Shesatecommonlywithherfather,whowasveryproudofherwit,andheardthetalkofmanyofhiswildcompanions——oftenbutill-suitedforagirltohear。Butsheneverhadbeenagirl,shesaid;shehadbeenawomansinceshewaseightyearsold。Oh,whydidMissPinkertonletsuchadangerousbirdintohercage?
Thefactis,theoldladybelievedRebeccatobethemeekestcreatureintheworld,soadmirably,ontheoccasionswhenherfatherbroughthertoChiswick,usedRebeccatoperformthepartoftheingenue;andonlyayearbeforethearrangementbywhichRebeccahadbeenadmittedintoherhouse,andwhenRebeccawassixteenyearsold,MissPinkertonmajestically,andwithalittlespeech,madeherapresentofadoll——whichwas,bytheway,theconfiscatedpropertyofMissSwindle,discoveredsurreptitiouslynursingitinschool-hours。Howthefatheranddaughterlaughedastheytrudgedhometogetheraftertheeveningpartyitwasontheoccasionofthespeeches,whenalltheprofessorswereinvitedandhowMissPinkertonwouldhaveragedhadsheseenthecaricatureofherselfwhichthelittlemimic,Rebecca,managedtomakeoutofherdoll。Beckyusedtogothroughdialogueswithit;itformedthedelightofNewmanStreet,GerrardStreet,andtheArtists’quarter:
andtheyoungpainters,whentheycametotaketheirgin-
and-waterwiththeirlazy,dissolute,clever,jovialsenior,usedregularlytoaskRebeccaifMissPinkertonwasathome:shewasaswellknowntothem,poorsoul!asMr。LawrenceorPresidentWest。OnceRebeccahadthehonourtopassafewdaysatChiswick;afterwhichshebroughtbackJemima,anderectedanotherdollasMissJemmy:forthoughthathonestcreaturehadmadeandgivenherjellyandcakeenoughforthreechildren,andaseven-shillingpieceatparting,thegirl’ssenseofridiculewasfarstrongerthanhergratitude,andshesacrificedMissJemmyquiteaspitilesslyashersister。
Thecatastrophecame,andshewasbroughttotheMallastoherhome。Therigidformalityoftheplacesuffocatedher:theprayersandthemeals,thelessonsandthewalks,whichwerearrangedwithaconventualregularity,oppressedheralmostbeyondendurance;andshelookedbacktothefreedomandthebeggaryoftheoldstudioinSohowithsomuchregret,thateverybody,herselfincluded,fanciedshewasconsumedwithgriefforherfather。Shehadalittleroominthegarret,wherethemaidsheardherwalkingandsobbingatnight;butitwaswithrage,andnotwithgrief。Shehadnotbeenmuchofadissembler,untilnowherlonelinesstaughthertofeign。Shehadnevermingledinthesocietyofwomen:
herfather,reprobateashewas,wasamanoftalent;hisconversationwasathousandtimesmoreagreeabletoherthanthetalkofsuchofherownsexasshenowencountered。
Thepompousvanityoftheoldschoolmistress,thefoolishgood-humourofhersister,thesillychatandscandaloftheeldergirls,andthefrigidcorrectnessofthegovernessesequallyannoyedher;andshehadnosoftmaternalheart,thisunluckygirl,otherwisetheprattleandtalkoftheyoungerchildren,withwhosecareshewaschieflyintrusted,mighthavesoothedandinterestedher;butshelivedamongthemtwoyears,andnotonewassorrythatshewentaway。Thegentletender-
heartedAmeliaSedleywastheonlypersontowhomshecouldattachherselfintheleast;andwhocouldhelpattachingherselftoAmelia?
