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第18章

  IfFlorencecouldhavestoodwithintheroomandlookedupontheoriginaloftheshadowthrownuponthewallandroof,asitcoweredthusoverthefire,aglancemighthavesufficedtorecallthefigureofGoodMrs。Brown;notwithstandingthatherchildishrecollectionofthatterribleoldwomanwasasgrotesqueandexaggeratedapresentmentofthetruth,perhaps,astheshadowonthewall。ButFlorencewasnottheretolookon;andGoodMrs。Brownremainedunrecognised,andsatstaringatherfire,unobserved。
  Attractedbyaloudersputteringthanusual,astheraincamehissingdownthechimneyinalittlestream,theoldwomanraisedherhead,impatiently,tolistenafresh。Andthistimeshedidnotdropitagain;
  fortherewasahanduponthedoor,andafootstepintheroom。
  `Who'sthat?'shesaid,lookingoverhershoulder。
  `Onewhobringsyounews,'wastheanswer,inawoman'svoice。
  `News?Wherefrom?'
  `Fromabroad。'
  `Frombeyondseas?'criedtheoldwoman,startingup。
  `Aye,frombeyondseas。'
  Theoldwomanrakedthefiretogether,hurriedly,andgoingclosetohervisitorwhohadentered,andshutthedoor,andwhonowstoodinthemiddleoftheroom,putherhanduponthedrenchedcloak,andturnedtheunresistingfigure,soastohaveitinthefulllightofthefire。
  Shedidnotfindwhatshehadexpected,whateverthatmightbe;forsheletthecloakgoagain,andutteredaquerulouscryofdisappointmentandmisery。
  `Whatisthematter?'askedhervisitor。
  `Oho!Oho!'criedoldwoman,turningherfaceupward,withaterriblehowl。
  `Whatisthematter?'askedthevisitoragain。
  `It'snotmygal!'criedtheoldwoman,tossingupherarms,andclaspingherhandsaboveherhead。`Where'smyAlice?Where'smyhandsomedaughter?They'vebeenthedeathofher!'
  `They'venotbeenthedeathofheryet,ifyourname'sMarwood,'saidthevisitor。
  `Haveyouseenmygal,then?'criedtheoldwoman。`Hasshewrotetome?'
  `Shesaidyoucouldn'tread,'returnedtheother。
  `NomoreIcan!'exclaimedtheoldwoman,wringingherhands。
  `Haveyounolighthere?'saidtheother,lookingroundtheroom。
  Theoldwoman,mumblingandshakingherhead,andmutteringtoherselfaboutherhandsomedaughter,broughtacandlefromacupboardinthecorner,andthrustingitintothefirewithatremblinghand,lighteditwithsomedifficultyandsetitonthetable。Itsdirtywickburntdimlyatfirst,beingchokedinitsowngrease;andwhentheblearedeyesandfailingsightoftheoldwomancoulddistinguishanythingbyitslight,hervisitorwassittingwithherarmsfolded,hereyesturneddownwards,andahandkerchiefshehadwornuponherheadlyingonthetablebyherside。
  `Shesenttomebywordofmouththen,mygal,Alice?'mumbledtheoldwoman,afterwaitingforsomemoments。`Whatdidshesay?'
  `Look,'returnedthevisitor。
  Theoldwomanrepeatedthewordinascareduncertainway;and,shadinghereyes,lookedatthespeaker,roundtheroom,andatthespeakeronceagain。
  `Alicesaidlookagain,mother;'andthespeakerfixedhereyesuponher。
  Againtheoldwomanlookedroundtheroom,andathervisitor,androundtheroomoncemore。Hastilyseizingthecandle,andrisingfromherseat,sheheldittothevisitor'sface,utteredaloudcry,setdownthelight,andfelluponherneck!
  `It'smygal!It'smyAlice!It'smyhandsomedaughter,livingancomeback!'screamedtheoldwoman,rockingherselftoandfrouponthebreastthatcoldlysufferedherembrace。`It'smygal!It'smyAlice!
  It'smyhandsomedaughter,livingandcomeback!'shescreamedagain,droppingonthefloorbeforeher,claspingherknees,layingherheadagainstthem,andstillrockingherselftoandfrowitheveryfranticdemonstrationofwhichhervitalitywascapable。
  `Yes,mother,'returnedAlice,stoopingforwardforamomentandkissingher,butendeavouring,evenintheact,todisengageherselffromherembrace。`Iamhere,atlast。Letgo,mother;letgo。Getup,andsitinyourchair。Whatgooddoesthisdo?'
  `She'scomebackharderthanshewent!'criedthemother,lookingupinherface,andstillholdingtoherknees。`Shedon'tcareforme!
  afteralltheseyears,andallthewretchedlifeI'veled!'
  `Why,mother!'saidAlice,shakingherraggedskirtstodetachtheoldwomanfromthem:`therearetwosidestothat。Therehavebeenyearsformeaswellasyou,andtherehasbeenwretchednessformeaswellasyou。Getup,getup!'
  Hermotherrose,andcried,andwrungherhands,andstoodatalittledistancegazingonher。Thenshetookthecandleagain,andgoingroundher,surveyedherfromheadtofoot,makingalowmoaningallthetime。Thensheputthecandledown,resumedherchair,andbeatingherhandstogethertoakindofwearytune,androllingherselffromsidetoside,continuedmoaningandwailingtoherself。
  Alicegotup,tookoffherwetcloak,andlaiditaside。Thatdone,shesatdownasbefore,andwithherarmsfolded,andhereyesgazingatthefire,remainedsilentlylisteningwithacontemptuousfacetoheroldmother'sinarticulatecomplainings。
  `DidyouexpecttoseemereturnasyouthfulasIwentaway,mother?'
  shesaidatlength,turninghereyesupontheoldwoman。`Didyouthinkaforeignlife,likemine,wasgoodforgoodlooks?Onewouldbelieveso,tohearyou!'
  `Itan'tthat!'criedthemother。`Sheknowsit!'
  `Whatisitthen?'returnedthedaughter。`Ithadbestbesomethingthatdon'tlast,mother,ormywayoutiseasierthanmywayin。'
  `Hearthat!'exclaimedthemother。`Afteralltheseyearsshethreatenstodesertmeinthemomentofhercomingbackagain!'
  `Itellyou,mother,forthesecondtime,therehavebeenyearsformeaswellasyou,'saidAlice。`Comebackharder?OfcourseIhavecomebackharder。Whatelsedidyouexpect?'
  `Hardertome!Toherowndearmother!'criedtheoldwoman。
  `Idon'tknowwhobegantohardenme,ifmyowndearmotherdidn't,'
  shereturned,sittingwithherfoldedarms,andknittedbrows,andcompressedlipsasifshewerebentonexcluding,byforce,everysofterfeelingfromherbreast。`Listen,mother,toawordortwo。Ifweunderstandeachothernow,weshallnotfalloutanymore,perhaps。Iwentawayagirl,andhavecomebackawoman。Iwentawayundutifulenough,andhavecomebacknotbetter,youmayswear。Buthaveyoubeenverydutifultome?'
  `I!'criedoldwoman。`Tomygal!Amotherdutifultoherownchild!'
