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第2章

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  Dayshowedtheocean’ssurfacenolongerglassy,butlyinglikeamirrorbreathedupon;andtherebetweentheshortheadlandscameasail,grayandplainagainsttheflatwater。Thepriestwatchedthroughhisglasses,andsawthegradualsungrowstronguponthecanvasofthebarkentine。
  Themessagefromhisworldwasathand,yetto—dayhescarcelycaredsomuch。Sittinginhisgardenyesterday,hecouldneverhaveimaginedsuchachange。Buthisheartdidnothailthebarkentineasusual。Books,music,palepaper,andprint——thiswasallthatwascomingtohim,someofitssavorhadgone;forthesirenvoiceofLifehadbeenspeakingwithhimfacetoface,andinhisspirit,deepdown,theloveoftheworldwasrestlesslyansweringit。YoungGastonshowedmoreeagernessthanthePadreoverthisarrivalofthevesselthatmightbebringingTrovatoreinthenickoftime。Nowhewouldhavethechance,beforehetookhisleave,tohelprehearsethenewmusicwiththechoir。Hewouldbeamissionary,too:aperfectlynewexperience。
  "AndyoustillforgiveVerdithesinsofhisyouth?"hesaidtohishost。
  "Iwonderifyoucouldforgivemine?"
  "Verdihaslefthisbehindhim,"retortedthePadre。
  "ButIamonlytwenty—five!"exclaimedGaston,pathetically。
  "Ah,don’tgoawaysoon!"pleadedtheexile。Itwasthefirstunconcealedcomplaintthathadescapedhim,andhefeltinstantshame。
  ButGastonwastoomuchelatedwiththeenjoymentofeachnewdaytocomprehendthePadre’ssoul。Theshaftsofanother’spainmighthardlypiercethebrightarmorofhisgaiety。Hemistookthepriest’sentreaty,foranxietyabouthisownhappyspirit。
  "Stayhereunderyourcare?"heasked。"Itwoulddomenogood,Padre。
  Temptationsticksclosertomethanabrother!"andhegavethatlaughofhiswhichhaddisarmedsevererjudgesthanhishost。"BynextweekI
  shouldhaveintroducedsomesinorotherintoyourbeautifulGardenofIgnorancehere。ItwillbemuchsaferforyourflockifIgoandjointheotherserpentsatSanFrancisco。"
  SoonafterbreakfastthePadrehadhistwomulessaddled,andheandhisguestsetforthdownthehillstogethertotheshore。And,beneaththespellandconfidenceofpleasant,slowridingandthelovelinessofeverything,theyoungmantalkedfreelyofhimself。
  "And,seriously,"saidhe,"ifImissednothingelseatSantaYsabel,I
  shouldlongfor——howshallIsayit?——forinsecurity,fordanger,andofallkinds——notmerelydangertothebody。Withinthesewalls,beneaththesesacredbells,youlivetoosafeforamanlikeme。"
  "Toosafe!"TheseechoedwordsuponthelipsofthepalePadrewereawhispertoolight,toodeep,forGaston’sheedlessear。
  "Why,"theyoungmanpursuedinaspiritthatwasbuthalflevity,"thoughIyieldoftentotemptation,attimesIhaveresistedit,andhereIshouldmisstheverychancetoresist。YourgardencouldneverbeEdenforme,becausetemptationisabsentfromit。"
  "Absent!"Stilllighter,stilldeeper,wasthiswhisperthatthePadrebreathed。
  "Imustfindlife,"exclaimedGaston,"andmyfortuneatthemines,I
  hope。Iamnotabadfellow,Father。YoucaneasilyguessallthethingsIdo。Ihavenever,tomyknowledge,harmedanyone。Ididn’teventrytokillmyadversaryinanaffairofhonor。Igavehimamereflesh—wound,andbythistimehemustbequiterecovered。Hewasmyfriend。Butashecamebetweenme——"
  Gastonstopped,andthePadre,lookingkeenlyathim,sawtheviolencethathehadnoticedinchurchpasslikeaflameovertheyoungman’shandsomeface。
  "That’snothingdishonorable,"saidGaston,answeringthepriest’slook。
