Anniehadbutgiventheslightestpossibletouch,withthepointof
aneedle,tothesameminuteportionofcomplicatedmachinerywhich
hasbeenmorethanoncementioned,whentheartistseizedherbythe
wristwithaforcethatmadeherscreamaloud。Shewasaffrightedat
theconvulsionofintenserageandanguishthatwrithedacrosshis
features。Thenextinstanthelethisheadsinkuponhishands。
“Go,Annie。”murmuredhe,“Ihavedeceivedmyself,andmust
sufferforit。Iyearnedforsympathy-andthought-andfancied-and
dreamed-thatyoumightgiveitme。Butyoulackthetalisman,
Annie,thatshouldadmityouintomysecrets。Thattouchhasundone
thetoilofmonths,andthethoughtofalifetime!Itwasnotyour
fault,Annie-butyouhaveruinedme!”
PoorOwenWarland!Hehadindeederred,yetpardonably;forif
anyhumanspiritcouldhavesufficientlyreverencedtheprocessesso
sacredinhiseyes,itmusthavebeenawoman’s。EvenAnnie
Hovenden,possibly,mightnothavedisappointedhim,hadshebeen
enlightenedbythedeepintelligenceoflove。
Theartistspenttheensuingwinterinawaythatsatisfiedany
persons,whohadhithertoretainedahopefulopinionofhim,thathe
was,intruth,irrevocablydoomedtoinutilityasregardedthe
world,andtoanevildestinyonhisownpart。Thedeceaseofa
relativehadputhiminpossessionofasmallinheritance。Thus
freedfromthenecessityoftoil,andhavinglostthesteadfast
influenceofagreatpurpose-great,atleast,tohim-heabandoned
himselftohabitsfromwhich,itmighthavebeensupposed,themere
delicacyofhisorganizationwouldhaveavailedtosecurehim。But
whentheetherealportionofamanofgeniusisobscured,the
earthlypartassumesaninfluencethemoreuncontrollable,becausethe
characterisnowthrownoffthebalancetowhichProvidencehadso
nicelyadjustedit,andwhich,incoarsernatures,isadjustedbysome
othermethod。OwenWarlandmadeproofofwhatevershowofblissmaybe
foundinriot。Helookedattheworldthroughthegoldenmediumof
wine,andcontemplatedthevisionsthatbubbleupsogailyaround
thebrimoftheglass,andthatpeopletheairwithshapesofpleasant
madness,whichsosoongrowghostlyandforlorn。Evenwhenthisdismal
andinevitablechangehadtakenplace,theyoungmanmightstill
havecontinuedtoquaffthecupofenchantments,thoughitsvapor
didbutshroudlifeingloom,andfillthegloomwithspectresthat
mockedathim。Therewasacertainirksomenessofspirit,which,being
real,andthedeepestsensationofwhichtheartistwasnowconscious,
wasmoreintolerablethananyfantasticmiseriesandhorrorsthat
theabuseofwinecouldsummonup。Inthelattercase,hecould
remember,evenoutofthemidstofhistrouble,thatallwasbuta
delusion;intheformer,theheavyanguishwashisactuallife。
Fromthisperilousstate,hewasredeemedbyanincidentwhichmore
thanonepersonwitnessed,butofwhichtheshrewdestcouldnot
explainnorconjecturetheoperationonOwenWarland’smind。Itwas
verysimple。OnawarmafternoonofSpring,astheartistsatamong
hisriotouscompanions,withaglassofwinebeforehim,asplendid
butterflyflewinattheopenwindow,andflutteredabouthishead。
“Ah!”exclaimedOwen,whohaddrunkfreely,“areyoualiveagain,
childofthesun,andplaymateofthesummerbreeze,afteryourdismal
winter’snap!Thenitistimeformetobeatwork!”