  `Itsoundsunnatural,don'tit?'returnedthedaughter,lookingcoldlyonherwithherstern,regardless,hardy,beautifulface;`butI
  havethoughtofitsometimes,inthecourseofmyloneyears,tillIhavegotusedtoit。Ihaveheardsometalkaboutdutyfirstandlast;
  butithasalwaysbeenofmydutytootherpeople。Ihavewonderednowandthen——topassawaythetime——whethernooneeverowedanydutytome。'
  Hermothersatmowing,andmumbling,andshakingherhead,butwhetherangrilyorremorsefully,orindenial,oronlyinherphysicalinfirmity,didnotappear。
  `TherewasachildcalledAliceMarwood,'saidthedaughter,withalaugh,andlookingdownatherselfinterriblederisionofherself,`born,amongpovertyandneglect,andnursedinit。Nobodytaughther,nobodysteppedforwardtohelpher,nobodycaredforher。'
  `Nobody!'echoedthemother,pointingtoherself,andstrikingherbreast。
  `Theonlycaresheknew,'returnedthedaughter,`wastobebeaten,andstinted,andabusedsometimes;andshemighthavedonebetterwithoutthat。Shelivedinhomeslikethis,andinthestreets,withacrowdoflittlewretcheslikeherself;andyetshebroughtgoodlooksoutofthischildhood。Somuchtheworseforher。Shehadbetterhavebeenhuntedandworriedtodeathforugliness。'
  `Goon!goon!'exclaimedthemother。
  `Iamgoingon,'returnedthedaughter。`TherewasagirlcalledAliceMarwood。Shewashandsome。Shewastaughttoolate,andtaughtallwrong。Shewastoowellcaredfor,toowelltrained,toowellhelpedon,toomuchlookedafter。Youwereveryfondofher——youwerebetteroffthen。
  Whatcametothatgirlcomestothousandseveryyear。Itwasonlyruin,andshewasborntoit。'
  `Afteralltheseyears!'whinedtheoldwoman。`Mygalbeginswiththis。'
  `She'llsoonhaveended,'saidthedaughter。`TherewasacriminalcalledAliceMarwood——agirlstill,butdesertedandanoutcast。Andshewastried,andshewassentenced。Andlord,howthegentlemenintheCourttalkedaboutit!andhowgravethejudgewasonherduty,andonherhavingpervertedthegiftsofnature——asifhedidn'tknowbetterthananybodythere,thattheyhadbeenmadecursestoher!——andhowhepreachedaboutthestrongarmoftheLaw——soverystrongtosaveher,whenshewasaninnocentandhelplesslittlewretch;andhowsolemnandreligiousitallwas。Ihavethoughtofthat,manytimessince,tobesure!'
  Shefoldedherarmstightlyonherbreast,andlaughedinatonethatmadethehowloftheoldwomanmusical。
  `SoAliceMarwoodwastransported,mother,'shepursued,`andwassenttolearnherduty,wheretherewastwentytimeslessduty,andmorewickedness,andwrong,andinfamy,thanhere。AndAliceMarwoodiscomebackawoman。Suchawomanassheoughttobe,afterallthis。Ingoodtime,therewillbemoresolemnity,andmorefinetalk,andmorestrongarm,mostlikely,andtherewillbeanendofher;butthegentlemenneedn'tbeafraidofbeingthrownoutofwork。There'scrowdsoflittlewretches,boyandgirl,growingupinanyofthestreetstheylivein,that'llkeepthemtotillthey'vemadetheirfortunes。'
  Theoldwomanleanedherelbowsonthetable,andrestingherfaceuponhertwohands,madeashowofbeingingreatdistress——orreallywas,perhaps。
  `There!Ihavedone,mother,'saidthedaughter,withamotionofherhead,asifindismissalofthesubject。`Ihavesaidenough。Don'tletyouandItalkofbeingdutiful,whateverwedo。Yourchildhoodwaslikemine,Isuppose。Somuchtheworseforbothofus。Idon'twanttoblameyou,ortodefendmyself;whyshouldI?That'salloverlongago。
  ButIamawoman——notagirl,now——andyouandIneedn'tmakeashowofourhistory,likethegentlemenintheCourt。Weknowallaboutitwellenough。'
  Lostanddegradedasshewas,therewasabeautyinher,bothoffaceandform,which,eveninitsworstexpression,couldnotbutberecognisedassuchbyanyoneregardingherwiththeleastattention。Asshesubsidedintosilence,andherfacewhichhadbeenharshlyagitated,quieteddown;whileherdarkeyes,fixeduponthefire,exchangedtherecklesslightthathadanimatedthem,foronethatwassoftenedbysomethinglikesorrow;thereshonethroughallherwaywornmiseryandfatigue,arayofthedepartedradianceofthefallenangel。
  Hermother,afterwatchingherforsometimewithoutspeaking,venturedtostealherwitheredhandalittlenearertoheracrossthetable;
  andfindingthatshepermittedthis,totouchherfaceandsmoothherhair。
  Withthefeelingasitseemed,thattheoldwomanwasatleastsincereinthisshowofinterest,Alicemadenomovementtocheckher;so,advancingbydegrees,sheboundupherdaughter'shairafresh,tookoffherwetshoes,iftheydeservedthename,spreadsomethingdryuponhershoulders,andhoveredhumblyabouther,mutteringtoherself,assherecognisedheroldfeaturesandexpressionmoreandmore。
  `Youareverypoor,mother,Isee,'saidAlice,lookinground,whenshehadsatthusforsometime。
  `Bitterpoor,mydeary,'repliedtheoldwoman。
  Sheadmiredherdaughter,andwasafraidofher。Perhapsheradmiration,suchasitwas,hadoriginatedlongago,whenshefirstfoundanythingthatwasbeautifulappearinginthemidstofthesqualidfightofherexistence。
  Perhapsherfearwasreferable,insomesort,totheretrospectshehadsolatelyheard。Bethisasitmight,shestood,submissivelyanddeferentially,beforeherchild,andinclinedherhead,asifinapitifulentreatytobesparedanyfurtherreproach。
  `Howhaveyoulived?'
  `Bybegging,mydeary。'
  `Andpilfering,mother?'
  `Sometimes,Ally——inaverysmallway。Iamoldandtimid。Ihavetakentriflesfromchildrennowandthen,mydeary,butnotoften。Ihavetrampedaboutthecountry,pet,andIknowwhatIknow。Ihavewatched。'
  `Watched?'returnedthedaughter,lookingather。
  `Ihavehungaboutafamily,mydeary,'saidthemother,evenmorehumblyandsubmissivelythanbefore。
  `Whatfamily?'
  `Hush,darling,Don'tbeangrywithme,Ididitfortheloveofyou。Inmemoryofmypoorgalbeyondseas。'Sheputoutherhanddeprecatingly,anddrawingitbackagain,laiditonherlips。
  `Yearsago,mydeary,'shepursued,glancingtimidlyattheattentiveandsternfaceopposedtoher。`Icameacrosshislittlechild,bychance。'
  `Whosechild?'
  `Nothis,Alicedeary;don'tlookatmelikethat;nothis。Howcoulditbehis?Youknowhehasnone。'
  `Whosethen?'returnedthedaughter。`Yousaidhis。'
  `Hush,Ally;youfrightenme,deary。Mr。Dombey's——onlyMr。Dombey's。
  Sincethen,darling,Ihaveseenthemoften。Ihaveseenhim。'
  Inutteringhislastword,theoldwomanshrunkandrecoiled,asifwithasuddenfearthatherdaughterwouldstrikeher。Butthoughthedaughter'sfacewasfixeduponher,andexpressedthemostvehementpassion,sheremainedstill:exceptthatsheclenchedherarmstighterandtighterwithineachother,onherbosom,asiftorestrainthembythatmeansfromdoinganinjurytoherself,orsomeoneelse,intheblindfuryofthewraththatsuddenlypossessedher。
  `LittlehethoughtwhoIwas!'saidtheoldwoman,shakingherclenchedhand。
  `Andlittlehecared!'mutteredherdaughter,betweenherteeth。
  `Buttherewewere,'saidtheoldwoman,`facetoface。Ispoketohim,andhespoketome。Isatandwatchedhimashewentawaydownalonggroveoftrees:andateverystephetook,Icursedhimsoulandbody。'
  `Hewillthriveinspiteofthat,'returnedthedaughterdisdainfully。
  `Aye,heisthriving,'saidthemother。
  Sheheldherpeace;forthefaceandformbeforeherwereunshapedbyrange。Itseemedasifthebosomwouldburstwiththeemotionsthatstrovewithinit。Theeffortthatconstrainedandhelditpentup,wasnolessformidablethantherageitself:nolessbespeakingtheviolentanddangerouscharacterofthewomanwhomadeit。Butitsucceeded,andsheasked,afterasilence:
  `Ishemarried?'
  `No,deary,'saidthemother。
  `Goingtobe?'
  `NotthatIknowof,deary。Buthismasterandfriendismarried。
  Oh,wemaygivehimjoy!Wemaygive'emalljoy!'criedtheoldwoman,huggingherselfwithherleanarmsinherexultation。`Nothingbutjoytouswillcomeofthatmarriage。Mindme!'
