首页 >出版文学> THE WOMAN IN WHITE>第20章
  `Themisfortuneofmybeingshutup,’sheanswered,witheveryappearanceoffeelingsurprisedatmyquestion。`Whatothermisfortunecouldtherebe?’
  Ideterminedtopersist,asdelicatelyandforbearinglyaspossible。
  ItwasofverygreatimportancethatIshouldbeabsolutelysureofeverystepintheinvestigationwhichInowgainedinadvance。
  `Thereisanothermisfortune,’Isaid,`towhichawomanmaybeliable,andbywhichshemaysufferlifelongsorrowandshame。’
  `Whatisit?’sheaskedeagerly。
  `Themisfortuneofbelievingtooinnocentlyinherownvirtue,andinthefaithandhonourofthemansheloves,’Ianswered。
  Shelookedupatmewiththeartlessbewildermentofachild。Nottheslightestconfusionorchangeofcolour——notthefaintesttraceofanysecretconsciousnessofshamestrugglingtothesurfaceappearedinherface——thatfacewhichbetrayedeveryotheremotionwithsuchtransparentclearness。Nowordsthateverwerespokencouldhaveassuredme,asherlookandmannernowassuredme,thatthemotivewhichIhadassignedforherwritingtheletterandsendingittoMissFairliewasplainlyanddistinctlythewrongone。Thatdoubt,atanyrate,wasnowsetatrest;buttheveryremovalofitopenedanewprospectofuncertainty。Theletter,asIknewfrompositivetestimony,pointedatSirPercivalGlyde,thoughitdidnotnamehim。Shemusthavehadsomestrongmotive,originatinginsomedeepsenseofinjury,forsecretlydenouncinghimtoMissFairlieinsuchtermsasshehademployed,andthatmotivewasunquestionablynottobetracedtothelossofherinnocenceandhercharacter。Whateverwronghemighthaveinflictedonherwasnotofthatnature。Ofwhatnaturecoulditbe?
  `Idon’tunderstandyou,’shesaid,afterevidentlytryinghard,andtryinginvain,todiscoverthemeaningofthewordsIhadlastsaidtoher。
  `Nevermind,’Ianswered。`Letusgoonwithwhatweweretalkingabout。
  TellmehowlongyoustayedwithMrsClementsinLondon,andhowyoucamehere。’
  `Howlong?’sherepeated。`IstayedwithMrsClementstillwebothcametothisplace,twodaysago。’
  `Youarelivinginthevillage,then?’Isaid。`ItisstrangeIshouldnothaveheardofyou,thoughyouhaveonlybeenheretwodays。’
  `No,no,notinthevillage。Threemilesawayatafarm。Doyouknowthefarm?TheycallitTodd’sCorner。’
  Irememberedtheplaceperfectly——wehadoftenpassedbyitinourdrives。Itwasoneoftheoldestfarmsintheneighbourhood,situatedinasolitary,shelteredspot,inlandatthejunctionoftwohills。
  `TheyarerelationsofMrsClementsatTodd’sCorner,’shewenton,`andtheyhadoftenaskedhertogoandseethem。Shesaidshewouldgo,andtakemewithher,forthequietandthefreshair。Itwasverykind,wasitnot?Iwouldhavegoneanywheretobequiet,andsafe,andoutoftheway。ButwhenIheardthatTodd’sComerwasnearLimmeridge——ohI
  IwassohappyIwouldhavewalkedallthewaybarefoottogetthere,andseetheschoolsandthevillageandLimmeridgeHouseagain。TheyareverygoodpeopleatTodd’sCorner。IhopeIshallstaytherealongtime。ThereisonlyonethingIdon’tlikeaboutthem,anddon’tlikeaboutMrsClements——’
  `Whatisit?’
  `Theywillteasemeaboutdressingallinwhite——theysayitlookssoparticular。Howdotheyknow?MrsFairlieknewbest。MrsFairliewouldneverhavemademewearthisuglybluecloakIAhIshewasfondofwhiteinherlifetime,andhereiswhitestoneabouthergrave——andIammakingitwhiterforhersake。Sheoftenworewhiteherself,andshealwaysdressedherlittledaughterinwhite。IsMissFairliewellandhappy?Doesshewearwhitenow,assheusedwhenshewasagirl?’
  HervoicesankwhenshePutthequestionsaboutMissFairlie,andsheturnedherheadfartherandfartherawayfromme。IthoughtIdetected,inthealterationofhermanner,anuneasyconsciousnessoftheriskshehadruninsendingtheanonymousletter,andIinstantlydeterminedsotoframemyanswerastosurpriseherintoowningit。
  `MissFairliewasnotverywellorveryhappythismorning,’Isaid。
  Shemurmuredafewwords,buttheywerespokensoconfusedly,andinsuchalowtone,thatIcouldnotevenguessatwhattheymeant。
  `DidyouaskmewhyMissFairliewasneitherwellnorhappythismorning?’
