AndnowImustbringmystorytoaclose。
Theprecedingchapterwaswrittensoonaftertheeventsitrecords——
thatistosayinthespringof1867。Bythattimemystoryhadbeenwrittenuptothispoint;butithasbeenalteredhereandtherefromtimetotimeoccasionally。Itisnowtheautumnof1882,andifIamtosaymoreIshoulddosoquickly,forIameightyyearsoldandthoughwellinhealthcannotconcealfrommyselfthatIamnolongeryoung。Ernesthimselfisforty-seven,thoughhehardlylooksit。
Heisricherthanever,forhehasnevermarriedandhisLondonandNorth-Westernshareshavenearlydoubledthemselves。Throughsheerinabilitytospendhisincomehehasbeenobligedtohoardinself-
defence。HestilllivesintheTempleinthesameroomsItookforhimwhenhegaveuphisshop,fornoonehasbeenabletoinducehimtotakeahouse。Hishouse,hesays,iswhereverthereisagoodhotel。Whenheisintownhelikestoworkandtobequiet。Whenoutoftownhefeelsthathehasleftlittlebehindhimthatcangowrong,andhewouldnotliketobetiedtoasinglelocality。“I
knownoexception。”hesays,“totherulethatitischeapertobuymilkthantokeepacow。”
AsIhavementionedMrsJupp,Imayaswellsayherethelittlethatremainstobesaidabouther。Sheisaveryoldwomannow,butnoonenowliving,asshesaystriumphantly,cansayhowold,forthewomanintheOldKentRoadisdead,andpresumablyhascarriedhersecrettothegrave。Old,however,thoughsheis,shelivesinthesamehouse,andfindsithardworktomakethetwoendsmeet,butI
donotknowthatshemindsthisverymuch,andithaspreventedherfromgettingmoretodrinkthanwouldbegoodforher。Itisnousetryingtodoanythingforherbeyondpayingherallowanceweekly,andabsolutelyrefusingtoletheranticipateit。ShepawnsherflatironeverySaturdayfor4d。,andtakesitouteveryMondaymorningfor4。5d。whenshegetsherallowance,andhasdonethisforthelasttenyearsasregularlyastheweekcomesround。Aslongasshedoesnotlettheflatironactuallygoweknowthatshecanstillworryoutherfinancialproblemsinherownhugger-muggerwayandhadbetterbelefttodoso。Iftheflatironweretogobeyondredemption,weshouldknowthatitwastimetointerfere。Idonotknowwhy,butthereissomethingaboutherwhichalwaysremindsmeofawomanwhowasasunlikeherasonepersoncanbetoanother——I
meanErnest’smother。
ThelasttimeIhadalonggossipwithherwasabouttwoyearsagowhenshecametomeinsteadoftoErnest。Shesaidshehadseenacabdriveupjustasshewasgoingtoenterthestaircase,andhadseenMrPontifex’spaputhisBeelzebuboldheadoutofthewindow,soshehadcomeontome,forshehadn’tgreasedhersidesfornocurtsey,notforthelikesofhim。Sheprofessedtobeverymuchdownonherluck。Herlodgersdidusehersodreadful,goingawaywithoutpayingandleavingnotsomuchasastickbehind,butto-dayshewasaspleasedasapennycarrot。Shehadhadsuchalovelydinner——acushionofhamandgreenpeas。Shehadhadagoodcryoverit,butthenshewassosilly,shewas。
“Andthere’sthatBell。”shecontinued,thoughIcouldnotdetectanyappearanceofconnection,“it’senoughtogiveanyonethehumptoseehimnowthathe’stakentochapel-going,andhismother’spreparedtomeetJesusandallthattome,andnowsheain’ta-goingtodie,anddrinkshalfabottleofchampagneaday,andthenGrigg,himaspreaches,youknow,askedBellifIreallywastoogay,notbutwhatwhenIwasyoungI’dsnapmyfingersatany’flybynight’
inHolborn,andifIwastoggedoutandhadmyteethI’ddoitnow。
IlostmypoordearWatkins,butofcoursethatcouldn’tbehelped,andthenIlostmydearRose。Sillyfaggottogoandrideonacartandcatchthebronchitics。IneverthoughtwhenIkissedmydearRoseinPullen’sPassageandshegavemethechop,thatIshouldneverseeheragain,andhergentlemanfriendwasfondofhertoo,thoughhewasamarriedman。Idaresayshe’sgonetobitsbynow。
Ifshecouldriseandseemewithmybadfinger,shewouldcry,andIshouldsay,’Nevermind,ducky,I’mallright。’Oh!dear,it’scomingontorain。IdohateawetSaturdaynight——poorwomenwiththeirnicewhitestockingsandtheirlivingtoget。”etc。,etc。
Andyetagedoesnotwitherthisgodlessoldsinner,aspeoplewouldsayitoughttodo。Whateverlifeshehasled,ithasagreedwithherverysufficiently。Attimesshegivesustounderstandthatsheisstillmuchsolicited;atothersshetakesquiteadifferenttone。
ShehasnotallowedevenJoeKingsomuchastoputhislipstohersthistenyears。Shewouldratherhaveamuttonchopanyday。“Butah!youshouldhaveseenmewhenIwassweetseventeen。Iwastheverymoralofmypoordearmother,andshewasaprettywoman,thoughIsayitthatshouldn’t。Shehadsuchasplendidmouthofteeth。Itwasasintoburyherinherteeth。”
Ionlyknewofonethingatwhichsheprofessestobeshocked。ItisthathersonTomandhiswifeTopsyareteachingthebabytoswear。“Oh!it’stoodreadfulawful。”sheexclaimed,“Idon’tknowthemeaningofthewords,butItellhimhe’sadrunkensot。”I
believetheoldwomaninrealityratherlikesit。
