首页 >出版文学> The Way of All Flesh>第10章
  ThiswastheaverageattitudeoffairlyeducatedyoungmenandwomentowardstheMosaiccosmogonyfifty,forty,oreventwentyyearsago。
  Thecombatingofinfidelity,therefore,offeredlittlescopeforenterprisingyoungclergymen,norhadtheChurchawakenedtotheactivitywhichshehassincedisplayedamongthepoorinourlargetowns。Thesewerethenleftalmostwithoutaneffortatresistanceorco-operationtothelaboursofthosewhohadsucceededWesley。
  Missionaryworkindeedinheathencountrieswasbeingcarriedonwithsomeenergy,butTheobalddidnotfeelanycalltobeamissionary。Christinasuggestedthistohimmorethanonce,andassuredhimoftheunspeakablehappinessitwouldbetohertobethewifeofamissionary,andtosharehisdangers;sheandTheobaldmightevenbemartyred;ofcoursetheywouldbemartyredsimultaneously,andmartyrdommanyyearshenceasregardedfromthearbourintheRectorygardenwasnotpainful,itwouldensurethemagloriousfutureinthenextworld,andatanyrateposthumousrenowninthis——eveniftheywerenotmiraculouslyrestoredtolifeagain——
  andsuchthingshadhappenederenowinthecaseofmartyrs。
  Theobald,however,hadnotbeenkindledbyChristina’senthusiasm,soshefellbackupontheChurchofRome——anenemymoredangerous,ifpossible,thanpaganismitself。AcombatwithRomanismmightevenyetwinforherandTheobaldthecrownofmartyrdom。True,theChurchofRomewastolerablyquietjustthen,butitwasthecalmbeforethestorm,ofthisshewasassured,withaconvictiondeeperthanshecouldhaveattainedbyanyargumentfoundeduponmerereason。
  “We,dearestTheobald。”sheexclaimed,“willbeeverfaithful。Wewillstandfirmandsupportoneanothereveninthehourofdeathitself。Godinhismercymayspareusfrombeingburntalive。Hemayormaynotdoso。OhLord“andsheturnedhereyesprayerfullytoHeaven,“sparemyTheobald,orgrantthathemaybebeheaded。”
  “Mydearest。”saidTheobaldgravely,“donotletusagitateourselvesunduly。Ifthehouroftrialcomesweshallbebestpreparedtomeetitbyhavingledaquietunobtrusivelifeofself-
  denialanddevotiontoGod’sglory。SuchalifeletusprayGodthatitmaypleaseHimtoenableustopraythatwemaylead。”
  “DearestTheobald。”exclaimedChristina,dryingthetearsthathadgatheredinhereyes,“youarealways,alwaysright。Letusbeself-denying,pure,upright,truthfulinwordanddeed。”SheclaspedherhandsandlookeduptoHeavenasshespoke。
  “Dearest。”rejoinedherlover,“wehaveeverhithertoendeavouredtobeallofthesethings;wehavenotbeenworldlypeople;letuswatchandpraythatwemaysocontinuetotheend。”
  Themoonhadrisenandthearbourwasgettingdamp,sotheyadjournedfurtheraspirationsforamoreconvenientseason。AtothertimesChristinapicturedherselfandTheobaldasbravingthescornofalmosteveryhumanbeingintheachievementofsomemightytaskwhichshouldredoundtothehonourofherRedeemer。Shecouldfaceanythingforthis。ButalwaystowardstheendofhervisiontherecamealittlecoronationscenehighupinthegoldenregionsoftheHeavens,andadiademwassetuponherheadbytheSonofManHimself,amidahostofangelsandarchangelswholookedonwithenvyandadmiration——andhereevenTheobaldhimselfwasoutofit。
  IftherecouldbesuchathingastheMammonofRighteousnessChristinawouldhaveassuredlymadefriendswithit。HerpapaandmammawereveryestimablepeopleandwouldinthecourseoftimereceiveHeavenlyMansionsinwhichtheywouldbeexceedinglycomfortable;sodoubtlesswouldhersisters;soperhaps,evenmightherbrothers;butforherselfshefeltthatahigherdestinywaspreparing,whichitwasherdutynevertolosesightof。ThefirststeptowardsitwouldbehermarriagewithTheobald。Inspite,however,oftheseflightsofreligiousromanticism,Christinawasagood-temperedkindly-naturedgirlenough,who,ifshehadmarriedasensiblelayman——wewillsayahotel-keeper——wouldhavedevelopedintoagoodlandladyandbeendeservedlypopularwithherguests。
