首页 >出版文学> THE WOMAN IN WHITE>第51章
  Laurahadtakenmyarmwhilehewasspeaking,andshepresseditsignificantlywhenhehaddone。Itwouldhavebeenahardtrialtoanywomantostandbyandseetheofficeofapologistforherhusband’smisconductquietlyassumedbyhismalefriendinherownhouse——anditwasatrialtoher。
  IthankedtheCountcivilly,andledherout。Yes!Ithankedhim:forI
  feltalready,withasenseofinexpressiblehelplessnessandhumiliation,thatitwaseitherhisinterestorhiscapricetomakesureofmycontinuingtoresideatBlackwaterPark,andIknewafterSirPercival’sconducttome,thatwithoutthesupportoftheCount’sinfluence,Icouldnothopetoremainthere。Hisinfluence,theinfluenceofallothersthatIdreadedmost,wasactuallytheonetiewhichnowheldmetoLaurainthehourofherutmostneed!
  Weheardthewheelsofthedog-cartcrashingonthegravelofthedriveaswecameintothehall。SirPercivalhadstartedonhisjourney。
  `Whereishegoingto,Marian?’Laurawhispered。`Everyfreshthinghedoesseemstoterrifymeaboutthefuture。Haveyouanysuspicions?’
  Afterwhatshehadundergonethatmorning,Iwasunwillingtotellhermysuspicions。
  `HowshouldIknowhissecrets?’Isaidevasively。
  `Iwonderifthehousekeeperknows?’shepersisted。
  `Certainlynot,’Ireplied。`Shemustbequiteasignorantasweare。’
  Laurashookherheaddoubtfully。
  `DidyounothearfromthehousekeeperthattherewasareportofAnneCatherickhavingbeenseeninthisneighbourhood?Don’tyouthinkhemayhavegoneawaytolookforher?’
  `Iwouldrathercomposemyself,Laura,bynotthinkingaboutitatall,andafterwhathashappened,youhadbetterfollowmyexample。Comeintomyroom,andrestandquietyourselfalittle。’
  Wesatdowntogetherclosetothewindow,andletthefragrantsummerairbreatheoverourfaces。
  `Iamashamedtolookatyou,Marian,’shesaid,`afterwhatyousubmittedtodownstairs,formysake。Oh,myownlove,IamalmostheartbrokenwhenIthinkofit!ButIwilltrytomakeituptoyou——Iwillindeed!’
  `Hush!hush!’Ireplied;`don’ttalkso。Whatisthetriflingmortificationofmypridecomparedtothedreadfulsacrificeofyourhappiness?’
  `Youheardwhathesaidtome?’shewentonquicklyandvehemently。
  `Youheardthewords——butyoudon’tknowwhattheymeant——youdon’tknowwhyIthrewdownthepenandturnedmybackonhim。’Sheroseinsuddenagitation,andwalkedabouttheroom。`Ihavekeptmanythingsfromyourknowledge,Marian,forfearofdistressingyou,andmakingyouunhappyattheoutsetofournewlives。Youdon’tknowhowhehasusedme。Andyetyououghttoknow,foryousawhowheusedmetoday。Youheardhimsneeratmypresumingtobescrupulous——youheardhimsayIhadmadeavirtueofnecessityinmarryinghim。’Shesatdownagain,herfaceflusheddeeply,andherhandstwistedandtwinedtogetherinherlap。`Ican’ttellyouaboutitnow,’shesaid;`IshallburstoutcryingifItellyounow——later,Marian,whenIammoresureofmyself。Mypoorheadaches,darling——aches,aches,aches。Whereisyoursmelling-bottle?Letmetalktoyouaboutyourself。IwishIhadgivenhimmysignature,foryoursake。
  ShallIgiveittohimtomorrow?Iwouldrathercompromisemyselfthancompromiseyou。Afteryourtakingmypartagainsthim,hewilllayalltheblameonyouifIrefuseagain。Whatshallwedo?Oh,forafriendtohelpusandadviseus!——afriendwecouldreallytrust!’
  Shesighedbitterly。IsawinherfacethatshewasthinkingofHartright——sawitthemoreplainlybecauseherlastwordssetmethinkingofhimtoo。Insixmonthsonlyfromhermarriagewewantedthefaithfulservicehehadofferedtousinhisfarewellwords。HowlittleIoncethoughtthatweshouldeverwantitatall!
