AdamandDinahITwasaboutthreeo’clockwhenAdamenteredthefarmyardandrousedAlickandthedogsfromtheirSundaydozing。Alicksaideverybodywasgonetochurch"butth’youngmissis"——sohecalledDinah——butthisdidnotdisappointAdam,althoughthe"everybody"
wassoliberalastoincludeNancythedairymaid,whoseworksofnecessitywerenotunfrequentlyincompatiblewithchurch-going。
Therewasperfectstillnessaboutthehouse。Thedoorswereallclosed,andtheverystonesandtubsseemedquieterthanusual。
Adamheardthewatergentlydrippingfromthepump——thatwastheonlysound——andheknockedatthehousedoorrathersoftly,aswassuitableinthatstillness。
Thedooropened,andDinahstoodbeforehim,colouringdeeplywiththegreatsurpriseofseeingAdamatthishour,whensheknewitwashisregularpracticetobeatchurch。Yesterdayhewouldhavesaidtoherwithoutanydifficulty,"Icametoseeyou,Dinah:I
knewtherestwerenotathome。"Butto-daysomethingpreventedhimfromsayingthat,andheputouthishandtoherinsilence。
Neitherofthemspoke,andyetbothwishedtheycouldspeak,asAdamentered,andtheysatdown。Dinahtookthechairshehadjustleft;itwasatthecornerofthetablenearthewindow,andtherewasabooklyingonthetable,butitwasnotopen。Shehadbeensittingperfectlystill,lookingatthesmallbitofclearfireinthebrightgrate。Adamsatdownoppositeher,inMr。
Poyser’sthree-corneredchair。
"Yourmotherisnotillagain,Ihope,Adam?"Dinahsaid,recoveringherself。"Sethsaidshewaswellthismorning。"
"No,she’sveryheartyto-day,"saidAdam,happyinthesignsofDinah’sfeelingatthesightofhim,butshy。
"There’snobodyathome,yousee,"Dinahsaid;"butyou’llwait。
You’vebeenhinderedfromgoingtochurchto-day,doubtless。"
"Yes,"Adamsaid,andthenpaused,beforeheadded,"Iwasthinkingaboutyou:thatwasthereason。"
Thisconfessionwasveryawkwardandsudden,Adamfelt,forhethoughtDinahmustunderstandallhemeant。Butthefranknessofthewordscausedherimmediatelytointerpretthemintoarenewalofhisbrotherlyregretsthatshewasgoingaway,andsheansweredcalmly,"Donotbecarefulandtroubledforme,Adam。IhaveallthingsandaboundatSnowfield。Andmymindisatrest,forIamnotseekingmyownwillingoing。"
"Butifthingsweredifferent,Dinah,"saidAdam,hesitatingly。
"Ifyouknewthingsthatperhapsyoudon’tknownow……"
Dinahlookedathiminquiringly,butinsteadofgoingon,hereachedachairandbroughtitnearthecornerofthetablewhereshewassitting。Shewondered,andwasafraid——andthenextmomentherthoughtsflewtothepast:wasitsomethingaboutthosedistantunhappyonesthatshedidn’tknow?
Adamlookedather。Itwassosweettolookathereyes,whichhadnowaself-forgetfulquestioninginthem——foramomentheforgotthathewantedtosayanything,orthatitwasnecessarytotellherwhathemeant。
"Dinah,"hesaidsuddenly,takingbothherhandsbetweenhis,"I
loveyouwithmywholeheartandsoul。IloveyounexttoGodwhomademe。"
Dinah’slipsbecamepale,likehercheeks,andshetrembledviolentlyundertheshockofpainfuljoy。HerhandswerecoldasdeathbetweenAdam’s。Shecouldnotdrawthemaway,becauseheheldthemfast。
"Don’ttellmeyoucan’tloveme,Dinah。Don’ttellmewemustpartandpassourlivesawayfromoneanother。"
ThetearsweretremblinginDinah’seyes,andtheyfellbeforeshecouldanswer。Butshespokeinaquietlowvoice。
"Yes,dearAdam,wemustsubmittoanotherWill。Wemustpart。"
"Notifyouloveme,Dinah——notifyouloveme,"Adamsaidpassionately。"Tellme——tellmeifyoucanlovemebetterthanabrother?"
DinahwastooentirelyreliantontheSupremeguidancetoattempttoachieveanyendbyadeceptiveconcealment。Shewasrecoveringnowfromthefirstshockofemotion,andshelookedatAdamwithsimplesincereeyesasshesaid,"Yes,Adam,myheartisdrawnstronglytowardsyou;andofmyownwill,ifIhadnoclearshowingtothecontrary,Icouldfindmyhappinessinbeingnearyouandministeringtoyoucontinually。IfearIshouldforgettorejoiceandweepwithothers;nay,IfearIshouldforgettheDivinepresence,andseeknolovebutyours。"
Adamdidnotspeakimmediately。Theysatlookingateachotherindelicioussilence——forthefirstsenseofmutualloveexcludesotherfeelings;itwillhavethesoulalltoitself。
"Then,Dinah,"Adamsaidatlast,"howcantherebeanythingcontrarytowhat’srightinourbelongingtooneanotherandspendingourlivestogether?Whoputthisgreatloveintoourhearts?Cananythingbeholierthanthat?Forwecanhelponeanotherineverythingasisgood。I’dneverthinko’puttingmyselfbetweenyouandGod,andsayingyououghtn’ttodothisandyououghtn’ttodothat。You’dfollowyourconscienceasmuchasyoudonow。"
"Yes,Adam,"Dinahsaid,"Iknowmarriageisaholystateforthosewhoaretrulycalledtoit,andhavenootherdrawing;butfrommychilhoodupwardsIhavebeenledtowardsanotherpath;allmypeaceandmyjoyhavecomefromhavingnolifeofmyown,nowants,nowishesformyself,andlivingonlyinGodandthoseofhiscreatureswhosesorrowsandjoyshehasgivenmetoknow。
Thosehavebeenveryblessedyearstome,andIfeelthatifIwastolistentoanyvoicethatwoulddrawmeasidefromthatpath,I
shouldbeturningmybackonthelightthathasshoneuponme,anddarknessanddoubtwouldtakeholdofme。Wecouldnotblesseachother,Adam,ifthereweredoubtsinmysoul,andifIyearned,whenitwastoolate,afterthatbetterpartwhichhadoncebeengivenmeandIhadputawayfromme。"
"Butifanewfeelinghascomeintoyourmind,Dinah,andifyoulovemesoastobewillingtobenearertomethantootherpeople,isn’tthatasignthatit’srightforyoutochangeyourlife?Doesn’tthelovemakeitrightwhennothingelsewould?"
"Adam,mymindisfullofquestioningsaboutthat;fornow,sinceyoutellmeofyourstronglovetowardsme,whatwascleartomehasbecomedarkagain。Ifeltbeforethatmyheartwastoostronglydrawntowardsyou,andthatyourheartwasnotasmine;
andthethoughtofyouhadtakenholdofme,sothatmysoulhadlostitsfreedom,andwasbecomingenslavedtoanearthlyaffection,whichmademeanxiousandcarefulaboutwhatshouldbefallmyself。ForinallotheraffectionIhadbeencontentwithanysmallreturn,orwithnone;butmyheartwasbeginningtohungerafteranequallovefromyou。AndIhadnodoubtthatI
mustwrestleagainstthatasagreattemptation,andthecommandwasclearthatImustgoaway。"
"Butnow,dear,dearDinah,nowyouknowIloveyoubetterthanyouloveme……it’salldifferentnow。Youwon’tthinko’going。
You’llstay,andbemydearwife,andIshallthankGodforgivingmemylifeasIneverthankedhimbefore。"
"Adam,it’shardtometoturnadeafear……youknowit’shard;
butagreatfearisuponme。Itseemstomeasifyouwerestretchingoutyourarmstome,andbeckoningmetocomeandtakemyeaseandliveformyowndelight,andJesus,theManofSorrows,wasstandinglookingtowardsme,andpointingtothesinful,andsuffering,andafflicted。IhaveseenthatagainandagainwhenIhavebeensittinginstillnessanddarkness,andagreatterrorhascomeuponmelestIshouldbecomehard,andaloverofself,andnomorebearwillinglytheRedeemer’scross。"
Dinahhadclosedhereyes,andafaintshudderwentthroughher。
"Adam,"shewenton,"youwouldn’tdesirethatweshouldseekagoodthroughanyunfaithfulnesstothelightthatisinus;youwouldn’tbelievethatcouldbeagood。Weareofonemindinthat。"
"Yes,Dinah,"saidAdamsadly,"I’llneverbethemant’urgeyouagainstyourconscience。ButIcan’tgiveupthehopethatyoumaycometoseedifferent。Idon’tbelieveyourlovingmecouldshutupyourheart——it’sonlyaddingtowhatyou’vebeenbefore,nottakingawayfromit。Foritseemstomeit’sthesamewithloveandhappinessaswithsorrow——themoreweknowofitthebetterwecanfeelwhatotherpeople’slivesareormightbe,andsoweshallonlybemoretenderto’em,andwishfultohelp’em。
Themoreknowledgeamanhas,thebetterhe’lldo’swork;andfeeling’sasorto’knowledge。"
Dinahwassilent;hereyeswerefixedincontemplationofsomethingvisibleonlytoherself。Adamwentonpresentlywithhispleading,"Andyoucandoalmostasmuchasyoudonow。I
won’taskyoutogotochurchwithmeofaSunday。Youshallgowhereyoulikeamongthepeople,andteach’em;forthoughIlikechurchbest,Idon’tputmysoulaboveyours,asifmywordswasbetterforyoutofollowthanyourownconscience。Andyoucanhelpthesickjustasmuch,andyou’llhavemoremeanso’making’emabitcomfortable;andyou’llbeamongallyourownfriendsasloveyou,andcanhelp’emandbeablessingto’emtilltheirdyingday。Surely,Dinah,you’dbeasneartoGodasifyouwaslivinglonelyandawayfromme。"
Dinahmadenoanswerforsometime。Adamwasstillholdingherhandsandlookingatherwithalmosttremblinganxiety,whensheturnedhergravelovingeyesonhisandsaid,inratherasadvoice,"Adamthereistruthinwhatyousay,andthere’smanyofthebrethrenandsisterswhohavegreaterstrengththanIhave,andfindtheirheartsenlargedbythecaresofhusbandandkindred。ButIhavenotfaiththatitwouldbesowithme,forsincemyaffectionshavebeensetabovemeasureonyou,IhavehadlesspeaceandjoyinGod。Ihavefeltasitwereadivisioninmyheart。Andthinkhowitiswithme,Adam。ThatlifeIhaveledislikealandIhavetroddeninblessednesssincemychildhood;andifIlongforamomenttofollowthevoicewhichcallsmetoanotherlandthatIknownot,IcannotbutfearthatmysoulmighthereafteryearnforthatearlyblessednesswhichI
hadforsaken;andwheredoubtentersthereisnotperfectlove。I
mustwaitforclearerguidance。Imustgofromyou,andwemustsubmitourselvesentirelytotheDivineWill。Wearesometimesrequiredtolayournaturallawfulaffectionsonthealtar。"
Adamdarednotpleadagain,forDinah’swasnotthevoiceofcapriceorinsincerity。Butitwasveryhardforhim;hiseyesgotdimashelookedather。
"Butyoumaycometofeelsatisfied……tofeelthatyoumaycometomeagain,andwemayneverpart,Dinah?"
