ToE。
Ihaverememberedbeautyinthenight,AgainstblacksilencesIwakedtoseeAshowerofsunlightoverItalyAndgreenRavellodreamingonherheight;
Ihaverememberedmusicinthedark,ThecleanswiftbrightnessofafugueofBach’s,AndrunningwatersingingontherocksWhenonceinEnglishwoodsIheardalark。
ButallrememberedbeautyisnomoreThanavaguepreludetothethoughtofyou——
YouaretherarestsoulIeverknew,Loverofbeauty,knightliestandbest;
Mythoughtsseekyouaswavesthatseektheshore,AndwhenIthinkofyou,Iamatrest。
PrefatoryNoteBesidenewpoems,thisbookcontainslyricstakenfrom"RiverstotheSea","HelenofTroyandOtherPoems",andoneortwofromanearliervolume。
ContentsI
BarterTwilightNightSongatAmalfiTheLookAWinterNightACryGiftsButNottoMeSongatCapriChild,ChildLoveMePierrotWildAstersTheSongforColinFourWindsDebtFaultsBuriedLoveTheFountainIShallNotCareAfterPartingAPrayerSpringNightMayWindTidesAfterLoveNewLoveandOldTheKissSwansTheRiverNovemberSpringRainTheGhostSummerNight,RiversideJewelsII
Interlude:SongsoutofSorrowI。Spirit’sHouseII。MasteryIII。LessonsIV。WisdomV。InaBuryingGroundVI。WoodSongVII。RefugeIII
TheFlightDewTo—nightEbbTideIWouldLiveinYourLoveBecauseTheTreeofSongTheGiverAprilSongTheWandererTheYearsEnoughComeJoyRichesDuskinWarTimePeaceMoodsHousesofDreamsLights"IAmNotYours"
DoubtTheWindMorningOtherMenEmbersMessageTheLampIV
ANovemberNightLoveSongsI
BarterLifehaslovelinesstosell,Allbeautifulandsplendidthings,Bluewaveswhitenedonacliff,Soaringfirethatswaysandsings,Andchildren’sfaceslookingupHoldingwonderlikeacup。
Lifehaslovelinesstosell,Musiclikeacurveofgold,Scentofpinetreesintherain,Eyesthatloveyou,armsthathold,Andforyourspirit’sstilldelight,Holythoughtsthatstarthenight。
Spendallyouhaveforloveliness,Buyitandnevercountthecost;
ForonewhitesinginghourofpeaceCountmanyayearofstrifewelllost,AndforabreathofecstasyGiveallyouhavebeen,orcouldbe。
TwilightDreamilyovertheroofsThecoldspringrainisfalling;
OutinthelonelytreeAbirdiscalling,calling。
SlowlyovertheearthThewingsofnightarefalling;
MyheartlikethebirdinthetreeIscalling,calling,calling。
NightSongatAmalfiIaskedtheheavenofstarsWhatIshouldgivemylove——
Itansweredmewithsilence,Silenceabove。
IaskedthedarkenedseaDownwherethefishersgo——
Itansweredmewithsilence,Silencebelow。
Oh,Icouldgivehimweeping,OrIcouldgivehimsong——
ButhowcanIgivesilence,Mywholelifelong?
TheLookStrephonkissedmeinthespring,Robininthefall,ButColinonlylookedatmeAndneverkissedatall。
Strephon’skisswaslostinjest,Robin’slostinplay,ButthekissinColin’seyesHauntsmenightandday。
AWinterNightMywindow—paneisstarredwithfrost,Theworldisbittercoldto—night,Themooniscruel,andthewindIslikeatwo—edgedswordtosmite。
Godpityallthehomelessones,Thebeggarspacingtoandfro,Godpityallthepoorto—nightWhowalkthelamp—litstreetsofsnow。
MyroomislikeabitofJune,Warmandclose—curtainedfoldonfold,Butsomewhere,likeahomelesschild,Myheartiscryinginthecold。
ACryOh,thereareeyesthathecansee,Andhandstomakehishandsrejoice,ButtomyloverImustbeOnlyavoice。
Oh,therearebreaststobearhishead,Andlipswhereonhislipscanlie,ButImustbetillIamdeadOnlyacry。
GiftsIgavemyfirstlovelaughter,Igavemysecondtears,IgavemythirdlovesilenceThroughalltheyears。
Myfirstlovegavemesinging,Mysecondeyestosee,Butoh,itwasmythirdloveWhogavemysoultome。
ButNottoMeTheAprilnightisstillandsweetWithflowersoneverytree;
Peacecomestothemonquietfeet,Butnottome。
MypeaceishiddeninhisbreastWhereIshallneverbe;
Lovecomesto—nighttoalltherest,Butnottome。
SongatCapriWhenbeautygrowstoogreattobearHowshallIeasemeofitsache,ForbeautymorethanbitternessMakestheheartbreak。
NowwhileIwatchthedreamingseaWithisleslikeflowersagainstherbreast,OnlyonevoiceinalltheworldCouldgivemerest。
Child,ChildChild,child,lovewhileyoucanThevoiceandtheeyesandthesoulofaman;
Neverfearthoughitbreakyourheart——
Outofthewoundnewjoywillstart;
Onlyloveproudlyandgladlyandwell,Thoughlovebeheavenorlovebehell。
Child,child,lovewhileyoumay,Forlifeisshortasahappyday;
Neverfearthethingyoufeel——
Onlybyloveislifemadereal;
Love,forthedeadlysinsareseven,Onlythroughlovewillyouenterheaven。
LoveMeBrown—thrushsingingalldaylongIntheleavesaboveme,TakemylovethisAprilsong,"Loveme,loveme,loveme!"
