首页 >出版文学> TheTenant of Wildfell Hall>第21章
  ButIwasnotleftlongalone,forMrWilmot,ofallmentheleastwelcome,tookadvantageofmyisolatedpositiontocomeandplantbesideme。IhadflatteredmyselfthatIhadsoeffectuallyrepulsedhisadvancesonallformeroccasions,thatIhadnothingmoretoapprehendfromhisunfortunatepredilection;butitseemsIwasmistaken:sogreatwashisconfidence,eitherinhiswealthorhisremainingpowersofattraction,andsofirmhisconvictionoffeminineweakness,thathethoughthimselfwarrantedtoreturntothesiege,whichhedidwithrenovatedardour,enkindledbythequantityofwinehehaddrunk——acircumstancethatrenderedhiminfinitelythemoredisgusting;butgreatlyasIabhorredhimatthatmoment,Ididnotliketotreathimwithrudeness,asIwasnowhisguestandhadjustbeenenjoyinghishospitality;andIwasnohandatapolitebutdeterminedrejection,norwouldithavegreatlyavailedmeifIhad;forhewastoocoarse-mindedtotakeanyrepulsethatwasnotasplainandpositiveashisowneffrontery。Theconsequencewas,thathewaxedmorefulsomelytender,andmorerepulsivelywarm,andIwasdriventotheveryvergeofdesperationandabouttosay,Iknownotwhat,whenIfeltmyhand,thathungoverthearmofthesofa,suddenlytakenbyanotherandgentlybutferventlypressed。Instinctively,Iguessedwhoitwas,andonlookingup,waslesssurprisedthandelighted,toseeMrHuntingdonsmilinguponme。Itwasliketurningfromsomepurgatorialfiendtoanangeloflight,cometoannouncethattheseasonoftormentwaspast。
  `Helen,’saidhehefrequentlycalledmeHelen,andIneverresentedthefreedom,`Iwantyoutolookatthispicture:MrWilmotwillexcuseyouamoment,I’msure。’
  Irosewithalacrity。Hedrewmyarmwithinhis,andledmeacrosstheroomtoasplendidpaintingofVandyke’sthatIhadnoticedbefore,butnotsufficientlyexamined。Afteramomentofsilentcontemplation,Iwasbeginningtocommentonitsbeautiesandpeculiarities,when,playfullypressingthehandhestillretainedwithinhisarm,heinterruptedmewith——
  `Nevermindthepicture,itwasnotforthatIbroughtyouhere;
  itwastogetyouawayfromthatscoundrellyoldprofligateyonder,whoislookingasifhewouldliketochallengemefortheaffront。’
  `Iamverymuchobligedtoyou,’saidI。`Thisistwiceyouhavedeliveredmefromsuchunpleasantcompanionship。’
  `Don’tbetoothankful,’heanswered:`Itisnotallkindnesstoyou;itispartlyfromafeelingofspitetoyourtormentorsthatmakesmedelightedtodotheoldfellowsabadturn,thoughIdon’tthinkIhaveanygreatreasontodreadthemasrivals——HaveI,Helen?’
  `YouknowIdetestthemboth。’
  `Andme?’
  `Ihavenoreasontodetestyou。’
  `Butwhatareyoursentimentstowardsme?——Helen——Speak!——Howdoyouregardme?’
  Andagainhepressedmyhand;butIfearedtherewasmoreofconsciouspowerthantendernessinhisdemeanour,andIfelthehadnorighttoextortaconfessionofattachmentfrommewhenhehadmadenocorrespondentavowalhimself,andknewnotwhattoanswer。AtlastIsaid——
  `Howdoyouregardme?’
  `Sweetangel,Iadoreyou!I——’
  `Helen;Iwantyouamoment,’saidthedistinct,lowvoiceofmyaunt,closebesideus。AndIlefthim,mutteringmaledictionsagainsthisevilangel。
  `Well,aunt,whatisit?batdoyouwant?’saidI,followinghertotheembrasureofthewindow。
  `Iwantyoutojointhecompany,whenyouarefittobeseen,returnedshe,severelyregardingme;`butpleasetostayherealittle,tillthatshockingcolourissomewhatabated,andyoureyeshaverecoveredsomethingoftheirnaturalexpression。Ishouldbeashamedforanyonetoseeyouinyourpresentstate。’
  Ofcourse,sucharemarkhadnoeffectinreducingthe`shockingcolour’;onthecontrary,Ifeltmyfaceglowwithredoubledfires,kindledbyacomplicationofemotions,ofwhichindignant,swellingangerwasthechief。Iofferednoreply,however,butpushedasidethecurtainandlookedintothenight——orrather,intothelamp-litsquare。
  `WasMrHuntingdonproposingtoyou,Helen?’enquiredmytoowatchfulrelative。
  `No。’
  `Whatwashesayingthen?Iheardsomethingverylikeit。’
  `Idon’tknowwhathewouldhavesaid,ifyouhadn’tinterruptedhim。’
  `Andwouldyouhaveacceptedhim,Helen,ifhehadproposed?’
