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第38章

  spectbeforehim,heatlengtharrivednearthecascade,where,asFergushadaugured,hefoundFloraseated。
  Shewasquitealone;and,assoonassheobservedhisapproach,shearose,andcametomeethim。Edwardattemptedtosaysomethingwithinthevergeofordinarycomplimentandconversation,butfoundhimselfunequaltothetask。Floraseemedatfirstequallyembarrassed,butrecoveredherselfmorespeedily,andanunfavourableauguryforWaverley’ssuitwasthefirsttoenteruponthesubjectoftheirlastinterview。Itistooimportant,ineverypointofview,Mr。Waverley,topermitmetoleaveyouindoubtonmysentiments。’’
  Donotspeakthemspeedily,’’saidWaverley,muchagitated,unlesstheyaresuchas,Ifearfromyourmanner,Imustnotdaretoanticipate。Lettime-letmyfutureconduct-letyourbrother’sinfluence’’
  Forgiveme,Mr。Waverley,’’saidFlora,hercomplexionalittleheightened,buthervoicefirmandcomposed。Ishouldincurmyownheavycensure,didIdelayexpressingmysincereconvictionthatIcanneverregardyouotherwisethanasavaluedfriend。IshoulddoyouthehighestinjusticedidI
  concealmysentimentsforamoment。IseeIdistressyou,andIgrieveforit,butbetternowthanlater;andO,betterathousandtimes,Mr。Waverley,thatyoushouldfeelapresentmomentarydisappointment,thanthelongandheart-sickeninggriefswhichattendarashandill-assortedmarriage!’’
  GoodGod!’’exclaimedWaverley,whyshouldyouanticipatesuchconsequencesfromaunionwherebirthisequal,wherefortuneisfavourable,where,ifImayventuretosayso,thetastesaresimilar,whereyouallegenopreferenceforanother,whereyouevenexpressafavourableopinionofhimwhomyoureject?’’
  Mr。Waverley,I_have_thatfavourableopinion,’’answeredFlora;andsostrongly,thatthoughIwouldratherhavebeensilentonthegroundsofmyresolution,youshallcommandthem,ifyouexactsuchamarkofmyesteemandconfidence。’’
  Shesatdownuponafragmentofrock,andWaverley,placinghimselfnearher,anxiouslypressedfortheexplanationsheoffered。
  Idarehardly,’’shesaid,tellyouthesituationofmyfeelings,theyaresodifferentfromthoseusuallyascribedtoyoungwomenatmyperiodoflife;andIdarehardlytouchuponwhatIconjecturetobethenatureofyours,lestIshouldgiveoffencewhereIwouldwillinglyadministerconsolation。
  Formyself,frommyinfancytillthisday,Ihavehadbutonewish-therestorationofmyroyalbenefactorstotheirrightfulthrone。Itisimpossibletoexpresstoyouthedevotionofmyfeelingstothissinglesubject;andIwillfranklyconfess,thatithassooccupiedmymindastoexcludeeverythoughtrespectingwhatiscalledmyownsettlementinlife。Letmebutlivetoseethedayofthathappyrestoration,andaHighlandcottage,aFrenchconvent,oranEnglishpalace,willbealikeindifferenttome。’’
  But,dearestFlora,howisyourenthusiasticzealfortheexiledfamilyinconsistentwithmyhappiness?’’
  Becauseyouseek,oroughttoseekintheobjectofyourattachment,aheartwhoseprincipaldelightshouldbeinaugmentingyourdomesticfelicity,andreturningyouraffection,eventotheheightofromance。Toamanoflesskeensensibility,andlessenthusiastictendernessofdisposition,FloraMac-Ivormightgivecontent,ifnothappiness;forweretheirrevocablewordsspoken,neverwouldshebedeficientinthedutieswhichshevowed。’’
  Andwhy-why,MissMac-Ivor,shouldyouthinkyourselfamorevaluabletreasuretoonewhoislesscapableofloving,ofadmiringyou,thantome?’’