  Andthen,becausethislookmadehimnotquiteathisease:"Perhapsapriestmightfeelobligedtosayitwasdishonorable。Sheandherfatherwere——amanowesnofidelitybeforeheis——butyoumightsaythathadbeendishonorable。"
  "Ihavenotsaidso,myson。"
  "Ididwhateverygentlemanwoulddo。"insistedGaston。
  "Andthatisoftenwrong!"saidthePadre,gentlyandgravely。"ButI’mnotyourconfessor。"
  "No,"saidGaston,lookingdown。"Anditisallover。Itwillnotbeginagain。SinceleavingNewOrleansIhavetraveledaninnocentjourneystraighttoyou。AndwhenImakemyfortuneIshallbeinapositiontoreturnand——"
  "Claimthepressedflowrer?"suggestedthePadre。Hedidnotsmile。
  "Ah,yourememberhowthosethingsare!"saidGaston:andhelaughedandblushed。
  "Yes,"saidthePadre,lookingattheanchoredbarkentine,"Irememberhowthosethingsare。"
  Forawhilethevesselanditscargoandthelandedmenandvariousbusinessandconversationsoccupiedthem。Butthefreightforthemissiononceseento,therewasnotmuchelsetodetainthem。
  Thebarkentinewasonlyacoasterlikemanyotherswhichhadbeguntofilltheseaalittlemoreoflateyears,andpresentlyhostandguestwereridinghomeward。Sidebysidetheyrode,companionstotheeye,butwideapartinmood;withintheturbulentyoungfigureofGastondweltaspiritthatcouldnotbemoreatease,whilerevoltwassteadilykindlingbeneaththeschooledandplacidmaskofthePadre。
  Yetstillthestrangenessofhissituationinsucharemote,resourcelessplacecamebackasamarvelintotheyoungman’slivelymind。Twentyyearsinprison,hethought,andhardlyawareofit!Andheglancedatthesilentpriest。Amansoevidentlyfondofmusic,oftheaters,oftheworld,towhompressedflowershadmeantsomethingonce——andnowcontentedtobleachuponthesewastes!Notevendesirousofabriefholiday,butfindinganoldorganandsomeoldoperasenoughrecreation!
  "Itishisage,Isuppose,"thoughtGaston。Andthenthenotionofhimselfwhenheshouldbesixtyoccurredtohim,andhespoke。
  "Doyouknow,Idonotbelieve,"saidhe,"thatIshouldeverreachsuchcontentmentasyours。"
  "Perhapsyouwill,"saidPadreIgnacio,inalowvoice。
  "Never!"declaredtheyouth。"Itcomesonlytothefew,Iamsure。"
  "Yes。Onlytothefew,"murmuredthePadre。
  "Iamcertainthatitmustbeagreatpossession,"Gastoncontinued;
  "andyet——andyet——dearme!lifeisasplendidthing!"
  "Thereareseveralwaystoliveit,"saidthePadre。
  "Onlyoneforme!"criedGaston。"Action,men,women,things——tobethere,tobeknown,toplayapart,tositinthefrontseats;tohavepeopletelloneanother,’TheregoesGastonVillere!’andtodeserveone’sprominence。Why,ifIwasPadreofSantaYsabeldelMarfortwentyyears——
  no!foroneyear——doyouknowwhatIshouldhavedone?Somedayitwouldhavebeentoomuchforme。Ishouldhaveleftthesesavagestoapastornearertheirownlevel,andIshouldhaveriddendownthiscanyonuponmymule,andsteppedonboardthebarkentine,andgonebacktomypropersphere。Youwillunderstand,sir,thatIamfarfromventuringtomakeanypersonalcomment。Iamonlythinkingwhataworldofdifferenceliesbetweennaturesthatcanfeelasalikeaswedouponsomanysubjects。Why,notsinceleavingNewOrleanshaveImetanyonewithwhomIcouldtalk,exceptoftheweatherandthebruteinterestscommontousall。Thatsuchaoneasyoushouldbehereislikeadream。"
  "Butitisnotadream,"saidthePadre。
  "And,sir——pardonmeifIdosaythis——areyounotwastedatSantaYsabeldelMar?Ihaveseenthepriestsattheothermissions。Theyare——
  thesortofgoodmenthatIexpected。Butareyouneededtosavesuchsoulsasthese?"
