Thechildreninhiscountrywerenottaughttothrowstonesatthosewhoaskedforcompassion。
Smith’sstrategyovercamehimcompletely。Thewood—lodgepresentedthehorribleaspectofadun—
geon。Whatwouldbedonetohimnext?……
NowonderthatAmyFosterappearedtohiseyeswiththeaureoleofanangeloflight。Thegirlhadnotbeenabletosleepforthinkingofthepoorman,andinthemorning,beforetheSmithswereup,sheslippedoutacrossthebackyard。Holdingthedoorofthewood—lodgeajar,shelookedinandextendedtohimhalfaloafofwhitebread——’suchbreadasthericheatinmycountry,’heusedtosay。
"Atthishegotupslowlyfromamongstallsortsofrubbish,stiff,hungry,trembling,miserable,anddoubtful。’Canyoueatthis?’sheaskedinhersoftandtimidvoice。Hemusthavetakenherfora’graciouslady。’Hedevouredferociously,andtearswerefallingonthecrust。Suddenlyhedroppedthebread,seizedherwrist,andim—
printedakissonherhand。Shewasnotfright—
ened。Throughhisforlornconditionshehadobservedthathewasgood—looking。Sheshutthedoorandwalkedbackslowlytothekitchen。
Muchlateron,shetoldMrs。Smith,whoshud—
deredatthebareideaofbeingtouchedbythatcreature。
"Throughthisactofimpulsivepityhewasbroughtbackagainwithinthepaleofhumanrela—
tionswithhisnewsurroundings。Heneverforgotit——never。
"ThatverysamemorningoldMr。Swaffer(Smith’snearestneighbour)cameovertogivehisadvice,andendedbycarryinghimoff。Hestood,unsteadyonhislegs,meek,andcakedoverinhalf—
driedmud,whilethetwomentalkedaroundhiminanincomprehensibletongue。Mrs。Smithhadre—
fusedtocomedownstairstillthemadmanwasoffthepremises;AmyFoster,farfromwithinthedarkkitchen,watchedthroughtheopenbackdoor;andheobeyedthesignsthatweremadetohimtothebestofhisability。ButSmithwasfullofmistrust。
’Mind,sir!Itmaybeallhiscunning,’hecriedrepeatedlyinatoneofwarning。WhenMr。
Swafferstartedthemare,thedeplorablebeingsit—
tinghumblybyhisside,throughweakness,nearlyfelloutoverthebackofthehightwo—wheeledcart。
Swaffertookhimstraighthome。AnditisthenthatIcomeuponthescene。
"IwascalledinbythesimpleprocessoftheoldmanbeckoningtomewithhisforefingeroverthegateofhishouseasIhappenedtobedrivingpast。
Igotdown,ofcourse。
"’I’vegotsomethinghere,’hemumbled,lead—
ingthewaytoanouthouseatalittledistancefromhisotherfarm—buildings。
"ItwastherethatIsawhimfirst,inalonglowroomtakenuponthespaceofthatsortofcoach—
house。Itwasbareandwhitewashed,withasmallsquareapertureglazedwithonecracked,dustypaneatitsfurtherend。Hewaslyingonhisbackuponastrawpallet;theyhadgivenhimacoupleofhorse—blankets,andheseemedtohavespenttheremainderofhisstrengthintheexertionofclean—
inghimself。Hewasalmostspeechless;hisquickbreathingundertheblanketspulleduptohischin,hisglittering,restlessblackeyesremindedmeofawildbirdcaughtinasnare。WhileIwasexamininghim,oldSwafferstoodsilentlybythedoor,passingthetipsofhisfingersalonghisshavenupperlip。
Igavesomedirections,promisedtosendabottleofmedicine,andnaturallymadesomeinquiries。
"’SmithcaughthiminthestackyardatNewBarns,’saidtheoldchapinhisdeliberate,unmovedmanner,andasiftheotherhadbeenindeedasortofwildanimal。’That’showIcamebyhim。
Quiteacuriosity,isn’the?Nowtellme,doctor——
you’vebeenallovertheworld——don’tyouthinkthat’sabitofaHindoowe’vegotholdofhere。’
"Iwasgreatlysurprised。Hislongblackhairscatteredoverthestrawbolstercontrastedwiththeolivepallorofhisface。ItoccurredtomehemightbeaBasque。Itdidn’tnecessarilyfollowthatheshouldunderstandSpanish;butItriedhimwiththefewwordsIknow,andalsowithsomeFrench。
ThewhisperedsoundsIcaughtbybendingmyeartohislipspuzzledmeutterly。ThatafternoontheyoungladiesfromtheRectory(oneofthemreadGoethewithadictionary,andtheotherhadstrug—
gledwithDanteforyears),comingtoseeMissSwaffer,triedtheirGermanandItalianonhimfromthedoorway。Theyretreated,justtheleastbitscaredbythefloodofpassionatespeechwhich,turningonhispallet,heletoutatthem。Theyad—
