`No,no,’shesaid,earnestlyandkindly,`leaveuslikeafriend——
breakbreadwithusoncemore。Stayhereanddine,stayhereandhelpustospendourlasteveningwithyouashappily,aslikeourfirstevenings,aswecan。Itismyinvitation——MrsVesey’sinvitation——’shehesitatedalittle,andthenadded,`Laura’sinvitationaswell。’
Ipromisedtoremain。GodknowsIhadnowishtoleaveeventheshadowofasorrowfulimpressionwithanyofthem。
Myownroomwasthebestplaceformetillthedinnerbellrang。Iwaitedtheretillitwastimetogodownstairs。
IhadnotspokentoMissFairlie——Ihadnotevenseenher——allthatday。Thefirstmeetingwithher,whenIenteredthedrawing-room,wasahardtrialtoherself-controlandtomine。She,too,haddoneherbesttomakeourlasteveningrenewthegoldenbygonetime——thetimethatcouldnevercomeagain。ShehadputonthedresswhichIusedtoadmiremorethananyotherthatshepossessed——adarkbluesilk,trimmedquaintlyandprettilywithold-fashionedlace;shecameforwardtomeetmewithherformerreadiness——shegavemeherhandwiththefrank,innocentgood-willofhappierdays。Thecoldfingersthattrembledroundmine——thepalecheekswithabrightredspotburninginthemidstofthem——thefaintsmilethatstruggledtoliveonherlipsanddiedawayfromthemwhileIlookedatit,toldmeatwhatsacrificeofherselfheroutwardcomposurewasmaintained。Myheartcouldtakehernoclosertome,orIshouldhavelovedherthenasIhadneverlovedheryet。
MrGilmorewasagreatassistancetous。Hewasinhighgood-humour,andheledtheconversationwithunflaggingspirit。MissHalcombesecondedhimresolutely,andIdidallIcouldtofollowherexample。Thekindblueeyes,whoseslightestchangesofexpressionIhadlearnttointerpretsowell,lookedatmeappealinglywhenwefirstsatdowntotable。Helpmysister——thesweetanxiousfaceseemedtosay——helpmysister,andyouwillhelpme。
Wegotthroughthedinner,toalloutwardappearanceatleast,happilyenough。Whentheladieshadrisenfromtable,andMrGilmoreandIwereleftaloneinthedining-room,anewinterestpresenteditselftooccupyourattention,andtogivemeanopportunityofquietingmyselfbyafewminutesofneedfulandwelcomesilence。TheservantwhohadbeendespatchedtotraceAnneCatherickandMrsClementsreturnedwithhisreport,andwasshownintothedining-roomimmediately。
`Well,’saidMrGilmore,`whathaveyoufoundout?’
`Ihavefoundout,sir,’answeredtheman,`thatboththewomentookticketsatourstationhereforCarlisle。’
`YouwenttoCarlisle,ofcourse,whenyouheardthat?’
`ldid,sir,butIamsorrytosayIcouldfindnofurthertraceofthem。’
`Youinquiredattherailway?’
`Yes,sir。’
`Andatthedifferentinns?’
`Yes,sir。’
`AndyouleftthestatementIwroteforyouatthePolicestation?’
`Idid,sir。’。
`Well,myfriend,youhavedoneallyoucould,andIhavedoneallI
could,andtherethemattermustresttillfurthernotice。Wehaveplayedourtrumpcards,MrHartright,’continuedtheoldgentlemanwhentheservanthadwithdrawn。`Forthepresent,atleast,thewomenhaveoutmanoeuvredus,andouronlyresourcenowistowaittillSirpercivalGlydecomeshereonMondaynext。Won’tyoufillyourglassagain?Goodbottleofport,that——sound,substantial,oldwine。Ihavegotbetterinmyowncellar,though。’
Wereturnedtothedrawing-room——theroominwhichthehappiesteveningsofmylifehadbeenpassed——theroomwhich,afterthislastnight,I
wasnevertoseeagain。Itsaspectwasalteredsincethedayshadshortenedandtheweatherhadgrowncold。Theglassdoorsontheterracesidewereclosed,andhiddenbythickcurtains。Insteadofthesofttwilightobscurity,inwhichweused-cosit,thebrightradiantglowoflamplightnowdazzledmyeyes。Allwaschanged-in-doorsandoutallwaschanged。
MissHalcombeandMrGilmoresatdowntogetheratthecard-table——
MrsVeseytookhercustomarychair。Therewasnorestraintonthedisposaloftheirevening,andIfelttherestraintonthedisposalofmineallthemorepainfullyfromobservingit。lsawMissFairlielingeringnearthemusic-stand。ThetimehadbeenwhenImighthavejoinedherthere。
Iwaitedirresolutely——Iknewneitherwheretogonorwhattodonext。
Shecastonequickglanceatme,tookapieceofmusicsuddenlyfromthestand,andcametowardsmeofherownaccord。
`ShallIplaysomeofthoselittlemelodiesofMozart’swhichyouusedtolikesomuch?’sheasked,openingthemusicnervously,andlookingdownatitwhileshespoke。
