Rastignac,likemostyoungmenwhohavebeenearlyimpressedbythecircumstancesofpowerandgrandeur,meanttoenterthelistsfullyarmed;theburningambitionofconquestpossessedhimalready;perhapshewasconsciousofhispowers,butasyetheknewneithertheendtowhichhisambitionwastobedirected,northemeansofattainingit。Indefaultofthepureandsacredlovethatfillsalife,ambitionmaybecomesomethingverynoble,subduingtoitselfeverythoughtofpersonalinterest,andsettingastheend——thegreatness,notofoneman,butofawholenation。
Butthestudenthadnotyetreachedthetimeoflifewhenamansurveysthewholecourseofexistenceandjudgesitsoberly。
Hithertohehadscarcelysomuchasshakenoffthespellofthefreshandgraciousinfluencesthatenvelopachildhoodinthecountry,likegreenleavesandgrass。HehadhesitatedonthebrinkoftheParisianRubicon,andinspiteoftheprickingsofambition,hestillclungtoalingeringtraditionofanoldideal——thepeacefullifeofthenobleinhischateau。Butyesterdayevening,atthesightofhisrooms,thosescrupleshadvanished。Hehadlearnedwhatitwastoenjoythematerialadvantagesoffortune,ashehadalreadyenjoyedthesocialadvantagesofbirth;heceasedtobeaprovincialfromthatmoment,andslippednaturallyandeasilyintoapositionwhichopenedupaprospectofabrilliantfuture。
So,ashewaitedforDelphine,intheprettyboudoir,wherehefeltthathehadacertainrighttobe,hefelthimselfsofarawayfromtheRastignacwhocamebacktoParisayearago,that,turningsomepowerofinnervisionuponthislatter,heaskedhimselfwhetherthatpastselfboreanyresemblancetotheRastignacofthatmoment。
“Madameisinherroom。”Theresecametotellhim。Thewoman’svoicemadehimstart。
HefoundDelphinelyingbackinherlowchairbythefireside,lookingfreshandbright。Thesightofheramongtheflowingdraperiesofmuslinsuggestedsomebeautifultropicalflower,wherethefruitissetamidtheblossom。
“Well。”shesaid,withatremorinhervoice,“hereyouare。”
“GuesswhatIbringforyou。”saidEugene,sittingdownbesideher。HetookpossessionofherarmtokissherhandMme。deNucingengaveajoyfulstartasshesawthecard。SheturnedtoEugene;thereweretearsinhereyesassheflungherarmsabouthisneck,anddrewhimtowardsherinafrenzyofgratifiedvanity。
“AndIowethishappinesstoyou——toTHEE“shewhisperedthemoreintimatewordinhisear;“butThereseisinmydressing-
room,letusbeprudent——Thishappiness——yes,forImaycallitso,whenitcomestomethroughYOU——issurelymorethanatriumphforself-love?Noonehasbeenwillingtointroducemeintothatset。PerhapsjustnowImayseemtoyoutobefrivolous,petty,shallow,likeaParisienne,butremember,myfriend,thatIamreadytogiveupallforyou;andthatifI
longmorethaneverforanentranceintotheFaubourgSaint-
Germain,itisbecauseIshallmeetyouthere。”
“Mme。deBeauseant’snoteseemstosayveryplainlythatshedoesnotexpecttoseetheBARONdeNucingenatherball;don’tyouthinkso?“saidEugene。
“Why,yes。”saidtheBaronessasshereturnedtheletter。“Thosewomenhaveatalentforinsolence。Butitisofnoconsequence,I
shallgo。Mysisterissuretobethere,andsuretobeverybeautifullydressed——Eugene。”shewenton,loweringhervoice,“shewillgotodispeluglysuspicions。Youdonotknowthethingsthatpeoplearesayingabouther。OnlythismorningNucingencametotellmethattheyhadbeendiscussingherattheclub。Greatheavens!onwhatdoesawoman’scharacterandthehonorofawholefamilydepend!IfeelthatIamnearlytouchedandwoundedinmypoorsister。Accordingtosomepeople,M。deTraillesmusthaveputhisnametobillsforahundredthousandfrancs,nearlyallofthemareoverdue,andproceedingsarethreatened。Inthispredicament,itseemsthatmysistersoldherdiamondstoaJew——thebeautifuldiamondsthatbelongedtoherhusband’smother,Mme。deRestaudtheelder,——youhaveseenherwearingthem。Infact,nothingelsehasbeentalkedaboutforthelasttwodays。SoIcanseethatAnastasieissuretocometoMme。deBeauseant’sballintissueofgold,andablazewithdiamonds,todrawalleyesuponher;andIwillnotbeoutshone。
Shehastriedtoeclipsemeallherlife,shehasneverbeenkindtome,andIhavehelpedhersooften,andalwayshadmoneyforherwhenshehadnone——Butnevermindotherpeoplenow,to-dayI
meantobeperfectlyhappy。”
Atoneo’clockthatmorningEugenewasstillwithMme。deNucingen。Inthemidstoftheirlovers’farewell,afarewellfullofhopeofblisstocome,shesaidinatroubledvoice,“Iamveryfearful,superstitious。Givewhatnameyouliketomypresentiments,butIamafraidthatmyhappinesswillbepaidforbysomehorriblecatastrophe。”
“Child!“saidEugene。
“Ah!havewechangedplaces,andamIthechildto-night?“sheasked,laughingly。
EugenewentbacktotheMaisonVauquer,neverdoubtingbutthatheshouldleaveitforgoodonthemorrow;andonthewayhefelltodreamingthebrightdreamsofyouth,whenthecupofhappinesshasleftitssweetnessonthelips。
“Well?“criedGoriot,asRastignacpassedbyhisdoor。
“Yes。”saidEugene;“Iwilltellyoueverythingto-morrow。”
“Everything,willyounot?“criedtheoldman。“Gotobed。To-
morrowourhappylifewillbegin。”
Nextday,GoriotandRastignacwerereadytoleavethelodging-
house,andonlyawaitedthegoodpleasureofaportertomoveoutofit;buttowardsnoontherewasasoundofwheelsintheRueNeuve-Sainte-Genevieve,andacarriagestoppedbeforethedooroftheMaisonVauquer。Mme。deNucingenalighted,andaskedifherfatherwasstillinthehouse,and,receivinganaffirmativereplyfromSylvie,ranlightlyupstairs。
ItsohappenedthatEugenewasathomeallunknowntohisneighbor。AtbreakfasttimehehadaskedGoriottosuperintendtheremovalofhisgoods,sayingthathewouldmeethimintheRued’Artoisatfouro’clock;butRastignac’snamehadbeencalledearlyonthelistattheEcoledeDroit,andhehadgonebackatoncetotheRueNueve-Sainte-Genevieve。Noonehadseenhimcomein,forGoriothadgonetofindaporter,andthemistressofthehousewaslikewiseout。Eugenehadthoughttopayherhimself,foritstruckhimthatifheleftthis,Goriotinhiszealwouldprobablypayforhim。Asitwas,Eugenewentuptohisroomtoseethatnothinghadbeenforgotten,andblessedhisforesightwhenhesawtheblankbillbearingVautrin’ssignaturelyinginthedrawerwherehehadcarelesslythrownitonthedaywhenhehadrepaidtheamount。Therewasnofireinthegrate,sohewasabouttotearitintolittlepieces,whenheheardavoicespeakinginGoriot’sroom,andthespeakerwasDelphine!Hemadenomorenoise,andstoodstilltolisten,thinkingthatsheshouldhavenosecretsfromhim;butafterthefirstfewwords,theconversationbetweenthefatheranddaughterwassostrangeandinterestingthatitabsorbedallhisattention。
“Ah!thankheaventhatyouthoughtofaskinghimtogiveanaccountofthemoneysettledonmebeforeIwasutterlyruined,father。Isitsafetotalk?“sheadded。
“Yes,thereisnooneinthehouse。”saidherfatherfaintly。
“Whatisthematterwithyou?“askedMme。deNucingen。
“Godforgiveyou!youhavejustdealtmeastaggeringblow,child!“saidtheoldman。“YoucannotknowhowmuchIloveyou,oryouwouldnothaveburstinuponmelikethis,withsuchnews,especiallyifallisnotlost。Hassomethingsoimportanthappenedthatyoumustcomehereaboutit?InafewminutesweshouldhavebeenintheRued’Artois。”
“Eh!doesonethinkwhatoneisdoingafteracatastrophe?Ithasturnedmyhead。Yourattorneyhasfoundoutthestateofthingsnow,butitwasboundtocomeoutsoonerorlater。Weshallwantyourlongbusinessexperience;andIcometoyoulikeadrowningmanwhocatchesatabranch。WhenM。DervillefoundthatNucingenwasthrowingallsortsofdifficultiesinhisway,hethreatenedhimwithproceedings,andtoldhimplainlythathewouldsoonobtainanorderfromthePresidentoftheTribunal。SoNucingencametomyroomthismorning,andaskedifImeanttoruinusboth。ItoldhimthatIknewnothingwhateveraboutit,thatI