mittedthatthesoundwaspleasant,soft,musical——
but,inconjunctionwithhislooksperhaps,itwasstartling——soexcitable,soutterlyunlikeanythingonehadeverheard。Thevillageboysclimbedupthebanktohaveapeepthroughthelittlesquareaperture。EverybodywaswonderingwhatMr。
Swafferwoulddowithhim。
"Hesimplykepthim。
"Swafferwouldbecalledeccentricwerehenotsomuchrespected。TheywilltellyouthatMr。
Swaffersitsupaslateasteno’clockatnighttoreadbooks,andtheywilltellyoualsothathecanwriteachequefortwohundredpoundswithoutthinkingtwiceaboutit。HehimselfwouldtellyouthattheSwaffershadownedlandbetweenthisandDarnfordforthesethreehundredyears。
Hemustbeeighty—fiveto—day,buthedoesnotlookabitolderthanwhenIfirstcamehere。Heisagreatbreederofsheep,anddealsextensivelyincat—
tle。Heattendsmarketdaysformilesaroundineverysortofweather,anddrivessittingbowedlowoverthereins,hislankgreyhaircurlingoverthecollarofhiswarmcoat,andwithagreenplaidrugroundhislegs。Thecalmnessofadvancedagegivesasolemnitytohismanner。Heisclean—
shaved;hislipsarethinandsensitive;somethingrigidandmonarchalinthesetofhisfeatureslendsacertainelevationtothecharacterofhisface。Hehasbeenknowntodrivemilesintheraintoseeanewkindofroseinsomebody’sgarden,oramon—
strouscabbagegrownbyacottager。Helovestoheartellofortobeshownsomethingthathecalls’outlandish。’Perhapsitwasjustthatoutlandish—
nessofthemanwhichinfluencedoldSwaffer。Per—
hapsitwasonlyaninexplicablecaprice。AllI
knowisthatattheendofthreeweeksIcaughtsightofSmith’slunaticdigginginSwaffer’skitch—
engarden。Theyhadfoundouthecoulduseaspade。Hedugbarefooted。
"Hisblackhairflowedoverhisshoulders。I
supposeitwasSwafferwhohadgivenhimthestripedoldcottonshirt;butheworestillthena—
tionalbrownclothtrousers(inwhichhehadbeenwashedashore)fittingtothelegalmostliketights;wasbeltedwithabroadleathernbeltstud—
dedwithlittlebrassdiscs;andhadneveryetven—
turedintothevillage。Thelandhelookeduponseemedtohimkeptneatly,likethegroundsroundalandowner’shouse;thesizeofthecart—horsesstruckhimwithastonishment;theroadsresembledgardenwalks,andtheaspectofthepeople,espe—
ciallyonSundays,spokeofopulence。Hewon—
deredwhatmadethemsohardheartedandtheirchildrensobold。Hegothisfoodatthebackdoor,carrieditinbothhandscarefullytohisouthouse,and,sittingaloneonhispallet,wouldmakethesignofthecrossbeforehebegan。Besidethesamepal—
let,kneelingintheearlydarknessoftheshortdays,herecitedaloudtheLord’sPrayerbeforeheslept。
WheneverhesawoldSwafferhewouldbowwithvenerationfromthewaist,andstanderectwhiletheoldman,withhisfingersoverhisupperlip,sur—
veyedhimsilently。HebowedalsotoMissSwaffer,whokepthousefrugallyforherfather——abroad—
shouldered,big—bonedwomanofforty—five,withthepocketofherdressfullofkeys,andagrey,steadyeye。ShewasChurch——aspeoplesaid(whileherfatherwasoneofthetrusteesoftheBaptistChapel)——andworealittlesteelcrossatherwaist。Shedressedseverelyinblack,inmem—
oryofoneoftheinnumerableBradleysoftheneighbourhood,towhomshehadbeenengagedsometwenty—fiveyearsago——ayoungfarmerwhobrokehisneckouthuntingontheeveofthewed—
dingday。Shehadtheunmovedcountenanceofthedeaf,spokeveryseldom,andherlips,thinlikeherfather’s,astonishedonesometimesbyamyste—
riouslyironiccurl。
"Thesewerethepeopletowhomheowedalle—
giance,andanoverwhelminglonelinessseemedtofallfromtheleadenskyofthatwinterwithoutsun—
shine。Allthefacesweresad。Hecouldtalktonoone,andhadnohopeofeverunderstandinganybody。Itwasasifthesehadbeenthefacesofpeoplefromtheotherworld——deadpeople——heusedtotellmeyearsafterwards。Uponmyword,Iwonderhedidnotgomad。Hedidn’tknowwherehewas。Somewhereveryfarfromhismoun—
tains——somewhereoverthewater。WasthisAmer—
ica,hewondered?
