7。AQUARTER-PASTEIGHTO'CLOCKP。M。
Thereisanattitude——approximativelycalledpensive——inwhichthesoulofahumanbeing,andespeciallyofawoman,dominatesoutwardlyandexpressesitspresencesostrongly,thattheintangibleessenceseemsmoreapparentthanthebodyitself。ThiswasCytherea'sexpressionnow。WhatolddaysandsunnyevesatBudmouthBaywasshepicturing?Herreveriehadcausedhernottonoticehisknock。
'Cytherea!'hesaidsoftly。
Sheletdropherhand,andturnedherhead,evidentlythinkingthathervisitorcouldbenootherthanManston,yetpuzzledatthevoice。
TherewasnoprefaceonSpringrove'stongue;heforgothisposition——
hers——thathehadcometoaskquietlyifManstonhadotherproofsofbeingawidower——everything——andjumpedtoaconclusion。
'Youarenothiswife,Cytherea——comeaway,hehasawifeliving!'
hecriedinanagitatedwhisper。'Owenwillbeheredirectly。'
Shestartedup,recognizedthetidingsfirst,thebearerofthemafterwards。'Nothiswife?O,whatisit——what——whoisliving?'
Sheawokebydegrees。'WhatmustIdo?Edward,itisyou!Whydidyoucome?WhereisOwen?'
'WhathasManstonshownyouinproofofthedeathofhisotherwife?
Tellmequick。'
'Nothing——wehaveneverspokenofthesubject。WhereismybrotherOwen?Iwanthim,Iwanthim!'
'Heiscomingby-and-by。Cometothestationtomeethim——do,'
imploredSpringrove。'IfMr。Manstoncomes,hewillkeepyoufromme:Iamnobody,'headdedbitterly,feelingthereproachherwordshadfaintlyshadowedforth。
'Mr。Manstonisonlygoneouttopostaletterhehasjustwritten,'
shesaid,andwithoutbeingdistinctlycognizantoftheaction,shewildlylookedforherbonnetandcloak,andbeganputtingthemon,butintheactoffasteningthemutteredaspasmodiccry。
'No,I'llnotgooutwithyou,'shesaid,flingingthearticlesdownagain。Runningtothedoorsheflittedalongthepassage,anddownstairs。
'Givemeaprivateroom——quiteprivate,'shesaidbreathlesslytosomeonebelow。
'Numbertwelveisasingleroom,madam,andunoccupied,'saidsometongueinastonishment。
Withoutwaitingforanypersontoshowherintoit,Cythereahurriedupstairsagain,brushedthroughthecorridor,enteredtheroomspecified,andclosedthedoor。Edwardheardhersobout——
'NobodybutOwenshallspeaktome——nobody!'
'Hewillbeheredirectly,'saidSpringrove,closeagainstthepanel,andthenwenttowardsthestairs。Hehadseenher;itwasenough。
Hedescended,steppedintothestreet,andhastenedtomeetOwenattherailway-station。
Asforthepoormaidenwhohadreceivedthenews,sheknewnotwhattothink。ShelistenedtilltheechoofEdward'sfootstepshaddiedaway,thenbowedherfaceuponthebed。Hersuddenimpulsehadbeentoescapefromsight。Herwearinessaftertheunwontedstrain,mentalandbodily,whichhadbeenputuponherbythescenesshehadpassedthroughduringthelongday,renderedhermuchmoretimidandshakenbyherpositionthanshewouldnaturallyhavebeen。Shethoughtandthoughtofthatsinglefactwhichhadbeentoldher——
thatthefirstMrs。Manstonwasstillliving——tillherbrainseemedreadytoburstitsconfinementwithexcessofthrobbing。Itwasonlynaturalthatsheshould,bydegrees,beunabletoseparatethediscovery,whichwasmatteroffact,fromthesuspicionoftreacheryonherhusband'spart,whichwasonlymatterofinference。Andthustherearoseinherapersonalfearofhim。
'Supposeheshouldcomeinnowandseizeme!'Thisatfirstmerefrenziedsuppositiongrewbydegreestoadefinitehorrorofhispresence,andespeciallyofhisintensegaze。Thussheraisedherselftoaheatofexcitement,whichwasnonethelessrealforbeingventedinnocryofanykind。No;shecouldnotmeetManston'seyealone,shewouldonlyseehiminherbrother'scompany。
Almostdeliriouswiththisidea,sheranandlockedthedoortopreventallpossibilityofherintentionsbeingnullified,oralookorwordbeingflungatherbyanybodywhilstsheknewnotwhatshewas。
8。HALF-PASTEIGHTO'CLOCKP。M。
ThenCythereafeltherwayamidthedarknessoftheroomtillshecametotheheadofthebed,whereshesearchedforthebell-ropeandgaveitapull。Hersummonswasspeedilyansweredbythelandladyherself,whosecuriositytoknowthemeaningofthesestrangeproceedingsknewnobounds。Thelandladyattemptedtoturnthehandleofthedoor。Cythereakeptthedoorlocked。'PleasetellMr。ManstonwhenhecomesthatIamill,'shesaidfromtheinside,'andthatIcannotseehim。'
'CertainlyIwill,madam,'saidthelandlady。'Won'tyouhaveafire?'
'No,thankyou。'
'Noralight?'
'Idon'twantone,thankyou。'
'Noranything?'
'Nothing。'
Thelandladywithdrew,thinkinghervisitorhalfinsane。
Manstoncameinaboutfiveminuteslater,andwentatonceuptothesitting-room,fullyexpectingtofindhiswifethere。Helookedround,rang,andwastoldthewordsCythereahadsaid,thatshewastooilltobeseen。
'Sheisinnumbertwelveroom,'addedthemaid。
Manstonwasalarmed,andknockedatthedoor。'Cytherea!'
'Iamunwell,Icannotseeyou,'shesaid。
'Areyouseriouslyill,dearest?Surelynot。'
'No,notseriously。'
'Letmecomein;Iwillgetadoctor。'
'No,hecan'tseemeeither。'
'Shewon'topenthedoor,sir,nottonobodyatall!'saidthechambermaid,withwonder-waitingeyes。
'Holdyourtongue,andbeoff!'saidManstonwithasnap。
Themaidvanished。
'Come,Cytherea,thisisfoolish——indeeditis——notopeningthedoor……Icannotcomprehendwhatcanbethematterwithyou。
Norcanadoctoreither,unlessheseesyou。'
Hervoicehadtrembledmoreandmoreateachanswershegave,butnothingcouldinducehertocomeoutandconfronthim。Hatingscenes,Manstonwentbacktothesitting-room,greatlyirritatedandperplexed。
AndthereCythereafromtheadjoiningroomcouldhearhimpacingupanddown。Shethought,'Supposeheinsistsuponseeingme——heprobablymay——andwillburstopenthedoor!'Thisnotionincreased,andshesankintoacornerinahalf-somnolentstate,butwithearsalivetotheslightestsound。ReasoncouldnotoverthrowthedeliriousfancythatoutsideherdoorstoodManstonandallthepeopleinthehotel,waitingtolaughhertoscorn。
9。HALF-PASTEIGHTTOELEVENP。M。
Inthemeantime,Springrovewaspacingupanddownthearrivalplatformoftherailway-station。Half-pasteighto'clock——thetimeatwhichOwen'strainwasdue——hadcome,andpassed,butnotrainappeared。
'Whenwilltheeight-thirtytrainbein?'heaskedofamanwhowassweepingthemudfromthesteps。
'Sheisnotexpectedyetthishour。'
'Howisthat?'