  `Ofcoursenot——withoutconsultinguncleandyou。’
  `Oh!I’mglad,mydear,youhavesomuchprudenceleft。Wellnow,’
  sheadded,afteramoment’spause,`youhavemadeyourselfconspicuousenoughforoneevening。Theladiesaredirectingenquiringglancestowardsusatthismoment,Isee。Ishalljointhem。Doyoucometoo,whenyouaresufficientlycomposedtoappearasusual。’
  `Iamsonow。’
  `Speakgentlythen;anddon’tlooksomalicious,’saidmycalm,butprovokingaunt。`Weshallreturnhomeshortly,andthen,’sheadded,withsolemnsignificance,`Ihavemuchtosaytoyou。’
  SoIwenthomepreparedforaformidablelecture。Littlewassaidbyeitherpartyinthecarriageduringourshorttransithomewards;butwhenIhadenteredmyroomandthrownmyselfintoaneasychairtoreflectontheeventsoftheday,myauntfollowedmehither,andhavingdismissedRachel,whowascarefullystowingawaymyornaments,closedthedoor:andplacingachairbesideme,orratheratrightangleswithmine,satdown。
  WithduedeferenceIofferedhermymorecommodiousseat。Shedeclinedit,andthusopenedtheconference:
  `Doyouremember,Helen,ourconversationthenightbutonebeforeweleftStaningley?’
  `Yes,aunt。’
  `Anddoyourememberhowlwarnedyouagainstlettingyourheartbestolenfromyoubythoseunworthyofitspossession;andfixingyouraffectionswhereapprobationdidnotgobefore,andwherereasonandjudgmentwithheldtheirsanction?’
  `Yes,butmyreason——’
  `Pardonme——anddoyourememberassuringmethattherewasnooccasionforuneasinessonyouraccount;foryoushouldneverbetemptedtomarryamanwhowasdeficientinsenseorprinciple,howeverhandsomeorcharminginotherrespectshemightbe,foryoucouldnotlovehim,youshouldhate——despise——pity——anythingbutlovehim——werenotthoseyourwords?’
  `Yes,but——’
  `Anddidyounotsaythatyouraffectionmustbefoundedonapprobation;andthatunlessyoucouldapproveandhonourandrespect,youcouldnotlove?’
  `Yes,butIdoapproveandhonourandrespect——’
  `Howso,mydear?isMrHuntingdonagoodman?’
  `Heisamuchbettermanthanyouthinkhim。’
  `Thatisnothingtothepurpose。Isheagoodman?’
  `Yes——insomerespects。Hehasagooddisposition。’
  `Isheamanofprinciple?’
  `Perhapsnot,exactly;butitisonlyforwantofthought:ifhehadsomeonetoadvisehim,andremindhimofwhatisright——’
  `Hewouldsoonlearn,youthink——andyouyourselfwouldwillinglyundertaketobehisteacher?But,mydear,heis,Ibelieve,fulltenyearsolderthanyou——howisitthatyouaresobeforehandinmoralacquirements?’
  `Thankstoyou,aunt,Ihavebeenwellbroughtup,andhadgoodexamplesalwaysbeforeme,whichhe,mostlikely,hasnot;——andbesides,heisofasanguinetemperament,andagaysthoughtlesstemper,andI
  amnaturallyinclinedtoreflection。’
  `Well,nowyouhavemadehimouttobedeficientinbothsenseandprinciple,byyourownconfession——’
  `Thenmysenseandmyprincipleareathisservice!’
  `Thatsoundspresumptuous,Helen!Doyouthinkyouhaveenoughforboth;anddoyouimagineyourmerry,thoughtlessprofligatewouldallowhimselftobeguidedbyayoung,girllikeyou?’
  `No;Ishouldnotwishtoguidehim;butIthinkImighthaveinfluencesufficienttosavehimfromsomeerrors,andIshouldthinkmylifewellspentintheefforttopreservesonobleanaturefromdestruction。
  Healwayslistensattentivelynow,whenIspeakseriouslytohimandI
  oftenventuretoreprovehisrandomwayoftalking,andsometimeshesaysthatifhehadmealwaysbyhissideheshouldneverdoorsayawickedthing,andthatalittledailytalkwithmewouldmakehimquiteasaint。
  Itmaybepartlyjestandpartlyflattery,butstill——’
  `Butstillyouthinkitmaybetruth?’
