“Well,BeckywouldhavemadeagoodLadyCrawley,afterall。”MissCrawleyremarkedwhowasmollifiedbythegirl’srefusal,andveryliberalandgenerousnowtherewasnocallforhersacrifices。”Shehasbrainsinplentymuchmorewitinherlittlefingerthanyouhave,mypoordearBriggs,inallyourhead。Hermannersareexcellent,nowIhaveformedher。SheisaMontmorency,Briggs,andbloodissomething,thoughIdespiseitformypart;andshewouldhaveheldherownamongstthosepompousstupidHampshirepeoplemuchbetterthanthatunfortunateironmonger’sdaughter。”
Briggscoincidedasusual,andthe“previousattachment“
wasthendiscussedinconjectures。”Youpoorfriendlesscreaturesarealwayshavingsomefoolishtendre。”MissCrawleysaid。”Youyourself,youknow,wereinlovewithawriting-masterdon’tcry,Briggs——
you’realwayscrying,anditwon’tbringhimtolifeagain,andIsupposethisunfortunateBeckyhasbeensillyandsentimentaltoo——someapothecary,orhouse-steward,orpainter,oryoungcurate,orsomethingofthatsort。”
“Poorthing!poorthing!”saysBriggswhowasthinkingoftwenty-fouryearsback,andthathecticyoungwriting-masterwhoselockofyellowhair,andwhoseletters,beautifulintheirillegibility,shecherishedinherolddeskupstairs。”Poorthing,poorthing!”saysBriggs。Oncemoreshewasafresh-cheekedlassofeighteen;
shewasateveningchurch,andthehecticwriting-masterandshewerequaveringoutofthesamepsalm-book。
“AftersuchconductonRebecca’spart。”MissCrawleysaidenthusiastically,“ourfamilyshoulddosomething。
Findoutwhoistheobjet,Briggs。I’llsethimupinashop;orordermyportraitofhim,youknow;orspeaktomycousin,theBishopandI’lldoterBecky,andwe’llhaveawedding,Briggs,andyoushallmakethebreakfast,andbeabridesmaid。”
Briggsdeclaredthatitwouldbedelightful,andvowedthatherdearMissCrawleywasalwayskindandgenerous,andwentuptoRebecca’sbedroomtoconsoleherandprattleabouttheoffer,andtherefusal,andthecausethereof;andtohintatthegenerousintentionsofMissCrawley,andtofindoutwhowasthegentlemanthathadthemasteryofMissSharp’sheart。
Rebeccawasverykind,veryaffectionateandaffected——respondedtoBriggs’sofferoftendernesswithgratefulfervour——ownedtherewasasecretattachment——adeliciousmystery——whatapityMissBriggshadnotremainedhalfaminutelongeratthekeyhole!Rebeccamight,perhaps,havetoldmore:butfiveminutesafterMissBriggs’sarrivalinRebecca’sapartment,MissCrawleyactuallymadeherappearancethere——anunheard-ofhonour——herimpatiencehadovercomeher;shecouldnotwaitforthetardyoperationsofherambassadress:soshecameinperson,andorderedBriggsoutoftheroom。
AndexpressingherapprovalofRebecca’sconduct,sheaskedparticularsoftheinterview,andtheprevioustransactionswhichhadbroughtabouttheastonishingofferofSirPitt。
RebeccasaidshehadlonghadsomenotionofthepartialitywithwhichSirPitthonouredherforhewasinthehabitofmakinghisfeelingsknowninaveryfrankandunreservedmannerbut,nottomentionprivatereasonswithwhichshewouldnotforthepresenttroubleMissCrawley,SirPitt’sage,station,andhabitsweresuchastorenderamarriagequiteimpossible;andcouldawomanwithanyfeelingofself-respectandanydecencylistentoproposalsatsuchamoment,whenthefuneralofthelover’sdeceasedwifehadnotactuallytakenplace?
“Nonsense,mydear,youwouldneverhaverefusedhimhadtherenotbeensomeoneelseinthecase。”MissCrawleysaid,comingtoherpointatonce。”Tellmetheprivatereasons;whataretheprivatereasons?Thereissomeone;whoisitthathastouchedyourheart?”
Rebeccacastdownhereyes,andownedtherewas。
“Youhaveguessedright,dearlady。”shesaid,withasweetsimplefalteringvoice。”Youwonderatonesopoorandfriendlesshavinganattachment,don’tyou?