  SuchwasTheobald’sengagedlife。Manyalittlepresentpassedbetweenthepair,andmanyasmallsurprisedidtheypreparepleasantlyforoneanother。Theyneverquarrelled,andneitherofthemeverflirtedwithanyoneelse。MrsAllabyandhisfuturesisters-in-lawidolisedTheobaldinspiteofitsbeingimpossibletogetanotherdeacontocomeandbeplayedforaslongasTheobaldwasabletohelpMrAllaby,whichnowofcoursehedidfreegratisandfornothing;twoofthesisters,however,didmanagetofindhusbandsbeforeChristinawasactuallymarried,andoneachoccasionTheobaldplayedthepartofdecoyelephant。Intheendonlytwooutofthesevendaughtersremainedsingle。
  Afterthreeorfouryears,oldMrPontifexbecameaccustomedtohisson’sengagementandlookeduponitasamongthethingswhichhadnowaprescriptiverighttotoleration。Inthespringof1831,morethanfiveyearsafterTheobaldhadfirstwalkedovertoCrampsford,oneofthebestlivingsinthegiftoftheCollegeunexpectedlyfellvacant,andwasforvariousreasonsdeclinedbythetwofellowsseniortoTheobald,whomighteachhavebeenexpectedtotakeit。
  ThelivingwasthenofferedtoandofcourseacceptedbyTheobald,beinginvaluenotlessthan500poundsayearwithasuitablehouseandgarden。OldMrPontifexthencamedownmorehandsomelythanwasexpectedandsettled10,000poundsonhissonanddaughter-in-lawforlifewithremaindertosuchoftheirissueastheymightappoint。InthemonthofJuly,1831TheobaldandChristinabecamemanandwife。
  AduenumberofoldshoeshadbeenthrownatthecarriageinwhichthehappypairdepartedfromtheRectory,andithadturnedthecorneratthebottomofthevillage。Itcouldthenbeseenfortwoorthreehundredyardscreepingpastafircoppice,andafterthiswaslosttoview。
  “John。”saidMrAllabytohisman-servant,“shutthegate;“andhewentindoorswithasighofreliefwhichseemedtosay:“Ihavedoneit,andIamalive。”Thiswasthereactionafteraburstofenthusiasticmerrimentduringwhichtheoldgentlemanhadruntwentyyardsafterthecarriagetoflingaslipperatit——whichhehaddulyflung。
  ButwhatwerethefeelingsofTheobaldandChristinawhenthevillagewaspassedandtheywererollingquietlybythefirplantation?Itisatthispointthateventhestoutestheartmustfail,unlessitbeatinthebreastofonewhoisoverheadandearsinlove。Ifayoungmanisinasmallboatonachoppysea,alongwithhisaffiancedbrideandbotharesea-sick,andifthesickswaincanforgethisownanguishinthehappinessofholdingthefairone’sheadwhensheisatherworst——thenheisinlove,andhisheartwillbeinnodangeroffailinghimashepasseshisfirplantation。Otherpeople,andunfortunatelybyfarthegreaternumberofthosewhogetmarriedmustbeclassedamongthe“otherpeople。”willinevitablygothroughaquarterorhalfanhourofgreaterorlessbadnessasthecasemaybe。Takingnumbersintoaccount,IshouldthinkmorementalsufferinghadbeenundergoneinthestreetsleadingfromStGeorge’s,HanoverSquare,thaninthecondemnedcellsofNewgate。ThereisnotimeatwhichwhattheItalianscalllafigliadellaMortelayshercoldhanduponamanmoreawfullythanduringthefirsthalfhourthatheisalonewithawomanwhomhehasmarriedbutnevergenuinelyloved。
