MyElizawascharmingbeyonddescription,coquettishwithoutaffectation,andevidentlymoredesiroustoengagemyattentionthanthatofalltheroombesides。Herdelightinhavingmenearher,seatedorstandingbyherside,whisperinginherear,orpressingherhandinthedance,wasplainlylegibleinherglowingfaceandheavingbosom,howeverbeliedbysaucywordsandgestures。ButIhadbetterholdmytongue:ifIboastofthesethingsnow,Ishallhavetoblushhereafter。
Toproceedthen,withthevariousindividualsofourparty;Rosewassimpleandnaturalasusual,andfullofmirthandvivacity。
Ferguswasimpertinentandabsurd;buthisimpertinenceandfollyservedtomakeotherslaugh,iftheydidnotraisehimselfintheirestimation。
AndfinallyforIomitmyself,MrLawrencewasgentlemanlyandinoffensivetoall,andpolitetothevicarandtheladies,especiallyhishostessandherdaughter,andMissWilson——misguidedman;hehadnotthetastetopreferElizaMillward。MrLawrenceandIwereontolerablyintimateterms。Essentiallyofreservedhabits,andbutseldomquittingthesecludedplaceofhisbirth,wherehehadlivedinsolitarystatesincethedeathofhisfather,hehadneithertheopportunitynortheinclinationforformingmanyacquaintances;and,ofallhehadeverknown,Ijudgingbytheresultswasthecompanionmostagreeabletohistaste。Ilikedthemanwellenough,buthewastoocold,andshy,andself-contained,toobtainmycordialsympathies。Aspiritofcandourandfrankness,whenwhollyunaccompaniedwithcoarseness,headmiredinothers,buthecouldnotacquireithimself。Hisexcessivereserveuponallhisownconcernswas,indeed,provokingandchillyenough;butIforgaveit,fromaconvictionthatitoriginated,lessinprideandwantofconfidenceinhisfriends,thaninacertainmorbidfeelingofdelicacy,andapeculiardiffidence,thathewassensibleof,butwantedenergytoovercome。
Hisheartwaslikeasensitiveplant,thatopensforamomentinthesunshine,butcurlsupandshrinksintoitselfattheslightesttouchofthefinger,orthelightestbreathofwind。And,uponthewhole,ourintimacywasratheramutualpredilectionthanadeepandsolidfriendship,suchashassincearisenbetweenmyselfandyou,Halford,whom,inspiteofyouroccasionalcrustiness,Icanlikentonothingsowellasanoldcoat,unimpeachableintexture,buteasyandloose——thathasconformeditselftotheshapeofthewearer,andwhichhemayuseashepleases,withoutbeingbotheredwiththefearofspoilingit;——whereasMrLawrencewaslikeanewgarment,allveryneatandtrimtolookat,butsotightintheelbowsthatyouwouldfeartosplittheseamsbytheunrestrictedmotionofyourarms,andsosmoothandfineinsurfacethatyouscrupletoexposeittoasingledropofrain。
Soonafterthearrivaloftheguests,mymothermentionedMrsGraham,regrettedshewasnottheretomeetthem,andexplainedtotheMillwardsandWilsonsthereasonsshehadgivenforneglectingtoreturntheircalls,hopingtheywouldexcuseher,asshewassureshedidnotmeantobeuncivil,andwouldbegladtoseethematanytime;——
`Butsheisaverysingularlady,MrLawrence,’addedshe;`wedon’tknowwhattomakeofher——butIdaresayyoucantellussomethingabouther;forsheisyourtenant,youknow,——andshesaidsheknewyoualittle。’
AlleyeswereturnedtoMrLawrence。Ithoughthelookedunnecessarilyconfusedatbeingsoappealedto。
`I,MrsMarkham!’saidhe,`youaremistaken——Idon’t——thatis——I
haveseenhercertainly;butIamthelastpersonyoushouldapplytoforinformationrespectingMrsGraham。’
HethenimmediatelyturnedtoRose,andaskedhertofavourthecompanywithasong,oratuneonthepiano。
`No,’saidshe;`youmustaskMissWilson:sheoutshinesusallinsinging,andmusictoo。’
MissWilsondemurred。
`She’llsingreadilyenough,’saidFergus,`ifyou’llundertaketostandbyher,MrLawrence,andturnovertheleavesforher。’
`Ishallbemosthappytodoso。MissWilson,willyouallowme?’