'Christmas-time,yousee,'tisalwaysso。Peoplearerunningabouttoseetheirfriends。ThetrainshavebeenlikeiteversinceChristmasEve,andwillbeforanotherweekyet。'
Edwardagainwentonwalkingandwaitingunderthedraughtyroof。
Hefounditutterlyimpossibletoleavethespot。HismindwassointentupontheimportanceofmeetingwithOwen,andinforminghimofCytherea'swhereabouts,thathecouldnotbutfancyOwenmightleavethestationunobservedifheturnedhisback,andbecomelosttohiminthestreetsofthetown。
Thehourexpired。Teno'clockstruck。'Whenwillthetrainbein?'
saidEdwardtothetelegraphclerk。
'Infive-and-thirtyminutes。She'snowatL。Theyhaveextrapassengers,andtherailsarebadto-day。'
Atlast,ataquartertoeleven,thetraincamein。
ThefirsttoalightfromitwasOwen,lookingpaleandcold。Hecasuallyglancedrounduponthenearlydesertedplatform,andwashurryingtotheoutlet,whenhiseyesfelluponEdward。Atsightofhisfriendhewasquitebewildered,andcouldnotspeak。
'HereIam,Mr。Graye,'saidEdwardcheerfully。'IhaveseenCytherea,andshehasbeenwaitingforyouthesetwoorthreehours。'
OwentookEdward'shand,pressedit,andlookedathiminsilence。
Suchwastheconcentrationofhismind,thatnottillmanyminutesafterdidhethinkofinquiringhowSpringrovehadcontrivedtobetherebeforehim。
10。ELEVENO'CLOCKP。M。
Ontheirarrivalatthedoorofthehotel,itwasarrangedbetweenSpringroveandGrayethatthelatteronlyshouldenter,Edwardwaitingoutside。Owenhadrememberedcontinuallywhathisfriendhadfrequentlyoverlooked,thattherewasyetapossibilityofhissisterbeingManston'swife,andtherecollectiontaughthimtoavoidanyrashnessinhisproceedingswhichmightleadtobitternesshereafter。
Enteringtheroom,hefoundManstonsittinginthechairwhichhadbeenoccupiedbyCythereaonEdward'svisit,threehoursearlier。
BeforeOwenhadspoken,Manstonarose,andsteppingpasthimclosedthedoor。Hisfaceappearedharassed——muchmoretroubledthantheslightcircumstancewhichhadasyetcometohisknowledgeseemedtoaccountfor。
ManstoncouldformnoreasonforOwen'spresence,butintuitivelylinkeditwithCytherea'sseclusion。'Altogetherthisismostunseemly,'hesaid,'whateveritmaymean。'
'Don'tthinkthereismeantanythingunfriendlybymycominghere,'
saidOwenearnestly;'butlistentothis,andthinkifIcoulddootherwisethancome。'
HetookfromhispockettheconfessionofChinneytheporter,ashastilywrittenoutbythevicar,andreaditaloud。TheaspectsofManston'sfacewhilsthelistenedtotheopeningwordswerestrange,dark,andmysteriousenoughtohavejustifiedsuspicionsthatnodeceitcouldbetoocomplicatedforthepossessorofsuchimpulses,hadtherenotoverriddenthemall,asthereadingwenton,anewandirrepressibleexpression——oneunmistakablyhonest。Itwasthatofunqualifiedamazementinthesteward'smindatthenewsheheard。
Owenlookedupandsawit。Thesightonlyconfirmedhiminthebeliefhehadheldthroughout,inantagonismtoEdward'ssuspicions。
TherecouldnolongerbeashadowofdoubtthatifthefirstMrs。
Manstonlived,herhusbandwasignorantofthefact。Whathecouldhavefearedbyhisghastlylookatfirst,andnowhaveceasedtofear,itwasquitefutiletoconjecture。
'NowIdonotforamomentdoubtyourcompleteignoranceofthewholematter;youcannotsupposeforaninstantthatIdo,'saidOwenwhenhehadfinishedreading。'ButisitnotbestforboththatCythereashouldcomebackwithmetillthematterisclearedup?Infact,underthecircumstances,noothercourseisleftopentomethantorequestit。'
WhateverManston'soriginalfeelingshadbeen,allinhimnowgavewaytoirritation,andirritationtorage。Hepacedupanddowntheroomtillhehadmasteredit;thensaidinordinarytones——
'Certainly,Iknownomorethanyouandothersknow——itwasagratuitousunpleasantnessinyoutosayyoudidnotdoubtme。Whyshouldyou,oranybody,havedoubtedme?'
'Well,whereismysister?'saidOwen。
'Lockedinthenextroom。'
HisownanswerremindedManstonthatCythereamust,bysomeinscrutablemeans,havehadaninklingoftheevent。
OwenhadgonetothedoorofCytherea'sroom。
'Cytherea,darling——'tisOwen,'hesaid,outsidethedoor。A
rustlingofclothes,softfootsteps,andavoicesayingfromtheinside,'Isitreallyyou,Owen,——isitreally?'
'Itis。'
'O,willyoutakecareofme?'
'Always。'
Sheunlockedthedoor,andretreatedagain。Manstoncameforwardfromtheotherroomwithacandleinhishand,asOwenpushedopenthedoor。
Herfrightenedeyeswereunnaturallylarge,andshonelikestarsinthedarknessofthebackground,asthelightfelluponthem。SheleaptuptoOweninonebound,hersmalltaperfingersextendedliketheleavesofalupine。Thensheclaspedhercoldandtremblinghandsroundhisneckandshivered。
ThesightofheragainkindledallManston'spassionsintoactivity。
'Sheshallnotgowithyou,'hesaidfirmly,andsteppingapaceortwocloser,'unlessyouprovethatsheisnotmywife;andyoucan'tdoit!'
