Theyallheardthewailingcryoftheghost-music。Butwhiletheblastcontinuedtheydarednotpursuetheirhunt。Itkeptoninfitsandguststillthesquallceased——assuddenlyalmostasithadburst。Theskycleared,andthesunshoneasaMarchsuncan。Buttheblunderingblastsandtheswan-shotoftheflyinghailwereallaboutstill。
“Whenthestormisuponus,“remarkedDonal,astheyrosefromtheircrouchingposition,“itseemsasiftherenevercouldbesunshinemore;butourhopelessnessdoesnotkeepbackthesunwhenhishourtoshineiscome。“
“Iunderstand!”saidArctura:“whenoneismiserable,miseryseemsthelawofbeing;andinthemidstofitdwellssomethoughtwhichnothingcaneversetright!Allatonceitisgone,brokenupandgone,likethathail-cloud。Itjustlooksitsownfoolishnessandvanishes。“
“Doyouknowwhythingssooftencomeright?”saidDonal。“——Iwouldsayalwayscomeright,butthatismatteroffaith,notsight。“
Arcturadidnotansweratonce。
“IthinkIknowwhatyouarethinking,“shesaid,“butIwanttohearyouansweryourownquestion。“
“Whydothingscomerightsooften,doyouthink,Davie?”repeatedDonal。
“Isit,“returnedDavie,“becausetheyweremaderighttobeginwith?”
“Thereismuchinthat,Davie;butthereisabetterreasonthanthat。Itisbecausethingsarealive,andthelifeattheheartofthem,thatwhichkeepsthemgoing,isthegreat,beautifulGod。Sothesunforeverreturnsaftertheclouds。Adoubtingman,likehimwhowrotethebookofEcclesiasties,putstheevillast,andsays'thecloudsreturnaftertherain;'buttheChristianknowsthatOnehasmasteryWhomakesthejoythelastineverysong。“
“Youspeaklikeonewhohassuffered!”saidArctura,withakindlookinhisface。
“Whohasnotthatlives?”
“Itishowyouareabletohelpothers!”
“AmIabletohelpothers?Iamverygladtohearit。Myambitionwouldbetohelp,ifIhadanyambition。ButifIamable,itisbecauseIhavebeenhelpedmyself,notbecauseIhavesuffered。“
“Willyoutellmewhatyoumeanbysayingyouhavenoambition?”
“Whereyourworkislaidoutforyou,thereisnoroomforambition:
youhavegotyourworktodo!——Butgivemeyourhand,mylady;putyourotherhandonmyshoulder。Youstopthere,Davie,anddon'tmovetillIcometoyou。Now,mylady——alittlejump!That'sit!Nowyouaresafe!——Youwerenotafraid,wereyou?”
“Notintheleast。Butdidyoucomehereinthedark?”
“Yes。Thereisthisadvantageinthedark:youdonotseehowdangerousthewayis。Wetakethedarknessaboutusforthesourceofourdifficulties:itisagreatmistake。ChristianwouldhardlyhavedaredgothroughtheValleyoftheShadowofDeath,hadhenothadtheshieldofthedarknessallabouthim。“
“Canthedarknessbeashield?Isitnottheevilthing?”
“Yes,thedarkthatiswithinus——thedarkofdistrustandunwillingness,butnottheoutsidedarkofmerehumanignorance。
Wherewedonotsee,weareprotected。Wherewearemostignorantandmostindanger,isinthosethingsthataffectthelifeofGodinus:theretheFatheriseverymomentwatchinghischild。Ifhewerenotconstantlypardoningandpunishingoursins,whatwouldbecomeofus!Wemustlearntotrusthimaboutourfaultsasmuchasabouteverythingelse!”
Intheearnestnessofhistalkhehadstopped,butnowturnedandwenton。
“Thereismyland-,orroof-markrather!”hesaid,“——thatchimney-stack!ClosebyitIheardthemusicverynearmeindeed——whenallatoncethedarknessandthewindcametogethersothickthatIcoulddonothingmore。Weshalldobetternowinthedaylight——andthreeofusinsteadofone!”
“Whatahugeblockofchimneys!”saidArctura。
“Isitnot!”returnedDonal。“Itindicatesthehugenessofthebuildingbelowus,ofwhichwecanseesolittle。Likethevolcanoesoftheworld,ittellsushowmuchfireisnecessarytokeepourdwellingwarm。“
“Ithoughtitwasthesunthatkepttheearthwarm,“saidDavie。
“Soitis,butnotthesunalone。Theearthislikeaman:thegreatglowingfireisGodintheheartoftheearth,andthegreatsunisGodinthesky,keepingitwarmontheotherside。Ourgladnessandpleasure,ourtroublewhenwedowrong,ourloveforallaboutus,thatisGodinsideus;andthebeautifulthingsandlovablepeople,andallthelessonsoflifeinhistoryandpoetry,intheBible,andinwhatevercomestous,isGodoutsideofus。EverylifeisbetweentwogreatfiresoftheloveofGod。Solongaswedonotgiveourselvesupheartilytohim,wefearhisfirewillburnus。Andburnusitdoeswhenwegoagainstitsflamesandnotwiththem,refusingtoburnwiththefirewithwhichGodisalwaysburning。
Whenwetrytoputitout,oropposeit,orgetawayfromit,thenindeeditburns!”
“IthinkIknow,“saidDavie。
Arcturaheldherpeace。
“Butnow,“saidDonal,“Imustgoroundandhaveapeepattheothersideofthechimney-stack。“
Hedisappeared,andArcturaandDaviestoodwaitinghisreturn。Theylookedeachintheother'sfacewiththedelightofconsciouslysharingagreatadventure。Beyondtheirfeetlaythewidecountryandthegreatsea;overthemtheskywiththesuninitgoingdowntowardsthemountains;undertheirfeetthemightyoldpilethatwastheirhome;andunderthattheearthwithitsmoltenheartoffire。
ButDavie'slooksoonchangedtooneoftriumphinhistutor。“Isisnotgrand,“itsaid,“tobealldaywithamanlikethat——talkingtoyouandteachingyou?”ThatatleastwashowArcturainterpretedit,readinginitalmostanassertionofsuperiority,inasmuchasthismanwashistutorandnothers。Sherepliedtothelookinwords:——
“Iamhispupil,too,Davie,“shesaid,“thoughMr。Grantdoesnotknowit。“
“Howcanthatbe,“answeredDavie,“whenyouareafraidofhim?Iamnotabitafraidofhim!”
“HowdoyouknowIamafraidofhim?”sheasked。
“Oh,anybodycouldseethat!”
Shewasafraidshehadspokenfoolishly,andDaviemightrepeatherwords:shedidnotdesiretohastenfurtherintimacywithDonal;
thingsweregoinginthatdirectionfastenough!Hereyes,avoidingDavie's,keptreconnoitringthestackofchimneys。
“Aren'tyougladtohavesuchacastleallforyourown——todowhatyoulikewith,Arkie?Youknowyoucouldpullitalltopiecesifyouliked!”
“Woulditbelessmine,“saidArctura,“ifIwasnotatlibertytopullitalltopieces?AndwoulditbemoreminewhenIhadpulledittopieces,Davie?”
Donalwascomingroundthesideofthestack,andheardwhatshesaid。Itpleasedhim,foritwasnotalittleinhisownstyle。
“Whatmakesathingyourown,doyouthink,Davie?”shewenton。
“Tobeabletodowithitwhatyoulike,“repliedDavie。
“Whetherthatbegoodorbad?”