  Simplybecausethetoneofouraffectionswouldbemoreinunison,andbecausehismorebluntedsensibilitywouldnotrequirethereturnofenthusiasmwhichIhavenottobestow。
  Butyou,Mr。Waverley,wouldforeverrefertotheideaofdomestichappinesswhichyourimaginationiscapableofpainting,andwhateverfellshortofthatidealrepresentationwouldbeconstruedintocoolnessandindifference,whileyoumightconsidertheenthusiasmwithwhichIregardedthesuccessoftheroyalfamilyasdefraudingyouraffectionofitsduereturn。’’
  Inotherwords,MissMac-Ivor,youcannotloveme?’’saidhersuitordejectedly。
  Icouldesteemyou,Mr。Waverley,asmuch,perhapsmore,thananymanIhaveeverseen;butIcannotloveyouasyououghttobeloved。O!donot,foryourownsake,desiresohazardousanexperiment!Thewomanwhomyoumarryoughttohaveaffectionsandopinionsmouldeduponyours。Herstudiesoughttobeyourstudies;-herwishes,herfeelings,herhopes,herfears,shouldallminglewithyours。Sheshouldenhanceyourpleasures,shareyoursorrows,andcheeryourmelancholy。’’
  Andwhywillnotyou,MissMac-Ivor,whocansowelldescribeahappyunion-whywillnotyoubeyourselfthepersonyoudescribe?’’
  Isitpossibleyoudonotyetcomprehendme?’’answeredFlora。HaveInottoldyouthateverykeenersensationofmymindisbentexclusivelytowardsanevent,uponwhich,indeed,Ihavenopowerbutthoseofmyearnestprayers?’’
  AndmightnotthegrantingthesuitIsolicit,’’saidWaverley,tooearnestonhispurposetoconsiderwhathewasabouttosay,evenadvancetheinteresttowhichyouhavedevotedyourself?Myfamilyiswealthyandpowerful,inclinedinprinciplestotheStuartrace,andshouldafavourableopportunity’’
  Afavourableopportunity!’’saidFlorasomewhatscornfullyinclinedinprinciples!-Cansuchlukewarmadherencebehonourabletoyourselves,orgratifyingtoyourlawfulsovereign?-
  Think,frommypresentfeelings,whatIshouldsufferwhenIheldtheplaceofmemberinafamilywheretherightswhichIholdmostsacredaresubjectedtocolddiscussion,andonlydeemedworthyofsupportwhentheyshallappearonthepointoftriumphingwithoutit!’’
  Yourdoubts,’’quicklyrepliedWaverley,areunjustasfarasconcernsmyself。ThecausethatIshallassertIdaresupportthrougheverydanger,asundauntedlyastheboldestwhodrawsswordinitsbehalf。’’
  Ofthat,’’answeredFlora,Icannotdoubtforamoment。
  Butconsultyourowngoodsenseandreasonratherthanaprepossessionhastilyadopted,probablyonlybecauseyouhavemetayoungwomanpossessedoftheusualaccomplishmentsinasequesteredandromanticsituation。Letyourpartinthisgreatandperilousdramarestuponconviction,andnotonahurried,andprobablyatemporaryfeeling。’’
  Waverleyattemptedtoreply,buthiswordsfailedhim。
  EverysentimentthatFlorahadutteredvindicatedthestrengthofhisattachment;forevenherloyalty,althoughwildlyenthusiastic,wasgenerousandnoble,anddisdainedtoavailitselfofanyindirectmeansofsupportingthecausetowhichshewasdevoted。
  Afterwalkingalittlewayinsilencedownthepath,Florathusresumedtheconversation-Onewordmore,Mr。Waverley,erewebidfarewelltothistopicforever;andforgivemyboldnessifthatwordhavetheairofadvice。MybrotherFergusisanxiousthatyoushouldjoinhiminhispresententerprise。
  Butdonotconsenttothis;youcouldnotbyyoursingleexertionsfurtherhissuccess,andyouwouldinevitablysharehisfall,ifitbeGod’spleasurethatfallhemust。Yourcharacterwouldalsosufferirretrievably。Letmebegyouwillreturntoyourowncountry;andhavingpubliclyfreedyourselffromeverytietotheusurpinggovernment,Itrustyouwillseecause,andfindopportunity,toserveyourinjuredsovereignwitheffect,andstandforth,asyourloyalancestors,attheheadofyournaturalfollowersandadherents,aworthyrepresentativeofthehouseofWaverley。’’