Thehappinessthesuperioradvantagesoftheyoungwomenroundabouther,gaveRebeccainexpressiblepangsofenvy。”Whatairsthatgirlgivesherself,becausesheisanEarl’sgrand-daughter。”shesaidofone。”HowtheycringeandbowtothatCreole,becauseofherhundredthousandpounds!Iamathousandtimesclevererandmorecharmingthanthatcreature,forallherwealth。
IamaswellbredastheEarl’sgrand-daughter,forallherfinepedigree;andyeteveryonepassesmebyhere。Andyet,whenIwasatmyfather’s,didnotthemengiveuptheirgayestballsandpartiesinordertopasstheeveningwithme?”Shedeterminedatanyratetogetfreefromtheprisoninwhichshefoundherself,andnowbegantoactforherself,andforthefirsttimetomakeconnectedplansforthefuture。
Shetookadvantage,therefore,ofthemeansofstudytheplaceofferedher;andasshewasalreadyamusicianandagoodlinguist,shespeedilywentthroughthelittlecourseofstudywhichwasconsiderednecessaryforladiesinthosedays。Hermusicshepractisedincessantly,andoneday,whenthegirlswereout,andshehadremainedathome,shewasoverheardtoplayapiecesowellthatMinervathought,wisely,shecouldspareherselftheexpenseofamasterforthejuniors,andintimatedtoMissSharpthatshewastoinstructtheminmusicforthefuture。
Thegirlrefused;andforthefirsttime,andtotheastonishmentofthemajesticmistressoftheschool。”I
amheretospeakFrenchwiththechildren。”Rebeccasaidabruptly,“nottoteachthemmusic,andsavemoneyforyou。Givememoney,andIwillteachthem。”
Minervawasobligedtoyield,and,ofcourse,dislikedherfromthatday。”Forfive-and-thirtyyears。”shesaid,andwithgreatjustice,“Ineverhaveseentheindividualwhohasdaredinmyownhousetoquestionmyauthority。Ihavenourishedaviperinmybosom。”
“Aviper——afiddlestick。”saidMissSharptotheoldlady,almostfaintingwithastonishment。”YoutookmebecauseIwasuseful。Thereisnoquestionofgratitudebetweenus。Ihatethisplace,andwanttoleaveit。I
willdonothingherebutwhatIamobligedtodo。”
ItwasinvainthattheoldladyaskedherifshewasawareshewasspeakingtoMissPinkerton?Rebeccalaughedinherface,withahorridsarcasticdemoniacallaughter,thatalmostsenttheschoolmistressintofits。
“Givemeasumofmoney。”saidthegirl,“andgetridofme——or,ifyoulikebetter,getmeagoodplaceasgovernessinanobleman’sfamily——youcandosoifyouplease。”Andintheirfurtherdisputesshealwaysreturnedtothispoint,“Getmeasituation——wehateeachother,andIamreadytogo。”
WorthyMissPinkerton,althoughshehadaRomannoseandaturban,andwasastallasagrenadier,andhadbeenuptothistimeanirresistibleprincess,hadnowillorstrengthlikethatofherlittleapprentice,andinvaindidbattleagainsther,andtriedtooveraweher。
Attemptingoncetoscoldherinpublic,Rebeccahituponthebefore-mentionedplanofansweringherinFrench,whichquiteroutedtheoldwoman。Inordertomaintainauthorityinherschool,itbecamenecessarytoremovethisrebel,thismonster,thisserpent,thisfirebrand;andhearingaboutthistimethatSirPittCrawley’sfamilywasinwantofagoverness,sheactuallyrecommendedMissSharpforthesituation,firebrandandserpentasshewas。”Icannot,certainly。”shesaid,“findfaultwithMissSharp’sconduct,excepttomyself;andmustallowthathertalentsandaccomplishmentsareofahighorder。
Asfarastheheadgoes,atleast,shedoescredittotheeducationalsystempursuedatmyestablishment。’’
