“ForthefirstdayortwoIthoughtsheneverwouldgetoverit;shesaiditwasajudgementuponher,andwentonaboutthingsasshehadsaidanddonemanyyearsago,beforeyourpaknewher,andI
don’tknowwhatshedidn’tsayorwouldn’thavesaidonlyIstoppedher;sheseemedoutofhermindlike,andsaidthatnoneoftheneighbourswouldeverspeaktoheragain,butthenextdayMrsBushbyherthatwasMissCowey,youknowcalled,andyourmaalwayswassofondofher,anditseemedtodoherapowero’good,forthenextdayshewentthroughallherdresses,andwesettledhowsheshouldhavethemaltered;andthenalltheneighbourscalledformilesandmilesround,andyourmacameinhere,andsaidshehadbeengoingthroughthewatersofmisery,andtheLordhadturnedthemtoawell。
“’Ohyes,Susan,’saidshe,’besureitisso。WhomtheLordlovethhechasteneth,Susan,’andhereshebegantocryagain。’Asforhim,’shewenton,’hehasmadehisbed,andhemustlieonit;whenhecomesoutofprisonhispawillknowwhatisbesttobedone,andMasterErnestmaybethankfulthathehasapasogoodandsolong-
suffering。’
“Thenwhenyouwouldnotseethem,thatwasacruelblowtoyourma。
Yourpadidnotsayanything;youknowyourpaneverdoessayverymuchunlesshe’sdownrightwaxyforthetime;butyourmatookondreadfulforafewdays,andIneversawthemasterlooksoblack;
but,blessyou,itallwentoffinafewdays,andIdon’tknowthatthere’sbeenmuchdifferenceineitherofthemsincethen,nottillyourmawastookill。”
Onthenightofhisarrivalhehadbehavedwellatfamilyprayers,asalsoonthefollowingmorning;hisfatherreadaboutDavid’sdyinginjunctionstoSolomoninthematterofShimei,buthedidnotmindit。Inthecourseoftheday,however,hiscornshadbeentroddenonsomanytimesthathewasinamisbehavinghumour,onthisthesecondnightafterhisarrival。HekneltnextCharlotteandsaidtheresponsesperfunctorily,notsoperfunctorilythatsheshouldknowforcertainthathewasdoingitmaliciously,butsoperfunctorilyastomakeheruncertainwhetherhemightbemaliciousornot,andwhenhehadtopraytobemadetrulyhonestandconscientiousheemphasisedthe“truly。”IdonotknowwhetherCharlottenoticedanything,butshekneltatsomedistancefromhimduringtherestofhisstay。HeassuresmethatthiswastheonlyspitefulthinghedidduringthewholetimehewasatBattersby。
Whenhewentuptohisbedroom,inwhich,todothemjustice,theyhadgivenhimafire,henoticedwhatindeedhehadnoticedassoonashewasshownintoitonhisarrival,thattherewasanilluminatedcardframedandglazedoverhisbedwiththewords,“Bethedaywearyorbethedaylong,atlastitringethtoevensong。”
Hewonderedtohimselfhowsuchpeoplecouldleavesuchacardinaroominwhichtheirvisitorswouldhavetospendthelasthoursoftheirevening,butheletitalone。“There’snotenoughdifferencebetween’weary’and’long’towarrantan’or,’“hesaid,“butI
supposeitisallright。”IbelieveChristinahadboughtthecardatabazaarinaidoftherestorationofaneighbouringchurch,andhavingbeenboughtithadgottobeused——besides,thesentimentwassotouchingandtheilluminationwasreallylovely。Anyhow,noironycouldbemorecompletethanleavingitinmyhero’sbedroom,thoughassuredlynoironyhadbeenintended。
OnthethirddayafterErnest’sarrivalChristinarelapsedagain。
Forthelasttwodaysshehadbeeninnopainandhadsleptagooddeal;herson’spresencestillseemedtocheerher,andsheoftensaidhowthankfulshewastobesurroundedonherdeath-bedbyafamilysohappy,soGod-fearing,sounited,butnowshebegantowander,and,beingmoresensibleoftheapproachofdeath,seemedalsomorealarmedatthethoughtsoftheDayofJudgment。