Andleavinghisunemptiedglassuponthetable,hedeparted,and
wasneverknowntosipanotherdropofwine。
Andnow,again,heresumedhiswanderingsinthewoodsand
fields。Itmightbefanciedthatthebrightbutterfly,whichhad
comesospiritlikeintothewindow,asOwensatwiththerude
revellers,wasindeedaspirit,commissionedtorecallhimtothe
pure,ideallifethathadsoetherealisedhimamongmen。Itmightbe
fancied,thathewentforthtoseekthisspirit,initssunny
haunts;forstill,asinthesummer-timegoneby,hewasseentosteal
gentlyup,whereverabutterflyhadalighted,andlosehimselfin
contemplationofit。Whenittookflight,hiseyesfollowedthewinged
vision,asifitsairytrackwouldshowthepathtoheaven。Butwhat
couldbethepurposeoftheunseasonabletoil,whichwasagain
resumed,asthewatchmanknewbythelinesoflamp-lightthroughthe
crevicesofOwenWarland’sshutters?Thetownspeoplehadone
comprehensiveexplanationofallthesesingularities。OwenWarlandhad
gonemad!Howuniversallyefficacious-howsatisfactory,too,and
soothingtotheinjuredsensibilityofnarrownessanddullness-is
thiseasymethodofaccountingforwhateverliesbeyondtheworld’s
mostordinaryscope!FromSaintPaul’sdays,downtoourpoorlittle
ArtistoftheBeautiful,thesametalismanhadbeenappliedtothe
elucidationofallmysteriesinthewordsordeedsofmen,whospoke
oractedtoowiselyortoowell。InOwenWarland’scase,the
judgmentofhistownspeoplemayhavebeencorrect。Perhapshewasmad。
Thelackofsympathy-thatcontrastbetweenhimselfandhisneighbors,
whichtookawaytherestraintofexample-wasenoughtomakehimso。
Or,possibly,hehadcaughtjustsomuchofetherealradianceas
servedtobewilderhim,inanearthlysense,byitsintermixture
withthecommondaylight。
Oneevening,whentheartisthadreturnedfromacustomary
ramble,andhadjustthrownthelustreofhislamponthedelicate
pieceofwork,soofteninterrupted,butstilltakenupagain,asif
hisfatewereembodiedinitsmechanism,hewassurprisedbythe
entranceofoldPeterHovenden。Owennevermetthismanwithouta
shrinkingoftheheart。Ofalltheworld,hewasmostterrible,by
reasonofakeenunderstanding,whichsawsodistinctlywhatitdid
see,anddisbelievedsouncompromisinglyinwhatitcouldnotsee。
Onthisoccasion,theoldwatchmakerhadmerelyagraciouswordortwo
tosay。
“Owen,mylad。”saidhe,“wemustseeyouatmyhousetomorrow
night。”
Theartistbegantomuttersomeexcuse。
“Oh,butitmustbeso。”quothPeterHovenden,“forthesakeofthe
dayswhenyouwereoneofthehousehold。What,myboy,don’tyou
knowthatmydaughterAnnieisengagedtoRobertDanforth?Weare
makinganentertainment,inourhumbleway,tocelebratetheevent。”
“Ah!”saidOwen。
Thatlittlemonosyllablewasallheuttered;itstoneseemedcold
andunconcerned,toanearlikePeterHovenden’s;andyettherewasin
itthestifledoutcryofthepoorartist’sheart,whichhe
compressedwithinhimlikeamanholdingdownanevilspirit。One
slightout-break,however,imperceptibletotheoldwatchmaker,he
allowedhimself。Raisingtheinstrumentwithwhichhewasaboutto
beginhiswork,heletitfalluponthelittlesystemofmachinery
thathad,anew,costhimmonthsofthoughtandtoil。Itwas
shatteredbythestroke!
OwenWarland’sstorywouldhavebeennotolerablerepresentationof
thetroubledlifeofthosewhostrivetocreatetheBeautiful,if,
amidallotherthwartinginfluences,lovehadnotinterposedto
stealthecunningfromhishand。Outwardlyhehadbeennoardentor
enterprisinglover;thecareerofhispassionhadconfineditstumults
andvicissitudessoentirelywithintheartist’simagination,that
Annieherselfhadscarcelymorethanawoman’sintuitiveperceptionof
it。But,inOwen’sview,itcoveredthewholefieldofhislife。
Forgetfulofthetimewhenshehadshownherselfincapableofanydeep
response,hehadpersistedinconnectingallhisdreamsof
artisticalsuccesswithAnnie’simage;shewasthevisibleshapein
whichthespiritualpowerthatheworshipped,andonwhosealtarhe
hopedtolayanotunworthyoffering,wasmademanifesttohim。Of
coursehehaddeceivedhimself;therewerenosuchattributesinAnnie
Hovendenashisimaginationhadendowedherwith。She,intheaspect
whichsheworetohisinwardvision,wasasmuchacreationofhis
own,asthemysteriouspieceofmechanismwouldbewereitever
realized。Hadhebecomeconvincedofhismistakethroughthemediumof
successfullove;hadhewonAnnietohisbosom,andtherebeheldher
fadefromangelintoordinarywoman,thedisappointmentmighthave
drivenhimback,withconcentratedenergy,uponhissoleremaining
object。Ontheotherhand,hadhefoundAnniewhathefancied,hislot
wouldhavebeensorichinbeauty,thatoutofitsmereredundancy
hemighthavewroughttheBeautifulintomanyaworthiertypethan
hehadtoiledfor。Buttheguiseinwhichhissorrowcametohim,