  "Thereisnoaristocracyofsouls,"saidthePadre,againwhispering。
  "Butthebodyandthemind!"criedGaston。"MyGod,aretheynothing?Doyouthinkthattheyaregiventousfornothingbutatrap?Youcannotteachsuchadoctrinewithyourlibrarythere。Andhowaboutallthecultivatedmenandwomenawayfromwhosequickeningsocietythebrightestofusgrownumb?Youhaveheldout。Butwillitbeforlong?Areyounevertosaveanysoulsofyourownkind?Arenottwentyyearsofmescladosenough?No,no!"finishedyoungGaston,hotwithhisunforeseeneloquence;"Ishouldridedownsomemorningandtakethebarkentine。"
  PadreIgnaciowassilentforaspace。
  "Ihavenotoffendedyou?"askedtheyoungman。
  "No。Anythingbutthat。YouaresurprisedthatIshould——choose——tostayhere。PerhapsyoumayhavewonderedhowIcametobehereatall?"
  "Ihadnotintendedanyimpertinent——"
  "Ohno。Putsuchanideaoutofyourhead,myson。YoumayrememberthatIwasgoingtomakeyouaconfessionaboutmyoperas。Letussitdowninthisshade。"
  Sotheypicketedthemulesnearthestreamandsatdown。
  IV
  Youhaveseen,"beganPadreIgnacio,"whatsortofamanI——wasonce。
  Indeed,itseemsverystrangetomyselfthatyoushouldhavebeenherenottwenty—fourhoursyet,andknowsomuchofme。Fortherehascomenooneelseatall"——thePadrepausedamomentandmasteredtheunsteadinessthathehadfeltapproachinginhisvoice——"therehasbeennooneelsetowhomIhavetalkedsofreely。InmyearlydaysIhadnothoughtofbeingapriest。Byparentsdestinedmeforadiplomaticcareer。Therewasplentyofmoneyand——andalltherestofit;forbyinheritancecametometheacquaintanceofmanypeoplewhosenamesyouwouldbelikelytohaveheardof。Cities,peopleoffashion,artists——thewholeofitwasmyelementandmychoice;andby—and—byImarried,notonlywhereitwasdesirable,butwhereIloved。ThenforthefirsttimeDeathlaidhisstaffuponmyenchantment,andIunderstoodmanythingsthathadbeenonlywordstomehitherto。Tohavebeenahusbandforayear,andafatherforamoment,andinthatmomenttoloseall——thisunblindedme。Lookingback,itseemedtomethatIhadneverdoneanythingexceptformyselfallmydays。Ilefttheworld。InduetimeIbecameapriestandlivedinmyowncountry。Butmyworldlyexperienceandmyseculareducationhadgiventomyopinionsaturntooliberalfortheplacewheremyworkwaslaid。Iwassoonadvisedconcerningthisbythoseinauthorityoverme。AndsincetheycouldnotchangemeandIcouldthem,yetwishedtoworkandtoteach,theNewWorldwassuggested,andI
  volunteeredtogivetherestofmylifetomissions。Itwassoonfoundthatsomeonewasneededhere,andforthislittleplaceIsailed,andtothesehumblepeopleIhavededicatedmyservice。Theyarepastoralcreaturesofthesoil。Theirvineyardandcattledaysareapttobelikethesunandstormaroundthem——strongalikeintheirevilandintheirgood。Alltheiryearstheyliveaschildren——childrenwithmen’spassionsgiventothemlikedeadlyweapons,unabletomeasuretheharmtheirimpulsesmaybring。Hence,evenintheircrimes,theirheartswillgenerallyopensoontotheonegreatkeyoflove,whilecivilizationmakeslockswhichthatkeycannotalwaysfitatthefirstturn。Andcomingtoknowthis,"saidPadreIgnacio,fixinghiseyessteadilyuponGaston,"youwillunderstandhowgreataprivilegeitistohelpsuchpeople,andhowthesenseofsomethingaccomplished——underGod——shouldbringContentmentwithRenunciation。"
  "Yes,"saidGastonVillere。Then,thinkingofhimself,"Icanunderstanditinamanlikeyou。"
  "Donotspeakofmeatall!"exclaimedthePadre,almostpassionately。
  "ButprayHeaventhatyoumayfindthethingyourselfsomeday——
  ContentmentwithRenunciation——andneverletitgo。"
  "Amen!"saidGaston,strangelymoved。
  "Thatisthewholeofmystory,"thepriestcontinued,withnomoreoftherecentstressinhisvoice。"AndnowIhavetalkedtoyouaboutmyselfquiteenough。Butyoumusthavemyconfession。"Hehadnowresumedentirelyhishalf—playfultone。"Iwasjustalittlemistaken,yousee——