"Wemustsubmitourselves,Adam。Withtime,ourdutywillbemadeclear。ItmaybewhenIhaveenteredonmyformerlife,Ishallfindallthesenewthoughtsandwishesvanish,andbecomeasthingsthatwerenot。ThenIshallknowthatmycallingisnottowardsmarriage。Butwemustwait。"
"Dinah,"saidAdammournfully,"youcan’tlovemesowellasI
loveyou,elseyou’dhavenodoubts。Butit’snaturalyoushouldn’t,forI’mnotsogoodasyou。Ican’tdoubtit’srightformetolovethebestthingGod’severgivenmetoknow。"
"Nay,Adam。Itseemstomethatmyloveforyouisnotweak,formyheartwaitsonyourwordsandlooks,almostasalittlechildwaitsonthehelpandtendernessofthestrongonwhomitdepends。
Ifthethoughtofyoutookslightholdofme,Ishouldnotfearthatitwouldbeanidolinthetemple。Butyouwillstrengthenme——youwillnothindermeinseekingtoobeytotheuttermost。"
"Letusgooutintothesunshine,Dinah,andwalktogether。I’llspeaknowordtodisturbyou。"
Theywentoutandwalkedtowardsthefields,wheretheywouldmeetthefamilycomingfromchurch。Adamsaid,"Takemyarm,Dinah,"
andshetookit。Thatwastheonlychangeintheirmannertoeachothersincetheywerelastwalkingtogether。Butnosadnessintheprospectofhergoingaway——intheuncertaintyoftheissue——
couldrobthesweetnessfromAdam’ssensethatDinahlovedhim。
HethoughthewouldstayattheHallFarmallthatevening。Hewouldbenearheraslongashecould。
"Hey-day!There’sAdamalongwi’Dinah,"saidMr。Poyser,asheopenedthefargateintotheHomeClose。"Icouldnathinkhowhehappenedawayfromchurch。Why,"addedgoodMartin,afteramoment’spause,"whatdostthinkhasjustjumpedintomyhead?"
"Summatashadnafartojump,forit’sjustunderournose。YoumeanasAdam’sfondo’Dinah。"
"Aye!hasteverhadanynotionofitbefore?"
"TobesureIhave,"saidMrs。Poyser,whoalwaysdeclined,ifpossible,tobetakenbysurprise。"I’mnotoneo’thoseascanseethecati’thedairyan’wonderwhatshe’scomeafter。"
"Theeneversaidstawordtomeaboutit。"
"Well,Iaren’tlikeabird-clapper,forcedtomakearattlewhenthewindblowsonme。Icankeepmyowncounselwhenthere’snogoodi’speaking。"
"ButDinah’llha’noneo’him。Dostthinkshewill?"
"Nay,"saidMrs。Poyser,notsufficientlyonherguardagainstapossiblesurprise,"she’llnevermarryanybody,ifheisn’taMethodistandacripple。"
"It’udha’beenaprettythingthoughfor’emt’marry,"saidMartin,turninghisheadononeside,asifinpleasedcontemplationofhisnewidea。"Thee’dstha’likedittoo,wouldstna?"
"Ah!Ishould。Ishouldha’beensureofherthen,asshewouldn’tgoawayfrommetoSnowfield,wellythirtymileoff,andmenotgotacreaturtolookto,onlyneighbours,asarenokintome,an’mostof’emwomenasI’dbeashamedtoshowmyface,ifmydairythingswarliketheir’n。Theremaywellbestreakybutteri’themarket。An’IshouldbegladtoseethepoorthingsettledlikeaChristianwoman,withahouseofherownoverherhead;andwe’dstockherwellwi’linenandfeathers,forIlovehernexttomyownchildren。An’shemakesonefeelsaferwhenshe’si’thehouse,forshe’slikethedrivensnow:anybodymightsinfortwoashadherattheirelbow。"
"Dinah,"saidTommy,runningforwardtomeether,"mothersaysyou’llnevermarryanybodybutaMethodistcripple。Whatasillyyoumustbe!"acommentwhichTommyfollowedupbyseizingDinahwithbotharms,anddancingalongbyhersidewithincommodiousfondness。
"Why,Adam,wemissedyoui’thesingingto-day,"saidMr。Poyser。
"Howwasit?"
"IwantedtoseeDinah——she’sgoingawaysosoon,"saidAdam。
"Ah,lad!Canyoupersuadehertostopsomehow?Findheragoodhusbandsomewherei’theparish。Ifyou’lldothat,we’llforgiveyouformissingchurch。But,anyway,sheisnagoingbeforetheharvestsuppero’Wednesday,andyoumustcomethen。There’sBartleMasseycomin’,an’happenCraig。You’llbesurean’come,now,atseven?Themissiswunnahaveitabitlater。"
"Aye,"saidAdam,"I’llcomeifIcan。ButIcan’toftensaywhatI’lldobeforehand,fortheworkoftenholdsmelongerthanI
expect。You’llstaytilltheendo’theweek,Dinah?"
"Yes,yes!"saidMr。Poyser。"We’llhavenonay。"
"She’snocalltobeinahurry,"observedMrs。Poyser。
"Scarcenesso’victual’ullkeep:there’snoneedtobehastywi’
thecooking。An’scarcenessiswhatthere’sthebiggeststockofi’thatcountry。"
Dinahsmiled,butgavenopromisetostay,andtheytalkedofotherthingsthroughtherestofthewalk,lingeringinthesunshinetolookatthegreatflockofgeesegrazing,atthenewcorn-ricks,andatthesurprisingabundanceoffruitontheoldpear-tree;NancyandMollyhavingalreadyhastenedhome,sidebyside,eachholding,carefullywrappedinherpocket-handkerchief,aprayer-book,inwhichshecouldreadlittlebeyondthelargelettersandtheAmens。
Surelyallotherleisureishurrycomparedwithasunnywalkthroughthefieldsfrom"afternoonchurch"——assuchwalksusedtobeinthoseoldleisurelytimes,whentheboat,glidingsleepilyalongthecanal,wasthenewestlocomotivewonder;whenSundaybookshadmostofthemoldbrown-leathercovers,andopenedwithremarkableprecisionalwaysinoneplace。Leisureisgone——gonewherethespinning-wheelsaregone,andthepack-horses,andtheslowwaggons,andthepedlars,whobroughtbargainstothedooronsunnyafternoons。Ingeniousphilosopherstellyou,perhaps,thatthegreatworkofthesteam-engineistocreateleisureformankind。Donotbelievethem:itonlycreatesavacuumforeagerthoughttorushin。Evenidlenessiseagernow——eagerforamusement;pronetoexcursion-trains,artmuseums,periodicalliterature,andexcitingnovels;proneeventoscientifictheorizingandcursorypeepsthroughmicroscopes。OldLeisurewasquiteadifferentpersonage。Heonlyreadonenewspaper,innocentofleaders,andwasfreefromthatperiodicityofsensationswhichwecallpost-time。Hewasacontemplative,ratherstoutgentleman,ofexcellentdigestion;ofquietperceptions,undiseasedbyhypothesis;happyinhisinabilitytoknowthecausesofthings,preferringthethingsthemselves。Helivedchieflyinthecountry,amongpleasantseatsandhomesteads,andwasfondofsaunteringbythefruit-treewallandscentingtheapricotswhentheywerewarmedbythemorningsunshine,orofshelteringhimselfundertheorchardboughsatnoon,whenthesummerpearswerefalling。Heknewnothingofweekdayservices,andthoughtnonetheworseoftheSundaysermonifitallowedhimtosleepfromthetexttotheblessing;likingtheafternoonservicebest,becausetheprayersweretheshortest,andnotashamedtosayso;forhehadaneasy,jollyconscience,broad-
backedlikehimself,andabletocarryagreatdealofbeerorport-wine,notbeingmadesqueamishbydoubtsandqualmsandloftyaspirations。Lifewasnotatasktohim,butasinecure。Hefingeredtheguineasinhispocket,andatehisdinners,andsleptthesleepoftheirresponsible,forhadhenotkeptuphischaracterbygoingtochurchontheSundayafternoons?
