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第9章

  Theyallheardthewailingcryoftheghost-music。Butwhiletheblastcontinuedtheydarednotpursuetheirhunt。Itkeptoninfitsandguststillthesquallceased——assuddenlyalmostasithadburst。Theskycleared,andthesunshoneasaMarchsuncan。Buttheblunderingblastsandtheswan-shotoftheflyinghailwereallaboutstill。
  “Whenthestormisuponus,“remarkedDonal,astheyrosefromtheircrouchingposition,“itseemsasiftherenevercouldbesunshinemore;butourhopelessnessdoesnotkeepbackthesunwhenhishourtoshineiscome。“
  “Iunderstand!”saidArctura:“whenoneismiserable,miseryseemsthelawofbeing;andinthemidstofitdwellssomethoughtwhichnothingcaneversetright!Allatonceitisgone,brokenupandgone,likethathail-cloud。Itjustlooksitsownfoolishnessandvanishes。“
  “Doyouknowwhythingssooftencomeright?”saidDonal。“——Iwouldsayalwayscomeright,butthatismatteroffaith,notsight。“
  Arcturadidnotansweratonce。
  “IthinkIknowwhatyouarethinking,“shesaid,“butIwanttohearyouansweryourownquestion。“
  “Whydothingscomerightsooften,doyouthink,Davie?”repeatedDonal。
  “Isit,“returnedDavie,“becausetheyweremaderighttobeginwith?”
  “Thereismuchinthat,Davie;butthereisabetterreasonthanthat。Itisbecausethingsarealive,andthelifeattheheartofthem,thatwhichkeepsthemgoing,isthegreat,beautifulGod。Sothesunforeverreturnsaftertheclouds。Adoubtingman,likehimwhowrotethebookofEcclesiasties,putstheevillast,andsays'thecloudsreturnaftertherain;'buttheChristianknowsthatOnehasmasteryWhomakesthejoythelastineverysong。“
  “Youspeaklikeonewhohassuffered!”saidArctura,withakindlookinhisface。
  “Whohasnotthatlives?”
  “Itishowyouareabletohelpothers!”
  “AmIabletohelpothers?Iamverygladtohearit。Myambitionwouldbetohelp,ifIhadanyambition。ButifIamable,itisbecauseIhavebeenhelpedmyself,notbecauseIhavesuffered。“
  “Willyoutellmewhatyoumeanbysayingyouhavenoambition?”
  “Whereyourworkislaidoutforyou,thereisnoroomforambition:
  youhavegotyourworktodo!——Butgivemeyourhand,mylady;putyourotherhandonmyshoulder。Youstopthere,Davie,anddon'tmovetillIcometoyou。Now,mylady——alittlejump!That'sit!Nowyouaresafe!——Youwerenotafraid,wereyou?”
  “Notintheleast。Butdidyoucomehereinthedark?”
  “Yes。Thereisthisadvantageinthedark:youdonotseehowdangerousthewayis。Wetakethedarknessaboutusforthesourceofourdifficulties:itisagreatmistake。ChristianwouldhardlyhavedaredgothroughtheValleyoftheShadowofDeath,hadhenothadtheshieldofthedarknessallabouthim。“
  “Canthedarknessbeashield?Isitnottheevilthing?”
  “Yes,thedarkthatiswithinus——thedarkofdistrustandunwillingness,butnottheoutsidedarkofmerehumanignorance。
  Wherewedonotsee,weareprotected。Wherewearemostignorantandmostindanger,isinthosethingsthataffectthelifeofGodinus:theretheFatheriseverymomentwatchinghischild。Ifhewerenotconstantlypardoningandpunishingoursins,whatwouldbecomeofus!Wemustlearntotrusthimaboutourfaultsasmuchasabouteverythingelse!”
  Intheearnestnessofhistalkhehadstopped,butnowturnedandwenton。
  “Thereismyland-,orroof-markrather!”hesaid,“——thatchimney-stack!ClosebyitIheardthemusicverynearmeindeed——whenallatoncethedarknessandthewindcametogethersothickthatIcoulddonothingmore。Weshalldobetternowinthedaylight——andthreeofusinsteadofone!”
  “Whatahugeblockofchimneys!”saidArctura。
  “Isitnot!”returnedDonal。“Itindicatesthehugenessofthebuildingbelowus,ofwhichwecanseesolittle。Likethevolcanoesoftheworld,ittellsushowmuchfireisnecessarytokeepourdwellingwarm。“
  “Ithoughtitwasthesunthatkepttheearthwarm,“saidDavie。
  “Soitis,butnotthesunalone。Theearthislikeaman:thegreatglowingfireisGodintheheartoftheearth,andthegreatsunisGodinthesky,keepingitwarmontheotherside。Ourgladnessandpleasure,ourtroublewhenwedowrong,ourloveforallaboutus,thatisGodinsideus;andthebeautifulthingsandlovablepeople,andallthelessonsoflifeinhistoryandpoetry,intheBible,andinwhatevercomestous,isGodoutsideofus。EverylifeisbetweentwogreatfiresoftheloveofGod。Solongaswedonotgiveourselvesupheartilytohim,wefearhisfirewillburnus。Andburnusitdoeswhenwegoagainstitsflamesandnotwiththem,refusingtoburnwiththefirewithwhichGodisalwaysburning。
  Whenwetrytoputitout,oropposeit,orgetawayfromit,thenindeeditburns!”
  “IthinkIknow,“saidDavie。
  Arcturaheldherpeace。
  “Butnow,“saidDonal,“Imustgoroundandhaveapeepattheothersideofthechimney-stack。“
  Hedisappeared,andArcturaandDaviestoodwaitinghisreturn。Theylookedeachintheother'sfacewiththedelightofconsciouslysharingagreatadventure。Beyondtheirfeetlaythewidecountryandthegreatsea;overthemtheskywiththesuninitgoingdowntowardsthemountains;undertheirfeetthemightyoldpilethatwastheirhome;andunderthattheearthwithitsmoltenheartoffire。
  ButDavie'slooksoonchangedtooneoftriumphinhistutor。“Isisnotgrand,“itsaid,“tobealldaywithamanlikethat——talkingtoyouandteachingyou?”ThatatleastwashowArcturainterpretedit,readinginitalmostanassertionofsuperiority,inasmuchasthismanwashistutorandnothers。Sherepliedtothelookinwords:——
  “Iamhispupil,too,Davie,“shesaid,“thoughMr。Grantdoesnotknowit。“
  “Howcanthatbe,“answeredDavie,“whenyouareafraidofhim?Iamnotabitafraidofhim!”
  “HowdoyouknowIamafraidofhim?”sheasked。
  “Oh,anybodycouldseethat!”
  Shewasafraidshehadspokenfoolishly,andDaviemightrepeatherwords:shedidnotdesiretohastenfurtherintimacywithDonal;
  thingsweregoinginthatdirectionfastenough!Hereyes,avoidingDavie's,keptreconnoitringthestackofchimneys。
  “Aren'tyougladtohavesuchacastleallforyourown——todowhatyoulikewith,Arkie?Youknowyoucouldpullitalltopiecesifyouliked!”
  “Woulditbelessmine,“saidArctura,“ifIwasnotatlibertytopullitalltopieces?AndwoulditbemoreminewhenIhadpulledittopieces,Davie?”
  Donalwascomingroundthesideofthestack,andheardwhatshesaid。Itpleasedhim,foritwasnotalittleinhisownstyle。
  “Whatmakesathingyourown,doyouthink,Davie?”shewenton。
  “Tobeabletodowithitwhatyoulike,“repliedDavie。
  “Whetherthatbegoodorbad?”