Andsotheschoolmistressreconciledtherecommendationtoherconscience,andtheindentureswerecancelled,andtheapprenticewasfree。Thebattleheredescribedinafewlines,ofcourse,lastedforsomemonths。AndasMissSedley,beingnowinherseventeenthyear,wasabouttoleaveschool,andhadafriendshipforMissSharp“’tistheonlypointinAmelia’sbehaviour。”saidMinerva,“whichhasnotbeensatisfactorytohermistress“,MissSharpwasinvitedbyherfriendtopassaweekwithherathome,beforesheentereduponherdutiesasgovernessinaprivatefamily。
Thustheworldbeganforthesetwoyoungladies。ForAmeliaitwasquiteanew,fresh,brilliantworld,withallthebloomuponit。ItwasnotquiteanewoneforRebecca——indeed,ifthetruthmustbetoldwithrespecttotheCrispaffair,thetart-womanhintedtosomebody,whotookanaffidavitofthefacttosomebodyelse,thattherewasagreatdealmorethanwasmadepublicregardingMr。CrispandMissSharp,andthathisletterwasinanswertoanotherletter。Butwhocantellyoutherealtruthofthematter?Atallevents,ifRebeccawasnotbeginningtheworld,shewasbeginningitoveragain。
BythetimetheyoungladiesreachedKensingtonturnpike,Ameliahadnotforgottenhercompanions,buthaddriedhertears,andhadblushedverymuchandbeendelightedatayoungofficeroftheLifeGuards,whospiedherashewasridingby,andsaid,“Ademfinegal,egad!”andbeforethecarriagearrivedinRussellSquare,agreatdealofconversationhadtakenplaceabouttheDrawing-room,andwhetherornotyoungladiesworepowderaswellashoopswhenpresented,andwhethershewastohavethathonour:totheLordMayor’sballsheknewshewastogo。Andwhenatlengthhomewasreached,MissAmeliaSedleyskippedoutonSambo’sarm,ashappyandashandsomeagirlasanyinthewholebigcityofLondon。Bothheandcoachmanagreedonthispoint,andsodidherfatherandmother,andsodideveryoneoftheservantsinthehouse,astheystoodbobbing,andcurtseying,andsmiling,inthehalltowelcometheiryoungmistress。
YoumaybesurethatsheshowedRebeccaovereveryroomofthehouse,andeverythingineveryoneofherdrawers;andherbooks,andherpiano,andherdresses,andallhernecklaces,brooches,laces,andgimcracks。
SheinsisteduponRebeccaacceptingthewhitecornelianandtheturquoiserings,andasweetspriggedmuslin,whichwastoosmallforhernow,thoughitwouldfitherfriendtoanicety;andshedeterminedinherhearttoaskhermother’spermissiontopresentherwhiteCashmereshawltoherfriend。Couldshenotspareit?andhadnotherbrotherJosephjustbroughthertwofromIndia?
WhenRebeccasawthetwomagnificentCashmereshawlswhichJosephSedleyhadbroughthometohissister,shesaid,withperfecttruth,“thatitmustbedelightfultohaveabrother。”andeasilygotthepityofthetender-heartedAmeliaforbeingaloneintheworld,anorphanwithoutfriendsorkindred。
“Notalone。”saidAmelia;“youknow,Rebecca,Ishallalwaysbeyourfriend,andloveyouasasister——indeedIwill。”
“Ah,buttohaveparents,asyouhave——kind,rich,affectionateparents,whogiveyoueverythingyou-askfor;andtheirlove,whichismorepreciousthanall!
Mypoorpapacouldgivemenothing,andIhadbuttwofrocksinalltheworld!Andthen,tohaveabrother,adearbrother!Oh,howyoumustlovehim!”
Amelialaughed。
“What!don’tyoulovehim?you,whosayyouloveeverybody?”~;
“Yes,ofcourse,Ido——only——“
“Onlywhat?”
“OnlyJosephdoesn’tseemtocaremuchwhetherI
lovehimornot。Hegavemetwofingerstoshakewhenhearrivedaftertenyears’absence!Heisverykindandgood,buthescarcelyeverspeakstome;Ithinkheloveshispipeagreatdealbetterthanhis“——buthereAmeliacheckedherself,forwhyshouldshespeakillofherbrother?“Hewasverykindtomeasachild。”sheadded;“Iwasbutfiveyearsoldwhenhewentaway。”
“Isn’theveryrich?”saidRebecca。”TheysayallIndiannabobsareenormouslyrich。”
“Ibelievehehasaverylargeincome。”
“Andisyoursister-in-lawaniceprettywoman?”
