首页 >出版文学> CRIME AND PUNISHMENT>第16章
  Sometimesshestealsalookatmethatpositivelyscorchesme。HerfaceislikeRaphael'sMadonna。Youknow,theSistineMadonna'sfacehassomethingfantasticinit,thefaceofmournfulreligiousecstasy。
  Haven'tyounoticedit?Well,she'ssomethinginthatline。Thedayafterwe'dbeenbetrothed,Iboughtherpresentstothevalueoffifteenhundredroubles-asetofdiamondsandanotherofpearlsandasilverdressing-caseaslargeasthis,withallsortsofthingsinit,sothatevenmyMadonna'sfaceglowed。Isatheronmyknee,yesterday,andIsupposerathertoounceremoniously-sheflushedcrimsonandthetearsstarted,butshedidn'twanttoshowit。Wewereleftalone,shesuddenlyflungherselfonmyneckforthefirsttimeofherownaccord,putherlittlearmsroundme,kissedme,andvowedthatshewouldbeanobedient,faithful,andgoodwife,wouldmakemehappy,woulddevoteallherlife,everyminuteofherlife,wouldsacrificeeverything,everything,andthatallsheasksinreturnismyrespect,andthatshewants'nothing,nothingmorefromme,nopresents。'You'lladmitthattohearsuchaconfession,alone,fromanangelofsixteeninamuslinfrock,withlittlecurls,withaflushofmaidenshynessinhercheeksandtearsofenthusiasminhereyesisratherfascinating!Isn'titfascinating?
  It'sworthpayingfor,isn'tit?Well……listen,we'llgotoseemybetrothed,onlynotjustnow!”
  “Thefactisthismonstrousdifferenceinageanddevelopmentexcitesyoursensuality!Willyoureallymakesuchamarriage?”
  “Why,ofcourse。Everyonethinksofhimself,andhelivesmostgailywhoknowsbesthowtodeceivehimself。Ha-ha!Butwhyareyousokeenaboutvirtue?Havemercyonme,mygoodfriend。Iamasinfulman。Ha-ha-ha!”
  “ButyouhaveprovidedforthechildrenofKaterinaIvanovna。
  Though……thoughyouhadyourownreasons……Iunderstanditallnow。“
  “Iamalwaysfondofchildren,veryfondofthem,“laughedSvidrigailov。“Icantellyouonecuriousinstanceofit。ThefirstdayIcamehereIvisitedvarioushaunts,aftersevenyearsIsimplyrushedatthem。YouprobablynoticethatIamnotinahurrytorenewacquaintancewithmyoldfriends。IshalldowithoutthemaslongasIcan。Doyouknow,whenIwaswithMarfaPetrovnainthecountry,Iwashauntedbythethoughtoftheseplaceswhereanyonewhoknowshiswayaboutcanfindagreatdeal。Yes,uponmysoul!
  Thepeasantshavevodka,theeducatedyoungpeople,shutoutfromactivity,wastethemselvesinimpossibledreamsandvisionsandarecrippledbytheories;Jewshavesprungupandareamassingmoney,andalltherestgivethemselvesuptodebauchery。Fromthefirsthourthetownreekedofitsfamiliarodours。Ichancedtobeinafrightfulden-Ilikemydensdirty-itwasadance,socalled,andtherewasacancansuchasIneversawinmyday。Yes,thereyouhaveprogress。AllofasuddenIsawalittlegirlofthirteen,nicelydressed,dancingwithaspecialistinthatline,withanotheronevis-a-vis。Hermotherwassittingonachairbythewall。Youcan'tfancywhatacancanthatwas!Thegirlwasashamed,blushed,atlastfeltinsulted,andbegantocry。Herpartnerseizedherandbeganwhirlingherroundandperformingbeforeher;everyonelaughedand-I
  likeyourpublic,eventhecancanpublic-theylaughedandshouted,'Servesherright-servesherright!Shouldn'tbringchildren!'