  “Yes,Ithinkso,“answeredDavie,doubtfully。
  “ThenIthinkyouarequitewrong,“sherejoined。“Themomentyoubegintouseathingwrong,thatmomentyoumakeitlessyours。I
  can'tquiteexplainit,butthatishowitlookstome。“
  Sheceased,andafteramomentDonaltookupthequestion。
  “LadyArcturaisquiteright,Davie,“hesaid。“Thenature,thatisthegoodofathing,isthatonlybywhichitcanbepossessed。Anyotherpossessionislikeslave-owning;itisnotarighteoushaving。
  Therightandthepowertouseittoitstruepurpose,andtheusingitso,aretheconditionsthatmakeathingours。Tohavetherightandthepower,andnotuseitso,wouldbetomakethethinglessoursthananybody's——Supposeyouhadaverybeautifulpicture,butfromsomedefectinyoursightyoucouldneverseethatpictureasitreallywas,whileaservantinyourhousenotonlysawitasitwasmeanttobeseen,buthadsuchdelightingazingonit,thateveninhisdreamsitcametohim,andmadehimthinkofthingshewouldnothavethoughtofbutforit:——whichofyou,youortheservantinyourhouse,wouldhavethemorerealpossessionofthatpicture?Youcouldsellitawayfromyourself,andneverknowanythingaboutitmore;butyoucouldnotbyallthepowerofatyranttakeitfromyourservant。“
  “Ah,nowIunderstand!”saidDavie,withalookatladyArcturawhichseemedtosay,“YouseehowMr。Grantcanmakemeunderstand!”
  “Iwonder,“saidladyArctura,“whatthatcuriousopeninginthesideofthechimney-stackmeans!Itcan'tbeforsmoketocomeoutat!”
  “No,“saidDonal;“thereisnotamarkofsmokeaboutit。Ifithadbeenmeantforthat,itwouldhardlyhavebeenputhalf-wayfromthetop!Ican'tmakeitout!Aholelikethatinanychimneymustsurelyinterferewiththedraught!Imustgetaladder!”
  “Letmeclimbonyourshoulders,Mr。Grant,“saidDavie。
  “Comethen;upyougo!”saidDonal。
  AndupwentDavie,andpeepedintothehorizontalslit。
  “Itlooksverylikeachimney,“hesaid,turninghisheadandthrustingitinsideways。“Itgoesrightdowntosomewhere,“headded,bringinghisheadoutagain,“butthereissomethingacrossitalittlewaydown——topreventthejackdawsfromtumblingin,I
  suppose。“
  “Whatisit?”askedDonal。
  “Somethinglikeagrating,“answeredDavie;“——no,notagratingexactly;itiswhatyoumightcallagrating,butitseemsmadeofwires。Idon'tthinkitwouldkeepastrongbirdoutifhewantedtogetin。“
  “Aha!”saidDonaltohimself;“whatifthosewiresbetuned!Didyoueverseeanaeolianharp,mylady?”heasked:“Ineverdid。“
  “Yes,“answeredladyArctura,“——once,whenIwasalittlegirl。Andnowyousuggestit,Ithinkthesoundsweheararenotunlikethoseofanaeolianharp!Thestringsareallthesamelength,ifI
  remember。ButIdonotunderstandtheprinciple。Theyseemalltoplaytogether,andmakethestrangest,wildestharmonies,whenthewindblowsacrosstheminaparticularway。“
  “Ifancythenwehavefoundthenestofourmusic-bird!”saidDonal。
  “ThewiresDaviespeaksofmaybethestringsofanaeolianharp!I
  wonderiftherecouldbeadraughtacrossthem!Imustgetupandsee!Imustgoandgetaladder!”
  “Buthowcouldtherebeanaeolianharpuphere?”saidArctura。
  “Itwillbetimeenoughtoanswerthatquestion,“repliedDonal,“whenitchangesto,'Howdidanaeolianharpgetuphere?'
  Somethingisherethatwantsaccountingfor:itmaybeanaeolianharp!”
  “Butinachimney!Thesootwouldspoilthestrings!”
  “Thenperhapsitisnotachimney:isthereanysignofsootabout,Davie?”
  “No,sir;thereisnothingbutcleanstoneandlime。“
  “Yousee,mylady!Wedonotevenknowthatitisachimney!”
  “Whatelsecanitbe,standingwiththerest?”
  “Itmayhavebeenbuiltforone;butifithadeverbeenusedforone,themarksofsmokewouldremain,haditbeendisusedeversolong。Butto-morrowIwillbringupaladder。“
  “Couldyounotdoitnow?”saidArctura,almostcoaxingly。“Ishouldsoliketohavethethingsettled!”
  “Asyouplease,mylady!Iwillgoatonce。Thereisoneleaningagainstthegarden-wall,notfarfromthebottomofthetower。“
  “Ifyoudonotmindthetrouble!”
  “Iwillcomeandhelp,“saidDavie。
  “Youmustn'tleaveladyArctura。IamnotsureifIcangetitupthestair;Iamafraiditistoolong。IfIcannot,wewillhaulitupaswedidthecoal。“
  Hewent,andthecousinssatdowntowaithisreturn。Itwasacoldevening,butArcturawaswellwraptup,andDaviewashardy。Theysatatthefootofthechimney-stack,andbegantotalk。
  “Itissuchalongtimesinceyoutoldmeanything,Arkie!”saidtheboy。
  “Youdonotneedmenowtotellyouanything:youhaveMr。Grant!
  Youlikehimmuchbetterthaneveryoudidme!”
  “Yousee,“saidDavie,thoughtfully,andmakingnodefenceagainstherhalf-reproach,“hebeganbymakingmeafraidofhim——notthathemeanttodoit,Ithink!heonlymeantthatIshoulddowhathetoldme:Iwasneverafraidofyou,Arkie!”
  “IwasmuchcrossertoyouthanMr。Grant,Iamsure!”
  “Mr。Grantisnevercrosstome;andifeveryouwere,I'veforgottenit,Arkie。IonlyrememberthatIwasnotgoodtoyou。I
  amsorryforitnowwhenIlieawakeinbed;butIsaytomyselfyouforgiveme,andgotosleep。“
  “WhatmakesyouthinkIforgiveyou,Davie?”
  “BecauseIloveyou。“
  Thiswasnotverylogical,andsetArcturathinking。Shedidnotforgivetheboybecausehelovedher;buttheboy'slovetohermightmakehimsuresheforgavehim!Loveisitsownjustification,andseesitselfinallitsobjects:forgivenessisanessentialbelongingoflove,andmustbeseenwhereloveisseen。
  “Areyoufondofmybrother?”askedDavie,afterapause。
  “Whydoyouaskme?”
  “Becausetheysayyouandhearegoingtobemarriedsomeday,yetyoudon'tseemtocaremuchtobetogether。“
  “Itisallnonsense!”repliedArctura,reddening。“Iwishpeoplewouldnottalkfoolishness!”
  “Well,Idothinkhe'snotsofondofyouasofEppy!”
  “Hush!hush!youmustnotspeakofsuchthing。“
  “IsawhimoncekissEppy,andIneversawhimkissyou!”
  “No,indeed!”
  “IsitrightofForgue,ifhe'sgoingtomarryyou,tokissEppy?——That'swhatIwanttoknow!”
  “Heisnotgoingtomarryme。“
  “Hewould,ifyoutoldhimyouwishedit。Papawishesit。“
  “Howdoyouknowthat?”
  “Frommanything。OnceIheardhimsay,'Afterwards,whenthehouseisourown,'andIaskedhimwhathemeant,andhesaid,'WhenForguemarriesArctura,thenthecastlewillbeForgue's。Thatishowitoughttobe,youknow!Propertyandtitleoughtnevertobeparted。'“
  ThehotbloodrosetoArctura'stemples:wassheamerewrappagetoherproperty——thepaperoftheparcel!Butshecalledtomindhowstrangeherunclewas:butforthatcouldhehavebeensoimprudentastotalkinsuchawaytoaboywhosesimplicityrenderedtheconfidencedangerous?
  “Youwouldnotlikehavingtogiveawayyourcastle——wouldyou,Arkie?”hewenton。
  “NottoanyoneIdidnotlove。“
  “IfIwereyou,Iwouldnotmarry,butkeepmycastletomyself。I
  don'tseewhyForgueshouldhaveyourcastle!”
  “YouthinkIshouldmakemycastlemyhusband?”
  “Hewouldbeagoodbighusbandanyhow,andastrong——onetodefendyoufromyourenemies,andnottalktoyouwhenyouwantedtobequiet。“
  “Thatisalltrue;butonemightgetwearyofastupidhusband,howeverbigandstronghewas。“
  “There'sanotherthing,though!——hewouldn'tbeacruelhusband!