“Yes,Ithinkso,“answeredDavie,doubtfully。
“ThenIthinkyouarequitewrong,“sherejoined。“Themomentyoubegintouseathingwrong,thatmomentyoumakeitlessyours。I
can'tquiteexplainit,butthatishowitlookstome。“
Sheceased,andafteramomentDonaltookupthequestion。
“LadyArcturaisquiteright,Davie,“hesaid。“Thenature,thatisthegoodofathing,isthatonlybywhichitcanbepossessed。Anyotherpossessionislikeslave-owning;itisnotarighteoushaving。
Therightandthepowertouseittoitstruepurpose,andtheusingitso,aretheconditionsthatmakeathingours。Tohavetherightandthepower,andnotuseitso,wouldbetomakethethinglessoursthananybody's——Supposeyouhadaverybeautifulpicture,butfromsomedefectinyoursightyoucouldneverseethatpictureasitreallywas,whileaservantinyourhousenotonlysawitasitwasmeanttobeseen,buthadsuchdelightingazingonit,thateveninhisdreamsitcametohim,andmadehimthinkofthingshewouldnothavethoughtofbutforit:——whichofyou,youortheservantinyourhouse,wouldhavethemorerealpossessionofthatpicture?Youcouldsellitawayfromyourself,andneverknowanythingaboutitmore;butyoucouldnotbyallthepowerofatyranttakeitfromyourservant。“
“Ah,nowIunderstand!”saidDavie,withalookatladyArcturawhichseemedtosay,“YouseehowMr。Grantcanmakemeunderstand!”
“Iwonder,“saidladyArctura,“whatthatcuriousopeninginthesideofthechimney-stackmeans!Itcan'tbeforsmoketocomeoutat!”
“No,“saidDonal;“thereisnotamarkofsmokeaboutit。Ifithadbeenmeantforthat,itwouldhardlyhavebeenputhalf-wayfromthetop!Ican'tmakeitout!Aholelikethatinanychimneymustsurelyinterferewiththedraught!Imustgetaladder!”
“Letmeclimbonyourshoulders,Mr。Grant,“saidDavie。
“Comethen;upyougo!”saidDonal。
AndupwentDavie,andpeepedintothehorizontalslit。
“Itlooksverylikeachimney,“hesaid,turninghisheadandthrustingitinsideways。“Itgoesrightdowntosomewhere,“headded,bringinghisheadoutagain,“butthereissomethingacrossitalittlewaydown——topreventthejackdawsfromtumblingin,I
suppose。“
“Whatisit?”askedDonal。
“Somethinglikeagrating,“answeredDavie;“——no,notagratingexactly;itiswhatyoumightcallagrating,butitseemsmadeofwires。Idon'tthinkitwouldkeepastrongbirdoutifhewantedtogetin。“
“Aha!”saidDonaltohimself;“whatifthosewiresbetuned!Didyoueverseeanaeolianharp,mylady?”heasked:“Ineverdid。“
“Yes,“answeredladyArctura,“——once,whenIwasalittlegirl。Andnowyousuggestit,Ithinkthesoundsweheararenotunlikethoseofanaeolianharp!Thestringsareallthesamelength,ifI
remember。ButIdonotunderstandtheprinciple。Theyseemalltoplaytogether,andmakethestrangest,wildestharmonies,whenthewindblowsacrosstheminaparticularway。“
“Ifancythenwehavefoundthenestofourmusic-bird!”saidDonal。
“ThewiresDaviespeaksofmaybethestringsofanaeolianharp!I
wonderiftherecouldbeadraughtacrossthem!Imustgetupandsee!Imustgoandgetaladder!”
“Buthowcouldtherebeanaeolianharpuphere?”saidArctura。
“Itwillbetimeenoughtoanswerthatquestion,“repliedDonal,“whenitchangesto,'Howdidanaeolianharpgetuphere?'
Somethingisherethatwantsaccountingfor:itmaybeanaeolianharp!”
“Butinachimney!Thesootwouldspoilthestrings!”
“Thenperhapsitisnotachimney:isthereanysignofsootabout,Davie?”
“No,sir;thereisnothingbutcleanstoneandlime。“
“Yousee,mylady!Wedonotevenknowthatitisachimney!”
“Whatelsecanitbe,standingwiththerest?”
“Itmayhavebeenbuiltforone;butifithadeverbeenusedforone,themarksofsmokewouldremain,haditbeendisusedeversolong。Butto-morrowIwillbringupaladder。“
“Couldyounotdoitnow?”saidArctura,almostcoaxingly。“Ishouldsoliketohavethethingsettled!”
“Asyouplease,mylady!Iwillgoatonce。Thereisoneleaningagainstthegarden-wall,notfarfromthebottomofthetower。“
“Ifyoudonotmindthetrouble!”
“Iwillcomeandhelp,“saidDavie。
“Youmustn'tleaveladyArctura。IamnotsureifIcangetitupthestair;Iamafraiditistoolong。IfIcannot,wewillhaulitupaswedidthecoal。“
Hewent,andthecousinssatdowntowaithisreturn。Itwasacoldevening,butArcturawaswellwraptup,andDaviewashardy。Theysatatthefootofthechimney-stack,andbegantotalk。
“Itissuchalongtimesinceyoutoldmeanything,Arkie!”saidtheboy。
“Youdonotneedmenowtotellyouanything:youhaveMr。Grant!
Youlikehimmuchbetterthaneveryoudidme!”
“Yousee,“saidDavie,thoughtfully,andmakingnodefenceagainstherhalf-reproach,“hebeganbymakingmeafraidofhim——notthathemeanttodoit,Ithink!heonlymeantthatIshoulddowhathetoldme:Iwasneverafraidofyou,Arkie!”
“IwasmuchcrossertoyouthanMr。Grant,Iamsure!”
“Mr。Grantisnevercrosstome;andifeveryouwere,I'veforgottenit,Arkie。IonlyrememberthatIwasnotgoodtoyou。I
amsorryforitnowwhenIlieawakeinbed;butIsaytomyselfyouforgiveme,andgotosleep。“
“WhatmakesyouthinkIforgiveyou,Davie?”
“BecauseIloveyou。“
Thiswasnotverylogical,andsetArcturathinking。Shedidnotforgivetheboybecausehelovedher;buttheboy'slovetohermightmakehimsuresheforgavehim!Loveisitsownjustification,andseesitselfinallitsobjects:forgivenessisanessentialbelongingoflove,andmustbeseenwhereloveisseen。
“Areyoufondofmybrother?”askedDavie,afterapause。
“Whydoyouaskme?”
“Becausetheysayyouandhearegoingtobemarriedsomeday,yetyoudon'tseemtocaremuchtobetogether。“
“Itisallnonsense!”repliedArctura,reddening。“Iwishpeoplewouldnottalkfoolishness!”
“Well,Idothinkhe'snotsofondofyouasofEppy!”
“Hush!hush!youmustnotspeakofsuchthing。“
“IsawhimoncekissEppy,andIneversawhimkissyou!”
“No,indeed!”
“IsitrightofForgue,ifhe'sgoingtomarryyou,tokissEppy?——That'swhatIwanttoknow!”
“Heisnotgoingtomarryme。“
“Hewould,ifyoutoldhimyouwishedit。Papawishesit。“
“Howdoyouknowthat?”
“Frommanything。OnceIheardhimsay,'Afterwards,whenthehouseisourown,'andIaskedhimwhathemeant,andhesaid,'WhenForguemarriesArctura,thenthecastlewillbeForgue's。Thatishowitoughttobe,youknow!Propertyandtitleoughtnevertobeparted。'“
ThehotbloodrosetoArctura'stemples:wassheamerewrappagetoherproperty——thepaperoftheparcel!Butshecalledtomindhowstrangeherunclewas:butforthatcouldhehavebeensoimprudentastotalkinsuchawaytoaboywhosesimplicityrenderedtheconfidencedangerous?
“Youwouldnotlikehavingtogiveawayyourcastle——wouldyou,Arkie?”hewenton。
“NottoanyoneIdidnotlove。“
“IfIwereyou,Iwouldnotmarry,butkeepmycastletomyself。I
don'tseewhyForgueshouldhaveyourcastle!”
“YouthinkIshouldmakemycastlemyhusband?”
“Hewouldbeagoodbighusbandanyhow,andastrong——onetodefendyoufromyourenemies,andnottalktoyouwhenyouwantedtobequiet。“
“Thatisalltrue;butonemightgetwearyofastupidhusband,howeverbigandstronghewas。“
“There'sanotherthing,though!——hewouldn'tbeacruelhusband!