  Well,it'snotmybusinesswhetherthatconsolingreflectionwaslogicalornot。Iatoncefixedonmyplan,satdownbythemother,andbeganbysayingthatItoowasastrangerandthatpeopleherewereill-bredandthattheycouldn'tdistinguishdecentfolksandtreatthemwithrespect,gavehertounderstandthatIhadplentyofmoney,offeredtotakethemhomeinmycarriage。Itookthemhomeandgottoknowthem。Theywerelodginginamiserablelittleholeandhadonlyjustarrivedfromthecountry。Shetoldmethatsheandherdaughtercouldonlyregardmyacquaintanceasanhonour。Ifoundoutthattheyhadnothingoftheirownandhadcometotownuponsomelegalbusiness。Iprofferedmyservicesandmoney。Ilearntthattheyhadgonetothedancingsaloonbymistake,believingthatitwasagenuinedancingclass。Iofferedtoassistintheyounggirl'seducationinFrenchanddancing。Myofferwasacceptedwithenthusiasmasanhonour-andwearestillfriendly……Ifyoulike,we'llgoandseethem,onlynotjustnow。“
  “Stop!Enoughofyourvile,nastyanecdotes,depravedvile,sensualman!”
  “Schiller,youarearegularSchiller!Olavertuva-t-ellesenicher?ButyouknowIshalltellyouthesethingsonpurpose,forthepleasureofhearingyouroutcries!”
  “Idaresay。IcanseeIamridiculousmyself,“mutteredRaskolnikovangrily。
  Svidrigailovlaughedheartily;finallyhecalledPhilip,paidhisbill,andbegangettingup。
  “Isay,butIamdrunk,assezcause,“hesaid。“It'sbeenapleasure。“
  “Ishouldratherthinkitmustbeapleasure!”criedRaskolnikov,gettingup。“Nodoubtitisapleasureforaworn-outprofligatetodescribesuchadventureswithamonstrousprojectofthesamesortinhismind-especiallyundersuchcircumstancesandtosuchamanasme……It'sstimulating!”
  “Well,ifyoucometothat,“Svidrigailovanswered,scrutinisingRaskolnikovwithsomesurprise,“ifyoucometothat,youareathoroughcynicyourself。You'veplentytomakeyouso,anyway。Youcanunderstandagreatdeal……andyoucandoagreatdealtoo。Butenough。Isincerelyregretnothavinghadmoretalkwithyou,butI
  shan'tlosesightofyou……Onlywaitabit。“
  Svidrigailovwalkedoutoftherestaurant。Raskolnikovwalkedoutafterhim。Svidrigailovwasnothoweververydrunk,thewinehadaffectedhimforamoment,butitwaspassingoffeveryminute。Hewaspreoccupiedwithsomethingofimportanceandwasfrowning。Hewasapparentlyexcitedanduneasyinanticipationofsomething。HismannertoRaskolnikovhadchangedduringthelastfewminutes,andhewasruderandmoresneeringeverymoment。Raskolnikovnoticedallthis,andhetoowasuneasy。HebecameverysuspiciousofSvidrigailovandresolvedtofollowhim。
  Theycameoutontothepavement。
  “Yougototheright,andItotheleft,orifyoulike,theotherway。Onlyadieu,monplaisir,maywemeetagain。“
  AndhewalkedtotherighttowardstheHayMarket。
  ChapterFiveRASKOLNIKOVwalkedafterhim。
  “What'sthis?”criedSvidrigailovturninground,“IthoughtI
  said……“
  “ItmeansthatIamnotgoingtolosesightofyounow。“
  “What?”
  Bothstoodstillandgazedatoneanother,asthoughmeasuringtheirstrength。
  “Fromallyourhalftipsystories,“Raskolnikovobservedharshly,“I
  ampositivethatyouhavenotgivenupyourdesignsonmysister,butarepursuingthemmoreactivelythanever。Ihavelearntthatmysisterreceivedaletterthismorning。Youhavehardlybeenabletositstillallthistime……Youmayhaveunearthedawifeontheway,butthatmeansnothing。Ishouldliketomakecertainmyself。“
  Raskolnikovcouldhardlyhavesaidhimselfwhathewantedandofwhathewishedtomakecertain。
  “Uponmyword!I'llcallthepolice!”
