwatchhowittook,bywhichofitselfImightfullyjudgeofherunderstandingit。Wehadfirstdiscoveredthemistakewehaddroppedinto,throughherhavingaskedmetoprescribeforherwhenshehadsupposedmetobeaDoctorinamedicalpointofview;sothinksI,"Now,ifIgivethisbookthenameofmyPrescriptions,andifshecatchestheideathatmyonlyPrescriptionsareforheramusementandinterest,——tomakeherlaughinapleasantway,ortomakehercryinapleasantway,——itwillbeadelightfulprooftobothofusthatwehavegotoverourdifficulty。"Itfellouttoabsoluteperfection。Forwhenshesawthebook,asIhaditgotup,——theprintedandpressedbook,——lyingonherdeskinhercart,andsawthetitle,DOCTORMARIGOLD’S
  PRESCRIPTIONS,shelookedatmeforamomentwithastonishment,thenflutteredtheleaves,thenbrokeoutalaughinginthecharmingestway,thenfeltherpulseandshookherhead,thenturnedthepagespretendingtoreadthemmostattentive,thenkissedthebooktome,andputittoherbosomwithbothherhands。Ineverwasbetterpleasedinallmylife!
  Butletmenotanticipate。(ItakethatexpressionoutofalotofromancesIboughtforher。Ineveropenedasingleoneof’em——andIhaveopenedmany——butIfoundtheromancersaying"letmenotanticipate。"Whichbeingso,Iwonderwhyhedidanticipate,orwhoaskedhimtoit。)Letmenot,Isay,anticipate。Thissamebooktookupallmysparetime。Itwasnoplaytogettheotherarticlestogetherinthegeneralmiscellaneouslot,butwhenitcometomyownarticle!There!Icouldn’thavebelievedtheblotting,noryetthebucklingtoatit,northepatienceoverit。Whichagainislikethefootboard。Thepublichavenoidea。
  Atlastitwasdone,andthetwoyears’timewasgoneafteralltheothertimebeforeit,andwhereit’sallgoneto,whoknows?Thenewcartwasfinished,——yellowoutside,relievedwithwermilionandbrassfittings,——theoldhorsewasputinit,anew’unandaboybeinglaidonfortheCheapJackcart,——andIcleanedmyselfuptogoandfetchher。Brightcoldweatheritwas,cart—chimneyssmoking,cartspitchedprivateonapieceofwastegroundoveratWandsworth,whereyoumaysee’emfromtheSou’westernRailwaywhennotupontheroad。(Lookoutoftheright—handwindowgoingdown。)
  "Marigold,"saysthegentleman,givinghishandhearty,"Iamverygladtoseeyou。"
  "YetIhavemydoubts,sir,"saysI,"ifyoucanbehalfasgladtoseemeasIamtoseeyou。"
  "Thetimehasappearedsolong,——hasit,Marigold?"
  "Iwon’tsaythat,sir,consideringitsreallength;but——"
  "Whatastart,mygoodfellow!"
  Ah!Ishouldthinkitwas!Grownsuchawoman,sopretty,sointelligent,soexpressive!Iknewthenthatshemustbereallylikemychild,orIcouldneverhaveknownher,standingquietbythedoor。
  "Youareaffected,"saysthegentlemaninakindlymanner。
  "Ifeel,sir,"saysI,"thatIambutaroughchapinasleevedwaistcoat。"
  "Ifeel,"saysthegentleman,"thatitwasyouwhoraisedherfrommiseryanddegradation,andbroughtherintocommunicationwithherkind。Butwhydoweconversealonetogether,whenwecanconversesowellwithher?Addressherinyourownway。"
  "Iamsucharoughchapinasleevedwaistcoat,sir,"saysI,"andsheissuchagracefulwoman,andshestandssoquietatthedoor!"
