Ineedhardlysaythatthecalmwasonlyonthesurface。Oldermen,whoknewmorethanundergraduateswerelikelytodo,musthaveseenthatthewaveofscepticismwhichhadalreadybrokenoverGermanywassettingtowardsourownshores,norwasitlong,indeed,beforeitreachedthem。Ernesthadhardlybeenordainedbeforethreeworksinquicksuccessionarrestedtheattentionevenofthosewhopaidleastheedtotheologicalcontroversy。Imean“EssaysandReviews。”
CharlesDarwin’s“OriginofSpecies。”andBishopColenso’s“CriticismsonthePentateuch。”
This,however,isadigression;ImustreverttotheonephaseofspiritualactivitywhichhadanylifeinitduringthetimeErnestwasatCambridge,thatistosay,totheremainsoftheEvangelicalawakeningofmorethanagenerationearlier,whichwasconnectedwiththenameofSimeon。
TherewerestillagoodmanySimeonites,orastheyweremorebrieflycalled“Sims。”inErnest’stime。Everycollegecontainedsomeofthem,buttheirheadquarterswereatCaius,whithertheywereattractedbyMrClaytonwhowasatthattimeseniortutor,andamongthesizarsofStJohn’s。
Behindthethenchapelofthislast-namedcollege,therewasa“labyrinth“thiswasthenameitboreofdingy,tumble-downrooms,tenantedexclusivelybythepoorestundergraduates,whoweredependentuponsizarshipsandscholarshipsforthemeansoftakingtheirdegrees。Tomany,evenatStJohn’s,theexistenceandwhereaboutsofthelabyrinthinwhichthesizarschieflylivedwasunknown;somemeninErnest’stime,whohadroomsinthefirstcourt,hadneverfoundtheirwaythroughthesinuouspassagewhichledtoit。
Inthelabyrinththeredweltmenofallages,frommereladstogrey-hairedoldmenwhohadenteredlateinlife。Theywererarelyseenexceptinhallorchapeloratlecture,wheretheirmannersoffeeding,prayingandstudying,wereconsideredalikeobjectionable;
nooneknewwhencetheycame,whithertheywent,norwhattheydid,fortheynevershowedatcricketortheboats;theywereagloomy,seedy-lookingconferie,whohadaslittletogloryininclothesandmannersasinthefleshitself。
Ernestandhisfriendsusedtoconsiderthemselvesmarvelsofeconomyforgettingonwithsolittlemoney,butthegreaternumberofdwellersinthelabyrinthwouldhaveconsideredone-halfoftheirexpendituretobeanexceedingmeasureofaffluence,andsodoubtlessanydomestictyrannywhichhadbeenexperiencedbyErnestwasasmallthingtowhattheaverageJohniansizarhadhadtoputupwith。
Afewwouldatonceemergeonitsbeingfoundaftertheirfirstexaminationthattheywerelikelytobeornamentstothecollege;
thesewouldwinvaluablescholarshipsthatenabledthemtoliveinsomedegreeofcomfort,andwouldamalgamatewiththemorestudiousofthosewhowereinabettersocialposition,buteventhese,withfewexceptions,werelonginshakingofftheuncouthnesstheybroughtwiththemtotheUniversity,norwouldtheiroriginceasetobeeasilyrecognisabletilltheyhadbecomedonsandtutors。Ihaveseensomeofthesemenattainhighpositionintheworldofpoliticsorscience,andyetstillretainalookoflabyrinthandJohniansizarship。
Unprepossessingthen,infeature,gaitandmanners,unkemptandill-
dressedbeyondwhatcanbeeasilydescribed,thesepoorfellowsformedaclassapart,whosethoughtsandwayswerenotasthethoughtsandwaysofErnestandhisfriends,anditwasamongthemthatSimeonismchieflyflourished。