  AndshouldIbesohappyasthustodistinguishmyself,mightInothope’’
  Forgivemyinterruption,’’saidFlora。Thepresenttimeonlyisours,andIcanbutexplaintoyouwithcandourthefeelingswhichInowentertain;howtheymightbealteredbyatrainofevents,toofavourableperhapstobehopedfor,itwereinvaineventoconjecture;onlybeassured,Mr。Waverley,thataftermybrother’shonourandhappinessthereisnonewhichI
  shallmoresincerelyprayforthanforyours。’’
  Withthesewordsshepartedfromhim,fortheywerenowarrivedwheretwopathsseparated。Waverleyreachedthecastleamidstamedleyofconflictingpassions。HeavoidedanyprivateinterviewwithFergus,ashedidnotfindhimselfableeithertoencounterhisrailleryorreplytohissolicitations。Thewildrevelryofthefeast,forMac-Ivorkeptopentableforhisclan,servedinsomedegreetostunreflection。WhentheirfestivitywasendedhebegantoconsiderhowheshouldagainmeetMissMac-Ivorafterthepainfulandinterestingexplanationofthemorning。ButFloradidnotappear。Fergus,whoseeyesflashedwhenhewastoldbyCathleenthathermistressdesignedtokeepherapartmentthatevening,wenthimselfinquestofher;butapparentlyhisremonstranceswereinvain,forhereturnedwithaheightenedcomplexion,andmanifestsymptomsofdispleasure。Therestoftheeveningpassedonwithoutanyallusion,ontheparteitherofFergusorWaverley,tothesubjectwhichengrossedthereflectionsofthelatter,andperhapsofboth。
  Whenretiredtohisownapartment,Edwardendeavouredtosumupthebusinessoftheday。ThattherepulsehehadreceivedfromFlorawouldbepersistedinforthepresenttherewasnodoubt。Butcouldhehopeforultimatesuccessincasecircumstancespermittedtherenewalofhissuit?Wouldtheenthusiasticloyalty,whichatthisanimatingmomentleftnoroomforasofterpassion,survive,atleastinitsengrossingforce,thesuccessorthefailureofthepresentpoliticalmachinations?
  Andifso,couldhehopethattheinterestwhichshehadacknowledgedhimtopossessinherfavourmightbeimprovedintoawarmerattachment?Hetaxedhismemorytorecalleverywordshehadused,withtheappropriatelooksandgestureswhichhadenforcedthem,andendedbyfindinghimselfinthesamestateofuncertainty。Itwasverylatebeforesleepbroughtrelieftothetumultofhismind,afterthemostpainfulandagitatingdaywhichhehadeverpassed。
  InthemorningwhenWaverley’stroubledreflectionshadforsometimegivenwaytorepose,therecamemusictohisdreams,butnotthevoiceofSelma。HeimaginedhimselftransportedbacktoTully-Veolan,andthatheheardDavieGellatleysinginginthecourtthosematinswhichusedgenerallytobethefirstsoundsthatdisturbedhisreposewhileaguestoftheBaronofBradwardine。Thenoteswhichsuggestedthisvisioncontinued,andwaxedlouder,untilEdwardawokeinearnest。Theillusion,however,didnotseementirelydispelled。
  TheapartmentwasinthefortressofIannanChaistel,butitwasstillthevoiceofDavieGellatleythatmadethefollowinglinesresoundunderthewindow:-
  Myheart’sintheHighlands,myheartisnothere,Myheart’sintheHighlandsa-chasingthedeer;
  Achasingthewilddeer,andfollowingtheroe,Myheart’sintheHighlandswhereverIgo。
  TheselinesformtheburdenofanoldsongtowhichBurnswroteadditionalverses。
  CurioustoknowwhatcouldhavedeterminedMr。Gellatleyonanexcursionofsuchunwontedextent,Edwardbegantodresshimselfinallhaste,duringwhichoperationtheminstrelsyofDaviechangeditstunemorethanonce:-