  Thedaughterlookedatherforanexplanation。
  `Butyouarewetandtired:hungryandthirsty,'saidtheoldwoman,hobblingtothecupboard;`andthere'slittlehere,andlittle'——divingdownintoherpocket,andjinglingafewhalf-penceonthetable——`littlehere。Haveyouanymoney,Alice,deary?'
  Thecovetous,sharp,eagerfacewithwhichsheaskedthequestionandlookedon,asherdaughtertookoutofherbosomthelittlegiftshehadsolatelyreceived,toldalmostasmuchofthehistoryofthisparentandchildasthechildherselfhadtoldinwords。
  `Isthatall?'saidthemother。
  `Ihavenomore。Ishouldnothavethis,butforcharity。'
  `Butforcharity,eh,deary?'saidtheoldwoman,bendinggreedilyoverthetabletolookatthemoney,whichsheappeareddistrustfulofherdaughter'sstillretaininginherhand,andgazingon。`Humph!sixandsixistwelve,andsixeighteen——so——wemusttakethemostofit。I'llgobuysomethingtoeatanddrink。'
  Withgreateralacritythanmighthavebeenexpectedinoneofherappearance——forageandmiseryseemedtohavemadeherasdecrepitasugly——shebegantooccupyhertremblinghandsintyinganoldbonnetonherhead,andfoldingatornshawlaboutherself:stilleyeingthemoneyinherdaughter'shand,withthesamesharpdesire。
  `Whatjoyistocometousofthismarriage,mother?'askedthedaughter。`Youhavenottoldmethat。'
  `Thejoy,'shereplied,attiringherself,withfumblingfingers,`ofnoloveatall,andmuchprideandhate,mydeary。Thejoyofconfusionandstrifeamong'em,proudastheyare,andofdaughter-danger,Alice!'
  `Whatdanger?'
  `IhaveseenwhatIhaveseen。IknowwhatIknow!'
  chuckledthemother。`Letsomelooktoit。Letsomebeupontheirguard。
  Mygalmaykeepgoodcompanyyet!'
  Then,seeingthatinthewonderingearnestnesswithwhichherdaughterregardedher,herhandinvoluntarilycloseduponthemoney,theoldwomanmademorespeedtosecureit,andhurriedlyadded,`butI'llgobuysomething;I'llgobuysomething。'
  Asshestoodwithherhandstretchedoutbeforeherdaughter,herdaughter,glancingagainatthemoney,putittoherlipsbeforepartingwithit。
  `What,Ally!Doyoukissit?'chuckledtheoldwoman。`That'slikeme——I
  oftendo,Oh,it'ssogoodtous!'squeezingherowntarnishedhalfpenceuptoherbagofathroat,`sogoodtousineverythingbutnotcominginheaps!'
  `Ikissit,mother,'saidthedaughter,`orIdidthen——Idon'tknowthatIeverdidbefore——forthegiver'ssake。'
  `Thegiver,eh,deary?'retortedtheoldwoman,whosedimmedeyesglistenedasshetookit。`Aye!I'llkissitforthegiver'ssake,too,whenthegivercanmakeitgofarther。ButI'llgospendit,deary。I'llbebackdirectly。'
  `Youseemtosayyouknowagreatdeal,mother,'saidthedaughter,followinghertothedoorwithhereyes。`Youhavegrownverywisesinceweparted。'
  `Know!'croakedtheoldwoman,comingbackasteportwo,`Iknowmorethanyouthink。Iknowmorethanhethinks,deary,asI'lltellyoubyandbye。Iknowallabouthim。'
  Thedaughtersmiledincredulously。
  `Iknowofhisbrother,Alice,'saidtheoldwoman,stretchingoutherneckwithaleerofmaliceabsolutelyfrightful,`whomighthavebeenwhereyouhavebeen——forstealingmoney——andwholiveswithhissister,overyonder,bythenorthroadoutofLondon。'
  `Where?'
  `BythenorthroadoutofLondon,deary。Youshallseethehouseifyoulike。Itan'tmuchtoboastof,genteelashisownis。No,no,no,'
  criedtheoldwoman,shakingherheadandlaughing;forherdaughterhadstartedup,`notnow;it'stoofaroff;it'sbythemilestone,wherethestonesareheaped;——to-morrow,deary,ifit'sfine,andyouareinthehumour。ButI'llgospend——'
  `Stop!'andthedaughterflungherselfuponher,withherformerpassionraginglikeafire。`Thesisterisafair-facedDevil,withbrownhair?'
  Theoldwoman,amazedandterrified,noddedherhead。
  `Iseetheshadowofhiminherface!It'saredhousestandingbyitself。Beforethedoorthereisasmallgreenporch。'
  Againtheoldwomannodded。
  `InwhichIsatto-day!Givemebackthemoney。'
  `Alice!Deary!'
  `Givemebackthemoney,oryou'llbehurt。'
  Sheforceditfromtheoldwoman'shandasshespoke,andutterlyindifferenttohercomplainingsandentreaties,threwonthegarmentsshehadtakenof,andhurriedout,withheadlongspeed。
  Themotherfollowed,limpingafterherasshecould,andexpostulatingwithnomoreeffectuponherthanuponthewindandrainanddarknessthatencompassedthem。Obdurateandfierceinherownpurpose,andindifferenttoallbesides,thedaughterdefiedtheweatherandthedistance,asifshehadknownnotravelorfatigue,andmadeforthehousewhereshehadbeenrelieved。Aftersomequarterofanhour'swalking,theoldwoman,spentandoutofbreath,venturedtoholdbyherskirts;butsheventurednomore,andtheytravelledoninsilencethroughthewetandgloom。Ifthemothernowandthenutteredawordofcomplaint,shestifleditlestherdaughtershouldbreakawayfromherandleaveherbehind;andthedaughterwasdumb。
  Itwaswithinanhourorsoofmidnight,whentheylefttheregularstreetsbehindthem,andenteredonthedeepergloomofthatneutralgroundwherethehousewassituated。Thetownlayinthedistance,luridandlowering;
  thebleakwindhowledovertheopenspace;allaroundwasblack,wild,desolate。
  `Thisisafitplaceforme!'saidthedaughter,stoppingtolookback。`Ithoughtso,whenIwasherebefore,to-day。'
  `Alice,mydeary,'criedthemother,pullinghergentlybytheskirt。`Alice!'
  `Whatnow,mother?'
  `Don'tgivethemoneyback,mydarling;pleasedon't。Wecan'taffordit。Wewantsupper,deary。Moneyismoney,whoevergivesit。Saywhatyouwill,butkeepthemoney。'
  `Seethere!'wasallthedaughter'sanswer。`ThatisthehouseImean。Isthatit?'
  Theoldwomannoddedintheaffirmative;andafewmorepacesbroughtthemtothethreshold。TherewasthelightoffireandcandleintheroomwhereAlicehadsattodryherclothes;andonherknockingatthedoor,JohnCarkerappearedfromthatroom。
  Hewassurprisedtoseesuchvisitorsatsuchanhour,andaskedAlicewhatshewanted。
  `Iwantyoursister,'shesaid。`Thewomanwhogavememoneyto-day。'
  Atthesoundofherraisedvoice,Harrietcameout。
  `Oh!'saidAlice。`Youarehere!Doyourememberme?'
  `Yes,'sheanswered,wondering。
  Thefacethathadhumbleditselfbeforeher,lookedonhernowwithsuchinvinciblehatredanddefiance;andthehandthathadgentlytouchedherarm,wasclenchedwithsuchashowofevilpurpose,asifitwouldgladlystrangleher;thatshedrewclosetoherbrotherforprotection。
  `ThatIcouldspeakwithyou,andnotknowyou!ThatIcouldcomenearyou,andnotfeelwhatbloodwasrunninginyourveins,bythetinglingofmyown!'saidAlice,withamenacinggesture。
  `Whatdoyoumean?WhathaveIdone?'
  `Done!'returnedtheother。`Youhavesatmebyyourfire;youhavegivenmefoodandmoney;youhavebestowedyourcompassiononme!
  You!whosenameIspitupon!'