  “Callaway!”
  Againtheystoodforaminutefacingeachother。AtlastSvidrigailov'sfacechanged。HavingsatisfiedhimselfthatRaskolnikovwasnotfrightenedathisthreat,heassumedamirthfulandfriendlyair。
  “Whatafellow!Ipurposelyrefrainedfromreferringtoyouraffair,thoughIamdevouredbycuriosity。It'safantasticaffair。I'veputitofftillanothertime,butyou'reenoughtorousethedead……
  Well,letusgo,onlyIwarnyoubeforehandIamonlygoinghomeforamoment,togetsomemoney;thenIshalllockuptheflat,takeacabandgotospendtheeveningattheIslands。Now,nowareyougoingtofollowme?”
  “I'mcomingtoyourlodgings,nottoseeyoubutSofyaSemyonovna,tosayI'msorrynottohavebeenatthefuneral。“
  “That'sasyoulike,butSofyaSemyonovnaisnotathome。Shehastakenthethreechildrentoanoldladyofhighrank,thepatronessofsomeorphanasylums,whomIusedtoknowyearsago。IcharmedtheoldladybydepositingasumofmoneywithhertoprovideforthethreechildrenofKaterinaIvanovnaandsubscribingtotheinstitutionaswell。ItoldhertoothestoryofSofyaSemyonovnainfulldetail,suppressingnothing。Itproducedanindescribableeffectonher。That'swhySofyaSemyonovnahasbeeninvitedtocallto-dayattheX。Hotelwheretheladyisstayingforthetime。“
  “Nomatter,I'llcomeallthesame。“
  “Asyoulike,it'snothingtome,butIwon'tcomewithyou;hereweareathome。Bytheway,IamconvincedthatyouregardmewithsuspicionjustbecauseIhaveshownsuchdelicacyandhavenotsofartroubledyouwithquestions……youunderstand?Itstruckyouasextraordinary;Idon'tmindbettingit'sthat。Well,itteachesonetoshowdelicacy!”
  “Andtolistenatdoors!”
  “Ah,that'sit,isit?”laughedSvidrigailov。“Yes,Ishouldhavebeensurprisedifyouhadletthatpassafterallthathashappened。
  Ha-ha!ThoughIdidunderstandsomethingofthepranksyouhadbeenuptoandweretellingSofyaSemyonovnaabout,whatwasthemeaningofit?PerhapsIamquitebehindthetimesandcan'tunderstand。Forgoodness'sake,explainit,mydearboy。Expoundthelatesttheories!”
  “Youcouldn'thaveheardanything。You'remakingitallup!”
  “ButI'mnottalkingaboutthatthoughIdidhearsomething。No,I'mtalkingofthewayyoukeepsighingandgroaningnow。TheSchillerinyouisinrevolteverymoment,andnowyoutellmenottolistenatdoors。Ifthat'showyoufeel,goandinformthepolicethatyouhadthismischance;youmadealittlemistakeinyourtheory。Butifyouareconvincedthatonemustn'tlistenatdoors,butonemaymurderoldwomenatone'spleasure,you'dbetterbeofftoAmericaandmakehaste。Run,youngman!Theremaystillbetime。I'mspeakingsincerely。Haven'tyouthemoney?I'llgiveyouthefare。“
  “I'mnotthinkingofthatatall,“Raskolnikovinterruptedwithdisgust。
  “Iunderstandbutdon'tputyourselfout,don'tdiscussitifyoudon'twantto。Iunderstandthequestionsyouareworryingover-
  moralones,aren'tthey?Dutiesofcitizenandman?Laythemallaside。Theyarenothingtoyounow,ha-ha!You'llsayyouarestillamanandacitizen。Ifsoyououghtnottohavegotintothiscoil。
  It'snousetakingupajobyouarenotfitfor。Well,you'dbettershootyourself,ordon'tyouwantto?”