FineoldLeisure!Donotbesevereuponhim,andjudgehimbyourmodernstandard。HeneverwenttoExeterHall,orheardapopularpreacher,orreadTractsfortheTimesorSartorResartus。
TheHarvestSupperAsAdamwasgoinghomeward,onWednesdayevening,inthesixo’clocksunlight,hesawinthedistancethelastloadofbarleywindingitswaytowardstheyard-gateoftheHallFarm,andheardthechantof"HarvestHome!"risingandsinkinglikeawave。
Fainterandfainter,andmoremusicalthroughthegrowingdistance,thefallingdyingsoundstillreachedhim,ashenearedtheWillowBrook。ThelowwesteringsunshonerightontheshouldersoftheoldBintonHills,turningtheunconscioussheepintobrightspotsoflight;shoneonthewindowsofthecottagetoo,andmadethema-flamewithaglorybeyondthatofamberoramethyst。ItwasenoughtomakeAdamfeelthathewasinagreattemple,andthatthedistantchantwasasacredsong。
"It’swonderful,"hethought,"howthatsoundgoestoone’sheartalmostlikeafuneralbell,forallittellsoneo’thejoyfullesttimeo’theyear,andthetimewhenmenaremostlythethankfullest。Isupposeit’sabithardtoustothinkanything’soverandgoneinourlives;andthere’sapartingattherootofallourjoys。It’slikewhatIfeelaboutDinah。Ishouldneverha’cometoknowthatherlove’udbethegreatesto’blessingstome,ifwhatIcountedablessinghadn’tbeenwrenchedandtornawayfromme,andleftmewithagreaterneed,soasIcouldcraveandhungerforagreaterandabettercomfort。"
HeexpectedtoseeDinahagainthisevening,andgetleavetoaccompanyherasfarasOakbourne;andthenhewouldaskhertofixsometimewhenhemightgotoSnowfield,andlearnwhetherthelastbesthopethathadbeenborntohimmustberesignedliketherest。Theworkhehadtodoathome,besidesputtingonhisbestclothes,madeitsevenbeforehewasonhiswayagaintotheHallFarm,anditwasquestionablewhether,withhislongestandquickeststrides,heshouldbethereintimeevenfortheroastbeef,whichcameaftertheplumpudding,forMrs。Poyser’ssupperwouldbepunctual。
GreatwastheclatterofknivesandpewterplatesandtincanswhenAdamenteredthehouse,buttherewasnohumofvoicestothisaccompaniment:theeatingofexcellentroastbeef,providedfreeofexpense,wastooseriousabusinesstothosegoodfarm-
labourerstobeperformedwithadividedattention,eveniftheyhadhadanythingtosaytoeachother——whichtheyhadnot。AndMr。Poyser,attheheadofthetable,wastoobusywithhiscarvingtolistentoBartleMassey’sorMr。Craig’sreadytalk。
"Here,Adam,"saidMrs。Poyser,whowasstandingandlookingontoseethatMollyandNancydidtheirdutyaswaiters,"here’saplacekeptforyoubetweenMr。Masseyandtheboys。It’sapoortaleyoucouldn’tcometoseethepuddingwhenitwaswhole。"
Adamlookedanxiouslyroundforafourthwoman’sfigure,butDinahwasnotthere。Hewasalmostafraidofaskingabouther;besides,hisattentionwasclaimedbygreetings,andthereremainedthehopethatDinahwasinthehouse,thoughperhapsdisinclinedtofestivitiesontheeveofherdeparture。
Itwasagoodlysight——thattable,withMartinPoyser’sroundgood-humouredfaceandlargepersonattheheadofithelpinghisservantstothefragrantroastbeefandpleasedwhentheemptyplatescameagain。Martin,thoughusuallyblestwithagoodappetite,reallyforgottofinishhisownbeefto-night——itwassopleasanttohimtolookonintheintervalsofcarvingandseehowtheothersenjoyedtheirsupper;forweretheynotmenwho,onallthedaysoftheyearexceptChristmasDayandSundays,atetheircolddinner,inamakeshiftmanner,underthehedgerows,anddranktheirbeeroutofwoodenbottles——withrelishcertainly,butwiththeirmouthstowardsthezenith,afterafashionmoreendurabletoducksthantohumanbipeds。MartinPoyserhadsomefaintconceptionoftheflavoursuchmenmustfindinhotroastbeefandfresh-drawnale。Heheldhisheadononesideandscreweduphismouth,ashenudgedBartleMassey,andwatchedhalf-wittedTomTholer,otherwiseknownas"TomSaft,"receivinghissecondplatefulofbeef。AgrinofdelightbrokeoverTom’sfaceastheplatewassetdownbeforehim,betweenhisknifeandfork,whichhehelderect,asiftheyhadbeensacredtapers。Butthedelightwastoostrongtocontinuesmoulderinginagrin——itburstoutthenextinstantinalong-drawn"haw,haw!"followedbyasuddencollapseintouttergravity,astheknifeandforkdarteddownontheprey。MartinPoyser’slargepersonshookwithhissilentunctuouslaugh。HeturnedtowardsMrs。PoysertoseeifshetoohadbeenobservantofTom,andtheeyesofhusbandandwifemetinaglanceofgood-naturedamusement。
"TomSaft"wasagreatfavouriteonthefarm,whereheplayedthepartoftheoldjester,andmadeupforhispracticaldeficienciesbyhissuccessinrepartee。Hishits,Iimagine,werethoseoftheflail,whichfallsquiteatrandom,butneverthelesssmashesaninsectnowandthen。Theyweremuchquotedatsheep-shearingandhaymakingtimes,butIrefrainfromrecordingthemhere,lestTom’switshouldprovetobelikethatofmanyotherbygonejesterseminentintheirday——ratherofatemporarynature,notdealingwiththedeeperandmorelastingrelationsofthings。
Tomexcepted,MartinPoyserhadsomeprideinhisservantsandlabourers,thinkingwithsatisfactionthattheywerethebestworththeirpayofanysetontheestate。TherewasKesterBale,forexampleBeale,probably,ifthetruthwereknown,buthewascalledBale,andwasnotconsciousofanyclaimtoafifthletter,theoldmanwiththecloseleathercapandthenetworkofwrinklesonhissun-brownedface。WasthereanymaninLoamshirewhoknewbetterthe"natur"ofallfarmingwork?Hewasoneofthoseinvaluablelabourerswhocannotonlyturntheirhandtoeverything,butexcelineverythingtheyturntheirhandto。ItistrueKester’skneesweremuchbentoutwardbythistime,andhewalkedwithaperpetualcurtsy,asifhewereamongthe,mostreverentofmen。Andsohewas;butIamobligedtoadmitthattheobjectofhisreverencewashisownskill,towardswhichheperformedsomeratheraffectingactsofworship。Healwaysthatchedthericks——forifanythingwerehisfortemorethananother,itwasthatching——andwhenthelasttouchhadbeenputtothelastbeehiverick,Kester,whosehomelayatsomedistancefromthefarm,wouldtakeawalktotherick-yardinhisbestclothesonaSundaymorningandstandinthelane,ataduedistance,tocontemplatehisownthatchingwalkingabouttogeteachrickfromtheproperpointofview。Ashecurtsiedalong,withhiseyesupturnedtothestrawknobsimitativeofgoldenglobesatthesummitsofthebeehivericks,whichindeedweregoldofthebestsort,youmighthaveimaginedhimtobeengagedinsomepaganactofadoration。Kesterwasanoldbachelorandreputedtohavestockingsfullofcoin,concerningwhichhismastercrackedajokewithhimeverypay-night:notanewunseasonedjoke,butagoodoldone,thathadbeentriedmanytimesbeforeandhadwornwell。"Th’youngmeaster’samerrymon,"Kesterfrequentlyremarked;forhavingbegunhiscareerbyfrighteningawaythecrowsunderthelastMartinPoyserbutone,hecouldneverceasetoaccountthereigningMartinayoungmaster。IamnotashamedofcommemoratingoldKester。YouandI
areindebtedtothehardhandsofsuchmen——handsthathavelongagomingledwiththesoiltheytilledsofaithfully,thriftilymakingthebesttheycouldoftheearth’sfruits,andreceivingthesmallestshareastheirownwages。