Ihaveneverheardthatpovertywasanysafeguardagainstit。Iwishitwere。”
“Mypoordearchild。”criedMissCrawley,whowasalwaysquitereadytobesentimental,“isourpassionunrequited,then?Arewepininginsecret?Tellmeall,andletmeconsoleyou。”
“Iwishyoucould,dearMadam。”Rebeccasaidinthesametearfultone。”Indeed,indeed,Ineedit。”AndshelaidherheaduponMissCrawley’sshoulderandwepttheresonaturallythattheoldlady,surprisedintosympathy,embracedherwithanalmostmaternalkindness,utteredmanysoothingprotestsofregardandaffectionforher,vowedthatshelovedherasadaughter,andwoulddoeverythinginherpowertoserveher。”Andnowwhoisit,mydear?IsitthatprettyMissSedley’sbrother?Yousaidsomethingaboutanaffairwithhim。
I’llaskhimhere,mydear。Andyoushallhavehim:
indeedyoushall。”
“Don’taskmenow。”Rebeccasaid。”Youshallknowallsoon。Indeedyoushall。DearkindMissCrawley——
dearfriend,mayIsayso?”
“Thatyoumay,mychild。”theoldladyreplied,kissingher。
“Ican’ttellyounow。”sobbedoutRebecca,“Iamverymiserable。ButO!lovemealways——promiseyouwilllovemealways。”Andinthemidstofmutualtears——fortheemotionsoftheyoungerwomanhadawakenedthesympathiesoftheelder——thispromisewassolemnlygivenbyMissCrawley,wholeftherlittleprotege,blessingandadmiringherasadear,artless,tender-hearted,affectionate,incomprehensiblecreature。
Andnowshewasleftalonetothinkoverthesuddenandwonderfuleventsoftheday,andofwhathadbeenandwhatmighthavebeen。WhatthinkyouweretheprivatefeelingsofMiss,nobeggingherpardonofMrs。Rebecca?If,afewpagesback,thepresentwriterclaimedtheprivilegeofpeepingintoMissAmeliaSedley’sbedroom,andunderstandingwiththeomniscienceofthenovelistallthegentlepainsandpassionswhichweretossinguponthatinnocentpillow,whyshouldhenotdeclarehimselftobeRebecca’sconfidantetoo,masterofhersecrets,andseal-keeperofthatyoungwoman’sconscience?
Well,then,inthefirstplace,Rebeccagavewaytosomeverysincereandtouchingregretsthatapieceofmarvellousgoodfortuneshouldhavebeensonearher,andsheactuallyobligedtodeclineit。Inthisnaturalemotioneveryproperlyregulatedmindwillcertainlyshare。Whatgoodmotheristherethatwouldnotcommiserateapennilessspinster,whomighthavebeenmylady,andhavesharedfourthousandayear?Whatwell-bredyoungpersonisthereinallVanityFair,whowillnotfeelforahard-working,ingenious,meritoriousgirl,whogetssuchanhonourable,advantageous,provokingoffer,justattheverymomentwhenitisoutofherpowertoacceptit?IamsureourfriendBecky’sdisappointmentdeservesandwillcommandeverysympathy。
IrememberonenightbeingintheFairmyself,ataneveningparty。IobservedoldMissToadytherealsopresent,singleoutforherspecialattentionsandflatterylittleMrs。Briefless,thebarrister’swife,whoisofagoodfamilycertainly,but,asweallknow,isaspooraspoorcanbe。
What,Iaskedinmyownmind,cancausethisobsequiousnessonthepartofMissToady;hasBrieflessgotacountycourt,orhashiswifehadafortunelefther?