Sheventuredmorethanonceortwicetoreturntothesubjectofhersins,andimploredTheobaldtomakequitesurethattheywereforgivenher。Shehintedthatsheconsideredhisprofessionalreputationwasatstake;itwouldneverdoforhisownwifetofailinsecuringatanyrateapass。ThiswastouchingTheobaldonatenderspot;hewincedandrejoinedwithanimpatienttossofthehead,“But,Christina,theyAREforgivenyou“;andthenheentrenchedhimselfinafirmbutdignifiedmannerbehindtheLord’sprayer。Whenherosehelefttheroom,butcalledErnestouttosaythathecouldnotwishitprolonged。
Joeywasnomoreuseinquietinghismother’sanxietythanTheobaldhadbeen——indeedhewasonlyTheobaldandwater;atlastErnest,whohadnotlikedinterfering,tookthematterinhand,and,sittingbesideher,letherpourouthergrieftohimwithoutletorhindrance。
ShesaidsheknewshehadnotgivenupallforChrist’ssake;itwasthisthatweigheduponher。Shehadgivenupmuch,andhadalwaystriedtogiveupmoreyearbyyear,stillsheknewverywellthatshehadnotbeensospirituallymindedassheoughttohavebeen。
Ifshehad,sheshouldprobablyhavebeenfavouredwithsomedirectvisionorcommunication;whereas,thoughGodhadvouchsafedsuchdirectandvisibleangelicvisitstooneofherdearchildren,yetshehadhadnonesuchherself——norevenhadTheobald。
ShewastalkingrathertoherselfthantoErnestasshesaidthesewords,buttheymadehimopenhisears。HewantedtoknowwhethertheangelhadappearedtoJoeyortoCharlotte。Heaskedhismother,butsheseemedsurprised,asthoughsheexpectedhimtoknowallaboutit,then,asifsheremembered,shecheckedherselfandsaid,“Ah!yes——youknownothingofallthis,andperhapsitisaswell。”Ernestcouldnotofcoursepressthesubject,soheneverfoundoutwhichofhisnearrelationsitwaswhohadhaddirectcommunicationwithanimmortal。Theothersneversaidanythingtohimaboutit,thoughwhetherthiswasbecausetheywereashamed,orbecausetheyfearedhewouldnotbelievethestoryandthusincreasehisowndamnation,hecouldnotdetermine。
Ernesthasoftenthoughtaboutthissince。HetriedtogetthefactsoutofSusan,whohewassurewouldknow,butCharlottehadbeenbeforehandwithhim。“No,MasterErnest。”saidSusan,whenhebegantoquestionher,“yourmahassentamessagetomebyMissCharlotteasIamnottosaynothingatallaboutit,andIneverwill。”Ofcoursenofurtherquestioningwaspossible。IthadmorethanonceoccurredtoErnestthatCharlottedidnotinrealitybelievemorethanhedidhimself,andthisincidentwentfartostrengthenhissurmises,buthewaveredwhenherememberedhowshehadmisdirectedtheletteraskingfortheprayersofthecongregation。Isuppose。”hesaidtohimselfgloomily,“shedoesbelieveinitafterall。”
ThenChristinareturnedtothesubjectofherownwantofspiritual-
mindedness,sheevenharpedupontheoldgrievanceofherhavingeatenblackpuddings——true,shehadgiventhemupyearsago,butforhowmanyyearshadshenotperseveredineatingthemaftershehadhadmisgivingsabouttheirhavingbeenforbidden!Thentherewassomethingthatweighedonhermindthathadtakenplacebeforehermarriage,andsheshouldlike-
Ernestinterrupted:“Mydearmother。”hesaid,“youareillandyourmindisunstrung;otherscannowjudgebetteraboutyouthanyoucan;Iassureyouthattomeyouseemtohavebeenthemostdevotedlyunselfishwifeandmotherthateverlived。EvenifyouhavenotliterallygivenupallforChrist’ssake,youhavedonesopracticallyasfarasitwasinyourpower,andmorethanthisisnotrequiredofanyone。Ibelieveyouwillnotonlybeasaint,butaverydistinguishedone。”