I'veheardpapaoftenspeakaboutsomecruelhusband!Ifanciedsometimeshemeanthimself;butthatcouldnotbe,youknow。“
Arcturamadenoreply。Allbutvanishedmemoriesofthingsshehadheard,hintsandsignshereandtherethatallwasnotrightbetweenheruncleandaunt,vaguelyreturned:coulditbethathenowrepentedofharshnesstohiswife,thatthethoughtofitwaspreyinguponhim,thatitdrovehimtohisdrugsforforgetfulness?——Butinthepresenceoftheboyshecouldnotgoonthinkinginsuchadirectionabouthisfather。ShefeltrelievedbythereturnofDonal。
Hehadfounditratherdifficulttogettheladderroundthesharpcurvesofthestair;butatlasttheysawhimwithitonhisshouldercomingoveradistantroof。
“Nowweshallsee!”hesaid,asheleaneditupagainstthechimney,andstoodpanting。
“Youhavetiredyourself!”saidladyArctura。
“Where'stheharm,mylady?Amanmustgettiredafewtimesbeforeheliesdown!”rejoinedDonaldlightly。
SaidDavie,“Mustawoman,Mr。Grant,marryamanshedoesnotlove?”
“No,certainly,Davie。“
“Mr。Grant,“saidArctura,indreadofwhatDaviemightsaynext,“whatdoyoutaketobethedutyofoneinheritingaproperty?Oughtawomantogetridofit,orattendtoitherself?”
Donalthoughtalittle。
“Wemustfirstsettlethemaindutyofproperty,“hesaid;“andthatIamhardlypreparedtodo。“
“Istherenotadutyowingtoyourfamily?”
“Thereareathousanddutiesowingtoyourfamily。“
“Idon'tmeanthoseyouarelivingwithmerely,butthosealsowhotransmittedthepropertytoyou。Thispropertybelongstomyfamilyratherthantome,andifIhadhadabrotheritwouldhavegonetohim:shouldInotdobetterforthefamilybygivingituptothenextheir?Iamnotdisinterestedinstartingthequestion;
possessionandpowerareofnogreatimportanceinmyeyes;theyarehindrancestome。“
“Itseemstome,“saidDonal,“thatthefactthatyouwouldnothavesucceededhadtherebeenason,pointstothefactofadisposerofevents:youweresentintotheworldtotaketheproperty。Ifso,Godexpectsyoutoperformthedutiesofit;theyarenottobegotridofbythrowingthethingaside,orgivingthemtoanothertodoforyou。IfyourfamilyandnotGodweretherealgiveroftheproperty,thequestionyouputmightarise;butIshouldhardlytakeinterestenoughinittobecapableofdiscussingit。Iunderstandmydutytomysheeporcattle,tomymaster,tomyfatherormother,tomybrotherorsister,tomypupilDaviehere;Iowemyancestorsloveandhonour,andthekeepingoftheirnameunspotted,thoughthatdutyisforestalledbyahigher;butastothepropertytheyleavebehindthem,overwhichtheyhavenomorepower,andwhichnowItrusttheyneverthinkabout,IdonotseewhatobligationIcanbeundertothemwithregardtoit,otherthaniscomprisedinthedutiesofthepropertyitself。“
“Butafamilyisnotmerelythosethataregonebefore;therearethosethatwillcomeafter!”
“Thebestthingforthosetocomeafter,istoreceivethepropertywithitsdutiesperformed,withthelightofrighteousnessradiatingfromit。“
“Butwhatthendoyoucallthedutiesofproperty?”
“Inwhatdoesthepropertyconsist?”
“Inland,tobeginwith。“
“Ifthelandwereofnovalue,wouldthepossessionofitinvolveduties?”
“Isupposenot。“
“Inwhatdoesthevalueofthelandconsist?”
LadyArcturadidnotattemptananswertothequestion,andDonal,afteralittlepause,resumed。
“Ifyouvaluedthingsastheworldvaluesthem,Ishouldnotcaretoputthequestion;butIfearyoumayhavesomelingeringnotionthat,thoughGod'swayisthetrueway,theworld'swaymustnotbedisregarded。Onething,however,iscertain——thatnothingthatisagainstGod'swaycanbetrue。Thevalueofpropertyconsistsonlyinitsbeingmeans,ground,ormaterialtoworkhiswillwithal。
Thereisnosuccessintheuniversebutinhiswillbeingdone。“
Arcturawassilent。Shehadinheritedprejudiceswhich,whileshehatedselfishness,wereyetthoroughlyselfish。Suchareoftheevilsinushardesttogetridof。Theyareevencherishedforalifetimebysomeoftheotherwiseloveliestofsouls。Knowingthathereinmuchthoughtwouldbenecessaryforher,andthatshewouldthink,Donalwentnofarther:ahousemusthaveitsfoundationsettledbeforeitisbuiltupon;argumentwherethegroundsofitareatallindisputeisworsethanuseless。
Heturnedtohisladder,setitright,mounted,andpeeredintotheopening。AtthelengthofhisarmhecouldreachthewiresDaviehaddescribed:theyweretaut,andfreeofrust——werethereforenotironorsteel。Hesawalsothatalittledowntheshaftafaintlightcameinfromtheoppositeside:therewasanotheropeningsomewhere!
Nexthesawthateachfollowingstring——forstringshealreadycountedthem——wasplacedalittlelowerthanthatbeforeit,sothattheirsuccessionwasinclinedtotheothersideoftheshaft——apparentlyinaplanebetweenthetwoopenings,thatadraughtmightpassalongtheirplane:thismustsurelybetheinstrumentwhencethemusicflowed!Hedescended。
“Doyouknow,mylady,“heaskedArctura,“howtheaeolianharpisplacedforthewindtowakeit?”
“TheonlyoneIhaveseen,“sheanswered,“wasmadetofitintoawindow;thelowersashwasopenedjustwideenoughtoletitin,sothatthewindenteringmustpassacrossthestrings。“
ThenDonalwasallbutcertain。
“Ofcourse,“hesaid,afterdescribingwhathehadseen,“wecannotbeabsolutelysurewithouthavingbeenherewiththemusic,andhavingexperimentedbycoveringanduncoveringtheopening;andforthatwemustwaitasouth-easterlywind。“
CHAPTERXLII。
COMMUNISM。
ButDonaldidnotfeelthateventhenwouldhehaveexhaustedthelikelihoodofdiscovery。Thatthesourceofthemusicthathadsolonghauntedthehousewasanaeolianharpinachimneythathadneverorscarcelybeenused,mightbeenoughtosatisfysome,buthewantedtoknowaswellwhy,ifthiswasachimney,itneitherhadbeennorwasused,andtowhatroomitwasachimney。Forthequestionhadcometohim——mightnotthemusicholdsomerelationwiththelegendofthelostroom?