MissToadyexplainedpresently,withthatsimplicitywhichdistinguishesallherconduct。”Youknow。”shesaid,“Mrs。BrieflessisgranddaughterofSirJohnRedhand,whoissoillatCheltenhamthathecan’tlastsixmonths。Mrs。Briefless’spapasucceeds;soyouseeshewillbeabaronet’sdaughter。”AndToadyaskedBrieflessandhiswifetodinnertheverynextweek。
Ifthemerechanceofbecomingabaronet’sdaughtercanprocurealadysuchhomageintheworld,surely,surelywemayrespecttheagoniesofayoungwomanwhohaslosttheopportunityofbecomingabaronet’swife。WhowouldhavedreamedofLadyCrawleydyingsosoon?Shewasoneofthosesicklywomenthatmighthavelastedthesetenyears——Rebeccathoughttoherself,inallthewoesofrepentance——andImighthavebeenmylady!ImighthaveledthatoldmanwhitherI
would。ImighthavethankedMrs。Buteforherpatronage,andMr。Pittforhisinsufferablecondescension。I
wouldhavehadthetown-housenewlyfurnishedanddecorated。IwouldhavehadthehandsomestcarriageinLondon,andaboxattheopera;andIwouldhavebeenpresentednextseason。Allthismighthavebeen;
andnow——nowallwasdoubtandmystery。
ButRebeccawasayoungladyoftoomuchresolutionandenergyofcharactertopermitherselfmuchuselessandunseemlysorrowfortheirrevocablepast;so,havingdevotedonlytheproperportionofregrettoit,shewiselyturnedherwholeattentiontowardsthefuture,whichwasnowvastlymoreimportanttoher。Andshesurveyedherposition,anditshopes,doubts,andchances。
Inthefirstplace,shewasMARRIED——thatwasagreatfact。SirPittknewit。Shewasnotsomuchsurprisedintotheavowal,asinducedtomakeitbyasuddencalculation。
Itmusthavecomesomeday:andwhynotnowasatalaterperiod?Hewhowouldhavemarriedherhimselfmustatleastbesilentwithregardtohermarriage。
HowMissCrawleywouldbearthenews——wasthegreatquestion。MisgivingsRebeccahad;butsherememberedallMissCrawleyhadsaid;theoldlady’savowedcontemptforbirth;herdaringliberalopinions;hergeneralromanticpropensities;heralmostdotingattachmenttohernephew,andherrepeatedlyexpressedfondnessforRebeccaherself。Sheissofondofhim,Rebeccathought,thatshewillforgivehimanything:sheissousedtomethatIdon’tthinkshecouldbecomfortablewithoutme:whentheeclaircissementcomestherewillbeascene,andhysterics,andagreatquarrel,andthenagreatreconciliation。Atallevents,whatusewasthereindelaying?thediewasthrown,andnoworto-morrowtheissuemustbethesame。Andso,resolvedthatMissCrawleyshouldhavethenews,theyoungpersondebatedinhermindastothebestmeansofconveyingittoher;andwhethersheshouldfacethestormthatmustcome,orflyandavoidituntilitsfirstfurywasblownover。Inthisstateofmeditationshewrotethefollowingletter:
DearestFriend,ThegreatcrisiswhichwehavedebatedaboutsooftenisCOME。Halfofmysecretisknown,andIhavethoughtandthought,untilIamquitesurethatnowisthetimetorevealTHEWHOLEOFTHEMYSTERY。SirPittcametomethismorning,andmade——whatdoyouthink?——ADECLARATIONINFORM。Thinkofthat!Poorlittleme。ImighthavebeenLadyCrawley。HowpleasedMrs。Butewouldhavebeen:andmatanteifIhadtakenprecedenceofher!Imighthavebeensomebody’smamma,insteadof——O,Itremble,Itremble,whenI
thinkhowsoonwemusttellall!
SirPittknowsIammarried,andnotknowingtowhom,isnotverymuchdispleasedasyet。MatanteisACTUALLYANGRYthatIshouldhaverefusedhim。Butsheisallkindnessandgraciousness。ShecondescendstosayIwouldhavemadehimagoodwife;andvowsthatshewillbeamothertoyourlittleRebecca。Shewillbeshakenwhenshefirsthearsthenews。Butneedwefearanythingbeyondamomentaryanger?Ithinknot:IAM
SUREnot。Shedotesuponyousoyounaughty,good-for-
nothingman,thatshewouldpardonyouANYTHING:
and,indeed,Ibelieve,thenextplaceinherheartismine:andthatshewouldbemiserablewithoutme。
Dearest!somethingTELLSMEweshallconquer。Youshallleavethatodiousregiment:quitgaming,racing,andBE
AGOODBOY;andweshallallliveinParkLane,andmatanteshallleaveusallhermoney。
Ishalltryandwalkto-morrowat3intheusualplace。
IfMissB。accompaniesme,youmustcometodinner,andbringananswer,andputitinthethirdvolumeofPorteus’sSermons。But,atallevents,cometoyourownR。
ToMissElizaStyles,AtMr。Barnet’s,Saddler,Knightsbridge。
AndItrustthereisnoreaderofthislittlestorywhohasnotdiscernmentenoughtoperceivethattheMissElizaStylesanoldschoolfellow,Rebeccasaid,withwhomshehadresumedanactivecorrespondenceoflate,andwhousedtofetchtheselettersfromthesaddler’s,worebrassspurs,andlargecurlingmustachios,andwasindeednootherthanCaptainRawdonCrawley。
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