  Theoldwoman,withamalevolencethatmadeheruglinessquiteawful,shookherwitheredhandatthebrotherandsisterinconfirmationofherdaughter,butpluckedherbytheskirtsagain,nevertheless,imploringhertokeepthemoney。
  `IfIdroppedatearuponyourhand,mayitwitheritup!IfIspokeagentlewordinyourhearing,mayitdeafenyou!IfItouchedyouwithmylips,maythetouchbepoisontoyou!Acurseuponthisroofthatgavemeshelter!Sorrowandshameuponyourhead!Ruinuponallbelongingtoyou!'
  Asshesaidthewords,shethrewthemoneydownupontheground,andspurneditwithherfoot。
  `Itreaditinthedust:Iwouldn'ttakeitifitpavedmywaytoHeaven!Iwouldthebleedingfootthatbroughtmehereto-day,hadrottedoff,beforeitledmetoyourhouse!'
  Harriet,paleandtrembling,restrainedherbrother,andsufferedhertogoonuninterrupted。
  `ItwaswellthatIshouldbepitiedandforgivenbyyou,oranyoneofyourname,inthefirsthourofmyreturn!Itwaswellthatyoushouldactthekindgoodladytome!I'llthankyouwhenIdie;I'llprayforyou,andallyourrace,youmaybesure!'
  Withafierceactionofherhand,asifshesprinkledhatredontheground,andwithitdevotedthosewhowerestandingtheretodestruction,shelookeduponceattheblacksky,andstrodeoutintothewildnight。
  Themother,whohadpluckedatherskirtsagainandagaininvain,andhadeyedthemoneylyingonthethresholdwithanabsorbinggreedthatseemedtoconcentrateherfacultiesuponit,wouldhaveprowledabout,untilthehousewasdark,andthengropedinthemireonthechanceofrepossessingherselfofit。Butthedaughterdrewheraway,andtheysetforth,straight,ontheirreturntotheirdwelling;theoldwomanwhimperingandbemoaningtheirlossupontheroad,arefretfullybewailing,asopenlyasshedared,theundutifulconductofherhandsomegirlindeprivingherofasupper,ontheveryfirstnightoftheirreunion。
  Supperlesstobedshewent,savingforafewcoarsefragments;
  andthoseshesatmumblingandmunchingoverascrapoffire,longafterherundutifuldaughterlayasleep。
  Werethismiserablemother,andthismiserabledaughter,onlythereductiontotheirlowestgrade,ofcertainsocialvicessometimesprevailinghigherup?Inthisroundworldofmanycircleswithincircles,dowemakeawearyjourneyfromthehighgradetothelow,tofindatlastthattheylieclosetogether,thatthetwoextremestouch,andthatourjourney'sendisbutourstarting-place?Allowingforgreatdifferenceofstuffandtexture,wasthepatternofthiswoofrepeatedamonggentlebloodatall?
  Say,EdithDombey!AndCleopatra,bestofmothers,letushaveyourtestimony!
  [NextChapter][TableofContents]DICKENS:DombeyandSon,Chapter35[PreviousChapter][TableofContents]CHAPTERXXXVTheHappyPairTHEdarkblotonthestreetisgone。Mr。Dombey'smansion,ifitbeagapamongtheotherhousesanylonger,isonlysobecauseitisnottobeviedwithinitsbrightness,andhaughtilycaststhemoff。Thesayingis,thathomeishome,beitneversohomely。Ifitholdgoodintheoppositecontingency,andhomeishomebeitneversostately,whatanaltartotheHouseholdGodsisraiseduphere!
  Lightsaresparklinginthewindowsthisevening,andtheruddyglowoffiresiswarmandbrightuponthehangingsandsoftcarpets,andthedinnerwaitstobeserved,andthedinnertableishandsomelysetforth,thoughonlyforfourpersons,andthesideboardiscumbrouswithplate。
  Itisthefirsttimethatthehousehasbeenarrangedforoccupationsinceitslatechanges,andthehappypairarelookedforeveryminute。
  Onlysecondtotheweddingmorning,intheinterestandexpectationitengendersamongthehousehold,isthiseveningofthecominghome。Mrs。
  Perchisinthekitchentakingtea;andhasmadethetouroftheestablishment,andpricedthesilksanddamasksbytheyard,andexhaustedeveryinterjectioninthedictionaryandoutofitexpressiveofadmirationandwonder。Theupholsterer'sforeman,whohaslefthishat,withapocket-handkerchiefinit,bothsmellingstronglyofvarnish,underachairinthehall,lurksaboutthehouse,gazingupwardsatthecornices,anddownwardatthecarpets,andoccasionally,inasilenttransportofenjoyment,takingaruleoutofhispocket,andskirmishinglymeasuringexpensiveobjects,withunutterablefeelings。Cookisinhighspirits,andsaysgiveheraplacewherethere'splentyofcompanyasshe'llbetyousixpencetherewillbenow,forsheisofalivelydisposition,andshealwayswasfromachild,andshedon'tmindwhoknowsit;whichsentimentelicitsfromthebreastofMrs。Percharesponsivemurmurofsupportandapprobation。Allthehousemaidhopesis,happinessfor'em——butmarriageisalottery,andthemoreshethinksaboutit,themoreshefeelstheindependenceandthesafetyofasinglelife。Mr。Towlinsonissaturnineandgrim,andsaysthat'shisopiniontoo,andgivehimWarbesides,anddownwiththeFrench——forthisyoungmanhasageneralimpressionthateveryforeignerisaFrenchmanandmustbebythelawsofnature。
  Ateachnewsoundofwheels,theyallstop,whatevertheyaresaying,andlisten;andmorethanoncethereisageneralstartingupandacryof`Heretheyare!'Butheretheyarenotyet;andCookbeginstomournoverthedinner,whichhasbeenputbacktwice,andtheupholsterer'sforemanstillgoeslurkingabouttherooms,undisturbedinhisblissfulreverie!
  Florenceisreadytoreceiveherfatherandhernewmama。Whethertheemotionsthatarethrobbinginherbreastoriginateinpleasureorinpain,shehardlyknows。Buttheflutteringheartsendsaddedcolourtohercheeks,andbrightnesstohereyes;andtheysaydownstairs,drawingtheirheadstogether——fortheyalwaysspeaksoftlywhentheyspeakofher——howbeautifulMissFlorencelooksto-night,andwhatasweetyoungladyshehasgrown,poordear!Apausesucceeds;andthenCook,feeling,aspresident,thathersentimentsarewaitedfor,wonderswhether——andtherestops。Thehousemaidwonderstoo,andsodoesMrs。Perch,whohasthehappysocialfacultyofalwayswonderingwhenotherpeoplewonder,withoutbeingatallparticularwhatshewondersat。Mr。Towlinson,whonowdescriesanopportunityofbringingdownthespiritsoftheladiestohisownlevel,sayswaitandsee;hewishessomepeoplewerewelloutofthis。Cookleadsasighthen,andamurmurof`Ah,it'sastrangeworld,itisindeed!'
  andwhenithasgoneroundthetable,addspersuasively,`butMissFlorencecan'twellbetheworseforanychange,Tom。'Mr。Towlinson'srejoinder,pregnantwithfrightfulmeaning,is`Oh,can'tshethough!'andsensiblethatameremancanscarcelybemoreprophetic,orimproveuponthat,heholdshispeace。
  Mrs。Skewton,preparedtogreetherdarlingdaughteranddearson-in-lawwithopenarms,isappropriatelyattiredforthatpurposeinaveryyouthfulcostume,withshortsleeves。Atpresent,however,herripecharmsarebloomingintheshadeofherownapartments,whenceshehasnotemergedsinceshetookpossessionofthemafewhoursago,andwheresheisfastgrowingfretful,onaccountofthepostponementofdinner。
  Themaidwhooughttobeaskeleton,butisintruthabuxomdamsel,is,ontheotherhand,inamostamiablestate:consideringherquarterlystipendmuchsaferthanheretofore,andforeseeingagreatimprovementinherboardandlodging。
  Wherearethehappypair,forwhomthisbravehomeiswaiting?
  Dosteam,tide,wind,andhorses,allabatetheirspeed,tolingeronsuchhappiness?Doestheswarmoflovesandgraceshoveringaboutthemretardtheirprogressbyitsnumbers?Aretheresomanyflowersintheirhappypath,thattheycanscarcelymovealong,withoutentanglementinthornlessroses,andsweetestbriar?