  Death’sdaughterdidnotspareTheobald。Hehadbehavedverywellhitherto。WhenChristinahadofferedtolethimgo,hehadstucktohispostwithamagnanimityonwhichhehadplumedhimselfeversince。Fromthattimeforwardhehadsaidtohimself:“I,atanyrate,amtheverysoulofhonour;Iamnot。”etc。,etc。True,atthemomentofmagnanimitytheactualcashpayment,sotospeak,wasstilldistant;whenhisfathergaveformalconsenttohismarriagethingsbegantolookmoreserious;whenthecollegelivinghadfallenvacantandbeenacceptedtheylookedmoreseriousstill;butwhenChristinaactuallynamedtheday,thenTheobald’sheartfaintedwithinhim。
  Theengagementhadgoneonsolongthathehadgotintoagroove,andtheprospectofchangewasdisconcerting。Christinaandhehadgoton,hethoughttohimself,verynicelyforagreatnumberofyears;why——why——whyshouldtheynotcontinuetogoonastheyweredoingnowfortherestoftheirlives?Buttherewasnomorechanceofescapeforhimthanforthesheepwhichisbeingdriventothebutcher’sbackpremises,andlikethesheephefeltthattherewasnothingtobegainedbyresistance,sohemadenone。Hebehaved,infact,withdecency,andwasdeclaredonallhandstobeoneofthehappiestmenimaginable。
  Now,however,tochangethemetaphor,thedrophadactuallyfallen,andthepoorwretchwashanginginmidairalongwiththecreatureofhisaffections。Thiscreaturewasnowthirty-threeyearsold,andlookedit:shehadbeenweeping,andhereyesandnosewerereddish;if“IhavedoneitandIamalive。”waswrittenonMrAllaby’sfaceafterhehadthrowntheshoe,“Ihavedoneit,andI
  donotseehowIcanpossiblylivemuchlonger“wasuponthefaceofTheobaldashewasbeingdrivenalongbythefirPlantation。This,however,wasnotapparentattheRectory。Allthatcouldbeseentherewasthebobbingupanddownofthepostilion’shead,whichjustover-toppedthehedgebytheroad-sideasheroseinhisstirrups,andtheblackandyellowbodyofthecarriage。
  Forsometimethepairsaidnothing:whattheymusthavefeltduringtheirfirsthalfhour,thereadermustguess,foritisbeyondmypowertotellhim;attheendofthattime,however,TheobaldhadrummagedupaconclusionfromsomeoddcornerofhissoultotheeffectthatnowheandChristinaweremarriedthesoonertheyfellintotheirfuturemutualrelationsthebetter。Ifpeoplewhoareinadifficultywillonlydothefirstlittlereasonablethingwhichtheycanclearlyrecogniseasreasonable,theywillalwaysfindthenextstepmoreeasybothtoseeandtake。What,then,thoughtTheobald,washereatthismomentthefirstandmostobviousmattertobeconsidered,andwhatwouldbeanequitableviewofhisandChristina’srelativepositionsinrespecttoit?Clearlytheirfirstdinnerwastheirfirstjointentryintothedutiesandpleasuresofmarriedlife。NolessclearlyitwasChristina’sdutytoorderit,andhisowntoeatitandpayforit。
  Theargumentsleadingtothisconclusion,andtheconclusionitself,flasheduponTheobaldaboutthreeandahalfmilesafterhehadleftCrampsfordontheroadtoNewmarket。Hehadbreakfastedearly,buthisusualappetitehadfailedhim。Theyhadleftthevicarageatnoonwithoutstayingfortheweddingbreakfast。Theobaldlikedanearlydinner;itdawneduponhimthathewasbeginningtobehungry;
  fromthistotheconclusionstatedintheprecedingparagraphthestepshadbeeneasy。Afterafewminutes’furtherreflectionhebroachedthemattertohisbride,andthustheicewasbroken。
  MrsTheobaldwasnotpreparedforsosuddenanassumptionofimportance。Hernerves,neverofthestrongest,hadbeenstrungtotheirhighesttensionbytheeventofthemorning。Shewantedtoescapeobservation;shewasconsciousoflookingalittleolderthanshequitelikedtolookasabridewhohadbeenmarriedthatmorning;shefearedthelandlady,thechamber-maid,thewaiter——
  everybodyandeverything;herheartbeatsofastthatshecouldhardlyspeak,muchlessgothroughtheordealoforderingdinnerinastrangehotelwithastrangelandlady。Shebeggedandprayedtobeletoff。IfTheobaldwouldonlyorderdinnerthisonce,shewouldorderitanydayandeverydayinfuture。