  tooself—reliant,perhaps——whenIsupposed,inmyfirstmissionaryardor,thatIcouldgetonwithoutanyremembranceoftheworldatall。IfoundthatIcouldnot。AndsoIhavetaughttheoldoperastomychoir——suchpartsofthemasarewithinourcompassandsuitableforworship。AndcertainofmyfriendsstillaliveathomearegoodenoughtorememberthistasteofmineandtosendmeeachyearsomeofthenewmusicthatIshouldneverhearofotherwise。Thenwestudythesethingsalso。Andalthoughourorganisamiserableaffair,Felipemanagesverycleverlytomakeitdo。Andwhilethevoicesaresingingtheseoperas,especiallytheoldones,whatharmisthereifsometimesthepriestisthinkingofsomethingelse?Sothere’smyconfession!Andnow,whetherTrovatoreiscomeornot,IshallnotallowyoutoleaveusuntilyouhavetaughtallyouknowofittoFelipe。"
  Thenewopera,however,haddulyarrived。AndasheturneditspagesPadreIgnaciowasquicktoseizeatonceuponthemusicthatcouldbetakenintohischurch。Someofitwasreadyfitted。BythatafternoonFelipeandhischoircouldhaverendered"Ah!sel’errort’ingombra"
  withoutsliporfalter。
  ThosewerestrangerehearsalsofIlTrovatoreuponthisCaliforniashore。
  ForthePadrelookedtoGastontosaywhentheywenttoofastortooslow,andtocorrecttheiremphasis。Andsinceitwashot,thelittleErardpianowascarriedeachdayoutintothemissiongarden。There,inthecloistersamongthejessamine,theorangeblossoms,theoleanders,inthepresenceoftheroundyellowhillsandthebluetriangleofsea,theMisererewasslowlylearned。TheMexicansandIndiansgathered,swarthyandblack—haired,aroundthetinklinginstrumentthatFelipeplayed;andpresidingoverthemwereyoungGastonandthepalePadre,walkingupanddownthepaths,beatingtimeorsingingnowonepartandnowanother。AndsoitwasthatthewildcattleontheuplandswouldhearTrovatorehummedbyapassingvaquero,whilethesamemelodywasfillingthestreetsofthefar—offworld。
  ForthreedaysGastonVillereremainedatSantaYsabeldelMar;andthoughnotawordofrestlessnesscamefromhim,hishostcouldreadSanFranciscoandthegold—minesinhiscountenance。No,theyoungmancouldnothavestayedherefortwentyyears!AndthePadreforboreurginghisguesttoextendhisvisit。
  "Buttheworldissmall,"theguestdeclaredatparting。"Somedayitwillnotbeabletospareyouanylonger。Andthenwearesuretomeet。
  Butyoushallhearfrommesoon,atanyrate。"
  Again,asuponthefirstevening,thetwoexchangedafewcourtesies,moregracefulandparticularthanwe,whohavenottime,andfightnoduels,findworthaman’swhileatthepresentday。Forduelsaregone,whichisaverygoodthing,andwiththemacertaincarefulpoliteness,whichisapity;butthatisthewayintheeternalprofitandloss。SoyoungGastonrodenorthwardoutofthemission,backtotheworldandhisfortune;andthePadrestoodwatchingthedustaftertheriderhadpassedfromsight。Thenhewentintohisroomwithadrawnface。Butappearancesatleasthadbeenkeptuptotheend;theyouthwouldneverknowoftheelderman’sunrest。
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  TemptationhadarrivedwithGaston,butwasdestinedtomakealongerstayatSantaYsabeldelMar。Yetitwasperhapsaweekbeforethepriestknewthisguestwascometoabidewithhim。Theguestcouldbediscreet,couldwithdraw,wasnotatfirstimportunate。
  Sailawayonthebarkentine?Awildnotion,tobesure!althoughfitenoughtoenterthebrainofsuchayoungscape—grace。ThePadreshookhisheadandsmiledaffectionatelywhenhethoughtofGastonVillere。Theyouth’shandsome,recklesscountenancewouldshineout,smiling,inhismemory,andherepeatedAuber’soldremark,"IsitthegoodLord,orisitmerelythedevil,thatalwaysmakesmehaveaweaknessforrascals?"