Inquiryafterlegendarylorehaddrawnnearerandnearer,andthetalkaboutsuchasbelongedtothecastlehadnaturallyincreased。
Inthistalkwasnotseldommentionedaghost,asyetseenattimesabouttheplace。ThisDonalattributedtoglimpsesoftheearlinhisrestlessnight-walks;butbythedomestics,bothsuchashadseensomethingandsuchashadnot,theapparitionwasnaturallyassociatedwiththelostchamber,astheplacewhencethespectreissued,andwhitherhereturned。
Donal'ssparehourswerenowmuchgiventohisfriendAndrewComin。
Thegoodmanhadsofarrecoveredastothinkhimselfabletoworkagain;buthesoonfounditwaslittlehecoulddo。Hisstrengthwasgone,andtheexertionnecessarytothelightestlabourcausedhimpain。Itwassadtowatchhimonhisstool,nowputtinginastitch,nowstoppingbecauseofthecoughwhichsosorelyhauntedhisthin,wind-blowntent。Hisfacehadgrownwhiteandthin,andhehadnearlylosthismerriment,thoughnothischeerfulness;heneverlookedotherthancontent。Hehadmadeuphismindhewasnotgoingtogetbetter,buttogohomethroughalingeringillness。Hewasreadytogoandreadytolinger,asGodpleased。
Therewasnothingwonderfulinthis;buttosomegoodpeopleevenitdidappearwonderfulthatheshowednouneasinessastohowDoorywouldfarewhenhewasgone。Thehousewasindeedtheirown,buttherewasnomoneyinit——notevenenoughtopaythetaxes;andifshesoldit,thepricewouldnotbeenoughtoliveupon。TheneighboursweresevereonAndrew'simaginedindifferencetohiswife'sfuture,anditwasintheireyesashametobesocheerfulonthebrinkofthegrave。NotoneofthemhaddonemorethanpeepintotheworldoffaithinwhichAndrewlived。NotoneofthemcouldhaveunderstoodthatforAndrewtoallowtheleastdangerofeviltohisDoory,wouldhavebeentobeholdtheuniverserockingontheslipperyshouldersofChance。
Alittlemoanescapingherasshelookedoneeveningintohermoney-teapot,madeDonalaskheraquestionortwo。Sheconfessedthatshehadbutsixpenceleft。NowDonalhadspentnexttonothingsincehecame,andhadthereforeafewpoundsinhand。Hisfatherandmotherhadsentbackwhathesentthem,asbeinginneedofnothing:sirGibbiewassuchagoodsontothemthattheywerelivinginwhattheycountedluxury:RobertdoubtedwhetherhewasnotministeringtothefleshinallowingJanettoprovidebeef-broseforhimtwiceintheweek!SoDonalwasfreetospendforhisnextneighbours——justwhathispeople,whoweregrandaboutmoney,wouldhavehadhimdo。Neverintheircottagehadapennybeenwasted;
neveronerefusedwherewasneed。
“An'rew,“hesaid——andfoundthemother-tongueherefittest——“I'mthinkin'yemaunbegrowin'someshorto'silleri'thistimeo'
warklessness!”
“'Deed,Iwadnawon'er!”answeredAndrew。“Doorysaysnaethingabootsictriffles!”
“Weel,“rejoinedDonal,“IthankGodIhaesomei'theillpickleo'
nobein'wantit,an'saeindangero'cankerin';an'atweenbritherstheresudnabetwapurses!”
“Yehaeyerainfowktoluikefter,sir!”saidAndrew。
“They'reweelluikitefter——betternorevertheywari'theirlives;
they'reasweelaffasIammysel'upi'yongran'castel。Theyhaeafreen'whabutforthemwadillhaelivedtobethegreatmanheisthenoo;an'there'snaethingowermuckleforhimtoduforthem;
saemysiller'smyain,an'yours。An'rew,an'Doory's!”
Theoldmanputhimthroughacatechismastohiswaysandmeansandprospects,andfindingthatDonalbelievedasfirmlyashimselfinthecareoftheMaster,andwasconvincedtherewasnothingthatMasterwouldratherseehimdowithhismoneythanhelpthosewhoneededit,especiallythosewhotrustedinhim,heyielded。
“It'sno,yesee,“saidDonal,“thatIhaeonydoobto'theLordprovidin'gienIhadfailt,buthehaudsthethingtomyhan',jistasmuckleasgienhesaid,'There'sforyou,Donal!'Thefowko'
thiswarl'michtnaappruv,butyouan'mekensbetter,An'rew。Wekenthere'snaeguidinsillerbutdothewullo'theLordwi'
't——an'helptoaneanitherishisdearwull。It'sno'athe'sshorto'sillerhimsel',buthelikestogieanitheraturn!”
“I'lltakit,“saidtheoldman。
“There'swhatIhae,“returnedDonal。
“Na,na;naneo'that!”saidAndrew。“Ye'retreatin'melikeamuckle,reivin',sornin'beggar——offerin'mea'thatatance!Whaursynewadbetheprolongedsweetnesso'haein''ti'portionsfraeyerhan',asfraethenebo'anangel-corbiesentfraeverrahamewi'yerdenner!”——Hereaglimmeroftheoldmerrimentshonethroughthewornlookandpaleeyes——“Na,na,sir,“hewenton;“jisttalkthethingowerwi'Doory,an'latherhaewhatshewantsan'naemair。Shewudnalikeit。Whakenswhatmaycamei'themeantime——Deithhimsel',maybe!Orsee——gieDooryafiveshillins,an'whanthat'sduneshecanlatyeken!”
Donalwasforcedtoleaveitthus,buthedidhisutmosttoimpressuponDoorythatallhehadwasatherdisposal。
“Ihadnewclothes,“hesaid,“beforeIcame;IhaveallIwanttoeatanddrink;andforbooks,there'sawholeancientlibraryatmyservice!——whatpossiblycouldIwishformore?It'samereluxurytohandthemoneyovertoyou,Doory!I'mthinkin',Doory,“forhehadbythistimegottoaddressherbyherhusband'snameforher,“there'snaebodyi'thiswarl','cep'theoonseenLordhimsel',lo'esyermansaeweelasyouan'me;an'weelkenIyouan'himwadshareyerlastwi'me;saeI'monlygiein'yeo'yeraingudewull;
an'I'lldoobtthatgienyetaknasaelangasIhae。“
Thusadjured,andsatisfiedthatherhusbandwascontent,theoldwomanmadenodifficulty。
CHAPTERXLIII。
EPPYANDKENNEDY。
WhenStephenKennedyheardthatEppyhadgonebacktohergrandparents,afainthoperevivedinhisbosom;heknewnothingofthelatepassagebetweenthetwoparties。Hebutknewthatshewaslookingsad:shemightperhapsallowhimtobeofsomeservicetoher!Separationhadfosteredmoreandmoregentlethoughtsofherinhisheart;hewasreadytoforgivehereverything,andbelievenothingseriousagainsther,ifonlyshewouldlethimloveheragain。Modestyhadhithertokepthimfromthrowinghimselfinherway,buthenowhauntedthehouseinthehopeofcatchingaglimpseofher,andwhenshebegantogoagainintothetown,sawherrepeatedly,followinghertobenearher,buttakingcaresheshouldnotseehim:partlyfromherself-absorptionhehadsucceededinescapinghernotice。
Atlength,however,onenight,hetriedtosummonupcouragetoaccosther。Itwasalovely,moonlitnight,halfthestreetblackwithquaintshadows,theotherhalfshininglikesandintheyellowlight。Onthemoonysidepeoplestandingattheirdoorscouldrecognizeeachothertwohousesaway,butontheother,friendsmightpasswithoutgreeting。Eppyhadgoneintothebaker's;Kennedyhadseenhergoin,andstoodintheshadow,waiting,allbutdeterminedtospeaktoher。Shestaidagoodwhile,butoneaccustomedtowaitforfishlearnspatience。Atlengthsheappeared。
Bythistime,however,thoughnothispatience,Kennedy'scouragehadnearlyevaporated;andwhenhesawherhesteppedunderanarchway,letherpass,andfollowedafresh。Allatonceresolve,whichyetwasnoresolve,awokeinhim。Itwasasifsomeonetookhimandsethimbeforeher。Shestartedwhenhesteppedinfront,andgavealittlecry。
“Dinnabefeart,Eppy,“hesaid;“Iwudnahurtahairo'yerheid。I
wudraitherbeskinnedmysel'!”
“Gangawa,“saidEppy。“Yehaenorichttostan'i'mygait!”
“Nanebuttherichto'lo'ein'yebetternorever!”saidKennedy,“——giensaebeasye'lllatmeonygaitshaw't!”
Thewordssoftenedher;shehaddreadedreproach,ifnotindignantremonstrance。Shebegantocry。
“Gienonythingi'mypooerwudmakthegrieflichterupo'ye,Eppy,“
hesaid,“yehaebuttoname't!I'mnogauin'toaskyetomerryme,forthatIkenyedinnacareaboot;butgienImichtbeluikituponasafreen',ifnotoyou,yettoyours——allootonyw'ytohelpi'yertrible,Imean,I'mreadytolaymei'thedirtaforeye。I
haenaecareformysel'onymair,an'maundosomethingforsomebody——an'whasaesoonasyersel',Eppy!”