thesensethattheangelofhislifehadbeensnatchedawayand
giventoarudemanofearthandiron,whocouldneitherneednor
appreciateherministrations;thiswastheveryperversityoffate,
thatmakeshumanexistenceappeartooabsurdandcontradictorytobe
thesceneofoneotherhopeoroneotherfear。Therewasnothing
leftforOwenWarlandbuttositdownlikeamanthathadbeen
stunned。
Hewentthroughafitofillness。Afterhisrecovery,hissmalland
slenderframeassumedanobtusergarnitureoffleshthanithadever
beforeworn。Histhincheeksbecameround;hisdelicatelittlehand,
sospirituallyfashionedtoachievefairytask-work,grewplumperthan
thehandofathrivinginfant。Hisaspecthadachildishness,such
asmighthaveinducedastrangertopathimonthehead-pausing,
however,intheact,towonderwhatmannerofchildwashere。Itwas
asifthespirithadgoneoutofhim,leavingthebodytoflourish
inasortofvegetableexistence。NotthatOwenWarlandwasidiotic。
Hecouldtalk,andnotirrationally。Somewhatofababbler,indeed,
didpeoplebegintothinkhim;forhewasapttodiscourseat
wearisomelength,ofmarvelsofmechanismthathehadreadaboutin
books,butwhichhehadlearnedtoconsiderasabsolutelyfabulous。
AmongthemheenumeratedtheManofBrass,constructedbyAlbertus
Magnus,andtheBrazenHeadofFriarBacon;and,comingdownto
latertimes,theautomataofalittlecoachandhorses,which,it
waspretended,hadbeenmanufacturedfortheDauphinofFrance;
togetherwithaninsectthatbuzzedabouttheearlikealivingfly,
andyetwasbutacontrivanceofminutesteelsprings。Therewasa
story,too,ofaduckthatwaddled,andquacked,andate;though,
hadanyhonestcitizenpurchaseditfordinner,hewouldhavefound
himselfcheatedwiththemeremechanicalapparitionofaduck。
“Butalltheseaccounts。”saidOwenWarland,“Iamnowsatisfied,
aremereimpositions。”
Then,inamysteriousway,hewouldconfessthatheoncethought
differently。Inhisidleanddreamydayshehadconsideredit
possible,inacertainsense,tospiritualizemachinery;andto
combinewiththenewspeciesoflifeandmotion,thusproduced,a
beautythatshouldattaintotheideal,whichNaturehasproposedto
herself,inallhercreatures,buthasnevertakenpainstorealize。
Heseemed,however,toretainnoverydistinctperceptioneitherof
theprocessofachievingthisobject,orofthedesignitself。
“Ihavethrownitallasidenow。”hewouldsay。“Itwasadream,
suchasyoungmenarealwaysmystifyingthemselveswith。NowthatI
haveacquiredalittlecommonsense,itmakesmelaughtothinkofit。
Poor,poor,andfallenOwenWarland!Thesewerethesymptomsthat
hehadceasedtobeaninhabitantofthebetterspherethatlies
unseenaroundus。Hehadlosthisfaithintheinvisible,andnow
pridedhimself,assuchunfortunatesinvariablydo,inthewisdom
whichrejectedmuchthatevenhiseyecouldsee,andtrusted
confidentlyinnothingbutwhathishandcouldtouch。Thisisthe
calamityofmenwhosespiritualpartdiesoutofthem,andleaves
thegrosserunderstandingtoassimilatethemmoreandmoretothe
thingsofwhichaloneitcantakecognizance。But,inOwenWarland,
thespiritwasnotdead,norpastaway;itonlyslept。
Howitawokeagain,isnotrecorded。Perhaps,thetorpidslumber
wasbrokenbyaconvulsivepain。Perhaps,asinaformerinstance,the
butterflycameandhoveredabouthishead,andreinspiredhim-as,
indeed,thiscreatureofthesunshinehadalwaysamysterious
missionfortheartist-reinspiredhimwiththeformerpurposeof
hislife。Whetheritwerepainorhappinessthatthrilledthrough
hisveins,hisfirstimpulsewastothankHeavenforrenderinghim
againthebeingofthought,imagination,andkeenestsensibility,that
hehadlongceasedtobe。
“Nowformytask。”saidhe。“NeverdidIfeelsuchstrengthfor
itasnow。”
Yet,strongashefelthimself,hewasincitedtotoilthemore
diligently,byananxietylestdeathshouldsurprisehiminthe
midstofhislabors。Thisanxiety,perhaps,iscommontoallmenwho
settheirheartsuponanythingsohigh,intheirownviewofit,
thatlifebecomesofimportanceonlyasconditionaltoits
accomplishment。Solongaswelovelifeforitself,weseldomdread
thelosingit。Whenwedesirelifefortheattainmentofanobject,we
recognizethefrailtyofitstexture。But,sidebysidewiththis
senseofinsecurity,thereisavitalfaithinourinvulnerability
totheshaftofdeath,whileengagedinanytaskthatseemsassigned
byProvidenceasourproperthingtodo,andwhichtheworldwould
havecausetomournfor,shouldweleaveitunaccomplished。Canthe
philosopher,bigwiththeinspirationofanideathatistoreform
mankind,believethatheistobebeckonedfromthissensible
existence,attheveryinstantwhenheismusteringhisbreathto
speakthewordoflight?Shouldheperishso,thewearyagesmay
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