'Thisisproof,'saidOwen,holdingupthepaper。
'Noproofatall,'saidManstonhotly。''Tisnotadeath-bedconfession,andthosearetheonlythingsofthekindheldasgoodevidence。'
'Sendforalawyer,'Owenreturned,'andlethimtellusthepropercoursetoadopt。'
'Nevermindthelaw——letmegowithOwen!'criedCytherea,stillholdingontohim。'Youwillletmegowithhim,won'tyou,sir?'
shesaid,turningappealinglytoManston。
'We'llhaveitallrightandsquare,'saidManston,withmorequietness。'Ihavenoobjectiontoyourbrothersendingforalawyer,ifhewantsto。'
Itwasgettingonfortwelveo'clock,buttheproprietorofthehotelhadnotyetgonetobedonaccountofthemysteryonthefirstfloor,whichwasanoccurrenceunusualinthequietfamilylodging。
Owenlookedoverthebanisters,andsawhimstandinginthehall。
ItstruckGrayethatthewisestcoursewouldbetotakethelandlordtoacertainextentintotheirconfidence,appealtohishonourasagentleman,andsoon,inordertoacquiretheinformationhewanted,andalsotopreventtheepisodeoftheeveningfrombecomingapublicpieceofnews。Hecalledthelandlorduptowheretheystood,andtoldhimthemainfactsofthestory。
Thelandlordwasfortunatelyaquiet,prejudicedman,andameditativesmoker。
'Iknowtheverymanyouwanttosee——theveryman,'hesaid,lookingatthegeneralfeaturesofthecandle-flame。'Sharpasaneedle,andnotover-rich。Timmswillputyouallstraightinnotime——trustTimmsforthat。'
'He'sinbedbythistimeforcertain,'saidOwen。
'Nevermindthat——Timmsknowsme,Iknowhim。He'llobligemeasapersonalfavour。Waithereabit。Perhaps,too,he'supatsomepartyoranother——he'sanice,jovialfellow,sharpasaneedle,too;mindyou,sharpasaneedle,too。'
Hewentdownstairs,putonhisovercoat,andleftthehouse,thethreepersonsmostconcernedenteringtheroom,andstandingmotionless,awkward,andsilentinthemidstofit。Cythereapicturedtoherselfthelongwearyminutesshewouldhavetostandthere,whilstasleepymancouldbepreparedforconsultation,tilltheconstraintbetweenthemseemedunendurabletoher——shecouldneverlastoutthetime。OwenwasannoyedthatManstonhadnotquietlyarrangedwithhimatonce;ManstonatOwen'shomelinessofideainproposingtosendforanattorney,asifhewouldbeatouchstoneofinfallibleproof。
Reflectionwascutshortbytheapproachoffootsteps,andinafewmomentstheproprietorofthehotelentered,introducinghisfriend。
'Mr。Timmshasnotbeeninbed,'hesaid;'hehadjustreturnedfromdiningwithafewfriends,sothere'snotroublegiven。TosavetimeIexplainedthematteraswecamealong。'
ItoccurredtoOwenandManstonboththattheymightgetamistyexpositionofthelawfromMr。Timmsatthatmomentofconcludingdinnerwithafewfriends。
'AsfarasIcansee,'saidthelawyer,yawning,andturninghisvisioninwardbymainforce,'itisquiteamatterforprivatearrangementbetweentheparties,whoeverthepartiesare——atleastatpresent。Ispeakmoreasafatherthanasalawyer,itistrue,but,lettheyoungladystaywithherfather,orguardian,safeoutofshame'sway,untilthemysteryissifted,whateverthemysteryis。Shouldtheevidenceprovetobefalse,ortrumpedupbyanybodytogetherawayfromyou,herhusband,youmaysuethemforthedamagesaccruingfromthedelay。'
'Yes,yes,'saidManston,whohadcompletelyrecoveredhisself-
possessionandcommon-sense;'letitallbesettledbyherself。'
TurningtoCythereahewhisperedsosoftlythatOwendidnothearthewords——
'Doyouwishtogobackwithyourbrother,dearest,andleavemeheremiserable,andlonely,orwillyoustaywithme,yourownhusband。'
'I'llgobackwithOwen。'
'Verywell。'Herelinquishedhiscoaxingtone,andwentonsternly:
'Andrememberthis,Cytherea,Iamasinnocentofdeceptioninthisthingasyouareyourself。Doyoubelieveme?'
'Ido,'shesaid。
'Ihadnoshadowofsuspicionthatmyfirstwifelived。Idon'tthinkshedoesevennow。Doyoubelieveme?'
'Ibelieveyou,'shesaid。
'Andnow,good-evening,'hecontinued,openingthedoorandpolitelyintimatingtothethreemenstandingbythattherewasnofurthernecessityfortheirremaininginhisroom。'InthreedaysIshallclaimher。'
Thelawyerandthehotel-keeperretiredfirst。Owen,gatheringupasmuchofhissister'sclothingaslayabouttheroom,tookheruponhisarm,andfollowedthem。Edward,towhomsheowedeverything,whohadbeenleftstandinginthestreetlikeadogwithoutahome,wasutterlyforgotten。Owenpaidthelandlordandthelawyerforthetroublehehadoccasionedthem,lookedtothepacking,andwenttothedoor。
Afly,whichsomewhatunaccountablywasseenlingeringinfrontofthehouse,wascalledup,andCytherea'sluggageputuponit。
'Doyouknowofanyhotelnearthestationthatisopenfornightarrivals?'Oweninquiredofthedriver。
'Aplacehasbeenbespokeforyou,sir,attheWhiteUnicorn——andthegentlemanwishedmetogiveyouthis。'
'BespokenbySpringrove,whoorderedthefly,ofcourse,'saidOwentohimself。Bythelightofthestreet-lamphereadtheselines,hurriedlytracedinpencil:——
'Ihavegonehomebythemail-train。ItisbetterforallpartiesthatIshouldbeoutoftheway。TellCythereathatIapologizeforhavingcausedhersuchunnecessarypain,asitseemsIdid——butitcannotbehelpednow。E。S。'
Owenhandedhissisterintothevehicle,andtoldtheflymantodriveon。
'PoorSpringrove——Ithinkwehaveservedhimratherbadly,'hesaidtoCytherea,repeatingthewordsofthenotetoher。
Athrillofpleasurepassedthroughherbosomasshelistenedtothem。Theywerethegenuinereproachofalovertohismistress;
thetriflingcoldnessofheranswertohimwouldhavebeennoticedbynomanwhowasonlyafriend。But,inentertainingthatsweetthought,shehadforgottenherself,andherpositionfortheinstant。
WasshestillManston'swife——thatwastheterriblesupposition,andherfutureseemedstillapossiblemiserytoher。For,onaccountofthelatejarringaccident,alifewithManstonwhichwouldotherwisehavebeenonlyasadness,mustbecomeaburdenofunutterablesorrow。
Thenshethoughtofthemisrepresentationandscandalthatwouldensueifshewerenowife。Onecauseforthankfulnessaccompaniedthereflection;Edwardknewthetruth。
Theysoonreachedthequietoldinn,whichhadbeenselectedforthembytheforethoughtofthemanwholovedherwell。Heretheyinstalledthemselvesforthenight,arrangingtogotoBudmouthbythefirsttrainthenextday。
AtthishourEdwardSpringrovewasfastapproachinghisnativecountyonthewheelsofthenight-mail。
XIV。THEEVENTSOFFIVEWEEKS
1。FROMTHESIXTHTOTHETHIRTEENTHOFJANUARY
Manstonhadevidentlyresolvedtodonothinginahurry。
Thismuchwasplain,thathisearnestdesireandintentionwastoraiseinCytherea'sbosomnofeelingsofpermanentaversiontohim。
TheinstantafterthefirstburstofdisappointmenthadescapedhiminthehotelatSouthampton,hehadseenhowfarbetteritwouldbetoloseherpresenceforaweekthanherrespectforever。
'Sheshallbemine;Iwillclaimtheyoungthingyet,'heinsisted。
Andthenheseemedtoreasonovermethodsforcompassingthatobject,which,toallthosewhowereinanydegreeacquaintedwiththerecentevent,appearedtheleastlikelyofpossiblecontingencies。
HereturnedtoKnapwaterlatethenextday,andwaspreparingtocallonMissAldclyffe,whentheconclusionforceditselfuponhimthatnothingwouldbegainedbysuchastep。No;everyactionofhisshouldbedoneopenly——evenreligiously。Atleast,hecalledontherector,andstatedthistobehisresolve。
'Certainly,'saidMr。Raunham,'itisbesttoproceedcandidlyandfairly,orunduesuspicionmayfallonyou。Youshould,inmyopinion,takeactivestepsatonce。'
'Iwilldotheutmostthatliesinmypowertoclearupthemystery,andsilencethehubbubofgossipthathasbeensetgoingaboutme。
ButwhatcanIdo?Theysaythatthemanwhocomesfirstinthechainofinquiryisnottobefound——Imeantheporter。'
'Iamsorrytosaythatheisnot。WhenIreturnedfromthestationlastnight,afterseeingOwenGrayeoff,Iwentagaintothecottagewherehehasbeenlodging,togetmoreintelligence,asIthought。
Hewasnotthere。Hehadgoneoutatdusk,sayinghewouldbebacksoon。Buthehasnotcomebackyet。'
'Iratherdoubtifweshallseehimagain。'
'HadIknownofthis,IwouldhavedonewhatinmyflurryIdidnotthinkofdoing——setawatchuponhim。Butwhynotadvertiseforyourmissingwifeasapreliminary,consultingyoursolicitorinthemeantime?'