Shebridledherlongneckandsmiled,andsufferedhimtoleadhertotheinstrument,wheresheplayedandsang,inherverybeststyle,onepieceafteranother;whilehestoodpatientlyby,leaningonehandonthebackofherchair,andturningovertheleavesofherbookwiththeother。Perhapshewasasmuchcharmedwithherperformanceasshewas。
Itwasallveryfineinitsway;butIcannotsaythatitmovedmeverydeeply。Therewasplentyofskillandexecution,butpreciouslittlefeeling。
ButwehadnotdonewithMrsGrahamyet。
`Idon’ttakewine,MrsMarkham,’saidMrMillward,upontheintroductionofthatbeverage;`I’lltakealittleofyourhome-brewedale。Ialwayspreferyourhome-brewedtoanythingelse。’
Flatteredatthiscompliment,mymotherrangthebell,andachinajugofourbestalewaspresentlybrought,andsetbeforetheworthygentlemanwhosowellknewhowtoappreciateitsexcellencies。
`NowTHISisthething!’criedhe,pouringoutaglassofthesameinalongstream,skilfullydirectedfromthejugtothetumbler,soastoproducemuchfoamwithoutspillingadrop;and,havingsurveyeditforamomentoppositethecandle,hetookadeepdraught,andthensmackedhislips,drewalongbreath,andrefilledhisglass,mymotherlookingonwiththegreatestsatisfaction。
`There’snothinglikethis,MrsMarkham!’saidhe;`Ialwaysmaintainthatthere’snothingtocomparewithyourhome-brewedale。’
`I’msureI’mgladyoulikeit,sir。Ialwayslookafterthebrewingmyself,aswellasthecheeseandthebutter——Iliketohavethingswelldone,whilewe’reaboutit。’
`Quiteright,MrsMarkham!’
`Butthen,MrMillward,youdon’tthinkitwrongtotakealittlewinenowandthen——oralittlespiritseither?’saidmymother,asshehandedasmoKingtumblerofginandwatertoMrsWilson,whoaffirmedthatwinesatheavyonherstomach,andwhosesonRobertwasatthatmomenthelpinghimselftoaprettystiffglassofthesame。
`Bynomeans!’repliedtheoracle,withaJove-likenod;`thesethingsareallblessingsandmercies,ifweonlyknewhowtomakeuseofthem。’
`ButMrsGrahamdoesn’tthinkso。Youshalljusthearnow,whatshetoldustheotherday——ItoldherI’dtellyou。’
Andmymotherfavouredthecompanywithaparticularaccountofthatlady’smistakenideasandconductregardingthematterinhand,concludingwith,`Nowdon’tyouthinkitiswrong?’
`Wrong!’repeatedthevicar,withmorethancommonsolemnity——`criminal,Ishouldsay——criminal!——Notonlyisitmakingafooloftheboy,butitisdespisingthegiftsofprovidence,andteachinghimtotramplethemunderhisfeet。’
Hethenenteredmorefullyintothequestion,andexplainedatlargethefollyandimpietyofsuchaproceeding。Mymotherheardhimwithprofoundestreverence;andevenMrsWilsonvouchsafedtoresthertongueforamoment,andlisteninsilence,whileshecomplacentlysippedherginandwater。MrLawrencesatwithhiselbowonthetable,carelesslyplayingwithhishalf-emptywine-glass,andcovertlysmilingtohimself。
`Butdon’tyouthink,MrMillward,’suggestedhe,whenatlengththatgentlemanpausedinhisdiscourse,`thatwhenachildmaybenaturallypronetointemperance——bythefaultofitsparentsorancestors,forinstance——someprecautionsareadvisable?’NowitwasgenerallybelievedthatMrLawrence’sfatherhadshortenedhisdaysbyintemperance。
`Someprecautions,itmaybe;buttemperance,sir,isonething,andabstinenceanother。’
`ButIhaveheardthat,withsomepersons,temperance——thatismoderation——isalmostimpossible;andifabstinencebeanevilwhichsomehavedoubted,noonewilldenythatexcessisagreater。Someparentshaveentirelyprohibitedtheirchildrenfromtastingintoxicatingliquors;
butaparent’sauthoritycannotlistforever:childrenarenaturallypronetohankerafterforbiddenthings;andachild,insuchacase,wouldbelikelytohaveastrongcuriositytotaste,andtrytheeffectofwhathasbeensolaudedandenjoyedbyothers,sostrictlyforbiddentohimself——whichcuriositywouldgenerallybegratifiedonthefirstconvenientopportunity;
andtherestraintoncebroken,seriousconsequencesmightensue。Idon’tpretendtobeajudgeofsuchmatters,butitseemstome,thatthisplanofMrsGraham’s,asyoudescribeit,MrsMarkham,extraordinaryasitmaybe,isnotwithoutitsadvantages;forhereyousee,thechildisdeliveredatoncefromtemptation;hehasnosecretcuriosity,nohankeringdesire;
heisaswellacquaintedwiththetemptingliquorsasheeverwishestobe;andisthoroughlydisgustedwiththemwithouthavingsufferedfromtheireffects。’
`Andisthatright,sir?’HaveInotproventoyouhowwrongitis——howcontrarytoScriptureandtoreasontoteachachildtolookwithcontemptanddisgustupontheblessingsofprovidence,insteadoftousethemaright?’