  Theyarehereatlast!Thenoiseofwheelsisheard,growslouder,andacarriagedrivesuptothedoor!AthunderingknockfromtheobnoxiousforeigneranticipatestherushofMr。Towlinsonandpartytoopenit;andMr。Dombeyandhisbridealight,andwalkinarminarm。
  `MysweetestEdith!'criesanagitatedvoiceuponthestairs。
  `MydearestDombey!'andtheshortsleeveswreaththemselvesaboutthehappycoupleinturn,andembracethem。
  Florencehadcomedowntothehalltoo,butdidnotadvance:reservinghertimidwelcomeuntiltheseneareranddearertransportsshouldsubside。
  ButtheeyesofEdithsoughtherout,uponthethreshold;anddismissinghersensitiveparentwithaslightkissonthecheek,shehurriedontoFlorenceandembracedher。
  `Howdoyoudo,Florence?'saidMr。Dombey,puttingouthishand。
  AsFlorence,trembling,raisedittoherlips,shemethisglance。
  Thelookwascoldanddistantenough,butitstirredherhearttothinkthatsheobservedinitsomethingmoreofinterestthanhehadevershownbefore。Itevenexpressedakindoffaintsurprise,andnotadisagreeablesurprise,atsightofher。Shedarednotraisehereyestohisanymore;
  butshefeltthathelookedatheronceagain,andhotlessfavourably。
  Ohwhatathrillofjoyshotthroughher,awakenedbyeventhisintangibleandbaselessconfirmationofherhopethatshewouldlearntowinhim,throughhernewandbeautifulmama!
  `Youwillnotbelongdressing,Mrs。Dombey,Ipresume?'saidMr。Dombey。
  `Ishallbereadyimmediately。'
  `Letthemsendupdinnerinaquarterofanhour。'
  WiththatMr。Dombeystalkedawaytohisowndressingroom,andMrs。Dombeywentupstairstohers。Mrs。SkewtonandFlorencerepairedtothedrawing-room,wherethatexcellentmotherconsidereditincumbentonhertoshedafewirrepressibletears,supposedtobeforcedfromherbyherdaughter'sfelicity;andwhichshewasstilldrying,verygingerly,withalacedcornerofherpocket-handkerchief,whenherson-in-lawappeared。
  `Andhow,mydearestDombey,didyoufindthatdelightfullestofcities,Paris?'sheasked,subduingheremotion。
  `Itwascold,'returnedMr。Dombey。
  `Gayasever,'saidMrs。Skewton,`ofcourse。'
  `Notparticularly。Ithoughtitdull,'saidMr。Dombey。
  `Fie,mydearestDombey!'archly;`dull!'
  `Itmadethatimpressionuponme,madam,'saidMr。Dombey,withgravepoliteness。`IbelieveMrs。Dombeyfounditdulltoo。Shementionedonceortwicethatshethoughtitso。'
  `Why,younaughtygirl!'criedMrs。Skewton,rallyingherdearchild,whonowentered,`whatdreadfullyhereticalthingshaveyoubeensayingaboutParis?'
  Edithraisedhereyebrowswithanairofweariness;andpassingthefolding-doorswhichwerethrownopentodisplaythesuiteofroomsintheirnewandhandsomegarniture,andbarelyglancingatthemasshepassed,satdownbyFlorence。
  `MydearDombey,'saidMrs。Skewton,`howcharminglythesepeoplehavecarriedouteveryideathatwehinted。Theyhavemadeaperfectpalaceofthehouse,positively。'
  `Itishandsome,'saidMr。Dombey,lookinground。`Idirectedthatnoexpenseshouldbespared;andallthatmoneycoulddo,hasbeendone,Ibelieve。'
  `Andwhatcanitnotdo,dearDombey?'observedCleopatra。
  `Itispowerful,madam,'saidMr。Dombey。
  Helookedinhissolemnwaytowardshiswife,butnotawordsaidshe。
  `Ihope,Mrs。Dombey,'addressingherafteramoment'ssilence,withespecialdistinctness;`thatthesealterationsmeetwithyourapproval?'
  `Theyareashandsomeastheycanbe,'shereturned,withhaughtycarelessness。`Theyshouldbeso,ofcourse。AndIsupposetheyare。'
  Anexpressionofscornwashabitualtotheproudface,andseemedinseparablefromit;butthecontemptwithwhichitreceivedanyappealtoadmiration,respect,orconsiderationonthegroundofhisriches,nomatterhowslightorordinaryinitself,wasanewanddifferentexpression,unequalledinintensitybyanyotherofwhichitwascapable。WhetherMr。
  Dombey,wrappedinhisowngreatness,wasatallawareofthis,orno,therehadnotbeenwantingopportunitiesalreadyforhiscompleteenlightenment;
  andatthatmomentitmighthavebeeneffectedbytheoneglanceofthedarkeyethatlightedonhim,afterithadrapidlyandscornfullysurveyedthethemeofhisself-glorification。Hemighthavereadinthatoneglancethatnothingthathiswealthcoulddo,thoughitwereincreasedtenthousandfold,couldwinhimforitsownsake,onelookofsoftenedrecognitionfromthedefiantwoman,linkedtohim,butarrayedwithherwholesoulagainsthim。Hemighthavereadinthatoneglancethatevenforitssordidandmercenaryinfluenceuponherself,shespurnedit,whilesheclaimeditsutmostpowerasherright,herbargain——asthebaseandworthlessrecompenseforwhichshehadbecomehiswife。Hemighthavereadinitthat,everbaringherownheadforthelightningofherowncontemptandpridetostrike,themostinnocentallusiontothepowerofhisrichesdegradedheranew,sunkherdeeperinherownrespect,andmadetheblightandwastewithinhermorecomplete。
  Butdinnerwasannounced,andMr。DombeyleddownCleopatra;Edithandhisdaughterfollowing。Sweepingpastthegoldandsilverdemonstrationonthesideboardasifitwereheaped-updirt,anddeigningtobestownolookupontheeleganciesaroundher,shetookherplaceathisboardforthefirsttime,andsat,likeastatue,atthefeast。
  Mr。Dombey,beingagooddealinthestatuewayhimself,waswellenoughpleasedtoseehishandsomewifeimmovableandproudandcold。Herdeportmentbeingalwayselegantandgraceful,thisasageneralbehaviorwasagreeableandcongenialtohim。Presiding,therefore,withhisaccustomeddignity,andnotatallreflectingonhiswifebyanywarmthorhilarityofhisown,heperformedhisshareofthehonoursofthetablewithacoolsatisfaction;andtheinstallationdinner,thoughnotregardeddownstairsasagreatsuccess,orverypromisingbeginning,passedoff,above,inasufficientlypolite,genteel,andfrostymanner。
  Soonaftertea,Mrs。Skewton,whoaffectedtobequiteovercomeandwornoutbyheremotionsofhappiness,arisinginthecontemplationofherdearchildunitedtothemanofherheart,butwho,thereisreasontosuppose,foundthisfamilypartysomewhatdull,assheyawnedforonehourcontinuallybehindherfan,retiredtobed。Edith,also,silentlywithdrewandcamebacknomore。Thus,ithappenedthatFlorence,whohadbeenupstairstohavesomeconversationwithDiogenes,returningtothedrawing-roomwithherlittlework-basket,foundnoonetherebutherfather,whowaswalkingtoandfro,indrearymagnificence。
  `Ibegyourpardon。ShallIgoaway,papa?'saidFlorencefaintly,hesitatingatthedoor。
  `No,'returnedMr。Dombey,lookingroundoverhisshoulder;`youcancomeandgohere,Florence,asyouplease。Thisisnotmyprivateroom。'
  Florenceentered,andsatdownatadistantlittletablewithherwork:findingherselfforthefirsttimeinherlife——fortheveryfirsttimewithinhermemoryfromherinfancytothathour——alonewithherfather,ashiscompanion。She,hisnaturalcompanion,hisonlychild,whoinherlonelylifeandgriefhadknownthesufferingofabreakingheart;who,inherrejectedlove,hadneverbreathedhisnametoGodatnight,butwithatearfulblessing,heavieronhimthanacurse;whohadprayedtodieyoung,soshemightonlydieinhisarms;whohad,allthrough,repaidtheagonyofslightandcoldness,anddislike,withpatientunexactinglove,excusinghim,andpleadingforhim,likehisbetterangel!