Then,attheendofthetable,oppositehismaster,therewasAlick,theshepherdandhead-man,withtheruddyfaceandbroadshoulders,notonthebesttermswitholdKester;indeed,theirintercoursewasconfinedtoanoccasionalsnarl,forthoughtheyprobablydifferedlittleconcerninghedgingandditchingandthetreatmentofewes,therewasaprofounddifferenceofopinionbetweenthemastotheirownrespectivemerits。WhenTityrusandMeliboeushappentobeonthesamefarm,theyarenotsentimentallypolitetoeachother。Alick,indeed,wasnotbyanymeansahoneyedman。Hisspeechhadusuallysomethingofasnarlinit,andhisbroad-shoulderedaspectsomethingofthebull-dogexpression——"Don’tyoumeddlewithme,andIwon’tmeddlewithyou。"Buthewashonesteventothesplittingofanoat-grainratherthanhewouldtakebeyondhisacknowledgedshare,andas"close-fisted"withhismaster’spropertyasifithadbeenhisown——throwingverysmallhandfulsofdamagedbarleytothechickens,becausealargehandfulaffectedhisimaginationpainfullywithasenseofprofusion。Good-temperedTim,thewaggoner,wholovedhishorses,hadhisgrudgeagainstAlickinthematterofcorn。Theyrarelyspoketoeachother,andneverlookedateachother,evenovertheirdishofcoldpotatoes;butthen,asthiswastheirusualmodeofbehaviourtowardsallmankind,itwouldbeanunsafeconclusionthattheyhadmorethantransientfitsofunfriendliness。ThebucoliccharacteratHayslope,youperceive,wasnotofthatentirelygenial,merry,broad-grinningsort,apparentlyobservedinmostdistrictsvisitedbyartists。Themildradianceofasmilewasararesightonafield-labourer’sface,andtherewasseldomanygradationbetweenbovinegravityandalaugh。NorwaseverylabourersohonestasourfriendAlick。Atthisverytable,amongMr。Poyser’smen,thereisthatbigBenTholoway,averypowerfulthresher,butdetectedmorethanonceincarryingawayhismaster’scorninhispockets——anactionwhich,asBenwasnotaphilosopher,couldhardlybeascribedtoabsenceofmind。However,hismasterhadforgivenhim,andcontinuedtoemployhim,fortheTholowayshadlivedontheCommontimeoutofmind,andhadalwaysworkedforthePoysers。Andonthewhole,Idaresay,societywasnotmuchtheworsebecauseBenhadnotsixmonthsofitatthetreadmill,forhisviewsofdepredationwerenarrow,andtheHouseofCorrectionmighthaveenlargedthem。Asitwas,Benatehisroastbeefto-nightwithaserenesenseofhavingstolennothingmorethanafewpeasandbeansasseedforhisgardensincethelastharvestsupper,andfeltwarrantedinthinkingthatAlick’ssuspiciouseye,foreveruponhim,wasaninjurytohisinnocence。
ButNOWtheroastbeefwasfinishedandtheclothwasdrawn,leavingafairlargedealtableforthebrightdrinking-cans,andthefoamingbrownjugs,andthebrightbrasscandlesticks,pleasanttobehold。NOW,thegreatceremonyoftheeveningwastobegin——theharvest-song,inwhicheverymanmustjoin。Hemightbeintune,ifhelikedtobesingular,buthemustnotsitwithclosedlips。Themovementwasobligedtobeintripletime;therestwasadlibitum。
Astotheoriginofthissong——whetheritcameinitsactualstatefromthebrainofasinglerhapsodist,orwasgraduallyperfectedbyaschoolorsuccessionofrhapsodists,Iamignorant。Thereisastampofunity,ofindividualgeniusuponit,whichinclinesmetotheformerhypothesis,thoughIamnotblindtotheconsiderationthatthisunitymayratherhavearisenfromthatconsensusofmanymindswhichwasaconditionofprimitivethought,foreigntoourmodernconsciousness。Somewillperhapsthinkthattheydetectinthefirstquatrainanindicationofalostline,whichlaterrhapsodists,failinginimaginativevigour,havesuppliedbythefeebledeviceofiteration。Others,however,mayrathermaintainthatthisveryiterationisanoriginalfelicity,towhichnonebutthemostprosaicmindscanbeinsensible。
Theceremonyconnectedwiththesongwasadrinkingceremony。
Thatisperhapsapainfulfact,butthen,youknow,wecannotreformourforefathers。Duringthefirstandsecondquatrain,sungdecidedlyforte,nocanwasfilled。
Here’sahealthuntoourmaster,Thefounderofthefeast;
Here’sahealthuntoourmasterAndtoourmistress!
Andmayhisdoingsprosper,Whate’erhetakesinhand,Forweareallhisservants,Andareathiscommand。
Butnow,immediatelybeforethethirdquatrainorchorus,sungfortissimo,withemphaticrapsofthetable,whichgavetheeffectofcymbalsanddrumtogether,Alick’scanwasfilled,andhewasboundtoemptyitbeforethechorusceased。
Thendrink,boys,drink!
Andseeyedonotspill,Forifyedo,yeshalldrinktwo,For’tisourmaster’swill。
WhenAlickhadgonesuccessfullythroughthistestofsteady-
handedmanliness,itwastheturnofoldKester,athisrighthand——andsoon,tilleverymanhaddrunkhisinitiatorypintunderthestimulusofthechorus。TomSaft——therogue——tookcaretospillalittlebyaccident;butMrs。Poysertooofficiously,Tomthoughtinterferedtopreventtheexactionofthepenalty。
Toanylisteneroutsidethedooritwouldhavebeenthereverseofobviouswhythe"Drink,boys,drink!"shouldhavesuchanimmediateandoften-repeatedencore;butonceentered,hewouldhaveseenthatallfaceswereatpresentsober,andmostofthemserious——itwastheregularandrespectablethingforthoseexcellentfarm-labourerstodo,asmuchasforelegantladiesandgentlementosmirkandbowovertheirwine-glasses。BartleMassey,whoseearswererathersensitive,hadgoneouttoseewhatsortofeveningitwasatanearlystageintheceremony,andhadnotfinishedhiscontemplationuntilasilenceoffiveminutesdeclaredthat"Drink,boys,drink!"wasnotlikelytobeginagainforthenexttwelvemonth。MuchtotheregretoftheboysandTotty:onthemthestillnessfellratherflat,afterthatgloriousthumpingofthetable,towardswhichTotty,seatedonherfather’sknee,contributedwithhersmallmightandsmallfist。
WhenBartlere-entered,however,thereappearedtobeageneraldesireforsolomusicafterthechoral。NancydeclaredthatTimthewaggonerknewasongandwas"allayssinginglikealarki’
thestable,"whereuponMr。Poysersaidencouragingly,"Come,Tim,lad,let’shearit。"Timlookedsheepish,tuckeddownhishead,andsaidhecouldn’tsing,butthisencouraginginvitationofthemaster’swasechoedallroundthetable。Itwasaconversationalopportunity:everybodycouldsay,"Come,Tim,"exceptAlick,whoneverrelaxedintothefrivolityofunnecessaryspeech。Atlast,Tim’snextneighbour,BenTholoway,begantogiveemphasistohisspeechbynudges,atwhichTim,growingrathersavage,said,"Letmealooan,willye?ElseI’llma’yesingatoonyewonnalike。"
Agood-temperedwaggoner’spatiencehaslimits,andTimwasnottobeurgedfurther。
"Well,then,David,ye’retheladtosing,"saidBen,willingtoshowthathewasnotdiscomfitedbythischeck。"Sing’Myloove’sarooswi’outathorn。’"
TheamatoryDavidwasayoungmanofanunconsciousabstractedexpression,whichwasdueprobablytoasquintofsuperiorintensityratherthantoanymentalcharacteristic;forhewasnotindifferenttoBen’sinvitation,butblushedandlaughedandrubbedhissleeveoverhismouthinawaythatwasregardedasasymptomofyielding。AndforsometimethecompanyappearedtobemuchinearnestaboutthedesiretohearDavid’ssong。Butinvain。Thelyricismoftheeveningwasinthecellaratpresent,andwasnottobedrawnfromthatretreatjustyet。
Meanwhiletheconversationattheheadofthetablehadtakenapoliticalturn。Mr。Craigwasnotabovetalkingpoliticsoccasionally,thoughhepiquedhimselfratheronawiseinsightthanonspecificinformation。Hesawsofarbeyondthemerefactsofacasethatreallyitwassuperfluoustoknowthem。
"I’mnoreadero’thepapermyself,"heobservedto-night,ashefilledhispipe,"thoughImightreaditfastenoughifIliked,forthere’sMissLyddyhas’emand’sdonewith’emi’notime。
Butthere’sMills,now,sitsi’thechimney-cornerandreadsthepaperprettynighfrommorningtonight,andwhenhe’sgottoth’
endon’the’smoreaddle-headedthanhewasatthebeginning。
He’sfullo’thispeacenow,astheytalkon;he’sbeenreadingandreading,andthinkshe’sgottothebottomon’t。’Why,Lor’
blessyou,Mills,’saysI,’youseenomoreintothisthingnoryoucanseeintothemiddleofapotato。I’lltellyouwhatitis:youthinkit’llbeafinethingforthecountry。AndI’mnotagain’it——markmywords——I’mnotagain’it。Butit’smyopinionasthere’sthemattheheado’thiscountryasareworseenemiestousnorBonyandallthemounseershe’sgotat’sback;forasforthemounseers,youmayskewerhalf-a-dozenof’ematonceasiftheywarfrogs。’"
"Aye,aye,"saidMartinPoyser,listeningwithanairofmuchintelligenceandedification,"theyne’erateabito’beefi’
theirlives。Mostlysallet,Ireckon。"
"AndsaysItoMills,"continuedMr。Craig,"’Willyoutrytomakemebelieveasfurrinerslikethemcandoushalfth’harmthemministersdowiththeirbadgovernment?IfKingGeorge’udturn’emallawayandgovernbyhimself,he’dseeeverythingrighted。
HemighttakeonBillyPittagainifheliked;butIdon’tseemyselfwhatwewantwi’anybodybesidesKingandParliament。It’sthatnesto’ministersdoesthemischief,Itellyou。’"
"Ah,it’sfinetalking,"observedMrs。Poyser,whowasnowseatednearherhusband,withTottyonherlap——"it’sfinetalking。It’shardworktotellwhichisOldHarrywheneverybody’sgotbootson。"
"Asforthispeace,"saidMr。Poyser,turninghisheadononesideinadubitativemannerandgivingaprecautionarypufftohispipebetweeneachsentence,"Idon’tknow。Th’war’safinethingforthecountry,an’how’llyoukeepuppriceswi’outit?An’themFrenchareawickedsorto’folks,bywhatIcanmakeout。Whatcanyoudobetternorfight’em?"
