TheReturnHomeWHILEthatpartinginthewoodwashappening,therewasapartinginthecottagetoo,andLisbethhadstoodwithAdamatthedoor,strainingheragedeyestogetthelastglimpseofSethandDinah,astheymountedtheoppositeslope。
"Eh,I’mloathtoseethelastonher,"shesaidtoAdam,astheyturnedintothehouseagain。"I’dha’beenwillin’t’ha’heraboutmetillIdiedandwenttoliebymyoldman。She’dmakeiteasierdyin’——shespakessogentlean’movesaboutsostill。I
couldbefastsurethatpictur’wasdrawedforheri’thynewBible——th’angela-sittin’onthebigstonebythegrave。Eh,I
wouldnamindha’inadaughterlikethat;butnobodyne’ermarriesthemasisgoodforaught。"
"Well,Mother,IhopetheeWILThaveherforadaughter;forSeth’sgotalikingforher,andIhopeshe’llgetalikingforSethintime。"
"Where’sth’useo’talkin’a-that’n?ShecaresnaforSeth。
She’sgoin’awaytwentymileaff。How’sshetogetalikin’forhim,I’dliketoknow?Nomorenorthecake’ullcomewi’outtheleaven。Thyfigurin’booksmightha’touldtheebetternorthat,Ishouldthink,elsetheemightstaswellreadthecomminprint,asSethallaysdoes。"
"Nay,Mother,"saidAdam,laughing,"thefigurestellusafinedeal,andwecouldn’tgofarwithout’em,buttheydon’ttellusaboutfolks’sfeelings。It’sanicerjobtocalculateTHEM。ButSeth’sasgood-heartedaladaseverhandledatool,andplentyo’
sense,andgood-lookingtoo;andhe’sgotthesamewayo’thinkingasDinah。Hedeservestowinher,thoughthere’snodenyingshe’sararebito’workmanship。Youdon’tseesuchwomenturnedoffthewheeleveryday。"
"Eh,thee’tallaysstickupforthybrother。Thee’stbeenjustthesame,e’ersin’yewarlittleunstogether。Theewartallaysforhalvingiverythingwi’him。Butwhat’sSethgottodowithmarryin’,asison’ythree-an’-twenty?He’dmoreneedtolearnan’laybysixpence。An’asforhisdesarvingher——she’stwo’earoldernorSeth:she’sprettynearasoldasthee。Butthat’stheway;folksmunallayschoosebycontrairies,asiftheymustbesortedlikethepork——abito’goodmeatwi’abito’offal。"
Tothefemininemindinsomeofitsmoods,allthingsthatmightbereceiveatemporarycharmfromcomparisonwithwhatis;andsinceAdamdidnotwanttomarryDinahhimself,Lisbethfeltratherpeevishonthatscore——aspeevishasshewouldhavebeenifheHADwantedtomarryher,andsoshuthimselfoutfromMaryBurgeandthepartnershipaseffectuallyasbymarryingHetty。
Itwasmorethanhalf-pasteightwhenAdamandhismotherweretalkinginthisway,sothatwhen,abouttenminuteslater,Hettyreachedtheturningofthelanethatledtothefarmyardgate,shesawDinahandSethapproachingitfromtheoppositedirection,andwaitedforthemtocomeuptoher。They,too,likeHetty,hadlingeredalittleintheirwalk,forDinahwastryingtospeakwordsofcomfortandstrengthtoSethinthesepartingmoments。
ButwhentheysawHetty,theypausedandshookhands;Sethturnedhomewards,andDinahcameonalone。
"SethBedewouldhavecomeandspokentoyou,mydear,"shesaid,asshereachedHetty,"buthe’sveryfulloftroubleto-night。"
Hettyansweredwithadimpledsmile,asifshedidnotquiteknowwhathadbeensaid;anditmadeastrangecontrasttoseethatsparklingself-engrossedlovelinesslookedatbyDinah’scalmpityingface,withitsopenglancewhichtoldthatherheartlivedinnocherishedsecretsofitsown,butinfeelingswhichitlongedtosharewithalltheworld。HettylikedDinahaswellasshehadeverlikedanywoman;howwasitpossibletofeelotherwisetowardsonewhoalwaysputinakindwordforherwhenherauntwasfindingfault,andwhowasalwaysreadytotakeTottyoffherhands——littletiresomeTotty,thatwasmadesuchapetofbyeveryone,andthatHettycouldseenointerestinatall?
DinahhadneversaidanythingdisapprovingorreproachfultoHettyduringherwholevisittotheHallFarm;shehadtalkedtoheragreatdealinaseriousway,butHettydidn’tmindthatmuch,forsheneverlistened:whateverDinahmightsay,shealmostalwaysstrokedHetty’scheekafterit,andwantedtodosomemendingforher。Dinahwasariddletoher;Hettylookedathermuchinthesamewayasonemightimaginealittleperchingbirdthatcouldonlyflutterfromboughtobough,tolookattheswoopoftheswalloworthemountingofthelark;butshedidnotcaretosolvesuchriddles,anymorethanshecaredtoknowwhatwasmeantbythepicturesinthePilgrim’sProgress,orintheoldfolioBiblethatMartyandTommyalwaysplaguedheraboutonaSunday。
Dinahtookherhandnowanddrewitunderherownarm。
"Youlookveryhappyto-night,dearchild,"shesaid。"IshallthinkotyouoftenwhenI’matSnowfield,andseeyourfacebeforemeasitisnow。It’sastrangething——sometimeswhenI’mquitealone,sittinginmyroomwithmyeyesclosed,orwalkingoverthehills,thepeopleI’veseenandknown,ifit’sonlybeenforafewdays,arebroughtbeforeme,andIheartheirvoicesandseethemlookandmovealmostplainerthanIeverdidwhentheywerereallywithmesoasIcouldtouchthem。Andthenmyheartisdrawnouttowardsthem,andIfeeltheirlotasifitwasmyown,andItakecomfortinspreadingitbeforetheLordandrestinginHislove,ontheirbehalfaswellasmyown。AndsoIfeelsureyouwillcomebeforeme。"
Shepausedamoment,butHettysaidnothing。
"Ithasbeenaveryprecioustimetome,"Dinahwenton,"lastnightandto-day——seeingtwosuchgoodsonsasAdamandSethBede。
Theyaresotenderandthoughtfulfortheiragedmother。AndshehasbeentellingmewhatAdamhasdone,forthesemanyyears,tohelphisfatherandhisbrother;it’swonderfulwhataspiritofwisdomandknowledgehehas,andhowhe’sreadytouseitallinbehalfofthemthatarefeeble。AndI’msurehehasalovingspirittoo。I’venoticeditoftenamongmyownpeopleroundSnowfield,thatthestrong,skilfulmenareoftenthegentlesttothewomenandchildren;andit’sprettytosee’emcarryingthelittlebabiesasiftheywerenoheavierthanlittlebirds。Andthebabiesalwaysseemtolikethestrongarmbest。IfeelsureitwouldbesowithAdamBede。Don’tyouthinkso,Hetty?"