'Advertise。I'llthinkaboutit,'saidManston,lingeringonthewordashepronouncedit。'Yes,thatseemsarightthing——quitearightthing。'
Hewenthomeandremainedmoodilyindoorsallthenextdayandthenext——fornearlyaweek,inshort。Then,oneeveningatdusk,hewentoutwithanuncertainairastothedirectionofhiswalk,whichresulted,however,inleadinghimagaintotherectory。
HesawMr。Raunham。'Haveyoudoneanythingyet?'therectorinquired。
'No——Ihavenot,'saidManstonabsently。'ButIamgoingtosetaboutit。'Hehesitated,asifashamedofsomeweaknesshewasabouttobetray。'MyobjectincallingwastoaskifyouhadheardanytidingsfromBudmouthofmy——Cytherea。Youusedtospeakofherasoneyouwereinterestedin。'
Therewas,atanyrate,realsadnessinManston'stonenow,andtherectorpausedtoweighhiswordserehereplied。
'Ihavenothearddirectlyfromher,'hesaidgently。'Butherbrotherhascommunicatedwithsomepeopleintheparish——'
'TheSpringroves,Isuppose,'saidManstongloomily。
'Yes;andtheytellmethatsheisveryill,andIamsorrytosay,likelytobeforsomedays。'
'Surely,surely,Imustgoandseeher!'Manstoncried。
'Iwouldadviseyounottogo,'saidRaunham。'Butdothisinstead——
beasquickasyoucaninmakingamovementtowardsascertainingthetruthasregardstheexistenceofyourwife。Yousee,Mr。
Manston,anout-stepplacelikethisisnotlikeacity,andthereisnobodytobusyhimselfforthegoodofthecommunity;whilstpoorCythereaandherbrotheraresociallytoodependenttobeabletomakemuchstirinthematter,whichisagreaterreasonstillwhyyoushouldbedisinterestedlyprompt。'
Thestewardmurmuredanassent。Stilltherewasthesameindecision!——nottheindecisionofweakness——theindecisionofconsciousperplexity。
OnManston'sreturnfromthisinterviewattherectory,hepassedthedooroftheRisingSunInn。Findinghehadnolightforhiscigar,anditbeingthree-quartersofamiletohisresidenceinthepark,heenteredthetaverntogetone。NobodywasintheouterportionofthefrontroomwhereManstonstood,butaspaceroundthefirewasscreenedofffromtheremainder,andinsidethehighoaksettle,formingapartofthescreen,heheardvoicesconversing。
Thespeakershadnotnoticedhisfootsteps,andcontinuedtheirdiscourse。
Oneofthetwoherecognizedasawell-knownnight-poacher,themanwhohadmethimwithtidingsofhiswife'sdeathontheeveningoftheconflagration。Theotherseemedtobeastrangerfollowingthesamemodeoflife。Theconversationwascarriedonintheemphaticandconfidentialtoneofmenwhoareslightlyintoxicated,itssubjectbeinganunaccountableexperiencethatoneofthemhadhadonthenightofthefire。
Whatthestewardheardwasenough,andmorethanenough,toleadhimtoforgetortorenouncehismotiveinentering。Theeffectuponhimwasstrangeandstrong。Hisfirstobjectseemedtobetoescapefromthehouseagainwithoutbeingseenorheard。
Havingaccomplishedthis,hewentinattheparkgate,andstrodeoffunderthetreestotheOldHouse。Theresittingdownbythefire,andburyinghimselfinreflection,heallowedtheminutestopassbyunheeded。Firstthecandleburntdowninitssocketandstunk:hedidnotnoticeit。Thenthefirewentout:hedidnotseeit。Hisfeetgrewcold;stillhethoughton。
Itmayberemarkedthatalady,ayearandaquarterbeforethistime,had,underthesameconditions——anunrestrictedmentalabsorption——shownnearlythesamepeculiaritiesasthismanevincednow。TheladywasMissAldclyffe。
Itwashalf-pasttwelvewhenManstonmoved,asifhehadcometoadetermination。
ThefirstthinghedidthenextmorningwastocallatKnapwaterHouse;wherehefoundthatMissAldclyffewasnotwellenoughtoseehim。ShehadbeenailingfromslightinternalhaemorrhageeversincetheconfessionoftheporterChinney。Apparentlynotmuchaggrievedatthedenial,heshortlyafterwardswenttotherailway-
stationandtookhisdepartureforLondon,leavingaletterforMissAldclyffe,statingthereasonofhisjourneythither——torecovertracesofhismissingwife。
Duringtheremainderoftheweekparagraphsappearedinthelocalandothernewspapers,drawingattentiontothefactsofthissingularcase。Thewriters,withscarcelyanexception,dweltforciblyuponafeaturewhichhadatfirstescapedtheobservationofthevillagers,includingMr。Raunham——thatiftheannouncementofthemanChinneyweretrue,itseemedextremelyprobablethatMrs。
Manstonleftherwatchandkeysbehindonpurposetoblindpeopleastoherescape;andthatthereforeshewouldnotnowletherselfbediscovered,unlessastrongpressurewereputuponher。Thewritersaddedthatthepolicewereonthetrackoftheporter,whoverypossiblyhadabscondedinthefearthathisreticencewascriminal,andthatMr。Manston,thehusband,was,withpraiseworthyenergy,makingeveryefforttoclearthewholematterup。
2。FROMTHEEIGHTEENTHTOTHEENDOFJANUARY
Fivedaysfromthetimeofhisdeparture,ManstonreturnedfromLondonandLiverpool,lookingveryfatiguedandthoughtful。Heexplainedtotherectorandotherofhisacquaintancethatalltheinquirieshehadmadeathiswife'soldlodgingsandhisownhadbeentotallybarrenofresults。
Butheseemedinclinedtopushtheaffairtoaclearconclusionnowthathehadcommenced。Afterthelapseofanotherdayortwoheproceededtofulfilhispromisetotherector,andadvertisedforthemissingwomaninthreeoftheLondonpapers。Theadvertisementwasacarefullyconsideredandevenattractiveeffusion,calculatedtowintheheart,oratleasttheunderstanding,ofanywomanwhohadasparkofherownnatureleftinher。
Therewasnoanswer。
Threedayslaterherepeatedtheexperiment;withthesameresultasbefore。
'Icannottryanyfurther,'saidManstonspeciouslytotherector,hissoleauditorthroughouttheproceedings。'Mr。Raunham,I'lltellyouthetruthplainly:Idon'tloveher;IdoloveCytherea,andthewholeofthisbusinessofsearchingfortheotherwomangoesaltogetheragainstme。IhopetoGodIshallneverseeheragain。'