  Shetrembled,andhereyesweredim。Hisfigureseemedtogrowinheightandbulkbeforeherashepacedtheroom:nowitwasallblurredandindistinct;nowclearagain,andplain;andnowsheseemedtothinkthatthishadhappened,justthesame,amultitudeofyearsago。Sheyearnedtowardshim,andyetshrunkfromhisapproach。Unnaturalemotioninachild,innocentofwrong!Unnaturalthehandthathaddirectedthesharpplough,whichfurroweduphergentlenatureforthesowingofitsseeds!
  Bentuponnotdistressingoroffendinghimbyherdistress,Florencecontrolledherself,andsatquietlyatherwork。Afterafewmoreturnsacrossandacrosstheroom,heleftoffpacingit;andwithdrawingintoashadowycorneratsomedistance,wheretherewasaneasychair,coveredhisheadwithahandkerchief,andcomposedhimselftosleep。
  ItwasenoughforFlorencetosittherewatchinghim;turninghereyestowardshischairfromtimetotime;watchinghimwithherthoughts,whenherfacewasintentuponherwork;andsorrowfullygladtothinkthathecouldsleep,whileshewasthere,andthathewasnotmaderestlessbyherstrangeandlong-forbiddenpresence。
  Whatwouldhavebeenherthoughtsifshehadknownthathewassteadilyregardingher;thattheveiluponhisface,byaccidentorbydesign,wassoadjustedthathissightwasfree,andthatitneverwanderedfromherfaceaninstant!Thatwhenshelookedtowardshim,intheobscuredarkcorner,herspeakingeyes,moreearnestandpatheticintheirvoicelessspeechthanalltheoratorsofalltheworld,andimpeachinghimmorenearlyintheirmuteaddress,methis,anddidnotknowit!Thatwhenshebentherheadagainoverherwork,hedrewhisbreathmoreeasily,butwiththesameattentionlookeduponherstill——uponherwhitebrowandherfallinghair,andbusyhands;andonceattracted,seemedtohavenopowertoturnhiseyesaway!
  Andwhatwerehisthoughtsmeanwhile?Withwhatemotionsdidheprolongtheattentivegazecovertlydirectedonhisunknowndaughter?Wastherereproachtohiminthequietfigureandthemildeyes?Hadhebeguntofeelherdisregardedclaims,anddidtheytouchhimhomeatlast,andwakenhimtosomesenseofhiscruelinjustice?
  Thereareyieldingmomentsinthelivesofthesternestandharshestmen,thoughsuchmenoftenkeeptheirsecretwell。Thesightofherinherbeauty,almostchangedintoawomanwithouthisknowledge,mayhavestruckoutsomesuchmomentseveninhislifeofpride。Somepassingthoughtthathehadhadahappyhomewithinhisreach——hadhadahouseholdspiritbendingathisfeet——hadoverlookeditinhisstiffneckedsullenarrogance,andwanderedawayandlosthimself,mayhaveengenderedthem。Somesimpleeloquencedistinctlyheard,thoughonlyutteredinhereyes,unconsciousthathereadthem,as`Bythedeath-bedsIhavetended,bythechildhoodIhavesuffered,byourmeetinginthisdrearyhouseatmidnight,bythecrywrungfrommeintheanguishofmyheart,oh,father,turntomeandseekarefugeinmylovebeforeitistoolate!'mayhavearrestedthem。
  Meanerandlowerthoughts,asthathisdeadboywasnowsupersededbynewties,andhecouldforgivethehavingbeensupplantedinhisaffection,mayhaveoccasionedthem。Themereassociationofherasanornament,withalltheornamentandpompabouthim,mayhavebeensufficient。Butashelooked,hesoftenedtoher,moreandmore。Ashelooked,shebecameblendedwiththechildhehadloved,andhecouldhardlyseparatethetwo。Ashelooked,hesawherforaninstantbyaclearerandabrighterlight,notbendingoverthatchild'spillowashisrival——monstrousthought——butasthespiritofhishome,andintheactiontendinghimselfnoless,ashesatoncemorewithhisbowed-downheaduponhishandatthefootofthelittlebed。Hefeltinclinedtospeaktoher,andcallhertohim。Thewords`Florence,comehere!'wererisingtohislips——butslowlyandwithdifficulty,theyweresoverystrange——whentheywerecheckedandstifledbyafootsteponthestair。
  Itwashiswife's。Shehadexchangedherdinnerdressforalooserobe,andunboundherhair,whichfellfreelyaboutherneck。Butthiswasnotthechangeinherthatstartledhim。
  `Florence,dear,'shesaid,`Ihavebeenlookingforyoueverywhere。'
  AsshesatdownbythesideofFlorence,shestoopedandkissedherhand。Hehardlyknewhiswife。Shewassochanged。Itwasnotmerelythathersmilewasnewtohim——thoughthathehadneverseen:buthermanner,thetoneofhervoice,thelightofhereyes,theinterest,andconfidence,andwinningwishtoplease,expressedinall——thiswasnotEdith。
  `Softly,dearMama。Papaisasleep。'
  ItwasEdithnow。Shelookedtowardsthecornerwherehewas,andheknewthatfaceandmannerverywell。
  `Iscarcelythoughtyoucouldbehere,Florence。'
  Again,howalteredandhowsoftened,inaninstant!
  `Ilefthereearly,'pursuedEdith,`purposelytositupstairsandtalkwithyou。But,goingtoyourroom,Ifoundmybirdwasflown,andIhavebeenwaitingthereeversince,expectingitsreturn。'
  Ifithadbeenabird,indeed,shecouldnothavetakenitmoretenderlyandgentlytoherbreast,thanshedidFlorence。
  `Come,dear!'
  `Papawillnotexpecttofindme,Isuppose,whenhewakes,'hesitatedFlorence。
  `Doyouthinkhewill,Florence?'saidEdith,lookingfulluponher。
  Florencedroopedherhead,androse,andputupherworkbasket。
  Edithdrewherhandthroughherarm,andtheywentoutoftheroomlikesisters。Herverystepwasdifferentandnewtohim,Mr。Dombeythought,ashiseyesfollowedhertothedoor。
  Hesatinhisshadowycornersolong,thatthechurchclocksstruckthehourthreetimesbeforehemovedthatnight。AllthatwhilehisfacewasstillintentuponthespotwhereFlorencehadbeenseated。Theroomgrewdarker,asthecandleswanedandwentout;butadarknessgatheredonhisface,exceedinganythatthenightcouldcast,andrestedthere。
  FlorenceandEdith,seatedbeforethefireintheremoteroomwherelittlePaulhaddied,talkedtogetherforalongtime。Diogenes,whowasoftheparty,hadatfirstobjectedtotheadmissionofEdith,and,evenindeferencetohismistress'swish,hadonlypermitteditundergrowlingprotest。But,emergingbylittleandlittlefromtheante-room,whitherhehadretiredindudgeon,hesoonappearedtocomprehend,thatwiththemostamiableintensionshehadmadeoneofthosemistakeswhichwilloccasionallyariseinthebest-regulateddogs'minds;asafriendlyapologyforwhichhestuckhimselfuponendbetweenthetwo,inaveryhotplaceinfrontofthefire,andsatpantingatit,withhistongueout,andamostimbecileexpressionofcountenance,listeningtotheconversation。
  Itturned,atfirst,onFlorence'sbooksandfavouritepursuits,andonthemannerinwhichshehadbeguiledtheintervalsincethemarriage。
  Thelastthemeopeneduptoherasubjectwhichlayverynearherheart,andshesaid,withthetearsstartingtohereyes:
  `Oh,Mama!Ihavehadagreatsorrowsincethatday。'
  `Youagreatsorrow,Florence!'
  `Yes。PoorWalterisdrowned。'
  Florencespreadherhandsbeforeherface,andweptwithallherheart。ManyaswerethesecrettearswhichWalter'sfatehadcosther,theyflowedyet,whenshethoughtorspokeofhim。
  `Buttellme,dear,'saidEdith,soothingher。`WhowasWalter?