"Yes,"saidHettyabstractedly,forhermindhadbeenallthewhileinthewood,andshewouldhavefounditdifficulttosaywhatshewasassentingto。Dinahsawshewasnotinclinedtotalk,buttherewouldnothavebeentimetosaymuchmore,fortheywerenowattheyard-gate。
Thestilltwilight,withitsdyingwesternredanditsfewfaintstrugglingstars,restedonthefarm-yard,wheretherewasnotasoundtobeheardbutthestampingofthecart-horsesinthestable。Itwasabouttwentyminutesaftersunset。Thefowlswereallgonetoroost,andthebull-doglaystretchedonthestrawoutsidehiskennel,withtheblack-and-tanterrierbyhisside,whenthefalling-toofthegatedisturbedthemandsetthembarking,likegoodofficials,beforetheyhadanydistinctknowledgeofthereason。
Thebarkinghaditseffectinthehouse,for,asDinahandHettyapproached,thedoorwaywasfilledbyaportlyfigure,witharuddyblack-eyedfacewhichboreinitthepossibilityoflookingextremelyacute,andoccasionallycontemptuous,onmarket-days,buthadnowapredominantafter-supperexpressionofheartygood-
nature。Itiswellknownthatgreatscholarswhohaveshownthemostpitilessacerbityintheircriticismofothermen’sscholarshiphaveyetbeenofarelentingandindulgenttemperinprivatelife;andIhaveheardofalearnedmanmeeklyrockingthetwinsinthecradlewithhislefthand,whilewithhisrightheinflictedthemostlaceratingsarcasmsonanopponentwhohadbetrayedabrutalignoranceofHebrew。Weaknessesanderrorsmustbeforgiven——alas!theyarenotalientous——butthemanwhotakesthewrongsideonthemomentoussubjectoftheHebrewpointsmustbetreatedastheenemyofhisrace。TherewasthesamesortofantitheticmixtureinMartinPoyser:hewasofsoexcellentadispositionthathehadbeenkinderandmorerespectfulthanevertohisoldfathersincehehadmadeadeedofgiftofallhisproperty,andnomanjudgedhisneighboursmorecharitablyonallpersonalmatters;butforafarmer,likeLukeBritton,forexample,whosefallowswerenotwellcleaned,whodidn’tknowtherudimentsofhedgingandditching,andshowedbutasmallshareofjudgmentinthepurchaseofwinterstock,MartinPoyserwasashardandimplacableasthenorth-eastwind。LukeBrittoncouldnotmakearemark,evenontheweather,butMartinPoyserdetectedinitataintofthatunsoundnessandgeneralignorancewhichwaspalpableinallhisfarmingoperations。HehatedtoseethefellowliftthepewterpinttohismouthinthebaroftheRoyalGeorgeonmarket-day,andthemeresightofhimontheothersideoftheroadbroughtasevereandcriticalexpressionintohisblackeyes,asdifferentaspossiblefromthefatherlyglancehebentonhistwoniecesastheyapproachedthedoor。Mr。Poyserhadsmokedhiseveningpipe,andnowheldhishandsinhispockets,astheonlyresourceofamanwhocontinuestositupaftertheday’sbusinessisdone。
"Why,lasses,ye’reratherlateto-night,"hesaid,whentheyreachedthelittlegateleadingintothecauseway。"Themother’sbeguntofidgetaboutyou,an’she’sgotthelittleunill。An’
howdidyouleavetheoldwomanBede,Dinah?Isshemuchdownabouttheoldman?He’dbeenbutapoorbargaintoherthisfiveyear。"
"She’sbeengreatlydistressedforthelossofhim,"saidDinah,"butshe’sseemedmorecomfortedto-day。HersonAdam’sbeenathomeallday,workingathisfather’scoffin,andshelovestohavehimathome。She’sbeentalkingabouthimtomealmostalltheday。Shehasalovingheart,thoughshe’ssorelygiventofretandbefearful。Iwishshehadasurertrusttocomfortherinheroldage。"
"Adam’ssureenough,"saidMr。Poyser,misunderstandingDinah’swish。"There’snofearbuthe’llyieldwelli’thethreshing。
He’snotoneo’themasisallstrawandnograin。I’llbebondforhimanyday,ashe’llbeagoodsontothelast。Didhesayhe’dbecomingtoseeussoon?Butcomein,comein,"headded,makingwayforthem;"Ihadn’tneedkeepy’outanylonger。"
Thetallbuildingsroundtheyardshutoutagooddealofthesky,butthelargewindowletinabundantlighttoshoweverycornerofthehouse-place。
Mrs。Poyser,seatedintherocking-chair,whichhadbeenbroughtoutofthe"right-handparlour,"wastryingtosootheTottytosleep。ButTottywasnotdisposedtosleep;andwhenhercousinsentered,sheraisedherselfupandshowedapairofflushedcheeks,whichlookedfatterthanevernowtheyweredefinedbytheedgeofherlinennight-cap。
Inthelargewicker-bottomedarm-chairintheleft-handchimney-
nooksatoldMartinPoyser,ahalebutshrunkenandbleachedimageofhisportlyblack-hairedson——hisheadhangingforwardalittle,andhiselbowspushedbackwardssoastoallowthewholeofhisforearmtorestonthearmofthechair。Hisbluehandkerchiefwasspreadoverhisknees,aswasusualindoors,whenitwasnothangingoverhishead;andhesatwatchingwhatwentforwardwiththequietOUTWARDglanceofhealthyoldage,which,disengagedfromanyinterestinaninwarddrama,spiesoutpinsuponthefloor,followsone’sminutestmotionswithanunexpectantpurposelesstenacity,watchestheflickeringoftheflameorthesun-gleamsonthewall,countsthequarriesonthefloor,watcheseventhehandoftheclock,andpleasesitselfwithdetectingarhythminthetick。
"Whatatimeo’nightthisistocomehome,Hetty!"saidMrs。
Poyser。"Lookattheclock,do;why,it’sgoingonforhalf-pastnine,andI’vesentthegellstobedthishalf-hour,andlateenoughtoo;whenthey’vegottogetupathalfafterfour,andthemowers’bottlestofill,andthebaking;andhere’sthisblessedchildwi’thefeverforwhatIknow,andaswakefulasifitwasdinner-time,andnobodytohelpmetogiveherthephysicbutyouruncle,andfineworkthere’sbeen,andhalfofitspiltonhernight-gown——it’swellifshe’sswallowedmorenor’ullmakeherworsei’steado’better。Butfolksashavenomindtobeo’usehaveallaysthelucktobeouto’theroadwhenthere’sanythingtobedone。"
"Ididsetoutbeforeeight,aunt,"saidHetty,inapettishtone,withaslighttossofherhead。Butthisclock’ssomuchbeforetheclockattheChase,there’snotellingwhattimeit’llbewhenIgethere。"
"What!You’dbewantingtheclocksetbygentlefolks’stime,wouldyou?An’situpburnin’candle,an’liea-bedwi’thesuna-bakin’youlikeacowcumberi’theframe?Theclockhasn’tbeenputforrardforthefirsttimeto-day,Ireckon。"
Thefactwas,HettyhadreallyforgottenthedifferenceoftheclockswhenshetoldCaptainDonnithornethatshesetoutateight,andthis,withherlingeringpace,hadmadehernearlyhalfanhourlaterthanusual。Buthereheraunt’sattentionwasdivertedfromthistendersubjectbyTotty,who,perceivingatlengththatthearrivalofhercousinswasnotlikelytobringanythingsatisfactorytoherinparticular,begantocry,"Munny,munny,"inanexplosivemanner。
"Well,then,mypet,Mother’sgother,Motherwon’tleaveher;
Tottybeagooddilling,andgotosleepnow,"saidMrs。Poyser,leaningbackandrockingthechair,whileshetriedtomakeTottynestleagainsther。ButTottyonlycriedlouder,andsaid,"Don’tyock!"Sothemother,withthatwondrouspatiencewhichlovegivestothequickesttemperament,satupagain,andpressedhercheekagainstthelinennight-capandkissedit,andforgottoscoldHettyanylonger。
"Come,Hetty,"saidMartinPoyser,inaconciliatorytone,"goandgetyoursupperi’thepantry,asthethingsareallputaway;an’
thenyoucancomeandtakethelittleunwhileyourauntundressesherself,forshewon’tliedowninbedwithouthermother。An’I
reckonYOUcouldeatabit,Dinah,fortheydon’tkeepmuchofahousedownthere。"
"No,thankyou,Uncle,"saidDinah;"IateagoodmealbeforeI
cameaway,forMrs。Bedewouldmakeakettle-cakeforme。"
"Idon’twantanysupper,"saidHetty,takingoffherhat。"IcanholdTottynow,ifAuntwantsme。"
"Why,whatnonsensethatistotalk!"saidMrs。Poyser。"Doyouthinkyoucanlivewi’outeatin’,an’nourishyourinsidewi’
stickin’redribbonsonyourhead?Goan’getyoursupperthisminute,child;there’sanicebito’coldpuddingi’thesafe——
justwhatyou’refondof。"
Hettycompliedsilentlybygoingtowardsthepantry,andMrs。
PoyserwentonspeakingtoDinah。
"Sitdown,mydear,an’lookasifyouknowedwhatitwastomakeyourselfabitcomfortablei’theworld。Iwarranttheoldwomanwasgladtoseeyou,sinceyoustayedsolong。"
"Sheseemedtolikehavingmethereatlast;buthersonssayshedoesn’tlikeyoungwomenabouthercommonly;andIthoughtjustatfirstshewasalmostangrywithmeforgoing。"
"Eh,it’sapoorlook-outwhenth’ouldfolksdoesnaliketheyounguns,"saidoldMartin,bendinghisheaddownlower,andseemingtotracethepatternofthequarrieswithhiseye。
"Aye,it’silllivin’inahen-roostforthemasdoesn’tlikefleas,"saidMrs。Poyser。"We’veallhadourturnatbein’young,Ireckon,be’tgoodluckorill。"
"Butshemustlearnto’commodateherselftoyoungwomen,"saidMr。Poyser,"foritisn’ttobecountedonasAdamandSeth’ullkeepbachelorsforthenexttenyeartopleasetheirmother。That’udbeunreasonable。Itisn’trightforoldnoryoungnaythertomakeabargainallo’theirownside。What’sgoodforone’sgoodallroundi’thelongrun。I’mnofriendtoyoungfellowsa-
marryingaforetheyknowthedifferenceatweenacraban’aapple;
buttheymaywaito’erlong。"
"Tobesure,"saidMrs。Poyser;"ifyougopastyourdinner-time,there’llbelittlerelisho’yourmeat。Youturnito’eran’o’erwi’yourfork,an’don’teatitafterall。Youfindfautwi’yourmeat,an’thefaut’salli’yourownstomach。"
Hettynowcamebackfromthepantryandsaid,"IcantakeTottynow,Aunt,ifyoulike。"
"Come,Rachel,"saidMr。Poyser,ashiswifeseemedtohesitate,seeingthatTottywasatlastnestlingquietly,"thee’dstbetterletHettycarryherupstairs,whiletheetak’stthythingsoff。
Thee’ttired。It’stimetheewastinbed。Thee’tbringonthepaininthysideagain。"
"Well,shemayholdherifthechild’ullgotoher,"saidMrs。
Poyser。
Hettywentclosetotherocking-chair,andstoodwithoutherusualsmile,andwithoutanyattempttoenticeTotty,simplywaitingforheraunttogivethechildintoherhands。
"WiltgotoCousinHetty,mydilling,whilemothergetsreadytogotobed?ThenTottyshallgointoMother’sbed,andsleepthereallnight。"