'Butyouwilldoyourdutyatleast?'saidMr。Raunham。
'Ihavedoneit,'saidManston。'Ifeveramanonthefaceofthisearthhasdonehisdutytowardsanabsentwife,Ihavetowardsher——
livingordead——atleast,'headded,correctinghimself,'sinceI
havelivedatKnapwater。Ineglectedherbeforethattime——Iownthat,asIhaveowneditbefore。'
'Ishould,ifIwereyou,adoptothermeanstogettidingsofherifadvertisingfails,inspiteofmyfeelings,'saidtherectoremphatically。'Butatanyrate,tryadvertisingoncemore。There'sasatisfactioninhavingmadeanyattemptthreeseveraltimes。'
WhenManstonhadleftthestudy,therectorstoodlookingatthefireforaconsiderablelengthoftime,lostinprofoundreflection。
Hewenttohisprivatediary,andaftermanypauses,whichhevariedonlybydippinghispen,lettingitdry,wipingitonhissleeve,andthendippingitagain,hetookthefollowingnoteofevents:——
'January25——Mr。Manstonhasjustseenmeforthethirdtimeonthesubjectofhislostwife。Therehavebeenthesepeculiaritiesattendingthethreeinterviews:——
'Thefirst。Myvisitor,whilstexpressingbywordshisgreatanxietytodoeverythingforherrecovery,showedplainlybyhisbearingthathewasconvincedheshouldneverseeheragain。
'Thesecond。Hehadleftofffeigninganxietytodorightlybyhisfirstwife,andhonestlyaskedafterCytherea'swelfare。
'Thethirdandmostremarkable。Heseemedtohavelostallconsistency。WhilstexpressinghisloveforCythereawhichcertainlyisstrongandevincingtheusualindifferencetothefirstMrs。Manston'sfate,hewasunabletoconcealtheintensityofhiseagernessformetoadvisehimtoADVERTISEAGAINforher。'
Aweekafterthesecond,thethirdadvertisementwasinserted。A
paragraphwasattached,whichstatedthatthiswouldbethelasttimetheannouncementwouldappear。
3。THEFIRSTOFFEBRUARY
Atthis,theeleventhhour,thepostmanbroughtaletterforManston,directedinawoman'shand。
Abachelorfriendofthesteward's,Mr。Dicksonbyname,whowassomewhatofachatterer——plenusrimarum——andwhoboastedofanendlessstringofacquaintances,hadcomeoverfromCasterbridgetheprecedingdaybyinvitation——aninvitationwhichhadbeenapleasantsurprisetoDicksonhimself,insomuchthatManston,asarule,votedhimaborealmosttohisface。Hehadstayedoverthenight,andwassittingatbreakfastwithhishostwhentheimportantmissivearrived。
Manstondidnotattempttoconcealthesubjectoftheletter,orthenameofthewriter。Firstglancingthepagesthrough,hereadaloudasfollows:——
'“MYHUSBAND,——Iimploreyourforgiveness。
'“DuringthelastthirteenmonthsIhaverepeatedtomyselfahundredtimesthatyoushouldneverdiscoverwhatIvoluntarilytellyounow,namely,thatIamaliveandinperfecthealth。
'“Ihaveseenallyouradvertisements。Nothingbutyourpersistencehaswonmeround。Surely,Ithought,heMUSTlovemestill。Whyelseshouldhetrytowinbackawomanwho,faithfuluntodeathasshewillbe,can,inasocialsense,aidhimtowardsacquiringnothing?——ratherthereverse,indeed。
'“Youyourselfstatemyownmind——thattheonlygroundsuponwhichwecanmeetandlivetogether,withareasonablehopeofhappiness,mustbeamutualconsenttoburyinoblivionallpastdifferences。
Iheartilyandwillinglyforgeteverything——andforgiveeverything。
Youwilldothesame,asyouractionsshow。
'“Therewillbeplentyofopportunityformetoexplainthefewfactsrelatingtomyescapeonthenightofthefire。Iwillonlygivetheheadsinthishurriednote。Iwasgrievedatyournotcomingtofetchme,moregrievedatyourabsencefromthestation,mostofallbyyourabsencefromhome。OnmyjourneytotheinnI
writhedunderapassionatesenseofwrongdoneme。WhenIhadbeenshowntomyroomIwaitedandhopedforyoutillthelandlordhadgoneupstairstobed。Istillfoundthatyoudidnotcome,andthenIfinallymadeupmymindtoleave。Ihadhalfundressed,butIputonmythingsagain,forgettingmywatchandIsupposedroppingmykeys,thoughIamnotsurewhereinmyhurry,andslippedoutofthehouse。The——“'
'Well,that'sarumstory,'saidMr。Dickson,interrupting。
'What'sarumstory?'saidManstonhastily,andflushingintheface。
'Forgettingherwatchanddroppingherkeysinherhurry。'
'Idon'tseeanythingparticularlywonderfulinit。Anywomanmightdosuchathing。'
'Anywomanmightifescapingfromfireorshipwreck,oranysuchimmediatedanger。Butitseemsincomprehensibletomethatanywomaninhersenses,whoquietlydecidestoleaveahouse,shouldbesoforgetful。'
'Allthatisrequiredtoreconcileyourseemingwithherfactsistoassumethatshewasnotinhersenses,forthat'swhatshedidplainly,orhowcouldthethingshavebeenfoundthere?Besides,she'struthfulenough。'Hespokeeagerlyandperemptorily。
'Yes,yes,Iknowthat。Imerelymeantthatitseemedratherodd。'
'Oyes。'Manstonreadon:——
'“——andslippedoutofthehouse。Therubbish-heapwasburningupbrightly,butthethoughtthatthehousewasindangerdidnotstrikeme;Ididnotconsiderthatitmightbethatched。
'“Iidledinthelanebehindthewoodtillthelastdown-trainhadcomein,notbeinginamoodtofacestrangers。WhilstIwastherethefirebrokeout,andthisperplexedmestillmore。However,I
wasstilldeterminednottostayintheplace。Iwenttotherailway-station,whichwasnowquiet,andinquiredofthesolitarymanondutythereconcerningthetrains。ItwasnottillIhadleftthemanthatIsawtheeffectthefiremighthaveonmyhistory。I