Whenheharkenswhatyousay,Bidhim,lesthemissme,Leavehisworkorleavehisplay,Andkissme,kissme,kissme!
PierrotPierrotstandsinthegardenBeneathawaningmoon,AndonhislutehefashionsAfragilesilvertune。
Pierrotplaysinthegarden,Hethinksheplaysforme,ButIamquiteforgottenUnderthecherrytree。
Pierrotplaysinthegarden,AndalltherosesknowThatPierrotloveshismusic,——
ButIlovePierrot。
WildAstersInthespringIaskedthedaisiesIfhiswordsweretrue,Andtheclever,clear—eyeddaisiesAlwaysknew。
Nowthefieldsarebrownandbarren,Bitterautumnblows,AndofallthestupidastersNotoneknows。
TheSongforColinIsangasongatduskingtimeBeneaththeeveningstar,AndTerencelefthislatestrhymeToanswerfromafar。
Pierrotlaiddownhislutetoweep,Andsighed,"Shesingsforme。"
ButColinsleptacarelesssleepBeneathanappletree。
FourWinds"Fourwindsblowingthroughthesky,Youhaveseenpoormaidensdie,TellmethenwhatIshalldoThatmylovermaybetrue。"
Saidthewindfromoutthesouth,"Laynokissuponhismouth,"
Andthewindfromoutthewest,"Woundtheheartwithinhisbreast,"
Andthewindfromouttheeast,"Sendhimemptyfromthefeast,"
Andthewindfromoutthenorth,"Inthetempestthrusthimforth;
Whenthouartmorecruelthanhe,ThenwillLovebekindtothee。"
DebtWhatdoIowetoyouWholovedmedeepandlong?
YounevergavemyspiritwingsOrgavemyheartasong。
Butoh,tohimIloved,Wholovedmenotatall,IowetheopengateThatledthroughheaven’swall。
FaultsTheycametotellyourfaultstome,Theynamedthemoveronebyone;
Ilaughedaloudwhentheyweredone,Iknewthemallsowellbefore,——
Oh,theywereblind,tooblindtoseeYourfaultshadmademeloveyoumore。
BuriedLoveIhavecometoburyLoveBeneathatree,IntheforesttallandblackWherenonecansee。
Ishallputnoflowersathishead,Norstoneathisfeet,ForthemouthIlovedsomuchWasbittersweet。
Ishallgonomoretohisgrave,Forthewoodsarecold。
IshallgatherasmuchofjoyAsmyhandscanhold。
IshallstayalldayinthesunWherethewidewindsblow,——
Butoh,IshallcryatnightWhennonewillknow。
TheFountainAllthroughthedeepbluenightThefountainsangalone;
ItsangtothedrowsyheartOfthesatyrcarvedinstone。
Thefountainsangandsang,Butthesatyrneverstirred——
OnlythegreatwhitemoonIntheemptyheavenheard。
ThefountainsangandsangWhileonthemarblerimThemilk—whitepeacocksslept,Andtheirdreamswerestrangeanddim。
Brightdewwasonthegrass,Andontheilex,dew,Thedreamymilk—whitebirdsWerealla—glisten,too。
ThefountainsangandsangThethingsonecannottell;
ThedreamingpeacocksstirredAndthegleamingdew—dropsfell。
IShallNotCareWhenIamdeadandovermebrightAprilShakesoutherrain—drenchedhair,Thoughyoushouldleanabovemebroken—hearted,Ishallnotcare。
Ishallhavepeace,asleafytreesarepeacefulWhenrainbendsdownthebough,AndIshallbemoresilentandcold—heartedThanyouarenow。
AfterPartingOh,IhavesownmylovesowideThathewillfinditeverywhere;
Itwillawakehiminthenight,Itwillenfoldhimintheair。
IsetmyshadowinhissightAndIhavewingeditwithdesire,Thatitmaybeacloudbyday,Andinthenightashaftoffire。
APrayerUntilIlosemysoulandlieBlindtothebeautyoftheearth,Deafthoughshoutingwindgoesby,Dumbinastormofmirth;
UntilmyheartisquenchedatlengthAndIhaveleftthelandofmen,Oh,letmelovewithallmystrengthCarelessifIamlovedagain。
SpringNightTheparkisfilledwithnightandfog,Theveilsaredrawnabouttheworld,ThedrowsylightsalongthepathsAredimandpearled。
Goldandgleamingtheemptystreets,Goldandgleamingthemistylake,Themirroredlightslikesunkenswords,Glimmerandshake。
Oh,isitnotenoughtobeHerewiththisbeautyoverme?