  I'veheardpapaoftenspeakaboutsomecruelhusband!Ifanciedsometimeshemeanthimself;butthatcouldnotbe,youknow。“
  Arcturamadenoreply。Allbutvanishedmemoriesofthingsshehadheard,hintsandsignshereandtherethatallwasnotrightbetweenheruncleandaunt,vaguelyreturned:coulditbethathenowrepentedofharshnesstohiswife,thatthethoughtofitwaspreyinguponhim,thatitdrovehimtohisdrugsforforgetfulness?——Butinthepresenceoftheboyshecouldnotgoonthinkinginsuchadirectionabouthisfather。ShefeltrelievedbythereturnofDonal。
  Hehadfounditratherdifficulttogettheladderroundthesharpcurvesofthestair;butatlasttheysawhimwithitonhisshouldercomingoveradistantroof。
  “Nowweshallsee!”hesaid,asheleaneditupagainstthechimney,andstoodpanting。
  “Youhavetiredyourself!”saidladyArctura。
  “Where'stheharm,mylady?Amanmustgettiredafewtimesbeforeheliesdown!”rejoinedDonaldlightly。
  SaidDavie,“Mustawoman,Mr。Grant,marryamanshedoesnotlove?”
  “No,certainly,Davie。“
  “Mr。Grant,“saidArctura,indreadofwhatDaviemightsaynext,“whatdoyoutaketobethedutyofoneinheritingaproperty?Oughtawomantogetridofit,orattendtoitherself?”
  Donalthoughtalittle。
  “Wemustfirstsettlethemaindutyofproperty,“hesaid;“andthatIamhardlypreparedtodo。“
  “Istherenotadutyowingtoyourfamily?”
  “Thereareathousanddutiesowingtoyourfamily。“
  “Idon'tmeanthoseyouarelivingwithmerely,butthosealsowhotransmittedthepropertytoyou。Thispropertybelongstomyfamilyratherthantome,andifIhadhadabrotheritwouldhavegonetohim:shouldInotdobetterforthefamilybygivingituptothenextheir?Iamnotdisinterestedinstartingthequestion;
  possessionandpowerareofnogreatimportanceinmyeyes;theyarehindrancestome。“
  “Itseemstome,“saidDonal,“thatthefactthatyouwouldnothavesucceededhadtherebeenason,pointstothefactofadisposerofevents:youweresentintotheworldtotaketheproperty。Ifso,Godexpectsyoutoperformthedutiesofit;theyarenottobegotridofbythrowingthethingaside,orgivingthemtoanothertodoforyou。IfyourfamilyandnotGodweretherealgiveroftheproperty,thequestionyouputmightarise;butIshouldhardlytakeinterestenoughinittobecapableofdiscussingit。Iunderstandmydutytomysheeporcattle,tomymaster,tomyfatherormother,tomybrotherorsister,tomypupilDaviehere;Iowemyancestorsloveandhonour,andthekeepingoftheirnameunspotted,thoughthatdutyisforestalledbyahigher;butastothepropertytheyleavebehindthem,overwhichtheyhavenomorepower,andwhichnowItrusttheyneverthinkabout,IdonotseewhatobligationIcanbeundertothemwithregardtoit,otherthaniscomprisedinthedutiesofthepropertyitself。“
  “Butafamilyisnotmerelythosethataregonebefore;therearethosethatwillcomeafter!”
  “Thebestthingforthosetocomeafter,istoreceivethepropertywithitsdutiesperformed,withthelightofrighteousnessradiatingfromit。“
  “Butwhatthendoyoucallthedutiesofproperty?”
  “Inwhatdoesthepropertyconsist?”
  “Inland,tobeginwith。“
  “Ifthelandwereofnovalue,wouldthepossessionofitinvolveduties?”
  “Isupposenot。“
  “Inwhatdoesthevalueofthelandconsist?”
  LadyArcturadidnotattemptananswertothequestion,andDonal,afteralittlepause,resumed。
  “Ifyouvaluedthingsastheworldvaluesthem,Ishouldnotcaretoputthequestion;butIfearyoumayhavesomelingeringnotionthat,thoughGod'swayisthetrueway,theworld'swaymustnotbedisregarded。Onething,however,iscertain——thatnothingthatisagainstGod'swaycanbetrue。Thevalueofpropertyconsistsonlyinitsbeingmeans,ground,ormaterialtoworkhiswillwithal。
  Thereisnosuccessintheuniversebutinhiswillbeingdone。“
  Arcturawassilent。Shehadinheritedprejudiceswhich,whileshehatedselfishness,wereyetthoroughlyselfish。Suchareoftheevilsinushardesttogetridof。Theyareevencherishedforalifetimebysomeoftheotherwiseloveliestofsouls。Knowingthathereinmuchthoughtwouldbenecessaryforher,andthatshewouldthink,Donalwentnofarther:ahousemusthaveitsfoundationsettledbeforeitisbuiltupon;argumentwherethegroundsofitareatallindisputeisworsethanuseless。
  Heturnedtohisladder,setitright,mounted,andpeeredintotheopening。AtthelengthofhisarmhecouldreachthewiresDaviehaddescribed:theyweretaut,andfreeofrust——werethereforenotironorsteel。Hesawalsothatalittledowntheshaftafaintlightcameinfromtheoppositeside:therewasanotheropeningsomewhere!
  Nexthesawthateachfollowingstring——forstringshealreadycountedthem——wasplacedalittlelowerthanthatbeforeit,sothattheirsuccessionwasinclinedtotheothersideoftheshaft——apparentlyinaplanebetweenthetwoopenings,thatadraughtmightpassalongtheirplane:thismustsurelybetheinstrumentwhencethemusicflowed!Hedescended。
  “Doyouknow,mylady,“heaskedArctura,“howtheaeolianharpisplacedforthewindtowakeit?”
  “TheonlyoneIhaveseen,“sheanswered,“wasmadetofitintoawindow;thelowersashwasopenedjustwideenoughtoletitin,sothatthewindenteringmustpassacrossthestrings。“
  ThenDonalwasallbutcertain。
  “Ofcourse,“hesaid,afterdescribingwhathehadseen,“wecannotbeabsolutelysurewithouthavingbeenherewiththemusic,andhavingexperimentedbycoveringanduncoveringtheopening;andforthatwemustwaitasouth-easterlywind。“
  CHAPTERXLII。
  COMMUNISM。
  ButDonaldidnotfeelthateventhenwouldhehaveexhaustedthelikelihoodofdiscovery。Thatthesourceofthemusicthathadsolonghauntedthehousewasanaeolianharpinachimneythathadneverorscarcelybeenused,mightbeenoughtosatisfysome,buthewantedtoknowaswellwhy,ifthiswasachimney,itneitherhadbeennorwasused,andtowhatroomitwasachimney。Forthequestionhadcometohim——mightnotthemusicholdsomerelationwiththelegendofthelostroom?
