`Verywell!That’sallIwanttoknow。Ifpeopleapplyforyourcharacter,that’syourreason,statedbyyourself。Yougoinconsequenceofthebreakingupofthefamily。’
HeturnedawayagainbeforeIcouldsayanotherword,andwalkedoutrapidlyintothegrounds。Hismannerwasasstrangeashislanguage。I
acknowledgehealarmedme。
EventhepatienceofMrsRubellewasgettingexhausted,whenIjoinedheratthehousedoor。
`Atlast!’shesaid,withashrugofherleanforeignshoulders。Sheledthewayintotheinhabitedsideofthehouse,ascendedthestairs,andopenedwithherkeythedoorattheendofthepassage,whichcommunicatedwiththeoldElizabethanrooms——adoorneverpreviouslyused,inmytime,atBlackwaterPark。TheroomsthemselvesIknewwell,havingenteredthemmyselfonvariousoccasionsfromtheothersideofthehouse。MrsRubellestoppedatthethirddooralongtheoldgallery,handedmethekeyofit,withthekeyofthedoorofcommunication,andtoldmeIshouldfindMissHalcombeinthatroom。BeforeIwentinIthoughtitdesirabletomakeherunderstandthatherattendancehadceased。Accordingly,Itoldherinplainwordsthatthechargeofthesickladyhenceforthdevolvedentirelyonmyself。
`Iamgladtohearit,ma’am,’saidMrsRubelle。`Iwanttogoverymuch。’
`Doyouleavetoday?’Iasked,tomakesureofher。
`Nowthatyouhavetakencharge,ma’am,Ileaveinhalfanhour’stime。
SirPercivalhaskindlyplacedatmydispositionthegardener,andthechaise,wheneverIwantthem。Ishallwanttheminhalfanhour’stimetogotothestation。Iampackedupinanticipationalready。Iwishyougood-dayma’am。’
Shedroppedabriskcurtsey,andwalkedhackalongthegallery,hummingalittletune,andkeepingtimetoitcheerfullywiththenosegayinherhand。IamsincerelythankfultosaythatwasthelastIsawofMrsRubelle。
WhenIwentintotheroomMissHalcombewasasleep。Ilookedatheranxiously。asshelayinthedismal,high,old-fashionedbed。ShewascertainlynotinanyrespectalteredfortheworsesinceIhadseenherlast。Shehadnotbeenneglected,Iamboundtoadmit,inanywaythatIcouldperceive。
Theroomwasdreary,anddusty,anddark,butthewindowlookingonasolitarycourt-yardatthebackofthehousewasopenedtoletinthefreshair,andallthatcouldbedonetomaketheplacecomfortablehadbeendone。ThewholecrueltyofSirPercival’sdeceptionhadfallenonpoorLadyGlyde。Theonlyill-usagewhicheitherheorMrsRubellehadinflictedonMissHalcombeconsisted,asfarasIcouldsee,inthefirstoffenceofhidingheraway。
Istoleback,leavingthesickladystillpeacefullyasleep。togivethegardenerinstructionsaboutbringingthedoctor。Ibeggedtheman,afterhehadtakenMrsRubelletothestation,todriveroundbyMrDawson’s,andleaveamessageinmyname,askinghimtocallandseeme。Iknewhewouldcomeonmyaccount。andIknewhewouldremainwhenhefoundCountFoscohadleftthehouse。
Induecourseoftimethegardenerreturned,andsaidthathehaddrivenroundbyMrDawson’sresidence,afterleavingMrsRubelleatthestation。
Thedoctorsentmewordthathewaspoorlyinhealthhimself,butthathewouldcall,ifpossible,thenextmorning。
Havingdeliveredhismessagethegardenerwasabouttowithdraw,butIstoppedhimtorequestthathewouldcomebackbeforedark,andsitupthatnight,inoneoftheemptybedrooms,soastobewithincallincaseIwantedhim。Heunderstoodreadilyenoughmyunwillingnesstobeleftaloneallnightinthemostdesolatepartofthatdesolatehouse,andwearrangedthatheshouldcomeinbetweeneightandnine。