Mythroatshouldachewithpraise,andI
Shouldkneelinjoybeneaththesky。
O,beauty,areyounotenough?
WhyamIcryingafterlove,Withyouth,asingingvoice,andeyesTotakeearth’swonderwithsurprise?
WhyhaveIputoffmypride,WhyamIunsatisfied,——
I,forwhomthepensivenightBindshercloudyhairwithlight,——
I,forwhomallbeautyburnsLikeincenseinamillionurns?
Obeauty,areyounotenough?
WhyamIcryingafterlove?
MayWindIsaid,"IhaveshutmyheartAsoneshutsanopendoor,ThatLovemaystarvethereinAndtroublemenomore。"
ButovertheroofstherecameThewetnewwindofMay,AndatuneblewupfromthecurbWherethestreet—pianosplay。
MyroomwaswhitewiththesunAndLovecriedoutinme,"Iamstrong,IwillbreakyourheartUnlessyousetmefree。"
TidesLoveinmyheartwasafreshtideflowingWherethestarlikeseagullssoar;
ThesunwaskeenandthefoamwasblowingHighontherockyshore。
Butnowintheduskthetideisturning,Lowertheseagullssoar,AndthewavesthatroseinresistlessyearningArebrokenforevermore。
AfterLoveThereisnomagicanymore,Wemeetasotherpeopledo,YouworknomiracleformeNorIforyou。
YouwerethewindandIthesea——
Thereisnosplendoranymore,IhavegrownlistlessasthepoolBesidetheshore。
ButthoughthepoolissafefromstormAndfromthetidehasfoundsurcease,Itgrowsmorebitterthanthesea,Forallitspeace。
NewLoveandOldInmyhearttheoldloveStruggledwiththenew;
ItwasghostlywakingAllnightthrough。
Dearthings,kindthings,Thatmyoldlovesaid,RangedthemselvesreproachfullyRoundmybed。
ButIcouldnotheedthem,ForIseemedtoseeTheeyesofmynewloveFixedonme。
Oldlove,oldlove,HowcanIbetrue?
ShallIbefaithlesstomyselfOrtoyou?
TheKissIhopedthathewouldloveme,Andhehaskissedmymouth,ButIamlikeastrickenbirdThatcannotreachthesouth。
ForthoughIknowhelovesme,To—nightmyheartissad;
HiskisswasnotsowonderfulAsallthedreamsIhad。
SwansNightisoverthepark,andafewbravestarsLookonthelightsthatlinkitwithchainsofgold,ThelakebearsuptheirreflectioninbrokenbarsThatseemtooheavyfortremulouswatertohold。
Wewatchtheswansthatsleepinashadowyplace,Andnowandagainonewakesandupliftsitshead;
Howstillyouare——yourgazeisonmyface——
Wewatchtheswansandneverawordissaid。
TheRiverIcamefromthesunnyvalleysAndsoughtfortheopensea,ForIthoughtinitsgrayexpansesMypeacewouldcometome。
IcameatlasttotheoceanAndfounditwildandblack,AndIcriedtothewindlessvalleys,"Bekindandtakemeback!"