Beforehermotherhaddonespeaking,Tottyhadgivenheranswerinanunmistakablemanner,byknittingherbrow,settinghertinyteethagainstherunderlip,andleaningforwardtoslapHettyonthearmwithherutmostforce。Then,withoutspeaking,shenestledtohermotheragain。
"Hey,hey,"saidMr。Poyser,whileHettystoodwithoutmoving,"notgotoCousinHetty?That’slikeababby。Totty’salittlewoman,an’notababby。"
"It’snousetryingtopersuadeher,"saidMrs。Poyser。"SheallaystakesagainstHettywhensheisn’twell。Happenshe’llgotoDinah。"
Dinah,havingtakenoffherbonnetandshawl,hadhithertokeptquietlyseatedinthebackground,notlikingtothrustherselfbetweenHettyandwhatwasconsideredHetty’sproperwork。Butnowshecameforward,and,puttingoutherarms,said,"ComeTotty,comeandletDinahcarryherupstairsalongwithMother:
poor,poorMother!she’ssotired——shewantstogotobed。"
TottyturnedherfacetowardsDinah,andlookedatheraninstant,thenliftedherselfup,putoutherlittlearms,andletDinahliftherfromhermother’slap。Hettyturnedawaywithoutanysignofillhumour,and,takingherhatfromthetable,stoodwaitingwithanairofindifference,toseeifsheshouldbetoldtodoanythingelse。
"Youmaymakethedoorfastnow,Poyser;Alick’sbeencomeinthislongwhile,"saidMrs。Poyser,risingwithanappearanceofrelieffromherlowchair。"Getmethematchesdown,Hetty,forImusthavetherushlightburningi’myroom。Come,Father。"
Theheavywoodenboltsbegantorollinthehousedoors,andoldMartinpreparedtomove,bygatheringuphisbluehandkerchief,andreachinghisbrightknobbedwalnut-treestickfromthecorner。
Mrs。Poyserthenledthewayoutofthekitchen,followedbythegandfather,andDinahwithTottyinherarms——allgoingtobedbytwilight,likethebirds。Mrs。Poyser,onherway,peepedintotheroomwherehertwoboyslay;justtoseetheirruddyroundcheeksonthepillow,andtohearforamomenttheirlightregularbreathing。
"Come,Hetty,gettobed,"saidMr。Poyser,inasoothingtone,ashehimselfturnedtogoupstairs。"Youdidnameantobelate,I’llbebound,butyouraunt’sbeenworritedto-day。Good-night,mywench,good-night。"
TheTwoBed-ChambersHETTYandDinahbothsleptinthesecondstory,inroomsadjoiningeachother,meagrelyfurnishedrooms,withnoblindstoshutoutthelight,whichwasnowbeginningtogathernewstrengthfromtherisingofthemoon——morethanenoughstrengthtoenableHettytomoveaboutandundresswithperfectcomfort。Shecouldseequitewellthepegsintheoldpaintedlinen-pressonwhichshehungherhatandgown;shecouldseetheheadofeverypinonherredclothpin-cushion;shecouldseeareflectionofherselfintheold-
fashionedlooking-glass,quiteasdistinctaswasneedful,consideringthatshehadonlytobrushherhairandputonhernight-cap。Aqueeroldlooking-glass!Hettygotintoanilltemperwithitalmosteverytimeshedressed。Ithadbeenconsideredahandsomeglassinitsday,andhadprobablybeenboughtintothePoyserfamilyaquarterofacenturybefore,atasaleofgenteelhouseholdfurniture。Evennowanauctioneercouldsaysomethingforit:ithadagreatdealoftarnishedgildingaboutit;ithadafirmmahoganybase,wellsuppliedwithdrawers,whichopenedwithadecidedjerkandsentthecontentsleapingoutfromthefarthestcorners,withoutgivingyouthetroubleofreachingthem;aboveall,ithadabrasscandle-socketoneachside,whichwouldgiveitanaristocraticairtotheverylast。
ButHettyobjectedtoitbecauseithadnumerousdimblotchessprinkledoverthemirror,whichnorubbingwouldremove,andbecause,insteadofswingingbackwardsandforwards,itwasfixedinanuprightposition,sothatshecouldonlygetonegoodviewofherheadandneck,andthatwastobehadonlybysittingdownonalowchairbeforeherdressing-table。Andthedressing-tablewasnodressing-tableatall,butasmalloldchestofdrawers,themostawkwardthingintheworldtositdownbefore,forthebigbrasshandlesquitehurtherknees,andshecouldn’tgetneartheglassatallcomfortably。Butdevoutworshippersneverallowinconveniencestopreventthemfromperformingtheirreligiousrites,andHettythiseveningwasmorebentonherpeculiarformofworshipthanusual。
Havingtakenoffhergownandwhitekerchief,shedrewakeyfromthelargepocketthathungoutsideherpetticoat,and,unlockingoneofthelowerdrawersinthechest,reachedfromittwoshortbitsofwaxcandle——secretlyboughtatTreddleston——andstucktheminthetwobrasssockets。Thenshedrewforthabundleofmatchesandlightedthecandles;andlastofall,asmallred-framedshillinglooking-glass,withoutblotches。Itwasintothissmallglassthatshechosetolookfirstafterseatingherself。Shelookedintoit,smilingandturningherheadononeside,foraminute,thenlaiditdownandtookoutherbrushandcombfromanupperdrawer。Shewasgoingtoletdownherhair,andmakeherselflooklikethatpictureofaladyinMissLydiaDonnithorne’sdressing-room。Itwassoondone,andthedarkhyacinthinecurvesfellonherneck。Itwasnotheavy,massive,merelyripplinghair,butsoftandsilken,runningateveryopportunityintodelicaterings。Butshepusheditallbackwardtolooklikethepicture,andformadarkcurtain,throwingintoreliefherroundwhiteneck。Thensheputdownherbrushandcombandlookedatherself,foldingherarmsbeforeher,stilllikethepicture。Eventheoldmottledglasscouldn’thelpsendingbackalovelyimage,nonethelesslovelybecauseHetty’sstayswerenotofwhitesatin——suchasIfeelsureheroinesmustgenerallywear——
butofadarkgreenishcottontexture。
Ohyes!Shewasverypretty。CaptainDonnithornethoughtso。
PrettierthananybodyaboutHayslope——prettierthananyoftheladiesshehadeverseenvisitingattheChase——indeeditseemedfineladieswereratheroldandugly——andprettierthanMissBacon,themiller’sdaughter,whowascalledthebeautyofTreddleston。AndHettylookedatherselfto-nightwithquiteadifferentsensationfromwhatshehadeverfeltbefore;therewasaninvisiblespectatorwhoseeyerestedonherlikemorningontheflowers。Hissoftvoicewassayingoverandoveragainthoseprettythingsshehadheardinthewood;hisarmwasroundher,andthedelicaterose-scentofhishairwaswithherstill。Thevainestwomanisneverthoroughlyconsciousofherownbeautytillsheislovedbythemanwhosetsherownpassionvibratinginreturn。
ButHettyseemedtohavemadeuphermindthatsomethingwaswanting,forshegotupandreachedanoldblacklacescarfoutofthelinen-press,andapairoflargeear-ringsoutofthesacreddrawerfromwhichshehadtakenhercandles。Itwasanoldoldscarf,fullofrents,butitwouldmakeabecomingborderroundhershoulders,andsetoffthewhitenessofherupperarm。Andshewouldtakeoutthelittleear-ringsshehadinherears——oh,howheraunthadscoldedherforhavingherearsbored!——andputinthoselargeones。Theywerebutcolouredglassandgilding,butifyoudidn’tknowwhattheyweremadeof,theylookedjustaswellaswhattheladieswore。Andsoshesatdownagain,withthelargeear-ringsinherears,andtheblacklacescarfadjustedroundhershoulders。Shelookeddownatherarms:noarmscouldbeprettierdowntoalittlewaybelowtheelbow——theywerewhiteandplump,anddimpledtomatchhercheeks;buttowardsthewrist,shethoughtwithvexationthattheywerecoarsenedbybutter-
makingandotherworkthatladiesneverdid。
CaptainDonnithornecouldn’tlikehertogoondoingwork:hewouldliketoseeherinniceclothes,andthinshoes,andwhitestockings,perhapswithsilkclockstothem;forhemustloveherverymuch——nooneelsehadeverputhisarmroundherandkissedherinthatway。Hewouldwanttomarryherandmakealadyofher;shecouldhardlydaretoshapethethought——yethowelsecoulditbe?Marryherquitesecretly,asMr。James,thedoctor’sassistant,marriedthedoctor’sniece,andnobodyeverfounditoutforalongwhileafter,andthenitwasofnousetobeangry。
ThedoctorhadtoldherauntallaboutitinHetty’shearing。Shedidn’tknowhowitwouldbe,butitwasquiteplaintheoldSquirecouldneverbetoldanythingaboutit,forHettywasreadytofaintwithaweandfrightifshecameacrosshimattheChase。Hemighthavebeenearth-born,forwhatsheknew。Ithadneverenteredhermindthathehadbeenyounglikeothermen;hehadalwaysbeentheoldSquireatwhomeverybodywasfrightened。Oh,itwasimpossibletothinkhowitwouldbe!ButCaptainDonnithornewouldknow;hewasagreatgentleman,andcouldhavehiswayineverything,andcouldbuyeverythingheliked。Andnothingcouldbeasithadbeenagain:perhapssomedaysheshouldbeagrandlady,andrideinhercoach,anddressfordinnerinabrocadedsilk,withfeathersinherhair,andherdresssweepingtheground,likeMissLydiaandLadyDacey,whenshesawthemgoingintothedining-roomoneeveningasshepeepedthroughthelittleroundwindowinthelobby;onlysheshouldnotbeoldanduglylikeMissLydia,orallthesamethicknesslikeLadyDacey,butverypretty,withherhairdoneinagreatmanydifferentways,andsometimesinapinkdress,andsometimesinawhiteone——
shedidn’tknowwhichshelikedbest;andMaryBurgeandeverybodywouldperhapsseehergoingoutinhercarriage——orrather,theywouldHEARofit:itwasimpossibletoimaginethesethingshappeningatHayslopeinsightofheraunt。Atthethoughtofallthissplendour,Hettygotupfromherchair,andindoingsocaughtthelittlered-framedglasswiththeedgeofherscarf,sothatitfellwithabangonthefloor;butshewastooeagerlyoccupiedwithhervisiontocareaboutpickingitup;andafteramomentarystart,begantopacewithapigeon-likestatelinessbackwardsandforwardsalongherroom,inhercolouredstaysandcolouredskirt,andtheoldblacklacescarfroundhershoulders,andthegreatglassear-ringsinherears。
Howprettythelittlepusslooksinthatodddress!Itwouldbetheeasiestfollyintheworldtofallinlovewithher:thereissuchasweetbabylikeroundnessaboutherfaceandfigure;thedelicatedarkringsofhairliesocharminglyaboutherearsandneck;hergreatdarkeyeswiththeirlongeye-lashestouchonesostrangely,asifanimprisonedfriskyspritelookedoutofthem。
Ah,whataprizethemangetswhowinsasweetbridelikeHetty!