  “Youseemtryingtoenrageme,tomakemeleaveyou。“
  “Whataqueerfellow!Buthereweare。Welcometothestaircase。Yousee,that'sthewaytoSofyaSemyonovna。Look,thereisnooneathome。Don'tyoubelieveme?AskKapernaumov。Sheleavesthekeywithhim。HereisMadamedeKapernaumovherself。Hey,what?Sheisratherdeaf。Hasshegoneout?Where?Didyouhear?Sheisnotinandwon'tbetilllateintheeveningprobably。Well,cometomyroom;youwantedtocomeandseeme,didn'tyou?Hereweare。MadameResslich'snotathome。Sheisawomanwhoisalwaysbusy,anexcellentwomanIassureyou……Shemighthavebeenofusetoyouifyouhadbeenalittlemoresensible。Now,see!Itakethisfivepercent。bondoutofthebureau-seewhatalotI'vegotofthemstill-
  thisonewillbeturnedintocashto-day。Imustn'twasteanymoretime。Thebureauislocked,theflatislocked,andhereweareagainonthestairs。Shallwetakeacab?I'mgoingtotheIslands。
  Wouldyoulikealift?I'lltakethiscarriage。Ah,yourefuse?Youaretiredofit!Comeforadrive!Ibelieveitwillcomeontorain。Nevermind,we'llputdownthehood……“
  Svidrigailovwasalreadyinthecarriage。Raskolnikovdecidedthathissuspicionswereatleastforthatmomentunjust。WithoutansweringawordheturnedandwalkedbacktowardstheHayMarket。IfhehadonlyturnedroundonhiswayhemighthaveseenSvidrigailovgetoutnotahundredpacesoff,dismissthecabandwalkalongthepavement。Buthehadturnedthecornerandcouldseenothing。
  IntensedisgustdrewhimawayfromSvidrigailov。
  “TothinkthatIcouldforoneinstanthavelookedforhelpfromthatcoarsebrute,thatdepravedsensualistandblackguard!”hecried。
  Raskolnikov'sjudgmentwasutteredtoolightlyandhastily:therewassomethingaboutSvidrigailovwhichgavehimacertainoriginal,evenamysteriouscharacter。Asconcernedhissister,RaskolnikovwasconvincedthatSvidrigailovwouldnotleaveherinpeace。Butitwastootiresomeandunbearabletogoonthinkingandthinkingaboutthis。
  Whenhewasalone,hehadnotgonetwentypacesbeforehesank,asusual,intodeepthought。Onthebridgehestoodbytherailingandbegangazingatthewater。Andhissisterwasstandingclosebyhim。
  Hemetherattheentrancetothebridge,butpassedbywithoutseeingher。Douniahadnevermethimlikethisinthestreetbeforeandwasstruckwithdismay。Shestoodstillanddidnotknowwhethertocalltohimornot。SuddenlyshesawSvidrigailovcomingquicklyfromthedirectionoftheHayMarket。
  Heseemedtobeapproachingcautiously。Hedidnotgoontothebridge,butstoodasideonthepavement,doingallhecouldtoavoidRaskolnikov'sseeinghim。HehadobservedDouniaforsometimeandhadbeenmakingsignstoher。Shefanciedhewassignallingtobeghernottospeaktoherbrother,buttocometohim。
  ThatwaswhatDouniadid。ShestolebyherbrotherandwentuptoSvidrigailov。
  “Letusmakehasteaway,“Svidrigailovwhisperedtoher,“Idon'twantRodionRomanovitchtoknowofourmeeting。ImusttellyouI'vebeensittingwithhimintherestaurantcloseby,wherehelookedmeupandIhadgreatdifficultyingettingridofhim。Hehassomehowheardofmylettertoyouandsuspectssomething。Itwasn'tyouwhotoldhim,ofcourse,butifnotyou,whothen?”