Butthethirstytideraninland,Andthesaltwavesdrankofme,AndIwhowasfreshastherainfallAmbitterasthesea。
NovemberTheworldistired,theyearisold,Thefadingleavesaregladtodie,ThewindgoesshiveringwithcoldWherethebrownreedsaredry。
Ourloveisdyinglikethegrass,Andwewhokissedgrowcoldlykind,HalfgladtoseeouroldlovepassLikeleavesalongthewind。
SpringRainIthoughtIhadforgotten,ButitallcamebackagainTo—nightwiththefirstspringthunderInarushofrain。
IrememberedadarkeneddoorwayWherewestoodwhilethestormsweptby,ThundergrippingtheearthAndlightningscrawledonthesky。
Thepassingmotorbussesswayed,Forthestreetwasariverofrain,LashedintolittlegoldenwavesInthelamplight’sstain。
WiththewildspringrainandthunderMyheartwaswildandgay;
YoureyessaidmoretomethatnightThanyourlipswouldeversay……
IthoughtIhadforgotten,ButitallcamebackagainTo—nightwiththefirstspringthunderInarushofrain。
TheGhostIwentbacktotheclangingcity,Iwentbackwheremyoldlovesstayed,Butmyheartwasfullofmynewlove’sglory,Myeyeswerelaughingandunafraid。
ImetonewhohadlovedmemadlyAndtoldhisloveforalltohear——
Butwetalkedofathousandthingstogether,Thepastwasburiedtoodeeptofear。
Imettheother,whoselovewasgivenWithneverakissandscarcelyaword——
Oh,itwasthentheterrortookmeOfwordsunutteredthatbreathedandstirred。
Oh,lovethatlivesitslifewithlaughterOrlovethatlivesitslifewithtearsCandie——butlovethatisneverspokenGoeslikeaghostthroughthewindingyears……
Iwentbacktotheclangingcity,Iwentbackwheremyoldlovesstayed,Myheartwasfullofmynewlove’sglory,——
Butmyeyesweresuddenlyafraid。
SummerNight,RiversideInthewild,softsummerdarknessHowmanyandmanyanightwetwotogetherSatintheparkandwatchedtheHudsonWearingherlightslikegoldenspanglesGlintingonblacksatin。
TherailalongthecurvingpathwayWaslowinahappyplacetoletuscross,AnddownthehillatreethatdrippedwithbloomShelteredus,Whileyourkissesandtheflowers,Falling,falling,Tangledmyhair……
Thefrailwhitestarsmovedslowlyoverthesky。
Andnow,faroffInthefragrantdarknessThetreeistremulousagainwithbloom,ForJunecomesback。
To—nightwhatgirlDreamilybeforehermirrorshakesfromherhairThisyear’sblossoms,clinginginitscoils?
JewelsIfIshouldseeyoureyesagain,Iknowhowfartheirlookwouldgo——
BacktoamorningintheparkWithsapphireshadowsonthesnow。
OrbacktooaktreesinthespringWhenyouunloosedmyhairandkissedTheheadthatlayagainstyourkneesIntheleafshadow’samethyst。
AndstillanothershiningplaceWewouldremember——howthedunWildmountainheldusonitscrestOnediamondmorningwhitewithsun。
ButIwillturnmyeyesfromyouAswomenturntoputawayThejewelstheyhavewornatnightAndcannotwearinsoberday。
II
Interlude:SongsoutofSorrowI。Spirit’sHouseFromnakedstonesofagonyIwillbuildahouseforme;
AsamasonallaloneIwillraiseit,stonebystone,AndeverystonewhereIhavebledWillshowasignofduskyred。
Ihavenotgonethewayinvain,ForIhavegoodofallmypain;
Myspirit’squiethousewillbeBuiltofnakedstonesItrodOnroadswhereIlostsightofGod。
II。MasteryIwouldnothaveagodcomeinToshieldmesuddenlyfromsin,Andsetmyhouseoflifetorights;
NorangelswithbrightburningwingsOrderingmyearthlythoughtsandthings;
RathermyownfrailgutteringlightsWindblownandnearlybeatenout;
RathertheterrorofthenightsAndlong,sickgropingafterdoubt;
RatherbelostthanletmysoulSlipvaguelyfrommyowncontrol——
OfmyownspiritletmebeInsolethoughfeeblemastery。
III。LessonsUnlessIlearntoasknohelpFromanyothersoulbutmine,ToseeknostrengthinwavingreedsNorshadebeneathastragglingpine;
UnlessIlearntolookatGriefUnshrinkingfromhertear—blindeyes,AndtakefromPleasurefearlesslyWhatevergiftswillmakemewise——
UnlessIlearnthesethingsonearth,WhywasIevergivenbirth?
IV。WisdomWhenIhaveceasedtobreakmywingsAgainstthefaultinessofthings,AndlearnedthatcompromiseswaitBehindeachhardlyopenedgate,WhenIcanlookLifeintheeyes,Growncalmandverycoldlywise,LifewillhavegivenmetheTruth,Andtakeninexchange——myyouth。
V。InaBuryingGroundThisisthespotwhereIwilllieWhenlifehashadenoughofme,ThesearethegrassesthatwillblowAbovemelikealivingsea。
ThesegayoldlilieswillnotshrinkTodrawtheirlifefromdeathofmine,AndIwillgivemybody’sfireTomakeblueflowersonthisvine。
"OSoul,"Isaid,"haveyounotears?