hadafortune,andoughttobeputintopossessionofmyfortune,andthatmyattorneywasactingformeinthematter;IsaidagainthatIknewabsolutelynothingaboutit,andcouldnotpossiblygointothesubjectwithhim。Wasn’tthatwhatyoutoldmetotellhim?“
“Yes,quiteright。”answeredGoriot。
“Well,then。”Delphinecontinued,“hetoldmeallabouthisaffairs。Hehadjustinvestedallhiscapitalandmineinbusinessspeculations;theyhaveonlyjustbeenstarted,andverylargesumsofmoneyarelockedup。IfIweretocompelhimtorefundmydowrynow,hewouldbeforcedtofilehispetition;butifIwillwaitayear,heundertakes,onhishonor,todoubleortreblemyfortune,byinvestingitinbuildingland,andIshallbemistressatlastofthewholeofmyproperty。Hewasspeakingthetruth,fatherdear;hefrightenedme!Heaskedmypardonforhisconduct;hehasgivenmemyliberty;IamfreetoactasI
pleaseonconditionthatIleavehimtocarryonmybusinessinmyname。Toprovehissincerity,hepromisedthatM。DervillemightinspecttheaccountsasoftenasIpleased,sothatImightbeassuredthateverythingwasbeingconductedproperly。Inshort,heputhimselfinmypower,boundhandandfoot。Hewishesthepresentarrangementsastotheexpensesofhousekeepingtocontinuefortwomoreyears,andentreatedmenottoexceedmyallowance。Heshowedmeplainlythatitwasallthathecoulddotokeepupappearances;hehasbrokenwithhisoperadancer;hewillbecompelledtopractisethemoststricteconomyinsecret
ifheistobidehistimewithunshakencredit。Iscolded,IdidallIcouldtodrivehimtodesperation,soastofindoutmore。
Heshowedmehisledgers——hebrokedownandcriedatlast。I
neversawamaninsuchastate。Helosthisheadcompletely,talkedofkillinghimself,andravedtillIfeltquitesorryforhim。”
“Doyoureallybelievethatsillyrubbish?“……criedherfather。“Itwasallgotupforyourbenefit!IhavehadtodowithGermansinthewayofbusiness,honestandstraightforwardtheyareprettysuretobe,butwhenwiththeirsimplicityandfranknesstheyaresharpersandhumbugsaswell,theyaretheworstroguesofall。Yourhusbandistakingadvantageofyou。Assoonaspressureisbroughttobearonhimheshamsdead;hemeanstobemorethemasterunderyournamethaninhisown。Hewilltakeadvantageofthepositiontosecurehimselfagainsttherisksofbusiness。Heisassharpasheistreacherous;heisabadlot!No,no;IamnotgoingtoleavemygirlsbehindmewithoutapennywhenIgotoPere-Lachaise。Iknowsomethingaboutbusinessstill。Hehassunkhismoneyinspeculation,hesays;verywellthen,thereissomethingtoshowforit——bills,receipts,papersofsomesort。Lethimproducethem,andcometoanarrangementwithyou。Wewillchoosethemostpromisingofhisspeculations,takethemoveratourownrisk,andhavethesecuritiestransferredintoyourname;theyshallrepresenttheseparateestateofDelphineGoriot,wifeoftheBarondeNucingen。Doesthatfellowreallytakeusforidiots?DoesheimaginethatIcouldstandtheideaofyourbeingwithoutfortune,withoutbread,forforty-eighthours?Iwouldnotstanditaday——no,notanight,notacoupleofhours!Iftherehadbeenanyfoundationfortheidea,Ishouldnevergetoverit。
What!Ihaveworkedhardforfortyyears,carriedsacksonmyback,andsweatedandpinchedandsavedallmylifeforyou,mydarlings,foryouwhomadethetoilandeveryburdenborneforyouseemlight;andnow,myfortune,mywholelife,istovanishinsmoke!IshoulddieravingmadifIbelievedawordofit。Byallthat’sholiestinheavenandearth,wewillhavethisclearedupatonce;gothroughthebooks,havethewholebusinesslookedthoroughlyinto!Iwillnotsleep,norrest,noreatuntilIhavesatisfiedmyselfthatallyourfortuneisinexistence。Yourmoneyissettleduponyou,Godbethanked!and,luckily,yourattorney,MaitreDerville,isanhonestman。GoodLord!youshallhaveyoursnuglittlemillion,yourfiftythousandfrancsayear,aslongasyoulive,orIwillraisearacketinParis,Iwillso!IftheTribunalsputuponus,IwillappealtotheChambers。
IfIknewthatyouwerewellandcomfortablyoffasfarasmoneyisconcerned,thatthoughtwouldkeepmeeasyinspiteofbadhealthandtroubles。Money?why,itislife!Moneydoeseverything。ThatgreatdoltofanAlsatianshallsingtoanothertune!Lookhere,Delphine,don’tgiveway,don’tmakeaconcessionofhalfaquarterofafarthingtothatfathead,whohasgroundyoudownandmadeyoumiserable。Ifhecan’tdowithoutyou,wewillgivehimagoodcudgeling,andkeephiminorder。Greatheavens!mybrainisonfire;itisasifthereweresomethingredhotinsidemyhead。MyDelphinelyingonstraw!You!
myFifine!Goodgracious!Wherearemygloves?Come,letusgoatonce;Imeantoseeeverythingwithmyowneyes——books,cash,andcorrespondence,thewholebusiness。IshallhavenopeaceuntilI
knowforcertainthatyourfortuneissecure。”
“Oh!fatherdear,becarefulhowyousetaboutit!Ifthereistheleasthintofvengeanceinthebusiness,ifyoushowyourselfopenlyhostile,itwillbealloverwithme。Heknowswhomhehastodealwith;hethinksitquitenaturalthatifyouputtheideaintomyhead,Ishouldbeuneasyaboutmymoney;butIsweartoyouthathehasitinhisownhands,andthathehadmeanttokeepit。Heisjustthemantoabscondwithallthemoneyandleaveusinthelurch,thescoundrel!HeknowsquitewellthatI
willnotdishonorthenameIbearbybringinghimintoacourtoflaw。Hispositionisstrongandweakatthesametime。Ifwedrivehimtodespair,Iamlost。”
“Why,then,themanisarogue?“
“Well,yes,father。”shesaid,flingingherselfintoachair,“I
wantedtokeepitfromyoutospareyourfeelings。”andsheburstintotears;“Ididnotwantyoutoknowthatyouhadmarriedmetosuchamanasheis。Heisjustthesameinprivatelife——bodyandsoulandconscience——thesamethroughandthrough——hideous!I
hatehim;Idespisehim!Yes,afterallthatthatdespicableNucingenhastoldme,Icannotrespecthimanylonger。Amancapableofmixinghimselfupinsuchaffairs,andoftalkingaboutthemtomeashedid,withouttheslightestscruple,——itisbecauseIhavereadhimthroughandthroughthatIamafraidofhim。He,myhusband,franklyproposedtogivememyliberty,anddoyouknowwhatthatmeans?Itmeansthatifthingsturnoutbadlyforhim,Iamtoplayintohishands,andbehisstalking-
horse。”
“Butthereislawtobehad!ThereisaPlacedeGreveforsons-
in-lawofthatsort。”criedherfather;“why,Iwouldguillotinehimmyselfiftherewasnoheadsmantodoit。”
“No,father,thelawcannottouchhim。Listen,thisiswhathesays,strippedofallhiscircumlocutions——’Takeyourchoice,youandnooneelsecanbemyaccomplice;eithereverythingislost,youareruinedandhavenotafarthing,oryouwillletmecarrythisbusinessthroughmyself。’Isthatplainspeaking?HeMUST
havemyassistance。Heisassuredthathiswifewilldealfairlybyhim;heknowsthatIshallleavehismoneytohimandbecontentwithmyown。Itisanunholyanddishonestcompact,andheholdsoutthreatsofruintocompelmetoconsenttoit。Heisbuyingmyconscience,andthepriceislibertytobeEugene’swifeinallbutname。’Iconniveatyourerrors,andyouallowmetocommitcrimesandruinpoorfamilies!’Isthatsufficientlyexplicit?Doyouknowwhathemeansbyspeculations?Hebuysuplandinhisownname,thenhefindsmenofstrawtorunuphousesuponit。Thesemenmakeabargainwithacontractortobuildthehouses,payingthembybillsatlongdates;theninconsiderationofasmallsumtheyleavemyhusbandinpossessionofthehouses,andfinallyslipthroughthefingersofthedeludedcontractorsbygoingintobankruptcy。ThenameofthefirmofNucingenhasbeenusedtodazzlethepoorcontractors。Isawthat。Inoticed,too,thatNucingenhadsentbillsforlargeamountstoAmsterdam,London,Naples,andVienna,inordertoproveifnecessarythatlargesumshadbeenpaidawaybythefirm。Howcouldwegetpossessionofthosebills?“
Eugeneheardadullthudonthefloor;FatherGoriotmusthavefallenonhisknees。
“Greatheavens!whathaveIdonetoyou?Boundmydaughtertothisscoundrelwhodoesashelikeswithher!——Oh!mychild,mychild!forgiveme!“criedtheoldman。
“Yes,ifIaminthedepthsofdespair,perhapsyouaretoblame。”saidDelphine。“Wehavesolittlesensewhenwemarry!