Forsoleanswer,Eppywentoncrying。Shewasfarfromhappy。ShehadnearlypersuadedherselfthatallwasoverbetweenherandlordForgue,andalmostshecould,butforshame,haveallowedKennedytocomfortherasanoldfriend。Everythinginhermindwassoconfused,andeverythingaroundhersomiserable,thatshecouldbutcry。Shecontinuedcrying,andastheywereinawalledlaneintowhichnowindowslooked,Kennedy,inthesimplicityofhisheart,andthedesiretocomfortherwholittlefromhimdeservedcomfort,cameuptoher,andputtinghisarmroundher,saidagain,“Dinnabefeartofme,Eppy。I'mamanowersair-hertittodoyeonyhurt。It'snoasthinkin'yemyain,Eppy,Iwudpreshumetoduonythingforye,butasanauldfreen',faintotakthedogaffo'
ye。Areyeinwanto'onything?Yemaunhaeaheapo'trible,Iweelken,wi'yergran'father'smischance,an'it'seasytoun'erstan'
'atthingsmaywellbeturnin'scarceabootye;butbesureo'this,thataslang'smymitherhasonything,she'llbeblythtosharethesamewi'youan'yours。“
Hesaidhismother,butshehadnothingsavewhatheprovidedherwith。
“Ithankye,Stephen,“saidEppy,touchedwithhisgoodness;“butthere'snaenecessity;wehaeplenty。“
Shemovedon,herapronstilltohereyes。Kennedyfollowedher。
“Gientheyoonglordhaewrangedyeonygait,“hesaidfrombehindher,“an'gientherebeonyamen'syewadhaeo'him,——“
Sheturnedwithaquicknessthatwasfierce,andinthedimlightKennedysawhereyesblazing。
“Iwantnaethingfraeyourhan',StephenKennedy,“shesaid。“Mylord'snaethingtoyou——noryetmuckletome!”sheadded,withsuddenreactionandanoutburstofself-pity,andagainfellaweeping——andsobbingnow。
Withthetimidityofastrongmanbeforethegirlhelovesandthereforefears,Kennedyoncemoretriedtocomforther,wipinghereyeswithherapron。Whilehedidso,aman,turningacornerquickly,camealmostuponthem。Hestartedback,thencamenearer,lookedhardatthem,andspoke。ItwaslordForgue。
“Eppy!”heexclaimed,inatoneinwhichindignationblendedwithsurprise。
Eppygaveacry,andrantohim。Hepushedheraway。
“Mylord,“saidKennedy,“thelasswillnaneo'meormine。Isairdoobtthere'snanebutyersel'canpleaseher。ButIsweirbyGod,mylord,gienyeduheronywrang,I'llnorest,nichtnorday,tillIhaemadeyerepentit。“
“Gotothedevil!”saidForgue;“there'sanoldcrow,Isuspect,yettopluckbetweenus!Formeyoumaytakeher,though。Idon'tgohalves。“
Eppylaidherhandtimidlyonhisarm,butagainhepushedheraway。
“Oh,mylord!”shesobbed,andcouldsaynomoreforweeping。
“HowisitIfindyouherewiththisman?”heasked。“Idon'twanttobeunfairtoyou,butitlooksratherbad!”
“Mylord,“saidKennedy。
“Holdyourtongue;letherspeakforherself。“
“Ihadnotrystwi'him,mylord!Ineversaidcomenighme,“sobbedEppy。“——Yeseewhatyehaedune!”shecried,turninginangeronKennedy,andhertearssuddenlyceasing。“Neverbutillhaeyebrochtme!Whatbusinesshadyetocomeeftermethisgait,makin'
mischief'atweenmylordan'me?Canabodynosetfutayontthedoor-sill,buttheymaunbefollowto'themtheywudseefareneuch!”
Kennedyturnedandwent,andEppywithafreshburstoftearsturnedtogoalso。ButshehadsatisfiedForguethattherewasnothingbetweenthem,andhewassoonmoresuccessfulthanKennedyinconsolingher。
Whileabsenthehadbeenableenoughtogetonwithouther,butnosoonerwashehomethan,inthewearylackofinterest,thefeelingswhich,halflamenting,halfrejoicing,hehadimaginedextinct,begantorevive,andhewenttothetownvaguelyhopingtogetasightofEppy。Cominguponhert阾e?t阾ewithheroldlover,firstasenseofunpardonableinjurypossessedhim,andnexttheconvictionthathewasasmadlyinlovewithherasever。Thetideofoldtendernesscamethrobbingandstreamingbackovertheghastlysandsofjealousy,anderetheypartedhehadmadewithheranappointmenttomeetthenextnightinamoresuitablespot。
DonalwasseatedbyAndrew'sbedsidereading:hehadnowtheopportunityofbringingmanythingsbeforehimsuchastheoldmandidnotknowtoexist。Thoselastdaysofsicknessandweaknesswereamongthemostblessedofhislife;muchthatcouldnotbedoneformanyagoodmanwithtentimeshiseducation,couldbedoneforamanlikeAndrewComin。
Eppyhaddoneherbesttoremovealltracesofemotionereshere-enteredthehouse;butshecouldnothelptheshiningofhereyes:thejoy-lamprelightedinherbosomshonethroughthem:andAndrewlookingupwhensheentered,Donal,seatedwithhisbacktoher,atonceknewhersecret:hergrandfatherreaditfromherface,andDonalreaditfromhis。
“ShehasseenForgue!”hesaidtohimself。“Ihopetheoldmanwilldiesoon。“
CHAPTERXLIV。
HIGHANDLOW。
WhenlordMorvenheardofhisson'sreturn,hesentforDonal,receivedhiminafriendlyway,gavehimtounderstandthat,howeverhemightfailtofallinwithhisviews,hedependedthoroughlyonhishonesty,andbeggedhewouldkeephiminformedofhisson'sproceedings。
Donalrepliedthat,whilehefullyacknowledgedhislordship'srighttoknowwhathissonwasdoing,hecouldnottaketheofficeofaspy。
“ButIwillwarnlordForgue,“heconcluded,“thatImayseeitrighttolethisfatherknowwhatheisabout。Ifancy,however,heunderstandsasmuchalready。“
“Pooh!thatwouldbeonlytoteachhimcunning,“saidtheearl。
“Icandonothingunderhand,“repliedDonal。“Iwillhelpnomantokeepanunrighteoussecret,butneitherwillIsecretlydiscloseit。“
Meetinghimafewdaysafter,Forguewouldhavepassedhimwithoutrecognition,butDonalstoppedhim,andsaid——
“Ibelieve,mylord,youhaveseenEppysinceyourreturn。“
“Whatthedeuceisthattoyou?”
“Iwishyourlordshiptounderstandthatwhatevercomestomyknowledgeconcerningyourproceedingsinregardtoher,IwillreporttoyourfatherifIseefit。“
“Thewarningisunnecessary。Fewinformers,however,wouldhavegivenmetheadvantage,andIthankyou:sofarIamindebtedtoyou。Nonethelesstheshameoftheinformerremains!”
“Yourlordship'sjudgmentofmeisnomoretomethanthatofyonrookupthere。“
“Youdoubtmyhonour?”saidForguewithasneer。
“Ido。Idoubtyou。Youdonotknowyourself。Timewillshow。ForGod'ssake,mylord,looktoyourself!Youareinterribledanger。“
“Iwouldratherdowrongforlovethanrightforfear。Iscornsuchthreats。“
“Threats,mylord!”echoedDonal。“Isitathreattowarnyouthatyourveryconsciousnessmaybecomeacursetoyou?thattoknowyourselfmaybeyourhell?thatyoumaycometomakeityourfirstcaretoforgetwhatyouare?DoyouknowwhatShaksperesaysofTarquin——
Besides,hissoul'sfairtempleisdefaced;
Towhoseweakruinsmustertroopsofcares,Toaskthespottedprincesshowshefares——?”