  Inquiryafterlegendarylorehaddrawnnearerandnearer,andthetalkaboutsuchasbelongedtothecastlehadnaturallyincreased。
  Inthistalkwasnotseldommentionedaghost,asyetseenattimesabouttheplace。ThisDonalattributedtoglimpsesoftheearlinhisrestlessnight-walks;butbythedomestics,bothsuchashadseensomethingandsuchashadnot,theapparitionwasnaturallyassociatedwiththelostchamber,astheplacewhencethespectreissued,andwhitherhereturned。
  Donal'ssparehourswerenowmuchgiventohisfriendAndrewComin。
  Thegoodmanhadsofarrecoveredastothinkhimselfabletoworkagain;buthesoonfounditwaslittlehecoulddo。Hisstrengthwasgone,andtheexertionnecessarytothelightestlabourcausedhimpain。Itwassadtowatchhimonhisstool,nowputtinginastitch,nowstoppingbecauseofthecoughwhichsosorelyhauntedhisthin,wind-blowntent。Hisfacehadgrownwhiteandthin,andhehadnearlylosthismerriment,thoughnothischeerfulness;heneverlookedotherthancontent。Hehadmadeuphismindhewasnotgoingtogetbetter,buttogohomethroughalingeringillness。Hewasreadytogoandreadytolinger,asGodpleased。
  Therewasnothingwonderfulinthis;buttosomegoodpeopleevenitdidappearwonderfulthatheshowednouneasinessastohowDoorywouldfarewhenhewasgone。Thehousewasindeedtheirown,buttherewasnomoneyinit——notevenenoughtopaythetaxes;andifshesoldit,thepricewouldnotbeenoughtoliveupon。TheneighboursweresevereonAndrew'simaginedindifferencetohiswife'sfuture,anditwasintheireyesashametobesocheerfulonthebrinkofthegrave。NotoneofthemhaddonemorethanpeepintotheworldoffaithinwhichAndrewlived。NotoneofthemcouldhaveunderstoodthatforAndrewtoallowtheleastdangerofeviltohisDoory,wouldhavebeentobeholdtheuniverserockingontheslipperyshouldersofChance。
  Alittlemoanescapingherasshelookedoneeveningintohermoney-teapot,madeDonalaskheraquestionortwo。Sheconfessedthatshehadbutsixpenceleft。NowDonalhadspentnexttonothingsincehecame,andhadthereforeafewpoundsinhand。Hisfatherandmotherhadsentbackwhathesentthem,asbeinginneedofnothing:sirGibbiewassuchagoodsontothemthattheywerelivinginwhattheycountedluxury:RobertdoubtedwhetherhewasnotministeringtothefleshinallowingJanettoprovidebeef-broseforhimtwiceintheweek!SoDonalwasfreetospendforhisnextneighbours——justwhathispeople,whoweregrandaboutmoney,wouldhavehadhimdo。Neverintheircottagehadapennybeenwasted;
  neveronerefusedwherewasneed。
  “An'rew,“hesaid——andfoundthemother-tongueherefittest——“I'mthinkin'yemaunbegrowin'someshorto'silleri'thistimeo'
  warklessness!”
  “'Deed,Iwadnawon'er!”answeredAndrew。“Doorysaysnaethingabootsictriffles!”
  “Weel,“rejoinedDonal,“IthankGodIhaesomei'theillpickleo'
  nobein'wantit,an'saeindangero'cankerin';an'atweenbritherstheresudnabetwapurses!”
  “Yehaeyerainfowktoluikefter,sir!”saidAndrew。
  “They'reweelluikitefter——betternorevertheywari'theirlives;
  they'reasweelaffasIammysel'upi'yongran'castel。Theyhaeafreen'whabutforthemwadillhaelivedtobethegreatmanheisthenoo;an'there'snaethingowermuckleforhimtoduforthem;
  saemysiller'smyain,an'yours。An'rew,an'Doory's!”
  Theoldmanputhimthroughacatechismastohiswaysandmeansandprospects,andfindingthatDonalbelievedasfirmlyashimselfinthecareoftheMaster,andwasconvincedtherewasnothingthatMasterwouldratherseehimdowithhismoneythanhelpthosewhoneededit,especiallythosewhotrustedinhim,heyielded。
  “It'sno,yesee,“saidDonal,“thatIhaeonydoobto'theLordprovidin'gienIhadfailt,buthehaudsthethingtomyhan',jistasmuckleasgienhesaid,'There'sforyou,Donal!'Thefowko'
  thiswarl'michtnaappruv,butyouan'mekensbetter,An'rew。Wekenthere'snaeguidinsillerbutdothewullo'theLordwi'
  't——an'helptoaneanitherishisdearwull。It'sno'athe'sshorto'sillerhimsel',buthelikestogieanitheraturn!”
  “I'lltakit,“saidtheoldman。
  “There'swhatIhae,“returnedDonal。
  “Na,na;naneo'that!”saidAndrew。“Ye'retreatin'melikeamuckle,reivin',sornin'beggar——offerin'mea'thatatance!Whaursynewadbetheprolongedsweetnesso'haein''ti'portionsfraeyerhan',asfraethenebo'anangel-corbiesentfraeverrahamewi'yerdenner!”——Hereaglimmeroftheoldmerrimentshonethroughthewornlookandpaleeyes——“Na,na,sir,“hewenton;“jisttalkthethingowerwi'Doory,an'latherhaewhatshewantsan'naemair。Shewudnalikeit。Whakenswhatmaycamei'themeantime——Deithhimsel',maybe!Orsee——gieDooryafiveshillins,an'whanthat'sduneshecanlatyeken!”
  Donalwasforcedtoleaveitthus,buthedidhisutmosttoimpressuponDoorythatallhehadwasatherdisposal。
  “Ihadnewclothes,“hesaid,“beforeIcame;IhaveallIwanttoeatanddrink;andforbooks,there'sawholeancientlibraryatmyservice!——whatpossiblycouldIwishformore?It'samereluxurytohandthemoneyovertoyou,Doory!I'mthinkin',Doory,“forhehadbythistimegottoaddressherbyherhusband'snameforher,“there'snaebodyi'thiswarl','cep'theoonseenLordhimsel',lo'esyermansaeweelasyouan'me;an'weelkenIyouan'himwadshareyerlastwi'me;saeI'monlygiein'yeo'yeraingudewull;
  an'I'lldoobtthatgienyetaknasaelangasIhae。“
  Thusadjured,andsatisfiedthatherhusbandwascontent,theoldwomanmadenodifficulty。
  CHAPTERXLIII。
  EPPYANDKENNEDY。
  WhenStephenKennedyheardthatEppyhadgonebacktohergrandparents,afainthoperevivedinhisbosom;heknewnothingofthelatepassagebetweenthetwoparties。Hebutknewthatshewaslookingsad:shemightperhapsallowhimtobeofsomeservicetoher!Separationhadfosteredmoreandmoregentlethoughtsofherinhisheart;hewasreadytoforgivehereverything,andbelievenothingseriousagainsther,ifonlyshewouldlethimloveheragain。Modestyhadhithertokepthimfromthrowinghimselfinherway,buthenowhauntedthehouseinthehopeofcatchingaglimpseofher,andwhenshebegantogoagainintothetown,sawherrepeatedly,followinghertobenearher,buttakingcaresheshouldnotseehim:partlyfromherself-absorptionhehadsucceededinescapinghernotice。
  Atlength,however,onenight,hetriedtosummonupcouragetoaccosther。Itwasalovely,moonlitnight,halfthestreetblackwithquaintshadows,theotherhalfshininglikesandintheyellowlight。Onthemoonysidepeoplestandingattheirdoorscouldrecognizeeachothertwohousesaway,butontheother,friendsmightpasswithoutgreeting。Eppyhadgoneintothebaker's;Kennedyhadseenhergoin,andstoodintheshadow,waiting,allbutdeterminedtospeaktoher。Shestaidagoodwhile,butoneaccustomedtowaitforfishlearnspatience。Atlengthsheappeared。
  Bythistime,however,thoughnothispatience,Kennedy'scouragehadnearlyevaporated;andwhenhesawherhesteppedunderanarchway,letherpass,andfollowedafresh。Allatonceresolve,whichyetwasnoresolve,awokeinhim。Itwasasifsomeonetookhimandsethimbeforeher。Shestartedwhenhesteppedinfront,andgavealittlecry。
  “Dinnabefeart,Eppy,“hesaid;“Iwudnahurtahairo'yerheid。I
  wudraitherbeskinnedmysel'!”
  “Gangawa,“saidEppy。“Yehaenorichttostan'i'mygait!”
  “Nanebuttherichto'lo'ein'yebetternorever!”saidKennedy,“——giensaebeasye'lllatmeonygaitshaw't!”
  Thewordssoftenedher;shehaddreadedreproach,ifnotindignantremonstrance。Shebegantocry。
  “Gienonythingi'mypooerwudmakthegrieflichterupo'ye,Eppy,“
  hesaid,“yehaebuttoname't!I'mnogauin'toaskyetomerryme,forthatIkenyedinnacareaboot;butgienImichtbeluikituponasafreen',ifnotoyou,yettoyours——allootonyw'ytohelpi'yertrible,Imean,I'mreadytolaymei'thedirtaforeye。I
  haenaecareformysel'onymair,an'maundosomethingforsomebody——an'whasaesoonasyersel',Eppy!”