"Ifithadn’tbeenforthesteelcrossatMissSwaffer’sbelthewouldnot,heconfessed,haveknownwhetherhewasinaChristiancountryatall。Heusedtocaststealthyglancesatit,andfeelcomforted。Therewasnothingherethesameasinhiscountry!Theearthandthewaterwerediffer—
ent;therewerenoimagesoftheRedeemerbytheroadside。Theverygrasswasdifferent,andthetrees。AllthetreesbutthethreeoldNorwaypinesonthebitoflawnbeforeSwaffer’shouse,andtheseremindedhimofhiscountry。Hehadbeendetectedonce,afterdusk,withhisforeheadagainstthetrunkofoneofthem,sobbing,andtalkingtohimself。Theyhadbeenlikebrotherstohimatthattime,heaffirmed。Everythingelsewasstrange。
Conceiveyouthekindofanexistenceovershad—
owed,oppressed,bytheeverydaymaterialappear—
ances,asifbythevisionsofanightmare。Atnight,whenhecouldnotsleep,hekeptonthinkingofthegirlwhogavehimthefirstpieceofbreadhehadeateninthisforeignland。Shehadbeenneitherfiercenorangry,norfrightened。Herfaceherememberedastheonlycomprehensiblefaceamongstallthesefacesthatwereasclosed,asmys—
terious,andasmuteasthefacesofthedeadwhoarepossessedofaknowledgebeyondthecompre—
hensionoftheliving。Iwonderwhetherthemem—
oryofhercompassionpreventedhimfromcuttinghisthroat。Butthere!IsupposeIamanoldsen—
timentalist,andforgettheinstinctiveloveoflifewhichittakesallthestrengthofanuncommonde—
spairtoovercome。
"HedidtheworkwhichwasgivenhimwithanintelligencewhichsurprisedoldSwaffer。By—and—
byitwasdiscoveredthathecouldhelpattheploughing,couldmilkthecows,feedthebullocksinthecattle—yard,andwasofsomeusewiththesheep。Hebegantopickupwords,too,veryfast;
andsuddenly,onefinemorninginspring,heres—
cuedfromanuntimelydeathagrand—childofoldSwaffer。
"Swaffer’syoungerdaughterismarriedtoWillcox,asolicitorandtheTownClerkofCole—
brook。Regularlytwiceayeartheycometostaywiththeoldmanforafewdays。Theironlychild,alittlegirlnotthreeyearsoldatthetime,ranoutofthehousealoneinherlittlewhitepinafore,and,toddlingacrossthegrassofaterracedgarden,pitchedherselfoveralowwallheadfirstintothehorsepondintheyardbelow。
"Ourmanwasoutwiththewaggonerandtheploughinthefieldnearesttothehouse,andashewasleadingtheteamroundtobeginafreshfur—
row,hesaw,throughthegapofthegate,whatforanybodyelsewouldhavebeenamereflutterofsomethingwhite。Buthehadstraight—glancing,quick,far—reachingeyes,thatonlyseemedtoflinchandlosetheiramazingpowerbeforetheimmensityofthesea。Hewasbarefooted,andlookingasout—
landishastheheartofSwaffercoulddesire。Leav—
ingthehorsesontheturn,totheinexpressibledis—
ustofthewaggonerheboundedoff,goingovertheploughedgroundinlongleaps,andsuddenlyappearedbeforethemother,thrustthechildintoherarms,andstrodeaway。
"Thepondwasnotverydeep;butstill,ifhehadnothadsuchgoodeyes,thechildwouldhaveperished——miserablysuffocatedinthefootorsoofstickymudatthebottom。OldSwafferwalkedoutslowlyintothefield,waitedtilltheploughcameovertohisside,hadagoodlookathim,andwith—
outsayingawordwentbacktothehouse。Butfromthattimetheylaidouthismealsonthekitch—
entable;andatfirst,MissSwaffer,allinblackandwithaninscrutableface,wouldcomeandstandinthedoorwayoftheliving—roomtoseehimmakeabigsignofthecrossbeforehefellto。Ibelievethatfromthatday,too,Swafferbegantopayhimreg—
ularwages。
"Ican’tfollowstepbystephisdevelopment。