  “Well,we'veturnedthecornernow,“Douniainterrupted,“andmybrotherwon'tseeus。IhavetotellyouthatIamgoingnofurtherwithyou。Speaktomehere。Youcantellitallinthestreet。“
  “Inthefirstplace,Ican'tsayitinthestreet;secondly,youmusthearSofyaSemyonovnatoo;and,thirdly,Iwillshowyousomepapers……Ohwell,ifyouwon'tagreetocomewithme,Ishallrefusetogiveanyexplanationandgoawayatonce。ButIbegyounottoforgetthataverycurioussecretofyourbelovedbrother'sisentirelyinmykeeping。“
  Douniastoodstill,hesitating,andlookedatSvidrigailovwithsearchingeyes。
  “Whatareyouafraidof?”heobservedquietly。“Thetownisnotthecountry。AndeveninthecountryyoudidmemoreharmthanIdidyou。“
  “HaveyoupreparedSofyaSemyonovna?”
  “No,Ihavenotsaidawordtoherandamnotquitecertainwhethersheisathomenow。Butmostlikelysheis。Shehasburiedherstepmotherto-day:sheisnotlikelytogovisitingonsuchaday。ForthetimeIdon'twanttospeaktoanyoneaboutitandIhalfregrethavingspokentoyou。Theslightestindiscretionisasbadasbetrayalinathinglikethis。Ilivethereinthathouse,wearecomingtoit。
  That'stheporterofourhouse-heknowsmeverywell;yousee,he'sbowing;heseesI'mcomingwithaladyandnodoubthehasnoticedyourfacealreadyandyouwillbegladofthatifyouareafraidofmeandsuspicious。Excusemyputtingthingssocoarsely。Ihaven'taflattomyself;SofyaSemyonovna'sroomisnexttomine-shelodgesinthenextflat。Thewholefloorisletoutinlodgings。Whyareyoufrightenedlikeachild?AmIreallysoterrible?”
  Svidrigailov'slipsweretwistedinacondescendingsmile;buthewasinnosmilingmood。Hisheartwasthrobbingandhecouldscarcelybreathe。Hespokeratherloudtocoverhisgrowingexcitement。ButDouniadidnotnoticethispeculiarexcitement,shewassoirritatedbyhisremarkthatshewasfrightenedofhimlikeachildandthathewassoterribletoher。
  “ThoughIknowthatyouarenotaman……ofhonour,Iamnotintheleastafraidofyou。Leadtheway,“shesaidwithapparentcomposure,butherfacewasverypale。
  SvidrigailovstoppedatSonia'sroom。
  “Allowmetoinquirewhethersheisathome……Sheisnot。Howunfortunate!ButIknowshemaycomequitesoon。Ifshe'sgoneout,itcanonlybetoseealadyabouttheorphans。Theirmotherisdead……I'vebeenmeddlingandmakingarrangementsforthem。IfSofyaSemyonovnadoesnotcomebackintenminutes,Iwillsendhertoyou,to-dayifyoulike。Thisismyflat。Thesearemytworooms。
  MadameResslich,mylandlady,hasthenextroom。Now,lookthisway。I
  willshowyoumychiefpieceofevidence:thisdoorfrommybedroomleadsintotwoperfectlyemptyrooms,whicharetolet。Heretheyare……Youmustlookintothemwithsomeattention。“
  Svidrigailovoccupiedtwofairlylargefurnishedrooms。Douniawaslookingabouthermistrustfully,butsawnothingspecialinthefurnitureorpositionoftherooms。Yettherewassomethingtoobserve,forinstance,thatSvidrigailov'sflatwasexactlybetweentwosetsofalmostuninhabitedapartments。Hisroomswerenotentereddirectlyfromthepassage,butthroughthelandlady'stwoalmostemptyrooms。Unlockingadoorleadingoutofhisbedroom,SvidrigailovshowedDouniathetwoemptyroomsthatweretolet。
  Douniastoppedinthedoorway,notknowingwhatshewascalledtolookupon,butSvidrigailovhastenedtoexplain。
  “Lookhere,atthissecondlargeroom。Noticethatdoor,it'slocked。Bythedoorstandsachair,theonlyoneinthetworooms。I
  broughtitfrommyroomssoastolistenmoreconveniently。JusttheothersideofthedoorisSofyaSemyonovna'stable;shesattheretalkingtoRodionRomanovitch。AndIsatherelisteningontwosuccessiveevenings,fortwohourseachtime-andofcourseIwasabletolearnsomething,whatdoyouthink?”