  Forsoleanswer,Eppywentoncrying。Shewasfarfromhappy。ShehadnearlypersuadedherselfthatallwasoverbetweenherandlordForgue,andalmostshecould,butforshame,haveallowedKennedytocomfortherasanoldfriend。Everythinginhermindwassoconfused,andeverythingaroundhersomiserable,thatshecouldbutcry。Shecontinuedcrying,andastheywereinawalledlaneintowhichnowindowslooked,Kennedy,inthesimplicityofhisheart,andthedesiretocomfortherwholittlefromhimdeservedcomfort,cameuptoher,andputtinghisarmroundher,saidagain,“Dinnabefeartofme,Eppy。I'mamanowersair-hertittodoyeonyhurt。It'snoasthinkin'yemyain,Eppy,Iwudpreshumetoduonythingforye,butasanauldfreen',faintotakthedogaffo'
  ye。Areyeinwanto'onything?Yemaunhaeaheapo'trible,Iweelken,wi'yergran'father'smischance,an'it'seasytoun'erstan'
  'atthingsmaywellbeturnin'scarceabootye;butbesureo'this,thataslang'smymitherhasonything,she'llbeblythtosharethesamewi'youan'yours。“
  Hesaidhismother,butshehadnothingsavewhatheprovidedherwith。
  “Ithankye,Stephen,“saidEppy,touchedwithhisgoodness;“butthere'snaenecessity;wehaeplenty。“
  Shemovedon,herapronstilltohereyes。Kennedyfollowedher。
  “Gientheyoonglordhaewrangedyeonygait,“hesaidfrombehindher,“an'gientherebeonyamen'syewadhaeo'him,——“
  Sheturnedwithaquicknessthatwasfierce,andinthedimlightKennedysawhereyesblazing。
  “Iwantnaethingfraeyourhan',StephenKennedy,“shesaid。“Mylord'snaethingtoyou——noryetmuckletome!”sheadded,withsuddenreactionandanoutburstofself-pity,andagainfellaweeping——andsobbingnow。
  Withthetimidityofastrongmanbeforethegirlhelovesandthereforefears,Kennedyoncemoretriedtocomforther,wipinghereyeswithherapron。Whilehedidso,aman,turningacornerquickly,camealmostuponthem。Hestartedback,thencamenearer,lookedhardatthem,andspoke。ItwaslordForgue。
  “Eppy!”heexclaimed,inatoneinwhichindignationblendedwithsurprise。
  Eppygaveacry,andrantohim。Hepushedheraway。
  “Mylord,“saidKennedy,“thelasswillnaneo'meormine。Isairdoobtthere'snanebutyersel'canpleaseher。ButIsweirbyGod,mylord,gienyeduheronywrang,I'llnorest,nichtnorday,tillIhaemadeyerepentit。“
  “Gotothedevil!”saidForgue;“there'sanoldcrow,Isuspect,yettopluckbetweenus!Formeyoumaytakeher,though。Idon'tgohalves。“
  Eppylaidherhandtimidlyonhisarm,butagainhepushedheraway。
  “Oh,mylord!”shesobbed,andcouldsaynomoreforweeping。
  “HowisitIfindyouherewiththisman?”heasked。“Idon'twanttobeunfairtoyou,butitlooksratherbad!”
  “Mylord,“saidKennedy。
  “Holdyourtongue;letherspeakforherself。“
  “Ihadnotrystwi'him,mylord!Ineversaidcomenighme,“sobbedEppy。“——Yeseewhatyehaedune!”shecried,turninginangeronKennedy,andhertearssuddenlyceasing。“Neverbutillhaeyebrochtme!Whatbusinesshadyetocomeeftermethisgait,makin'
  mischief'atweenmylordan'me?Canabodynosetfutayontthedoor-sill,buttheymaunbefollowto'themtheywudseefareneuch!”
  Kennedyturnedandwent,andEppywithafreshburstoftearsturnedtogoalso。ButshehadsatisfiedForguethattherewasnothingbetweenthem,andhewassoonmoresuccessfulthanKennedyinconsolingher。
  Whileabsenthehadbeenableenoughtogetonwithouther,butnosoonerwashehomethan,inthewearylackofinterest,thefeelingswhich,halflamenting,halfrejoicing,hehadimaginedextinct,begantorevive,andhewenttothetownvaguelyhopingtogetasightofEppy。Cominguponhert阾e?t阾ewithheroldlover,firstasenseofunpardonableinjurypossessedhim,andnexttheconvictionthathewasasmadlyinlovewithherasever。Thetideofoldtendernesscamethrobbingandstreamingbackovertheghastlysandsofjealousy,anderetheypartedhehadmadewithheranappointmenttomeetthenextnightinamoresuitablespot。
  DonalwasseatedbyAndrew'sbedsidereading:hehadnowtheopportunityofbringingmanythingsbeforehimsuchastheoldmandidnotknowtoexist。Thoselastdaysofsicknessandweaknesswereamongthemostblessedofhislife;muchthatcouldnotbedoneformanyagoodmanwithtentimeshiseducation,couldbedoneforamanlikeAndrewComin。
  Eppyhaddoneherbesttoremovealltracesofemotionereshere-enteredthehouse;butshecouldnothelptheshiningofhereyes:thejoy-lamprelightedinherbosomshonethroughthem:andAndrewlookingupwhensheentered,Donal,seatedwithhisbacktoher,atonceknewhersecret:hergrandfatherreaditfromherface,andDonalreaditfromhis。
  “ShehasseenForgue!”hesaidtohimself。“Ihopetheoldmanwilldiesoon。“
  CHAPTERXLIV。
  HIGHANDLOW。
  WhenlordMorvenheardofhisson'sreturn,hesentforDonal,receivedhiminafriendlyway,gavehimtounderstandthat,howeverhemightfailtofallinwithhisviews,hedependedthoroughlyonhishonesty,andbeggedhewouldkeephiminformedofhisson'sproceedings。
  Donalrepliedthat,whilehefullyacknowledgedhislordship'srighttoknowwhathissonwasdoing,hecouldnottaketheofficeofaspy。
  “ButIwillwarnlordForgue,“heconcluded,“thatImayseeitrighttolethisfatherknowwhatheisabout。Ifancy,however,heunderstandsasmuchalready。“
  “Pooh!thatwouldbeonlytoteachhimcunning,“saidtheearl。
  “Icandonothingunderhand,“repliedDonal。“Iwillhelpnomantokeepanunrighteoussecret,butneitherwillIsecretlydiscloseit。“
  Meetinghimafewdaysafter,Forguewouldhavepassedhimwithoutrecognition,butDonalstoppedhim,andsaid——
  “Ibelieve,mylord,youhaveseenEppysinceyourreturn。“
  “Whatthedeuceisthattoyou?”
  “Iwishyourlordshiptounderstandthatwhatevercomestomyknowledgeconcerningyourproceedingsinregardtoher,IwillreporttoyourfatherifIseefit。“
  “Thewarningisunnecessary。Fewinformers,however,wouldhavegivenmetheadvantage,andIthankyou:sofarIamindebtedtoyou。Nonethelesstheshameoftheinformerremains!”
  “Yourlordship'sjudgmentofmeisnomoretomethanthatofyonrookupthere。“
  “Youdoubtmyhonour?”saidForguewithasneer。
  “Ido。Idoubtyou。Youdonotknowyourself。Timewillshow。ForGod'ssake,mylord,looktoyourself!Youareinterribledanger。“
  “Iwouldratherdowrongforlovethanrightforfear。Iscornsuchthreats。“
  “Threats,mylord!”echoedDonal。“Isitathreattowarnyouthatyourveryconsciousnessmaybecomeacursetoyou?thattoknowyourselfmaybeyourhell?thatyoumaycometomakeityourfirstcaretoforgetwhatyouare?DoyouknowwhatShaksperesaysofTarquin——
  Besides,hissoul'sfairtempleisdefaced;
  Towhoseweakruinsmustertroopsofcares,Toaskthespottedprincesshowshefares——?”