Hecuthishairshort,wasseeninthevillageandalongtheroadgoingtoandfrotohisworklikeanyotherman。Childrenceasedtoshoutafterhim。
Hebecameawareofsocialdifferences,butre—
mainedforalongtimesurprisedatthebarepov—
ertyofthechurchesamongsomuchwealth。Hecouldn’tunderstandeitherwhytheywerekeptshutuponweekdays。Therewasnothingtostealinthem。Wasittokeeppeoplefromprayingtoooften?Therectorytookmuchnoticeofhimaboutthattime,andIbelievetheyoungladiesattemptedtopreparethegroundforhisconversion。Theycouldnot,however,breakhimofhishabitofcross—
inghimself,buthewentsofarastotakeoffthestringwithacoupleofbrassmedalsthesizeofasixpence,atinymetalcross,andasquaresortofscapularywhichheworeroundhisneck。Hehungthemonthewallbythesideofhisbed,andhewasstilltobeheardeveryeveningrecitingtheLord’sPrayer,inincomprehensiblewordsandinaslow,ferventtone,ashehadheardhisoldfatherdoattheheadofallthekneelingfamily,bigandlittle,oneveryeveningofhislife。Andthoughheworecorduroysatwork,andaslop—madepepper—and—
saltsuitonSundays,strangerswouldturnroundtolookafterhimontheroad。Hisforeignnesshadapeculiarandindeliblestamp。Atlastpeoplebe—
cameusedtoseehim。Buttheyneverbecameusedtohim。Hisrapid,skimmingwalk;hisswarthycomplexion;hishatcockedontheleftear;hishab—
it,onwarmevenings,ofwearinghiscoatoveroneshoulder,likeahussar’sdolman;hismannerofleapingoverthestiles,notasafeatofagility,butintheordinarycourseofprogression——allthesepeculiaritieswere,asonemaysay,somanycausesofscornandoffencetotheinhabitantsofthevil—
lage。Theywouldn’tintheirdinnerhourlieflatontheirbacksonthegrasstostareatthesky。
Neitherdidtheygoaboutthefieldsscreamingdis—
maltunes。ManytimeshaveIheardhishigh—
pitchedvoicefrombehindtheridgeofsomeslop—
ingsheep—walk,avoicelightandsoaring,likealark’s,butwithamelancholyhumannote,overourfieldsthathearonlythesongofbirds。AndI
shouldbestartledmyself。Ah!Hewasdifferent:
innocentofheart,andfullofgoodwill,whichno—
bodywanted,thiscastaway,that,likeamantrans—
plantedintoanotherplanet,wasseparatedbyanimmensespacefromhispastandbyanimmenseignorancefromhisfuture。Hisquick,ferventut—
terancepositivelyshockedeverybody。’Anexcit—
abledevil,’theycalledhim。Oneevening,inthetap—roomoftheCoachandHorses(havingdrunksomewhisky),heupsetthemallbysingingalovesongofhiscountry。Theyhootedhimdown,andhewaspained;butPreble,thelamewheelwright,andVincent,thefatblacksmith,andtheothernota—
blestoo,wantedtodrinktheireveningbeerinpeace。Onanotheroccasionhetriedtoshowthemhowtodance。Thedustroseincloudsfromthesandedfloor;heleapedstraightupamongstthedealtables,struckhisheelstogether,squattedononeheelinfrontofoldPreble,shootingouttheotherleg,utteredwildandexultingcries,jumpeduptowhirlononefoot,snappinghisfingersabovehishead——andastrangecarterwhowashavingadrinkintherebegantoswear,andclearedoutwithhishalf—pintinhishandintothebar。Butwhensud—
denlyhespranguponatableandcontinuedtodanceamongtheglasses,thelandlordinterfered。
Hedidn’twantany’acrobattricksinthetap—
room。’Theylaidtheirhandsonhim。Havinghadaglassortwo,Mr。Swaffer’sforeignertriedtoexpostulate:wasejectedforcibly:gotablackeye。
"Ibelievehefeltthehostilityofhishumansur—