“Oh,hangyourpreaching!”criedForgue,andturnedaway。
“Mylord,“saidDonal,“ifyouwillnothearme,therearepreachersyoumust。“
“Theywillnotbequitesolong-windedthen!”Forgueanswered。
“Youareright,“saidDonal;“theywillnot。“
AllForgue'sthoughtswerenowoccupiedwiththequestionhowwithleastdangerEppyandheweretomeet。Hedidnotcontemplatetreachery。Atthistimeofhislifehecouldnothaverespectedhimself,littleaswasrequiredforthat,hadhebeenconsciouslytreacherous;butnomanwhoinloveyetloveshimselfmore,issafefrombecomingatraitor:potentiallyheisonealready。Treacherytohimwhoisguiltyofitseemsonlynaturalself-preservation;themanwhocandoavilethingisincapableofseeingitasitis;andthatoughttomakeusdoubtfulofourjudgmentsofourselves,especiallydefensivejudgments。Forguedidnotsuspecthimself——notalthoughheknewthathispassionhadbutjustregainedalostenergy,revivedattheideaofanothermanhavingthegirl!Itdidnotshamehimthathehadbeguntoforgether,orthathehadbeensorousedtofreshdesire。Ifhehadstayedawaysixmonths,hewouldpracticallyhaveforgottenheraltogether。Somemaythinkthat,ifhehaddevotionenoughtosurmountthevulgaritiesofherpositionandmannersandwaysofthought,hislovecouldhardlybesuchastoyieldsosoon;butEppywasnotinherselfvulgar。Manyofevenhumblereducationthanshearefarlessreallyvulgarthansomeintheforefrontofsociety。NodoubttheconventionalitiesofamanlikeForguemusthavebeensometimesshockedinfamiliarintercoursewithonelikeEppy;butwhilehewasmerelyflirtingwithher,theverythingsthatshockedwouldalsoamusehim——forI
needhardlysayhewasnotgenuinelyrefined;andbyandbythegrowingpassionobscuredthem。Thereisnodoubtthat,hadshebeenconfrontedashiswifewiththecommonpeopleofsociety,hewouldhavebecomeawareofmanythingsasvulgaritieswhichwereonlysimplicities;butinthemeantimeshewasnomorevulgartohimthanalamborababyisvulgar,howeverunfiteitherforaBelgraviandrawing-room。Vulgar,atthesametime,hewouldhavethoughtandfelther,butforthelovethatmadehimdoherjustice。Loveistheopeneraswellascloserofeyes。Butmenwho,havingseen,becomeblindagain,thinktheyhavehadtheireyesfinallyopened。
ForsometimetherewasnochangeinEppy'sbehaviourbutthatshewasnottearfulasbefore。Shecontinueddiligent,nevergrumbledatthehardestwork,andseemeddesirousofmakingupforremissnessinthepast,whenintruthshewastryingtomakeupforsomethingelseinthepresent:shewouldatoneforwhatshewouldnottell,bydoingimmediatedutywiththegreaterdevotion。Butbyandbyshebeganoccasionallytoshow,bothinmannerandcountenance,alittleoftheoldpertness,mingledwithuneasiness。Thephenomenon,however,wassointermittentandunpronounced,astobemanifestonlytoeyesfamiliarwithherlooksandways:toDonalitwasclearthattherelationbetweenherandForguewasresumed。Yetsheneverwentoutintheeveningexceptsentbyhergrandmother,andthenshealwayscamehomeevenwithhaste——anxious,itmighthaveseemed,toavoidsuspicion。
ItwasthecustomwithDonalandDavietogooftenintothefieldsandwoodsinthefineweather——theycalledthistheirobservationclass——tolearnwhattheymightofthemultitudinousgoingsoninthisorthatofNature'sworkshops:thereeachforhimselfandtheotherexercisedhisindividualpowersofseeingandnotingandputtingtogether。Donalknewlittleofwoodlandmatters,havingbeenchieflyaccustomedtomeadowsandbarehill-sides;yetinthewoodshewasthekeenerofthetwotoobserve,andcouldthebetterteachthathewasbutabetterlearner。
Oneday,astheywerewalkingtogetherunderthethinshadeofafir-thicket,Daviesaid,withasuddenchangeofsubject——
“IwonderifweshallmeetForgueto-day!hegetsupearlynow,andgoesout。Itisneithertofishnorshoot,forhedoesn'ttakehisrodorgun;hemustbewatchingorlookingforsomething!——Shouldn'tyousayso,Mr。Grant?”
ThissetDonalthinking。Eppywasneveroutatnight,oronlyforafewminutes;andForguewentoutearlyinthemorning!ButifEppywouldmeethim,howcouldheoranyonehelpit?
CHAPTERXLV。
ALASTENCOUNTER。
Nowforawhile,DonalseldomsawladyArctura,andwhenhedid,receivedfromhernoencouragementtoaddressher。Thetroubledlookhadreappearedonherface。Inhersmile,astheypassedinhallorcorridor,glimmeredanexpressionalmostpathetic——somethinglikeanappeal,asifshestoodinsoreneedofhishelp,butdarednotaskforit。ShewasagainmuchinthecompanyofMissCarmichael,andDonalhadgoodcausetofearthatthepharisaismofherwould-bedirectresswascomingdownuponherspirit,notlikerainonthemowngrass,butlikefrostonthespringflowers。TheimpossibilityofpiercingtheChristianphariseeholdingthetraditionsoftheelders,inanyvitalpart——sopachydermatousishetoanyspiritualargument——isasoretrialtotheoldAdamstillunslaininloversofthetruth。Atthesametimenothinggivespatiencebetteropportunityforherperfectwork。Anditiswelltheycannotbereachedbyargumentandsopersuaded;theywouldbutenterthecirclesofthefaithfultoworkfreshschismsandbreedfreshimposthumes。
ButDonalhadbeguntothinkthathehadbeentooforbearingtowardsthehideousdoctrinesadvocatedbyMissCarmichael。Itisonethingwhereevildoctrinesarequietlyheld,andthetruthassociatedwiththemassimilatedbygoodpeopledoingtheirbestwithwhathasbeentaughtthem,andquiteanotherthingwheretheyareforceduponsomeshrinkingnature,weaktoresistthroughtheveryreverencewhichisitsexcellence。Thefinernature,frominabilitytothinkanotheroflesspureintentthanitself,isoftenatagreatdisadvantageinthehandsofthecoarser。Hemadeuphismindthat,riskasitwastoenterintodisputationswithaworshipperoftheletter,inasmuchasforargumenttheletterisimmeasurablymoreavailablethanthespirit——forwhilethespiritliesintheletterunperceived,ithasnoforce,andtheletter-worshipperisincapableofseeingthatGodcouldnotpossiblymeanwhathemakesofit——notwithstandingtherisk,heresolvedtoholdhimselfready,andifanythingwasgivenhim,tocryitoutandnotspare。Norhadhelongresolvederetheopportunitycame。
IthadcometobeknownthatDonalfrequentedtheoldavenue,anditwaswithintent,intheprideofheracquaintancewithscripture,andherpowertouseit,thatMissCarmichaeloneafternoonledherunwilling,ratherrecusant,andveryunhappydisciplethither:shesoughtanencounterwithhim:hisinsolencetowardstheold-establishedfaithmustbeconfounded,hisobnoxiousinfluenceonArcturafrustrated!Itwasabrightautumnalday。Thetreesweresorelybereaved,butsomefoliageyethunginthinyellowcloudsupontheirpatientboughs。TherewasplentyofwhatDaviecalledscushlin,thatisthenoiseofwalkingwithscarceliftedfeetamongstthethick-lyingwitheredleaves。Butlessfoliagemeansmoresunlight。
Donalwassaunteringalong,hisbookinhishand,nowandthenreadingalittle,nowandthenlookinguptothehalf-baredbranches,nowandthen,likeDavie,sweepingacloudofthefallenmultitudebeforehim。Hewasinthischildishactwhen,lookingup,hesawthetwoladiesapproaching;hedidnotseethepeculiarglanceMissCarmichaelthrewhercompanion:“Beholdyourprophet!”
itsaid。Hewouldhavepassedwithliftedbonnet,butMissCarmichaelstopped,smiling:hersmilewasbrightbecauseitshowedhergoodteeth,butwasnotpleasantbecauseitshowednothingelse。
“Gloryingoverthefallen,Mr。Grant?”shesaid。
Donalinhisturnsmiled。
“ThatisnotMr。Grant'sway,“saidArctura,“——sofaratleastasI
haveknownhim!”
