首页 >出版文学> The Way of All Flesh>第72章
  “Well。”hecontinued,“therearealotofthingsthatwantsayingwhichnoonedarestosay,alotofshamswhichwantattacking,andyetnooneattacksthem。ItseemstomethatIcansaythingswhichnotanothermaninEnglandexceptmyselfwillventuretosay,andyetwhicharecryingtobesaid。”
  Isaid:“Butwhowilllisten?Ifyousaythingswhichnobodyelsewoulddaretosayisnotthismuchthesameassayingwhateveryoneexceptyourselfknowstobebetterleftunsaidjustnow?”
  “Perhaps。”saidhe,“butIdon’tknowit;Iamburstingwiththesethings,anditismyfatetosaythem。”
  Iknewtherewouldbenostoppinghim,soIgaveinandaskedwhatquestionhefeltaspecialdesiretoburnhisfingerswithinthefirstinstance。
  “Marriage。”herejoinedpromptly,“andthepowerofdisposingofhispropertyafteramanisdead。ThequestionofChristianityisvirtuallysettled,orifnotsettledthereisnolackofthoseengagedinsettlingit。Thequestionofthedaynowismarriageandthefamilysystem。”
  “That。”saidIdrily,“isahornet’snestindeed。”
  “Yes。”saidhenolessdrily,“buthornet’snestsareexactlywhatI
  happentolike。Before,however,IbegintostirupthisparticularoneIproposetotravelforafewyears,withtheespecialobjectoffindingoutwhatnationsnowexistingarethebest,comeliestandmostlovable,andalsowhatnationshavebeensointimespast。I
  wanttofindouthowthesepeoplelive,andhavelived,andwhattheircustomsare。
  “Ihaveveryvaguenotionsuponthesubjectasyet,butthegeneralimpressionIhaveformedisthat,puttingourselvesononeside,themostvigorousandamiableofknownnationsarethemodernItalians,theoldGreeksandRomans,andtheSouthSeaIslanders。Ibelievethatthesenicepeopleshavenotasageneralrulebeenpurists,butIwanttoseethoseofthemwhocanyetbeseen;theyarethepracticalauthoritiesonthequestion——Whatisbestforman?andI
  shouldliketoseethemandfindoutwhattheydo。Letussettlethefactfirstandfightaboutthemoraltendenciesafterwards。”
  “Infact。”saidIlaughingly,“youmeantohavehigholdtimes。”
  “Neitherhighernorlower。”wastheanswer,“thanthosepeoplewhomIcanfindtohavebeenthebestinallages。Butletuschangethesubject。”Heputhishandintohispocketandbroughtoutaletter。
  “Myfather。”hesaid,“gavemethisletterthismorningwiththesealalreadybroken。”Hepasseditovertome,andIfoundittobetheonewhichChristinahadwrittenbeforethebirthofherlastchild,andwhichIhavegiveninanearlierchapter。
  “Andyoudonotfindthisletter。”saidI,“affecttheconclusionwhichyouhavejusttoldmeyouhavecometoconcerningyourpresentplans?”
  Hesmiled,andanswered:“No。Butifyoudowhatyouhavesometimestalkedaboutandturntheadventuresofmyunworthyselfintoanovel,mindyouprintthisletter。”
  “Whyso?”saidI,feelingasthoughsuchaletterasthisshouldhavebeenheldsacredfromthepublicgaze。
  “Becausemymotherwouldhavewisheditpublished;ifshehadknownyouwerewritingaboutmeandhadthisletterinyourpossession,shewouldaboveallthingshavedesiredthatyoushouldpublishit。
  Thereforepublishitifyouwriteatall。”
  ThisiswhyIhavedoneso。
  WithinamonthErnestcarriedhisintentionintoeffect,andhavingmadeallthearrangementsnecessaryforhischildren’swelfareleftEnglandbeforeChristmas。
  Iheardfromhimnowandagainandlearntthathewasvisitingalmostallpartsoftheworld,butonlystayinginthoseplaceswherehefoundtheinhabitantsunusuallygood-lookingandagreeable。
  Hesaidhehadfilledanimmensequantityofnote-books,andIhavenodoubthehad。Atlastinthespringof1867hereturned,hisluggagestainedwiththevariationofeachhoteladvertisement’twixthereandJapan。Helookedverybrownandstrong,andsowellfavouredthatitalmostseemedasifhemusthavecaughtsomegoodlooksfromthepeopleamongwhomhehadbeenliving。HecamebacktohisoldroomsintheTemple,andsettleddownaseasilyasifhehadneverbeenawayaday。
  Oneofthefirstthingswedidwastogoandseethechildren;wetookthetraintoGravesend,andwalkedthenceforafewmilesalongtheriversidetillwecametothesolitaryhousewherethegoodpeoplelivedwithwhomErnesthadplacedthem。ItwasalovelyAprilmorning,butwithafreshairblowingfromoffthesea;thetidewashigh,andtheriverwasalivewithshippingcomingupwithwindandtide。Sea-gullswheeledaroundusoverhead,sea-weedclungeverywheretothebankswhichtheadvancingtidehadnotyetcovered,everythingwasoftheseasea-ey,andthefinebracingairwhichblewoverthewatermademefeelmorehungrythanIhaddoneformanyaday;Ididnotseehowchildrencouldliveinabetterphysicalatmospherethanthis,andapplaudedtheselectionwhichErnesthadmadeonbehalfofhisyoungsters。