roundings。Buthewastough——toughinspirit,too,aswellasinbody。Onlythememoryoftheseafrightenedhim,withthatvagueterrorthatisleftbyabaddream。Hishomewasfaraway;andhedidnotwantnowtogotoAmerica。Ihadoftenexplainedtohimthatthereisnoplaceonearthwheretruegoldcanbefoundlyingreadyandtobegotforthetroubleofthepickingup。Howthen,heasked,couldheeverreturnhomewithemptyhandswhentherehadbeensoldacow,twoponies,andabitoflandtopayforhisgoing?Hiseyeswouldfillwithtears,and,avertingthemfromtheimmenseshimmerofthesea,hewouldthrowhim—
selffacedownonthegrass。Butsometimes,cock—
inghishatwithalittleconqueringair,hewoulddefymywisdom。Hehadfoundhisbitoftruegold。ThatwasAmyFoster’sheart;whichwas’agoldenheart,andsofttopeople’smisery,’hewouldsayintheaccentsofoverwhelmingconvic—
tion。
"HewascalledYanko。HehadexplainedthatthismeantlittleJohn;butashewouldalsorepeatveryoftenthathewasamountaineer(somewordsoundinginthedialectofhiscountrylikeGoorall)
hegotitforhissurname。Andthisistheonlytraceofhimthatthesucceedingagesmayfindinthemarriageregisteroftheparish。Thereitstands——YankoGoorall——intherector’shandwrit—
ing。Thecrookedcrossmadebythecastaway,acrosswhosetracingnodoubtseemedtohimthemostsolemnpartofthewholeceremony,isallthatremainsnowtoperpetuatethememoryofhisname。
"Hiscourtshiphadlastedsometime——eversincehegothisprecariousfootinginthecommunity。ItbeganbyhisbuyingforAmyFosteragreensatinribboninDarnford。Thiswaswhatyoudidinhiscountry。YouboughtaribbonataJew’sstallonafair—day。Idon’tsupposethegirlknewwhattodowithit,butheseemedtothinkthathishonoura—
bleintentionscouldnotbemistaken。
"ItwasonlywhenhedeclaredhispurposetogetmarriedthatIfullyunderstoodhow,forahun—
dredfutileandinappreciablereasons,how——shallIsayodious?——hewastoallthecountryside。
Everyoldwomaninthevillagewasupinarms。
Smith,cominguponhimnearthefarm,promisedtobreakhisheadforhimifhefoundhimaboutagain。Buthetwistedhislittleblackmoustachewithsuchabellicoseairandrolledsuchbig,blackfierceeyesatSmiththatthispromisecametonoth—
ing。Smith,however,toldthegirlthatshemustbemadtotakeupwithamanwhowassurelywronginhishead。Allthesame,whensheheardhiminthegloamingwhistlefrombeyondtheorchardacoupleofbarsofaweirdandmournfultune,shewoulddropwhatevershehadinherhand——shewouldleaveMrs。Smithinthemiddleofasentence——andshewouldrunouttohiscall。Mrs。Smithcalledherashamelesshussy。Sheanswerednoth—
ing。Shesaidnothingatalltoanybody,andwentonherwayasifshehadbeendeaf。SheandIaloneallintheland,Ifancy,couldseehisveryrealbeauty。Hewasverygood—looking,andmostgracefulinhisbearing,withthatsomethingwildasofawoodlandcreatureinhisaspect。Hermoth—
ermoanedoverherdismallywheneverthegirlcametoseeheronherdayout。Thefatherwassurly,butpretendednottoknow;andMrs。Finnoncetoldherplainlythat’thisman,mydear,willdoyousomeharmsomedayyet。’Andsoitwenton。
Theycouldbeseenontheroads,shetrampingstol—
idlyinherfinery——greydress,blackfeather,stoutboots,prominentwhitecottonglovesthatcaughtyoureyeahundredyardsaway;andhe,hiscoatslungpicturesquelyoveroneshoulder,pacingbyherside,gallantofbearingandcastingtenderglancesuponthegirlwiththegoldenheart。I
wonderwhetherhesawhowplainshewas。Perhapsamongtypessodifferentfromwhathehadeverseen,hehadnotthepowertojudge;orperhapshewasseducedbythedivinequalityofherpity。
"Yankowasingreattroublemeantime。Inhiscountryyougetanoldmanforanambassadorinmarriageaffairs。Hedidnotknowhowtopro—