Wasnotthebodydeartoyou?"
Iheardmysoulsaycarelessly,"Themyrtleflowerswillgrowmoreblue。"
VI。WoodSongIheardawoodthrushintheduskTwirlthreenotesandmakeastar——
MyheartthatwalkedwithbitternessCamebackfromveryfar。
Threeshiningnoteswereallhehad,Andyettheymadeastarrycall——
IcaughtlifebackagainstmybreastAndkissedit,scarsandall。
VII。RefugeFrommyspirit’sgraydefeat,Frommypulse’sflaggingbeat,FrommyhopesthatturnedtosandSiftingthroughmyclose—clenchedhand,Frommyownfault’sslavery,IfIcansing,Istillamfree。
ForwithmysingingIcanmakeArefugeformyspirit’ssake,Ahouseofshiningwords,tobeMyfragileimmortality。
III
TheFlightLookbackwithlongingeyesandknowthatIwillfollow,Liftmeupinyourloveasalightwindliftsaswallow,Letourflightbefarinsunorblowingrain——
*ButwhatifIheardmyfirstlovecallingmeagain?*
Holdmeonyourheartasthebraveseaholdsthefoam,Takemefarawaytothehillsthathideyourhome;
Peaceshallthatchtheroofandloveshalllatchthedoor——
*ButwhatifIheardmyfirstlovecallingmeoncemore?*
DewAsdewleavesthecobweblightlyThreadedwithstars,ScatteringjewelsonthefenceAndthepasturebars;
AsdawnleavesthedrygrassbrightAndthetangledweedsBearingarainbowgemOneachoftheirseeds;
Sohasyourlove,mylover,Freshasthedawn,MademeashiningroadTotravelon,SeteverycommonsightOftreeorstoneDelicatelyalightFormealone。
To—nightThemoonisacurvingflowerofgold,Theskyisstillandblue;
Themoonwasmadefortheskytohold,AndIforyou。
Themoonisaflowerwithoutastem,Theskyisluminous;
Eternitywasmadeforthem,To—nightforus。
EbbTideWhenthelongdaygoesbyAndIdonotseeyourface,Theoldwild,restlesssorrowStealsfromitshidingplace。
Mydayisbarrenandbroken,Bereftoflightandsong,AseabeachbleakandwindyThatmoansthewholedaylong。
Totheemptybeachatebbtide,Barewithitsrocksandscars,Comebackliketheseawithsinging,Andlightofamillionstars。
IWouldLiveinYourLoveIwouldliveinyourloveasthesea—grassesliveinthesea,Borneupbyeachwaveasitpasses,drawndownbyeachwavethatrecedes;
Iwouldemptymysoulofthedreamsthathavegatheredinme,Iwouldbeatwithyourheartasitbeats,Iwouldfollowyoursoulasitleads。
BecauseOh,becauseyounevertriedTobowmywillorbreakmypride,Andnothingofthecave—manmadeYouwanttokeepmehalfafraid,NoreverwithaconqueringairYouthoughttodrawmeunaware——
Takeme,forIloveyoumoreThanIeverlovedbefore。
Andsincethebody’smaidenhoodAlonewereneitherrarenorgoodUnlesswithitIgavetoyouAspiritstilluntrammeled,too,TakemydreamsandtakemymindThatweremasterlessaswind;
And"Master!"IshallsaytoyouSinceyouneveraskedmeto。
TheTreeofSongIsangmysongsfortherest,ForyouIamstill;
ThetreeofmysongisbareOnitsshininghill。
Foryoucamelikealordlywind,AndtheleaveswerewhirledFarasforgottenthingsPasttherimoftheworld。
ThetreeofmysongstandsbareAgainsttheblue——
Igavemysongstotherest,Myselftoyou。
TheGiverYouboundstrongsandalsonmyfeet,Yougavemebreadandwine,Andsentmeundersunandstars,Foralltheworldwasmine。
Oh,takethesandalsoffmyfeet,Youknownotwhatyoudo;
Forallmyworldisinyourarms,Mysunandstarsareyou。
AprilSongWillow,inyourAprilgownDelicateandgleaming,DoyoumindinyearsgonebyAllmydreaming?
SpringwaslikeacalltomeThatIcouldnotanswer,Iwaschainedtoloneliness,I,thedancer。
Willow,twinklinginthesun,Stillyourleavesandhearme,Icananswerspringatlast,Loveisnearme!
