ItiswithextremereluctancethatIdwellupontheappallingscenewhichensued;ascenewhich,withitsminutestdetails,noaftereventshavebeenabletoeffaceintheslightestdegreefrommymemory,andwhosesternrecollectionwillembittereveryfuturemomentofmyexistence。Letmerunoverthisportionofmynarrativewithasmuchhasteasthenatureoftheeventstobespokenofwillpermit。Theonlymethodwecoulddevisefortheterrificlottery,inwhichweweretotakeeachachance,wasthatofdrawingstraws。
Smallsplintersofwoodweremadetoanswerourpurpose,anditwasagreedthatIshouldbetheholder。Iretiredtooneendofthehulk,whilemypoorcompanionssilentlytookuptheirstationintheotherwiththeirbacksturnedtowardme。ThebitterestanxietywhichI
enduredatanyperiodofthisfearfuldramawaswhileIoccupiedmyselfinthearrangementofthelots。Therearefewconditionsintowhichmancanpossiblyfallwherehewillnotfeeladeepinterestinthepreservationofhisexistence;aninterestmomentarilyincreasingwiththefrailnessofthetenurebywhichthatexistencemaybeheld。
Butnowthatthesilent,definite,andsternnatureofthebusinessinwhichIwasengagedsodifferentfromthetumultuousdangersofthestormorthegraduallyapproachinghorrorsoffamineallowedmetoreflectonthefewchancesIhadofescapingthemostappallingofdeaths-adeathforthemostappallingofpurposes-everyparticleofthatenergywhichhadsolongbuoyedmeupdepartedlikefeathersbeforethewind,leavingmeahelplesspreytothemostabjectandpitiableterror。Icouldnot,atfirst,evensummonupsufficientstrengthtotearandfittogetherthesmallsplintersofwood,myfingersabsolutelyrefusingtheiroffice,andmykneesknockingviolentlyagainsteachother。Mymindranoverrapidlyathousandabsurdprojectsbywhichtoavoidbecomingapartnerintheawfulspeculation。Ithoughtoffallingonmykneestomycompanions,andentreatingthemtoletmeescapethisnecessity;ofsuddenlyrushinguponthem,and,byputtingoneofthemtodeath,ofrenderingthedecisionbylotuseless-inshort,ofeverythingbutofgoingthroughwiththematterIhadinhand。Atlast,afterwastingalongtimeinthisimbecileconduct,IwasrecalledtomysensesbythevoiceofParker,whourgedmetorelievethematoncefromtheterribleanxietytheywereenduring。EventhenIcouldnotbringmyselftoarrangethesplintersuponthespot,butthoughtovereveryspeciesoffinessebywhichIcouldtricksomeoneofmyfellow-suffererstodrawtheshortstraw,asithadbeenagreedthatwhoeverdrewtheshortestoffoursplintersfrommyhandwastodieforthepreservationoftherest。Beforeanyonecondemnmeforthisapparentheartlessness,lethimbeplacedinasituationpreciselysimilartomyown。
Atlengthdelaywasnolongerpossible,and,withaheartalmostburstingfrommybosom,Iadvancedtotheregionoftheforecastle,wheremycompanionswereawaitingme。Iheldoutmyhandwiththesplinters,andPetersimmediatelydrew。Hewasfree-his,atleast,wasnottheshortest;andtherewasnowanotherchanceagainstmyescape。Isummonedupallmystrength,andpassedthelotstoAugustus。Healsodrewimmediately,andhealsowasfree;andnow,whetherIshouldliveordie,thechanceswerenomorethanpreciselyeven。Atthismomentallthefiercenessofthetigerpossessedmybosom,andIfelttowardmypoorfellow-creature,Parker,themostintense,themostdiabolicalhatred。Butthefeelingdidnotlast;
and,atlength,withaconvulsiveshudderandclosedeyes,Iheldoutthetworemainingsplinterstowardhim。Itwasfullyfiveminutesbeforehecouldsummonresolutiontodraw,duringwhichperiodofheartrendingsuspenseIneveronceopenedmyeyes。Presentlyoneofthetwolotswasquicklydrawnfrommyhand。Thedecisionwasthenover,yetIknewnotwhetheritwasformeoragainstme。Noonespoke,andstillIdarednotsatisfymyselfbylookingatthesplinterIheld。Petersatlengthtookmebythehand,andIforcedmyselftolookup,whenIimmediatelysawbythecountenanceofParkerthatIwassafe,andthatheitwaswhohadbeendoomedtosuffer。Gaspingforbreath,Ifellsenselesstothedeck。