ceed。However,onedayinthemidstofsheepinafield(hewasnowSwaffer’sunder—shepherdwithFoster)hetookoffhishattothefatherandde—
claredhimselfhumbly。’Idaresayshe’sfoolenoughtomarryyou,’wasallFostersaid。’Andthen,’heusedtorelate,’heputshishatonhishead,looksblackatmeasifhewantedtocutmythroat,whistlesthedog,andoffhegoes,leavingmetodothework。’TheFosters,ofcourse,didn’tliketolosethewagesthegirlearned:Amyusedtogiveallhermoneytohermother。ButtherewasinFosteraverygenuineaversiontothatmatch。Hecon—
tendedthatthefellowwasverygoodwithsheep,butwasnotfitforanygirltomarry。Foronething,heusedtogoalongthehedgesmutteringtohimselflikeadam’fool;andthen,theseforeign—
ersbehaveveryqueerlytowomensometimes。Andperhapshewouldwanttocarryheroffsomewhere——orrunoffhimself。Itwasnotsafe。Hepreachedittohisdaughterthatthefellowmightill—useherinsomeway。Shemadenoanswer。Itwas,theysaidinthevillage,asifthemanhaddonesomethingtoher。Peoplediscussedthematter。Itwasquiteanexcitement,andthetwowenton’walkingout’togetherinthefaceofopposition。
Thensomethingunexpectedhappened。
"Idon’tknowwhetheroldSwaffereverunder—
stoodhowmuchhewasregardedinthelightofafatherbyhisforeignretainer。Anywaytherela—
tionwascuriouslyfeudal。SowhenYankoaskedformallyforaninterview——’andtheMisstoo’(hecalledthesevere,deafMissSwaffersimplyMiss)
——itwastoobtaintheirpermissiontomarry。
Swafferheardhimunmoved,dismissedhimbyanod,andthenshoutedtheintelligenceintoMissSwaffer’sbestear。Sheshowednosurprise,andonlyremarkedgrimly,inaveiledblankvoice,’Hecertainlywon’tgetanyothergirltomarryhim。’
"ItisMissSwafferwhohasallthecreditofthemunificence:butinaveryfewdaysitcameoutthatMr。SwafferhadpresentedYankowithacot—
tage(thecottageyou’veseenthismorning)andsomethinglikeanacreofground——hadmadeitovertohiminabsoluteproperty。Willcoxexpe—
ditedthedeed,andIrememberhimtellingmehehadagreatpleasureinmakingitready。Itre—
cited:’Inconsiderationofsavingthelifeofmybelovedgrandchild,BerthaWillcox。’
"Ofcourse,afterthatnopoweronearthcouldpreventthemfromgettingmarried。
"Herinfatuationendured。Peoplesawhergo—
ingouttomeethimintheevening。Shestaredwithunblinking,fascinatedeyesuptheroadwherehewasexpectedtoappear,walkingfreely,withaswingfromthehip,andhummingoneofthelove—
tunesofhiscountry。Whentheboywasborn,hegotelevatedatthe’CoachandHorses,’essayedagainasongandadance,andwasagainejected。
PeopleexpressedtheircommiserationforawomanmarriedtothatJack—in—the—box。Hedidn’tcare。
Therewasamannow(hetoldmeboastfully)towhomhecouldsingandtalkinthelanguageofhiscountry,andshowhowtodanceby—and—by。
"ButIdon’tknow。Tomeheappearedtohavegrownlessspringyofstep,heavierinbody,lesskeenofeye。Imagination,nodoubt;butitseemstomenowasifthenetoffatehadbeendrawncloserroundhimalready。
"OnedayImethimonthefootpathovertheTalfourdHill。Hetoldmethat’womenwerefun—
ny。’Ihadheardalreadyofdomesticdifferences。
PeopleweresayingthatAmyFosterwasbegin—
ningtofindoutwhatsortofmanshehadmarried。
Helookedupontheseawithindifferent,unseeingeyes。Hiswifehadsnatchedthechildoutofhisarmsonedayashesatonthedoorstepcrooningtoitasongsuchasthemotherssingtobabiesinhismountains。Sheseemedtothinkhewasdoingitsomeharm。Womenarefunny。Andshehadob—
jectedtohimprayingaloudintheevening。Why?