  "TRYifshemovesattheoldsign,"saysthegentleman。
  Theyhadgotituptogethero’purposetopleaseme!ForwhenI
  givehertheoldsign,sherushedtomyfeet,anddroppeduponherknees,holdingupherhandstomewithpouringtearsofloveandjoy;andwhenItookherhandsandliftedher,sheclaspedmeroundtheneck,andlaythere;andIdon’tknowwhatafoolIdidn’tmakeofmyself,untilweallthreesettleddownintotalkingwithoutsound,asiftherewasasomethingsoftandpleasantspreadoverthewholeworldforus。
  [Aportionishereomittedfromthetext,havingreferencetothesketchescontributedbyotherwriters;butthereaderwillbepleasedtohavewhatfollowsretainedinanote:
  "NowI’lltellyouwhatIama—goingtodowithyou。Iama—goingtoofferyouthegeneralmiscellaneouslot,herownbook,neverreadbyanybodyelsebutme,addedtoandcompletedbymeafterherfirstreadingofit,eight—and—fortyprintedpages,six—and—ninetycolumns,Whiting’sownwork,BeaufortHousetowit,thrownoffbythesteam—ingine,bestofpaper,beautifulgreenwrapper,foldedlikecleanlinencomehomefromtheclear—starcher’s,andsoexquisitelystitchedthat,regardedasapieceofneedleworkalone,it’sbetterthanthesamplerofaseamstressundergoingaCompetitiveexaminationforStarvationbeforetheCivilServiceCommissioners——andIofferthelotforwhat?Foreightpound?Notsomuch。Forsixpound?Less。Forfourpound。Why,Ihardlyexpectyoutobelieveme,butthat’sthesum。Fourpound!Thestitchingalonecosthalfasmuchagain。Here’sforty—eightoriginalpages,ninety—sixoriginalcolumns,forfourpound。Youwantmoreforthemoney?Takeit。Threewholepagesofadvertisementsofthrillinginterestthrowninfornothing。Read’emandbelieve’em。More?MybestofwishesforyourmerryChristmasesandyourhappyNewYears,yourlonglivesandyourtrueprosperities。WorthtwentypoundgoodiftheyaredeliveredasI
  sendthem。Remember!Here’safinalprescriptionadded,"Tobetakenforlife,"whichwilltellyouhowthecartbrokedown,andwherethejourneyended。YouthinkFourPoundtoomuch?Andstillyouthinkso?Come!I’lltellyouwhatthen。SayFourPence,andkeepthesecret。"]
  Soeveryitemofmyplanwascrownedwithsuccess。Ourreunitedlifewasmorethanallthatwehadlookedforwardto。Contentandjoywentwithusasthewheelsofthetwocartswentround,andthesamestoppedwithuswhenthetwocartsstopped。IwasaspleasedandasproudasaPug—Dogwithhismuzzleblack—leadedforaeveningparty,andhistailextracurledbymachinery。
  ButIhadleftsomethingoutofmycalculations。Now,whathadI
  leftout?TohelpyoutoguessI’llsay,afigure。Come。Makeaguessandguessright。Nought?No。Nine?No。Eight?No。
  Seven?No。Six?No。Five?No。Four?No。Three?No。Two?
  No。One?No。NowI’lltellyouwhatI’lldowithyou。I’llsayit’sanothersortoffigurealtogether。There。Whythen,saysyou,it’samortalfigure。No,noryetamortalfigure。Bysuchmeansyougotyourselfpennedintoacorner,andyoucan’thelpguessingaIMmortalfigure。That’saboutit。Whydidn’tyousaysosooner?