  Whilewewerestillaquarterofamileoffweheardshoutsandchildren’slaughter,andcouldseealotofboysandgirlsrompingtogetherandrunningafteroneanother。Wecouldnotdistinguishourowntwo,butwhenwegotneartheyweresoonmadeout,fortheotherchildrenwereblue-eyed,flaxen-patedlittlefolks,whereasoursweredarkandstraight-haired。
  Wehadwrittentosaythatwewerecoming,buthaddesiredthatnothingshouldbesaidtothechildren,sothesepaidnomoreattentiontousthantheywouldhavedonetoanyotherstranger,whohappenedtovisitaspotsounfrequentedexceptbysea-faringfolk,whichweplainlywerenot。Theinterest,however,inuswasmuchquickenedwhenitwasdiscoveredthatwehadgotourpocketsfulloforangesandsweeties,toanextentgreaterthanithadenteredintotheirsmallimaginationstoconceiveaspossible。Atfirstwehadgreatdifficultyinmakingthemcomenearus。Theywerelikealotofwildyoungcolts,veryinquisitive,butverycoyandnottobecajoledeasily。Thechildrenwerenineinall——fiveboysandtwogirlsbelongingtoMrandMrsRollings,andtwotoErnest。IneversawafinerlotofchildrenthantheyoungRollings,theboyswerehardy,robust,fearlesslittlefellowswitheyesasclearashawks;
  theeldergirlwasexquisitelypretty,buttheyoungeronewasamerebaby。IfeltasIlookedatthem,thatifIhadhadchildrenofmyownIcouldhavewishednobetterhomeforthem,norbettercompanions。
  GeorgieandAlice,Ernest’stwochildren,wereevidentlyquiteasonefamilywiththeothers,andcalledMrandMrsRollingsuncleandaunt。Theyhadbeensoyoungwhentheywerefirstbroughttothehousethattheyhadbeenlookeduponinthelightofnewbabieswhohadbeenbornintothefamily。TheyknewnothingaboutMrandMrsRollingsbeingpaidsomuchaweektolookafterthem。Ernestaskedthemallwhattheywantedtobe。Theyhadonlyoneidea;oneandall,Georgieamongtherest,wantedtobebargemen。Youngduckscouldhardlyhaveamoreevidenthankeringafterthewater。
  “Andwhatdoyouwant,Alice?”saidErnest。
  “Oh。”shesaid,“I’mgoingtomarryJackhere,andbeabargeman’swife。”
  Jackwastheeldestboy,nownearlytwelve,asturdylittlefellow,theimageofwhatMrRollingsmusthavebeenathisage。Aswelookedathim,sostraightandwellgrownandwelldoneallround,I
  couldseeitwasinErnest’smindasmuchasinminethatshecouldhardlydomuchbetter。
  “Comehere,Jack,myboy。”saidErnest,“here’sashillingforyou。”
  Theboyblushedandcouldhardlybegottocomeinspiteofourpreviousblandishments;hehadhadpenniesgivenhimbefore,butshillingsnever。Hisfathercaughthimgood-naturedlybytheearandluggedhimtous。
  “He’sagoodboy,Jackis。”saidErnesttoMrRollings,“I’msureofthat。”
  “Yes。”saidMrRollings,“he’sawerrygoodboy,onlythatIcan’tgethimtolearnhisreadingandwriting。Hedon’tlikegoingtoschool,that’stheonlycomplaintIhaveagainsthim。Idon’tknowwhat’sthematterwithallmychildren,andyours,MrPontifex,isjustasbad,buttheynoneof’emlikesbooklearning,thoughtheylearnanythingelsefastenough。Why,asforJackhere,he’salmostasgoodabargemanasIam。”Andhelookedfondlyandpatronisinglytowardshisoffspring。
  “Ithink。”saidErnesttoMrRollings,“ifhewantstomarryAlicewhenhegetsolderhehadbetterdoso,andheshallhaveasmanybargesashelikes。Inthemeantime,MrRollings,sayinwhatwaymoneycanbeofusetoyou,andwhateveryoucanmakeusefulisatyourdisposal。”
  IneedhardlysaythatErnestmadematterseasyforthisgoodcouple;onestipulation,however,heinsistedon,namely,therewastobenomoresmuggling,andthattheyoungpeopleweretobekeptoutofthis;foralittlebirdhadtoldErnestthatsmugglinginaquietwaywasoneoftheresourcesoftheRollingsfamily。MrRollingswasnotsorrytoassenttothis,andIbelieveitisnowmanyyearssincethecoastguardpeoplehavesuspectedanyoftheRollingsfamilyasoffendersagainsttherevenuelaw。
  “WhyshouldItakethemfromwheretheyare。”saidErnesttomeinthetrainaswewenthome,“tosendthemtoschoolswheretheywillnotbeonehalfsohappy,andwheretheirillegitimacywillverylikelybeaworrytothem?Georgiewantstobeabargeman,lethimbeginasone,thesoonerthebetter;hemayaswellbeginwiththisaswithanythingelse;thenifheshowsdevelopmentsIcanbeonthelook-outtoencouragethemandmakethingseasyforhim;whileifheshowsnodesiretogoahead,whatonearthisthegoodoftryingtoshovehimforward?”
  Ernest,Ibelieve,wentonwithahomilyuponeducationgenerally,anduponthewayinwhichyoungpeopleshouldgothroughtheembryonicstageswiththeirmoneyasmuchaswiththeirlimbs,beginninglifeinamuchlowersocialpositionthanthatinwhichtheirparentswere,andalotmore,whichhehassincepublished;
  butIwasgettingoninyears,andthewalkandthebracingairhadmademesleepy,soerewehadgotpastGreenhitheStationonourreturnjourneyIhadsunkintoarefreshingsleep。