  Sailawayonthebarkentine!Imaginetakingleaveofthepeoplehere——ofFelipe!Inwhatwordsshouldhetelltheboytogoonindustriouslywithhismusic?No,thiswasnotimaginable!Themerepartingalonewouldmakeitforeverimpossibletothinkofsuchathing。"Andthen,"hesaidtohimselfeachnewmorning,whenhelookedoutattheocean,"Ihavegiventothemmylife。Onedoesnottakebackagift。"
  Picturesofhisdeparturebegantoshineandmeltinhisdriftingfancy。
  HesawhimselfexplainingtoFelipethatnowhispresencewaswantedelsewhere;thatthanwouldcomeasuccessortotakecareofSantaYsabel—
  —ayoungerman,moreuseful,andabletovisitsickpeopleatadistance。
  "ForIamoldnow。Ishouldnotbelonghasinanycase。"Hestoppedandpressedhishandstogether;hehadcaughthisTemptationintheveryact。
  NowhesatstaringathisTemptation’sface,closetohim,whiletheninthetriangletwoshipswentsailingby。
  OnemorningFelipetoldhimthatthebarkentinewashereonitsreturnvoyagesouth。"Indeed。"saidthePadre,coldly。"Thethingsarereadytogo,Ithink。"Forthevesselcalledformailandcertainboxesthatthemissionsentaway。FelipelefttheroominwonderatthePadre’smanner。Butthepriestwaslaughingsecretlytoseehowlittleitwastohimwherethebarkentinewas,orwhetheritshouldbecomingorgoing。
  Butintheafternoon,athispiano,hefoundhimselfsaying,"Othershipscallhere,atanyrate。"Andthenforthefirsttimeheprayedtobedeliveredfromhisthoughts。Yetpresentlyhelefthisseatandlookedoutofthewindowforasightofthebarkentine;butitwasgone。
  Theseasonofthewine—makingpassed,andthepreservingofallthefruitsthatthemissionfieldsgrew。Lotionsandmedicineswasdistilledfromgardenherbs。Perfumewasmanufacturedfromthepetalsofflowersandcertainspices,andpresentsofitdespatchedtoSanFernandoandVentura,andtofriendsatotherplaces;forthePadrehadaspecialrecepit。Asthetimeranon,twoorthreevisitorspassedanightwithhim;andpresentlytherewasawordatvariousmissionsthatPadreIgnaciohadbeguntoshowhisyears。AtSantaYsabeldelMartheywhispered,"ThePadreisnotwell。"Yetherodeagreatdealoverthehillsbyhimself,anddownthecanyonveryoften,stoppingwherehehadsatwithGaston,tositaloneandlookupanddown,nowatthehillsabove,andnowattheoceanbelow。Amonghisparishionershehadcertaintroublestosoothe,certainwoundstoheal;ahomefromwhichhewasabletodrivejealousy;agirlwhomhebadeherloversetright。Butallsaid,"ThePadreisunwell。"AndFelipetoldthemthatthemusicseemednothingtohimanymore;heneveraskedforhisDixitDominusnowadays。
  Thenforashorttimehewasreallyinbed,feverishwiththetwovoicesthatspoketohimwithoutceasing。"Youhavegivenyourlife,"saidonevoice。"And,therefore,"saidtheother,"haveearnedtherighttogohomeanddie。""YouarewinningbetterrewardsintheserviceofGod,"
  saidthefirstvoice。"Godcanbebetterservedinotherplaces,"
  answeredthesecond。AshelaylisteninghesawSevilleagain,andthetreesofAranhal,wherehehadbeenborn。Thewindwasblowingthroughthem,andintheirbrancheshecouldhearthenightingales。"Empty!
  Empty!"hesaid,aloud。AndhelayfortwodaysandnightshearingthewindandthenightingalesinthefartreesofAranhal。ButFelipe,watching,onlyheardthePadrecryingthroughthehours,"Empty!Empty!"