  Yes。ItwasaimmortalfigurethatIhadaltogetherleftoutofmyCalculations。Neitherman’s,norwoman’s,butachild’s。Girl’sorboy’s?Boy’s。"I,saysthesparrowwithmybowandarrow。"Nowyouhavegotit。
  WeweredownatLancaster,andIhaddonetwonightsmorethanfairaveragebusiness(thoughIcannotinhonourrecommendthemasaquickaudience)intheopensquarethere,neartheendofthestreetwhereMr。Sly’sKing’sArmsandRoyalHotelstands。Mim’stravellinggiant,otherwisePickleson,happenedattheself—sametimetobetryingitoninthetown。Thegenteellaywasadoptedwithhim。Nohintofavan。GreenbaizealcoveleadinguptoPicklesoninaAuctionRoom。Printedposter,"Freelistsuspended,withtheexceptionofthatproudboastofanenlightenedcountry,afreepress。Schoolsadmittedbyprivatearrangement。Nothingtoraiseablushinthecheekofyouthorshockthemostfastidious。"
  Mimswearingmosthorribleandterrific,inapinkcalicopay—place,attheslacknessofthepublic。Serioushandbillintheshops,importingthatitwasallbutimpossibletocometoarightunderstandingofthehistoryofDavidwithoutseeingPickleson。
  IwenttotheAuctionRoominquestion,andIfounditentirelyemptyofeverythingbutechoesandmouldiness,withthesingleexceptionofPicklesononapieceofreddrugget。Thissuitedmypurpose,asIwantedaprivateandconfidentialwordwithhim,whichwas:"Pickleson。Owingmuchhappinesstoyou,Iputyouinmywillforafypunnote;but,tosavetrouble,here’sfourpuntendown,whichmayequallysuityourviews,andletussoconcludethetransaction。"Pickleson,whouptothatremarkhadhadthedejectedappearanceofalongRomanrushlightthatcouldn’tanyhowgetlighted,brightenedupathistopextremity,andmadehisacknowledgmentsinawaywhich(forhim)wasparliamentaryeloquence。Helikewisedidadd,that,havingceasedtodrawasaRoman,MimhadmadeproposalsforhisgoinginasaconwertedIndianGiantworkeduponbyTheDairyman’sDaughter。This,Pickleson,havingnoacquaintancewiththetractnamedafterthatyoungwoman,andnotbeingwillingtocouplegagwithhisseriousviews,haddeclinedtodo,therebyleadingtowordsandthetotalstoppageoftheunfortunateyoungman’sbeer。Allofwhich,duringthewholeoftheinterview,wasconfirmedbytheferociousgrowlingofMimdownbelowinthepay—place,whichshookthegiantlikealeaf。
  Butwhatwastothepresentpointintheremarksofthetravellinggiant,otherwisePickleson,wasthis:"DoctorMarigold,"——Igivehiswordswithoutahopeofconweyingtheirfeebleness,——"whoisthestrangeyoungmanthathangsaboutyourcarts?"——"ThestrangeyoungMAN?"Igiveshimback,thinkingthathemeanther,andhislanguidcirculationhaddroppedasyllable。"Doctor,"hereturns,withapathoscalculatedtodrawatearfromevenamanlyeye,"Iamweak,butnotsoweakyetasthatIdon’tknowmywords。Irepeatthem,Doctor。Thestrangeyoungman。"ItthenappearedthatPickleson,beingforcedtostretchhislegs(notthattheywantedit)onlyattimeswhenhecouldn’tbeseenfornothing,towitinthedeadofthenightandtowardsdaybreak,hadtwiceseenhangingaboutmycarts,inthatsametownofLancasterwhereIhadbeenonlytwonights,thissameunknownyoungman。
  Itputmeratheroutofsorts。WhatitmeantastoparticularsInomoreforebodedthenthanyouforebodenow,butitputmeratheroutofsorts。Howsoever,ImadelightofittoPickleson,andItookleaveofPickleson,advisinghimtospendhislegacyingettinguphisstamina,andtocontinuetostandbyhisreligion。TowardsmorningIkeptalookoutforthestrangeyoungman,and——whatwasmore——Isawthestrangeyoungman。Hewaswelldressedandwelllooking。Heloiteredverynighmycarts,watchingthemlikeasifhewastakingcareofthem,andsoonafterdaybreakturnedandwentaway。Isentahailafterhim,butheneverstartedorlookedround,ortookthesmallestnotice。
  WeleftLancasterwithinanhourortwo,onourwaytowardsCarlisle。Nextmorning,atdaybreak,Ilookedoutagainforthestrangeyoungman。Ididnotseehim。ButnextmorningIlookedoutagain,andtherehewasoncemore。Isentanotherhailafterhim,butasbeforehegavenottheslightestsignofbeinganywaysdisturbed。Thisputathoughtintomyhead。ActingonitIwatchedhimindifferentmannersandatdifferenttimesnotnecessarytoenterinto,tillIfoundthatthisstrangeyoungmanwasdeafanddumb。
  Thediscoveryturnedmeover,becauseIknewthatapartofthatestablishmentwhereshehadbeenwasallottedtoyoungmen(someofthemwelloff),andIthoughttomyself,"Ifshefavourshim,whereamI?andwhereisallthatIhaveworkedandplannedfor?"Hoping—
  —Imustconfesstotheselfishness——thatshemightNOTfavourhim,I
  setmyselftofindout。AtlastIwasbyaccidentpresentatameetingbetweenthemintheopenair,lookingonleaningbehindafir—treewithouttheirknowingofit。Itwasamovingmeetingforallthethreepartiesconcerned。Ikneweverysyllablethatpassedbetweenthemaswellastheydid。Ilistenedwithmyeyes,whichhadcometobeasquickandtruewithdeafanddumbconversationasmyearswiththetalkofpeoplethatcanspeak。Hewasa—goingouttoChinaasclerkinamerchant’shouse,whichhisfatherhadbeenbeforehim。Hewasincircumstancestokeepawife,andhewantedhertomarryhimandgoalongwithhim。Shepersisted,no。Heaskedifshedidn’tlovehim。Yes,shelovedhimdearly,dearly;
  butshecouldneverdisappointherbeloved,good,noble,generous,andI—don’t—know—what—allfather(meaningme,theCheapJackinthesleevedwaistcoat)andshewouldstaywithhim,Heavenblesshim!
