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第37章

  Anniehadbutgiventheslightestpossibletouch,withthepointof
  aneedle,tothesameminuteportionofcomplicatedmachinerywhich
  hasbeenmorethanoncementioned,whentheartistseizedherbythe
  wristwithaforcethatmadeherscreamaloud。Shewasaffrightedat
  theconvulsionofintenserageandanguishthatwrithedacrosshis
  features。Thenextinstanthelethisheadsinkuponhishands。
  “Go,Annie。”murmuredhe,“Ihavedeceivedmyself,andmust
  sufferforit。Iyearnedforsympathy-andthought-andfancied-and
  dreamed-thatyoumightgiveitme。Butyoulackthetalisman,
  Annie,thatshouldadmityouintomysecrets。Thattouchhasundone
  thetoilofmonths,andthethoughtofalifetime!Itwasnotyour
  fault,Annie-butyouhaveruinedme!”
  PoorOwenWarland!Hehadindeederred,yetpardonably;forif
  anyhumanspiritcouldhavesufficientlyreverencedtheprocessesso
  sacredinhiseyes,itmusthavebeenawoman’s。EvenAnnie
  Hovenden,possibly,mightnothavedisappointedhim,hadshebeen
  enlightenedbythedeepintelligenceoflove。
  Theartistspenttheensuingwinterinawaythatsatisfiedany
  persons,whohadhithertoretainedahopefulopinionofhim,thathe
  was,intruth,irrevocablydoomedtoinutilityasregardedthe
  world,andtoanevildestinyonhisownpart。Thedeceaseofa
  relativehadputhiminpossessionofasmallinheritance。Thus
  freedfromthenecessityoftoil,andhavinglostthesteadfast
  influenceofagreatpurpose-great,atleast,tohim-heabandoned
  himselftohabitsfromwhich,itmighthavebeensupposed,themere
  delicacyofhisorganizationwouldhaveavailedtosecurehim。But
  whentheetherealportionofamanofgeniusisobscured,the
  earthlypartassumesaninfluencethemoreuncontrollable,becausethe
  characterisnowthrownoffthebalancetowhichProvidencehadso
  nicelyadjustedit,andwhich,incoarsernatures,isadjustedbysome
  othermethod。OwenWarlandmadeproofofwhatevershowofblissmaybe
  foundinriot。Helookedattheworldthroughthegoldenmediumof
  wine,andcontemplatedthevisionsthatbubbleupsogailyaround
  thebrimoftheglass,andthatpeopletheairwithshapesofpleasant
  madness,whichsosoongrowghostlyandforlorn。Evenwhenthisdismal
  andinevitablechangehadtakenplace,theyoungmanmightstill
  havecontinuedtoquaffthecupofenchantments,thoughitsvapor
  didbutshroudlifeingloom,andfillthegloomwithspectresthat
  mockedathim。Therewasacertainirksomenessofspirit,which,being
  real,andthedeepestsensationofwhichtheartistwasnowconscious,
  wasmoreintolerablethananyfantasticmiseriesandhorrorsthat
  theabuseofwinecouldsummonup。Inthelattercase,hecould
  remember,evenoutofthemidstofhistrouble,thatallwasbuta
  delusion;intheformer,theheavyanguishwashisactuallife。
  Fromthisperilousstate,hewasredeemedbyanincidentwhichmore
  thanonepersonwitnessed,butofwhichtheshrewdestcouldnot
  explainnorconjecturetheoperationonOwenWarland’smind。Itwas
  verysimple。OnawarmafternoonofSpring,astheartistsatamong
  hisriotouscompanions,withaglassofwinebeforehim,asplendid
  butterflyflewinattheopenwindow,andflutteredabouthishead。
  “Ah!”exclaimedOwen,whohaddrunkfreely,“areyoualiveagain,
  childofthesun,andplaymateofthesummerbreeze,afteryourdismal
  winter’snap!Thenitistimeformetobeatwork!”