AtthesewordsChristinabrightened。“Yougivemehope,yougivemehope。”shecried,anddriedhereyes。Shemadehimassureheroverandoveragainthatthiswashissolemnconviction;shedidnotcareaboutbeingadistinguishedsaintnow;shewouldbequitecontenttobeamongthemeanestwhoactuallygotintoheaven,providedshecouldmakesureofescapingthatawfulHell。Thefearofthisevidentlywasomnipresentwithher,andinspiteofallErnestcouldsayhedidnotquitedispelit。Shewasratherungrateful,Imustconfess,foraftermorethananhour’sconsolationfromErnestsheprayedforhimthathemighthaveeveryblessinginthisworld,inasmuchasshealwaysfearedthathewastheonlyoneofherchildrenwhomsheshouldnevermeetinheaven;butshewasthenwandering,andwashardlyawareofhispresence;hermindinfactwasrevertingtostatesinwhichithadbeenbeforeherillness。
OnSundayErnestwenttochurchasamatterofcourse,andnotedthattheeverrecedingtideofEvangelicalismhadebbedmanyastagelower,evenduringthefewyearsofhisabsence。HisfatherusedtowalktothechurchthroughtheRectorygarden,andacrossasmallinterveningfield。Hehadbeenusedtowalkinatallhat,hisMaster’sgown,andwearingapairofGenevabands。Ernestnoticedthatthebandswerewornnolonger,andlo!greatermarvelstill,TheobalddidnotpreachinhisMaster’sgown,butinasurplice。
Thewholecharacteroftheservicewaschanged;youcouldnotsayitwashighevennow,forhigh-churchTheobaldcouldneverunderanycircumstancesbecome,buttheoldeasy-goingslovenliness,ifImaysayso,wasgoneforever。Theorchestralaccompanimentstothehymnshaddisappearedwhilemyherowasyetaboy,buttherehadbeennochantingforsomeyearsaftertheharmoniumhadbeenintroduced。WhileErnestwasatCambridge,CharlotteandChristinahadprevailedonTheobaldtoallowthecanticlestobesung;andsungtheyweretoold-fashioneddoublechantsbyLordMorningtonandDrDupuisandothers。Theobalddidnotlikeit,buthedidit,orallowedittobedone。
ThenChristinasaid:“Mydear,doyouknow,Ireallythink“
Christinaalways“really“thought“thatthepeoplelikethechantingverymuch,andthatitwillbeameansofbringingmanytochurchwhohavestayedawayhitherto。IwastalkingaboutittoMrsGoodhewandtooldMissWrightonlyyesterday,andtheyQUITEagreedwithme,buttheyallsaidthatweoughttochantthe’GlorybetotheFather’attheendofeachofthepsalmsinsteadofsayingit。”
Theobaldlookedblack——hefeltthewatersofchantingrisinghigherandhigheruponhiminchbyinch;buthefeltalso,heknewnotwhy,thathehadbetteryieldthanfight。Soheorderedthe“GlorybetotheFather“tobechantedinfuture,buthedidnotlikeit。
“Really,mammadear。”saidCharlotte,whenthebattlewaswon,“youshouldnotcallitthe’GlorybetotheFather’youshouldsay’Gloria。’“
“Ofcourse,mydear。”saidChristina,andshesaid“Gloria“foreverafter。ThenshethoughtwhatawonderfullyclevergirlCharlottewas,andhowsheoughttomarrynoonelowerthanabishop。By-and-
bywhenTheobaldwentawayforanunusuallylongholidayonesummer,hecouldfindnoonebutaratherhigh-churchclergymantotakehisduty。Thisgentlemanwasamanofweightintheneighbourhood,havingconsiderableprivatemeans,butwithoutpreferment。Inthesummerhewouldoftenhelphisbrotherclergymen,anditwasthroughhisbeingwillingtotakethedutyatBattersbyforafewSundaysthatTheobaldhadbeenabletogetawayforsolong。Onhisreturn,however,hefoundthatthewholepsalmswerebeingchantedaswellastheGlorias。Theinfluentialclergyman,Christina,andCharlottetookthebullbythehornsassoonasTheobaldreturned,andlaugheditalloff;andtheclergymanlaughedandbounced,andChristinalaughedandcoaxed,andCharlotteutteredunexceptionablesentiments,andthethingwasdonenow,andcouldnotbeundone,anditwasnousegrievingoverspiltmilk;sohenceforththepsalmsweretobechanted,butTheobaldgrisledoveritinhisheart,andhedidnotlikeit。
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