TheWandererIsawthesunset—coloredsands,TheNilelikeflowingfirebetween,WhereRamesesstaresforthserene,AndAmmon’sheavytemplestands。
Isawtherockswherelongago,Abovetheseathatcriesandbreaks,SwiftPerseuswithMedusa’ssnakesSetfreethemaidenwhitelikesnow。
Andmanyskieshavecoveredme,Andmanywindshaveblownmeforth,AndIhavelovedthegreen,brightnorth,AndIhavelovedthecold,sweetsea。
Butwhattomearenorthandsouth,Andwhatthelureofmanylands,SinceyouhaveleanedtocatchmyhandsAndlayakissuponmymouth。
TheYearsTo—nightIclosemyeyesandseeAstrangeprocessionpassingme——
TheyearsbeforeIsawyourfaceGobymewithawistfulgrace;
Theypass,thesensitive,shyyears,Asonewhostrivestodance,halfblindwithtears。
TheyearswentbyandneverknewThateachonebroughtmeneareryou;
TheirpathwasnarrowandapartAndyetitledmetoyourheart——
Oh,sensitive,shyyears,oh,lonelyyears,Thatstrovetosingwithvoicesdrownedintears。
EnoughItisenoughformebydayTowalkthesamebrightearthwithhim;
EnoughthatoverusbynightThesamegreatroofofstarsisdim。
IdonothopetobindthewindOrsetafetteronthesea——
ItisenoughtofeelhisloveBlowbylikemusicoverme。
ComeCome,whenthepalemoonlikeapetalFloatsinthepearlyduskofspring,Comewitharmsoutstretchedtotakeme,Comewithlipspurseduptocling。
Come,forlifeisafrailmothflying,Caughtintheweboftheyearsthatpass,Andsoonwetwo,sowarmandeager,Willbeasthegraystonesinthegrass。
JoyIamwild,Iwillsingtothetrees,Iwillsingtothestarsinthesky,Ilove,Iamloved,heismine,NowatlastIcandie!
Iamsandaledwithwindandwithflame,Ihaveheart—fireandsingingtogive,Icantreadonthegrassorthestars,NowatlastIcanlive!
RichesIhavenorichesbutmythoughts,Yetthesearewealthenoughforme;
MythoughtsofyouaregoldencoinsStampedinthemintofmemory;
AndImustspendthemallinsong,Forthoughts,aswellasgold,mustbeLeftonthehithersideofdeathTogaintheirimmortality。
DuskinWarTimeAhalf—hourmoreandyouwillleanTogathermecloseintheoldsweetway——
Butoh,tothewomanovertheseaWhowillcomeatthecloseofday?
Ahalf—hourmoreandIwillhearThekeyinthelatchandthestrong,quicktread——
Butoh,thewomanovertheseaWaitingatduskforonewhoisdead!
PeacePeaceflowsintomeAsthetidetothepoolbytheshore;
Itismineforevermore,Itwillnotebblikethesea。
IamthepoolofblueThatworshipsthevividsky;
Myhopeswereheaven—high,Theyareallfulfilledinyou。
IamthepoolofgoldWhensunsetburnsanddies——
Youaremydeepeningskies;
Givemeyourstarstohold。
MoodsIamthestillrainfalling,Tootiredforsingingmirth——
Oh,bethegreenfieldscalling,Oh,beformetheearth!
IamthebrownbirdpiningToleavethenestandfly——
Oh,bethefreshcloudshining,Oh,beformethesky!
HousesofDreamsYoutookmyemptydreamsAndfilledthemeveryoneWithtendernessandnobleness,Aprilandthesun。
TheoldemptydreamsWheremythoughtswouldthrongArefartoofullofhappinessToevenholdasong。
Oh,theemptydreamsweredimAndtheemptydreamswerewide,TheyweresweetandshadowyhousesWheremythoughtscouldhide。
ButyoutookmydreamsawayAndyoumadethemallcometrue——
Mythoughtshavenoplacenowtoplay,Andnothingnowtodo。
LightsWhenwecomehomeatnightandclosethedoor,Standingtogetherintheshadowyroom,Safeinourownloveandthegentlegloom,Gladoffamiliarwallandchairandfloor,Gladtoleavefarbelowtheclangingcity;
LookingfardownwardtotheglaringstreetGaudywithlight,yettiredwithmanyfeet,Inbothofuswellsupawordlesspity;
Menhavetriedhardtoputawaythedark;
AmillionlightedwindowsbrilliantlyInlaywithsquaresofgoldthewinternight,ButtousstandingheretherecomesthestarkSenseofthelivesbehindeachyellowlight,Andnotonewhollyjoyous,proud,orfree。
"IAmNotYours"
Iamnotyours,notlostinyou,Notlost,althoughIlongtobeLostasacandlelitatnoon,Lostasasnowflakeinthesea。
Youloveme,andIfindyoustillAspiritbeautifulandbright,YetIamI,wholongtobeLostasalightislostinlight。
Ohplungemedeepinlove——putoutMysenses,leavemedeafandblind,Sweptbythetempestofyourlove,Ataperinarushingwind。
DoubtMysoullivesinmybody’shouse,Andyouhaveboththehouseandher——
ButsometimessheislessyourownThanawild,gayadventurer;
Arestlessandaneagerwraith,HowcanItellwhatshewilldo——
Oh,Iamsureofmybody’sfaith,Butwhatifmysoulbrokefaithwithyou?