  thoughitwastobreakherheart。Thenshecriedmostbitterly,andthatmadeupmymind。
  Whilemymindhadbeeninanunsettledstateaboutherfavouringthisyoungman,IhadfeltthatunreasonabletowardsPickleson,thatitwaswellforhimhehadgothislegacydown。ForIoftenthought,"Ifithadn’tbeenforthissameweak—mindedgiant,Imightneverhavecometotroublemyheadandwexmysoulabouttheyoungman。"But,oncethatIknewshelovedhim,——oncethatIhadseenherweepforhim,——itwasadifferentthing。ImadeitrightinmymindwithPicklesononthespot,andIshookmyselftogethertodowhatwasrightbyall。
  Shehadlefttheyoungmanbythattime(forittookafewminutestogetmethoroughlywellshooktogether),andtheyoungmanwasleaningagainstanotherofthefir—trees,——ofwhichtherewasacluster,—withhisfaceuponhisarm。Itouchedhimontheback。
  Lookingupandseeingme,hesays,inourdeaf—and—dumbtalk,"Donotbeangry。"
  "Iamnotangry,goodboy。Iamyourfriend。Comewithme。"
  IlefthimatthefootofthestepsoftheLibraryCart,andIwentupalone。Shewasdryinghereyes。
  "Youhavebeencrying,mydear。"
  "Yes,father。"
  "Why?"
  "Aheadache。"
  "Notaheartache?"
  "Isaidaheadache,father。"
  "DoctorMarigoldmustprescribeforthatheadache。"
  ShetookupthebookofmyPrescriptions,andhelditupwithaforcedsmile;butseeingmekeepstillandlookearnest,shesoftlylaiditdownagain,andhereyeswereveryattentive。
  "ThePrescriptionisnotthere,Sophy。"
  "Whereisit?"
