“Begin’Mydearsir,’or’Dearsir,’thatwillbebetter,andsayyouaredesiredbyMissCrawley——no,byMissCrawley’smedicalman,byMr。Creamer,tostatethatmyhealthissuchthatallstrongemotionswouldbedangerousinmypresentdelicatecondition——andthatImustdeclineanyfamilydiscussionsorinterviewswhatever。
AndthankhimforcomingtoBrighton,andsoforth,andbeghimnottostayanylongeronmyaccount。And,MissBriggs,youmayaddthatIwishhimabonvoyage,andthatifhewilltakethetroubletocalluponmylawyer’sinGray’sInnSquare,hewillfindthereacommunicationforhim。Yes,thatwilldo;andthatwillmakehimleaveBrighton。”ThebenevolentBriggspennedthissentencewiththeutmostsatisfaction。
“ToseizeuponmetheverydayafterMrs。Butewasgone。”theoldladyprattledon;“itwastooindecent。
Briggs,mydear,writetoMrs。Crawley,andsaySHE
needn’tcomeback。No——sheneedn’t——andsheshan’t——
andIwon’tbeaslaveinmyownhouse——andIwon’tbestarvedandchokedwithpoison。Theyallwanttokillme——all——all“——andwiththisthelonelyoldwomanburstintoascreamofhystericaltears。
ThelastsceneofherdismalVanityFaircomedywasfastapproaching;thetawdrylampsweregoingoutonebyone;andthedarkcurtainwasalmostreadytodescend。
Thatfinalparagraph,whichreferredRawdontoMissCrawley’ssolicitorinLondon,andwhichBriggshadwrittensogood-naturedly,consoledthedragoonandhiswifesomewhat,aftertheirfirstblankdisappointment,onreadingthespinster’srefusalofareconciliation。Anditeffectedthepurposeforwhichtheoldladyhadcausedittobewritten,bymakingRawdonveryeagertogettoLondon。
OutofJos’slosingsandGeorgeOsborne’sbank-notes,hepaidhisbillattheinn,thelandlordwhereofdoesnotprobablyknowtothisdayhowdoubtfullyhisaccountoncestood。For,asageneralsendshisbaggagetotherearbeforeanaction,RebeccahadwiselypackedupalltheirchiefvaluablesandsentthemoffundercareofGeorge’sservant,whowentinchargeofthetrunksonthecoachbacktoLondon。Rawdonandhiswifereturnedbythesameconveyancenextday。
“Ishouldhavelikedtoseetheoldgirlbeforewewent。”
Rawdonsaid。”ShelookssocutupandalteredthatI’msureshecan’tlastlong。IwonderwhatsortofachequeIshallhaveatWaxy’s。Twohundred——itcan’tbelessthantwohundred——hey,Becky?”
Inconsequenceoftherepeatedvisitsoftheaides-de-
campoftheSheriffofMiddlesex,RawdonandhiswifedidnotgobacktotheirlodgingsatBrompton,butputupataninn。Earlythenextmorning,RebeccahadanopportunityofseeingthemassheskirtedthatsuburbonherroadtooldMrs。Sedley’shouseatFulham,whithershewenttolookforherdearAmeliaandherBrightonfriends。TheywereallofftoChatham,thencetoHarwich,totakeshippingforBelgiumwiththeregiment——
kindoldMrs。Sedleyverymuchdepressedandtearful,solitary。Returningfromthisvisit,Rebeccafoundherhusband,whohadbeenofftoGray’sInn,andlearnthisfate。Hecamebackfurious。
“ByJove,Becky。”sayshe,“she’sonlygivenmetwentypound!”
Thoughittoldagainstthemselves,thejokewastoogood,andBeckyburstoutlaughingatRawdon’sdiscomfiture。
BetweenLondonandChathamOnquittingBrighton,ourfriendGeorge,asbecameapersonofrankandfashiontravellinginabarouchewithfourhorses,droveinstatetoafinehotelinCavendishSquare,whereasuiteofsplendidrooms,andatablemagnificentlyfurnishedwithplateandsurroundedbyahalf-dozenofblackandsilentwaiters,wasreadytoreceivetheyounggentlemanandhisbride。GeorgedidthehonoursoftheplacewithaprincelyairtoJosandDobbin;andAmelia,forthefirsttime,andwithexceedingshynessandtimidity,presidedatwhatGeorgecalledherowntable。
Georgepooh-poohedthewineandbulliedthewaitersroyally,andJosgobbledtheturtlewithimmensesatisfaction。
Dobbinhelpedhimtoit;fortheladyofthehouse,beforewhomthetureenwasplaced,wassoignorantofthecontents,thatshewasgoingtohelpMr。Sedleywithoutbestowinguponhimeithercalipashorcalipee。
Thesplendouroftheentertainment,andtheapartmentsinwhichitwasgiven,alarmedMr。Dobbin,whoremonstratedafterdinner,whenJoswasasleepinthegreatchair。Butinvainhecriedoutagainsttheenormityofturtleandchampagnethatwasfitforanarchbishop。
“I’vealwaysbeenaccustomedtotravellikeagentleman。”
Georgesaid,“and,damme,mywifeshalltravellikealady。Aslongasthere’sashotinthelocker,sheshallwantfornothing。”saidthegenerousfellow,quitepleasedwithhimselfforhismagnificenceofspirit。NordidDobbintryandconvincehimthatAmelia’shappinesswasnotcentredinturtle-soup。
Awhileafterdinner,Ameliatimidlyexpressedawishtogoandseehermamma,atFulham:whichpermissionGeorgegrantedherwithsomegrumbling。Andshetrippedawaytoherenormousbedroom,inthecentreofwhichstoodtheenormousfunerealbed,“thattheEmperorHalixander’ssisterslepinwhenthealliedsufferingswashere。”andputonherlittlebonnetandshawlwiththeutmosteagernessandpleasure。Georgewasstilldrinkingclaretwhenshereturnedtothedining-room,andmadenosignsofmoving。”Ar’n’tyoucomingwithme,dearest?”