  `Wemustdowhatwecantohelpourselves,’Isaid。`Letustrytotalkitovercalmly,Laura——letusdoallinourpowertodecideforthebest。’
  Puttingwhatsheknewofherhusband’sembarrassmentsandwhatIhadheardofhisconversationwiththelawyertogether,wearrivednecessarilyattheconclusionthattheparchmentinthelibraryhadbeendrawnupforthepurposeofborrowingmoney,andthatLaura’ssignaturewasabsolutelynecessarytofititfortheattainmentofSirPercival’sobject。
  Thesecondquestion,concerningthenatureofthelegalcontractbywhichthemoneywastobeobtained,andthedegreeofpersonalresponsibilitytowhichLauramightsubjectherselfifshesigneditinthedark,involvedconsiderationswhichlayfarbeyondanyknowledgeandexperiencethateitherofuspossessed。Myownconvictionsledmetobelievethatthehiddencontentsoftheparchmentconcealedatransactionofthemeanestandthemostfraudulentkind。
  IhadnotformedthisconclusioninconsequenceofSirPercival’srefusaltoshowthewritingortoexplainit,forthatrefusalmightwellhaveproceededfromhisobstinatedispositionandhisdomineeringtemperalone。
  MysolemotivefordistrustinghishonestysprangfromthechangewhichIhadobservedinhislanguageandhismannersatBlackwaterpark,achangewhichconvincedmethathehadbeenactingapartthroughoutthewholeperiodofhisprobationatLimmeridgeHouse。Hiselaboratedelicacy,hisceremoniouspoliteness,whichharmonisedsoagreeablywithMrGilmore’sold-fashionednotions,hismodestywithLaura,hiscandourwithme,hismoderationwithMrFairlie——alltheseweretheartificesofamean,cunning,andbrutalman,whohaddroppedhisdisguisewhenhispractisedduplicityhadgaineditsend,andhadopenlyshownhimselfinthelibraryonthatveryday。IsaynothingofthegriefwhichthisdiscoverycausedmeonLaura’saccount,foritisnottobeexpressedbyanywordsofmine。I
  onlyrefertoitatall,becauseitdecidedmetoopposehersigningtheparchment,whatevertheconsequencesmightbe,unlessshewasfirstmadeacquaintedwiththecontents。
  Underthesecircumstances,theonechanceforuswhentomorrowcamewastobeprovidedwithanobjectiontogivingthesignature,whichmightrestonsufficientlyfirmcommercialorlegalgroundstoshakeSirPercival’sresolution,andtomakehimsuspectthatwetwowomenunderstoodthelawsandobligationsofbusinessaswellashimself。
  Aftersomepondering,Ideterminedtowritetotheonlyhonestmanwithinreachwhomwecouldtrusttohelpusdiscreetlyinourforlornsituation。
  ThatmanwasMrGilmore’spartner,MrKyrle,whoconductedthebusinessnowthatouroldfriendhadbeenobligedtowithdrawfromit,andtoleaveLondononaccountofhishealth。IexplainedtoLaurathatIhadMrGilmore’sownauthorityforplacingimplicitconfidenceinhispartner’sintegrity,discretion,andaccurateknowledgeofallheraffairs,andwithherfullapprovalIsatdownatoncetowritetheletter。
  IbeganbystatingourpositiontoMrKyrleexactlyasitwas,andthenaskedforhisadviceinreturn,expressedinplain,downrighttermswhichwecouldcomprehendwithoutanydangerofmisinterpretationsandmistakes。
  MyletterwasasshortasIcouldpossiblymakeit,andwas,Ihope,unencumberedbyneedlessapologiesandneedlessdetails。
  JustasIwasabouttoputtheaddressontheenvelopeanobstaclewasdiscoveredbyLaura,whichintheeffortandpreoccupationofwritinghadescapedmymindaltogether。
  `Howarewetogettheanswerintime?’sheasked。`YourletterwillnotbedeliveredinLondonbeforetomorrowmorningandthepostwillnotbringthereplyheretillthemorningafter。’
  Theonlywayofovercomingthisdifficultywastohavetheanswerbroughttousfromthelawyer’sofficebyaspecialmessenger。Iwroteapostscripttothateffect,beggingthatthemessengermightbedespatchedwiththereplybytheeleveno’clockmorningtrain,whichwouldbringhimtoourstationattwentyminutespastone,andsoenablehimtoreachBlackwaterParkbytwoo’clockatthelatest。Hewastobedirectedtoaskforme,toanswernoquestionsaddressedtohimbyanyoneelse,andtodeliverhisletterintonohandsbutmine。
  `IncaseSirPercivalshouldcomebacktomorrowbeforetwoo’clock,’
  IsaidtoLaura,`thewisestplanforyoutoadoptistobeoutinthegroundsallthemorningwithyourbookoryourwork,andnottoappearatthehousetillthemessengerhashadtimetoarrivewiththeletter。
  Iwillwaithereforhimallthemorning,toguardagainstanymisadventuresormistakes。ByfollowingthisarrangementIhopeandbelieveweshallavoidbeingtakenbysurprise。Letusgodowntothedrawing-roomnow。
  Wemayexcitesuspicionifweremainshutuptogethertoolong。’
  `Suspicion?’sherepeated。`Whosesuspicioncanweexcite,nowthatSirPercivalhasleftthehouse?DoyoumeanCountFosco?’
  `PerhapsIdo,Laura。’
  `YouarebeginningtodislikehimasmuchasIdo,Marian。’
  `No,nottodislikehim。Dislikeisalwaysmoreorlessassociatedwithcontempt——IcanseenothingintheCounttodespise。’
  `Youarenotafraidofhim,areyou?’
  `PerhapsIam——alittle。’
  `Afraidofhim,afterhisinterferenceinourfavourtoday!’
  `Yes。IammoreafraidofhisinterferencethanIamofSirPercival’sviolence。RememberwhatIsaidtoyouinthelibrary。Whateveryoudo,Laura,don’tmakeanenemyoftheCount!’
  Wewentdownstairs。Lauraenteredthedrawing-room,whileIproceededacrossthehall,withmyletterinmyhand,toputitintothepost-bag,17
  whichhungagainstthewalloppositetome。
  Thehousedoorwasopen,andasIcrossedpastit,IsawCountFoscoandhiswifestandingtalkingtogetheronthestepsoutside,withtheirfacesturnedtowardsme。