Hecamepunctually,andIfoundcausetobethankfulthatIhadadoptedtheprecautionofcallinghimin。BeforemidnightSirPercival’sstrangetemperbrokeoutinthemostviolentandmostalarmingmanner,andifthegardenerhadnotbeenonthespottopacifyhimontheinstant,Iamafraidtothinkwhatmighthavehappened。
Almostalltheafternoonandeveninghehadbeenwalkingaboutthehouseandgroundsinanunsettled,excitablemanner,having,inallprobability,asIthought,takenanexcessivequantityofwineathissolitarydinner。
Howeverthatmaybe,Iheardhisvoicecallingloudlyandangrilyinthenewwingofthehouse,asIwastakingaturnbackwardsandforwardsalongthegallerythelastthingatnight。Thegardenerimmediatelyrandowntohim,andIclosedthedoorofcommunication,tokeepthealarm,ifpossible,fromreachingMissHalcombe’sears。Itwasfullhalfanhourbeforethegardenercameback。Hedeclaredthathismasterwasquiteoutofhissenses——notthroughtheexcitementofdrink,asIhadsupposed,butthroughakindofpanicorfrenzyofmind,forwhichitwasimpossibletoaccount。
HehadfoundSirPercivalwalkingbackwardsandforwardsbyhimselfinthehall,swearing,witheveryappearanceofthemostviolentpassion,thathewouldnotstopanotherminutealoneinsuchadungeonashisownhouse,andthathewouldtakethefirststageofhisjourneyimmediatelyinthemiddleofthenight。Thegardener,onapproachinghim,hadbeenhuntedout,withoathsandthreats,togetthehorseandchaisereadyinstantly。
InaquarterofanhourSirPercivalhadjoinedhimintheyard,hadjumpedintothechaise,and,lashingthehorseintoagallop,haddrivenhimselfaway,withhisfaceaspaleasashesinthemoonlight。Thegardenerhadheardhimshoutingandcursingatthelodge-keepertogetupandopenthegate——hadheardthewheelsrollfuriouslyonagaininthestillnight,whenthegatewasunlocked——andknewnomore。
Thenextday,oradayortwoafter,Iforgetwhich,thechaisewasbroughtbackfromKnowlesbury,ournearesttown,bytheostlerattheoldinn。SirPercivalhadstoppedthere,andhadafterwardsleftbythetrain——forwhatdestinationthemancouldnottell。Ineverreceivedanyfurtherinformation,eitherfromhimselforfromanyoneelse,ofSirPercival’sproceedings,andIamnotevenaware,atthismoment,whetherheisinEnglandoroutofit。HeandIhavenotmetsincehedroveawaylikeanescapedcriminalfromhisownhouse,anditismyferventhopeandprayerthatwemaynevermeetagain。
Myownpartofthissadfamilystoryisnowdrawingtoanend。
IhavebeeninformedthattheparticularsofMissHalcombe’swaking,andofwhatpassedbetweenuswhenshefoundmesittingbyherbedside,arenotmaterialtothepurposewhichistobeansweredbythepresentnarrative。Itwillbesufficientformetosayinthisplace,thatshewasnotherselfconsciousofthemeansadoptedtoremoveherfromtheinhabitedtotheuninhabitedpartofthehouse。Shewasinadeepsleepatthetime,whethernaturallyorartificiallyproducedshecouldnotsay。InmyabsenceatTorquay,andintheabsenceofalltheresidentservantsexceptMargaretPorcherwhowasperpetuallyeating,drinking,orsleeping,whenshewasnotatwork,thesecrettransferofMissHalcombefromonepartofthehousetotheotherwasnodoubteasilyperformed。MrsRubelleasIdiscoveredformyself,inlookingabouttheroomhadprovisions,andallothernecessaries,togetherwiththemeansofheatingwater,broth,andsoon,withoutkindlingafire,placedatherdisposalduringthefewdaysofherimprisonmentwiththesicklady。ShehaddeclinedtoanswerthequestionswhichMissHalcombenaturallyput,buthadnot,inotherrespects,treatedherwithunkindnessorneglect。ThedisgraceoflendingherselftoaviledeceptionistheonlydisgracewithwhichIcanconscientiouslychargeMrsRubelle。