“Butsurely,MrsJupp。”saidI,“Tom’swifeusednottobeTopsy。
YouusedtospeakofherasPheeb。”
“Ah!yes。”sheanswered,“butPheebbehavedbad,andit’sTopsynow。”
Ernest’sdaughterAlicemarriedtheboywhohadbeenherplaymatemorethanayearago。Ernestgavethemalltheysaidtheywantedandagooddealmore。Theyhavealreadypresentedhimwithagrandson,andIdoubtnot,willdosowithmanymore。Georgiethoughonlytwenty-oneisownerofafinesteamerwhichhisfatherhasboughtforhim。HebeganwhenaboutthirteengoingwitholdRollingsandJackinthebargefromRochestertotheupperThameswithbricks;thenhisfatherboughthimandJackbargesoftheirown,andthenheboughtthembothships,andthensteamers。Idonotexactlyknowhowpeoplemakemoneybyhavingasteamer,buthedoeswhateverisusual,andfromallIcangathermakesitpayextremelywell。Heisagooddeallikehisfatherintheface,butwithoutaspark——sofarasIhavebeenabletoobserve——anyliteraryability;hehasafairsenseofhumourandabundanceofcommonsense,buthisinstinctisclearlyapracticalone。IamnotsurethathedoesnotputmeinmindalmostmoreofwhatTheobaldwouldhavebeenifhehadbeenasailor,thanofErnest。ErnestusedtogodowntoBattersbyandstaywithhisfatherforafewdaystwiceayearuntilTheobald’sdeath,andthepaircontinuedonexcellentterms,inspiteofwhattheneighbouringclergycall“theatrociousbookswhichMrErnestPontifex“haswritten。Perhapstheharmony,orratherabsenceofdiscordwhichsubsistedbetweenthepairwasduetothefactthatTheobaldhadneverlookedintotheinsideofoneofhisson’sworks,andErnest,ofcourse,neveralludedtotheminhisfather’spresence。Thepair,asIhavesaid,gotonexcellently,butitwasdoubtlessaswellthatErnest’svisitswereshortandnottoofrequent。OnceTheobaldwantedErnesttobringhischildren,butErnestknewtheywouldnotlikeit,sothiswasnotdone。
SometimesTheobaldcameuptotownonsmallbusinessmattersandpaidavisittoErnest’schambers;hegenerallybroughtwithhimacoupleoflettuces,oracabbage,orhalf-a-dozenturnipsdoneupinapieceofbrownpaper,andtoldErnestthatheknewfreshvegetableswereratherhardtogetinLondon,andhehadbroughthimsome。Ernesthadoftenexplainedtohimthatthevegetableswereofnousetohim,andthathehadratherhewouldnotbringthem;butTheobaldpersisted,Ibelievethroughsheerloveofdoingsomethingwhichhissondidnotlike,butwhichwastoosmalltotakenoticeof。
Heliveduntilabouttwelvemonthsago,whenhewasfounddeadinhisbedonthemorningafterhavingwrittenthefollowinglettertohisson:-
“DearErnest,——I’venothingparticulartowriteabout,butyourletterhasbeenlyingforsomedaysinthelimboofunansweredletters,towitmypocket,andit’stimeitwasanswered。
“Ikeepwonderfullywellandamabletowalkmyfiveorsixmileswithcomfort,butatmyagethere’snoknowinghowlongitwilllast,andtimefliesquickly。Ihavebeenbusypottingplantsallthemorning,butthisafternooniswet。
“WhatisthishorridGovernmentgoingtodowithIreland?Idon’texactlywishthey’dblowupMrGladstone,butifamadbullwouldchivyhimthere,andhewouldnevercomebackanymore,Ishouldnotbesorry。LordHartingtonisnotexactlythemanIshouldliketosetinhisplace,buthewouldbeimmeasurablybetterthanGladstone。
“ImissyoursisterCharlottemorethanIcanexpress。Shekeptmyhouseholdaccounts,andIcouldpourouttoheralllittleworries,andnowthatJoeyismarriedtoo,Idon’tknowwhatIshoulddoifoneorotherofthemdidnotcomesometimesandtakecareofme。MyonlycomfortisthatCharlottewillmakeherhusbandhappy,andthatheisasnearlyworthyofherasahusbandcanwellbe——Believeme,Youraffectionatefather,“THEOBALDPONTIFEX。”
ImaysayinpassingthatthoughTheobaldspeaksofCharlotte’smarriageasthoughitwererecent,ithadreallytakenplacesomesixyearspreviously,shebeingthenaboutthirty-eightyearsold,andherhusbandaboutsevenyearsyounger。
TherewasnodoubtthatTheobaldpassedpeacefullyawayduringhissleep。Canamanwhodiedthusbesaidtohavediedatall?Hehaspresentedthephenomenaofdeathtootherpeople,butinrespectofhimselfhehasnotonlynotdied,buthasnoteventhoughtthathewasgoingtodie。Thisisnotmorethanhalfdying,butthenneitherwashislifemorethanhalfliving。HepresentedsomanyofthephenomenaoflivingthatIsupposeonthewholeitwouldbelesstroubletothinkofhimashavingbeenalivethanasneverhavingbeenbornatall,butthisisonlypossiblebecauseassociationdoesnotsticktothestrictletterofitsbond。
This,however,wasnotthegeneralverdictconcerninghim,andthegeneralverdictisoftenthetruest。
Ernestwasoverwhelmedwithexpressionsofcondolenceandrespectforhisfather’smemory。“Henever。”saidDrMartin,theolddoctorwhobroughtErnestintotheworld,“spokeanillwordagainstanyone。Hewasnotonlyliked,hewasbelovedbyallwhohadanythingtodowithhim。”
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