Heexpectedtheboytorepeattheprayeraloudafterhimby—and—by,asheusedtodoafterhisoldfatherwhenhewasachild——inhisowncountry。
AndIdiscoveredhelongedfortheirboytogrowupsothathecouldhaveamantotalkwithinthatlanguagethattoourearssoundedsodisturbing,sopassionate,andsobizarre。Whyhiswifeshoulddisliketheideahecouldn’ttell。Butthatwouldpass,hesaid。Andtiltinghisheadknow—
ingly,hetappedhisbreastbonetoindicatethatshehadagoodheart:nothard,notfierce,opentocom—
passion,charitabletothepoor!
"Iwalkedawaythoughtfully;Iwonderedwhetherhisdifference,hisstrangeness,werenotpenetratingwithrepulsionthatdullnaturetheyhadbegunbyirresistiblyattracting。Iwon—
dered……"
TheDoctorcametothewindowandlookedoutatthefrigidsplendourofthesea,immenseinthehaze,asifenclosingalltheearthwithalltheheartslostamongthepassionsofloveandfear。
"Physiologically,now,"hesaid,turningawayabruptly,"itwaspossible。Itwaspossible。"
Heremainedsilent。Thenwenton——
"Atallevents,thenexttimeIsawhimhewasill——lungtrouble。Hewastough,butIdaresayhewasnotacclimatisedaswellasIhadsupposed。Itwasabadwinter;and,ofcourse,thesemountain—
eersdogetfitsofhomesickness;andastateofde—
pressionwouldmakehimvulnerable。Hewaslyinghalfdressedonacouchdownstairs。
"Atablecoveredwithadarkoilclothtookupallthemiddleofthelittleroom。Therewasawickercradleonthefloor,akettlespoutingsteamonthehob,andsomechild’slinenlaydryingonthefender。Theroomwaswarm,butthedooropensrightintothegarden,asyounoticedperhaps。
"Hewasveryfeverish,andkeptonmutteringtohimself。Shesatonachairandlookedathimfixedlyacrossthetablewithherbrown,blurredeyes。’Whydon’tyouhavehimupstairs?’I
asked。Withastartandaconfusedstammershesaid,’Oh!ah!Icouldn’tsitwithhimupstairs,Sir。’
"Igavehercertaindirections;andgoingout—
side,Isaidagainthatheoughttobeinbedup—
stairs。Shewrungherhands。’Icouldn’t。I
couldn’t。Hekeepsonsayingsomething——Idon’tknowwhat。’Withthememoryofallthetalkagainstthemanthathadbeendinnedintoherears,Ilookedathernarrowly。Ilookedintohershort—
sightedeyes,atherdumbeyesthatonceinherlifehadseenanenticingshape,butseemed,staringatme,toseenothingatallnow。ButIsawshewasuneasy。
"’What’sthematterwithhim?’sheaskedinasortofvacanttrepidation。’Hedoesn’tlookveryill。Ineverdidseeanybodylooklikethisbe—
fore……’
"’Doyouthink,’Iaskedindignantly,’heisshamming?’
"’Ican’thelpit,sir,’shesaidstolidly。Andsuddenlysheclappedherhandsandlookedrightandleft。’Andthere’sthebaby。Iamsofright—
ened。Hewantedmejustnowtogivehimthebaby。Ican’tunderstandwhathesaystoit。’
"’Can’tyouaskaneighbourtocomeinto—
night?’Iasked。
"’Please,sir,nobodyseemstocaretocome,’shemuttered,dullyresignedallatonce。
"Iimpresseduponherthenecessityofthegreatestcare,andthenhadtogo。Therewasagooddealofsicknessthatwinter。’Oh,Ihopehewon’ttalk!’sheexclaimedsoftlyjustasIwasgo—
ingaway。
"Idon’tknowhowitisIdidnotsee——butI
didn’t。Andyet,turninginmytrap,Isawherlingeringbeforethedoor,verystill,andasifmed—
itatingaflightupthemiryroad。
"Towardsthenighthisfeverincreased。
"Hetossed,moaned,andnowandthenmutteredacomplaint。Andshesatwiththetablebetweenherandthecouch,watchingeverymovementandeverysound,withtheterror,theunreasonableter—
ror,ofthatmanshecouldnotunderstandcreepingoverher。Shehaddrawnthewickercradleclosetoherfeet。Therewasnothinginhernowbutthematernalinstinctandthatunaccountablefear。
"Suddenlycomingtohimself,parched,hede—
mandedadrinkofwater。Shedidnotmove。Shehadnotunderstood,thoughhemayhavethoughthewasspeakinginEnglish。Hewaited,lookingather,burningwithfever,amazedathersilenceandimmobility,andthenheshoutedimpatiently,’Water!Givemewater!’