  Andleavinghisunemptiedglassuponthetable,hedeparted,and
  wasneverknowntosipanotherdropofwine。
  Andnow,again,heresumedhiswanderingsinthewoodsand
  fields。Itmightbefanciedthatthebrightbutterfly,whichhad
  comesospiritlikeintothewindow,asOwensatwiththerude
  revellers,wasindeedaspirit,commissionedtorecallhimtothe
  pure,ideallifethathadsoetherealisedhimamongmen。Itmightbe
  fancied,thathewentforthtoseekthisspirit,initssunny
  haunts;forstill,asinthesummer-timegoneby,hewasseentosteal
  gentlyup,whereverabutterflyhadalighted,andlosehimselfin
  contemplationofit。Whenittookflight,hiseyesfollowedthewinged
  vision,asifitsairytrackwouldshowthepathtoheaven。Butwhat
  couldbethepurposeoftheunseasonabletoil,whichwasagain
  resumed,asthewatchmanknewbythelinesoflamp-lightthroughthe
  crevicesofOwenWarland’sshutters?Thetownspeoplehadone
  comprehensiveexplanationofallthesesingularities。OwenWarlandhad
  gonemad!Howuniversallyefficacious-howsatisfactory,too,and
  soothingtotheinjuredsensibilityofnarrownessanddullness-is
  thiseasymethodofaccountingforwhateverliesbeyondtheworld’s
  mostordinaryscope!FromSaintPaul’sdays,downtoourpoorlittle
  ArtistoftheBeautiful,thesametalismanhadbeenappliedtothe
  elucidationofallmysteriesinthewordsordeedsofmen,whospoke
  oractedtoowiselyortoowell。InOwenWarland’scase,the
  judgmentofhistownspeoplemayhavebeencorrect。Perhapshewasmad。
  Thelackofsympathy-thatcontrastbetweenhimselfandhisneighbors,
  whichtookawaytherestraintofexample-wasenoughtomakehimso。
  Or,possibly,hehadcaughtjustsomuchofetherealradianceas
  servedtobewilderhim,inanearthlysense,byitsintermixture
  withthecommondaylight。
  Oneevening,whentheartisthadreturnedfromacustomary
  ramble,andhadjustthrownthelustreofhislamponthedelicate
  pieceofwork,soofteninterrupted,butstilltakenupagain,asif
  hisfatewereembodiedinitsmechanism,hewassurprisedbythe
  entranceofoldPeterHovenden。Owennevermetthismanwithouta
  shrinkingoftheheart。Ofalltheworld,hewasmostterrible,by
  reasonofakeenunderstanding,whichsawsodistinctlywhatitdid
  see,anddisbelievedsouncompromisinglyinwhatitcouldnotsee。
  Onthisoccasion,theoldwatchmakerhadmerelyagraciouswordortwo
  tosay。
  “Owen,mylad。”saidhe,“wemustseeyouatmyhousetomorrow
  night。”
  Theartistbegantomuttersomeexcuse。
  “Oh,butitmustbeso。”quothPeterHovenden,“forthesakeofthe
  dayswhenyouwereoneofthehousehold。What,myboy,don’tyou
  knowthatmydaughterAnnieisengagedtoRobertDanforth?Weare
  makinganentertainment,inourhumbleway,tocelebratetheevent。”
  “Ah!”saidOwen。
  Thatlittlemonosyllablewasallheuttered;itstoneseemedcold
  andunconcerned,toanearlikePeterHovenden’s;andyettherewasin
  itthestifledoutcryofthepoorartist’sheart,whichhe
  compressedwithinhimlikeamanholdingdownanevilspirit。One
  slightout-break,however,imperceptibletotheoldwatchmaker,he
  allowedhimself。Raisingtheinstrumentwithwhichhewasaboutto
  beginhiswork,heletitfalluponthelittlesystemofmachinery
  thathad,anew,costhimmonthsofthoughtandtoil。Itwas
  shatteredbythestroke!
  OwenWarland’sstorywouldhavebeennotolerablerepresentationof
  thetroubledlifeofthosewhostrivetocreatetheBeautiful,if,
  amidallotherthwartinginfluences,lovehadnotinterposedto
  stealthecunningfromhishand。Outwardlyhehadbeennoardentor
  enterprisinglover;thecareerofhispassionhadconfineditstumults
  andvicissitudessoentirelywithintheartist’simagination,that
  Annieherselfhadscarcelymorethanawoman’sintuitiveperceptionof
  it。But,inOwen’sview,itcoveredthewholefieldofhislife。
  Forgetfulofthetimewhenshehadshownherselfincapableofanydeep
  response,hehadpersistedinconnectingallhisdreamsof
  artisticalsuccesswithAnnie’simage;shewasthevisibleshapein
  whichthespiritualpowerthatheworshipped,andonwhosealtarhe
  hopedtolayanotunworthyoffering,wasmademanifesttohim。Of
  coursehehaddeceivedhimself;therewerenosuchattributesinAnnie
  Hovendenashisimaginationhadendowedherwith。She,intheaspect
  whichsheworetohisinwardvision,wasasmuchacreationofhis
  own,asthemysteriouspieceofmechanismwouldbewereitever
  realized。Hadhebecomeconvincedofhismistakethroughthemediumof
  successfullove;hadhewonAnnietohisbosom,andtherebeheldher
  fadefromangelintoordinarywoman,thedisappointmentmighthave
  drivenhimback,withconcentratedenergy,uponhissoleremaining
  object。Ontheotherhand,hadhefoundAnniewhathefancied,hislot
  wouldhavebeensorichinbeauty,thatoutofitsmereredundancy
  hemighthavewroughttheBeautifulintomanyaworthiertypethan