consideredalso,thoughnotinanydetailedmanner,thattheevent,byattractingtheattentionofthevillagetomyformerabode,mightsetpeopleonmytrackshouldtheydoubtmydeath,andasuddendreadofhavingtogobackagaintoKnapwater——aplacewhichhadseemedinimicaltomefromfirsttolast——promptedmetorunbackandbribetheportertosecrecy。IthenwalkedontoAnglebury,lingeringabouttheoutskirtsofthetowntillthemorningtraincamein,whenIproceededbyittoLondon,andthentooktheselodgings,whereIhavebeensupportingmyselfeversincebyneedlework,endeavouringtosaveenoughmoneytopaymypassagehometoAmerica,butmakingmelancholyprogressinmyattempt。However,allthatischanged——canIbeotherwisethanhappyatit?Ofcoursenot。Iamhappy。TellmewhatIamtodo,andbelievemestilltobeyourfaithfulwife,EUNICE。
'“Mynamehereisasbefore
'“MRS。RONDLEY,andmyaddress,79ADDINGTONSTREET,LAMBETH。'“
Thenameandaddresswerewrittenonaseparateslipofpaper。
'Soit'stobeallrightatlastthen,'saidManston'sfriend。'Butafterallthere'sanotherwomaninthecase。Youdon'tseemverysorryforthelittlethingwhoisputtosuchdistressbythisturnofaffairs?Iwonderyoucanlethergosocoolly。'Thespeakerwaslookingoutbetweenthemullionsofthewindow——noticingthatsomeofthelightswereglazedinlozenges,someinsquares——ashesaidthewords,otherwisehewouldhaveseenthepassionateexpressionofagonizedhopelessnessthatflittedacrossthesteward'scountenancewhentheremarkwasmade。Hedidnotseeit,andManstonansweredafterashortinterval。Thewayinwhichhespokeoftheyounggirlwhohadbelievedherselfhiswife,whom,afewshortdaysago,hehadopenlyidolized,andwhom,inhissecretheart,heidolizedstill,asfarassuchaformoflovewascompatiblewithhisnature,showedthatfrompolicyorotherwise,hemeanttoactuptotherequirementsofthepositionintowhichfateappeareddeterminedtodrivehim。
'That'sneitherherenorthere,'hesaid;'itisapointofhonourtodoasIamdoing,andthere'sanendofit。'
'Yes。OnlyIthoughtyouusednottocareovermuchaboutyourfirstbargain。'
'Icertainlydidnotatonetime。Oneisapttofeelratherwearyofwiveswhentheyaresodevilishcivilunderallaspects,assheusedtobe。Butanythingforachange——Abigailislost,butMichalisrecovered。Youwouldhardlybelieveit,butsheseemsinfancytobequiteanotherbride——infact,almostasifshehadreallyrisenfromthedead,insteadofhavingonlydonesovirtually。'
'Youlettheyoungpinkoneknowthattheotherhascomeoriscoming?'
'Cuibono?'Thestewardmeditatedcritically,showingaportionofhisintenselywideandregularteethwithintherubylips。
'Icannotsayanythingtoherthatwilldoanygood,'heresumed。
'Itwouldbeawkward——eitherseeingorcommunicatingwithheragain。
Thebestplantoadoptwillbetoletmatterstaketheircourse——
she'llfinditalloutsoonenough。'
Manstonfoundhimselfaloneafewminuteslater。Heburiedhisfaceinhishands,andmurmured,'Omylostone!OmyCytherea!Thatitshouldcometothisishardforme!'Tisnowalldarkness——“alandofdarknessasdarknessitself;andoftheshadowofdeathwithoutanyorder,andwherethelightisasdarkness。“'
Yes,theartificialbearingwhichthisextraordinarymanhadadoptedbeforestrangerseversincehehadoverheardtheconversationattheinn,lefthimnow,andhemournedforCythereaaloud。
4。THETWELFTHOFFEBRUARY
KnapwaterParkisthepicture——ateleveno'clockonamuddy,quiet,hazy,butbrightmorning——amorningwithoutanybluesky,andwithoutanyshadows,theearthbeingenlivenedandlitupratherbythespiritofaninvisiblesunthanbyitsbodilypresence。
ThelocalHunthadmetfortheday'ssportontheopenspaceofgroundimmediatelyinfrontofthesteward'sresidence——calledinthelistofappointments,'OldHouse,Knapwater'——themeetbeinghereonceeveryseason,forthepleasureofMissAldclyffeandherfriends。
Leaningoutfromoneofthefirst-floorwindows,andsurveyingwiththekeenestinterestthelivelypictureofpinkandblackcoats,rich-colouredhorses,andsparklingbitsandspurs,wasthereturnedandlong-lostwoman,Mrs。Manston。
Theeyesofthoseformingthebrilliantgroupwereoccasionallyturnedtowardsher,showingplainlythatheradventureswerethesubjectofconversationequallywithormorethanthechancesofthecomingday。Shedidnotflushbeneaththeirscrutiny;onthecontrary,sheseemedrathertoenjoyit,hereyesbeingkindledwithalightofcontentedexultation,subduedtosquarewiththecircumstancesofhermatronlyposition。
Shewas,atthedistancefromwhichtheysurveyedher,anattractivewoman——comelyasthetentsofKedar。ButtoacloseobserveritwaspalpableenoughthatGoddidnotdoallthepicture。AppearingatleastsevenyearsolderthanCytherea,shewasprobablyherseniorbydoublethenumber,theartificialmeansemployedtoheightenthenaturalgoodappearanceofherfacebeingverycleverlyapplied。
Herformwasfullandround,itsvoluptuousmaturitystandingoutinstrongcontrasttothememoryofCytherea'slissomgirlishness。
Itseemstobeanalmostuniversalrulethatawomanwhooncehascourted,orwhoeventuallywillcourt,thesocietyofmenontermsdangeroustoherhonourcannotrefrainfromflingingthemeaningglancewheneverthemomentarrivesinwhichtheglanceisstronglyaskedfor,evenifherlifeandwholefuturedependeduponthatmoment'sabstinence。
Hadacautious,uxorioushusbandseeninhiswife'scountenancewhatmightnowhavebeenseeninthisdark-eyedwoman'sasshecaughtastrayglanceofflirtationfromoneorotherofthered-coatedgallantsoutside,hewouldhavepassedmanydaysinanagonyofrestlessjealousyanddoubt。ButManstonwasnotsuchahusband,andhewas,moreover,calmlyattendingtohisbusinessattheotherendofthemanor。
Thestewardhadfetchedhomehiswifeinthemostmatter-of-factwayafewdaysearlier,walkingroundthevillagewithhertheverynextmorning——atonceputtinganend,bythissimplesolution,toalltheriddlinginquiriesandsurmisesthatwererankinthevillageanditsneighbourhood。SomemensaidthatthiswomanwasasfarinferiortoCythereaasearthtoheaven;others,olderandsager,thoughtManstonbetteroffwithsuchawifethanhewouldhavebeenwithoneofCytherea'syouthfulimpulses,andinexperienceinhouseholdmanagement。Allfelttheircuriositydyingoutofthem。