“Howcarelessthetreesareoftheirpoorchildren!”saidMissCarmichael,affectingsympathyfortheleaves。
“Pardonme,“saidDonal,“ifIgrudgethemyourpity:thereisnothingmoreofchildreninthoseleavesthanthereisinthehairthatfallsonthebarber'sfloor。“
“Itisnotverygracioustopullaladyupsosharply!”returnedMissCarmichael,stillsmiling:“Ispokepoetically。“
“Thereisnopoetryinwhatisnottrue,“rejoinedDonal。“Thosearenotthechildrenofthetree。“
“Ofcourse,“saidMissCarmichael,alittlesurprisedtofindtheirfoilscrossedalready,“atreehasnochildren!but——“
“Atreenochildren!”exclaimedDonal。“Whatthenareallthosebeech-nutsundertheleaves?Aretheynotthechildrenofthetree?”
“Yes;andlostliketheleaves!”sighedMissCarmichael。
“Whydoyousaytheyarelost?Theymustfulfiltheendforwhichtheyweremade,andifso,theycannotbelost。“
“Forwhatendweretheymade?”
“Idonotknow。Iftheyallgrewup,theywouldbeagooddealintheway。“
“Thenyousaytherearemoreseedsthanarerequired?”
“HowcouldI,whenIdonotknowwhattheyarerequiredfor?HowcanItellthatitisnotnecessaryforthelifeofthetreethatitshouldproducethemall,andnecessarytooforthegroundtoreceivesomuchlife-rentfromthetree!”
“Butyoumustadmitthatsomethingsarelost!”
“Yes,surely!”answeredDonal。“Whyelseshouldhecomeandlooktillhefind?”
Nosuchanswerhadthetheologianexpected;shewasnotimmediatewithherrejoinder。
“Butsomeofthemarelostafterall!”shesaid。
“Doubtless;therearesheepthatwillkeeprunningaway。Buthegoesafterthemagain。“
“Hewillnotdothatforever!”
“Hewill。“
“Idonotbelieveit。“
“ThenyoudonotbelievethatGodisinfinite!”
“Ido。“
“Howcanyou?IshenottheLordGodmercifulandgracious?”
“Iamgladyouknowthat。“
“Butifhismercyandhisgraciousnessarenotinfinite,thenheisnotinfinite!”
“Thereareotherattributesinwhichheisinfinite。“
“Butheisnotinfiniteinallhisattributes?Heispartlyinfinite,andpartlyfinite!——infiniteinknowledgeandpower,butinlove,inforgiveness,inallthosethingswhicharethemostbeautiful,themostdivine,themostChrist-like,heisfinite,measurable,bounded,small!”
“Icarenothingforsuchfinitereasoning。Itakethewordofinspiration,andgobythat!”
“Letmehearthen,“saidDonal,withanupliftingofhisheartinprayer;foritseemednolightthingforArcturawhichofthemshouldshowthebetterreason。
NowithadsofallenthattheladiesweretalkingaboutthedoctrinecalledAdoptionwhenfirsttheysawDonal;whencethisdoctrinewasthefirsttooccurtothechampionoforthodoxyasaweaponwherewithtofoiltheenemy。
“Themostpreciousdoctrine,ifonemaysayso,inthewholeBible,isthatofAdoption。GodbythemouthofhisapostlePaultellsusthatGodadoptssomeforhischildren,andleavestherest。Ifbecauseofthisyousayheisnotinfiniteinmercy,whentheBiblesaysheis,youareguiltyofblasphemy。“
Inatonecalmtosolemnity,Donalanswered——
“God'smercyisinfinite;andthedoctrineofAdoptionisoneofthefalsestoffalsedoctrines。InbitterlackofthespiritwherebywecryAbba,Father,theso-calledChurchinventedit;anditremains,ahideousmaskwherewithfalseandignorantteachersscareGod'schildrenfromtheirFather'sarms。“
“Ihatesentiment——mostofallinreligion!”saidMissCarmichaelwithcontempt。
“Youshallhavenone,“returnedDonal。“TellmewhatismeantbyAdoption。“
“Thetakingofchildren,“answeredMissCarmichael,alreadyspyingarockahead,“andtreatingthemasyourown。“
“Whosechildren?”askedDonal。
“Anyone's。“
“Whose,“insistedDonal,“arethechildrenwhomGodadopts?”
Shewasontherock,andalittlestaggered。Butshepulledupcourageandsaid——
“ThechildrenofSatan。“
“Thenhowaretheytobeblamedfordoingthedeedsoftheirfather?”
“YouknowverywellwhatImean!Satandidnotmakethem。Godmadethem,buttheysinnedandfell。“
“ThendidGodrepudiatethem?”
“Yes。“
“Andtheybecamethechildrenofanother?”
“Yes,ofSatan。“
“ThenGoddisownshischildren,andwhentheyarethechildrenofanother,adoptsthem?MissCarmichael,itistoofoolish!Wouldthatbelikeafather?Becausehischildrendonotpleasehim,herepudiatesthemaltogether;andthenhewantsthemagain——notashisown,butasthechildrenofastranger,whomhewilladopt!Theoriginalrelationshipisnolongerofanyforce——hasnoweightevenwiththeirveryownfather!Whatgroundcouldsuchaparenthavetocomplainofhischildren?”
“YoudarenotsaythewickedarethechildrenofGodthesameasthegood。“
“Thatbefarfromme!ThosewhodothewillofGodareinfinitelymorehischildrenthanthosewhodonot;theyarebornoftheinnermostheartofGod;theyarethenofthenatureofJesusChrist,whosegloryisobedience。Butiftheywerenotinthefirstplace,andinthemostprofoundfact,thechildrenofGod,theycouldneverbecomehischildreninthathigher,thathighestsense,byanyfictionofadoption。Doyouthinkifthedevilcouldcreate,hischildrencouldeverbecomethechildrenofGod?ButyouandI,andeverypharisee,publican,andsinnerintheworld,areequallythechildrenofGodtobeginwith。Thatistherootofallthemiseryandallthehope。Becausewearehischildren,wemustbecomehischildreninheartandsoul,orbeforeverwretched。Ifweceasedtobehis,iftherelationbetweenusweredestroyed,whichisimpossible,noredemptionwouldbepossible,therewouldbenothinglefttoredeem。“
“Youmaytalkasyouseefit,Mr。Grant,butwhilePaulteachesthedoctrine,Iwillholdit;hemayperhapsknowalittlebetterthanyou。“
“Paulteachesnosuchdoctrine。HeteachesjustwhatIhavebeensaying。Thewordtranslatedadoption,heusesfortheraisingofonewhoisasontothetruepositionofason。“
“Thepresumptioninyoutosaywhattheapostledidordidnotmean!”