Whatdoweknowoftheworld,ofbusiness,ormen,orlife?Ourfathersshouldthinkforus!Fatherdear,Iamnotblamingyouintheleast,forgivemeforwhatIsaid。Thisisallmyownfault。
Nay,donotcry,papa。”shesaid,kissinghim。
“Donotcryeither,mylittleDelphine。Lookupandletmekissawaythetears。There!Ishallfindmywitsandunravelthisskeinofyourhusband’swinding。”
“No,letmedothat;Ishallbeabletomanagehim。Heisfondofme,wellandgood;Ishallusemyinfluencetomakehiminvestmymoneyassoonaspossibleinlandedpropertyinmyownname。VerylikelyIcouldgethimtobuybackNucingeninAlsaceinmyname;
thathasalwaysbeenapetideaofhis。Still,cometo-morrowandgothroughthebooks,andlookintothebusiness。M。Dervilleknowslittleofmercantilematters。No,notto-morrowthough。I
donotwanttobeupset。Mme。deBeauseant’sballwillbethedayafterto-morrow,andImustkeepquiet,soastolookmybestandfreshest,anddohonortomydearEugene!……Come,letusseehisroom。”
ButasshespokeacarriagestoppedintheRueNueve-Sainte-
Genevieve,andthesoundofMme。deRestaud’svoicecamefromthestaircase。“Ismyfatherin?“sheaskedofSylvie。
ThisaccidentwasluckilytimedforEugene,whoseoneideahadbeentothrowhimselfdownonthebedandpretendtobeasleep。
“Oh,father,haveyouheardaboutAnastasie?“saidDelphine,whensheheardhersisterspeak。“Itlooksasthoughsomestrangethingshadhappenedinthatfamily。”
“Whatsortofthings?“askedGoriot。“Thisisliketobethedeathofme。Mypoorheadwillnotstandadoublemisfortune。”
“Good-morning,father。”saidtheCountessfromthethreshold。
“Oh!Delphine,areyouhere?“
Mme。deRestaudseemedtakenabackbyhersister’spresence。
“Good-morning,Nasie。”saidtheBaroness。“Whatistheresoextraordinaryinmybeinghere?_I_seeourfathereveryday。”
“Sincewhen?“
“Ifyoucameyourselfyouwouldknow。”
“Don’ttease,Delphine。”saidtheCountessfretfully。“Iamverymiserable,Iamlost。Oh!mypoorfather,itishopelessthistime!“
“Whatisit,Nasie?“criedGoriot。“Tellusallaboutit,child!
Howwhitesheis!Quick,dosomething,Delphine;bekindtoher,andIwillloveyouevenbetter,ifthatwerepossible。”
“PoorNasie!“saidMme。deNucingen,drawinghersistertoachair。“Wearetheonlytwopeopleintheworldwhoseloveisalwayssufficienttoforgiveyoueverything。Familyaffectionisthesurest,yousee。”
TheCountessinhaledthesaltsandrevived。
“Thiswillkillme!“saidtheirfather。“There。”hewenton,stirringthesmoulderingfire,“comenearer,bothofyou。Itiscold。Whatisit,Nasie?Bequickandtellme,thisisenoughto——“
“Well,then,myhusbandknowseverything。”saidtheCountess。
“Justimagineit;doyouremember,father,thatbillofMaxime’ssometimeago?Well,thatwasnotthefirst。Ihadpaideversomanybeforethat。AboutthebeginningofJanuaryM。deTraillesseemedverymuchtroubled。Hesaidnothingtome;butitissoeasytoreadtheheartsofthoseyoulove,ameretrifleisenough;andthenyoufeelthingsinstinctively。Indeed,hewasmoretenderandaffectionatethanever,andIwashappierthanI
hadeverbeenbefore。PoorMaxime!inhimselfhewasreallysayinggood-byetome,sohehastoldmesince;hemeanttoblowhisbrainsout!AtlastIworriedhimso,andbeggedandimploredsohard;fortwohoursIkneltathiskneesandprayedandentreated,andatlasthetoldme——thatheowedahundredthousandfrancs。Oh!papa!ahundredthousandfrancs!Iwasbesidemyself!Youhadnotthemoney,Iknew,Ihadeatenupallthatyouhad——“
“No。”saidGoriot;“IcouldnothavegotitforyouunlessIhadstolenit。ButIwouldhavedonethatforyou,Nasie!Iwilldoityet。”
Thewordscamefromhimlikeasob,ahoarsesoundlikethedeathrattleofadyingman;itseemedindeedliketheagonyofdeathwhenthefather’slovewaspowerless。Therewasapause,andneitherofthesistersspoke。Itmusthavebeenselfishnessindeedthatcouldhearunmovedthatcryofanguishthat,likeapebblethrownoveraprecipice,revealedthedepthsofhisdespair。
“Ifoundthemoney,father,bysellingwhatwasnotminetosell。”andtheCountessburstintotears。
Delphinewastouched;shelaidherheadonhersister’sshoulder,andcriedtoo。
“Thenitisalltrue。”shesaid。
Anastasiebowedherhead,Mme。deNucingenflungherarmsabouther,kissedhertenderly,andheldhersistertoherheart。
“Ishallalwaysloveyouandneverjudgeyou,Nasie。”shesaid。
“Myangels。”murmuredGoriotfaintly。“Oh,whyshoulditbetroublethatdrawsyoutogether?“
ThiswarmandpalpitatingaffectionseemedtogivetheCountesscourage。
“TosaveMaxime’slife。”shesaid,“tosaveallmyownhappiness,Iwenttothemoney-lenderyouknowof,amanofironforgedinhell-fire;nothingcanmelthim;ItookallthefamilydiamondsthatM。deRestaudissoproudof——hisandminetoo——andsoldthemtothatM。Gobseck。SOLDTHEM!Doyouunderstand?IsavedMaxime,butIamlost。Restaudfounditallout。”
“How?Whotoldhim?Iwillkillhim。”criedGoriot。
“Yesterdayhesenttotellmetocometohisroom。Iwent……
’Anastasie,’hesaidinavoice——oh!suchavoice;thatwasenough,ittoldmeeverything——’whereareyourdiamonds?’——’Inmyroom——’——’No,’hesaid,lookingstraightatme,’theretheyareonthatchestofdrawers——’andheliftedhishandkerchiefandshowedmethecasket。’Doyouknowwheretheycamefrom?’hesaid。Ifellathisfeet……Icried;Ibesoughthimtotellmethedeathhewishedtoseemedie。”
“Yousaidthat!“criedGoriot。“ByGodinheaven,whoeverlaysahandoneitherofyousolongasIamalivemayreckononbeingroastedbyslowfires!Yes,Iwillcuthiminpieceslike……”
Goriotstopped;thewordsdiedawayinhisthroat。
“Andthen,dear,heaskedsomethingworsethandeathofme。Oh!