ItwasthesameinCarrifordasinotherpartsoftheworld——
immediatelycircumstantialevidencebecameexchangedfordirect,theloungersincourtyawned,gaveafinalsurvey,andturnedawaytoasubjectwhichwouldaffordmorescopeforspeculation。
XV。THEEVENTSOFTHREEWEEKS
1。FROMTHETWELFTHOFFEBRUARYTOTHESECONDOFMARCH
OwenGraye'srecoveryfromtheillnessthathadincapacitatedhimforsolongatimewas,professionally,thedawnofabrighterprospectforhimineverydirection,thoughthechangewasatfirstverygradual,andhismovementsandeffortswerelittlemorethanmechanical。Withthelengtheningofthedays,andtherevivalofbuildingoperationsfortheforthcomingseason,hesawhimself,forthefirsttime,onaroadwhich,pursuedwithcare,wouldprobablyleadtoacomfortableincomeatsomefutureday。Buthewasstillverylowdownthehillasyet。
ThefirstundertakingentrustedtohiminthenewyearbeganaboutamonthafterhisreturnfromSouthampton。Mr。Gradfieldhadcomebacktohiminthewakeofhisrestoredhealth,andofferedhimthesuperintendence,asclerkofworks,ofachurchwhichwastobenearlyrebuiltatthevillageofTolchurch,fifteenorsixteenmilesfromBudmouth,andabouthalfthatdistancefromCarriford。
'Iamnowbeingpaidattherateofahundredandfiftypoundsayear,'hesaidtohissisterinaburstofthankfulness,'andyoushallnever,Cytherea,beatanytyrannouslady'sbeckandcallagainaslongasIlive。Neverpineorthinkaboutwhathashappened,dear;it'snodisgracetoyou。Cheerup;you'llbesomebody'shappywifeyet。'
HedidnotsayEdwardSpringrove's,for,greatlytohisdisappointment,areporthadreachedhisearsthatthefriendtowhomCythereaowedsomuchhadbeenabouttopackuphisthingsandsailforAustralia。However,thiswasbeforetheuncertaintyconcerningMrs。Manston'sexistencehadbeendispersedbyherreturn,aphenomenonthatalteredthecloudyrelationshipinwhichCythereahadlatelybeenstandingtowardsheroldlover,tooneofdistinctness;whichresultwouldhavebeendelightfulbutforcircumstancesabouttobementioned。
Cythereawasstillpalefromherrecentillness,andstillgreatlydejected。UntilthenewsofMrs。Manston'sreturnhadreachedthem,shehadkeptherselfcloselyshutupduringtheday-time,neverventuringforthexceptatnight。Sleepingandwakingshehadbeeninperpetualdreadlestsheshouldstillbeclaimedbyamanwhom,onlyafewweeksearlier,shehadregardedinthelightofafuturehusbandwithquietassent,notunmixedwithcheerfulness。
Buttheremovaloftheuneasinessinthisdirection——byMrs。
Manston'sarrival,andherownconsequentfreedom——hadbeentheimpositionofpaininanother。UtterlyfictitiousdetailsofthefindingofCythereaandManstonhadbeeninventedandcirculated,unavoidablyreachingherearsinthecourseoftime。Thusthefreedombroughtnohappiness,anditseemedwell-nighimpossiblethatshecouldeveragainshowherselfthesparklingcreaturesheoncehadbeen——
'Apttoenticeadeity。'
Onthisaccount,andforthefirsttimeinhislife,Owenmadeapointofconcealingfromhertherealstateofhisfeelingswithregardtotheunhappytransaction。Hewrithedinsecretunderthehumiliationtowhichtheyhadbeensubjected,tilltheresentmentitgaveriseto,andforwhichtherewasnovent,wassometimesbeyondendurance;itinducedamoodthatdidseriousdamagetothematerialandploddingperseverancenecessaryifhewouldsecurepermanentlythecomfortsofahomeforthem。
TheygaveuptheirlodgingsatBudmouth,andwenttoTolchurchassoonastheworkcommenced。
Heretheyweredomiciledinonehalfofanoldfarmhouse,standingnotfarfromtheivy-coveredchurchtowerwhichwasallthatwastoremainoftheoriginalstructure。Thelongsteeproofofthispicturesquedwellingslopednearlydowntotheground,theoldtilesthatcovereditbeingovergrownwithricholive-huedmoss。Newredtilesintwosandthreeshadbeenusedforpatchingtheholeswroughtbydecay,lightingupthewholeharmonioussurfacewithdotsofbrilliantscarlet。
Thechiefinternalfeaturesofthissnugabodewereawidefireplace,enormouscupboards,abrownsettle,andseveralsketchesonthewoodmantel,doneinoutlinewiththepointofahotpoker——
thesubjectsmainlyconsistingofoldmenwalkingpainfullyerect,withacurly-taileddogbehind。
AfteraweekortwoofresidenceinTolchurch,andramblesamidthequaintscenerycircumscribingit,atranquillitybegantospreaditselfthroughthemindofthemaiden,whichGrayehopedwouldbeaprefacetohercompleterestoration。Shefeltreadyandwillingtolivethewholeremainderofherdaysintheretirementoftheirpresentquarters:shebegantosingaboutthehouseinlowtremuloussnatches——
'“——Isaid,ifthere'speacetobefoundintheworld,Aheartthatishumblemayhopeforithere。“'
2。THETHIRDOFMARCH
Herconvalescencehadarrivedatthispointonacertaineveningtowardstheendofthewinter,whenOwenhadcomeinfromthebuildinghardby,andwaschanginghismuddybootsforslippers,previouslytosittingdowntotoastandtea。
Aprolongedthoughquietknockingcametothedoor。
Theonlypersonwhoeverknockedattheirdoorinthatwaywasthenewvicar,theprimemoverinthechurch-building。ButhewasthateveningdiningwiththeSquire。
Cythereawasuneasyatthesound——shedidnotknowwhy,unlessitwasbecausehernerveswereweakenedbythesicknessshehadundergone。Insteadofopeningthedoorsheranoutoftheroom,andupstairs。
'Whatnonsense,Cytherea!'saidherbrother,goingtothedoor。
EdwardSpringrovestoodinthegreylightoutside。
'Capital——notgonetoAustralia,andnotgoing,ofcourse!'criedOwen。'What'stheuseofgoingtosuchaplaceasthat?——Ineverbelievedthatyouwould。'
'IamgoingbacktoLondonagainto-morrow,'saidSpringrove,'andI
calledtosayawordbeforegoing。Whereis……?'