sheaskedhim。No;the“dearest“had“business“
thatnight。Hismanshouldgetheracoachandgowithher。Andthecoachbeingatthedoorofthehotel,AmeliamadeGeorgealittledisappointedcurtseyafterlookingvainlyintohisfaceonceortwice,andwentsadlydownthegreatstaircase,CaptainDobbinafter,whohandedherintothevehicle,andsawitdriveawaytoitsdestination。
Theveryvaletwasashamedofmentioningtheaddresstothehackney-coachmanbeforethehotelwaiters,andpromisedtoinstructhimwhentheygotfurtheron。
DobbinwalkedhometohisoldquartersandtheSlaughters’,thinkingverylikelythatitwouldbedelightfultobeinthathackney-coach,alongwithMrs。Osborne。
Georgewasevidentlyofquiteadifferenttaste;forwhenhehadtakenwineenough,hewentofftohalf-priceattheplay,toseeMr。KeanperforminShylock。CaptainOsbornewasagreatloverofthedrama,andhadhimselfperformedhigh-comedycharacterswithgreatdistinctioninseveralgarrisontheatricalentertainments。Jossleptonuntillongafterdark,whenhewokeupwithastartatthemotionsofhisservant,whowasremovingandemptyingthedecantersonthetable;andthehackney-coachstandwasagainputintorequisitionforacarriagetoconveythisstoutherotohislodgingsandbed。
Mrs。Sedley,youmaybesure,claspedherdaughtertoherheartwithallmaternaleagernessandaffection,runningoutofthedoorasthecarriagedrewupbeforethelittlegarden-gate,towelcometheweeping,trembling,youngbride。OldMr。Clapp,whowasinhisshirt-sleeves,trimmingthegarden-plot,shrankbackalarmed。TheIrishservant-lassrushedupfromthekitchenandsmileda“Godblessyou。”Ameliacouldhardlywalkalongtheflagsandupthestepsintotheparlour。
Howthefloodgateswereopened,andmotheranddaughterwept,whentheyweretogetherembracingeachotherinthissanctuary,mayreadilybeimaginedbyeveryreaderwhopossessestheleastsentimentalturn。Whendon’tladiesweep?Atwhatoccasionofjoy,sorrow,orotherbusinessoflife,and,aftersuchaneventasamarriage,motheranddaughterweresurelyatlibertytogivewaytoasensibilitywhichisastenderasitisrefreshing。
AboutaquestionofmarriageIhaveseenwomenwhohateeachotherkissandcrytogetherquitefondly。
Howmuchmoredotheyfeelwhentheylove!Goodmothersaremarriedoveragainattheirdaughters’weddings:
andasforsubsequentevents,whodoesnotknowhowultra-maternalgrandmothersare?——infactawoman,untilsheisagrandmother,doesnotoftenreallyknowwhattobeamotheris。LetusrespectAmeliaandhermammawhisperingandwhimperingandlaughingandcryingintheparlourandthetwilight。OldMr。Sedleydid。HEhadnotdivinedwhowasinthecarriagewhenitdroveup。Hehadnotflownouttomeethisdaughter,thoughhekissedherverywarmlywhensheenteredtheroomwherehewasoccupied,asusual,withhispapersandtapesandstatementsofaccounts,andaftersittingwiththemotheranddaughterforashorttime,heverywiselyleftthelittleapartmentintheirpossession。
George’svaletwaslookingoninaverysuperciliousmanneratMr。Clappinhisshirt-sleeves,wateringhisrose-bushes。Hetookoffhishat,however,withmuchcondescensiontoMr。Sedley,whoaskednewsabouthisson-in-law,andaboutJos’scarriage,andwhetherhishorseshadbeendowntoBrighton,andaboutthatinfernaltraitorBonaparty,andthewar;untiltheIrishmaid-servantcamewithaplateandabottleofwine,fromwhichtheoldgentlemaninsisteduponhelpingthevalet。Hegavehimahalf-guineatoo,whichtheservantpocketedwithamixtureofwonderandcontempt。”Tothehealthofyourmasterandmistress,Trotter。”Mr。
Sedleysaid,“andhere’ssomethingtodrinkyourhealthwhenyougethome,Trotter。”