  Whatwashetoyou?'
  `Hewasmybrother,Mama。AfterdearPauldied,wesaidwewouldbebrotherandsister。Ihadknownhimalongtime——fromalittlechild。
  HeknewPaul,wholikedhimverymuch;Paulsaid,almostatthelast,`TakecareofWalter,dearpapa!Iwasfondofhim!'Walterhadbeenbroughtintoseehim,andwastherethen——inthisroom。'
  `AnddidhetakecareofWalter?'inquiredEdith,sternly。
  `Papa?Heappointedhimtogoabroad。Hewasdrownedinshipwreckonhisvoyage,'saidFlorence,sobbing。
  `Doesheknowthatheisdead?'askedEdith。
  `Icannottell,Mama。Ihavenomeansofknowing。DearMama!'
  criedFlorence,clingingtoherasforhelp,andhidingherfaceuponherbosom,`Iknowthatyouhaveseen——'
  `Stay!Stop,Florence。'Edithturnedsopale,andspokesoearnestly,thatFlorencedidnotneedherrestraininghanduponherlips。`TellmeallaboutWalterfirst;letmeunderstandthishistoryallthrough。'
  Florencerelatedit,andeverythingbelongingtoit,evendowntothefriendshipofMr。Toots,ofwhomshecouldhardlyspeakinherdistresswithoutatearfulsmile,althoughshewasdeeplygratefultohim。Whenshehadconcludedheraccount,tothewholeofwhichEdith,holdingherhand,listenedwithcloseattention,andwhenasilencehadsucceeded,Edithsaid:
  `WhatisitthatyouknowIhaveseen,Florence?'
  `ThatIamnot,'saidFlorence,withthesamemuteappeal,andthesamequickconcealmentofherfaceasbefore,`thatIamnotafavouritechild,Mama。Ineverhavebeen。Ihaveneverknownhowtobe。Ihavemissedtheway,andhadnoonetoshowittome。Oh,letmelearnfromyouhowtobecomedearertoPapa。Teachme!you,whocansowell!'andclingingclosetoher,withsomebrokenferventwordsofgratitudeandendearment,Florence,relivedofhersadsecret,weptlong,butnotaspainfullyasofyore,withintheencirclingarmsofhernewmother。
  Paleeventoherlips,andwithafacethatstroveforcomposureuntilitsproudbeautywasasfixedasdeath,Edithlookeddownupontheweepinggirl,andoncekissedher。Thengraduallydisengagingherself,andputtingFlorenceaway,shesaid,stately,andquietasamarbleimage,andinavoicethatdeepenedasshespoke,buthadnoothertokenofemotioninit:
  `Florence,youdonotknowme!Heavenforbidthatyoushouldlearnfromme!'
  `Notlearnfromyou?'repeatedFlorence,insurprise。
  `ThatIshouldteachyouhowtolove,orbeloved,Heavenforbid!'
  saidEdith。`Ifyoucouldteachme,thatwerebetter;butitistoolate。
  Youaredeartome,Florence。Ididnotthinkthatanythingcouldeverbesodeartome,asyouareinthislittletime。'
  ShesawthatFlorencewouldhavespokenhere,socheckedherwithherhand,andwenton。
  `Iwillbeyourtruefriendalways。Iwillcherishyou,asmuch,ifnotaswellasanyoneinthisworldcould。Youmaytrustinme——IknowitandIsayit,dear,——withthewholeconfidenceevenofyourpureheart。
  Therearehostsofwomenwhomhemighthavemarried,betterandtruerinallotherrespectsthanIam,Florence;butthereisnotonewhocouldcomehere,hiswife,whoseheartcouldbeatwithgreatertruthtoyouthanminedoes。'
  `Iknowit,dearMama!'criedFlorence。`FromthatfirstmosthappydayIhaveknownit。'
  `Mosthappyday!'Edithseemedtorepeatthewordsinvoluntarily,andwenton。`Thoughthemeritisnotmine,forIthoughtlittleofyouuntilIsawyou,lettheundeservedrewardbemineinyourtrustandlove。
  Andinthis——inthis,Florence;onthefirstnightofmytakingupmyabodehere;IamledonasitisbestIshouldbe,tosayitforthefirstandlasttime。'
  Florence,withoutknowingwhy,feltalmostafraidtohearherproceed,butkepthereyesrivetedonthebeautifulfacesofixeduponherown。
  `Neverseektofindinme,'saidEdith,layingherhanduponherbreast,`whatisnothere。Neverifyoucanhelpit,Florence,fallofffrommebecauseitisnothere。Littlebylittleyouwillknowmebetter,andthetimewillcomewhenyouwillknowme,asIknowmyself。Then,beaslenienttomeasyoucan,anddonotturntobitternesstheonlysweetremembranceIshallhave。'
  ThetearsthatwerevisibleinhereyesasshekeptthemfixedonFlorence,showedthatthecomposedfacewasbutasahandsomemask;
  butshepreservedit,andcontinued:
  `Ihaveseenwhatyousay,andknowhowtrueitis。Butbelieveme——youwillsoon,ifyoucannotnow——thereisnooneonthisearthlessqualifiedtosetitrightorhelpyou,Florence,thanI。Neveraskmewhy,orspeaktomeaboutitorofmyhusband,more。Thereshouldbe,sofar,asdivision,andasilencebetweenustwo,likethegraveitself。'
  Shesatforsometimesilent;Florencescarcelyventuringtobreathemeanwhile,asdimandimperfectshadowsofthetruth,andallitsdailyconsequences,chasedeachotherthroughherterrified,yetincredulousimagination。Almostassoonasshehadceasedtospeak,Edith'sfacebegantosubsidefromitssetcomposuretothatquieterandmorerelentingaspect,whichitusuallyworewhensheandFlorencewerealonetogether。Sheshadedit,afterthischange,withherhands;andwhenshearose,andwithanaffectionateembracebadeFlorencegoodnight,wentquickly,andwithoutlookinground。
  ButwhenFlorencewasinbed,andtheroomwasdarkexceptfortheglowofthefire,Edithreturned,andsayingthatshecouldnotsleep,andthatherdressing-roomwaslonely,drewachairuponthehearth,andwatchedtheembersastheydiedaway。Florencewatchedthemtoofromherbed,untilthey,andthenoblefigurebeforethem,crownedwithitsflowinghair,andinitsthoughtfuleyesreflectingbacktheirlight,becameconfusedandindistinct,andfinallywerelostinslumber。
  Inhersleep,however,Florencecouldnotloseanundefinedimpressionofwhathadsorecentlypassed。Itformedthesubjectofherdreams,andhauntedher;nowinoneshape,nowinanother;butalwaysoppressively;
  andwithasenseoffear。Shedreamedofseekingherfatherinwildernesses,offollowinghistrackupfearfulheights,anddownintodeepminesandcaverns;ofbeingchargedwithsomethingthatwouldreleasehimfromextraordinarysuffering——sheknewnotwhat,orwhy——yetneverbeingabletoattainthegoalandsethimfree。Thenshesawhimdead,uponthatverybed,andinthatveryroom,andknewthathehadneverlovedhertothelast,andfelluponhiscoldbreast,passionatelyweeping。Thenaprospectopened,andariverflowed,andaplaintivevoicesheknew,cried,`Itisrunningon,Floy!Ithasneverstopped!Youaremovingwithit!'Andshesawhimatadistancestretchingouthisarmstowardsher,whileafiguresuchasWalter'susedtobe,stoodnearhim,awfullysereneandstill。Ineveryvision,Edithcameandwent,sometimestoherjoy,sometimestohersorrow,untiltheywerealonguponthebrinkofadarkgrave,andEdithpointingdown,shelookedandsaw——what!——anotherEdithlyingatthebottom。
  Intheterrorofthisdream,shecriedoutandawoke,shethought。
  Asoftvoiceseemedtowhisperinherear,`Florence,dearFlorence,itisnothingbutadream!'andstretchingoutherarms,shereturnedthecaressofhernewmama,whothenwentoutatthedoorinthelightofthegreymorning。Inamoment,Florencesatupwonderingwhetherthishadreallytakenplaceornot;butshewasonlycertainthatitwasgreymorningindeed,andthattheblackenedashesofthefirewereonthehearth,andthatshewasalone。
  Sopassedthenightonwhichthehappypaircamehome。