'Shehasjustrunupstairs。Comein——nevermindscrapingyourshoes——weareregularcottagersnow;stonefloor,yawningchimney-
corner,andall,yousee。'
'Mrs。Manstoncame,'saidEdwardawkwardly,whenhehadsatdowninthechimney-cornerbypreference。
'Yes。'AtmentionofoneofhisskeletonsOwenlosthisblithenessatonce,andfellintoareverie。
'Thehistoryofherescapeisverysimple。'
'Very。'
'YouknowIalwayshadwondered,whenmyfatherwastellinganyofthecircumstancesofthefiretome,howitcouldbethatawomancouldsleepsosoundlyastobeunawareofherhorridpositiontillitwastoolateeventogiveshoutorsoundofanykind。'
'Well,Ithinkthatwouldhavebeenpossible,consideringherlongwearisomejourney。Peoplehaveoftenbeensuffocatedintheirbedsbeforetheyawoke。Butitwashardlylikelyabodywouldbecompletelyburnttoashesasthiswasassumedtobe,thoughnobodyseemedtoseeitatthetime。Andhowpositivethesurgeonwastoo,aboutthosebitsofbone!Whyheshouldhavebeenso,nobodycantell。Icannothelpsayingthatifithaseverbeenpossibletofindpurestupidityincarnate,itwasinthatjuryofCarriford。
Thereexistedinthemassthestupidityoftwelveandnotthepenetrationofone。'
'Isshequitewell?'saidSpringrove。
'Who?——O,mysister,Cytherea。Thankyou,nearlywell,now。I'llcallher。'
'Waitoneminute。Ihaveawordtosaytoyou。'
Owensatdownagain。
'Youknow,withoutmysayingit,thatIloveCythereaasdearlyasever……Ithinkshelovesmetoo,——doesshereally?'
TherewasinOwenenoughofthatworldlypolicyonthesubjectofmatchmakingwhichnaturallyresidesinthebreastsofparentsandguardians,togivehimacertaincautioninreplying,and,youngerashewasbyfiveyearsthanEdward,ithadanoddeffect。
'Well,shemaypossiblyloveyoustill,'hesaid,asifratherindoubtastothetruthofhiswords。
Springrove'scountenanceinstantlysaddened;hehadexpectedasimple'Yes,'attheveryleast。Hecontinuedinatoneofgreaterdepression——
'Supposingshedoesloveme,woulditbefairtoyouandtoherifI
madeheranofferofmarriage,withthesedrearyconditionsattached——thatwelivedforafewyearsonthenarrowestsystem,tillagreatdebt,whichallhonouranddutyrequiremetopayoff,shallbepaid?Myfather,byreasonofthemisfortunethatbefellhim,isunderagreatobligationtoMissAldclyffe。Heisgettingold,andlosinghisenergies。Iamattemptingtoworkfreeoftheburden。Thismakesmyprospectsgloomyenoughatpresent。
'Butconsideragain,'hewenton。'Cythereahasbeenleftinanamelessandunsatisfactory,thoughinnocentstate,bythisunfortunate,andnowvoid,marriagewithManston。Amarriagewithme,thoughunderthe——materially——untowardconditionsIhavementioned,wouldmakeushappy;itwouldgiveheralocusstandi。
IfshewishedtobeoutofthesoundofhermisfortuneswewouldgotoanotherpartofEngland——emigrate——doanything。'
'I'llcallCytherea,'saidOwen。'Itisamatterwhichshealonecansettle。'Hedidnotspeakwarmly。HispridecouldnotendurethepitywhichEdward'svisitanderrandtacitlyimplied。Yet,intheotheraffair,hisheartwentwithEdward;hewasonthesamebeatforpayingoffolddebtshimself。
'Cythie,Mr。Springroveishere,'hesaid,atthefootofthestaircase。
Hissisterdescendedthecreakingoldstepswithafalteringtread,andstoodinthefirelightfromthehearth。SheextendedherhandtoSpringrove,welcominghimbyameremotionofthelip,hereyesaverted——ahabitwhichhadengendereditselfinhersincethebeginningofherillnessanddefamation。Owenopenedthedoorandwentout——leavingtheloversalone。ItwasthefirsttimetheyhadmetsincethememorablenightatSouthampton。
'Iwillgetalight,'shesaid,withalittleembarrassment。
'No——don't,please,Cytherea,'saidEdwardsoftly,'Comeandsitdownwithme。'
'Oyes。IoughttohaveaskedYOUto,'shereturnedtimidly。
'Everybodysitsinthechimney-cornerinthisparish。Yousitonthatside。I'llsithere。'
Tworecesses——oneontheright,oneonthelefthand——werecutintheinsideofthefireplace,andheretheysatdownfacingeachother,onbenchesfittedtotherecesses,thefireglowingonthehearthbetweentheirfeet。Itsruddylightshoneontheunderslopesoftheirfaces,andspreadoutovertheflooroftheroomwiththelowhorizontalityofthesettingsun,givingtoeverygrainofsandandtumourinthepavingalongshadowtowardsthedoor。
Edwardlookedathispalelovethroughthethinazuretwinesofsmokethatwentuplikeringletsbetweenthem,andinvestedher,asseenthroughitsmedium,withtheshadowyappearanceofaphantom。
Nothingissopotentforcoaxingbackthelosteyesofawomanasadiscreetsilenceinthemanwhohassolostthem——andthusthepatientEdwardcoaxedhers。Afterlingeringonthehearthforhalfaminute,waitinginvainforanotherwordfromhim,theywereliftedintohisface。
Hewasreadyprimedtoreceivethem。'Cytherea,willyoumarryme?'
hesaid。
Hecouldnotwaitinhisoriginalpositiontilltheanswercame。
Steppingacrossthefrontofthefiretoherownsideofthechimneycorner,hereclinedatherfeet,andsearchedforherhand。Shecontinuedinsilenceawhile。
'Edward,Icanneverbeanybody'swife,'shethensaidsadly,andwithfirmness。
'Thinkofitineverylight,'hepleaded;'thelightoflove,first。
Then,whenyouhavedonethat,seehowwiseastepitwouldbe。I
canonlyofferyoupovertyasyet,butIwant——Idosolongtosecureyoufromtheintrusionofthatunpleasantpast,whichwilloftenandalwaysbethrustbeforeyouaslongasyoulivetheshrinkingsolitarylifeyoudonow——alifewhichpuritychooses,itmaybe;buttotheoutsideworlditappearsliketheenforcedlonelinessofneglectandscorn——andtonguesarebusyinventingareasonforitwhichdoesnotexist。'
'Iknowallaboutit,'shesaidhastily;'andthosearethegroundsofmyrefusal。YouandOwenknowthewholetruth——thetwoIlovebestonearth——andIamcontent。Butthescandalwillbecontinuallyrepeated,andIcannevergiveanyonetheopportunityofsayingtoyou——that——yourwife……'Sheutterlybrokedownandwept。
'Don't,myowndarling!'heentreated。'Don't,Cytherea!'
'Pleasetoleaveme——wewillbefriends,Edward——butdon'tpressme——
mymindismadeup——Icannot——Iwillnotmarryyouoranymanunderthepresentambiguouscircumstances——neverwillI——Ihavesaidit:
never!'
Theywerebothsilent。Helistlesslyregardedtheilluminatedblacknessoverhead,wherelongflakesofsootfloatedfromthesidesandbarsofthechimney-throatliketatteredbannersinancientaisles;whilstthroughthesquareopeninginthemidstoneortwobrightstarslookeddownuponthemfromthegreyMarchsky。Thesightseemedtocheerhim。
'Atanyrateyouwillloveme?'hemurmuredtoher。
'Yes——always——foreverandforever!'
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