Irecoveredfrommyswoonintimetobeholdtheconsummationofthetragedyinthedeathofhimwhohadbeenchieflyinstrumentalinbringingitabout。Hemadenoresistancewhatever,andwasstabbedinthebackbyPeters,whenhefellinstantlydead。Imustnotdwelluponthefearfulrepastwhichimmediatelyensued。Suchthingsmaybeimagined,butwordshavenopowertoimpressthemindwiththeexquisitehorroroftheirreality。Letitsufficetosaythat,havinginsomemeasureappeasedtheragingthirstwhichconsumedusbythebloodofthevictim,andhavingbycommonconsenttakenoffthehands,feet,andhead,throwingthemtogetherwiththeentrails,intothesea,wedevouredtherestofthebody,piecemeal,duringthefourevermemorabledaysoftheseventeenth,eighteenth,nineteenth,andtwentiethofthemonth。
Onthenineteenth,therecomingonasmartshowerwhichlastedfifteenortwentyminutes,wecontrivedtocatchsomewaterbymeansofasheetwhichhadbeenfishedupfromthecabinbyourdragjustafterthegale。Thequantitywetookinalldidnotamounttomorethanhalfagallon;buteventhisscantyallowancesupplieduswithcomparativestrengthandhope。
Onthetwenty-firstwewereagainreducedtothelastnecessity。
Theweatherstillremainedwarmandpleasant,withoccasionalfogsandlightbreezes,mostusuallyfromN。toW。
Onthetwenty-second,asweweresittingclosehuddledtogether,gloomilyrevolvingoverourlamentablecondition,thereflashedthroughmymindallatonceanideawhichinspiredmewithabrightgleamofhope。Irememberedthat,whentheforemasthadbeencutaway,Peters,beinginthewindwardchains,passedoneoftheaxesintomyhand,requestingmetoputit,ifpossible,inaplaceofsecurity,andthatafewminutesbeforethelastheavyseastruckthebrigandfilledherIhadtakenthisaxeintotheforecastleandlaiditinoneofthelarboardberths。Inowthoughtitpossiblethat,bygettingatthisaxe,wemightcutthroughthedeckoverthestoreroom,andthusreadilysupplyourselveswithprovisions。
WhenIcommunicatedthisobjecttomycompanions,theyutteredafeebleshoutofjoy,andweallproceededforthwithtotheforecastle。Thedifficultyofdescendingherewasgreaterthanthatofgoingdowninthecabin,theopeningbeingmuchsmaller,foritwillberememberedthatthewholeframeworkaboutthecabincompanion-hatchhadbeencarriedaway,whereastheforecastle-way,beingasimplehatchofonlyaboutthreefeetsquare,hadremaineduninjured。Ididnothesitate,however,toattemptthedescent;andaropebeingfastenedroundmybodyasbefore,Iplungedboldlyin,feetforemost,mademywayquicklytotheberth,andatthefirstattemptbroughtuptheaxe。Itwashailedwiththemostecstaticjoyandtriumph,andtheeasewithwhichithadbeenobtainedwasregardedasanomenofourultimatepreservation。
Wenowcommencedcuttingatthedeckwithalltheenergyofrekindledhope,Petersandmyselftakingtheaxebyturns,Augustus’swoundedarmnotpermittinghimtoaidusinanydegree。Aswewerestillsofeebleastobescarcelyabletostandunsupported,andcouldconsequentlyworkbutaminuteortwowithoutresting,itsoonbecameevidentthatmanylonghourswouldbenecessarytoaccomplishourtask-thatis,tocutanopeningsufficientlylargetoadmitofafreeaccesstothestoreroom。Thisconsideration,however,didnotdiscourageus;and,workingallnightbythelightofthemoon,wesucceededineffectingourpurposebydaybreakonthemorningofthetwenty-third。
Petersnowvolunteeredtogodown;and,havingmadeallarrangementsasbefore,hedescended,andsoonreturnedbringingupwithhimasmalljar,which,toourgreatjoy,provedtobefullofolives。Havingsharedtheseamongus,anddevouredthemwiththegreatestavidity,weproceededtolethimdownagain。Thistimehesucceededbeyondourutmostexpectations,returninginstantlywithalargehamandabottleofMadeirawine。Ofthelatterweeachtookamoderatesup,havinglearnedbyexperiencetheperniciousconsequencesofindulgingtoofreely。Theham,exceptabouttwopoundsnearthebone,wasnotinaconditiontobeeaten,havingbeenentirelyspoiledbythesaltwater。Thesoundpartwasdividedamongus。PetersandAugustus,notbeingabletorestraintheirappetite,swallowedtheirsupontheinstant;butIwasmorecautious,andatebutasmallportionofmine,dreadingthethirstwhichIknewwouldensue。Wenowrestedawhilefromourlabors,whichhadbeenintolerablysevere。