heavenpreserveallotherwomenfromhearingsuchwordsasI
heardthen!“
“Iwillmurderthatman。”saidGoriotquietly。“Buthehasonlyonelife,andhedeservestodietwice——Andthen,whatnext?“headded,lookingatAnastasie。
“Then。”theCountessresumed,“therewasapause,andhelookedatme。’Anastasie,’hesaid,’Iwillburythisinsilence;thereshallbenoseparation;therearethechildren。IwillnotkillM。deTrailles。Imightmisshimifwefought,andasforotherwaysofgettingridofhim,Ishouldcomeintocollisionwiththelaw。IfIkilledhiminyourarms,itwouldbringdishonoronTHOSEchildren。Butifyoudonotwanttoseeyourchildrenperish,northeirfathernorme,youmustfirstofallsubmittotwoconditions。Answerme。HaveIachildofmyown?’Ianswered,’Yes,’——’Which?’——’Ernest,oureldestboy。’——’Verywell,’hesaid,’andnowsweartoobeymeinthisparticularfromthistimeforward。’Iswore。’YouwillmakeoveryourpropertytomewhenI
requireyoutodoso。’“
“Donothingofthekind!“criedGoriot。“Aha!M。deRestaud,youcouldnotmakeyourwifehappy;shehaslookedforhappinessandfounditelsewhere,andyoumakehersufferforyourownineptitude?Hewillhavetoreckonwithme。Makeyourselfeasy,Nasie。Aha!hecaresabouthisheir!Good,verygood。Iwillgetholdoftheboy;isn’themygrandson?Whattheblazes!Icansurelygotoseethebrat!Iwillstowhimawaysomewhere;Iwilltakecareofhim,youmaybequiteeasy。IwillbringRestaudtoterms,themonster!Ishallsaytohim,’Awordortwowithyou!
Ifyouwantyoursonbackagain,givemydaughterherproperty,andleavehertodoasshepleases。’“
“Father!“
“Yes。Iamyourfather,Nasie,afatherindeed!Thatrogueofagreatlordhadbetternotill-treatmydaughter。Tonnerre!Whatisitinmyveins?Thereisthebloodofatigerinme;Icouldtearthosetwomentopieces!Oh!children,children!sothisiswhatyourlivesare!Why,itisdeath!……WhatwillbecomeofyouwhenIshallbeherenolonger?Fathersoughttoliveaslongastheirchildren。Ah!LordGodinheaven!howillThyworldisordered!ThouhastaSon,ifwhattheytellusistrue,andyetThouleavestustosuffersothroughourchildren。Mydarlings,mydarlings!tothinkthattroubleonlyshouldbringyoutome,thatIshouldonlyseeyouwithtearsonyourfaces!Ah!yes,yes,youloveme,Iseethatyouloveme。Cometomeandpouroutyourgriefstome;myheartislargeenoughtoholdthemall。Oh!
youmightrendmyheartinpieces,andeveryfragmentwouldmakeafather’sheart。IfonlyIcouldbearallyoursorrowsforyou!……Ah!youweresohappywhenyouwerelittleandstillwithme……”
“Wehaveneverbeenhappysince。”saidDelphine。“Wherearetheolddayswhenwesliddownthesacksinthegreatgranary?“
“Thatisnotall,father。”saidAnastasieinGoriot’sear。Theoldmangaveastartledshudder。“Thediamondsonlysoldforahundredthousandfrancs。Maximeishardpressed。Therearetwelvethousandfrancsstilltopay。Hehasgivenmehiswordthathewillbesteadyandgiveupplayinfuture。HisloveisallthatI
haveleftintheworld。IhavepaidsuchafearfulpriceforitthatIshoulddieifIlosehimnow。Ihavesacrificedmyfortune,myhonor,mypeaceofmind,andmychildrenforhim。Oh!
dosomething,sothatattheleastMaximemaybeatlargeandliveundisgracedintheworld,wherehewillassuredlymakeacareerforhimself。Somethingmorethanmyhappinessisatstake;
thechildrenhavenothing,andifheissenttoSainte-Pelagieallhisprospectswillberuined。”
“Ihaven’tthemoney,Nasie。IhaveNOTHING——nothingleft。Thisistheendofeverything。Yes,theworldiscrumblingintoruin,Iamsure。Fly!Saveyourselves!Ah!——Ihavestillmysilverbucklesleft,andhalf-a-dozensilverspoonsandforks,thefirstIeverhadinmylife。ButIhavenothingelseexceptmylifeannuity,twelvehundredfrancs……”
“Thenwhathasbecomeofyourmoneyinthefunds?“
“Isoldout,andonlykeptatrifleformywants。IwantedtwelvethousandfrancstofurnishsomeroomsforDelphine。”
“Inyourownhouse?“askedMme。deRestaud,lookingathersister。
“Whatdoesitmatterwheretheywere?“askedGoriot。“Themoneyisspentnow。”
“Iseehowitis。”saidtheCountess。“RoomsforM。deRastignac。
PoorDelphine,takewarningbyme!“
“M。deRastignacisincapableofruiningthewomanheloves,dear。”
“Thanks!Delphine。Ithoughtyouwouldhavebeenkindertomeinmytroubles,butyouneverdidloveme。”
“Yes,yes,shelovesyou,Nasie。”criedGoriot;“shewassayingsoonlyjustnow。Weweretalkingaboutyou,andsheinsistedthatyouwerebeautiful,andthatsheherselfwasonlypretty!“
“Pretty!“saidtheCountess。“Sheisashardasamarblestatue。”
“AndifIam?“criedDelphine,flushingup,“howhaveyoutreatedme?Youwouldnotrecognizeme;youclosedthedoorsofeveryhouseagainstme;youhaveneverletanopportunityofmortifyingmeslipby。AndwhendidIcome,asyouwerealwaysdoing,todrainourpoorfather,athousandfrancsatatime,tillheisleftasyouseehimnow?Thatisallyourdoing,sister!ImyselfhaveseenmyfatherasoftenasIcould。Ihavenotturnedhimoutofthehouse,andthencomeandfawneduponhimwhenIwantedmoney。Ididnotsomuchasknowthathehadspentthosetwelvethousandfrancsonme。Iameconomical,asyouknow;andwhenpapahasmademepresents,ithasneverbeenbecauseIcameandbeggedforthem。”
“YouwerebetteroffthanI。M。deMarsaywasrich,asyouhavereasontoknow。Youalwayswereasslipperyasgold。Good-bye;I
haveneithersisternor——“
“Oh!hush,hush,Nasie!“criedherfather。
“Nobodyelsewouldrepeatwhateverybodyhasceasedtobelieve。
Youareanunnaturalsister!“criedDelphine。
“Oh,children,children!hush!hush!orIwillkillmyselfbeforeyoureyes。”
“There,Nasie,Iforgiveyou。”saidMme。deNucingen;“youareveryunhappy。ButIamkinderthanyouare。HowcouldyousayTHATjustwhenIwasreadytodoanythingintheworldtohelpyou,eventobereconciledwithmyhusband,whichformyownsakeI——Oh!itisjustlikeyou;youhavebehavedcruellytomeallthroughthesenineyears。”
“Children,children,kisseachother!“criedthefather。“Youareangels,bothofyou。”
“No。Letmealone。”criedtheCountessshakingoffthehandthatherfatherhadlaidonherarm。“Sheismoremercilessthanmyhusband。Anyonemightthinkshewasamodelofallthevirtuesherself!“
“IwouldratherhavepeoplethinkthatIowedmoneytoM。deMarsaythanownthatM。deTrailleshadcostmemorethantwohundredthousandfrancs。”retortedMme。deNucingen。
“DELPHINE!“criedtheCountess,steppingtowardshersister。
“Ishalltellyouthetruthaboutyourselfifyoubegintoslanderme。”saidtheBaronesscoldly。
“Delphine!youarea——“
FatherGoriotsprangbetweenthem,graspedtheCountess’hand,andlaidhisownoverhermouth。
“Goodheavens,father!Whathaveyoubeenhandlingthismorning?“
saidAnastasie。
“Ah!well,yes,Ioughtnottohavetouchedyou。”saidthepoorfather,wipinghishandsonhistrousers,“butIhavebeenpackingupmythings;Ididnotknowthatyouwerecomingtoseeme。”
Hewasgladthathehaddrawndownherwrathuponhimself。