“La!Josephisnotmarried。”saidAmelia,laughingagain。
PerhapsshehadmentionedthefactalreadytoRebecca,butthatyoungladydidnotappeartohaverememberedit;indeed,vowedandprotestedthatsheexpectedtoseeanumberofAmelia’snephewsandnieces。ShewasquitedisappointedthatMr。Sedleywasnotmarried;shewassureAmeliahadsaidhewas,andshedotedsoonlittlechildren。
“IthinkyoumusthavehadenoughofthematChiswick。”saidAmelia,ratherwonderingatthesuddentendernessonherfriend’spart;andindeedinlaterdaysMissSharpwouldneverhavecommittedherselfsofarastoadvanceopinions,theuntruthofwhichwouldhavebeensoeasilydetected。Butwemustrememberthatsheisbutnineteenasyet,unusedtotheartofdeceiving,poorinnocentcreature!andmakingherownexperienceinherownperson。Themeaningoftheaboveseriesofqueries,astranslatedintheheartofthisingeniousyoungwoman,wassimplythis:“IfMr。JosephSedleyisrichandunmarried,whyshouldInotmarryhim?Ihaveonlyafortnight,tobesure,butthereisnoharmintrying。”Andshedeterminedwithinherselftomakethislaudableattempt。SheredoubledhercaressestoAmelia;
shekissedthewhitecorneliannecklaceassheputiton;andvowedshewouldnever,neverpartwithit。Whenthedinner-bellrangshewentdownstairswithherarmroundherfriend’swaist,asisthehabitofyoungladies。
Shewassoagitatedatthedrawing-roomdoor,thatshecouldhardlyfindcouragetoenter。”Feelmyheart,howitbeats,dear!”saidshetoherfriend。
“No,itdoesn’t。”saidAmelia。”Comein,don’tbefrightened。Papawon’tdoyouanyharm。”
CHAPTERIII
RebeccaIsinPresenceoftheEnemyAVERYstout,puffyman,inbuckskinsandHessianboots,withseveralimmenseneckclothsthatrosealmosttohisnose,witharedstripedwaistcoatandanapplegreencoatwithsteelbuttonsalmostaslargeascrownpiecesitwasthemorningcostumeofadandyorbloodofthosedayswasreadingthepaperbythefirewhenthetwogirlsentered,andbouncedoffhisarm-chair,andblushedexcessively,andhidhisentirefacealmostinhisneckclothsatthisapparition。
“It’sonlyyoursister,Joseph。”saidAmelia,laughingandshakingthetwofingerswhichheheldout。”I’vecomehomeFORGOOD,youknow;andthisismyfriend,MissSharp,whomyouhaveheardmemention。”
“No,never,uponmyword。”saidtheheadundertheneckcloth,shakingverymuch——“thatis,yes——whatabominablycoldweather,Miss“——andherewithhefelltopokingthefirewithallhismight,althoughitwasinthemiddleofJune。
“He’sveryhandsome。”whisperedRebeccatoAmelia,ratherloud。
“Doyouthinkso?”saidthelatter。”I’lltellhim。”
“Darling!notforworlds。”saidMissSharp,startingbackastimidasafawn。Shehadpreviouslymadearespectfulvirgin-likecurtseytothegentleman,andhermodesteyesgazedsoperseveringlyonthecarpetthatitwasawonderhowsheshouldhavefoundanopportunitytoseehim。
“Thankyouforthebeautifulshawls,brother。”saidAmeliatothefirepoker。”Aretheynotbeautiful,Rebecca?”
“Oheavenly!”saidMissSharp,andhereyeswentfromthecarpetstraighttothechandelier。
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