Howthemenenvyhimwhocometotheweddingbreakfast,andseeherhangingonhisarminherwhitelaceandorangeblossoms。Thedear,young,round,soft,flexiblething!Herheartmustbejustassoft,hertemperjustasfreefromangles,hercharacterjustaspliant。Ifanythingevergoeswrong,itmustbethehusband’sfaultthere:hecanmakeherwhathelikes——thatisplain。Andtheloverhimselfthinkssotoo:thelittledarlingissofondofhim,herlittlevanitiesaresobewitching,hewouldn’tconsenttoherbeingabitwiser;thosekittenlikeglancesandmovementsarejustwhatonewantstomakeone’shearthaparadise。Everymanundersuchcircumstancesisconsciousofbeingagreatphysiognomist。Nature,heknows,hasalanguageofherown,whichsheuseswithstrictveracity,andheconsidershimselfanadeptinthelanguage。Naturehaswrittenouthisbride’scharacterforhiminthoseexquisitelinesofcheekandlipandchin,inthoseeyelidsdelicateaspetals,inthoselonglashescurledlikethestamenofaflower,inthedarkliquiddepthsofthosewonderfuleyes。Howshewilldoteonherchildren!Sheisalmostachildherself,andthelittlepinkroundthingswillhangaboutherlikefloretsroundthecentralflower;andthehusbandwilllookon,smilingbenignly,able,wheneverhechooses,towithdrawintothesanctuaryofhiswisdom,towardswhichhissweetwifewilllookreverently,andneverliftthecurtain。Itisamarriagesuchastheymadeinthegoldenage,whenthemenwereallwiseandmajesticandthewomenalllovelyandloving。
ItwasverymuchinthiswaythatourfriendAdamBedethoughtaboutHetty;onlyheputhisthoughtsintodifferentwords。Ifevershebehavedwithcoldvanitytowardshim,hesaidtohimselfitisonlybecauseshedoesn’tlovemewellenough;andhewassurethatherlove,whenevershegaveit,wouldbethemostpreciousthingamancouldpossessonearth。BeforeyoudespiseAdamasdeficientinpenetration,prayaskyourselfifyouwereeverpredisposedtobelieveevilofanyprettywoman——ifyoueverCOULD,withouthardhead-breakingdemonstration,believeeviloftheONEsupremelyprettywomanwhohasbewitchedyou。No:peoplewholovedownypeachesareaptnottothinkofthestone,andsometimesjartheirteethterriblyagainstit。
ArthurDonnithorne,too,hadthesamesortofnotionaboutHetty,sofarashehadthoughtofhernatureofall。Hefeltsureshewasadear,affectionate,goodlittlething。Themanwhoawakesthewonderingtremulouspassionofayounggirlalwaysthinksheraffectionate;andifhechancestolookforwardtofutureyears,probablyimagineshimselfbeingvirtuouslytendertoher,becausethepoorthingissoclinginglyfondofhim。Godmadethesedearwomenso——anditisaconvenientarrangementincaseofsickness。
Afterall,Ibelievethewisestofusmustbebeguiledinthiswaysometimes,andmustthinkbothbetterandworseofpeoplethantheydeserve。Naturehasherlanguage,andsheisnotunveracious;butwedon’tknowalltheintricaciesofhersyntaxjustyet,andinahastyreadingwemayhappentoextracttheveryoppositeofherrealmeaning。Longdarkeyelashes,now——whatcanbemoreexquisite?Ifinditimpossiblenottoexpectsomedepthofsoulbehindadeepgreyeyewithalongdarkeyelash,inspiteofanexperiencewhichhasshownmethattheymaygoalongwithdeceit,peculation,andstupidity。Butif,inthereactionofdisgust,Ihavebetakenmyselftoafishyeye,therehasbeenasurprisingsimilarityofresult。Onebeginstosuspectatlengththatthereisnodirectcorrelationbetweeneyelashesandmorals;
orelse,thattheeyelashesexpressthedispositionofthefairone’sgrandmother,whichisonthewholelessimportanttous。
NoeyelashescouldbemorebeautifulthanHetty’s;andnow,whileshewalkswithherpigeonlikestatelinessalongtheroomandlooksdownonhershouldersborderedbytheoldblacklace,thedarkfringeshowstoperfectiononherpinkcheek。Theyarebutdimill-definedpicturesthathernarrowbitofanimaginationcanmakeofthefuture;butofeverypicturesheisthecentralfigureinfineclothes;CaptainDonnithorneisveryclosetoher,puttinghisarmroundher,perhapskissingher,andeverybodyelseisadmiringandenvyingher——especiallyMaryBurge,whosenewprintdresslooksverycontemptiblebythesideofHetty’sresplendenttoilette。Doesanysweetorsadmemoryminglewiththisdreamofthefuture——anylovingthoughtofhersecondparents——ofthechildrenshehadhelpedtotend——ofanyyouthfulcompanion,anypetanimal,anyrelicofherownchildhoodeven?Notone。Therearesomeplantsthathavehardlyanyroots:youmaytearthemfromtheirnativenookofrockorwall,andjustlaythemoveryourornamentalflower-pot,andtheyblossomnonetheworse。Hettycouldhavecastallherpastlifebehindherandnevercaredtoberemindedofitagain。Ithinkshehadnofeelingatalltowardstheoldhouse,anddidnotliketheJacob’sLadderandthelongrowofhollyhocksinthegardenbetterthanotherflowers——perhapsnotsowell。Itwaswonderfulhowlittlesheseemedtocareaboutwaitingonheruncle,whohadbeenagoodfathertoher——shehardlyeverrememberedtoreachhimhispipeattherighttimewithoutbeingtold,unlessavisitorhappenedtobethere,whowouldhaveabetteropportunityofseeingherasshewalkedacrossthehearth。Hettydidnotunderstandhowanybodycouldbeveryfondofmiddle-agedpeople。Andasforthosetiresomechildren,MartyandTommyandTotty,theyhadbeentheverynuisanceofherlife——asbadasbuzzinginsectsthatwillcometeasingyouonahotdaywhenyouwanttobequiet。Marty,theeldest,wasababywhenshefirstcametothefarm,forthechildrenbornbeforehimhaddied,andsoHettyhadhadthemallthree,oneaftertheother,toddlingbyhersideinthemeadow,orplayingaboutheronwetdaysinthehalf-emptyroomsofthelargeoldhouse。Theboyswereoutofhandnow,butTottywasstilladay-longplague,worsethaneitheroftheothershadbeen,becausetherewasmorefussmadeabouther。Andtherewasnoendtothemakingandmendingofclothes。Hettywouldhavebeengladtohearthatsheshouldneverseeachildagain;theywereworsethanthenastylittlelambsthattheshepherdwasalwaysbringingintobetakenspecialcareofinlambingtime;forthelambsWEREgotridofsoonerorlater。
Asfortheyoungchickensandturkeys,Hettywouldhavehatedtheveryword"hatching,"ifheraunthadnotbribedhertoattendtotheyoungpoultrybypromisinghertheproceedsofoneoutofeverybrood。Therounddownychickspeepingoutfromundertheirmother’swingnevertouchedHettywithanypleasure;thatwasnotthesortofprettinessshecaredabout,butshedidcareabouttheprettinessofthenewthingsshewouldbuyforherselfatTreddlestonFairwiththemoneytheyfetched。Andyetshelookedsodimpled,socharming,asshestoopeddowntoputthesoakedbreadunderthehen-coop,thatyoumusthavebeenaveryacutepersonageindeedtosuspectherofthathardness。Molly,thehousemaid,withaturn-upnoseandaprotuberantjaw,wasreallyatender-heartedgirl,and,asMrs。Poysersaid,ajeweltolookafterthepoultry;butherstolidfaceshowednothingofthismaternaldelight,anymorethanabrownearthenwarepitcherwillshowthelightofthelampwithinit。
Itisgenerallyafeminineeyethatfirstdetectsthemoraldeficiencieshiddenunderthe"deardeceit"ofbeauty,soitisnotsurprisingthatMrs。Poyser,withherkeennessandabundantopportunityforobservation,shouldhaveformedatolerablyfairestimateofwhatmightbeexpectedfromHettyinthewayoffeeling,andinmomentsofindignationshehadsometimesspokenwithgreatopennessonthesubjecttoherhusband。
"She’snobetterthanapeacock,as’udstrutaboutonthewallandspreaditstailwhenthesunshoneifallthefolksi’theparishwasdying:there’snothingseemstogiveheraturni’th’
inside,notevenwhenwethoughtTottyhadtumbledintothepit。
Tothinko’thatdearcherub!Andwefoundherwi’herlittleshoesstucki’themudan’cryingfittobreakherheartbythefarhorse-pit。ButHettynevermindedit,Icouldsee,thoughshe’sbeenatthenussin’o’thechildeversinceitwasababby。
It’smybeliefherheart’sashardasapebble。"
"Nay,nay,"saidMr。Poyser,"theemustn’tjudgeHettytoohard。