TheWindAwindisblowingovermysoul,Ihearitcrythewholenightthrough——
IstherenopeaceformeonearthExceptwithyou?
Alas,thewindhasmademewise,Overmynakedsoulitblew,——
ThereisnopeaceformeonearthEvenwithyou。
MorningIwentoutonanAprilmorningAllalone,formyheartwashigh,Iwasachildoftheshiningmeadow,Iwasasisterofthesky。
ThereinthewindyfloodofmorningLonginglifteditsweightfromme,Lostasasobinthemidstofcheering,Sweptasasea—birdouttosea。
OtherMenWhenItalkwithothermenIalwaysthinkofyou——
Yourwordsarekeenerthantheirwords,Andtheyaregentler,too。
WhenIlookatothermen,Iwishyourfacewerethere,WithitsgrayeyesanddarkskinAndtossedblackhair。
WhenIthinkofothermen,Dreamingalonebyday,ThethoughtofyoulikeastrongwindBlowsthedreamsaway。
EmbersIsaid,"MyyouthisgoneLikeafirebeatenoutbytherain,ThatwillneverswayandsingOrplaywiththewindagain。"
Isaid,"ItisnogreatsorrowThatquenchedmyyouthinme,ButonlylittlesorrowsBeatingceaselessly。"
Ithoughtmyyouthwasgone,Butyoureturned——
LikeaflameatthecallofthewindItleapedandburned;
Threwoffitsashencloak,AndgownedanewGaveitselflikeabrideOncemoretoyou。
MessageIheardacryinthenight,Athousandmilesitcame,Sharpasaflashoflight,Myname,myname!
ItwasyourvoiceIheard,Youwakedandlovedmeso——
Isendyoubackthisword,Iknow,Iknow!
TheLampIfIcanbearyourlovelikealampbeforeme,WhenIgodownthelongsteepRoadofDarkness,Ishallnotfeartheeverlastingshadows,Norcryinterror。
IfIcanfindoutGod,thenIshallfindHim,IfnonecanfindHim,thenIshallsleepsoundly,Knowinghowwellonearthyourlovesufficedme,Alampindarkness。
IV
ANovemberNightThere!Seethelineoflights,Achainofstarsdowneithersidethestreet——
Whycan’tyouliftthechainandgiveittome,Anecklaceformythroat?I’dtwistitroundAndyoucouldplaywithit。YousmileatmeAsthoughIwerealittledreamychildBehindwhoseeyesthefairieslive……Andsee,ThepeopleonthestreetlookupatusAllenvious。Weareakingandqueen,Ourroyalcarriageisamotorbus,Wewatchoursubjectswithahaughtyjoy……
Howstillyouare!HaveyoubeenhardatworkAndareyoutiredto—night?ItissolongSinceIhaveseenyou——fourwholedays,Ithink。
MyheartiscrowdedfulloffoolishthoughtsLikeearlyflowersinanAprilmeadow,AndImustgivethemtoyou,allofthem,Beforetheyfade。ThepeopleIhavemet,TheplayIsaw,thetrivial,shiftingthingsThatloomtoobigorshrinktoolittle,shadowsThathurry,gesturingalongawall,Hauntingorgay——andyettheyallgrowrealAndtaketheirpropersizehereinmyheartWhenyouhaveseenthem……There’sthePlazanow,Alakeoflight!To—nightitalmostseemsThatallthelightsaregatheredinyoureyes,Drawnsomehowtowardyou。SeetheopenparkLyingbelowuswithamillionlampsScatteredinwisedisorderlikethestars。
WelookdownonthemasGodmustlookdownOnconstellationsfloatingunderHimTangledinclouds……Come,then,andletuswalkSincewehavereachedthepark。Itisourgarden,Allblackandblossomlessthiswinternight,ButwebringAprilwithus,youandI;
Wesetthewholeworldonthetrailofspring。
IthinkthateverypathweevertookHasmarkedourfootprintsinmysteriousfire,Delicategoldthatonlyfairiessee。
Whentheywakeupatdawninhollowtree—trunksAndcomeoutonthedrowsypark,theylookAlongtheemptypathsandsay,"Oh,hereTheywent,andhere,andhere,andhere!Come,see,Hereistheirbench,takehandsandletusdanceAboutitinawindyringandmakeAcirclerounditonlytheycancrossWhentheycomebackagain!"……Lookatthelake——
DoyourememberhowwewatchedtheswansThatnightinlateOctoberwhiletheyslept?