“Ah!“hesighed,ashesatdown,“youchildrenhavebrokenmyheartbetweenyou。Thisiskillingme。Myheadfeelsasifitwereonfire。Begoodtoeachotherandloveeachother!Thiswillbethedeathofme!Delphine!Nasie!come,besensible;youarebothinthewrong。Come,Dedel。”headded,lookingthroughhistearsattheBaroness,“shemusthavetwelvethousandfrancs,yousee;letusseeifwecanfindthemforher。Oh,mygirls,donotlookateachotherlikethat!“andhesankonhiskneesbesideDelphine。“Askhertoforgiveyou——justtopleaseme。”hesaidinherear。“Sheismoremiserablethanyouare。Comenow,Dedel。”
“PoorNasie!“saidDelphine,alarmedatthewildextravagantgriefinherfather’sface,“Iwasinthewrong,kissme——“
“Ah!thatislikebalmtomyheart。”criedFatherGoriot。“Buthowarewetofindtwelvethousandfrancs?Imightoffermyselfasasubstituteinthearmy——“
“Oh!fatherdear!“theybothcried,flingingtheirarmsabouthim。“No,no!“
“Godrewardyouforthethought。Wearenotworthit,arewe,Nasie?“askedDelphine。
“Andbesides,fatherdear,itwouldonlybeadropinthebucket。”observedtheCountess。
“Butisfleshandbloodworthnothing?“criedtheoldmaninhisdespair。“Iwouldgivebodyandsoultosaveyou,Nasie。Iwoulddoamurderforthemanwhowouldrescueyou。Iwoulddo,asVautrindid,gotothehulks,go——“hestoppedasifstruckbyathunderbolt,andputbothhandstohishead。“Nothingleft!“hecried,tearinghishair。“IfIonlyknewofawaytostealmoney,butitissohardtodoit,andthenyoucan’tsettoworkbyyourself,andittakestimetorobabank。Yes,itistimeIwasdead;thereisnothingleftmetodobuttodie。Iamnogoodintheworld;Iamnolongerafather!No。Shehascometomeinherextremity,and,wretchthatIam,Ihavenothingtogiveher。Ah!
youputyourmoneyintoalifeannuity,oldscoundrel;andhadyounotdaughters?Youdidnotlovethem。Die,dieinaditch,likethedogthatyouare!Yes,Iamworsethanadog;abeastwouldnothavedoneasIhavedone!Oh!myhead……itthrobsasifitwouldburst。”
“Papa!“criedboththeyoungwomenatonce,“do,pray,bereasonable!“andtheyclungtohimtopreventhimfromdashinghisheadagainstthewall。Therewasasoundofsobbing。
Eugene,greatlyalarmed,tookthebillthatboreVautrin’ssignature,sawthatthestampwouldsufficeforalargersum,alteredthefigures,madeitintoaregularbillfortwelvethousandfrancs,payabletoGoriot’sorder,andwenttohisneighbor’sroom。
“Hereisthemoney,madame。”hesaid,handingthepieceofpapertoher。“Iwasasleep;yourconversationawokeme,andbythismeansIlearnedallthatIowedtoM。Goriot。Thisbillcanbediscounted,andIshallmeetitpunctuallyattheduedate。”
TheCountessstoodmotionlessandspeechless,butsheheldthebillinherfingers。
“Delphine。”shesaid,withawhiteface,andherwholeframequiveringwithindignation,anger,andrage,“Iforgaveyoueverything;GodismywitnessthatIforgaveyou,butIcannotforgivethis!Sothisgentlemanwasthereallthetime,andyouknewit!Yourpettyspitehasletyoutowreakyourvengeanceonmebybetrayingmysecrets,mylife,mychildren’slives,myshame,myhonor!There,youarenothingtomeanylonger。Ihateyou。IwilldoallthatIcantoinjureyou。Iwill……”
Angerparalyzedher;thewordsdiedinherdryparchedthroat。
“Why,heismyson,mychild;heisyourbrother,yourpreserver!“criedGoriot。“Kisshishand,Nasie!Stay,Iwillembracehimmyself。”hesaid,strainingEugenetohisbreastinafrenziedclasp。“Ohmyboy!Iwillbemorethanafathertoyou;
ifIhadGod’spower,Iwouldflingworldsatyourfeet。Whydon’tyoukisshim,Nasie?Heisnotaman,butanangel,aangeloutofheaven。”
“Nevermindher,father;sheismadjustnow。”
“Mad!amI?Andwhatareyou?“criedMme。deRestaud。
“Children,children,Ishalldieifyougoonlikethis。”criedtheoldman,andhestaggeredandfellonthebedasifabullethadstruckhim——“Theyarekillingmebetweenthem。”hesaidtohimself。
TheCountessfixedhereyesonEugene,whostoodstockstill;allhisfacultieswerenumbedbythisviolentscene。
“Sir?……”shesaid,doubtandinquiryinherface,tone,andbearing;shetooknonoticenowofherfathernorofDelphine,whowashastilyunfasteninghiswaistcoat。
“Madame。”saidEugene,answeringthequestionbeforeitwasasked,“Iwillmeetthebill,andkeepsilenceaboutit。”
“Youhavekilledourfather,Nasie!“saidDelphine,pointingtoGoriot,wholayunconsciousonthebed。TheCountessfled。
“Ifreelyforgiveher。”saidtheoldman,openinghiseyes;“herpositionishorrible;itwouldturnanolderheadthanhers。
ComfortNasie,andbenicetoher,Delphine;promiseittoyourpoorfatherbeforehedies。”heasked,holdingDelphine’shandinaconvulsiveclasp。
“Oh!whatailsyou,father?“shecriedinrealalarm。
“Nothing,nothing。”saidGoriot;“itwillgooff。Thereissomethingheavypressingonmyforehead,alittleheadache……
Ah!poorNasie,whatalifeliesbeforeher!“
Justashespoke,theCountesscamebackagainandflungherselfonherkneesbeforehim。“Forgiveme!“shecried。
“Come。”saidherfather,“youarehurtingmestillmore。”
“Monsieur。”theCountesssaid,turningtoRastignac,“miserymademeunjusttoyou。Youwillbeabrothertome,willyounot?“andsheheldoutherhand。Hereyeswerefulloftearsasshespoke。
“Nasie。”criedDelphine,flingingherarmsroundhersister,“mylittleNasie,letusforgetandforgive。”
“No,no。”criedNasie;“Ishallneverforget!“
“Dearangels。”criedGoriot,“itisasifadarkcurtainovermyeyeshadbeenraised;yourvoiceshavecalledmebacktolife。
Kisseachotheroncemore。Well,now,Nasie,thatbillwillsaveyou,won’tit?“
“Ihopeso。Isay,papa,willyouwriteyournameonit?“
“There!howstupidofmetoforgetthat!ButIamnotfeelingatallwell,Nasie,soyoumustnotrememberitagainstme。Sendandletmeknowassoonasyouareoutofyourstrait。No,Iwillgotoyou。No,afterall,Iwillnotgo;Imightmeetyourhusband,andIshouldkillhimonthespot。Andasforsigningawayyourproperty,Ishallhaveawordtosayaboutthat。Quick,mychild,andkeepMaximeinorderinfuture。”
Eugenewastoobewilderedtospeak。
“PoorAnastasie,shealwayshadaviolenttemper。”saidMme。deNucingen,“butshehasagoodheart。”
“Shecamebackfortheendorsement。”saidEugeneinDelphine’sear。
“Doyouthinkso?“
“IonlywishIcouldthinkotherwise。Donottrusther。”heanswered,raisinghiseyesasifheconfidedtoheaventhethoughtsthathedidnotventuretoexpress。
“Yes。Sheisalwaysactingaparttosomeextent。”
“Howdoyoufeelnow,dearFatherGoriot?“askedRastignac。
“Ishouldliketogotosleep。”hereplied。
Eugenehelpedhimtobed,andDelphinesatbythebedside,holdinghishanduntilhefellasleep。Thenshewent。
“ThiseveningattheItaliens。”shesaidtoEugene,“andyoucanletmeknowhowheis。To-morrowyouwillleavethisplace,monsieur。Letusgointoyourroom——Oh!howfrightful!“shecriedonthethreshold。“Why,youareevenworselodgedthanourfather。Eugene,youhavebehavedwell。Iwouldloveyoumoreifthatwerepossible;but,dearboy,ifyouaretosucceedinlife,youmustnotbeginbyflingingtwelvethousandfrancsoutofthewindowslikethat。TheComtedeTraillesisaconfirmedgambler。