Themyounggellsareliketheunripegrain;they’llmakegoodmealbyandby,butthey’resquashyasyet。Thee’tseeHetty’llbeallrightwhenshe’sgotagoodhusbandandchildrenofherown。"
"Idon’twanttobehardupo’thegell。She’sgotcliverfingersofherown,andcanbeusefulenoughwhenshelikesandIshouldmissherwi’thebutter,forshe’sgotacoolhand。An’letbewhatmay,I’dstrivetodomypartbyanieceo’yours——an’THAT
I’vedone,forI’vetaughthereverythingasbelongstoahouse,an’I’vetoldherherdutyoftenenough,though,Godknows,I’venobreathtospare,an’thatcatchin’paincomesondreadfulbytimes。Wi’themthreegellsinthehouseI’dneedhavetwicethestrengthtokeep’emuptotheirwork。It’slikehavingroastmeatatthreefires;assoonasyou’vebastedone,another’sburnin’。"
Hettystoodsufficientlyinaweofheraunttobeanxioustoconcealfromhersomuchofhervanityascouldbehiddenwithouttoogreatasacrifice。ShecouldnotresistspendinghermoneyinbitsoffinerywhichMrs。Poyserdisapproved;butshewouldhavebeenreadytodiewithshame,vexation,andfrightifheraunthadthismomentopenedthedoor,andseenherwithherbitsofcandlelighted,andstruttingaboutdeckedinherscarfandear-rings。
Topreventsuchasurprise,shealwaysboltedherdoor,andshehadnotforgottentodosoto-night。Itwaswell:fortherenowcamealighttap,andHetty,withaleapingheart,rushedtoblowoutthecandlesandthrowthemintothedrawer。Shedarednotstaytotakeoutherear-rings,butshethrewoffherscarf,andletitfallonthefloor,beforethelighttapcameagain。Weshallknowhowitwasthatthelighttapcame,ifweleaveHettyforashorttimeandreturntoDinah,atthemomentwhenshehaddeliveredTottytohermother’sarms,andwascomeupstairstoherbedroom,adjoiningHetty’s。
Dinahdelightedinherbedroomwindow。Beingonthesecondstoryofthattallhouse,itgaveherawideviewoverthefields。Thethicknessofthewallformedabroadstepaboutayardbelowthewindow,whereshecouldplaceherchair。Andnowthefirstthingshedidonenteringherroomwastoseatherselfinthischairandlookoutonthepeacefulfieldsbeyondwhichthelargemoonwasrising,justabovethehedgerowelms。Shelikedthepasturebestwherethemilchcowswerelying,andnexttothatthemeadowwherethegrasswashalf-mown,andlayinsilveredsweepinglines。Herheartwasveryfull,fortherewastobeonlyonemorenightonwhichshewouldlookoutonthosefieldsforalongtimetocome;
butshethoughtlittleofleavingthemerescene,for,toher,bleakSnowfieldhadjustasmanycharms。Shethoughtofallthedearpeoplewhomshehadlearnedtocareforamongthesepeacefulfields,andwhowouldnowhaveaplaceinherlovingremembranceforever。Shethoughtofthestrugglesandthewearinessthatmightliebeforethemintherestoftheirlife’sjourney,whenshewouldbeawayfromthem,andknownothingofwhatwasbefallingthem;andthepressureofthisthoughtsoonbecametoostrongforhertoenjoytheunrespondingstillnessofthemoonlitfields。Sheclosedhereyes,thatshemightfeelmoreintenselythepresenceofaLoveandSympathydeeperandmoretenderthanwasbreathedfromtheearthandsky。ThatwasoftenDinah’smodeofprayinginsolitude。SimplytoclosehereyesandtofeelherselfenclosedbytheDivinePresence;thengraduallyherfears,heryearninganxietiesforothers,meltedawaylikeice-crystalsinawarmocean。Shehadsatinthiswayperfectlystill,withherhandscrossedonherlapandthepalelightrestingonhercalmface,foratleasttenminuteswhenshewasstartledbyaloudsound,apparentlyofsomethingfallinginHetty’sroom。Butlikeallsoundsthatfallonourearsinastateofabstraction,ithadnodistinctcharacter,butwassimplyloudandstartling,sothatshefeltuncertainwhethershehadinterpreteditrightly。
Sheroseandlistened,butallwasquietafterwards,andshereflectedthatHettymightmerelyhaveknockedsomethingdowningettingintobed。Shebeganslowlytoundress;butnow,owingtothesuggestionsofthissound,herthoughtsbecameconcentratedonHetty——thatsweetyoungthing,withlifeandallitstrialsbeforeher——thesolemndailydutiesofthewifeandmother——andhermindsounpreparedforthemall,bentmerelyonlittlefoolish,selfishpleasures,likeachildhuggingitstoysinthebeginningofalongtoilsomejourneyinwhichitwillhavetobearhungerandcoldandunsheltereddarkness。DinahfeltadoublecareforHetty,becauseshesharedSeth’sanxiousinterestinhisbrother’slot,andshehadnotcometotheconclusionthatHettydidnotloveAdamwellenoughtomarryhim。Shesawtooclearlytheabsenceofanywarm,self-devotingloveinHetty’snaturetoregardthecoldnessofherbehaviourtowardsAdamasanyindicationthathewasnotthemanshewouldliketohaveforahusband。AndthisblankinHetty’snature,insteadofexcitingDinah’sdislike,onlytouchedherwithadeeperpity:thelovelyfaceandformaffectedherasbeautyalwaysaffectsapureandtendermind,freefromselfishjealousies。Itwasanexcellentdivinegift,thatgaveadeeperpathostotheneed,thesin,thesorrowwithwhichitwasmingled,asthecankerinalily-whitebudismoregrievoustobeholdthaninacommonpot-herb。
BythetimeDinahhadundressedandputonhernight-gown,thisfeelingaboutHettyhadgatheredapainfulintensity;herimaginationhadcreatedathornythicketofsinandsorrow,inwhichshesawthepoorthingstrugglingtornandbleeding,lookingwithtearsforrescueandfindingnone。ItwasinthiswaythatDinah’simaginationandsympathyactedandreactedhabitually,eachheighteningtheother。ShefeltadeeplongingtogonowandpourintoHetty’searallthewordsoftenderwarningandappealthatrushedintohermind。ButperhapsHettywasalreadyasleep。
Dinahputhereartothepartitionandheardstillsomeslightnoises,whichconvincedherthatHettywasnotyetinbed。Stillshehesitated;shewasnotquitecertainofadivinedirection;
thevoicethattoldhertogotoHettyseemednostrongerthattheothervoicewhichsaidthatHettywasweary,andthatgoingtohernowinanunseasonablemomentwouldonlytendtocloseherheartmoreobstinately。Dinahwasnotsatisfiedwithoutamoreunmistakableguidancethanthoseinwardvoices。Therewaslightenoughforher,ifsheopenedherBible,todiscernthetextsufficientlytoknowwhatitwouldsaytoher。Sheknewthephysiognomyofeverypage,andcouldtellonwhatbooksheopened,sometimesonwhatchapter,withoutseeingtitleornumber。ItwasasmallthickBible,wornquiteroundattheedges。Dinahlaiditsidewaysonthewindowledge,wherethelightwasstrongest,andthenopeneditwithherforefinger。Thefirstwordsshelookedatwerethoseatthetopoftheleft-handpage:"Andtheyallweptsore,andfellonPaul’sneckandkissedhim。"ThatwasenoughforDinah;shehadopenedonthatmemorablepartingatEphesus,whenPaulhadfeltboundtoopenhisheartinalastexhortationandwarning。Shehesitatednolonger,but,openingherowndoorgently,wentandtappedonHetty’s。Weknowshehadtotaptwice,becauseHettyhadtoputouthercandlesandthrowoffherblacklacescarf;butafterthesecondtapthedoorwasopenedimmediately。Dinahsaid,"Willyouletmecomein,Hetty?"andHetty,withoutspeaking,forshewasconfusedandvexed,openedthedoorwiderandletherin。
Whatastrangecontrastthetwofiguresmade,visibleenoughinthatmingledtwilightandmoonlight!Hetty,hercheeksflushedandhereyesglisteningfromherimaginarydrama,herbeautifulneckandarmsbare,herhairhanginginacurlytangledownherback,andthebaublesinherears。Dinah,coveredwithherlongwhitedress,herpalefacefullofsubduedemotion,almostlikealovelycorpseintowhichthesoulhasreturnedchargedwithsublimersecretsandasublimerlove。Theywerenearlyofthesameheight;DinahevidentlyalittlethetallerassheputherarmroundHetty’swaistandkissedherforehead。
"Iknewyouwerenotinbed,mydear,"shesaid,inhersweetclearvoice,whichwasirritatingtoHetty,minglingwithherownpeevishvexationlikemusicwithjanglingchains,"forIheardyoumoving;andIlongedtospeaktoyouagainto-night,foritisthelastbutonethatIshallbehere,andwedon’tknowwhatmayhappento-morrowtokeepusapart。ShallIsitdownwithyouwhileyoudoupyourhair?"