"Ye’repartlyrightthere,Poyser,"saidMr。Craig,"butI’mnotagain’thepeace——tomakeaholidayforabit。Wecanbreakitwhenwelike,an’I’minnofearo’Bony,foralltheytalksomucho’hiscliverness。That’swhatIsaystoMillsthismorning。
Lor’blessyou,heseesnomorethroughBony!……why,Iputhimuptomoreinthreeminutesthanhegetsfrom’spaperalltheyearround。SaysI,’AmIagardenerasknowshisbusiness,orarn’tI,Mills?Answermethat。’’Tobesurey’are,Craig,’sayshe——
he’snotabadfellow,Millsisn’t,forabutler,butweaki’thehead。’Well,’saysI,’youtalko’Bony’scliverness;woulditbeanyusemybeingafirst-rategardenerifI’dgotnoughtbutaquagmiretoworkon?’’No,’sayshe。’Well,’Isays,’that’sjustwhatitiswi’Bony。I’llnotdenybuthemaybeabitcliver——he’snoFrenchmanborn,asIunderstand——butwhat’shegotat’sbackbutmounseers?’"
Mr。CraigpausedamomentwithanemphaticstareafterthistriumphantspecimenofSocraticargument,andthenadded,thumpingthetableratherfiercely,"Why,it’sasurething——andthere’sthem’ullbearwitnessto’t——asi’oneregimentwheretherewasonemana-missing,theyputtheregimentalsonabigmonkey,andtheyfithimastheshellfitsthewalnut,andyoucouldn’ttellthemonkeyfromthemounseers!"
"Ah!Thinko’that,now!"saidMr。Poyser,impressedatoncewiththepoliticalbearingsofthefactandwithitsstrikinginterestasananecdoteinnaturalhistory。
"Come,Craig,"saidAdam,"that’salittletoostrong。Youdon’tbelievethat。It’sallnonsenseabouttheFrenchbeingsuchpoorsticks。Mr。Irwine’sseen’emintheirowncountry,andhesaysthey’veplentyo’finefellowsamong’em。Andasforknowledge,andcontrivances,andmanufactures,there’samanythingsaswe’reafinesightbehind’emin。It’spoorfoolishnesstorundownyourenemies。Why,Nelsonandtherestof’em’udhavenomeriti’beating’em,iftheyweresuchoffalasfolkspretend。"
Mr。PoyserlookeddoubtfullyatMr。Craig,puzzledbythisoppositionofauthorities。Mr。Irwine’stestimonywasnottobedisputed;but,ontheotherhand,Craigwasaknowingfellow,andhisviewwaslessstartling。Martinhadnever"heardtell"oftheFrenchbeinggoodformuch。Mr。Craighadfoundnoanswerbutsuchaswasimpliedintakingalongdraughtofaleandthenlookingdownfixedlyattheproportionsofhisownleg,whichheturnedalittleoutwardforthatpurpose,whenBartleMasseyreturnedfromthefireplace,wherehehadbeensmokinghisfirstpipeinquiet,andbrokethesilencebysaying,ashethrusthisforefingerintothecanister,"Why,Adam,howhappenedyounottobeatchurchonSunday?Answermethat,yourascal。Theanthemwentlimpingwithoutyou。Areyougoingtodisgraceyourschoolmasterinhisoldage?"
"No,Mr。Massey,"saidAdam。"Mr。andMrs。PoysercantellyouwhereIwas。Iwasinnobadcompany。"
"She’sgone,Adam——gonetoSnowfield,"saidMr。Poyser,remindedofDinahforthefirsttimethisevening。"Ithoughtyou’dha’
persuadedherbetter。Nought’udholdher,butshemustgoyesterdayforenoon。Themissishashardlygotoverit。Ithoughtshe’dha’nosperritforth’harvestsupper。"
Mrs。PoyserhadthoughtofDinahseveraltimessinceAdamhadcomein,butshehadhad"noheart"tomentionthebadnews。
"What!"saidBartle,withanairofdisgust。"Wasthereawomanconcerned?ThenIgiveyouup,Adam。"
"Butit’sawomanyou’nspokewellon,Bartle,"saidMr。Poyser。
"Comenow,youcannadrawback;yousaidonceaswomenwouldnaha’
beenabadinventionifthey’dallbeenlikeDinah。"
"Imeanthervoice,man——Imeanthervoice,thatwasall,"saidBartle。"Icanbeartohearherspeakwithoutwantingtoputwoolinmyears。Asforotherthings,Idaresayshe’sliketheresto’
thewomen——thinkstwoandtwo’llcometomakefive,ifshecriesandbothersenoughaboutit。"
"Aye,aye!"saidMrs。Poyser;"one’udthink,an’hearsomefolkstalk,asthemenwar’cuteenoughtocountthecornsinabago’
wheatwi’onlysmellingatit。Theycanseethroughabarn-door,theycan。Perhapsthat’sthereasonTHEYcanseesolittleo’
thissideon’t。"
MartinPoysershookwithdelightedlaughterandwinkedatAdam,asmuchastosaytheschoolmasterwasinforitnow。
"Ah!"saidBartlesneeringly,"thewomenarequickenough——they’requickenough。Theyknowtherightsofastorybeforetheyhearit,andcantellamanwhathisthoughtsarebeforeheknows’emhimself。"
"Likeenough,"saidMrs。Poyser,"forthemenaremostlysoslow,theirthoughtsoverrun’em,an’theycanonlycatch’embythetail。Icancountastocking-topwhileaman’sgetting’stonguereadyan’whenheoutswi’hisspeechatlast,there’slittlebrothtobemadeon’t。It’syourdeadchickstakethelongesthatchin’。Howiver,I’mnotdenyin’thewomenarefoolish:GodAlmightymade’emtomatchthemen。"
"Match!"saidBartle。"Aye,asvinegarmatchesone’steeth。Ifamansaysaword,hiswife’llmatchitwithacontradiction;ifhe’samindforhotmeat,hiswife’llmatchitwithcoldbacon;
ifhelaughs,she’llmatchhimwithwhimpering。She’ssuchamatchasthehorse-flyistoth’horse:she’sgottherightvenomtostinghimwith——therightvenomtostinghimwith。"
"Yes,"saidMrs。Poyser,"Iknowwhatthemenlike——apoorsoft,as’udsimperat’emlikethepictureo’thesun,whethertheydidrightorwrong,an’saythankyouforakick,an’pretendshedidnaknowwhichendshestooduppermost,tillherhusbandtoldher。That’swhatamanwantsinawife,mostly;hewantstomakesureo’onefoolas’ulltellhimhe’swise。Butthere’ssomemencandowi’outthat——theythinksomucho’themselvesa’ready。An’
that’showitisthere’soldbachelors。"
"Come,Craig,"saidMr。Poyserjocosely,"youmungetmarriedprettyquick,elseyou’llbesetdownforanoldbachelor;an’youseewhatthewomen’ullthinkonyou。"
"Well,"saidMr。Craig,willingtoconciliateMrs。Poyserandsettingahighvalueonhisowncompliments,"Ilikeacleverishwoman——awomano’sperrit——amanagingwoman。"
"You’reoutthere,Craig,"saidBartle,dryly;"you’reoutthere。
Youjudgeo’yourgarden-stuffonabetterplanthanthat。Youpickthethingsforwhattheycanexcelin——forwhattheycanexcelin。Youdon’tvalueyourpeasfortheirroots,oryourcarrotsfortheirflowers。Now,that’sthewayyoushouldchoosewomen。Theircleverness’llnevercometomuch——nevercometomuch——buttheymakeexcellentsimpletons,ripeandstrong-
flavoured。"
"Whatdostsaytothat?"saidMr。Poyser,throwinghimselfbackandlookingmerrilyathiswife。
"Say!"answeredMrs。Poyser,withdangerousfirekindlinginhereye。"Why,Isayassomefolks’tonguesareliketheclocksasrunonstrikin’,nottotellyouthetimeo’theday,butbecausethere’ssummatwrongi’theirowninside……"
Mrs。Poyserwouldprobablyhavebroughtherrejoindertoafurtherclimax,ifeveryone’sattentionhadnotatthismomentbeencalledtotheotherendofthetable,wherethelyricism,whichhadatfirstonlymanifesteditselfbyDavid’ssottovoceperformanceof"Mylove’sarosewithoutathorn,"hadgraduallyassumedaratherdeafeningandcomplexcharacter。Tim,thinkingslightlyofDavid’svocalization,wasimpelledtosupersedethatfeeblebuzzbyaspiritedcommencementof"ThreeMerryMowers,"
butDavidwasnottobeputdownsoeasily,andshowedhimselfcapableofacopiouscrescendo,whichwasrenderingitdoubtfulwhethertherosewouldnotpredominateoverthemowers,whenoldKester,withanentirelyunmovedandimmovableaspect,suddenlysetupaquaveringtreble——asifhehadbeenanalarum,andthetimewascomeforhimtogooff。
ThecompanyatAlick’sendofthetabletookthisformofvocalentertainmentverymuchasamatterofcourse,beingfreefrommusicalprejudices;butBartleMasseylaiddownhispipeandputhisfingersinhisears;andAdam,whohadbeenlongingtogoeversincehehadheardDinahwasnotinthehouse,roseandsaidhemustbidgood-night。
"I’llgowithyou,lad,"saidBartle;"I’llgowithyoubeforemyearsaresplit。"
"I’llgoroundbytheCommonandseeyouhome,ifyoulike,Mr。
Massey,"saidAdam。
"Aye,aye!"saidBartle;"thenwecanhaveabito’talktogether。
