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第27章

  IlovetorecallthegladmonotonyofaPacificvoyage,whenthetradesarenotstinted,andtheship,dayafterday,goesfree。
  Themountainsceneryoftrade-windclouds,watchedandinmycasepaintedundereveryvicissitudeoflight——blottingstars,witheringinthemoon’sglory,barringthescarleteve,lyingacrossthedawncollapsedintotheunfeaturedmorningbank,oratnoonraisingtheirsnowysummitsbetweentheblueroofofheavenandthebluefloorofsea;thesmall,busy,anddeliberateworldoftheschooner,withitsunfamiliarscenes,thespearingofdolphinfromthebowspritend,theholywaronsharks,thecookmakingbreadonthemainhatch;reefingdownbeforeaviolentsquall,withthemenhangingoutonthefoot-ropes;thesquallitself,thecatchattheheart,theopenedsluicesofthesky;andtherelief,therenewedlovelinessoflife,whenallisover,thesunforthagain,andourout-foughtenemyonlyablotupontheleewardsea。Ilovetorecall,andwouldthatIcouldreproducethatlife,theunforgettable,theunrememberable。Thememory,whichshowssowiseabackwardnessinregisteringpain,isbesidesanimperfectrecorderofextendedpleasures;
  andalong-continuedwell-beingescapesasitwere,byitsmassourpettymethodsofcommemoration。Onapartofourlife’smapthereliesaroseate,undecipherablehaze,andthatisall。
  Ofonething,ifIamatalltotrustmyownannals,Iwasdelightedlyconscious。Dayafterday,inthesun-gildedcabin,thewhiskey-dealer’sthermometerstoodat84。Dayafterday,theairhadthesameindescribablelivelinessandsweetness,softandnimble,andcoolasthecheekofhealth。Dayafterdaythesunflamed;nightafternightthemoonbeaconed,orthestarsparadedtheirlustrousregiment。Iwasawareofaspiritualchange,or,perhaps,ratheramolecularreconstitution。
  Mybonesweresweetertome。Ihadcomehometomyownclimate,andlookedbackwithpityonthosedampandwintryzones,miscalledthetemperate。
  “Twoyearsofthis,andcomfortablequarterstolivein,kindofshakethegritoutofaman。”thecaptainremarked;“can’tmakeouttobehappyanywhereelse。Atownieofminewaslostdownthisway,inacoalshipthattookfireatsea。HestruckthebeachsomewhereintheNavigators;andhewrotetomethatwhenhelefttheplace,itwouldbefeetfirst。He’swelloff,too,andhisfatherownssomecoastingcraftDownEast;butBillyprefersthebeach,andhotrollsoffthebread-fruittrees。”
  AvoicetoldmeIwasonthesametrackasBilly。Butwhenwasthis?OuroutwardtrackintheNorahCreinalaywelltothenorthward;andperhapsitisbuttheimpressionofafewpetdayswhichIhaveunconsciouslyspreadlonger,orperhapsthefeelinggrewuponmelater,intheruntoHonolulu。OnethingI
  amsure:itwasbeforeIhadeverseenanislandworthyofthenamethatImustdatemyloyaltytotheSouthSeas。Theblankseaitselfgrewdesirableundersuchskies;andwhereverthetrade-windblows,Iknownobettercountrythanaschooner’sdeck。
  Butforthetugginganxietyastothejourney’send,thejourneyitselfmustthushavecountedforthebestofholidays。Myphysicalwell-beingwasover-proof;effectsofseaandskykeptmeforeverbusywithmypencil;andIhadnolackofintellectualexerciseofadifferentorderinthestudyofmyinconsistentfriend,thecaptain。Icallhimfriend,hereonthethreshold;butthatistolookwellahead。Atfirst,IwastoomuchhorrifiedbywhatIconsideredhisbarbarities,toomuchpuzzledbyhisshiftinghumours,andtoofrequentlyannoyedbyhissmallvanities,toregardhimotherwisethanasthecrossofmyexistence。Itwasonlybydegrees,inhisrarehoursofpleasantness,whenheforgotandmademeforgettheweaknessestowhichhewassoprone,thathewonmetoakindofunconsentingfondness。Lastly,thefaultswereallembracedinamoregenerousview:Isawthemintheirplace,likediscordsinamusicalprogression;andacceptedthemandfoundthempicturesque,asweacceptandadmire,inthehabitablefaceofnature,thesmokyheadofthevolcanoortheperniciousthicketoftheswamp。