“Why,MissCarmichael,doyouthinkthegospelcomestousasasetoffools?Isthereanywayoftrulyorworthilyreceivingamessagewithoutunderstandingit?Amessageissentfortheverysakeofbeinginsomemeasureatleastunderstood。Withoutthatitwouldbenomessageatall。Iamboundbythewillandexpresscommandofthemastertounderstandthethingshesaystome。Hecommandsmetoseetheirrectitude,becausetheybeingtrue,Ioughttobeabletoseethemtrue。Inthehopeofseeingashewouldhavemesee,IreadmyGreekTestamenteveryday。ButitisnotnecessarytoknowGreektoseewhatPaulmeansbytheso-translatedadoption。Youhaveonlytoconsiderhiswordswithintenttofindouthismeaning,andwithoutintenttofindinthemtheteachingofthisorthatdoctorofdivinity。IntheepistletotheGalatians,whosechilddoeshespeakofasadopted?Itisthefather'sownchild,hisheir,whodiffersnothingfromaslaveuntilheentersuponhistruerelationtohisfather——thefullstatusofason。Soalso,inanotherpassage,bythesamewordhemeanstheredemptionofthebody——itspassingintothehigherconditionofoutwardthings,intoaconditioninitself,andahomearoundit,fitforthesonsanddaughtersofGod——thatwebenomorelikestrangers,butlikewhatweare,thechildrenofthehouse。TouseanywordofPaul'stomakehumanbeingfeelasifhewerenotbybirth,making,origin,orwhateverwordofcloserimportcanbefound,thechildofGod,orasifanythinghehaddoneorcoulddocouldannulthatrelationship,isofthedevil,thefatherofevil,noteitherofPaulorofChrist——Why,mylady,“continuedDonal,turningtoArctura,“alltheevilliesinthis——thatheisourfatherandwearenothischildren。Tofulfilthepoorestnecessitiesofourbeing,wemustbehischildreninbrainandheart,inbodyandsoulandspirit,inobedienceandhopeandgladnessandlove——hisoutandout,beyondallthattonguecansay,mindthink,orheartdesire。Thenonlyisourcreationfinished——thenonlyarewewhatweweremadetobe。Thisisthatforthesakeofwhichwearetroubledonallsides。“
Heceased。MissCarmichaelwasintellectuallycowed,butherheartwasnowisetouched。ShehadneverhadthatlongingafterclosestrelationwithGodwhichsendsusfeelingafterthefather。Butnow,takingcourageundertheovershadowingwingofthedivine,Arcturaspoke。
“Idohopewhatyousayistrue,Mr。Grant!”shesaidwithalongingsigh。
“Ohyes,hope!weallhope!Butitisthewordwehavetodowith!”
saidMissCarmichael。
“Ihavegivenyouthetruthofthisword!”saidDonal。
Butasifsheheardneitherofthem,Arcturawenton,“Ifitwerebuttrue!”shemoaned。“Itwouldsetrighteverythingonthefaceoftheearth!”
“Youmeanfarmorethanthat,mylady!”saidDonal。“Youmeaneverythinginthehumanheart,whichwilltoalleternitykeepmoaningandcryingoutfortheFatherofit,untilitisonewithitsonerelation!”
Heliftedhisbonnet,andwouldhavepassedon。
“Oneword,Mr。Grant,“saidMissCarmichael。“——NomanholdingsuchdoctrinescouldwithhonestybecomeaclergymanofthechurchofScotland。“
“Verylikely,“repliedDonal,“Goodafternoon。“
“Thankyou,Mr。Grant!”saidArctura。“Ihopeyouareright。“
Whenhewasgone,theladiesresumedtheirwalkinsilence。AtlengthMissCarmichaelspoke。
“Well,Imustsay,ofalltheconceitedyoungmenIhavehadthemisfortunetomeet,yourMr。Grantbearsthepalm!Suchself-assurance!suchpresumption!suchforwardness!”
“Areyoucertain,Sophia,“rejoinedArctura,“thatitisself-assurance,andnotconvictionthatgiveshimhiscourage?”
“Heisateacheroflies!Hegoesdeadagainstallthatgoodmensayandbelieve!Thethingisasclearasdaylight:heisaltogetherwrong!”
“WhatifGodbesendingfreshlightintothemindsofhispeople?”
“Theoldlightisgoodenoughforme!”
“ButitmaynotbegoodenoughforGod!WhatifMr。Grantshouldbehismessengertoyouandme!”
“Alikelything!ArawstudentfromthehillsofDaurside!”
“Icherishaprofoundhopethathemaybeintheright。Muchgood,youknow,didcomeoutofGalilee!Everyplaceandeverypersonisdespisedbysomebody!”
“Arctura!Hehasinfectedyouwithhisfrightfulirreverence!”
“IfhebeamessengerofJesusChrist,“saidArctura,quietly,“hehashadfromyouthereceptionhewouldexpect,forthedisciplemustbeashismaster。“
MissCarmichaelstoodstillabruptly。Herfacewasinaflame,butherwordscamecoldandhard。
“Iamsorry,“shesaid,“ourfriendshipshouldcometosoharshaconclusion,ladyArctura;butitistimeitshouldendwhenyouspeaksotoonewhohasbeendoingherbestforsolongtoenlightenyou!Ifthisbethefirstresultofyournewgospel——well!Rememberwhosaid,'IfanangelfromheavenpreachanyothergospeltoyouthanIhavepreached,lethimbeaccursed!”
Sheturnedback。
“Oh,Sophia,donotleavemeso!”criedArctura。
Butshewasalreadyyardsaway,herskirtmakingasmallwhirlwindthatwentafterherthroughthewitheredleaves。Arcturaburstintotears,andsatdownatthefootofoneofthegreatbeeches。MissCarmichaelneverlookedbehindher。ShemetDonalagain,forhetoohadturned:heuncovered,butshetooknoheed。Shehaddonewithhim!HerpoorArctura。
Donalwaswalkinggentlyon,thinking,withclosedbook,whenthewindboretohisearalowsobfromArctura。Helookedup,andsawher:shesatweepinglikeonerejected。Hecouldnotpassorturnandleaveherthus!Sheheardhisstepsinthewitheredleaves,glancedup,droppedherheadforamoment,thenrosewithafeebleattemptatasmile。Donalunderstoodthesmile:shewouldnothavehimtroubledbecauseofwhathadtakenplace!
“Mr。Grant,“shesaid,comingtowardshim,“St。Paullaidacurseuponevenanangelfromheavenifhepreachedanyothergospelthanhis!Itisterrible!”
“Itisterrible,andIsayamentoitwithallmyheart,“returnedDonal。“ButthegospelyouhavereceivedisnotthegospelofPaul;
itisonesubstitutedforit——andthatbynoangelfromheaven,butbymenwithhide-boundsouls,who,inordertogetthemintotheirownintellectualpockets,melteddowntheingotsofthekingdom,andre-casttheminmouldsofwretchedlegalism,borrowedoftheRomanswhocrucifiedtheirmaster。Grand,childlike,heavenlythingstheymustexplain,forsooth,aftervulgarworldlynotionsoflawandright!Buttheymeantwell,seekingtojustifythewaysofGodtomen,thereforethecurseoftheapostledoesnotfall,Ithink,uponthem。Theysoughtawayoutoftheirdifficulties,andthoughttheyhadfoundone,wheninrealityitwastheirfaithinGodhimselfthatalonegotthemoutoftheprisonoftheirtheories。ButgladlywouldIseediscomfitedsuchas,receivingthoseinventionsatthehundredthhand,andmovedbynoneofthefervourwithwhichtheywerefirstpromulgated,lay,asthewordandwillofGod,lumpsofironandheapsofdustuponlive,beating,longingheartsthatcryoutaftertheirGod!”
“Oh,Idohopewhatyousayistrue!”pantedArctura。“IthinkI
shalldieifIfinditisnot!”
“IfyoufindwhatItellyouuntrue,itwillonlybethatitisnotgrandandfreeandbounteousenough。Tothinkanythingtoogoodtobetrue,istodenyGod——tosaytheuntruemaybebetterthanthetrue——thattheremightbeagreaterGodthanhe。Remember,Christisintheworldstill,andwithinourcall。“
“Iwillthinkofwhatyoutellme,“saidArctura,holdingoutherhand。
“Ifanythinginparticulartroublesyou,“saidDonal,“IshallbemostgladtohelpyouifIcan;butitisbetterthereshouldnotbemuchtalking。ThethingliesbetweenyouandyourFather。“
Withthesewordshelefther。Arcturafollowedslowlytothehouse,andwentstraighttoherroom,hermindfillingasshewentwithslow-revivingstrengthandagreathope。Nodoubtsomeofherreliefcamefromthedepartureofherincubusfriend;butthatmustsoonhavevanishedinfreshsorrow,saveforthehopeandstrengthtowhichthisdepartureyieldedtheroom。Shetrustedthatbythetimeshesawheragainshewouldbemorefirmlygroundedconcerningmanythings,andabletosetthemfortharight。Shewasnotyetfreeofthenotionthatyoumustbeabletodefendyourconvictions;shescarcefeltatlibertytosayshebelievedathing,solongassheknewanargumentagainstitwhichshecouldnotshowtobefalse。
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