Inevergetholdofyounow。"
"Eh!It’sapitybutyou’dsititout,"saidMartinPoyser。
"They’llallgosoon,forth’missisniverlets’emstaypastten。"
ButAdamwasresolute,sothegood-nightsweresaid,andthetwofriendsturnedoutontheirstarlightwalktogether。
"There’sthatpoorfool,Vixen,whimperingformeathome,"saidBartle。"IcanneverbringherherewithmeforfearsheshouldbestruckwithMrs。Poyser’seye,andthepoorbitchmightgolimpingforeverafter。"
"I’veneveranyneedtodriveGypback,"saidAdam,laughing。"HealwaysturnsbackofhisownheadwhenhefindsoutI’mcominghere。"
"Aye,aye,"saidBartle。"Aterriblewoman!——madeofneedles,madeofneedles。ButIsticktoMartin——IshallalwayssticktoMartin。Andhelikestheneedles,Godhelphim!He’sacushionmadeonpurposefor’em。"
"Butshe’sadownrightgood-natur’dwoman,forallthat,"saidAdam,"andastrueasthedaylight。She’sabitcrosswi’thedogswhentheyoffertocomeinth’house,butiftheydependedonher,she’dtakecareandhave’emwellfed。Ifhertongue’skeen,herheart’stender:I’veseenthatintimeso’trouble。She’soneo’thosewomenasarebetterthantheirword。"
"Well,well,"saidBartle,"Idon’tsayth’appleisn’tsoundatthecore;butitsetsmyteethonedge——itsetsmyteethonedge。"
TheMeetingontheHillADAMunderstoodDinah’shastetogoaway,anddrewhoperatherthandiscouragementfromit。Shewasfearfullestthestrengthofherfeelingtowardshimshouldhinderherfromwaitingandlisteningfaithfullyfortheultimateguidingvoicefromwithin。
"IwishI’daskedhertowritetome,though,"hethought。"Andyeteventhatmightdisturbherabit,perhaps。Shewantstobequitequietinheroldwayforawhile。AndI’venorighttobeimpatientandinterruptingherwithmywishes。She’stoldmewhathermindis,andshe’snotawomantosayonethingandmeananother。I’llwaitpatiently。"
ThatwasAdam’swiseresolution,anditthroveexcellentlyforthefirsttwoorthreeweeksonthenourishmentitgotfromtheremembranceofDinah’sconfessionthatSundayafternoon。Thereisawonderfulamountofsustenanceinthefirstfewwordsoflove。
ButtowardsthemiddleofOctobertheresolutionbegantodwindleperceptibly,andshoweddangeroussymptomsofexhaustion。Theweekswereunusuallylong:Dinahmustsurelyhavehadmorethanenoughtimetomakeuphermind。Letawomansaywhatshewillaftershehasoncetoldamanthatsheloveshim,heisalittletooflushedandexaltedwiththatfirstdraughtsheoffershimtocaremuchaboutthetasteofthesecond。Hetreadstheearthwithaveryelasticstepashewalksawayfromher,andmakeslightofalldifficulties。Butthatsortofglowdiesout:memorygetssadlydilutedwithtime,andisnotstrongenoughtoreviveus。
Adamwasnolongersoconfidentashehadbeen。HebegantofearthatperhapsDinah’soldlifewouldhavetoostrongagraspuponherforanynewfeelingtotriumph。Ifshehadnotfeltthis,shewouldsurelyhavewrittentohimtogivehimsomecomfort;butitappearedthatshehelditrighttodiscouragehim。AsAdam’sconfidencewaned,hispatiencewanedwithit,andhethoughthemustwritehimself。HemustaskDinahnottoleavehiminpainfuldoubtlongerthanwasneedful。Hesatuplateonenighttowriteheraletter,butthenextmorningheburntit,afraidofitseffect。Itwouldbeworsetohaveadiscouraginganswerbyletterthanfromherownlips,forherpresencereconciledhimtoherwill。
Youperceivehowitwas:AdamwashungeringforthesightofDinah,andwhenthatsortofhungerreachesacertainstage,aloverislikelytostillitthoughhemayhavetoputhisfutureinpawn。
ButwhatharmcouldhedobygoingtoSnowfield?Dinahcouldnotbedispleasedwithhimforit。Shehadnotforbiddenhimtogo。
Shemustsurelyexpectthathewouldgobeforelong。BythesecondSundayinOctoberthisviewofthecasehadbecomesocleartoAdamthathewasalreadyonhiswaytoSnowfield,onhorsebackthistime,forhishourswerepreciousnow,andhehadborrowedJonathanBurge’sgoodnagforthejourney。
Whatkeenmemorieswentalongtheroadwithhim!HehadoftenbeentoOakbourneandbacksincethatfirstjourneytoSnowfield,butbeyondOakbournethegreystonewalls,thebrokencountry,themeagretrees,seemedtobetellinghimafreshthestoryofthatpainfulpastwhichheknewsowellbyheart。Butnostoryisthesametousafteralapseoftime——orrather,wewhoreaditarenolongerthesameinterpreters——andAdamthismorningbroughtwithhimnewthoughtsthroughthatgreycountry,thoughtswhichgaveanalteredsignificancetoitsstoryofthepast。
Thatisabaseandselfish,evenablasphemous,spiritwhichrejoicesandisthankfuloverthepastevilthathasblightedorcrushedanother,becauseithasbeenmadeasourceofunforeseengoodtoourselves。Adamcouldneverceasetomournoverthatmysteryofhumansorrowwhichhadbeenbroughtsoclosetohim;hecouldneverthankGodforanother’smisery。AndifIwerecapableofthatnarrow-sightedjoyinAdam’sbehalf,Ishouldstillknowhewasnotthemantofeelitforhimself。Hewouldhaveshakenhisheadatsuchasentimentandsaid,"Evil’sevil,andsorrow’ssorrow,andyoucan’talterit’snaturbywrappingitupinotherwords。Otherfolkswerenotcreatedformysake,thatIshouldthinkallsquarewhenthingsturnoutwellforme。"
Butitisnotignobletofeelthatthefullerlifewhichasadexperiencehasbroughtusisworthourownpersonalshareofpain。
Surelyitisnotpossibletofeelotherwise,anymorethanitwouldbepossibleforamanwithcataracttoregretthepainfulprocessbywhichhisdimblurredsightofmenastreeswalkinghadbeenexchangedforclearoutlineandeffulgentday。Thegrowthofhigherfeelingwithinusislikethegrowthoffaculty,bringingwithitasenseofaddedstrength。Wecannomorewishtoreturntoanarrowersympathythanapainteroramusiciancanwishtoreturntohiscrudermanner,oraphilosophertohislesscompleteformula。
SomethinglikethissenseofenlargedbeingwasinAdam’smindthisSundaymorning,asherodealonginvividrecollectionofthepast。HisfeelingtowardsDinah,thehopeofpassinghislifewithher,hadbeenthedistantunseenpointtowardswhichthathardjourneyfromSnowfieldeighteenmonthsagohadbeenleadinghim。TenderanddeepashisloveforHettyhadbeen——sodeepthattherootsofitwouldneverbetornaway——hisloveforDinahwasbetterandmoreprecioustohim,foritwastheoutgrowthofthatfullerlifewhichhadcometohimfromhisacquaintancewithdeepsorrow。"It’slikeasifitwasanewstrengthtome,"hesaidtohimself,"toloveherandknowasshelovesme。Ishalllookt’
hertohelpmetoseethingsright。Forshe’sbetterthanIam——
there’slesso’selfinher,andpride。Andit’safeelingasgivesyouasorto’liberty,asifyoucouldwalkmorefearless,whenyou’vemoretrustinanotherthany’haveinyourself。I’vealwaysbeenthinkingIknewbetterthanthemasbelongedtome,andthat’sapoorsorto’life,whenyoucan’tlooktothemnearesttoyout’helpyouwithabitbetterthoughtthanwhatyou’vegotinsideyoua’ready。"
Itwasmorethantwoo’clockintheafternoonwhenAdamcameinsightofthegreytownonthehill-sideandlookedsearchinglytowardsthegreenvalleybelow,forthefirstglimpseoftheoldthatchedroofneartheuglyredmill。ThescenelookedlessharshinthesoftOctobersunshinethanithadintheeagertimeofearlyspring,andtheonegrandcharmitpossessedincommonwithallwide-stretchingwoodlessregions——thatitfilledyouwithanewconsciousnessoftheoverarchingsky——hadamilder,moresoothinginfluencethanusual,onthisalmostcloudlessday。
Adam’sdoubtsandfearsmeltedunderthisinfluenceasthedelicateweblikecloudshadgraduallymeltedawayintotheclearblueabovehim。HeseemedtoseeDinah’sgentlefaceassuringhim,withitslooksalone,ofallhelongedtoknow。