  Thenthewindinthetreesdieddown,andthePadrecouldgetoutofbed,andsoonbeinthegarden。Butthevoiceswithinhimstilltalkedallthewhileashesatwatchingthesailswhentheypassedbetweentheheadlands。Theirwords,fallingforeverthesameway,beathisspiritsore,likeblowsuponfleshalreadybruised。Ifhecouldonlychangewhattheysaid,hewouldrest。
  "HasthePadreanymallforSantaBarbara?"askedFelipe。"Theshipboundsouthwardshouldbehereto—morrow。"
  "Iwillattendtoit,"saidthepriest,notmoving。AndFelipestoleaway。
  AtFelipe’swordsthevoiceshadstopped,asaclockfinishesstriking。
  Silence,strainedlikeexpectation,filledthePadre’ssoul。Butinplaceofthevoicescameoldsightsofhomeagain,thewavingtreesatAranhal;
  thenitwouldbeRachelforamoment,declaimingtragedywhileahousefuloffacesthatheknewbynamewatchedher;andthroughallthepanoramarangthepleasantlaughofGaston。ForawhileintheeveningthePadresatathisErardplayingTrovatore。Later,inhissleeplessbedhelay,sayingnowandthen:"Todieathome!SurelyImaybegrantedatleastthis。"Andhelistenedfortheinnervoices。Buttheywerenotspeakinganymore,andtheblackholeofsilencegrewmoredreadfultohimthantheirarguments。Thenthedawncameinathiswindow,andhelaywatchingitsgraygrowwarmintocolor,untilsuddenlyhesprangfromhisbedandlookedatthesea。Blueitlay,sapphire—huedanddancingwithpointsofgold,lovelyandluringasacharm;andoveritstrianglethesouth—boundshipwasapproaching。PeoplewereonboardwhoinafewweekswouldbesailingtheAtlantic,whilehewouldstandherelookingoutofthissamewindow。"MercifulGod!"hecried,sinkingonhisknees。"HeavenlyFather,Thouseestthisevilinmyheart!Thouknowestthatmyweakhandcannotpluckitout!Mystrengthisbreaking,andstillThoumakestmyburdenheavierthanIcanbear。"Hestopped,breathlessandtrembling。
  Thesamevisionswasflittingacrosshisclosedeyes;thesamesilencegapedlikeadrycraterinhissoul。"Thereisnohelpinearthorheaven,"hesaid,veryquietly;andhedressedhimself。
  VIItwasstillsoearlythatfewoftheIndianswerestirring,andoneofthesesaddledthePadre’smule。Felipewasnotyetawake,andforamomentitcameinthepriest’smindtoopentheboy’sdoorsoftly,lookathimoncemore,andcomeaway。Butthishedidnot,noreventakeafarewellglanceatthechurchandorgan。Hebadenothingfarewell,but,turninghisbackuponhisroomandhisgarden,rodedownthecanyon。
  Thevessellayatanchor,andsomeonehadlandedfromhaandwastalkingwithothermenontheshore。Seeingthepriestslowlycoming,thisstrangerapproachedtomeethim。
  "Youareconnectedwiththemissionhere?"heinquired。
  "I——am。"
  "PerhapsitiswithyouthatGastonVillerestopped?"