"Ohyes,"saidHetty,hastilyturningroundandreachingthesecondchairintheroom,gladthatDinahlookedasifshedidnotnoticeherear-rings。
Dinahsatdown,andHettybegantobrushtogetherherhairbeforetwistingitup,doingitwiththatairofexcessiveindifferencewhichbelongstoconfusedself-consciousness。ButtheexpressionofDinah’seyesgraduallyrelievedher;theyseemedunobservantofalldetails。
"DearHetty,"shesaid,"Ithasbeenborneinuponmymindto-
nightthatyoumaysomedaybeintrouble——troubleisappointedforusallherebelow,andtherecomesatimewhenweneedmorecomfortandhelpthanthethingsofthislifecangive。Iwanttotellyouthatifeveryouareintrouble,andneedafriendthatwillalwaysfeelforyouandloveyou,youhavegotthatfriendinDinahMorrisatSnowfield,andifyoucometoher,orsendforher,she’llneverforgetthisnightandthewordssheisspeakingtoyounow。Willyourememberit,Hetty?"
"Yes,"saidHetty,ratherfrightened。"ButwhyshouldyouthinkI
shallbeintrouble?Doyouknowofanything?"
Hettyhadseatedherselfasshetiedonhercap,andnowDinahleanedforwardsandtookherhandsassheanswered,"Because,dear,troublecomestousallinthislife:wesetourheartsonthingswhichitisn’tGod’swillforustohave,andthenwegosorrowing;thepeoplewelovearetakenfromus,andwecanjoyinnothingbecausetheyarenotwithus;sicknesscomes,andwefaintundertheburdenofourfeeblebodies;wegoastrayanddowrong,andbringourselvesintotroublewithourfellow-men。Thereisnomanorwomanbornintothisworldtowhomsomeofthesetrialsdonotfall,andsoIfeelthatsomeofthemmusthappentoyou;andIdesireforyou,thatwhileyouareyoungyoushouldseekforstrengthfromyourHeavenlyFather,thatyoumayhaveasupportwhichwillnotfailyouintheevilday。"
DinahpausedandreleasedHetty’shandsthatshemightnothinderher。Hettysatquitestill;shefeltnoresponsewithinherselftoDinah’sanxiousaffection;butDinah’swordsutteredwithsolemnpatheticdistinctness,affectedherwithachillfear。Herflushhaddiedawayalmosttopaleness;shehadthetimidityofaluxuriouspleasure-seekingnature,whichshrinksfromthehintofpain。Dinahsawtheeffect,andhertenderanxiouspleadingbecamethemoreearnest,tillHetty,fullofavaguefearthatsomethingevilwassometimetobefallher,begantocry。
Itisourhabittosaythatwhilethelowernaturecanneverunderstandthehigher,thehighernaturecommandsacompleteviewofthelower。ButIthinkthehighernaturehastolearnthiscomprehension,aswelearntheartofvision,byagooddealofhardexperience,oftenwithbruisesandgashesincurredintakingthingsupbythewrongend,andfancyingourspacewiderthanitis。DinahhadneverseenHettyaffectedinthiswaybefore,and,withherusualbenignanthopefulness,shetrusteditwasthestirringofadivineimpulse。Shekissedthesobbingthing,andbegantocrywithherforgratefuljoy。ButHettywassimplyinthatexcitablestateofmindinwhichthereisnocalculatingwhatturnthefeelingsmaytakefromonemomenttoanother,andforthefirsttimeshebecameirritatedunderDinah’scaress。Shepushedherawayimpatiently,andsaid,withachildishsobbingvoice,"Don’ttalktomeso,Dinah。Whydoyoucometofrightenme?
I’veneverdoneanythingtoyou。Whycan’tyouletmebe?"
PoorDinahfeltapang。Shewastoowisetopersist,andonlysaidmildly,"Yes,mydear,you’retired;Iwon’thinderyouanylonger。Makehasteandgetintobed。Good-night。"
Shewentoutoftheroomalmostasquietlyandquicklyasifshehadbeenaghost;butoncebythesideofherownbed,shethrewherselfonherkneesandpouredoutindeepsilenceallthepassionatepitythatfilledherheart。
AsforHetty,shewassooninthewoodagain——herwakingdreamsbeingmergedinasleepinglifescarcelymorefragmentaryandconfused。
LinksARTHURDONNITHORNE,youremember,isunderanengagementwithhimselftogoandseeMr。IrwinethisFridaymorning,andheisawakeanddressingsoearlythathedeterminestogobeforebreakfast,insteadofafter。Therector,heknows,breakfastsaloneathalf-pastnine,theladiesofthefamilyhavingadifferentbreakfast-hour;Arthurwillhaveanearlyrideoverthehillandbreakfastwithhim。Onecansayeverythingbestoverameal。
Theprogressofcivilizationhasmadeabreakfastoradinneraneasyandcheerfulsubstituteformoretroublesomeanddisagreeableceremonies。Wetakealessgloomyviewofourerrorsnowourfatherconfessorlistenstousoverhiseggandcoffee。Wearemoredistinctlyconsciousthatrudepenancesareoutofthequestionforgentlemeninanenlightenedage,andthatmortalsinisnotincompatiblewithanappetiteformuffins。Anassaultonourpockets,whichinmorebarbaroustimeswouldhavebeenmadeinthebrusqueformofapistol-shot,isquiteawell-bredandsmilingprocedurenowithasbecomearequestforaloanthrowninasaneasyparenthesisbetweenthesecondandthirdglassesofclaret。
Still,therewasthisadvantageintheoldrigidforms,thattheycommittedyoutothefulfilmentofaresolutionbysomeoutwarddeed:whenyouhaveputyourmouthtooneendofaholeinastonewallandareawarethatthereisanexpectantearattheotherend,youaremorelikelytosaywhatyoucameoutwiththeintentionofsayingthanifyouwereseatedwithyourlegsinaneasyattitudeunderthemahoganywithacompanionwhowillhavenoreasontobesurprisedifyouhavenothingparticulartosay。
However,ArthurDonnithorne,ashewindsamongthepleasantlanesonhorsebackinthemorningsunshine,hasasinceredeterminationtoopenhishearttotherector,andtheswirlingsoundofthescytheashepassesbythemeadowisallthepleasantertohimbecauseofthishonestpurpose。Heisgladtoseethepromiseofsettledweathernow,forgettinginthehay,aboutwhichthefarmershavebeenfearful;andthereissomethingsohealthfulinthesharingofajoythatisgeneralandnotmerelypersonal,thatthisthoughtaboutthehay-harvestreactsonhisstateofmindandmakeshisresolutionseemaneasiermatter。Amanabouttownmightperhapsconsiderthattheseinfluenceswerenottobefeltoutofachild’sstory-book;butwhenyouareamongthefieldsandhedgerows,itisimpossibletomaintainaconsistentsuperioritytosimplenaturalpleasures。
ArthurhadpassedthevillageofHayslopeandwasapproachingtheBroxtonsideofthehill,when,ataturningintheroad,hesawafigureaboutahundredyardsbeforehimwhichitwasimpossibletomistakeforanyoneelsethanAdamBede,eveniftherehadbeennogrey,taillessshepherd-dogathisheels。Hewasstridingalongathisusualrapidpace,andArthurpushedonhishorsetoovertakehim,forheretainedtoomuchofhisboyishfeelingforAdamtomissanopportunityofchattingwithhim。Iwillnotsaythathisloveforthatgoodfellowdidnotowesomeofitsforcetotheloveofpatronage:ourfriendArthurlikedtodoeverythingthatwashandsome,andtohavehishandsomedeedsrecognized。