HedidnotexpectDinahtobeathomeatthishour,buthegotdownfromhishorseandtieditatthelittlegate,thathemightaskwhereshewasgoneto-day。Hehadsethismindonfollowingherandbringingherhome。ShewasgonetoSloman’sEnd,ahamletaboutthreemilesoff,overthehill,theoldwomantoldhim——hadsetoffdirectlyaftermorningchapel,topreachinacottagethere,asherhabitwas。AnybodyatthetownwouldtellhimthewaytoSloman’sEnd。SoAdamgotonhishorseagainandrodetothetown,puttingupattheoldinnandtakingahastydinnerthereinthecompanyofthetoochattylandlord,fromwhosefriendlyquestionsandreminiscenceshewasgladtoescapeassoonaspossibleandsetouttowardsSloman’sEnd。Withallhishasteitwasnearlyfouro’clockbeforehecouldsetoff,andhethoughtthatasDinahhadgonesoearly,shewouldperhapsalreadybenearreturning。Thelittle,grey,desolate-lookinghamlet,unscreenedbyshelteringtrees,layinsightlongbeforehereachedit,andashecamenearhecouldhearthesoundofvoicessingingahymn。
"Perhapsthat’sthelasthymnbeforetheycomeaway,"Adamthought。"I’llwalkbackabitandturnagaintomeether,fartheroffthevillage。"Hewalkedbacktillhegotnearlytothetopofthehillagain,andseatedhimselfonaloosestone,againstthelowwall,towatchtillheshouldseethelittleblackfigureleavingthehamletandwindingupthehill。Hechosethisspot,almostatthetopofthehill,becauseitwasawayfromalleyes——nohouse,nocattle,notevenanibblingsheepnear——nopresencebutthestilllightsandshadowsandthegreatembracingsky。
Shewasmuchlongercomingthanheexpected。Hewaitedanhouratleastwatchingforherandthinkingofher,whiletheafternoonshadowslengthenedandthelightgrewsofter。Atlasthesawthelittleblackfigurecomingfrombetweenthegreyhousesandgraduallyapproachingthefootofthehill。Slowly,Adamthought,butDinahwasreallywalkingatherusualpace,withalightquietstep。Nowshewasbeginningtowindalongthepathupthehill,butAdamwouldnotmoveyet;hewouldnotmeethertoosoon;hehadsethisheartonmeetingherinthisassuredloneliness。Andnowhebegantofearlestheshouldstartlehertoomuch。"Yet,"
hethought,"she’snotonetobeoverstartled;she’salwayssocalmandquiet,asifshewaspreparedforanything。"
Whatwasshethinkingofasshewoundupthehill?Perhapsshehadfoundcompletereposewithouthim,andhadceasedtofeelanyneedofhislove。Onthevergeofadecisionwealltremble:hopepauseswithflutteringwings。
Butnowatlastshewasverynear,andAdamrosefromthestonewall。Ithappenedthatjustashewalkedforward,Dinahhadpausedandturnedroundtolookbackatthevillage——whodoesnotpauseandlookbackinmountingahill?Adamwasglad,for,withthefineinstinctofalover,hefeltthatitwouldbebestforhertohearhisvoicebeforeshesawhim。Hecamewithinthreepacesofherandthensaid,"Dinah!"Shestartedwithoutlookinground,asifsheconnectedthesoundwithnoplace。"Dinah!"Adamsaidagain。Heknewquitewellwhatwasinhermind。Shewassoaccustomedtothinkofimpressionsaspurelyspiritualmonitionsthatshelookedfornomaterialvisibleaccompanimentofthevoice。
Butthissecondtimeshelookedround。Whatalookofyearningloveitwasthatthemildgreyeyesturnedonthestrongdark-eyedman!Shedidnotstartagainatthesightofhim;shesaidnothing,butmovedtowardshimsothathisarmcouldclaspherround。
Andtheywalkedonsoinsilence,whilethewarmtearsfell。Adamwascontent,andsaidnothing。ItwasDinahwhospokefirst。
"Adam,"shesaid,"itistheDivineWill。MysoulissoknittoyoursthatitisbutadividedlifeIlivewithoutyou。Andthismoment,nowyouarewithme,andIfeelthatourheartsarefilledwiththesamelove。IhaveafulnessofstrengthtobearanddoourheavenlyFather’sWillthatIhadlostbefore。"
Adampausedandlookedintohersincereeyes。
"Thenwe’llneverpartanymore,Dinah,tilldeathpartsus。"
Andtheykissedeachotherwithadeepjoy。
Whatgreaterthingistherefortwohumansoulsthantofeelthattheyarejoinedforlife——tostrengtheneachotherinalllabour,torestoneachotherinallsorrow,toministertoeachotherinallpain,tobeonewitheachotherinsilentunspeakablememoriesatthemomentofthelastparting?
MarriageBellsINlittlemorethanamonthafterthatmeetingonthehill——onarimymorningindepartingNovember——AdamandDinahweremarried。
Itwasaneventmuchthoughtofinthevillage。AllMr。Burge’smenhadaholiday,andallMr。Poyser’s,andmostofthosewhohadaholidayappearedintheirbestclothesatthewedding。IthinktherewashardlyaninhabitantofHayslopespeciallymentionedinthishistoryandstillresidentintheparishonthisNovembermorningwhowasnoteitherinchurchtoseeAdamandDinahmarried,ornearthechurchdoortogreetthemastheycameforth。
Mrs。Irwineandherdaughterswerewaitingatthechurchyardgatesintheircarriagefortheyhadacarriagenowtoshakehandswiththebrideandbridegroomandwishthemwell;andintheabsenceofMissLydiaDonnithorneatBath,Mrs。Best,Mr。Mills,andMr。Craighadfeltitincumbentonthemtorepresent"thefamily"attheChaseontheoccasion。Thechurchyardwalkwasquitelinedwithfamiliarfaces,manyofthemfacesthathadfirstlookedatDinahwhenshepreachedontheGreen。Andnowondertheyshowedthiseagerinterestonhermarriagemorning,fornothinglikeDinahandthehistorywhichhadbroughtherandAdamBedetogetherhadbeenknownatHayslopewithinthememoryofman。
BessyCranage,inherneatestcapandfrock,wascrying,thoughshedidnotexactlyknowwhy;for,ashercousinWiryBen,whostoodnearher,judiciouslysuggested,Dinahwasnotgoingaway,andifBessywasinlowspirits,thebestthingforhertodowastofollowDinah’sexampleandmarryanhonestfellowwhowasreadytohaveher。NexttoBessy,justwithinthechurchdoor,therewerethePoyserchildren,peepingroundthecornerofthepewstogetasightofthemysteriousceremony;Totty’sfacewearinganunusualairofanxietyattheideaofseeingcousinDinahcomebacklookingratherold,forinTotty’sexperiencenomarriedpeoplewereyoung。
IenvythemallthesighttheyhadwhenthemarriagewasfairlyendedandAdamledDinahoutofchurch。Shewasnotinblackthismorning,forherAuntPoyserwouldbynomeansallowsuchariskofincurringbadluck,andhadherselfmadeapresentoftheweddingdress,madeallofgrey,thoughintheusualQuakerform,foronthispointDinahcouldnotgiveway。SothelilyfacelookedoutwithsweetgravityfromunderagreyQuakerbonnet,neithersmilingnorblushing,butwithlipstremblingalittleundertheweightofsolemnfeelings。Adam,ashepressedherarmtohisside,walkedwithhisolderectnessandhisheadthrownratherbackwardasiftofacealltheworldbetter。Butitwasnotbecausehewasparticularlyproudthismorning,asisthewontofbridegrooms,forhishappinesswasofakindthathadlittlereferencetomen’sopinionofit。Therewasatingeofsadnessinhisdeepjoy;Dinahknewit,anddidnotfeelaggrieved。
Therewerethreeothercouples,followingthebrideandbridegroom:first,MartinPoyser,lookingascheeryasabrightfireonthisrimymorning,ledquietMaryBurge,thebridesmaid;
thencameSethserenelyhappy,withMrs。Poyseronhisarm;andlastofallBartleMassey,withLisbeth——Lisbethinanewgownandbonnet,toobusywithherprideinhersonandherdelightinpossessingtheonedaughtershehaddesiredtodeviseasinglepretextforcomplaint。
BartleMasseyhadconsentedtoattendtheweddingatAdam’searnestrequest,underprotestagainstmarriageingeneralandthemarriageofasensiblemaninparticular。Nevertheless,Mr。
Poyserhadajokeagainsthimaftertheweddingdinner,totheeffectthatinthevestryhehadgiventhebrideonemorekissthanwasnecessary。
BehindthislastcouplecameMr。Irwine,gladatheartoverthisgoodmorning’sworkofjoiningAdamandDinah。ForhehadseenAdamintheworstmomentsofhissorrow;andwhatbetterharvestfromthatpainfulseed-timecouldtherebethanthis?Thelovethathadbroughthopeandcomfortinthehourofdespair,thelovethathadfounditswaytothedarkprisoncellandtopoorHetty’sdarkersoul——thisstronggentlelovewastobeAdam’scompanionandhelpertilldeath。