  “Youlistened?”
  “Yes,Idid。Nowcomebacktomyroom;wecan'tsitdownhere。“
  HebroughtAvdotyaRomanovnabackintohissitting-roomandofferedherachair。Hesatdownattheoppositesideofthetable,atleastsevenfeetfromher,butprobablytherewasthesameglowinhiseyeswhichhadoncefrightenedDouniasomuch。Sheshudderedandoncemorelookedaboutherdistrustfully。Itwasaninvoluntarygesture;sheevidentlydidnotwishtobetrayheruneasiness。ButthesecludedpositionofSvidrigailov'slodginghadsuddenlystruckher。Shewantedtoaskwhetherhislandladyatleastwereathome,butpridekeptherfromasking。Moreover,shehadanothertroubleinherheartincomparablygreaterthanfearforherself。Shewasingreatdistress。
  “Hereisyourletter,“shesaid,layingitonthetable。“Canitbetruewhatyouwrite?Youhintatacrimecommitted,yousay,bymybrother。Youhintatittooclearly;youdaren'tdenyitnow。I
  musttellyouthatI'dheardofthisstupidstorybeforeyouwroteanddon'tbelieveawordofit。It'sadisgustingandridiculoussuspicion。Iknowthestoryandwhyandhowitwasinvented。Youcanhavenoproofs。Youpromisedtoproveit。Speak!ButletmewarnyouthatIdon'tbelieveyou!Idon'tbelieveyou!”
  Douniasaidthis,speakinghurriedly,andforaninstantthecolourrushedtoherface。
  “Ifyoudidn'tbelieveit,howcouldyouriskcomingalonetomyrooms?Whyhaveyoucome?Simplyfromcuriosity?”
  “Don'ttormentme。Speak,speak!”
  “There'snodenyingthatyouareabravegirl。Uponmyword,I
  thoughtyouwouldhaveaskedMr。Razumihintoescortyouhere。Buthewasnotwithyounoranywherenear。Iwasonthelook-out。It'sspiritedofyou,itprovesyouwantedtospareRodionRomanovitch。Buteverythingisdivineinyou……Aboutyourbrother,whatamItosaytoyou?You'vejustseenhimyourself。Whatdidyouthinkofhim?”
  “Surelythat'snottheonlythingyouarebuildingon?”
  “No,notonthat,butonhisownwords。HecamehereontwosuccessiveeveningstoseeSofyaSemyonovna。I'veshownyouwheretheysat。Hemadeafullconfessiontoher。Heisamurderer。Hekilledanoldwoman,apawnbroker,withwhomhehadpawnedthingshimself。Hekilledhersistertoo,apedlarwomancalledLizaveta,whohappenedtocomeinwhilehewasmurderinghersister。Hekilledthemwithanaxehebroughtwithhim。Hemurderedthemtorobthemandhedidrobthem。Hetookmoneyandvariousthings……Hetoldallthis,wordforword,toSofyaSemyonovna,theonlypersonwhoknowshissecret。
  Butshehashadnosharebywordordeedinthemurder;shewasashorrifiedatitasyouarenow。Don'tbeanxious,shewon'tbetrayhim。“
  “Itcannotbe,“mutteredDounia,withwhitelips。Shegaspedforbreath。“Itcannotbe。Therewasnottheslightestcause,nosortofground……It'salie,alie!”
  “Herobbedher,thatwasthecause,hetookmoneyandthings。It'struethatbyhisownadmissionhemadenouseofthemoneyorthings,buthidthemunderastone,wheretheyarenow。Butthatwasbecausehedarednotmakeuseofthem。“
  “Buthowcouldhesteal,rob?Howcouldhedreamofit?”criedDounia,andshejumpedupfromthechair。“Why,youknowhim,andyou'veseenhim,canhebeathief?”