Mysistershutshereyestoit。Hewouldhavemadethetwelvethousandfrancsinthesamewaythathewinsandlosesheapsofgold。”
AgroanfromthenextroombroughtthembacktoGoriot’sbedside;
toallappearanceshewasasleep,butthetwoloverscaughtthewords,“Theyarenothappy!“Whetherhewasawakeorsleeping,thetoneinwhichtheywerespokenwenttohisdaughter’sheart。
Shestoleuptothepallet-bedonwhichherfatherlay,andkissedhisforehead。Heopenedhiseyes。
“Ah!Delphine!“hesaid。
“Howareyounow?“sheasked。
“Quitecomfortable。Donotworryaboutme;Ishallgetuppresently。Don’tstaywithme,children;go,goandbehappy。”
EugenewentbackwithDelphineasfarasherdoor;buthewasnoteasyaboutGoriot,andwouldnotstaytodinner,assheproposed。
HewantedtobebackattheMaisonVauquer。FatherGoriothadlefthisroom,andwasjustsittingdowntodinnerashecamein。
Bianchonhadplacedhimselfwherehecouldwatchtheoldmancarefully;andwhentheoldvermicellimakertookuphissquareofbreadandsmelledittofindoutthequalityoftheflour,themedicalstudent,studyinghimclosely,sawthattheactionwaspurelymechanical,andshookhishead。
“Justcomeandsitoverhere,hospitallerofCochin。”saidEugene。
Bianchonwentthemorewillinglybecausehischangeofplacebroughthimnexttotheoldlodger。
“Whatiswrongwithhim?“askedRastignac。
“Itisallupwithhim,orIammuchmistaken!Somethingveryextraordinarymusthavetakenplace;helookstomeasifhewereinimminentdangerofserousapoplexy。Thelowerpartofhisfaceiscomposedenough,buttheupperpartisdrawnanddistorted。
Thenthereisthatpeculiarlookabouttheeyesthatindicatesaneffusionofseruminthebrain;theylookasthoughtheywerecoveredwithafilmoffinedust,doyounotice?Ishallknowmoreaboutitbyto-morrowmorning。”
“Isthereanycureforit?“
“None。Itmightbepossibletostavedeathoffforatimeifawaycouldbefoundofsettingupareactioninthelowerextremities;butifthesymptomsdonotabatebyto-morrowevening,itwillbealloverwithhim,pooroldfellow!Doyouknowwhathashappenedtobringthison?Theremusthavebeensomeviolentshock,andhismindhasgivenway。”
“Yes,therewas。”saidRastignac,rememberinghowthetwodaughtershadstruckblowonblowattheirfather’sheart。
“ButDelphineatanyratelovesherfather。”hesaidtohimself。
ThateveningattheoperaRastignacchosehiswordscarefully,lestheshouldgiveMme。deNucingenneedlessalarm。
“Donotbeanxiousabouthim。”shesaid,however,assoonasEugenebegan,“ourfatherhasreallyastrongconstitution,butthismorningwegavehimashock。Ourwholefortuneswereinperil,sothethingwasserious,yousee。IcouldnotliveifyouraffectiondidnotmakemeinsensibletotroublesthatI
shouldoncehavethoughttoohardtobear。AtthismomentIhavebutonefearleft,butonemiserytodread——tolosethelovethathasmademefeelgladtolive。Everythingelseisasnothingtomecomparedwithourlove;Icarefornothingelse,foryouarealltheworldtome。IfIfeelgladtoberich,itisforyoursake。Tomyshamebeitsaid,Ithinkofmyloverbeforemyfather。Doyouaskwhy?Icannottellyou,butallmylifeisinyou。Myfathergavemeaheart,butyouhavetaughtittobeat。
Thewholeworldmaycondemnme;whatdoesitmatterifIstandacquittedinyoureyes,foryouhavenorighttothinkillofmeforthefaultswhichatyrannouslovehasforcedmetocommitforyou!Doyouthinkmeanunnaturaldaughter?Oh!no,noonecouldhelplovingsuchadearkindfatherasours。ButhowcouldIhidetheinevitableconsequencesofourmiserablemarriagesfromhim?
Whydidheallowustomarrywhenwedid?Wasitnothisdutytothinkforusandforeseeforus?To-dayIknowhesuffersasmuchaswedo,buthowcanitbehelped?Andasforcomfortinghim,wecouldnotcomforthimintheleast。Ourresignationwouldgivehimmorepainandhurthimfarmorethancomplaintsandupbraidings。Therearetimesinlifewheneverythingturnstobitterness。”
Eugenewassilent,theartlessandsincereoutpouringmadeanimpressiononhim。
Parisianwomenareoftenfalse,intoxicatedwithvanity,selfishandself-absorbed,frivolousandshallow;yetofallwomen,whentheylove,theysacrificetheirpersonalfeelingstotheirpassion;theyrisebutsomuchthehigherforallthepettinessovercomeintheirnature,andbecomesublime。ThenEugenewasstruckbytheprofounddiscernmentandinsightdisplayedbythiswomaninjudgingofnaturalaffection,whenaprivilegedaffectionhadseparatedandsetheratadistanceapart。Mme。deNucingenwaspiquedbythesilence,“Whatareyouthinkingabout?“sheasked。
“Iamthinkingaboutwhatyousaidjustnow。HithertoIhavealwaysfeltsurethatIcaredfarmoreforyouthanyoudidforme。”
Shesmiled,andwouldnotgivewaytothehappinessshefelt,lesttheirtalkshouldexceedtheconventionallimitsofpropriety。Shehadneverheardthevibratingtonesofasincereandyouthfullove;afewmorewords,andshefearedforherself-
control。
“Eugene。”shesaid,changingtheconversation,“Iwonderwhetheryouknowwhathasbeenhappening?AllPariswillgotoMme。deBeauseant’sto-morrow。TheRochefidesandtheMarquisd’Ajudahaveagreedtokeepthematteraprofoundsecret,butto-morrowthekingwillsignthemarriage-contract,andyourpoorcousintheVicomtesseknowsnothingofitasyet。Shecannotputoffherball,andtheMarquiswillnotbethere。Peoplearewonderingwhatwillhappen?“
“Theworldlaughsatbasenessandconnivesatit。ButthiswillkillMme。deBeauseant。”
“Oh,no。”saidDelphine,smiling,“youdonotknowthatkindofwoman。Why,allPariswillbethere,andsoshallI;Ioughttogothereforyoursake。”
“Perhaps,afterall,itisoneofthoseabsurdreportsthatpeoplesetincirculationhere。”
“Weshallknowthetruthto-morrow。”
EugenedidnotreturntotheMaisonVauquer。HecouldnotforegothepleasureofoccupyinghisnewroomsintheRued’Artois。
YesterdayeveninghehadbeenobligedtoleaveDelphinesoonaftermidnight,butthatnightitwasDelphinewhostayedwithhimuntiltwoo’clockinthemorning。Heroselate,andwaitedforMme。deNucingen,whocameaboutnoontobreakfastwithhim。
Youthsnatcheseagerlyattheserosymomentsofhappiness,andEugenehadalmostforgottenGoriot’sexistence。Theprettythingsthatsurroundedhimweregrowingfamiliar;thisdomesticationinitselfwasonelongfestivalforhim,andMme。deNucingenwastheretoglorifyitallbyherpresence。Itwasfouro’clockbeforetheythoughtofGoriot,andofhowhehadlookedforwardtothenewlifeinthathouse。Eugenesaidthattheoldmanoughttobemovedatonce,lestheshouldgrowtooilltomove。HeleftDelphineandhurriedbacktothelodging-house。NeitherFatherGoriotnoryoungBianchonwasinthedining-roomwiththeothers。