  "Here,mydear。"
  Ibroughtheryounghusbandin,andIputherhandinhis,andmyonlyfartherwordstobothofthemwerethese:"DoctorMarigold’slastPrescription。Tobetakenforlife。"AfterwhichIbolted。
  Whentheweddingcomeoff,Imountedacoat(blue,andbrightbuttons),forthefirstandlasttimeinallmydays,andIgiveSophyawaywithmyownhand。Therewereonlyusthreeandthegentlemanwhohadhadchargeofherforthosetwoyears。IgivetheweddingdinneroffourintheLibraryCart。Pigeon—pie,alegofpickledpork,apairoffowls,andsuitablegardenstuff。Thebestofdrinks。Igivethemaspeech,andthegentlemangiveusaspeech,andallourjokestold,andthewholewentofflikeasky—
  rocket。InthecourseoftheentertainmentIexplainedtoSophythatIshouldkeeptheLibraryCartasmyliving—cartwhennotupontheroad,andthatIshouldkeepallherbooksforherjustastheystood,tillshecomebacktoclaimthem。SoshewenttoChinawithheryounghusband,anditwasapartingsorrowfulandheavy,andI
  gottheboyIhadanotherservice;andsoasofold,whenmychildandwifeweregone,Iwentploddingalongalone,withmywhipovermyshoulder,attheoldhorse’shead。
  Sophywrotememanyletters,andIwrotehermanyletters。Abouttheendofthefirstyearshesentmeoneinanunsteadyhand:
  "Dearestfather,notaweekagoIhadadarlinglittledaughter,butIamsowellthattheyletmewritethesewordstoyou。Dearestandbestfather,Ihopemychildmaynotbedeafanddumb,butIdonotyetknow。"WhenIwroteback,Ihintedthequestion;butasSophyneveransweredthatquestion,Ifeltittobeasadone,andIneverrepeatedit。Foralongtimeourletterswereregular,butthentheygotirregular,throughSophy’shusbandbeingmovedtoanotherstation,andthroughmybeingalwaysonthemove。Butwewereinoneanother’sthoughts,Iwasequallysure,lettersornoletters。
  Fiveyears,oddmonths,hadgonesinceSophywentaway。IwasstilltheKingoftheCheapJacks,andatagreaterheightofpopularitythanever。Ihadhadafirst—rateautumnofit,andonthetwenty—
  thirdofDecember,onethousandeighthundredandsixty—four,I
  foundmyselfatUxbridge,Middlesex,cleansoldout。SoIjoggeduptoLondonwiththeoldhorse,lightandeasy,tohavemyChristmas—
  eveandChristmas—dayalonebythefireintheLibraryCart,andthentobuyaregularnewstockofgoodsallround,tosell’emagainandgetthemoney。
  Iamaneathandatcookery,andI’lltellyouwhatIknockedupformyChristmas—evedinnerintheLibraryCart。Iknockedupabeefsteak—puddingforone,withtwokidneys,adozenoysters,andacoupleofmushroomsthrownin。It’sapuddingtoputamaningoodhumourwitheverything,exceptthetwobottombuttonsofhiswaistcoat。Havingrelishedthatpuddingandclearedaway,Iturnedthelamplow,andsatdownbythelightofthefire,watchingitasitshoneuponthebacksofSophy’sbooks。
  Sophy’sbookssobroughtSophy’sself,thatIsawhertouchingfacequiteplainly,beforeIdroppedoffdozingbythefire。ThismaybeareasonwhySophy,withherdeaf—and—dumbchildinherarms,seemedtostandsilentbymeallthroughmynap。Iwasontheroad,offtheroad,inallsortsofplaces,NorthandSouthandWestandEast,Windslikedbestandwindslikedleast,Hereandthereandgoneastray,Overthehillsandfaraway,andstillshestoodsilentbyme,withhersilentchildinherarms。EvenwhenIwokewithastart,sheseemedtovanish,asifshehadstoodbymeinthatveryplaceonlyasingleinstantbefore。
  Ihadstartedatarealsound,andthesoundwasonthestepsofthecart。Itwasthelighthurriedtreadofachild,comingclamberingup。Thattreadofachildhadoncebeensofamiliartome,thatforhalfamomentIbelievedIwasa—goingtoseealittleghost。
  Butthetouchofarealchildwaslaidupontheouterhandleofthedoor,andthehandleturned,andthedooropenedalittleway,andarealchildpeepedin。Abrightlittlecomelygirlwithlargedarkeyes。
  Lookingfullatme,thetinycreaturetookoffhermiteofastrawhat,andaquantityofdarkcurlsfellaboutherface。Thensheopenedherlips,andsaidinaprettyvoice,"Grandfather!"
  "Ah,myGod!"Icriesout。"Shecanspeak!"
  "Yes,deargrandfather。AndIamtoaskyouwhethertherewaseveranyonethatIremindyouof?"
  InamomentSophywasroundmyneck,aswellasthechild,andherhusbandwasa—wringingmyhandwithhisfacehid,andweallhadtoshakeourselvestogetherbeforewecouldgetoverit。Andwhenwedidbegintogetoverit,andIsawtheprettychilda—talking,pleasedandquickandeagerandbusy,tohermother,inthesignsthatIhadfirsttaughthermother,thehappyandyetpityingtearsfellrollingdownmyface。