  SheseemedtobeimploringSvidrigailov;shehadentirelyforgottenherfear。
  “Therearethousandsandmillionsofcombinationsandpossibilities,AvdotyaRomanovna。Athiefstealsandknowsheisascoundrel,butI'veheardofagentlemanwhobrokeopenthemail。Whoknows,verylikelyhethoughthewasdoingagentlemanlything!OfcourseIshouldnothavebelieveditmyselfifI'dbeentoldofitasyouhave,butIbelievemyownears。HeexplainedallthecausesofittoSofyaSemyonovnatoo,butshedidnotbelieveherearsatfirst,yetshebelievedherowneyesatlast。“
  “What……werethecauses?”
  “It'salongstory,AvdotyaRomanovna。Here's……howshallItellyou?-Atheoryofasort,thesameonebywhichIforinstanceconsiderthatasinglemisdeedispermissibleiftheprincipalaimisright,asolitarywrongdoingandhundredsofgooddeeds!It'sgallingtoo,ofcourse,forayoungmanofgiftsandoverweeningpridetoknowthatifhehad,forinstance,apaltrythreethousand,hiswholecareer,hiswholefuturewouldbedifferentlyshapedandyetnottohavethatthreethousand。Addtothat,nervousirritabilityfromhunger,fromlodginginahole,fromrags,fromavividsenseofthecharmofhissocialpositionandhissister'sandmother'spositiontoo。Aboveall,vanity,prideandvanity,thoughgoodnessknowshemayhavegoodqualitiestoo……Iamnotblaminghim,pleasedon'tthinkit;besides,it'snotmybusiness。Aspeciallittletheorycameintoo-atheoryofasort-dividingmankind,yousee,intomaterialandsuperiorpersons,thatispersonstowhomthelawdoesnotapplyowingtotheirsuperiority,whomakelawsfortherestofmankind,thematerial,thatis。It'sallrightasatheory,unetheoriecommeuneautre。Napoleonattractedhimtremendously,thatis,whataffectedhimwasthatagreatmanymenofgeniushavenothesitatedatwrongdoing,buthaveoversteppedthelawwithoutthinkingaboutit。Heseemstohavefanciedthathewasageniustoo-thatis,hewasconvincedofitforatime。Hehassufferedagreatdealandisstillsufferingfromtheideathathecouldmakeatheory,butwasincapableofboldlyoversteppingthelaw,andsoheisnotamanofgenius。Andthat'shumiliatingforayoungmanofanypride,inourdayespecially……“
  “Butremorse?Youdenyhimanymoralfeelingthen?Ishelikethat?”
  “Ah,AvdotyaRomanovna,everythingisinamuddlenow;notthatitwaseverinverygoodorder。Russiansingeneralarebroadintheirideas,AvdotyaRomanovna,broadliketheirlandandexceedinglydisposedtothefantastic,thechaotic。Butit'samisfortunetobebroadwithoutaspecialgenius。Doyourememberwhatalotoftalkwehadtogetheronthissubject,sittingintheeveningsontheterraceaftersupper?Why,youusedtoreproachmewithbreadth!Whoknows,perhapsweweretalkingattheverytimewhenhewaslyingherethinkingoverhisplan。Therearenosacredtraditionsamongstus,especiallyintheeducatedclass,AvdotyaRomanovna。Atthebestsomeonewillmakethemupsomehowforhimselfoutofbooksorfromsomeoldchronicle。Butthoseareforthemostpartthelearnedandalloldfogeys,sothatitwouldbealmostill-bredinamanofsociety。Youknowmyopinionsingeneral,though。Ineverblameanyone。Idonothingatall,Ipersevereinthat。Butwe'vetalkedofthismorethanoncebefore。Iwassohappyindeedastointerestyouinmyopinions……Youareverypale,AvdotyaRomanovna。“
  “Iknowhistheory。Ireadthatarticleofhisaboutmentowhomallispermitted。Razumihinbroughtittome。“
  “Mr。Razumihin?Yourbrother'sarticle?Inamagazine?Istheresuchanarticle?Ididn'tknow。Itmustbeinteresting。Butwhereareyougoing,AvdotyaRomanovna?”