“Aha!“saidthepainterasEugenecamein,“FatherGoriothasbrokendownatlast。Bianchonisupstairswithhim。Oneofhisdaughters——theComtessedeRestaurama——cametoseetheoldgentleman,andhewouldgetupandgoout,andmadehimselfworse。Societyisabouttoloseoneofitsbrightestornaments。”
Rastignacsprangtothestaircase。
“Hey!MonsieurEugene!“
“MonsieurEugene,themistressiscallingyou。”shoutedSylvie。
“Itisthis,sir。”saidthewidow。“YouandM。Goriotshouldbyrightshavemovedoutonthe15thofFebruary。Thatwasthreedaysago;to-dayisthe18th,Ioughtreallytobepaidamonthinadvance;butifyouwillengagetopayforboth,Ishallbequitesatisfied。”
“Whycan’tyoutrusthim?“
“Trusthim,indeed!Iftheoldgentlemanwentoffhisheadanddied,thosedaughtersofhiswouldnotpaymeafarthing,andhisthingswon’tfetchtenfrancs。Thismorninghewentoutwithallthespoonsandforkshehasleft,Idon’tknowwhy。Hehadgothimselfuptolookquiteyoung,and——Lord,forgiveme——butI
thoughthehadrougeonhischeeks;helookedquiteyoungagain。”
“Iwillberesponsible。”saidEugene,shudderingwithhorror,forheforesawtheend。
HeclimbedthestairsandreachedFatherGoriot’sroom。Theoldmanwastossingonhisbed。Bianchonwaswithhim。
“Good-evening,father。”saidEugene。
Theoldmanturnedhisglassyeyesonhim,smiledgently,andsaid:
“HowisSHE?“
“Sheisquitewell。Buthowareyou?“
“Thereisnothingmuchthematter。”
“Don’ttirehim。”saidBianchon,drawingEugeneintoacorneroftheroom。
“Well?“askedRastignac。
“Nothingbutamiraclecansavehimnow。Serouscongestionhassetin;Ihaveputonmustardplasters,andluckilyhecanfeelthem,theyareacting。”
“Isitpossibletomovehim?“
“Quiteoutofthequestion。Hemuststaywhereheis,andbekeptasquietaspossible——“
“DearBianchon。”saidEugene,“wewillnursehimbetweenus。”
“Ihavehadtheheadphysicianroundfrommyhospitaltoseehim。”
“Andwhatdidhesay?“
“Hewillgivenoopiniontillto-morrowevening。Hepromisedtolookinagainattheendoftheday。Unluckily,thepreposterouscreaturemustneedsgoanddosomethingfoolishthismorning;hewillnotsaywhatitwas。Heisasobstinateasamule。AssoonasIbegintotalktohimhepretendsnottohear,andliesasifhewereasleepinsteadofanswering,orifheopenshiseyeshebeginstogroan。Sometimethismorninghewentoutonfootinthestreets,nobodyknowswherehewent,andhetookeverythingthathehadofanyvaluewithhim。Hehasbeendrivingsomeconfoundedbargain,andithasbeentoomuchforhisstrength。
Oneofhisdaughtershasbeenhere。”
“WasittheCountess?“askedEugene。“Atall,dark-hairedwoman,withlargebrighteyes,slenderfigure,andlittlefeet?“
“Yes。”
“Leavehimtomeforabit。”saidRastignac。“Iwillmakehimconfess;hewilltellmeallaboutit。”
“AndmeanwhileIwillgetmydinner。Buttrynottoexcitehim;
thereisstillsomehopeleft。”
“Allright。”
“Howtheywillenjoythemselvesto-morrow。”saidFatherGoriotwhentheywerealone。“Theyaregoingtoagrandball。”
“Whatwereyoudoingthismorning,papa,tomakeyourselfsopoorlythiseveningthatyouhavetostopinbed?“
“Nothing。”
“DidnotAnastasiecometoseeyou?“demandedRastignac。
“Yes。”saidFatherGoriot。
“Well,then,don’tkeepanythingfromme。Whatmoredidshewantofyou?“
“Oh,shewasverymiserable。”heanswered,gatheringupallhisstrengthtospeak。“Itwasthisway,myboy。Sincethataffairofthediamonds,Nasiehasnothadapennyofherown。Forthisballshehadorderedagoldengownlikeasettingforajewel。Hermantuamaker,awomanwithoutaconscience,wouldnotgivehercredit,soNasie’swaiting-womanadvancedathousandfrancsonaccount。PoorNasie!reducedtosuchshifts!Itcutmetothehearttothinkofit!ButwhenNasie’smaidsawhowthingswerebetweenhermasterandmistress,shewasafraidoflosinghermoney,andcametoanunderstandingwiththedressmaker,andthewomanrefusestosendtheball-dressuntilthemoneyispaid。Thegownisready,andtheballisto-morrownight!Nasiewasindespair。Shewantedtoborrowmyforksandspoonstopawnthem。
Herhusbandisdeterminedthatsheshallgoandwearthediamonds,soastocontradictthestoriesthataretoldalloverParis。Howcanshegotothatheartlessscoundrelandsay,’Ioweathousandfrancstomydressmaker;payherforme!’Shecannot。
Isawthatmyself。Delphinewillbetheretooinasuperbtoilette,andAnastasieoughtnottobeoutshonebyheryoungersister。Andthen——shewasdrownedintears,poorgirl!IfeltsohumbledyesterdaywhenIhadnotthetwelvethousandfrancs,thatIwouldhavegiventherestofmymiserablelifetowipeoutthatwrong。Yousee,Icouldhaveborneanythingonce,butlatterlythiswantofmoneyhasbrokenmyheart。Oh!Ididnotdoitbyhalves;Ititivatedmyselfupabit,andwentoutandsoldmyspoonsandforksandbucklesforsixhundredfrancs;thenIwenttooldDaddyGobseck,andsoldayear’sinterestonmyannuityforfourhundredfrancsdown。Pshaw!Icanliveondrybread,asIdidwhenIwasayoungman;ifIhavedoneitbefore,Icandoitagain。MyNasieshallhaveonehappyevening,atanyrate。Sheshallbesmart。Thebanknoteforathousandfrancsisundermypillow;itwarmsmetohaveitlyingthereundermyhead,foritisgoingtomakemypoorNasiehappy。ShecanturnthatbadgirlVictoireoutofthehouse。Aservantthatcannottrusthermistress,didanyoneeverhearthelike!Ishallbequitewellto-morrow。Nasieiscomingatteno’clock。TheymustnotthinkthatIamill,ortheywillnotgototheball;theywillstopandtakecareofme。To-morrowNasiewillcomeandholdmeinherarmsasifIwereoneofherchildren;herkisseswillmakemewellagain。Afterall,Imighthavespentthethousandfrancsonphysic;IwouldfarrathergivethemtomylittleNasie,whocancharmallthepainaway。Atanyrate,Iamsomecomforttoherinhermisery;andthatmakesupformyunkindnessinbuyinganannuity。Sheisinthedepths,andIcannotdrawheroutofthemnow。Oh!Iwillgointobusinessagain,IwillbuywheatinOdessa;outthere,wheatfetchesaquarterofthepriceitsellsforhere。Thereisalawagainsttheimportationofgrain,butthegoodfolkwhomadethelawforgottoprohibittheintroductionofwheatproductsandfoodstuffsmadefromcorn。
Hey!hey!……Thatstruckmethismorning。Thereisafinetradetobedoneinstarch。”
Eugene,watchingtheoldman’sface,thoughtthathisfriendwaslight-headed。
“Come。”hesaid,“donottalkanymore,youmustrest——“JustthenBianchoncameup,andEugenewentdowntodinner。
Thetwostudentssatupwithhimthatnight,relievingeachotherinturn。Bianchonbroughtuphismedicalbooksandstudied;
Eugenewrotelettershometohismotherandsisters。NextmorningBianchonthoughtthesymptomsmorehopeful,butthepatient’sconditiondemandedcontinualattention,whichthetwostudentsalonewerewillingtogive——ataskimpossibletodescribeinthesqueamishphraseologyoftheepoch。Leechesmustbeappliedtothewastedbody,thepoulticesandhotfoot-baths,andotherdetailsofthetreatmentrequiredthephysicalstrengthanddevotionofthetwoyoungmen。Mme。deRestauddidnotcome;butshesentamessengerforthemoney。