  HewascomeofgoodpeopleDownEast,andhadthebeginningsofathorougheducation。Histemperhadbeenungovernablefromthefirst;anditislikelythedefectwasinherited,andtheblameoftherupturenotentirelyhis。Heranawayatleasttosea;sufferedhorriblemaltreatment,whichseemedtohaveratherhardenedthanenlightenedhim;ranawayagaintoshoreinaSouthAmericanport;provedhiscapacityandmademoney,althoughstillachild;fellamongthievesandwasrobbed;workedbackapassagetotheStates,andknockedonemorningatthedoorofanoldladywhoseorchardhehadoftenrobbed。Theintroductionappearsinsufficient;butNaresknewwhathewasdoing。Thesightofheroldneighbourlydepredatorshiveringatthedoorintatters,theveryoddityofhisappeal,touchedasoftspotinthespinster’sheart。“Ialwayshadafancyfortheoldlady。”Naressaid,“evenwhensheusedtostampedemeoutoftheorchard,andshakeherthimbleandheroldcurlsatmeoutofthewindowasIwasgoingby;Ialwaysthoughtshewasakindofpleasantoldgirl。Well,whenshecametothedoorthatmorning,Itoldherso,andthatIwasstone-broke;andshetookmerightin,andfetchedoutthepie。”Sheclothedhim,taughthim,andhadhimtoseaagaininbettershape,welcomedhimtoherhearthonhisreturnfromeverycruise,andwhenshediedbequeathedhimherpossessions。“Shewasagoodoldgirl。”hewouldsay。“Itellyou,Mr。Dodd,itwasaqueerthingtoseemeandtheoldladytalkingapasearinthegarden,andtheoldmanscowlingatusoverthepickets。Shelivedrightnextdoortotheoldman,andIguessthat’sjustwhattookmethere。I
  wantedhimtoknowthatIwasbadlybeat,yousee,andwouldrathergotothedevilthantohim。Whatmadethedigharder,hehadquarrelledwiththeoldladyaboutmeandtheorchard:I
  guessthatmadehimrage。Yes,IwasabeastwhenIwasyoung。ButIwasalwaysprettygoodtotheoldlady。”Sincethenhehadprospered,notuneventfully,inhisprofession;theoldlady’smoneyhadfalleninduringthevoyageoftheGleaner,andhewasnow,assoonasthesmokeofthatengagementclearedaway,secureofhisship。Isupposehewasaboutthirty:apowerful,activeman,withablueeye,athickheadofhair,aboutthecolourofoakumandgrowinglowoverthebrow;clean-shavedandleanaboutthejaw;agoodsinger;agoodperformeronthatsea-instrument,theaccordion;aquickobserver,aclosereasoner;whenhepleased,ofareallyelegantaddress;andwhenhechose,thegreatestbruteupontheseas。
  Hisusageofthemen,hishazing,hisbullying,hisperpetualfault-findingfornocause,hisperpetualandbrutalsarcasm,mighthaveraisedamutinyinaslavegalley。Supposethesteersman’seyetohavewandered:“You——,——,little,mutton-facedDutchman。”Nareswouldbawl;“youwantabootingtokeepyouonyourcourse!Iknowalittlecity-frontslushwhenIseeone。Justyouglueyoureyetothatcompass,orI’llshowyouroundthevesselatthebutt-endofmyboot。”
  Orsupposeahandtolingeraft,whitherhehadperhapsbeensummonednotaminutebefore。“Mr。Daniells,willyouobligemebysteppingclearofthatmain-sheet?”thecaptainmightbegin,withtruculentcourtesy。“Thankyou。Andperhapsyou’llbesokindastotellmewhatthehellyou’redoingonmyquarter-deck?Iwantnodirtofyoursorthere。Istherenothingforyoutodo?Where’sthemate?Don’tyousetMEtofindworkforyou,orI’llfindyousomethatwillkeepyouonyourbackafortnight。”Suchallocutions,conceivedwithaperfectknowledgeofhisaudience,sothateveryinsultcarriedhome,weredeliveredwithamiensomenacing,andaneyesofiercelycruel,thathisunhappysubordinatesshrankandquailed。Toooftenviolencefollowed;toooftenIhaveheardandseenandboiledatthecowardlyaggression;andthevictim,hishandsboundbylaw,hasrisenagainfromdeckandcrawledforwardstupefied——Iknownotwhatpassionofrevengeinhiswrongedheart。
  ItseemsstrangeIshouldhavegrowntolikethistyrant。ItmayevenseemstrangethatIshouldhavestoodbyandsufferedhisexcessestoproceed。ButIwasnotquitesuchachickenastointerfereinpublic;forIwouldratherhaveamanortwomishandledthanonehalfofusbutcheredinamutinyandtherestsufferonthegallows。Andinprivate,Iwasunceasinginmyprotests。
  “Captain。”Ioncesaidtohim,appealingtohispatriotism,whichwasofahardyquality,“thisisnowaytotreatAmericanseamen。Youdon’tcallitAmericantotreatmenlikedogs?”