Swansmusthavestatelydreams,Ithink。ButnowThelakebearsonlythinreflectedlightsThatshakealittle。HowIlongtotakeOnefromthecoldblackwater——new—madegoldTogiveyouinyourhand!Andsee,andsee,Thereisastar,deepinthelake,astar!
Oh,dimmerthanapearl——ifyoustoopdownYourhandcouldalmostreachituptome……
Therewasanewfrailyellowmoonto—night——
IwishyoucouldhavehaditforacupWithstarslikedewtofillittothebrim……
Howcolditis!Eventhelightsarecold;
Theyhaveputshawlsoffogaroundthem,see!
WhatiftheairshouldgrowsodimlywhiteThatwewouldloseourwayalongthepathsMadenewbywallsofmovingmistrecedingThemorewefollow……Whatasilvernight!
ThatwasourbenchthetimeyousaidtomeThelongnewpoem——buthowdifferentnow,HoweeriewiththecurtainofthefogMakingitstrangetoallthefriendlytrees!
Thereisnowind,andyetgreatcurvingscrollsCarvethemselves,everchanging,inthemist。
Walkonalittle,letmestandherewatchingToseeyou,too,grownstrangetomeandfar……
IusedtowonderhowtheparkwouldbeIfonenightwecouldhaveitallalone——
Noloverswithclosearm—encircledwaistsTowhisperandbreakinuponourdreams。
Andnowwehaveit!Everywishcomestrue!
Wearealonenowinafleecyworld;
Eventhestarshavegone。Wetwoalone!
[EndofLoveSongs。]
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Onlytheadvertisementforthesameauthorisincluded}。
BythesameauthorRiverstotheSea"ThereishardlyanotherAmericanwoman—poetwhosepoetryisgenerallyknownandlovedlikethatofSaraTeasdale。`RiverstotheSea’,herlatestvolumeoflyrics,possessesthedelicacyofimagery,theinwardillumination,thehighvisionthatcharacterizethepoetrythatwillendurethetestoftime。"——`ReviewofReviews’。
"`RiverstotheSea’isabookofsheerdelight……Hertouchturnseverythingtosong。"——EdwardJ。Wheeler,in`CurrentOpinion’。
"SaraTeasdale’slyricshavetheclarity,theprecision,thegraceandfragranceofflowers。"——HarrietMonroe,in`Poetry’。
"SaraTeasdalehasageniusforthesong,fortheperfectlyric,inwhichthewordsseemtohavefallenintoplacewithoutartoreffort。"
——LouisUntermeyer,in`TheChicagoEveningPost’。
"`RiverstotheSea’isthebestbookofpurelyricsthathasappearedinEnglishsinceA。E。Housman’s`AShropshireLad’。"
——WilliamMarionReedy,in`TheMirror’。
"`RiverstotheSea’isthemostbeautifulbookofpurelyricsthathascometomyhandinyears。"——`LosAngelesGraphic’。
"SaraTeasdalesingsaboutlovebetterthananyothercontemporaryAmericanpoet。"——`TheBostonTranscript’。
"`RiverstotheSea’isthemostcharmingvolumeofpoetrythathasappearedoneithersideoftheAtlanticinascoreofyears。"——`St。LouisRepublic’。
SaraTeasdale1884—1933:
TeasdalewasborninSt。Louis,Missouri,wheresheattendedaschoolthatwasfoundedbythegrandfatherofanothergreatpoetfromSt。Louis——
T。S。Eliot。ShelaterassociatedherselfmorewithNewYorkCity。
Herfirstbookofpoemswas"SonnetstoDuse"1907,[atleastonepoeminthecurrentvolume,"Faults",isfromthisbook,]
but"HelenofTroy"1911wasthetruelaunchofhercareer,followedby"RiverstotheSea"1915,"LoveSongs"1917,"FlameandShadow"1920andmore。Herfinalvolume,"StrangeVictory",isconsideredbymanytobepredictiveofhersuicidein1933。
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