BeforeIcouldthankhershehastenedtothepiano。Thechairnearit,whichIhadalwaysbeenaccustomedtooccupy,stoodempty。Shestruckafewchords——thenglancedroundatme——thenlookedbackagainathermusic。
`Won’tyoutakeyouroldplace?’shesaid,speakingveryabruptlyandinverylowtones。
`Imaytakeitonthelastnight,’Ianswered。
Shedidnotreply——shekeptherattentionrivetedonthemusic——
musicwhichsheknewbymemory,whichshehadplayedoverandoveragain,informertimes,withoutthebook。Ionlyknewthatshehadheardme,I
onlyknewthatshewasawareofmybeingclosetoher,byseeingtheredspotonthecheekthatwasnearesttomefadeout,andthefacegrowpaleallover。
`Iamverysorryyouaregoing,’shesaid,hervoicealmostsinkingtoawhisper,hereyeslookingmoreandmoreintentlyatthemusic,herfingersflyingoverthekeysofthepianowithastrangefeverishenergywhichIhadnevernoticedinherbefore。
`Ishallrememberthosekindwords,MissFairlie,longaftertomorrowhascomeandgone。’
Thepalenessgrewwhiteronherface,andsheturneditfartherawayfromme。
`Don’tspeakoftomorrow,’shesaid。`Letthemusicspeaktousoftonight,inahappierlanguagethanours。’
Herlipstrembled——afaintsighflutteredfromthem,whichshetriedvainlytosuppress。Herfingerswaveredonthepiano——shestruckafalsenote,confusedherselfintryingtosetitright,anddroppedherhandsangrilyonherlap。MissHalcombeandMrGilmorelookedupinastonishmentfromthecard-tableatwhichtheywereplaying。EvenMrsVesey,dozinginherchair,wokeatthesuddencessationofthemusic,andinquiredwhathadhappened。
`Youplayatwhist,MrHartright?’askedMissHalcombe,withhereyesdirectedsignificantlyattheplaceIoccupied。
Iknewwhatshemeant——Iknewshewasright,andIroseatoncetogotothecard-table。AsIleftthepianoMissFairlieturnedapageofthemusic,andtouchedthekeysagainwithasurerhand。
`Iwillplayit,’shesaid,strikingthenotesalmostpassionately。
`Iwillplayitonthelastnight。’
`Come,MrsVesey,’saidMissHalcombe,`MrGilmoreandIaretiredofé;carté;——comeandbeMrHartright’spartneratwhist。’
Theoldlawyersmiledsatirically。Hishadbeenthewinninghand,andhehadjustturnedupaking。HeevidentlyattributedMissHalcombe’sabruptchangeinthecard-tablearrangementstoalady’sinabilitytoplaythelosinggame。
Therestoftheeveningpassedwithoutawordoralookfromher。Shekeptherplaceatthepiano,andIkeptmineatthecard-table。Sheplayedunintermittingly——playedasifthemusicwasheronlyrefugefromherself。
Sometimesherfingerstouchedthenoteswithalingeringfondness——asoft,plaintive,dyingtenderness,unutterablybeautifulandmournfultohear;sometimestheyfalteredandfailedher,orhurriedovertheinstrumentmechanically,asiftheirtaskwasaburdentothem。Butstill,changeandwaverastheymightintheexpressiontheyimpartedtothemusic,theirresolutiontoplayneverfaltered。SheonlyrosefromthepianowhenweallrosetosayGood-night。
MrsVeseywasthenearesttothedoor,andthefirsttoshakehandswithme。
`Ishallnotseeyouagain,MrHartright,’saidtheoldlady。`Iamtrulysorryyouaregoingaway。Youhavebeenverykindandattentive,andanoldwomanlikemefeelskindnessandattention。Iwishyouhappy,sir——Iwishyouakindgood-bye。’
MrGilmorecamenext。
`Ihopeweshallhaveafutureopportunityofbetteringouracquaintance,MrHartright。Youquiteunderstandaboutthatlittlematterofbusinessbeingsafeinmyhands?Yes,yes,ofcourse。Blessme,howcolditis!
Don’tletmekeepyouatthedoor。Bonvoyage,mydearsir——bonvoyage,astheFrenchsay。’
Icouldaddnomore。Myvoicefaltered,myeyesmoistenedinspiteofme。
Shecaughtmebybothhands——shepressedthemwiththestrong,steadygraspofaman——herdarkeyesglittered——herbrowncomplexionflusheddeep——theforceandenergyofherfaceglowedandgrewbeautifulwiththepureinnerlightofhergenerosityandherpity。
`Iwilltrustyou——ifeverthetimecomesIwilltrustyouasmyfriendandherfriend,asmaybrotherandherbrother。’Shestopped,drewmenearertoher——thefearless,noblecreature——touchedmyforehead,sister-like,withherlips,andcalledmebymyChristianname。`Godblessyou,Walter!’shesaid。`Waitherealoneandcomposeyourself——Ihadbetternotstayforbothoursakes——Ihadbetterseeyougofromthebalconyupstairs。’
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