“Iexpectedshewouldcomeherself;butitwouldhavebeenapityforhertocome,shewouldhavebeenanxiousaboutme。”saidthefather,andtoallappearanceshewaswellcontent。
Atseveno’clockthateveningTheresecamewithaletterfromDelphine。
“Whatareyoudoing,dearfriend?Ihavebeenlovedforaverylittlewhile,andIamneglectedalready?Intheconfidencesofheartandheart,Ihavelearnedtoknowyoursoul——youaretoonoblenottobefaithfulforever,foryouknowthatlovewithallitsinfinitesubtlechangesoffeelingisneverthesame。
Onceyousaid,aswewerelisteningtothePrayerinMoseinEgitto,’Forsomeitisthemonotonyofasinglenote;forothers,itistheinfiniteofsound。’RememberthatIamexpectingyouthiseveningtotakemetoMme。deBeauseant’sball。EveryoneknowsnowthattheKingsignedM。d’Ajuda’smarriage-contractthismorning,andthepoorVicomtesseknewnothingofituntiltwoo’clockthisafternoon。AllPariswillflocktoherhouse,ofcourse,justasacrowdfillsthePlacedeGrevetoseeanexecution。Itishorrible,isitnot,togooutofcuriositytoseeifshewillhideheranguish,andwhethershewilldiecourageously?Icertainlyshouldnotgo,myfriend,ifI
hadbeenatherhousebefore;but,ofcourse,shewillnotreceivesocietyanymoreafterthis,andallmyeffortswouldbeinvain。Mypositionisaveryunusualone,andbesides,Iamgoingtherepartlyonyouraccount。Iamwaitingforyou。Ifyouarenotbesidemeinlessthantwohours,IdonotknowwhetherI
couldforgivesuchtreason。”
Rastignactookupapenandwrote:
“Iamwaitingtillthedoctorcomestoknowifthereisanyhopeofyourfather’slife。Heislyingdangerouslyill。Iwillcomeandbringyouthenews,butIamafraiditmaybeasentenceofdeath。WhenIcomeyoucandecidewhetheryoucangototheball——Yoursathousandtimes。”
Athalf-pasteightthedoctorarrived。Hedidnottakeaveryhopefulviewofthecase,butthoughtthattherewasnoimmediatedanger。Improvementsandrelapsesmightbeexpected,andthegoodman’slifeandreasonhunginthebalance。
“Itwouldbebetterforhimtodieatonce。”thedoctorsaidashetookleave。
EugeneleftGoriottoBianchon’scare,andwenttocarrythesadnewstoMme。deNucingen。Familyfeelinglingeredinher,andthismustputanendforthepresenttoherplansofamusement。
“Tellhertoenjoyhereveningasifnothinghadhappened。”criedGoriot。Hehadbeenlyinginasortofstupor,buthesuddenlysatuprightasEugenewentout。
Eugene,halfheartbroken,enteredDelphine’s。Herhairhadbeendressed;sheworeherdancingslippers;shehadonlytoputonherball-dress;butwhentheartistisgivingthefinishingstroketohiscreation,thelasttouchesrequiremoretimethanthewholegroundworkofthepicture。
“Why,youarenotdressed!“shecried。
“Madame,yourfather——“
“Myfatheragain!“sheexclaimed,breakinginuponhim。“Youneednotteachmewhatisduetomyfather,Ihaveknownmyfatherthislongwhile。Notaword,Eugene。Iwillhearwhatyouhavetosaywhenyouaredressed。Mycarriageiswaiting,takeit,goroundtoyourroomsanddress,Theresehasputouteverythinginreadinessforyou。Comebackassoonasyoucan;wewilltalkaboutmyfatheronthewaytoMme。deBeauseant’s。Wemustgoearly;ifwehavetowaitourturninarowofcarriages,weshallbeluckyifwegettherebyeleveno’clock。”
“Madame——“
“Quick!notaword!“shecried,dartingintoherdressing-roomforanecklace。
“Dogo,MonsieurEugene,oryouwillvexmadame。”saidTherese,hurryinghimaway;andEugenewastoohorror-strickenbythiselegantparricidetoresist。
Hewenttohisroomsanddressed,sad,thoughtful,anddispirited。TheworldofPariswaslikeanoceanofmudforhimjustthen;anditseemedthatwhoeversetfootinthatblackmiremustneedssinkintoituptothechin。
“Theircrimesarepaltry。”saidEugenetohimself。“Vautrinwasgreater。”
Hehadseensocietyinitsthreegreatphases——Obedience,Struggle,andRevolt;theFamily,theWorld,andVautrin;andhehesitatedinhischoice。Obediencewasdull,Revoltimpossible,Strugglehazardous。Histhoughtswanderedbacktothehomecircle。Hethoughtofthequietuneventfullife,thepurehappinessofthedaysspentamongthosewholovedhimthere。
Thoselovingandbelovedbeingspassedtheirlivesinobediencetothenaturallawsofthehearth,andinthatobediencefoundadeepandconstantserenity,unvexedbytormentssuchasthese。
Yet,forallhisgoodimpulses,hecouldnotbringhimselftomakeprofessionofthereligionofpuresoulstoDelphine,nortoprescribethedutiesofpietytoherinthenameoflove。Hiseducationhadbeguntobearitsfruits;helovedselfishlyalready。Besides,histacthaddiscoveredtohimtherealnatureofDelphine;hedivinedinstinctivelythatshewascapableofsteppingoverherfather’scorpsetogototheball;andwithinhimselfhefeltthathehadneitherthestrengthofmindtoplaythepartofmentor,northestrengthofcharactertovexher,northecouragetoleavehertogoalone。
“Shewouldneverforgivemeforputtingherinthewrongoverit。”hesaidtohimself。Thenheturnedthedoctor’sdictumoverinhismind;hetriedtobelievethatGoriotwasnotsodangerouslyillashehadimagined,andendedbycollectingtogetherasufficientquantityoftraitorousexcusesforDelphine’sconduct。Shedidnotknowhowillherfatherwas;thekindoldmanhimselfwouldhavemadehergototheballifshehadgonetoseehim。Sooftenithappensthatthisoneorthatstandscondemnedbythesociallawsthatgovernfamilyrelations;
andyettherearepeculiarcircumstancesinthecase,differencesoftemperament,divergentinterests,innumerablecomplicationsoffamilylifethatexcusetheapparentoffence。
Eugenedidnotwishtoseetooclearly;hewasreadytosacrificehisconsciencetohismistress。Withinthelastfewdayshiswholelifehadundergoneachange。Womanhadenteredintohisworldandthrownitintochaos,familyclaimsdwindledawaybeforeher;shehadappropriatedallhisbeingtoheruses。
RastignacandDelphinefoundeachotheratacrisisintheirliveswhentheiruniongavethemthemostpoignantbliss。Theirpassion,solongproved,hadonlygainedinstrengthbythegratifieddesirethatoftenextinguishespassion。Thiswomanwashis,andEugenerecognizedthatnotuntilthenhadhelovedher;
perhapsloveisonlygratitudeforpleasure。Thiswoman,vileorsublime,headoredforthepleasureshehadbroughtasherdower;
andDelphinelovedRastignacasTantaluswouldhavelovedsomeangelwhohadsatisfiedhishungerandquenchedtheburningthirstinhisparchedthroat。
“Well。”saidMme。deNucingenwhenhecamebackineveningdress,“howismyfather?“
“Verydangerouslyill。”heanswered;“ifyouwillgrantmeaproofofyouraffections,wewilljustgointoseehimontheway。”
“Verywell。”shesaid。“Yes,butafterwards。DearEugene,dobenice,anddon’tpreachtome。Come。”
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