"Shejumpedtoherfeet,snatchedupthechild,andstoodstill。Hespoketoher,andhispassion—
ateremonstrancesonlyincreasedherfearofthatstrangeman。Ibelievehespoketoherforalongtime,entreating,wondering,pleading,ordering,I
suppose。Shesayssheboreitaslongasshecould。
Andthenagustofragecameoverhim。
"Hesatupandcalledoutterriblyoneword——
someword。Thenhegotupasthoughhehadn’tbeenillatall,shesays。Andasinfevereddismay,indignation,andwonderhetriedtogettoherroundthetable,shesimplyopenedthedoorandranoutwiththechildinherarms。Sheheardhimcalltwiceafterherdowntheroadinaterriblevoice——
andfled……Ah!butyoushouldhaveseenstir—
ringbehindthedull,blurredglanceoftheseeyesthespectreofthefearwhichhadhuntedheronthatnightthreemilesandahalftothedoorofFos—
ter’scottage!Ididthenextday。
"AnditwasIwhofoundhimlyingfacedownandhisbodyinapuddle,justoutsidethelittlewicket—gate。
"Ihadbeencalledoutthatnighttoanurgentcaseinthevillage,andonmywayhomeatday—
breakpassedbythecottage。Thedoorstoodopen。
Mymanhelpedmetocarryhimin。Welaidhimonthecouch。Thelampsmoked,thefirewasout,thechillofthestormynightoozedfromthecheer—
lessyellowpaperonthewall。’Amy!’Icalledaloud,andmyvoiceseemedtoloseitselfintheemptinessofthistinyhouseasifIhadcriedinadesert。Heopenedhiseyes。’Gone!’hesaiddis—
tinctly。’Ihadonlyaskedforwater——onlyforalittlewater……’
"Hewasmuddy。Icoveredhimupandstoodwaitinginsilence,catchingapainfullygaspedwordnowandthen。Theywerenolongerinhisownlanguage。Thefeverhadlefthim,takingwithittheheatoflife。Andwithhispantingbreastandlustrouseyesheremindedmeagainofawildcreatureunderthenet;ofabirdcaughtinasnare。Shehadlefthim。Shehadlefthim——sick——helpless——thirsty。Thespearofthehunterhadenteredhisverysoul。’Why?’hecriedinthepen—
etratingandindignantvoiceofamancallingtoaresponsibleMaker。Agustofwindandaswishofrainanswered。
"AndasIturnedawaytoshutthedoorhepro—
nouncedtheword’Merciful!’andexpired。
"EventuallyIcertifiedheart—failureastheim—
mediatecauseofdeath。Hisheartmusthavein—
deedfailedhim,orelsehemighthavestoodthisnightofstormandexposure,too。Iclosedhiseyesanddroveaway。NotveryfarfromthecottageI
metFosterwalkingsturdilybetweenthedrippinghedgeswithhiscollieathisheels。
"’Doyouknowwhereyourdaughteris?’I
asked。
"’Don’tI!’hecried。’Iamgoingtotalktohimabit。Frighteningapoorwomanlikethis。’
"’Hewon’tfrightenheranymore,’Isaid。
’Heisdead。’
"Hestruckwithhisstickatthemud。
"’Andthere’sthechild。’
"Then,afterthinkingdeeplyforawhile——
"’Idon’tknowthatitisn’tforthebest。’
"That’swhathesaid。Andshesaysnothingatallnow。Notawordofhim。Never。Ishisim—
ageasutterlygonefromhermindashislitheandstridingfigure,hiscarollingvoicearegonefromourfields?Heisnolongerbeforehereyestoex—
citeherimaginationintoapassionofloveorfear;
andhismemoryseemstohavevanishedfromherdullbrainasashadowpassesawayuponawhitescreen。ShelivesinthecottageandworksforMissSwaffer。SheisAmyFosterforeverybody,andthechildis’AmyFoster’sboy。’ShecallshimJohnny——whichmeansLittleJohn。
"Itisimpossibletosaywhetherthisnamere—
callsanythingtoher。Doessheeverthinkofthepast?Ihaveseenherhangingovertheboy’scotinaverypassionofmaternaltenderness。Thelit—
tlefellowwaslyingonhisback,alittlefrightenedatme,butverystill,withhisbigblackeyes,withhisflutteredairofabirdinasnare。AndlookingathimIseemedtoseeagaintheotherone——thefather,castoutmysteriouslybytheseatoperishinthesupremedisasteroflonelinessanddespair。"
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