  “Americans?”hesaidgrimly。“DoyoucalltheseDutchmenandScattermouches[1]Americans?I’vebeenfourteenyearstosea,allbutonetripunderAmericancolours,andI’veneverlaideyeonanAmericanforemasthand。Thereusedtobesuchthingsintheolddays,whenthirty-fivedollarswerethewagesoutofBoston;andthenyoucouldseeshipshandledandrunthewaytheywanttobe。Butthat’sallpastandgone;andnowadaystheonlythingthatfliesinanAmericanshipisabelaying-pin。Youdon’tknow;youhaven’taguess。Howwouldyouliketogoondeckforyourmiddlewatch,fourteenmonthsonend,withallyourdutytodoandeveryone’slifedependingonyou,andexpecttogetakniferippedintoyouasyoucomeoutofyourstateroom,orbesand-baggedasyoupasstheboat,orgettrippedintothehold,ifthehatchesareoffinfineweather?ThatkindofshakesthestarchoutofthebrotherlyloveandNewJerusalembusiness。Yougothroughthemill,andyou’llhaveabiggergrudgeagainsteveryoldshellbackthatdirtieshisplateinthethreeoceans,thantheBankofCaliforniacouldsettleup。No;ithasanuglylooktoit,buttheonlywaytorunashipistomakeyourselfaterror。”
  [1]Insea-lingoPacificDUTCHMANincludesallTeutonsandfolkfromthebasinoftheBaltic;SCATTERMOUCH,allLatinsandLevantines。
  “Come,Captain。”saidI,“therearedegreesineverything。YouknowAmericanshipshaveabadname;youknowperfectlywellifitwasn’tforthehighwageandthegoodfood,there’snotamanwouldshipinoneifhecouldhelp;andevenasitis,somepreferaBritishship,beastlyfoodandall。”
  “O,thelime-juicers?”saidhe。“There’splentybootinginlime-
  juicers,Iguess;thoughIdon’tdenybutwhatsomeofthemaresoft。”Andwiththathesmiledlikeamanrecallingsomething。
  “Lookhere,thatbringsayarninmyhead。”heresumed;“andforthesakeofthejoke,I’llgivemyselfaway。Itwasin1874,I
  shippedmateintheBritishshipMaria,from’FriscoforMelbourne。ShewasthequeerestcraftinsomewaysthateverIwasaboardof。Thefoodwasacaution;therewasnothingfittoputyourlipsto——butthelime-juice,whichwasfromtheendbinnodoubt:itusedtomakemesicktoseethemen’sdinners,andsorrytoseemyown。Theoldmanwasgoodenough,I
  guess;Greenwashisname;amild,fatherlyoldgaloot。ButthehandswerethelowestgangIeverhandled;andwheneverI
  triedtoknockalittlespiritintothem,theoldmantooktheirpart!ItwasGilbertandSullivanonthehighseas;butyoubetI
  wouldn’tletanymandictatetome。’Yougivemeyourorders,CaptainGreen,’Isaid,’andyou’llfindI’llcarrythemout;that’sallyou’vegottosay。You’llfindIdomyduty,’Isaid;’howIdoitismylookout;andthere’snomanbornthat’sgoingtogivemelessons。’Well,therewasplentydirtonboardthatMariafirstandlast。Ofcourse,theoldmanputmybackup,and,ofcourse,heputupthecrew’s;andIhadtoregularfightmywaythrougheverywatch。Themengottohateme,so’sIwouldhearthemgrittheirteethwhenIcameup。Atlast,oneday,I
  sawabighulkingbeastofaDutchmanbootingtheship’sboy。
  ImadeoneshootofitoffthehouseandlaidthatDutchmanout。Uphecame,andIlaidhimoutagain。’Now,’Isaid,’ifthere’sakickleftinyou,justmentionit,andI’llstampyourribsinlikeapacking-case。’Hethoughtbetterofit,andneverleton;laythereasmildasadeaconatafuneral;andtheytookhimbelowtoreflectonhisnativeDutchland。Onenightwegotcaughtinratheradirtythingabout25south。Iguesswewereallasleep;forthefirstthingIknewtherewasthefore-royalgone。Iranforward,bawlingbluehell;andjustasIcamebytheforemast,somethingstruckmerightthroughtheforearmandstuckthere。Iputmyotherhandup,andbyGeorge!itwasthegrain;thebeastshadspearedmelikeaporpoise。’Cap’n!’I
  cried——’What’swrong?’sayshe——’They’vegrainedme,’saysI——
  ’Grainedyou?’sayshe。’Well,I’vebeenlookingforthat。’——
  ’AndbyGod,’Icried,’Iwanttohavesomeofthesebeastsmurderedforit!’——’Now,Mr。Nares,’sayshe,’youbettergobelow。IfIhadbeenoneofthemen,you’dhavegotmorethanthis。AndIwantnomoreofyourlanguageondeck。You’vecostmemyfore-royalalready,’sayshe;’andifyoucarryon,you’llhavethethreesticksoutofher。’ThatwasoldmanGreen’sideaofsupportingofficers。Butyouwaitabit;thecream’scoming。WemadeMelbournerightenough,andtheoldmansaid:’Mr。Nares,youandmedon’tdrawtogether。
  You’reafirst-rateseaman,nomistakeofthat;butyou’rethemostdisagreeablemanIeversailedwith;andyourlanguageandyourconducttothecrewIcannotstomach。Iguesswe’llseparate。’Ididn’tcareabouttheberth,youmaybesure;butI