`Youmayconsiderlaudanumablessingofprovidence,sir,’repliedMrLawrence,smiling;`andyet,youwillallowthatmostofushadbetterabstainfromit,eveninmoderation;but,’addedhe,`Iwouldnotdesireyoutofollowoutmysimiletooclosely——inwitnesswhereofIfinishmyglass。’
`AndtakeanotherIhope,MrLawrence,’saidmymother,pushingthebottletowardshim。
Hepolitelydeclined,andpushinghischairalittlewayfromthetable,leantbacktowardsme——Iwasseatedatriflebehind,onthesofabesideElizaMillward——andcarelesslyaskedmeifIknewMrsGraham。
`Ihavemetheronceortwice,’Ireplied。`Whatdoyouthinkofher?’
`IcannotsaythatIlikehermuch。Sheishandsome——orratherIshouldsaydistinguishedandinteresting——inherappearance,butbynomeansamiable——awomanliabletotakestrongprejudices,Ishouldfancy,andsticktothemthroughthickandthin,twistingeverythingintoconformitywithherownpreconceivedopinions——toohard,toosharp,toobitterformytaste。’
Hemadenoreply,butlookeddownandbithislip,andshortlyafterroseandsauntereduptoMissWilson,asmuchrepelledbyme,Ifancy,asattractedbyher。Iscarcelynoticeditatthetime,butafterwards,Iwasledtorecallthisandothertriflingfacts,ofasimilarnature,tomyremembrance,when——butImustnotanticipate。
Wewounduptheeveningwithdancing——ourworthypastorthinkingitnoscandaltobepresentontheoccasion,thoughoneofthevillagemusicianswasengagedtodirectourevolutions’withhisviolin。ButMaryMillwardobstinatelyrefusedtojoinus;andsodidRichardWilson,thoughmymotherearnestlyentreatedhimtodoso,andevenofferedtobehispartner。
Wemanagedverywellwithoutthem,however。Withasinglesetofquadrilles,andseveralcountrydances,wecarrieditontoaprettylatehour;andatlength,havingcalleduponourmusiciantostrikeupawaltz,IwasjustabouttowhirlElizaroundinthatdelightfuldance,accompaniedbyLawrenceandJaneWilson,andFergusandRose,whenMrMillwardinterposedwith,——
`No,no,Idon’tallowthat!Come,it’stimetobegoingnow。’
`Oh,no,papal’pleadedEliza。
`Hightime,mygirl——hightime!——Moderationinallthings,remember!
That’stheplan——“letyourmoderationbeknownuntoallmen“!’5
Butinrevenge,IfollowedElizaintothedimly-lightedpassage,whereunderpretenceofhelpingheronwithhershawl,IfearImustpleadguiltytosnatchingakissbehindherfather’sback,whilehewasenvelopinghisthroatandchininthefoldsofamightycomforter。Butalas!inturninground,therewasmymotherclosebesideme。Theconsequencewas,thatnosoonerweretheguestsdeparted,thanIwasdoomedtoaveryseriousremonstrance,whichunpleasantlycheckedthegallopingcourseofmyspirits,andmadeadisagreeableclosetotheevening。
`MydearGilbert,’saidshe,`Iwishyouwouldn’tdoso!YouknowhowdeeplyIhaveyouradvantageatheart,howIloveyouandprizeyouaboveeverythingelseintheworld,andhowmuchIlongtoseeyouwellsettledinlife——andhowbitterlyitwouldgrievemetoseeyoumarriedtothatgirl——oranyotherintheneighbourhood。WhatyouseeinherI
don’tknow。Itisn’tonlythewantofmoneythatIthinkabout——nothingofthekind——butthere’sneitherbeauty,norcleverness,norgoodness,noranythingelsethat’sdesirable。IfyouknewyourownvalueasIdo,youwouldn’tdreamofit。Dowaitawhileandsee!ifyoubindyourselftoher,you’llrepentitallyourlifetimewhenyoulookroundyouandseehowmanybetterthereare。Takemywordforit,youwill。’