  There’snoughtintheHighlandsbutsyboesandleeks,Andlang-leggitcallantsgaunwantingthebreeks;
  Wantingthebreeks,andwithouthoseandshoon,Butwe’lla’winthebreekswhenKingJamiecomeshame。
  Theselinesarealsoancient,andIbelievetothetuneof
  We’llneverhaepeacetillJamiecomeshame。’’
  towhichBurnslikewisewrotesomeverses。
  BythetimeWaverleywasdressedandhadissuedforth,DavidhadassociatedhimselfwithtwoorthreeofthenumerousHighlandloungerswhoalwaysgracedthegatesofthecastlewiththeirpresence,andwascaperinganddancingfullmerrilyinthedoublesandfullcareerofaScotchfoursomereel,tothemusicofhisownwhistling。Inthisdoublecapacityofdancerandmusician,hecontinued,untilanidlepiper,whoobservedhiszeal,obeyedtheunanimouscallof_Seidsuas__i。e。,_blowup,andrelievedhimfromthelatterpartofhistrouble。Youngandoldthenmingledinthedanceastheycouldfindpartners。
  TheappearanceofWaverleydidnotinterruptDavid’sexercise,thoughhecontrivedbygrinning,nodding,andthrowingoneortwoinclinationsofthebodyintothegraceswithwhichheperformedtheHighlandfling,toconveytoourherosymptomsofrecognition。Then,whilebusilyemployedinsetting,whoopingallthewhile,andsnappinghisfingersoverhishead,heofasuddenprolongedhisside-stepuntilitbroughthimtotheplacewhereEdwardwasstanding,and,stillkeepingtimetothemusiclikeHarlequininapantomime,hethrustaletterintoourhero’shand,andcontinuedhissaltationwithoutpauseorintermission。Edward,whoperceivedthattheaddresswasinRose’shandwriting,retiredtoperuseit,leavingthefaithfulbearertocontinuehisexerciseuntilthepiperorheshouldbetiredout。
  Thecontentsofthelettergreatlysurprisedhim。Ithadoriginallycommencedwith_DearSir;_butthesewordshadbeencarefullyerased,andthemonosyllable,_Sir,_substitutedintheirplace。TherestofthecontentsshallbegiveninRose’sownlanguage。
  IfearIamusinganimproperfreedombyintrudinguponyou,yetIcannottrusttoanyoneelsetoletyouknowsomethingswhichhavehappenedhere,withwhichitseemsnecessaryyoushouldbeacquainted。ForgivemeifIamwronginwhatIamdoing;for,alas!Mr。Waverley,Ihavenobetteradvicethanthatofmyownfeelings;-mydearfatherisgonefromthisplace,andwhenhecanreturntomyassistanceandprotection,Godaloneknows。Youhaveprobablyheard,thatinconsequenceofsometroublesomenewsfromtheHighlands,warrantsweresentoutforapprehendingseveralgentlemenintheseparts,and,amongothers,mydearfather。InspiteofallmytearsandentreatiesthathewouldsurrenderhimselftotheGovernment,hejoinedwithMr。Falconerandsomeothergentlemen,andtheyhaveallgonenorthwards,withabodyofaboutfortyhorsemen。SoIamnotsoanxiousconcerninghisimmediatesafety,asaboutwhatmayfollowafterwards,forthesetroublesareonlybeginning。Butallthisisnothingtoyou,Mr。Waverley,onlyIthoughtyouwouldbegladtolearnthatmyfatherhasescaped,incaseyouhappentohaveheardthathewasindanger。
  Thedayaftermyfatherwentoff,therecameapartyofsoldierstoTully-Veolan,andbehavedveryrudelytoBailieMacwheeble;buttheofficerwasveryciviltome,onlysaidhisdutyobligedhimtosearchforarmsandpapers。Myfatherhadprovidedagainstthisbytakingawayallthearmsexcepttheolduselessthingswhichhunginthehall;andhehadputallhispapersoutoftheway。ButO!Mr。Waverley,howshallItellyouthattheymadestrictinquiryafteryou,andaskedwhenyouhadbeenatTully-Veolan,andwhereyounowwere。
  Theofficerisgonebackwithhisparty,butanon-commissionedofficerandfourmenremainasasortofgarrisoninthehouse。