Therewasmuchshakingofhandsmingledwith"Godblessyou’s"andothergoodwishestothefourcouples,atthechurchyardgate,Mr。
Poyseransweringfortherestwithunwontedvivacityoftongue,forhehadalltheappropriatewedding-dayjokesathiscommand。
Andthewomen,heobserved,couldneverdoanythingbutputfingerineyeatawedding。EvenMrs。Poysercouldnottrustherselftospeakastheneighboursshookhandswithher,andLisbethbegantocryinthefaceoftheveryfirstpersonwhotoldhershewasgettingyoungagain。
Mr。JoshuaRann,havingaslighttouchofrheumatism,didnotjoinintheringingofthebellsthismorning,and,lookingonwithsomecontemptattheseinformalgreetingswhichrequirednoofficialco-operationfromtheclerk,begantohuminhismusicalbass,"Ohwhatajoyfulthingitis,"bywayofpreludingalittletotheeffectheintendedtoproduceintheweddingpsalmnextSunday。
"That’sabitofgoodnewstocheerArthur,"saidMr。Irwinetohismother,astheydroveoff。"Ishallwritetohimthefirstthingwhenwegethome。"
EpilogueITisneartheendofJune,in1807。TheworkshopshavebeenshutuphalfanhourormoreinAdamBede’stimber-yard,whichusedtobeJonathanBurge’s,andthemelloweveninglightisfallingonthepleasanthousewiththebuffwallsandthesoftgreythatch,verymuchasitdidwhenwesawAdambringinginthekeysonthatJuneeveningnineyearsago。
Thereisafigureweknowwell,justcomeoutofthehouse,andshadinghereyeswithherhandsasshelooksforsomethinginthedistance,fortheraysthatfallonherwhiteborderlesscapandherpaleauburnhairareverydazzling。Butnowsheturnsawayfromthesunlightandlookstowardsthedoor。
Wecanseethesweetpalefacequitewellnow:itisscarcelyatallaltered——onlyalittlefuller,tocorrespondtohermorematronlyfigure,whichstillseemslightandactiveenoughintheplainblackdress。
"Iseehim,Seth,"Dinahsaid,asshelookedintothehouse。"Letusgoandmeethim。Come,Lisbeth,comewithMother。"
Thelastcallwasansweredimmediatelybyasmallfaircreaturewithpaleauburnhairandgreyeyes,littlemorethanfouryearsold,whoranoutsilentlyandputherhandintohermother’s。
"Come,UncleSeth,"saidDinah。
"Aye,aye,we’recoming,"Sethansweredfromwithin,andpresentlyappearedstoopingunderthedoorway,beingtallerthanusualbytheblackheadofasturdytwo-year-oldnephew,whohadcausedsomedelaybydemandingtobecarriedonuncle’sshoulder。
"Bettertakehimonthyarm,Seth,"saidDinah,lookingfondlyatthestoutblack-eyedfellow。"He’stroublesometotheeso。"
"Nay,nay:Addylikesarideonmyshoulder。Icancarryhimsoforabit。"AkindnesswhichyoungAddyacknowledgedbydrumminghisheelswithpromisingforceagainstUncleSeth’schest。ButtowalkbyDinah’sside,andbetyrannizedoverbyDinah’sandAdam’schildren,wasUncleSeth’searthlyhappiness。
"Wheredidstseehim?"askedSeth,astheywalkedonintotheadjoiningfield。"Ican’tcatchsightofhimanywhere。"
"Betweenthehedgesbytheroadside,"saidDinah。"Isawhishatandhisshoulder。Thereheisagain。"
"Trusttheeforcatchingsightofhimifhe’sanywheretobeseen,"saidSeth,smiling。"Thee’tlikepoormotherusedtobe。
ShewasalwaysonthelookoutforAdam,andcouldseehimsoonerthanotherfolks,forallhereyesgotdim。"
"He’sbeenlongerthanheexpected,"saidDinah,takingArthur’swatchfromasmallsidepocketandlookingatit;"it’snighuponsevennow。"
"Aye,they’dhaveadealtosaytooneanother,"saidSeth,"andthemeeting’udtouch’embothprettyclosish。Why,it’sgettingontowardseightyearssincetheyparted。"
"Yes,"saidDinah,"Adamwasgreatlymovedthismorningatthethoughtofthechangeheshouldseeinthepooryoungman,fromthesicknesshehasundergone,aswellastheyearswhichhavechangedusall。Andthedeathofthepoorwanderer,whenshewascomingbacktous,hasbeensorrowuponsorrow。"
"See,Addy,"saidSeth,loweringtheyoungonetohisarmnowandpointing,"there’sFathercoming——atthefarstile。"
Dinahhastenedhersteps,andlittleLisbethranonatherutmostspeedtillsheclaspedherfather’sleg。Adampattedherheadandliftedheruptokissher,butDinahcouldseethemarksofagitationonhisfaceassheapproachedhim,andheputherarmwithinhisinsilence。
"Well,youngster,mustItakeyou?"hesaid,tryingtosmile,whenAddystretchedouthisarms——ready,withtheusualbasenessofinfancy,togiveuphisUncleSethatonce,nowtherewassomerarerpatronageathand。
"It’scutmeagooddeal,Dinah,"Adamsaidatlast,whentheywerewalkingon。
"Didstfindhimgreatlyaltered?"saidDinah。
"Why,he’salteredandyetnotaltered。Ishouldha’knownhimanywhere。Buthiscolour’schanged,andhelookssadly。However,thedoctorssayhe’llsoonbesetrightinhisowncountryair。
He’sallsoundinth’inside;it’sonlythefevershatteredhimso。Buthespeaksjustthesame,andsmilesatmejustashedidwhenhewasalad。It’swonderfulhowhe’salwayshadjustthesamesorto’lookwhenhesmiles。"
"I’veneverseenhimsmile,pooryoungman,"saidDinah。
"Buttheewiltseehimsmile,to-morrow,"saidAdam。"Heaskedaftertheethefirstthingwhenhebegantocomeround,andwecouldtalktooneanother。’Ihopesheisn’taltered,’hesaid,’Irememberherfacesowell。’Itoldhim’no,’"Adamcontinued,lookingfondlyattheeyesthatwereturnedtowardshis,"onlyabitplumper,asthee’dstarighttobeaftersevenyear。’Imaycomeandseeherto-morrow,mayn’tI?’hesaid;’IlongtotellherhowI’vethoughtofheralltheseyears。’"
"DidsttellhimI’dalwaysusedthewatch?"saidDinah。
"Aye;andwetalkedadealaboutthee,forhesaysheneversawawomanabitlikethee。’IshallturnMethodistsomeday,’hesaid,’whenshepreachesoutofdoors,andgotohearher。’AndI
said,’Nay,sir,youcan’tdothat,forConferencehasforbidthewomenpreaching,andshe’sgivenitup,allbuttalkingtothepeopleabitintheirhouses。’"
"Ah,"saidSeth,whocouldnotrepressacommentonthispoint,"andasorepityitwaso’Conference;andifDinahhadseenasI
did,we’dha’lefttheWesleyansandjoinedabodythat’udputnobondsonChristianliberty。"
"Nay,lad,nay,"saidAdam,"shewasrightandtheewastwrong。
There’snorulessowisebutwhatit’sapityforsomebodyorother。Mosto’thewomendomoreharmnorgoodwiththeirpreaching——they’venotgotDinah’sgiftnorhersperrit——andshe’sseenthat,andshethoughtitrighttosetth’exampleo’
submitting,forshe’snotheldfromothersortso’teaching。AndIagreewithher,andapproveo’whatshedid。"
Sethwassilent。Thiswasastandingsubjectofdifferencerarelyalludedto,andDinah,wishingtoquititatonce,said,"Didstremember,Adam,tospeaktoColonelDonnithornethewordsmyuncleandauntentrustedtothee?"
"Yes,andhe’sgoingtotheHallFarmwithMr。Irwinethedayafterto-morrow。Mr。Irwinecameinwhileweweretalkingaboutit,andhewouldhaveitastheColonelmustseenobodybuttheeto-morrow。Hesaid——andhe’sintherightofit——asit’llbebadforhimt’havehisfeelingsstirredwithseeingmanypeopleoneafteranother。’Wemustgetyoustrongandhearty,’hesaid,’that’sthefirstthingtobedoneArthur,andthenyoushallhaveyourownway。ButIshallkeepyouunderyouroldtutor’sthumbtillthen。’Mr。Irwine’sfineandjoyfulathavinghimhomeagain。"
Adamwassilentalittlewhile,andthensaid,"Itwasverycuttingwhenwefirstsawoneanother。He’dneverheardaboutpoorHettytillMr。IrwinemethiminLondon,forthelettersmissedhimonhisjourney。Thefirstthinghesaidtome,whenwe’dgotholdo’oneanother’shandswas,’Icouldneverdoanythingforher,Adam——shelivedlongenoughforallthesuffering——andI’dthoughtsoofthetimewhenImightdosomethingforher。Butyoutoldmethetruthwhenyousaidtomeonce,"There’sasortofwrongthatcanneverbemadeupfor。"’"
"Why,there’sMr。andMrs。Poysercominginattheyardgate,"
saidSeth。
"Sothereis,"saidDinah。"Run,Lisbeth,runtomeetAuntPoyser。
Comein,Adam,andrest;ithasbeenaharddayforthee。"
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