  “Oh,hangyourpreaching!”criedForgue,andturnedaway。
  “Mylord,“saidDonal,“ifyouwillnothearme,therearepreachersyoumust。“
  “Theywillnotbequitesolong-windedthen!”Forgueanswered。
  “Youareright,“saidDonal;“theywillnot。“
  AllForgue'sthoughtswerenowoccupiedwiththequestionhowwithleastdangerEppyandheweretomeet。Hedidnotcontemplatetreachery。Atthistimeofhislifehecouldnothaverespectedhimself,littleaswasrequiredforthat,hadhebeenconsciouslytreacherous;butnomanwhoinloveyetloveshimselfmore,issafefrombecomingatraitor:potentiallyheisonealready。Treacherytohimwhoisguiltyofitseemsonlynaturalself-preservation;themanwhocandoavilethingisincapableofseeingitasitis;andthatoughttomakeusdoubtfulofourjudgmentsofourselves,especiallydefensivejudgments。Forguedidnotsuspecthimself——notalthoughheknewthathispassionhadbutjustregainedalostenergy,revivedattheideaofanothermanhavingthegirl!Itdidnotshamehimthathehadbeguntoforgether,orthathehadbeensorousedtofreshdesire。Ifhehadstayedawaysixmonths,hewouldpracticallyhaveforgottenheraltogether。Somemaythinkthat,ifhehaddevotionenoughtosurmountthevulgaritiesofherpositionandmannersandwaysofthought,hislovecouldhardlybesuchastoyieldsosoon;butEppywasnotinherselfvulgar。Manyofevenhumblereducationthanshearefarlessreallyvulgarthansomeintheforefrontofsociety。NodoubttheconventionalitiesofamanlikeForguemusthavebeensometimesshockedinfamiliarintercoursewithonelikeEppy;butwhilehewasmerelyflirtingwithher,theverythingsthatshockedwouldalsoamusehim——forI
  needhardlysayhewasnotgenuinelyrefined;andbyandbythegrowingpassionobscuredthem。Thereisnodoubtthat,hadshebeenconfrontedashiswifewiththecommonpeopleofsociety,hewouldhavebecomeawareofmanythingsasvulgaritieswhichwereonlysimplicities;butinthemeantimeshewasnomorevulgartohimthanalamborababyisvulgar,howeverunfiteitherforaBelgraviandrawing-room。Vulgar,atthesametime,hewouldhavethoughtandfelther,butforthelovethatmadehimdoherjustice。Loveistheopeneraswellascloserofeyes。Butmenwho,havingseen,becomeblindagain,thinktheyhavehadtheireyesfinallyopened。
  ForsometimetherewasnochangeinEppy'sbehaviourbutthatshewasnottearfulasbefore。Shecontinueddiligent,nevergrumbledatthehardestwork,andseemeddesirousofmakingupforremissnessinthepast,whenintruthshewastryingtomakeupforsomethingelseinthepresent:shewouldatoneforwhatshewouldnottell,bydoingimmediatedutywiththegreaterdevotion。Butbyandbyshebeganoccasionallytoshow,bothinmannerandcountenance,alittleoftheoldpertness,mingledwithuneasiness。Thephenomenon,however,wassointermittentandunpronounced,astobemanifestonlytoeyesfamiliarwithherlooksandways:toDonalitwasclearthattherelationbetweenherandForguewasresumed。Yetsheneverwentoutintheeveningexceptsentbyhergrandmother,andthenshealwayscamehomeevenwithhaste——anxious,itmighthaveseemed,toavoidsuspicion。
  ItwasthecustomwithDonalandDavietogooftenintothefieldsandwoodsinthefineweather——theycalledthistheirobservationclass——tolearnwhattheymightofthemultitudinousgoingsoninthisorthatofNature'sworkshops:thereeachforhimselfandtheotherexercisedhisindividualpowersofseeingandnotingandputtingtogether。Donalknewlittleofwoodlandmatters,havingbeenchieflyaccustomedtomeadowsandbarehill-sides;yetinthewoodshewasthekeenerofthetwotoobserve,andcouldthebetterteachthathewasbutabetterlearner。
  Oneday,astheywerewalkingtogetherunderthethinshadeofafir-thicket,Daviesaid,withasuddenchangeofsubject——
  “IwonderifweshallmeetForgueto-day!hegetsupearlynow,andgoesout。Itisneithertofishnorshoot,forhedoesn'ttakehisrodorgun;hemustbewatchingorlookingforsomething!——Shouldn'tyousayso,Mr。Grant?”
  ThissetDonalthinking。Eppywasneveroutatnight,oronlyforafewminutes;andForguewentoutearlyinthemorning!ButifEppywouldmeethim,howcouldheoranyonehelpit?
  CHAPTERXLV。
  ALASTENCOUNTER。
  Nowforawhile,DonalseldomsawladyArctura,andwhenhedid,receivedfromhernoencouragementtoaddressher。Thetroubledlookhadreappearedonherface。Inhersmile,astheypassedinhallorcorridor,glimmeredanexpressionalmostpathetic——somethinglikeanappeal,asifshestoodinsoreneedofhishelp,butdarednotaskforit。ShewasagainmuchinthecompanyofMissCarmichael,andDonalhadgoodcausetofearthatthepharisaismofherwould-bedirectresswascomingdownuponherspirit,notlikerainonthemowngrass,butlikefrostonthespringflowers。TheimpossibilityofpiercingtheChristianphariseeholdingthetraditionsoftheelders,inanyvitalpart——sopachydermatousishetoanyspiritualargument——isasoretrialtotheoldAdamstillunslaininloversofthetruth。Atthesametimenothinggivespatiencebetteropportunityforherperfectwork。Anditiswelltheycannotbereachedbyargumentandsopersuaded;theywouldbutenterthecirclesofthefaithfultoworkfreshschismsandbreedfreshimposthumes。
  ButDonalhadbeguntothinkthathehadbeentooforbearingtowardsthehideousdoctrinesadvocatedbyMissCarmichael。Itisonethingwhereevildoctrinesarequietlyheld,andthetruthassociatedwiththemassimilatedbygoodpeopledoingtheirbestwithwhathasbeentaughtthem,andquiteanotherthingwheretheyareforceduponsomeshrinkingnature,weaktoresistthroughtheveryreverencewhichisitsexcellence。Thefinernature,frominabilitytothinkanotheroflesspureintentthanitself,isoftenatagreatdisadvantageinthehandsofthecoarser。Hemadeuphismindthat,riskasitwastoenterintodisputationswithaworshipperoftheletter,inasmuchasforargumenttheletterisimmeasurablymoreavailablethanthespirit——forwhilethespiritliesintheletterunperceived,ithasnoforce,andtheletter-worshipperisincapableofseeingthatGodcouldnotpossiblymeanwhathemakesofit——notwithstandingtherisk,heresolvedtoholdhimselfready,andifanythingwasgivenhim,tocryitoutandnotspare。Norhadhelongresolvederetheopportunitycame。
  IthadcometobeknownthatDonalfrequentedtheoldavenue,anditwaswithintent,intheprideofheracquaintancewithscripture,andherpowertouseit,thatMissCarmichaeloneafternoonledherunwilling,ratherrecusant,andveryunhappydisciplethither:shesoughtanencounterwithhim:hisinsolencetowardstheold-establishedfaithmustbeconfounded,hisobnoxiousinfluenceonArcturafrustrated!Itwasabrightautumnalday。Thetreesweresorelybereaved,butsomefoliageyethunginthinyellowcloudsupontheirpatientboughs。TherewasplentyofwhatDaviecalledscushlin,thatisthenoiseofwalkingwithscarceliftedfeetamongstthethick-lyingwitheredleaves。Butlessfoliagemeansmoresunlight。
  Donalwassaunteringalong,hisbookinhishand,nowandthenreadingalittle,nowandthenlookinguptothehalf-baredbranches,nowandthen,likeDavie,sweepingacloudofthefallenmultitudebeforehim。Hewasinthischildishactwhen,lookingup,hesawthetwoladiesapproaching;hedidnotseethepeculiarglanceMissCarmichaelthrewhercompanion:“Beholdyourprophet!”
  itsaid。Hewouldhavepassedwithliftedbonnet,butMissCarmichaelstopped,smiling:hersmilewasbrightbecauseitshowedhergoodteeth,butwasnotpleasantbecauseitshowednothingelse。
  “Gloryingoverthefallen,Mr。Grant?”shesaid。
  Donalinhisturnsmiled。
  “ThatisnotMr。Grant'sway,“saidArctura,“——sofaratleastasI
  haveknownhim!”