  Icontinued。
  `No,’shesaidquicklyandeagerly——`ohno,Ineveraskedthat。’
  `Iwilltellyouwithoutyourasking,’Iwenton。`MissFairliehasreceivedyourletter。’
  Shehadbeendownonherkneesforsomelittletimepast,carefullyremovingthelastweather-stainsleftabouttheinscriptionwhilewewerespeakingtogether。ThefistsentenceofthewordsIhadjustaddressedtohermadeherpauseinheroccupation,andturnslowlywithoutrisingfromherknees,soastofaceme。Thesecondsentenceliterallypetrifiedher。Theclothshehadbeenholdingdroppedfromherhands——herlipsfellapart——allthelittlecolourthattherewasnaturallyinherfaceleftitinaninstant。
  `Howdoyouknow?shesaidfaintly。`Whoshowedittoyou?’Thebloodrushedbackintoherface——rushedoverwhelmingly,asthesenserusheduponhermindthatherownwordshadbetrayedher。Shestruckherhandstogetherindespair。`Ineverwroteit,’shegaspedaffrightedly;`Iknownothingaboutit!’
  `Yes,’Isaid,`youwroteit,andyouknowaboutit。Itwaswrongtosendsuchaletter,itwaswrongtofrightenMissFairlie。Ifyouhadanythingtosaythatitwasrightandnecessaryforhertohear,youshouldhavegoneyourselftoLimmeridgeHouse——youshouldhavespokentotheyoungladywithyourownlips。’
  Shecroucheddownovertheflatstoneofthegave,tillherfacewashiddenonit,andmadenoreply。
  `MissFairliewillbeasgoodandkindtoyouashermotherwas,ifyoumeanwell,’Iwenton。`MissFairliewillkeepyoursecret,andnotletyoucometoanyharm。Willyouseehertomorrowatthefarm?WillyoumeetherinthegardenatLimmeridgeHouse?’
  `Oh,ifIcoulddie,andbehiddenandatrestwithyou!’Herlipsmurmuredthewordscloseonthegrave-stone,murmuredthemintonesofpassionateendearment,tothedeadremainsbeneath。`YouknowhowI
  loveyourchild,foryoursake!Oh,MrsFairlie!MrsFairlie!tellmehowtosaveher。Bemydarlingandmymotheroncemore,andtellmewhattodoforthebest。’
  Iheardherlipskissingthestone——Isawherhandsbeatingonitpassionately。Thesoundandthesightdeeplyaffectedme。Istoopeddown,andtookthepoorhelplesshandstenderlyinmine,andtriedtosootheher。
  Itwasuseless。Shesnatchedherhandsfromme,andnevermovedherfacefromthestone。Seeingtheurgentnecessityofquietingheratanyhazardandbyanymeans,Iappealedtotheonlyanxietythatsheappearedtofeel,inconnectionwithmeandwithmyopinionofher——theanxietytoconvincemeofherfitnesstobemistressofherownactions。
  `Come,come,’Isaidgently。`Trytocomposeyourself,oryouwillmakemealtermyopinionofyou。Don’tletmethinkthatthepersonwhoputyouintheAsylummighthavehadsomeexcuse——’
  Thenextwordsdiedawayonmylips。TheinstantIriskedthatchancereferencetothepersonwhohadputherintheAsylumshespranguponherknees。Amostextraordinaryandstartlingchangepassedoverher。Herface,atallordinarytimessotouchingtolookat,initsnervoussensitiveness,weakness,anduncertainty,becamesuddenlydarkenedbyanexpressionofmaniacallyintensehatredandfear,whichcommunicatedawild,unnaturalforcetoeveryfeature。Hereyesdilatedinthedimeveninglight,liketheeyesofawildanimal。Shecaughtupthecloththathadfallenatherside,asifithadbeenalivingcreaturethatshecouldkill,andcrusheditinbothherhandswithsuchconvulsivestrength,thatthefewdropsofmoistureleftinittrickleddownonthestonebeneathher。
  `Talkofsomethingelse,’shesaid,whisperingthroughherteeth。`I
  shalllosemyselfifyoutalkofthat。’
  EveryvestigeofthegentlerthoughtswhichhadWedhermindhardlyaminutesinceseemedtobesweptfromitnow。ItwasevidentthattheimpressionleftbyMrsFairlie’skindnesswasnot,asIhadsupposed,theonlystrongimpressiononhermemory。Withthegratefulremembranceofherschool-daysatLimmeridge,thereexistedthevindictiveremembranceofthewronginflictedonherbyherconfinementintheAsylum。Whohaddonethatwrong?Coulditreallybehermother?
  Itwashardtogiveuppursuingtheinquirytothatfinalpoint,butIforcedmyselftoabandonallideaofcontinuingit。SeeingherasIsawhernow,itwouldhavebeencrueltothinkofanythingbutthenecessityandthehumanityofrestoringhercomposure。
  `Iwilltalkofnothingtodistressyou,’Isaidsoothingly。
  `Youwantsomething,’sheansweredsharplyandsuspiciously。`Don’tlookatmelikethat。Speaktome——tellmewhatyouwant。’
  `Ionlywantyoutoquietyourself,adwhenyouarecalmer,tothinkoverwhatIhavesaid。’
  `Said?’Shepaused——twistedtheclothinherhands,backwardsandforwards,andwhisperedtoherself,`Whatisithesaid?’Sheturnedagaintowardsme,andshookherheadimpatiently,`Whydon’tyouhelpme?’sheasked,withangrysuddenness。
  `Yes,yes,’Isaid,`Iwillhelpyou,andyouwillsoonremember。I
  askedyoutoseeMissFairlietomorrow,andtotellherthetruthabouttheletter。’
  `Ah!MissFairlie——Fairlie——Fairlie——’