  `IfIdothinkthereisanymixtureoftruthinit,itisnotfromconfidenceinmyownpowers,butinhisnaturalgoodness——Andyouhavenorighttocallhimaprofligate,aunt;heisnothingofthekind。’
  `Whotoldyouso,mydear?batwasthatstoryabouthisintriguewithamarriedlady——Ladywhowasit——MissWilmotherselfwastellingyoutheotherday?’
  `Itwasfalse——false!’Icried。`Idon’tbelieveawordofit。’
  `Youthink,then,thatheisavirtuous,well-conductedyoungman?’
  `Iknownothingpositiverespectinghischaracter。IonlyknowthatIhaveheardnothingdefinitiveagainstit——nothingthatcouldbeproved,atleast;andtillpeoplecanprovetheirslanderousaccusations,Iwillnotbelievethem。AndIknowthis,thatifhehascommittederrors,theyareonlysuchasarecommontoyouth,andsuchasnobodythinksanythingabout;forIseethateverybodylikeshim,andallthemammassmileuponhim,andtheedaughters——andMissWilmotherself——areonlytoogladtoattracthisattention。’
  `Helen,theworldmaylookuponsuchoffencesasvenial;
  afewunprincipledmothersmaybeanxioustocatchayoungmanoffortunewithoutreferencetohischaracter;andthoughtlessgirlsmaybegladtowinthesmilesofsohandsomeagentlemanwithoutseekingtopenetratebeyondthesurface;butyou,Itrusted,werebetterinformedthantoseewiththeireyes,andjudgewiththeirpervertedjudgment。Ididnotthinkyouwouldcallthesevenialerrors!’
  `NordoI,aunt;butifIhatethesinsIlovethesinner,andwoulddomuchforIllssalvation,evensupposingyoursuspicionstobemainlytrue——whichIdonotandwillnotbelieve。’
  `Well,mydear,askyourunclewhatsortofcompanyhekeepsandifheisnotbandedwithasetofloose,profligateyoungmen,whomhecallshisfriends——hisjollycompanions,andwhosechiefdelightistowallowinvice,andviewitheachotherwhocanrunfastestandfarthestdowntheheadlongroadtotheplacepreparedforthedevilandhisangels。’
  `ThenIwillsavehimfromthem。’
  `Oh,Helen,Helen!youlittleknowthemiseryofunitingyourfortunestosuchaman!’
  `Ihavesuchconfidenceinhim,aunt,notwithstandingallyousay,thatIwouldwillinglyriskmyhappinessforthechanceofsecurInghis。Iwillleavebettermentothosewhoonlyconsidertheirownadvantage。
  Ifhehasdoneamiss,Ishallconsidermylifewellspentinsavinghimfromtheconsequencesofhisearlyerrors,andstrivingtorecallhimtothepathofvirtue——Godgrantmesuccess!’
  HeretheConversationended,foratthisjuncture,myuncle’svoicewasheardfromhischamber,loudlycallinguponmyaunttocometobed。Hewasinabadhumourthatnight;forhisgoutwasworse。Ithadbeengraduallyincreasinguponhimeversincewecametotown;andmyaunttookadvantageofthecircumstance,nextmorning,topersuadehimtoreturntothecountryimmediately,withoutwaitingforthecloseoftheseason。
  Hisphysiciansupportedandenforcedherarguments;andcontrarytoherusualhabits,shesohurriedthepreparationsforremovalasmuchformysakeasmyuncle’s,Ithink,thatinaveryfewdayswedeparted;andIsawnomoreofMrHuntingdon。MyauntflattersherselfIshallsoonforgethim——perhapssheIhaveforgottenhimalready,forInevermentionhisname;andshemaycontinuetothinkso,tillwemeetagain,——ifeverthatshouldbe。Iwonderifitwill。
  TheTenantofWildfellHall:Chapter18CHAPTER18TheMiniatureAugust25th——Iamnowquitesettleddowntomyusualroutineofsteadyoccupationsandquietamusements——tolerablycontentedandcheerful,butstilllookingforwardtospringwiththehopeofreturningtotown,notforitsgaietiesanddissipations,butforthechanceofmeetingMrHuntingdononceagain;forstillheisalwaysinmythoughtsandinmydreams。Inallmyemployments,whateverIdo,orsee,orhear,hasanultimatereferencetohim;whateverskillorknowledgeIacquireissomedaytobeturnedtohisadvantageoramusement;whatevernewbeautiesinnatureorartI