  hehadtoiledfor。Buttheguiseinwhichhissorrowcametohim,
  thesensethattheangelofhislifehadbeensnatchedawayand
  giventoarudemanofearthandiron,whocouldneitherneednor
  appreciateherministrations;thiswastheveryperversityoffate,
  thatmakeshumanexistenceappeartooabsurdandcontradictorytobe
  thesceneofoneotherhopeoroneotherfear。Therewasnothing
  leftforOwenWarlandbuttositdownlikeamanthathadbeen
  stunned。
  Hewentthroughafitofillness。Afterhisrecovery,hissmalland
  slenderframeassumedanobtusergarnitureoffleshthanithadever
  beforeworn。Histhincheeksbecameround;hisdelicatelittlehand,
  sospirituallyfashionedtoachievefairytask-work,grewplumperthan
  thehandofathrivinginfant。Hisaspecthadachildishness,such
  asmighthaveinducedastrangertopathimonthehead-pausing,
  however,intheact,towonderwhatmannerofchildwashere。Itwas
  asifthespirithadgoneoutofhim,leavingthebodytoflourish
  inasortofvegetableexistence。NotthatOwenWarlandwasidiotic。
  Hecouldtalk,andnotirrationally。Somewhatofababbler,indeed,
  didpeoplebegintothinkhim;forhewasapttodiscourseat
  wearisomelength,ofmarvelsofmechanismthathehadreadaboutin
  books,butwhichhehadlearnedtoconsiderasabsolutelyfabulous。
  AmongthemheenumeratedtheManofBrass,constructedbyAlbertus
  Magnus,andtheBrazenHeadofFriarBacon;and,comingdownto
  latertimes,theautomataofalittlecoachandhorses,which,it
  waspretended,hadbeenmanufacturedfortheDauphinofFrance;
  togetherwithaninsectthatbuzzedabouttheearlikealivingfly,
  andyetwasbutacontrivanceofminutesteelsprings。Therewasa
  story,too,ofaduckthatwaddled,andquacked,andate;though,
  hadanyhonestcitizenpurchaseditfordinner,hewouldhavefound
  himselfcheatedwiththemeremechanicalapparitionofaduck。
  “Butalltheseaccounts。”saidOwenWarland,“Iamnowsatisfied,
  aremereimpositions。”
  Then,inamysteriousway,hewouldconfessthatheoncethought
  differently。Inhisidleanddreamydayshehadconsideredit
  possible,inacertainsense,tospiritualizemachinery;andto
  combinewiththenewspeciesoflifeandmotion,thusproduced,a
  beautythatshouldattaintotheideal,whichNaturehasproposedto
  herself,inallhercreatures,buthasnevertakenpainstorealize。
  Heseemed,however,toretainnoverydistinctperceptioneitherof
  theprocessofachievingthisobject,orofthedesignitself。
  “Ihavethrownitallasidenow。”hewouldsay。“Itwasadream,
  suchasyoungmenarealwaysmystifyingthemselveswith。NowthatI
  haveacquiredalittlecommonsense,itmakesmelaughtothinkofit。
  Poor,poor,andfallenOwenWarland!Thesewerethesymptomsthat
  hehadceasedtobeaninhabitantofthebetterspherethatlies
  unseenaroundus。Hehadlosthisfaithintheinvisible,andnow
  pridedhimself,assuchunfortunatesinvariablydo,inthewisdom
  whichrejectedmuchthatevenhiseyecouldsee,andtrusted
  confidentlyinnothingbutwhathishandcouldtouch。Thisisthe
  calamityofmenwhosespiritualpartdiesoutofthem,andleaves
  thegrosserunderstandingtoassimilatethemmoreandmoretothe
  thingsofwhichaloneitcantakecognizance。But,inOwenWarland,
  thespiritwasnotdead,norpastaway;itonlyslept。
  Howitawokeagain,isnotrecorded。Perhaps,thetorpidslumber
  wasbrokenbyaconvulsivepain。Perhaps,asinaformerinstance,the
  butterflycameandhoveredabouthishead,andreinspiredhim-as,
  indeed,thiscreatureofthesunshinehadalwaysamysterious
  missionfortheartist-reinspiredhimwiththeformerpurposeof
  hislife。Whetheritwerepainorhappinessthatthrilledthrough
  hisveins,hisfirstimpulsewastothankHeavenforrenderinghim
  againthebeingofthought,imagination,andkeenestsensibility,that
  hehadlongceasedtobe。
  “Nowformytask。”saidhe。“NeverdidIfeelsuchstrengthfor
  itasnow。”
  Yet,strongashefelthimself,hewasincitedtotoilthemore
  diligently,byananxietylestdeathshouldsurprisehiminthe
  midstofhislabors。Thisanxiety,perhaps,iscommontoallmenwho
  settheirheartsuponanythingsohigh,intheirownviewofit,
  thatlifebecomesofimportanceonlyasconditionaltoits
  accomplishment。Solongaswelovelifeforitself,weseldomdread
  thelosingit。Whenwedesirelifefortheattainmentofanobject,we
  recognizethefrailtyofitstexture。But,sidebysidewiththis
  senseofinsecurity,thereisavitalfaithinourinvulnerability
  totheshaftofdeath,whileengagedinanytaskthatseemsassigned
  byProvidenceasourproperthingtodo,andwhichtheworldwould
  havecausetomournfor,shouldweleaveitunaccomplished。Canthe
  philosopher,bigwiththeinspirationofanideathatistoreform
  mankind,believethatheistobebeckonedfromthissensible
  existence,attheveryinstantwhenheismusteringhisbreathto
  speakthewordoflight?Shouldheperishso,thewearyagesmay