Adamlookedroundasheheardthequickeningclatterofthehorse’sheels,andwaitedforthehorseman,liftinghispapercapfromhisheadwithabrightsmileofrecognition。NexttohisownbrotherSeth,AdamwouldhavedonemoreforArthurDonnithornethanforanyotheryoungmanintheworld。Therewashardlyanythinghewouldnotratherhavelostthanthetwo-feetrulerwhichhealwayscarriedinhispocket;itwasArthur’spresent,boughtwithhispocket-moneywhenhewasafair-hairedladofeleven,andwhenhehadprofitedsowellbyAdam’slessonsincarpenteringandturningastoembarrasseveryfemaleinthehousewithgiftsofsuperfluousthread-reelsandroundboxes。Adamhadquiteaprideinthelittlesquireinthoseearlydays,andthefeelinghadonlybecomeslightlymodifiedasthefair-hairedladhadgrownintothewhiskeredyoungman。Adam,Iconfess,wasverysusceptibletotheinfluenceofrank,andquitereadytogiveanextraamountofrespecttoeveryonewhohadmoreadvantagesthanhimself,notbeingaphilosopheroraproletairewithdemocraticideas,butsimplyastout-limbedclevercarpenterwlthalargefundofreverenceinhisnature,whichinclinedhimtoadmitallestablishedclaimsunlesshesawverycleargroundsforquestioningthem。Hehadnotheoriesaboutsettingtheworldtorights,buthesawtherewasagreatdealofdamagedonebybuildingwithill-seasonedtimber——byignorantmeninfineclothesmakingplansforouthousesandworkshopsandthelikewithoutknowingthebearingsofthings——byslovenlyjoiners’work,andbyhastycontractsthatcouldneverbefulfilledwithoutruiningsomebody;andheresolved,forhispart,tosethisfaceagainstsuchdoings。OnthesepointshewouldhavemaintainedhisopinionagainstthelargestlandedproprietorinLoamshireorStonyshireeither;buthefeltthatbeyondtheseitwouldbebetterforhimtodefertopeoplewhoweremoreknowingthanhimself。Hesawasplainlyaspossiblehowillthewoodsontheestateweremanaged,andtheshamefulstateofthefarm-buildings;andifoldSquireDonnithornehadaskedhimtheeffectofthismismanagement,hewouldhavespokenhisopinionwithoutflinching,buttheimpulsetoarespectfuldemeanourtowardsa"gentleman"wouldhavebeenstrongwithinhimallthewhile。Theword"gentleman"hadaspellforAdam,and,asheoftensaid,he"couldn’tabideafellowwhothoughthemadehimselffinebybeingcoxyto’sbetters。"ImustremindyouagainthatAdamhadthebloodofthepeasantinhisveins,andthatsincehewasinhisprimehalfacenturyago,youmustexpectsomeofhischaracteristicstobeobsolete。
TowardstheyoungsquirethisinstinctivereverenceofAdam’swasassistedbyboyishmemoriesandpersonalregardsoyoumayimaginethathethoughtfarmoreofArthur’sgoodqualities,andattachedfarmorevaluetoveryslightactionsofhis,thaniftheyhadbeenthequalitiesandactionsofacommonworkmanlikehimself。
HefeltsureitwouldbeafinedayforeverybodyaboutHayslopewhentheyoungsquirecameintotheestate——suchagenerousopen-
hearteddispositionashehad,andan"uncommon"notionaboutimprovementsandrepairs,consideringhewasonlyjustcomingofage。ThustherewasbothrespectandaffectioninthesmilewithwhichheraisedhispapercapasArthurDonnithornerodeup。
"Well,Adam,howareyou?"saidArthur,holdingouthishand。Henevershookhandswithanyofthefarmers,andAdamfeltthehonourkeenly。"Icouldsweartoyourbackalongwayoff。It’sjustthesameback,onlybroader,aswhenyouusedtocarrymeonit。Doyouremember?"
"Aye,sir,Iremember。It’udbeapoorlook-outiffolksdidn’trememberwhattheydidandsaidwhentheywerelads。Weshouldthinknomoreaboutoldfriendsthanwedoaboutnewuns,then。"
"You’regoingtoBroxton,Isuppose?"saidArthur,puttinghishorseonataslowpacewhileAdamwalkedbyhisside。"Areyougoingtotherectory?"
"No,sir,I’mgoingtoseeaboutBradwell’sbarn。They’reafraidoftheroofpushingthewallsout,andI’mgoingtoseewhatcanbedonewithitbeforewesendthestuffandtheworkmen。"
"Why,Burgetrustsalmosteverythingtoyounow,Adam,doesn’the?
Ishouldthinkhewillmakeyouhispartnersoon。Hewill,ifhe’swise。"
"Nay,sir,Idon’tseeashe’dbemuchthebetteroffforthat。A
foreman,ifhe’sgotaconscienceanddelightsinhiswork,willdohisbusinessaswellasifhewasapartner。Iwouldn’tgiveapennyforamanas’uddriveanailinslackbecausehedidn’tgetextrapayforit。"
"Iknowthat,Adam;Iknowyouworkforhimaswellasifyouwereworkingforyourself。Butyouwouldhavemorepowerthanyouhavenow,andcouldturnthebusinesstobetteraccountperhaps。Theoldmanmustgiveuphisbusinesssometime,andhehasnoson;I
supposehe’llwantason-in-lawwhocantaketoit。Buthehasrathergraspingfingersofhisown,Ifancy。Idaresayhewantsamanwhocanputsomemoneyintothebusiness。IfIwerenotaspoorasarat,Iwouldgladlyinvestsomemoneyinthatway,forthesakeofhavingyousettledontheestate。I’msureIshouldprofitbyitintheend。AndperhapsIshallbebetteroffinayearortwo。IshallhavealargerallowancenowI’mofage;andwhenI’vepaidoffadebtortwo,Ishallbeabletolookaboutme。"
"You’reverygoodtosayso,sir,andI’mnotunthankful。But"——
Adamcontinued,inadecidedtone——"Ishouldn’tliketomakeanyofferstoMr。Burge,ort’haveanymadeforme。Iseenoclearroadtoapartnership。Ifheshouldeverwanttodisposeofthebusiness,that’udbeadifferentmatter。Ishouldbegladofsomemoneyatafairinterestthen,forIfeelsureIcouldpayitoffintime。"
"Verywell,Adam,"saidArthur,rememberingwhatMr。Irwinehadsaidaboutaprobablehitchinthelove-makingbetweenAdamandMaryBurge,"we’llsaynomoreaboutitatpresent。Whenisyourfathertobeburied?"
"OnSunday,sir;Mr。Irwine’scomingearlieronpurpose。Ishallbegladwhenit’sover,forIthinkmymother’ullperhapsgeteasierthen。Itcutsonesadlytoseethegriefofoldpeople;
they’venowayo’workingitoff,andthenewspringbringsnonewshootsoutonthewitheredtree。"
"Ah,you’vehadagooddealoftroubleandvexationinyourlife,Adam。Idon’tthinkyou’veeverbeenhare-brainedandlight-
hearted,likeotheryoungsters。You’vealwayshadsomecareonyourmind。"
"Why,yes,sir;butthat’snothingtomakeafussabout。Ifwe’remenandhavemen’sfeelings,Ireckonwemusthavemen’stroubles。
Wecan’tbelikethebirds,asflyfromtheirnestassoonasthey’vegottheirwings,andneverknowtheirkinwhentheysee’em,andgetafreshloteveryyear。I’vehadenoughtobethankfulfor:I’veallayshadhealthandstrengthandbrainstogivemeadelightinmywork;andIcountitagreatthingasI’vehadBartleMassey’snight-schooltogoto。He’shelpedmetoknowledgeIcouldneverha’gotbymyself。"
"Whatararefellowyouare,Adam!"saidArthur,afterapause,inwhichhehadlookedmusinglyatthebigfellowwalkingbyhisside。"IcouldhitoutbetterthanmostmenatOxford,andyetI
believeyouwouldknockmeintonextweekifIweretohaveabaltlewithyou。"
"GodforbidIshouldeverdothat,sir,"saidAdam,lookingroundatArthurandsmiling。"Iusedtofightforfun,butI’veneverdonethatsinceIwasthecauseo’poorGilTranterbeinglaidupforafortnight。I’llneverfightanymanagain,onlywhenhebehaveslikeascoundrel。Ifyougetholdofachapthat’sgotnoshamenorconsciencetostophim,youmusttrywhatyoucandobybunginghiseyesup。"
Arthurdidnotlaugh,forhewaspreoccupiedwithsomethoughtthatmadehimsaypresently,"Ishouldthinknow,Adam,youneverhaveanystruggleswithinyourself。Ifancyyouwouldmasterawishthatyouhadmadeupyourminditwasnotquiterighttoindulge,aseasilyasyouwouldknockdownadrunkenfellowwhowasquarrelsomewithyou。Imean,youarenevershilly-shally,firstmakingupyourmindthatyouwon’tdoathing,andthendoingitafterall?"