IneedwritenoparticularsandIamrelievedtoknowitoftheeffectproducedonMissHalcombebythenewsofLadyGlyde’sdeparture,orbythefarmoremelancholytidingswhichreachedusonlytoosoonafterwardsatBlackwaterPark。InbothcasesIpreparedhermindbeforehandasgentlyandascarefullyaspossible,havingthedoctor’sadvicetoguideme,inthelastcaseonly,throughMrDawson’sbeingtoounwelltocometothehouseforsomedaysafterIhadsentforhim。Itwasasadtime,atimewhichitafflictsmetothinkofortowriteofnow。ThepreciousblessingsofreligiousconsolationwhichIendeavouredtoconveywerelonginreachingMissHalcombe’sheart,butIhopeandbelievetheycamehometoheratlast。Ineverlefthertillherstrengthwasrestored。Thetrainwhichtookmeawayfromthatmiserablehousewasthetrainwhichtookherawayalso。WepartedverymournfullyinLondon。IremainedwitharelativeatIslington,andshewentontoMrFairlie’shouseinCumberland。
IhaveonlyafewlinesmoretowritebeforeIclosethispainfulstatement。
Theyaredictatedbyasenseofduty。
Inthefirstplace,Iwishtorecordmyownpersonalconvictionthatnoblamewhatever,inconnectionwiththeeventswhichIhavenowrelated,attachestoCountFosco。Iaminformedthatadreadfulsuspicionhasbeenraised,andthatsomeveryseriousconstructionsareplaceduponhislordship’sconduct。MypersuasionoftheCount’sinnocenceremains,however,quiteunshaken。IfheassistedSirPercivalinsendingmetoTorquay,heassistedunderadelusion,forwhich,asaforeignerandastranger,hewasnottoblame。IfhewasconcernedinbringingMrsRubelletoBlackwaterPark,itwashismisfortuneandnothisfault,whenthatforeignpersonwasbaseenoughtoassistadeceptionplannedandcarriedoutbythemasterofthehouse。Iprotest,intheinterestsofmorality,againstblamebeinggratuitouslyandwantonlyattachedtotheproceedingsoftheCount。
Inthesecondplace,IdesiretoexpressmyregretatmyowninabilitytoremembertheprecisedayonwhichLadyGlydeleftBlackwaterParkforLondon。Iamtoldthatitisofthelastimportancetoascertaintheexactdateofthatlamentablejourney,andIhaveanxiouslytaxedmymemorytorecallit。Theefforthasbeeninvain。IcanonlyremembernowthatitwastowardsthelatterpartofJuly。Weallknowthedifficulty,afteralapseoftime,offixingpreciselyonapastdateunlessithasbeenpreviouslywrittendown。ThatdifficultyisgreatlyincreasedinmycasebythealarmingandconfusingeventswhichtookplaceabouttheperiodofLadyGlyde’sdeparture。IheartilywishIhadmadeamemorandumatthetime。Iheartilywishmymemoryofthedatewasasvividasmymemoryofthatpoorlady’sface,whenitlookedatmesorrowfullyforthelasttimefromthecarriagewindow。THESTORYCONTINUEDINSEVERALNARRATIVES1。THENARRATIVEOFHESTERPINHORN,COOKINTHESERVICEOFCOUNT
FOSCOTakendownfromherownstatementIAMsorrytosaythatIhaveneverlearnttoreadorwrite。Ihavebeenahard-workingwomanallmylife,andhavekeptagoodcharacter。
Iknowthatitisasinandwickednesstosaythethingwhichisnot,andIwilltrulybewareofdoingsoonthisoccasion。AllthatIknowIwilltell,andIhumblybegthegentlemanwhotakesthisdowntoputmylanguagerightashegoeson,andtomakeallowancesformybeingnoscholar。
InthislastsummerIhappenedtobeoutofplacethroughnofaultofmyown,andIheardofasituationasplaincook,atNumberFive,ForestRoad,StJohn’sWood。Itooktheplaceontrial。Mymaster’snamewasFosco。
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