DestinedmostofthemfortheChurchforinthosedays“holyorders“wereseldomheardof,theSimeonitesheldthemselvestohavereceivedaveryloudcalltotheministry,andwerereadytopinchthemselvesforyearssoastoprepareforitbythenecessarytheologicalcourses。Tomostofthemthefactofbecomingclergymenwouldbetheentreeintoasocialpositionfromwhichtheywereatpresentkeptoutbybarrierstheywellknewtobeimpassable;
ordination,therefore,openedfieldsforambitionwhichmadeitthecentralpointintheirthoughts,ratherthanaswithErnest,somethingwhichhesupposedwouldhavetobedonesomeday,butaboutwhich,asaboutdying,hehopedtherewasnoneedtotroublehimselfasyet。
Bywayofpreparingthemselvesmorecompletelytheywouldhavemeetingsinoneanother’sroomsforteaandprayerandotherspiritualexercises。Placingthemselvesundertheguidanceofafewwell-knowntutorstheywouldteachinSundaySchools,andbeinstant,inseasonandoutofseason,inimpartingspiritualinstructiontoallwhomtheycouldpersuadetolistentothem。
Butthesoilofthemoreprosperousundergraduateswasnotsuitablefortheseedtheytriedtosow。Thesmallpietieswithwhichtheylardedtheirdiscourse,ifchancethrewthemintothecompanyofonewhomtheyconsideredworldly,causednothingbutaversioninthemindsofthoseforwhomtheywereintended。Whentheydistributedtracts,droppingthembynightintogoodmen’sletterboxeswhiletheywereasleep,theirtractsgotburnt,ormetwithevenworsecontumely;theywerethemselvesalsotreatedwiththeridiculewhichtheyreflectedproudlyhadbeenthelotoftruefollowersofChristinallages。OftenattheirprayermeetingswasthepassageofStPaulreferredtoinwhichhebidshisCorinthianconvertsnoteconcerningthemselvesthattheywereforthemostpartneitherwell-
brednorintellectualpeople。Theyreflectedwithpridethattheytoohadnothingtobeproudofintheserespects,andlikeStPaul,gloriedinthefactthatinthefleshtheyhadnotmuchtoglory。
ErnesthadseveralJohnianfriends,andcamethustohearabouttheSimeonitesandtoseesomeofthem,whowerepointedouttohimastheypassedthroughthecourts。Theyhadarepellentattractionforhim;hedislikedthem,buthecouldnotbringhimselftoleavethemalone。Ononeoccasionhehadgonesofarastoparodyoneofthetractstheyhadsentroundinthenight,andtogetacopydroppedintoeachoftheleadingSimeonites’boxes。Thesubjecthehadtakenwas“PersonalCleanliness。”Cleanliness,hesaid,wasnexttogodliness;hewishedtoknowonwhichsideitwastostand,andconcludedbyexhortingSimeonitestoafreeruseofthetub。I
cannotcommendmyhero’shumourinthismatter;histractwasnotbrilliant,butImentionthefactasshowingthatatthistimehewassomethingofaSaulandtookpleasureinpersecutingtheelect,not,asIhavesaid,thathehadanyhankeringafterscepticism,butbecause,likethefarmersinhisfather’svillage,thoughhewouldnotstandseeingtheChristianreligionmadelightof,hewasnotgoingtoseeittakenseriously。Ernest’sfriendsthoughthisdislikeforSimeoniteswasduetohisbeingthesonofaclergymanwho,itwasknown,bulliedhim;itismorelikely,however,thatitrosefromanunconscioussympathywiththem,which,asinStPaul’scase,intheenddrewhimintotheranksofthosewhomhehadmostdespisedandhated。
Once,recently,whenhewasdownathomeaftertakinghisdegree,hismotherhadhadashortconversationwithhimabouthisbecomingaclergyman,setontheretobyTheobald,whoshrankfromthesubjecthimself。Thistimeitwasduringaturntakeninthegarden,andnotonthesofa——whichwasreservedforsupremeoccasions。