Bynoon,feelingsomewhatstrengthenedandrefreshed,weagainrenewedourattemptatgettingupprovisions,Petersandmyselfgoingdownalternately,andalwayswithmoreorlesssuccess,untilsundown。Duringthisintervalwehadthegoodfortunetobringup,altogether,fourmoresmalljarsofolives,anotherham,acarboycontainingnearlythreegallonsofexcellentCapeMadeirawine,and,whatgaveusstillmoredelight,asmalltortoiseoftheGallipagobreed,severalofwhichhadbeentakenonboardbyCaptainBarnard,asthe_Grampus_wasleavingport,fromtheschooner_MaryPitts_,justreturnedfromasealingvoyageinthePacific。
InasubsequentportionofthisnarrativeIshallhavefrequentoccasiontomentionthisspeciesoftortoise。Itisfoundprincipally,asmostofmyreadersmayknow,inthegroupofislandscalledtheGallipagos,which,indeed,derivetheirnamefromtheanimaltheSpanishwordGallipagomeaningafresh-waterterrapin。
Fromthepeculiarityoftheirshapeandactiontheyhavebeensometimescalledtheelephanttortoise。Theyarefrequentlyfoundofanenormoussize。Ihavemyselfseenseveralwhichwouldweighfromtwelvetofifteenhundredpounds,althoughIdonotrememberthatanynavigatorspeaksofhavingseenthemweighingmorethaneighthundred。Theirappearanceissingular,andevendisgusting。Theirstepsareveryslow,measured,andheavy,theirbodiesbeingcarriedaboutafootfromtheground。Theirneckislong,andexceedinglyslender,fromeighteeninchestotwofeetisaverycommonlength,andIkilledone,wherethedistancefromtheshouldertotheextremityoftheheadwasnolessthanthreefeetteninches。Theheadhasastrikingresemblancetothatofaserpent。Theycanexistwithoutfoodforanalmostincrediblelengthoftime,instanceshavingbeenknownwheretheyhavebeenthrownintotheholdofavesselandlaintwoyearswithoutnourishmentofanykind-beingasfat,and,ineveryrespect,inasgoodorderattheexpirationofthetimeaswhentheywerefirstputin。Inoneparticulartheseextraordinaryanimalsbeararesemblancetothedromedary,orcamelofthedesert。Inabagattherootofthenecktheycarrywiththemaconstantsupplyofwater。Insomeinstances,uponkillingthemafterafullyear’sdeprivationofallnourishment,asmuchasthreegallonsofperfectlysweetandfreshwaterhavebeenfoundintheirbags。Theirfoodischieflywildparsleyandcelery,withpurslain,sea-kelp,andpricklypears,uponwhichlattervegetabletheythrivewonderfully,agreatquantityofitbeingusuallyfoundonthehillsidesneartheshorewherevertheanimalitselfisdiscovered。
Theyareexcellentandhighlynutritiousfood,andhave,nodoubt,beenthemeansofpreservingthelivesofthousandsofseamenemployedinthewhale-fisheryandotherpursuitsinthePacific。
Theonewhichwehadthegoodfortunetobringupfromthestoreroomwasnotofalargesize,weighingprobablysixty-fiveorseventypounds。Itwasafemale,andinexcellentcondition,beingexceedinglyfat,andhavingmorethanaquartoflimpidandsweetwaterinitsbag。Thiswasindeedatreasure;and,fallingonourkneeswithoneaccord,wereturnedferventthankstoGodforsoseasonablearelief。
Wehadgreatdifficultyingettingtheanimalupthroughtheopening,asitsstruggleswerefierceanditsstrengthprodigious。ItwasuponthepointofmakingitsescapefromPeter’sgrasp,andslippingbackintothewater,whenAugustus,throwingaropewithaslipknotarounditsthroat,helditupinthismanneruntilIjumpedintotheholebythesideofPeters,andassistedhiminliftingitout。
Thewaterwedrewcarefullyfromthebagintothejug;which,itwillberemembered,hadbeenbroughtupbeforefromthecabin。Havingdonethis,webrokeofftheneckofabottlesoastoform,withthecork,akindofglass,holdingnotquitehalfagill。Wetheneachdrankoneofthesemeasuresfull,andresolvedtolimitourselvestothisquantityperdayaslongasitshouldholdout。
Duringthelasttwoorthreedays,theweatherhavingbeendryandpleasant,thebeddingwehadobtainedfromthecabin,aswellasourclothing,hadbecomethoroughlydry,sothatwepassedthisnightthatofthetwenty-thirdincomparativecomfort,enjoyingatranquilrepose,afterhavingsuppedplentifullyonolivesandham,withasmallallowanceofthewine。Beingafraidoflosingsomeofourstoresoverboardduringthenight,intheeventofabreezespringingup,wesecuredthemaswellaspossiblewithcordagetothefragmentsofthewindlass。Ourtortoise,whichwewereanxioustopreservealiveaslongaswecould,wethrewonitsback,andotherwisecarefullyfastened。