  "TheyoungmanfromNewOrleans?Yes。IamPadreIgnacio。"
  "Thenyou’llsavemeajourney。Ipromisedhimtodelivertheseintoyourownhands。"
  Thestrangergavethemtohim。
  "Abagofgold—dust,"heexplained,"andaletter。Iwroteitathisdictationwhilehewasdying。Helivedhardlyanhourafterward。"
  Thestrangerbowedhisheadatthestrickencrywhichhisnewselicitedfromthepriest,who,afterafewmoments’vainefforttospeak,openedtheletterandread:
  MydearFriend,——Itisthroughnoman’sfaultbutminethatIhavecometothis。Ihavehadplentyofluck,andlatelyhavebeencountingthedaysuntilIshouldreturnhome。ButlastnightheavynewsfromNewOrleansreachedme,andItorethepressedflowertopieces。UnderthefirstsmartandhumiliationofbrokenfaithIwasrendereddesperate,andpickedaneedlessquarrel。ThankGod,itisIwhohavethepunishment。Bydearfriend,asIliehere,leavingaworldthatnomaneverlovedmore,Ihavecometounderstandyou。Foryouandyourmissionhavebeenmuchinmythoughts。Itisstrangehowgoodcanbedone,notatthetimewhenitisintended,butafterward;andyouhavedonethisgoodtome。Isayoveryourwords,"ContentmentwithRenunciation,"andbelievethatatthislasthourIhavegainedsomethinglikewhatyouwouldwishmetofeel。
  ForIdonotthinkthatIdesireitotherwisenow。Mylifewouldneverhavebeenofservice,Iamafraid。Youamthelastpersoninthisworldwhohasspokenseriouswordstome,andIwantyoutoknowthatnowatlengthIvaluethepeaceofSantaYsabelasIcouldneverhavedonebutforseeingyourwisdomandgoodness。Youspokeofaneworganforyourchurch。Takethegold—dustthatwillreachyouwiththis,anddowhatyouwillwithit。Letmeatleastindyinghavehelpedsomeone。Andsincethemisnoaristocracyinsouls——yousaidthattome;doyouremember?——
  perhapsyouwillsayamassforthisdepartingsoulofmine。Ionlywish,mustmybodymustgoundergroundinastrangecountry,thatitmighthavebeenatSantaYsabeldidMar,whereyourfeetwouldoftenpass。
  "’AtSantaYsabeldelMar,whereyourfeetwouldoftenpass。’"Thepriestrepeatedthisfinalsentencealoud,withoutbeingawareofit。
  "Thosearethelastwordsheeverspoke,"saidthestranger,"exceptbiddingmegood—by。"
  "Youknewhimwell,then?"
  "No;notuntilafterhewashurt。I’mthemanhequarreledwith。"
  Thepriestlookedattheshipthatwouldsailonwardthisafternoon。
  Thenasmileofgreatbeautypassedoverhisface,andheaddressedthestrange。"Ithankyou。Youwillneverknowwhatyouhavedoneforme。"
  "Itisnothing,"answeredthestranger,awkwardly。"Hetoldmeyousetgreatstoreonaneworgan。"
  PadreIgnacioturnedawayfromtheshipandrodebackthroughthegorge。
  WhenhehadreachedtheshadyplacewhereoncehehadsatwithGastonVillere,hedismountedandagainsatthere,alonebythestream,formanyhours。Longridesandoutingshadbeenlatelysomuchhiscustomthatnoonethoughttwiceofhisabsence;andwhenheresumedtothemissionintheafternoon,theIndiantookhismule,andhewenttohisseatinthegarden。Butitwaswithanotherlookthathewatchedthesea;andpresentlythesailmovedacrossthebluetriangle,andsoonithadroundedtheheadland。
  WithitdepartedTemptationforever。
  Gaston’sfirstcomingwasinthePadre’smind;and,asthevespersbellbegantoringinthecloisteredsilence,afragmentofAuber’splaintivetunepassedlikeasighacrosshismemory。
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  ForthereposeofGaston’syoung,world—lovingspirit,theysangallthathehadtaughtthemofIlTrovatore。
  Afterthisday,FelipeandallthosewhoknewandlovedthePadrebest,sawserenityhadreturnedtohisfeatures;butforsomereasontheybegantowatchthosefeatureswithmorecare。
  "Still,"theysaid,"heisnotold。"Andasthemonthswentbytheywouldrepeat:"Weshallhavehimyetformanyyears。"
  Thustheseasonrolledround,bringingthetimefortheexpectedmessagesfromtheworld。PadreIgnaciowaswonttositinhisgarden,waitingfortheship,asofold。
  "Asofold,"theysaid,cheerfully,whosawhim。ButRenunciationwithContentmenttheycouldnotsee;itwasdeepdowninhissilentandthankedheart。
  OnedayFelipewenttocallhimfromhisgardenseat,wonderingwhytheringingofthebellhadnotbroughthimtovespers。Breviaryinlap,andhandsfoldeduponit,thePadresatamonghisflowers,lookingatthesea。Outthereamidthesapphire—blue,tranquilandwhite,gleamedthesailsofthebarkentine。Ithadbroughthimanewmessage,notfromthisworld;andPadreIgnaciowasslowlyborneinfromthegarden,whilethemission—belltolledforthepassingofahumansoul。