"Well,"saidAdam,slowly,afteramoment’shesitation,"no。I
don’tremembereverbeingsee-sawinthatway,whenI’dmademymindup,asyousay,thatathingwaswrong。Ittakesthetasteouto’mymouthforthings,whenIknowIshouldhaveaheavyconscienceafter’em。I’veseenprettyclear,eversinceIcouldcastupasum,asyoucanneverdowhat’swrongwithoutbreedingsinandtroublemorethanyoucaneversee。It’slikeabito’
badworkmanship——youneverseeth’endo’themischiefit’lldo。
Andit’sapoorlook-outtocomeintotheworldtomakeyourfellow-creaturesworseoffinsteado’better。Butthere’sadifferencebetweenthethingsfolkscallwrong。I’mnotformakingasinofeverylittlefool’strick,orbito’nonsenseanybodymaybeletinto,likesomeo’themdissenters。Andamanmayhavetwomindswhetheritisn’tworthwhiletogetabruiseortwoforthesakeofabito’fun。Butitisn’tmywaytobesee-
sawaboutanything:Ithinkmyfaultliesth’otherway。WhenI’vesaidathing,ifit’sonlytomyself,it’shardformetogoback。"
"Yes,that’sjustwhatIexpectedofyou,"saidArthur。"You’vegotanironwill,aswellasanironarm。Buthoweverstrongaman’sresolutionmaybe,itcostshimsomethingtocarryitout,nowandthen。Wemaydeterminenottogatheranycherriesandkeepourhandssturdilyinourpockets,butwecan’tpreventourmouthsfromwatering。"
"That’strue,sir,butthere’snothinglikesettlingwithourselvesasthere’sadealwemustdowithouti’thislife。It’snouselookingonlifeasifitwasTreddles’onFair,wherefolksonlygotoseeshowsandgetfairings。Ifwedo,weshallfinditdifferent。Butwhere’stheuseo’metalkingtoyou,sir?YouknowbetterthanIdo。"
"I’mnotsosureofthat,Adam。You’vehadfourorfiveyearsofexperiencemorethanI’vehad,andIthinkyourlifehasbeenabetterschooltoyouthancollegehasbeentome。"
"Why,sir,youseemtothinko’collegesomethinglikewhatBartleMasseydoes。Hesayscollegemostlymakespeoplelikebladders——
justgoodfornothingbutt’holdthestuffasispouredinto’em。
Buthe’sgotatonguelikeasharpblade,Bartlehas——itnevertouchesanythingbutitcuts。Here’stheturning,sir。Imustbidyougood-morning,asyou’regoingtotherectory。"
"Good-bye,Adam,good-bye。"
Arthurgavehishorsetothegroomattherectorygate,andwalkedalongthegraveltowardsthedoorwhichopenedonthegarden。Heknewthattherectoralwaysbreakfastedinhisstudy,andthestudylayonthelefthandofthisdoor,oppositethedining-room。
Itwasasmalllowroom,belongingtotheoldpartofthehouse——
darkwiththesombrecoversofthebooksthatlinedthewalls;yetitlookedverycheerythismorningasArthurreachedtheopenwindow。Forthemorningsunfellaslantonthegreatglassglobewithgoldfishinit,whichstoodonascagliolapillarinfrontoftheready-spreadbachelorbreakfast-table,andbythesideofthisbreakfast-tablewasagroupwhichwouldhavemadeanyroomenticing。Inthecrimsondamaskeasy-chairsatMr。Irwine,withthatradiantfreshnesswhichhealwayshadwhenhecamefromhismorningtoilet;hisfinelyformedplumpwhitehandwasplayingalongJuno’sbrowncurlyback;andclosetoJuno’stail,whichwaswaggingwithcalmmatronlypleasure,thetwobrownpupswererollingovereachotherinanecstaticduetofworryingnoises。
OnacushionalittleremovedsatPug,withtheairofamaidenlady,wholookedonthesefamiliaritiesasanimalweaknesses,whichshemadeaslittleshowaspossibleofobserving。Onthetable,atMr。Irwine~selbow,laythefirstvolumeoftheFoulisAEschylus,whichArthurknewwellbysight;andthesilvercoffee-
pot,whichCarrollwasbringingin,sentforthafragrantsteamwhichcompletedthedelightsofabachelorbreakfast。
"Hallo,Arthur,that’sagoodfellow!You’rejustintime,"saidMr。Irwine,asArthurpausedandsteppedinoverthelowwindow-
sill。"Carroll,weshallwantmorecoffeeandeggs,andhaven’tyougotsomecoldfowlforustoeatwiththatham?Why,thisislikeolddays,Arthur;youhaven’tbeentobreakfastwithmethesefiveyears。"
"Itwasatemptingmorningforaridebeforebreakfast,"saidArthur;"andIusedtolikebreakfastingwithyousowhenIwasreadingwithyou。Mygrandfatherisalwaysafewdegreescolderatbreakfastthanatanyotherhourintheday。Ithinkhismorningbathdoesn’tagreewithhim。"
Arthurwasanxiousnottoimplythathecamewithanyspecialpurpose。HehadnosoonerfoundhimselfinMr。Irwine’spresencethantheconfidencewhichhehadthoughtquiteeasybefore,suddenlyappearedthemostdifficultthingintheworldtohim,andattheverymomentofshakinghandshesawhispurposeinquiteanewlight。HowcouldhemakeIrwineunderstandhispositionunlesshetoldhimthoselittlescenesinthewood;andhowcouldhetellthemwithoutlookinglikeafool?AndthenhisweaknessincomingbackfromGawaine’s,anddoingtheveryoppositeofwhatheintended!Irwinewouldthinkhimashilly-
shallyfelloweverafter。However,itmustcomeoutinanunpremeditatedway;theconversationmightleaduptoit。
"Ilikebreakfast-timebetterthananyothermomentintheday,"
saidMr。Irwine。"Nodusthassettledonone’smindthen,anditpresentsaclearmirrortotheraysofthings。Ialwayshaveafavouritebookbymeatbreakfast,andIenjoythebitsIpickupthensomuch,thatregularlyeverymorningitseemstomeasifI
shouldcertainlybecomestudiousagain。ButpresentlyDentbringsupapoorfellowwhohaskilledahare,andwhenI’vegotthroughmy’justicing,’asCarrollcallsit,I’minclinedforarideroundtheglebe,andonmywaybackImeetwiththemasteroftheworkhouse,whohasgotalongstoryofamutinouspaupertotellme;andsothedaygoeson,andI’malwaysthesamelazyfellowbeforeeveningsetsin。Besides,onewantsthestimulusofsympathy,andIhaveneverhadthatsincepoorD’OyleyleftTreddleston。Ifyouhadstucktoyourbookswell,yourascal,I
shouldhavehadapleasanterprospectbeforeme。Butscholarshipdoesn’truninyourfamilyblood。"
"Noindeed。It’swellifIcanrememberalittleinapplicableLatintoadornmymaidenspeechinParliamentsixorsevenyearshence。’Crasingensiterabimusaequor,’andafewshredsofthatsort,willperhapssticktome,andIshallarrangemyopinionssoastointroducethem。ButIdon’tthinkaknowledgeoftheclassicsisapressingwanttoacountrygentleman;asfarasI
cansee,he’dmuchbetterhaveaknowledgeofmanures。I’vebeenreadingyourfriendArthurYoung’sbookslately,andthere’snothingIshouldlikebetterthantocarryoutsomeofhisideasinputtingthefarmersonabettermanagementoftheirland;and,ashesays,makingwhatwasawildcountry,allofthesamedarkhue,brightandvariegatedwithcornandcattle。Mygrandfatherwillneverletmehaveanypowerwhilehelives,butthere’snothingIshouldlikebetterthantoundertaketheStonyshiresideoftheestate——it’sinadismalcondition——andsetimprovementsonfoot,andgallopaboutfromoneplacetoanotherandoverlookthem。Ishouldliketoknowallthelabourers,andseethemtouchingtheirhatstomewithalookofgoodwill。"
"Bravo,Arthur!Amanwhohasnofeelingfortheclassicscouldn’tmakeabetterapologyforcomingintotheworldthanbyincreasingthequantityoffoodtomaintainscholars——andrectorswhoappreciatescholars。AndwheneveryouenteronyourcareerofmodellandlordmayIbetheretosee。You’llwantaportlyrectortocompletethepicture,andtakehistitheofalltherespectandhonouryougetbyyourhardwork。Onlydon’tsetyourhearttoostronglyonthegoodwillyouaretogetinconsequence。I’mnotsurethatmenarethefondestofthosewhotrytobeusefultothem。YouknowGawainehasgotthecursesofthewholeneighbourhooduponhimaboutthatenclosure。Youmustmakeitquitecleartoyourmindwhichyouaremostbentupon,oldboy——
popularityorusefulness——elseyoumayhappentomissboth。"
"Oh!Gawaineisharshinhismanners;hedoesn’tmakehimselfpersonallyagreeabletohistenants。Idon’tbelievethere’sanythingyoucan’tprevailonpeopletodowithkindness。Formypart,Icouldn’tliveinaneighbourhoodwhereIwasnotrespectedandbeloved。Andit’sverypleasanttogoamongthetenantshere——
theyseemallsowellinclinedtomeIsupposeitseemsonlytheotherdaytothemsinceIwasalittlelad,ridingonaponyaboutasbigasasheep。Andiffairallowancesweremadetothem,andtheirbuildingsattendedto,onecouldpersuadethemtofarmonabetterplan,stupidastheyare。"
"Thenmindyoufallinloveintherightplace,anddon’tgetawifewhowilldrainyourpurseandmakeyouniggardlyinspiteofyourself。MymotherandIhavealittlediscussionaboutyousometimes:shesays,’IllneverriskasingleprophecyonArthuruntilIseethewomanhefallsinlovewith。’Shethinksyourlady-lovewillruleyouasthemoonrulesthetides。ButIfeelboundtostandupforyou,asmypupilyouknow,andImaintainthatyou’renotofthatwateryquality。Somindyoudon’tdisgracemyjudgment。"
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