TherewerebutninedayspastsinceAmeliahadleftthatlittlecottageandhome——andyethowfaroffthetimeseemedsinceshehadbiddenitfarewell。Whatagulflaybetweenherandthatpastlife。Shecouldlookbacktoitfromherpresentstanding-place,andcontemplate,almostasanotherbeing,theyoungunmarriedgirlabsorbedinherlove,havingnoeyesbutforonespecialobject,receivingparentalaffectionifnotungratefully,atleastindifferently,andasifitwereherdue——herwholeheartandthoughtsbentontheaccomplishmentofonedesire。Thereviewofthosedays,solatelygoneyetsofaraway,touchedherwithshame;andtheaspectofthekindparentsfilledherwithtenderremorse。Wastheprizegained——theheavenoflife——andthewinnerstilldoubtfulandunsatisfied?Ashisheroandheroinepassthematrimonialbarrier,thenovelistgenerallydropsthecurtain,asifthedramawereoverthen:thedoubtsandstrugglesoflifeended:asif,oncelandedinthemarriagecountry,allweregreenandpleasantthere:andwifeandhusbandhadnothingtodobuttolinkeachother’sarmstogether,andwandergentlydownwardstowardsoldageinhappyandperfectfruition。ButourlittleAmeliawasjustonthebankofhernewcountry,andwasalreadylookinganxiouslybacktowardsthesadfriendlyfigureswavingfarewelltoheracrossthestream,fromtheotherdistantshore。
Inhonouroftheyoungbride’sarrival,hermotherthoughtitnecessarytoprepareIdon’tknowwhatfestiveentertainment,andafterthefirstebullitionoftalk,tookleaveofMrs。GeorgeOsborneforawhile,anddiveddowntothelowerregionsofthehousetoasortofkitchen-parlouroccupiedbyMr。andMrs。Clapp,andintheevening,whenherdisheswerewashedandhercurl-papersremoved,byMissFlannigan,theIrishservant,theretotakemeasuresforthepreparingofamagnificentornamentedtea。Allpeoplehavetheirwaysofexpressingkindness,anditseemedtoMrs。Sedleythatamuffinandaquantityoforangemarmaladespreadoutinalittlecut-glasssaucerwouldbepeculiarlyagreeablerefreshmentstoAmeliainhermostinterestingsituation。
Whilethesedelicacieswerebeingtransactedbelow,Amelia,leavingthedrawing-room,walkedupstairsandfoundherself,shescarceknewhow,inthelittleroomwhichshehadoccupiedbeforehermarriage,andinthatverychairinwhichshehadpassedsomanybitterhours。
Shesankbackinitsarmsasifitwereanoldfriend;
andfelltothinkingoverthepastweek,andthelifebeyondit。Alreadytobelookingsadlyandvaguelyback:
alwaystobepiningforsomethingwhich,whenobtained,broughtdoubtandsadnessratherthanpleasure;herewasthelotofourpoorlittlecreatureandharmlesslostwandererinthegreatstrugglingcrowdsofVanityFair。
Hereshesate,andrecalledtoherselffondlythatimageofGeorgetowhichshehadkneltbeforemarriage。Didsheowntoherselfhowdifferenttherealmanwasfromthatsuperbyoungherowhomshehadworshipped?Itrequiresmany,manyyears——andamanmustbeverybadindeed——beforeawoman’sprideandvanitywillletherowntosuchaconfession。ThenRebecca’stwinklinggreeneyesandbalefulsmilelighteduponher,andfilledherwithdismay。Andsoshesateforawhileindulginginherusualmoodofselfishbrooding,inthatverylistlessmelancholyattitudeinwhichthehonestmaid-servanthadfoundher,onthedaywhenshebroughtuptheletterinwhichGeorgerenewedhisofferofmarriage。
Shelookedatthelittlewhitebed,whichhadbeenhersafewdaysbefore,andthoughtshewouldliketosleepinitthatnight,andwake,asformerly,withhermothersmilingoverherinthemorning:Thenshethoughtwithterrorofthegreatfunerealdamaskpavilioninthevastanddingystatebedroom,whichwasawaitingheratthegrandhotelinCavendishSquare。Dearlittlewhitebed!
howmanyalongnighthadsheweptonitspillow!
Howshehaddespairedandhopedtodiethere;andnowwerenotallherwishesaccomplished,andtheloverofwhomshehaddespairedherownforever?Kindmother!
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