  “Howcarelessthetreesareoftheirpoorchildren!”saidMissCarmichael,affectingsympathyfortheleaves。
  “Pardonme,“saidDonal,“ifIgrudgethemyourpity:thereisnothingmoreofchildreninthoseleavesthanthereisinthehairthatfallsonthebarber'sfloor。“
  “Itisnotverygracioustopullaladyupsosharply!”returnedMissCarmichael,stillsmiling:“Ispokepoetically。“
  “Thereisnopoetryinwhatisnottrue,“rejoinedDonal。“Thosearenotthechildrenofthetree。“
  “Ofcourse,“saidMissCarmichael,alittlesurprisedtofindtheirfoilscrossedalready,“atreehasnochildren!but——“
  “Atreenochildren!”exclaimedDonal。“Whatthenareallthosebeech-nutsundertheleaves?Aretheynotthechildrenofthetree?”
  “Yes;andlostliketheleaves!”sighedMissCarmichael。
  “Whydoyousaytheyarelost?Theymustfulfiltheendforwhichtheyweremade,andifso,theycannotbelost。“
  “Forwhatendweretheymade?”
  “Idonotknow。Iftheyallgrewup,theywouldbeagooddealintheway。“
  “Thenyousaytherearemoreseedsthanarerequired?”
  “HowcouldI,whenIdonotknowwhattheyarerequiredfor?HowcanItellthatitisnotnecessaryforthelifeofthetreethatitshouldproducethemall,andnecessarytooforthegroundtoreceivesomuchlife-rentfromthetree!”
  “Butyoumustadmitthatsomethingsarelost!”
  “Yes,surely!”answeredDonal。“Whyelseshouldhecomeandlooktillhefind?”
  Nosuchanswerhadthetheologianexpected;shewasnotimmediatewithherrejoinder。
  “Butsomeofthemarelostafterall!”shesaid。
  “Doubtless;therearesheepthatwillkeeprunningaway。Buthegoesafterthemagain。“
  “Hewillnotdothatforever!”
  “Hewill。“
  “Idonotbelieveit。“
  “ThenyoudonotbelievethatGodisinfinite!”
  “Ido。“
  “Howcanyou?IshenottheLordGodmercifulandgracious?”
  “Iamgladyouknowthat。“
  “Butifhismercyandhisgraciousnessarenotinfinite,thenheisnotinfinite!”
  “Thereareotherattributesinwhichheisinfinite。“
  “Butheisnotinfiniteinallhisattributes?Heispartlyinfinite,andpartlyfinite!——infiniteinknowledgeandpower,butinlove,inforgiveness,inallthosethingswhicharethemostbeautiful,themostdivine,themostChrist-like,heisfinite,measurable,bounded,small!”
  “Icarenothingforsuchfinitereasoning。Itakethewordofinspiration,andgobythat!”
  “Letmehearthen,“saidDonal,withanupliftingofhisheartinprayer;foritseemednolightthingforArcturawhichofthemshouldshowthebetterreason。
  NowithadsofallenthattheladiesweretalkingaboutthedoctrinecalledAdoptionwhenfirsttheysawDonal;whencethisdoctrinewasthefirsttooccurtothechampionoforthodoxyasaweaponwherewithtofoiltheenemy。
  “Themostpreciousdoctrine,ifonemaysayso,inthewholeBible,isthatofAdoption。GodbythemouthofhisapostlePaultellsusthatGodadoptssomeforhischildren,andleavestherest。Ifbecauseofthisyousayheisnotinfiniteinmercy,whentheBiblesaysheis,youareguiltyofblasphemy。“
  Inatonecalmtosolemnity,Donalanswered——
  “God'smercyisinfinite;andthedoctrineofAdoptionisoneofthefalsestoffalsedoctrines。InbitterlackofthespiritwherebywecryAbba,Father,theso-calledChurchinventedit;anditremains,ahideousmaskwherewithfalseandignorantteachersscareGod'schildrenfromtheirFather'sarms。“
  “Ihatesentiment——mostofallinreligion!”saidMissCarmichaelwithcontempt。
  “Youshallhavenone,“returnedDonal。“TellmewhatismeantbyAdoption。“
  “Thetakingofchildren,“answeredMissCarmichael,alreadyspyingarockahead,“andtreatingthemasyourown。“
  “Whosechildren?”askedDonal。
  “Anyone's。“
  “Whose,“insistedDonal,“arethechildrenwhomGodadopts?”
  Shewasontherock,andalittlestaggered。Butshepulledupcourageandsaid——
  “ThechildrenofSatan。“
  “Thenhowaretheytobeblamedfordoingthedeedsoftheirfather?”
  “YouknowverywellwhatImean!Satandidnotmakethem。Godmadethem,buttheysinnedandfell。“
  “ThendidGodrepudiatethem?”
  “Yes。“
  “Andtheybecamethechildrenofanother?”
  “Yes,ofSatan。“
  “ThenGoddisownshischildren,andwhentheyarethechildrenofanother,adoptsthem?MissCarmichael,itistoofoolish!Wouldthatbelikeafather?Becausehischildrendonotpleasehim,herepudiatesthemaltogether;andthenhewantsthemagain——notashisown,butasthechildrenofastranger,whomhewilladopt!Theoriginalrelationshipisnolongerofanyforce——hasnoweightevenwiththeirveryownfather!Whatgroundcouldsuchaparenthavetocomplainofhischildren?”
  “YoudarenotsaythewickedarethechildrenofGodthesameasthegood。“
  “Thatbefarfromme!ThosewhodothewillofGodareinfinitelymorehischildrenthanthosewhodonot;theyarebornoftheinnermostheartofGod;theyarethenofthenatureofJesusChrist,whosegloryisobedience。Butiftheywerenotinthefirstplace,andinthemostprofoundfact,thechildrenofGod,theycouldneverbecomehischildreninthathigher,thathighestsense,byanyfictionofadoption。Doyouthinkifthedevilcouldcreate,hischildrencouldeverbecomethechildrenofGod?ButyouandI,andeverypharisee,publican,andsinnerintheworld,areequallythechildrenofGodtobeginwith。Thatistherootofallthemiseryandallthehope。Becausewearehischildren,wemustbecomehischildreninheartandsoul,orbeforeverwretched。Ifweceasedtobehis,iftherelationbetweenusweredestroyed,whichisimpossible,noredemptionwouldbepossible,therewouldbenothinglefttoredeem。“
  “Youmaytalkasyouseefit,Mr。Grant,butwhilePaulteachesthedoctrine,Iwillholdit;hemayperhapsknowalittlebetterthanyou。“
  “Paulteachesnosuchdoctrine。HeteachesjustwhatIhavebeensaying。Thewordtranslatedadoption,heusesfortheraisingofonewhoisasontothetruepositionofason。“
  “Thepresumptioninyoutosaywhattheapostledidordidnotmean!”