  [NextChapter][TableofContents]DICKENS:DombeyandSon,Chapter36[PreviousChapter][TableofContents]CHAPTERXXXVIHousewarmingMANYsucceedingdayspassedinlikemanner;exceptthattherewerenumerousvisitsreceivedandpaid,andthatMrs。Skewtonheldlittleleveesinherownapartments,atwhichMajorBagstockwasafrequentattendant,andthatFlorenceencounterednosecondlookfromherfather,althoughshesawhimeveryday。Norhadshemuchcommunicationinwordswithhernewmama,whowasimperiousandproudtoallthehousebuther——Florencecouldnotbutobservethat——andwho,althoughshealwayssentforherorwenttoherwhenshecamehomefromvisiting,andwouldalwaysgointoherroomatnight,beforeretiringtorest,howeverlatethehour,andneverlostanopportunityofbeingwithher,wasoftenhersilentandthoughtfulcompanionforalongtimetogether。
  Florence,whohadhopedforsomuchfromthismarriage,couldnothelpsometimescomparingthebrighthousewiththefadeddrearyplaceoutofwhichithadarisen,andwonderingwhen,inanyshape,itwouldbegintobeahome;forthatitwasnohomethen,foranyone,thougheverythingwentonluxuriouslyandregularly,shehadalwaysasecretmisgiving。Manyanhourofsorrowfulreflectionbydayandnight,andmanyatearofblightedhope,Florencebestowedupontheassurancehernewmamahadgivenhersostrongly,thattherewasnooneontheearthmorepowerlessthanherselftoteachherhowtowinherfather'sheart。AndsoonFlorencebegantothink——resolvedtothinkwouldbethetruerphrase——thatasnooneknewsowell,howhopelessofbeingsubduedorchangedherfather'scoldnesstoherwas,soshehadgivenherthiswarning,andforbiddenthesubjectinverycompassion。Unselfishhere,asinhereveryactandfancy,Florencepreferredtobearthepainofthisnewwound,ratherthanencourageanyfaintforeshadowingsofthetruthasitconcernedherfather;tenderofhim,eveninherwanderingthoughts。Asforhishome,shehopeditwouldbecomeabetterone,whenitsstateofnoveltyandtransitionshouldbeover;andforherself,thoughtlittleandlamentedless。
  Ifnoneofthenewfamilywereparticularlyathomeinprivate,itwasresolvedthatMrs。Dombeyatleastshouldbeathomeinpublic,withoutdelay。Aseriesofentertainmentsincelebrationofthelatenuptials,andincultivationofsociety,werearranged,chieflybyMr。DombeyandMrs。Skewton;anditwassettledthatthefestiveproceedingsshouldcommencebyMrs。Dombey'sbeingathomeuponacertainevening,andbyMr。andMrs。
  Dombey'srequestingthehonourofthecompanyofagreatmanyincongruouspeopletodinneronthesameday。
  Accordingly,Mr。Dombeyproducedalistofsundryeasternmagnateswhoweretobebiddentothisfeastonhisbehalf;towhichMrs。Skewton,actingforherdearestchild,whowashaughtilycarelessonthesubject,subjoinedawesternlist,comprisingCousinFeenix,notyetreturnedtoBaden-Baden,greatlytothedetrimentofhispersonalestate;andavarietyofmothsofvariousdegreesandages,whohad,atvarioustimes,flutteredroundthelightofherfairdaughter,orherself,withoutanylastinginjurytotheirwings。Florencewasenrolledasamemberofthedinner-party,byEdith'scommand——elicitedbyamoment'sdoubtandhesitationonthepartofMrs。Skewton;andFlorence,withawonderingheart,andwithaquickinstinctivesenseofeverythingthatgratedonherfatherintheleast,tookhersilentshareintheproceedingsoftheday。
  TheproceedingscommencedbyMr。Dombey,inacravatofextraordinaryheightandstiffness,walkingrestlesslyaboutthedrawing-roomuntilthehourappointedfordinner;punctualtowhich,anEastIndiaDirector,ofimmensewealth,inawaistcoatapparentlyconstructedinserviceabledealbysomeplaincarpenter,butreallyengenderedinthetailor'sart,andcomposedofthematerialcallednankeen,arrivedandwasreceivedbyMr。
  Dombeyalone。ThenextstageoftheproceedingswasMr。Dombey'ssendinghiscomplimentstoMrs。Dombey,withacorrectstatementofthetime;andthenext,theEastIndiaDirector'sfallingprostrate,inaconversationalpointofview,andasMr。Dombeywasnotthemantopickhimup,staringatthefireuntilrescueappearedinthepersonofMrs。Skewton;whomthedirector,asapleasantstartinlifefortheevening,mistookforMrs。
  Dombey,andgreetedwithenthusiasm。
  ThenextarrivalwasaBankDirector,reputedtobeabletobuyupanything——humanNaturegenerally,ifheshouldtakeitinhisheadtoinfluencethemoneymarketinthatdirection——butwhowasawonderfullymodest-spokenman,almostboastfullyso,andmentionedhis`littleplace'
  atKingston-uponThames,anditsjustbeingbarelyequaltogivingDombeyabedandachop,ifhewouldcomeandvisitit。Ladies,hesaid,itwasnotforamanwholivedinhisquietwaytotakeuponhimselftoinvite——butifMrs。Skewtonandherdaughter,Mrs。Dombey,shouldeverfindthemselvesinthatdirection,andwoulddohimthehonourtolookatalittlebitofashrubberytheywouldfindthere,andapoorlittleflower-bedorso,andahumbleapologyforapinery,andtwoorthreelittleattemptsofthatsortwithoutanypretension,theywoulddistinguishhimverymuch。
  Carryingouthischaracter,thisgentlemanwasveryplainlydressed,inawispofcambricforaneckcloth,bigshoes,acoatthatwastoolooseforhim,andapairoftrousersthatweretoospare;andmentionbeingmadeoftheOperabyMrs。Skewton,hesaidheveryseldomwentthere,forhecouldn'taffordit。Itseemedgreatlytodelightandexhilaratehimtosayso:andhebeamedonhisaudienceafterwards,withhishandsinhispockets,andexcessivesatisfactiontwinklinginhiseyes。
  NowMrs。Dombeyappeared,beautifulandproud,andasdisdainfulanddefianttothemallasifthebridalwreathuponherheadhadbeenagarlandofsteelspikesputontoforceconcessionfromherwhichshewoulddiesoonerthanyield。WithherwasFlorence。Whentheyenteredtogether,theshadowofthenightofthereturnagaindarkenedMr。Dombey'sface。
  Butunobserved:forFlorencedidnotventuretoraisehereyestohis,andEdith'sindifferencewastoosupremetotaketheleastheedofhim。
  Thearrivalsquicklybecamenumerous。Moredirectors,chairmenofpubliccompanies,elderlyladiescarryingburdensontheirheadsforfulldress,CousinFeenix,MajorBagstock,friendsofMrs。Skewton,withthesamebrightbloomontheircomplexion,andverypreciousnecklacesonverywitherednecks。Amongthese,ayoungladyofsixty-five,remarkablycoollydressedastoherbackandshoulders,whospokewithanengaginglisp,andwhoseeyelidswouldn'tkeepupwell,withoutagreatdealoftroubleonherpart,andwhosemannershadthatindefinablecharmwhichsofrequentlyattachestothegiddinessofyouth。AsthegreaterpartofMr。Dombey'slistweredisposedtobetaciturn,andthegreaterpartofMrs。Dombey'slistweredisposedtobetalkative,andtherewasnosympathybetweenthem,Mrs。Dombey'slist,bymagneticagreement,enteredintoabondofunionagainstMr。Dombey'slist,who,wanderingabouttheroomsinadesolatemanner,orseekingrefugeincorners,entangledthemselveswithcompanycomingin,andbecamebarricadedbehindsofas,andhaddoorsopenedsmartlyfromwithoutagainsttheirheads,andunderwenteverysortofdiscomfiture。