“Youknow,mydearestboy。”shesaidtohim,“thatpapa“shealwayscalledTheobald“papa“whentalkingtoErnest“issoanxiousyoushouldnotgointotheChurchblindly,andwithoutfullyrealisingthedifficultiesofaclergyman’sposition。Hehasconsideredallofthemhimself,andhasbeenshownhowsmalltheyare,whentheyarefacedboldly,buthewishesyou,too,tofeelthemasstronglyandcompletelyaspossiblebeforecommittingyourselftoirrevocablevows,sothatyoumaynever,neverhavetoregretthestepyouwillhavetaken。”
ThiswasthefirsttimeErnesthadheardthattherewereanydifficulties,andhenotunnaturallyenquiredinavaguewayaftertheirnature。
“That,mydearboy。”rejoinedChristina,“isaquestionwhichIamnotfittedtoenteruponeitherbynatureoreducation。Imighteasilyunsettleyourmindwithoutbeingabletosettleitagain。
Oh,no!Suchquestionsarefarbetteravoidedbywomen,and,I
shouldhavethought,bymen,butpapawishedmetospeaktoyouuponthesubject,sothattheremightbenomistakehereafter,andIhavedoneso。Now,therefore,youknowall。”
Theconversationendedhere,sofarasthissubjectwasconcerned,andErnestthoughthedidknowall。Hismotherwouldnothavetoldhimheknewall——notaboutamatterofthatsort——unlessheactuallydidknowit;well,itdidnotcometoverymuch;hesupposedthereweresomedifficulties,buthisfather,whoatanyratewasanexcellentscholarandalearnedman,wasprobablyquiterighthere,andheneednottroublehimselfmoreaboutthem。Solittleimpressiondidtheconversationmakeonhim,thatitwasnottilllongafterwardsthat,happeningtorememberit,hesawwhatapieceofsleightofhandhadbeenpractiseduponhim。TheobaldandChristina,however,weresatisfiedthattheyhaddonetheirdutybyopeningtheirson’seyestothedifficultiesofassentingtoallaclergymanmustassentto。Thiswasenough;itwasamatterforrejoicingthat,thoughtheyhadbeenputsofullyandcandidlybeforehim,hedidnotfindthemserious。Itwasnotinvainthattheyhadprayedforsomanyyearstobemade“TRULYhonestandconscientious。”
“Andnow,mydear。”resumedChristina,afterhavingdisposedofallthedifficultiesthatmightstandinthewayofErnest’sbecomingaclergyman,“thereisanothermatteronwhichIshouldliketohaveatalkwithyou。ItisaboutyoursisterCharlotte。Youknowhowcleversheis,andwhatadear,kindsistershehasbeenandalwayswillbetoyourselfandJoey。Iwish,mydearestErnest,thatIsawmorechanceofherfindingasuitablehusbandthanIdoatBattersby,andIsometimesthinkyoumightdomorethanyoudotohelpher。”
Ernestbegantochafeatthis,forhehadhearditsooften,buthesaidnothing。
“Youknow,mydear,abrothercandosomuchforhissisterifhelayshimselfouttodoit。Amothercandoverylittle——indeed,itishardlyamother’splacetoseekoutyoungmen;itisabrother’splacetofindasuitablepartnerforhissister;allthatIcandoistotrytomakeBattersbyasattractiveaspossibletoanyofyourfriendswhomyoumayinvite。Andinthat。”sheadded,withalittletossofherhead,“IdonotthinkIhavebeendeficienthitherto。”
Ernestsaidhehadalreadyatdifferenttimesaskedseveralofhisfriends。
“Yes,mydear,butyoumustadmitthattheywerenoneofthemexactlythekindofyoungmanwhomCharlottecouldbeexpectedtotakeafancyto。Indeed,Imustowntohavingbeenalittledisappointedthatyoushouldhaveyourselfchosenanyoftheseasyourintimatefriends。”
Ernestwincedagain。
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