  “Why,MissCarmichael,doyouthinkthegospelcomestousasasetoffools?Isthereanywayoftrulyorworthilyreceivingamessagewithoutunderstandingit?Amessageissentfortheverysakeofbeinginsomemeasureatleastunderstood。Withoutthatitwouldbenomessageatall。Iamboundbythewillandexpresscommandofthemastertounderstandthethingshesaystome。Hecommandsmetoseetheirrectitude,becausetheybeingtrue,Ioughttobeabletoseethemtrue。Inthehopeofseeingashewouldhavemesee,IreadmyGreekTestamenteveryday。ButitisnotnecessarytoknowGreektoseewhatPaulmeansbytheso-translatedadoption。Youhaveonlytoconsiderhiswordswithintenttofindouthismeaning,andwithoutintenttofindinthemtheteachingofthisorthatdoctorofdivinity。IntheepistletotheGalatians,whosechilddoeshespeakofasadopted?Itisthefather'sownchild,hisheir,whodiffersnothingfromaslaveuntilheentersuponhistruerelationtohisfather——thefullstatusofason。Soalso,inanotherpassage,bythesamewordhemeanstheredemptionofthebody——itspassingintothehigherconditionofoutwardthings,intoaconditioninitself,andahomearoundit,fitforthesonsanddaughtersofGod——thatwebenomorelikestrangers,butlikewhatweare,thechildrenofthehouse。TouseanywordofPaul'stomakehumanbeingfeelasifhewerenotbybirth,making,origin,orwhateverwordofcloserimportcanbefound,thechildofGod,orasifanythinghehaddoneorcoulddocouldannulthatrelationship,isofthedevil,thefatherofevil,noteitherofPaulorofChrist——Why,mylady,“continuedDonal,turningtoArctura,“alltheevilliesinthis——thatheisourfatherandwearenothischildren。Tofulfilthepoorestnecessitiesofourbeing,wemustbehischildreninbrainandheart,inbodyandsoulandspirit,inobedienceandhopeandgladnessandlove——hisoutandout,beyondallthattonguecansay,mindthink,orheartdesire。Thenonlyisourcreationfinished——thenonlyarewewhatweweremadetobe。Thisisthatforthesakeofwhichwearetroubledonallsides。“
  Heceased。MissCarmichaelwasintellectuallycowed,butherheartwasnowisetouched。ShehadneverhadthatlongingafterclosestrelationwithGodwhichsendsusfeelingafterthefather。Butnow,takingcourageundertheovershadowingwingofthedivine,Arcturaspoke。
  “Idohopewhatyousayistrue,Mr。Grant!”shesaidwithalongingsigh。
  “Ohyes,hope!weallhope!Butitisthewordwehavetodowith!”
  saidMissCarmichael。
  “Ihavegivenyouthetruthofthisword!”saidDonal。
  Butasifsheheardneitherofthem,Arcturawenton,“Ifitwerebuttrue!”shemoaned。“Itwouldsetrighteverythingonthefaceoftheearth!”
  “Youmeanfarmorethanthat,mylady!”saidDonal。“Youmeaneverythinginthehumanheart,whichwilltoalleternitykeepmoaningandcryingoutfortheFatherofit,untilitisonewithitsonerelation!”
  Heliftedhisbonnet,andwouldhavepassedon。
  “Oneword,Mr。Grant,“saidMissCarmichael。“——NomanholdingsuchdoctrinescouldwithhonestybecomeaclergymanofthechurchofScotland。“
  “Verylikely,“repliedDonal,“Goodafternoon。“
  “Thankyou,Mr。Grant!”saidArctura。“Ihopeyouareright。“
  Whenhewasgone,theladiesresumedtheirwalkinsilence。AtlengthMissCarmichaelspoke。
  “Well,Imustsay,ofalltheconceitedyoungmenIhavehadthemisfortunetomeet,yourMr。Grantbearsthepalm!Suchself-assurance!suchpresumption!suchforwardness!”
  “Areyoucertain,Sophia,“rejoinedArctura,“thatitisself-assurance,andnotconvictionthatgiveshimhiscourage?”
  “Heisateacheroflies!Hegoesdeadagainstallthatgoodmensayandbelieve!Thethingisasclearasdaylight:heisaltogetherwrong!”
  “WhatifGodbesendingfreshlightintothemindsofhispeople?”
  “Theoldlightisgoodenoughforme!”
  “ButitmaynotbegoodenoughforGod!WhatifMr。Grantshouldbehismessengertoyouandme!”
  “Alikelything!ArawstudentfromthehillsofDaurside!”
  “Icherishaprofoundhopethathemaybeintheright。Muchgood,youknow,didcomeoutofGalilee!Everyplaceandeverypersonisdespisedbysomebody!”
  “Arctura!Hehasinfectedyouwithhisfrightfulirreverence!”
  “IfhebeamessengerofJesusChrist,“saidArctura,quietly,“hehashadfromyouthereceptionhewouldexpect,forthedisciplemustbeashismaster。“
  MissCarmichaelstoodstillabruptly。Herfacewasinaflame,butherwordscamecoldandhard。
  “Iamsorry,“shesaid,“ourfriendshipshouldcometosoharshaconclusion,ladyArctura;butitistimeitshouldendwhenyouspeaksotoonewhohasbeendoingherbestforsolongtoenlightenyou!Ifthisbethefirstresultofyournewgospel——well!Rememberwhosaid,'IfanangelfromheavenpreachanyothergospeltoyouthanIhavepreached,lethimbeaccursed!”
  Sheturnedback。
  “Oh,Sophia,donotleavemeso!”criedArctura。
  Butshewasalreadyyardsaway,herskirtmakingasmallwhirlwindthatwentafterherthroughthewitheredleaves。Arcturaburstintotears,andsatdownatthefootofoneofthegreatbeeches。MissCarmichaelneverlookedbehindher。ShemetDonalagain,forhetoohadturned:heuncovered,butshetooknoheed。Shehaddonewithhim!HerpoorArctura。
  Donalwaswalkinggentlyon,thinking,withclosedbook,whenthewindboretohisearalowsobfromArctura。Helookedup,andsawher:shesatweepinglikeonerejected。Hecouldnotpassorturnandleaveherthus!Sheheardhisstepsinthewitheredleaves,glancedup,droppedherheadforamoment,thenrosewithafeebleattemptatasmile。Donalunderstoodthesmile:shewouldnothavehimtroubledbecauseofwhathadtakenplace!
  “Mr。Grant,“shesaid,comingtowardshim,“St。Paullaidacurseuponevenanangelfromheavenifhepreachedanyothergospelthanhis!Itisterrible!”
  “Itisterrible,andIsayamentoitwithallmyheart,“returnedDonal。“ButthegospelyouhavereceivedisnotthegospelofPaul;
  itisonesubstitutedforit——andthatbynoangelfromheaven,butbymenwithhide-boundsouls,who,inordertogetthemintotheirownintellectualpockets,melteddowntheingotsofthekingdom,andre-casttheminmouldsofwretchedlegalism,borrowedoftheRomanswhocrucifiedtheirmaster。Grand,childlike,heavenlythingstheymustexplain,forsooth,aftervulgarworldlynotionsoflawandright!Buttheymeantwell,seekingtojustifythewaysofGodtomen,thereforethecurseoftheapostledoesnotfall,Ithink,uponthem。Theysoughtawayoutoftheirdifficulties,andthoughttheyhadfoundone,wheninrealityitwastheirfaithinGodhimselfthatalonegotthemoutoftheprisonoftheirtheories。ButgladlywouldIseediscomfitedsuchas,receivingthoseinventionsatthehundredthhand,andmovedbynoneofthefervourwithwhichtheywerefirstpromulgated,lay,asthewordandwillofGod,lumpsofironandheapsofdustuponlive,beating,longingheartsthatcryoutaftertheirGod!”
  “Oh,Idohopewhatyousayistrue!”pantedArctura。“IthinkI
  shalldieifIfinditisnot!”
  “IfyoufindwhatItellyouuntrue,itwillonlybethatitisnotgrandandfreeandbounteousenough。Tothinkanythingtoogoodtobetrue,istodenyGod——tosaytheuntruemaybebetterthanthetrue——thattheremightbeagreaterGodthanhe。Remember,Christisintheworldstill,andwithinourcall。“
  “Iwillthinkofwhatyoutellme,“saidArctura,holdingoutherhand。
  “Ifanythinginparticulartroublesyou,“saidDonal,“IshallbemostgladtohelpyouifIcan;butitisbetterthereshouldnotbemuchtalking。ThethingliesbetweenyouandyourFather。“
  Withthesewordshelefther。Arcturafollowedslowlytothehouse,andwentstraighttoherroom,hermindfillingasshewentwithslow-revivingstrengthandagreathope。Nodoubtsomeofherreliefcamefromthedepartureofherincubusfriend;butthatmustsoonhavevanishedinfreshsorrow,saveforthehopeandstrengthtowhichthisdepartureyieldedtheroom。Shetrustedthatbythetimeshesawheragainshewouldbemorefirmlygroundedconcerningmanythings,andabletosetthemfortharight。Shewasnotyetfreeofthenotionthatyoumustbeabletodefendyourconvictions;shescarcefeltatlibertytosayshebelievedathing,solongassheknewanargumentagainstitwhichshecouldnotshowtobefalse。