  “IwanttoseeSofyaSemyonovna,“Douniaarticulatedfaintly。“HowdoIgotoher?Shehascomein,perhaps。Imustseeheratonce。
  Perhapsshe……“
  AvdotyaRomanovnacouldnotfinish。Herbreathliterallyfailedher。
  “SofyaSemyonovnawillnotbebacktillnight,atleastIbelievenot。Shewastohavebeenbackatonce,butifnot,thenshewillnotbeintillquitelate。“
  “Ah,thenyouarelying!Isee……youwerelying……lyingallthetime……Idon'tbelieveyou!Idon'tbelieveyou!”criedDounia,completelylosingherhead。
  Almostfainting,shesankontoachairwhichSvidrigailovmadehastetogiveher。
  “AvdotyaRomanovna,whatisit?Controlyourself!Hereissomewater。Drinkalittle……“
  Hesprinkledsomewateroverher。Douniashudderedandcametoherself。
  “Ithasactedviolently,“Svidrigailovmutteredtohimself,frowning。“AvdotyaRomanovna,calmyourself!Believeme,hehasfriends。Wewillsavehim。Wouldyoulikemetotakehimabroad?I
  havemoney,Icangetaticketinthreedays。Andasforthemurder,hewilldoallsortsofgooddeedsyet,toatoneforit。Calmyourself。Hemaybecomeagreatmanyet。Well,howareyou?Howdoyoufeel?”
  “Cruelman!Tobeabletojeeratit!Letmego……“
  “Whereareyougoing?”
  “Tohim。Whereishe?Doyouknow?Whyisthisdoorlocked?Wecameinatthatdoorandnowitislocked。Whendidyoumanagetolockit?”
  “Wecouldn'tbeshoutingallovertheflatonsuchasubject。Iamfarfromjeering;it'ssimplythatI'msickoftalkinglikethis。
  Buthowcanyougoinsuchastate?Doyouwanttobetrayhim?Youwilldrivehimtofury,andhewillgivehimselfup。Letmetellyou,heisalreadybeingwatched;theyarealreadyonhistrack。Youwillsimplybegivinghimaway。Waitalittle:Isawhimandwastalkingtohimjustnow。Hecanstillbesaved。Waitabit,sitdown;letusthinkitovertogether。Iaskedyoutocomeinordertodiscussitalonewithyouandtoconsideritthoroughly。Butdositdown!”
  “Howcanyousavehim?Canhereallybesaved?”
  Douniasatdown。Svidrigailovsatdownbesideher。
  “Italldependsonyou,onyou,onyoualone,“hebeginwithglowingeyes,almostinawhisperandhardlyabletoutterthewordsforemotion。
  Douniadrewbackfromhiminalarm。Hetoowastremblingallover。
  “You……onewordfromyou,andheissaved。I……I'llsavehim。I
  havemoneyandfriends。I'llsendhimawayatonce。I'llgetapassport,twopassports,oneforhimandoneforme。Ihavefriends……
  capablepeople……Ifyoulike,I'lltakeapassportforyou……foryourmother……WhatdoyouwantwithRazumihin?Iloveyoutoo……
  Iloveyoubeyondeverything……Letmekissthehemofyourdress,letme,letme……Theveryrustleofitistoomuchforme。Tellme,'dothat,'andI'lldoit。I'lldoeverything。Iwilldotheimpossible。Whatyoubelieve,Iwillbelieve。I'lldoanything-
  anything!Don't,don'tlookatmelikethat。Doyouknowthatyouarekillingme?……“
  Hewasalmostbeginningtorave……Somethingseemedsuddenlytogotohishead。Douniajumpedupandrushedtothedoor。
  “Openit!Openit!”shecalled,shakingthedoor。“Openit!Istherenoonethere?”
  Svidrigailovgotupandcametohimself。Hisstilltremblinglipsslowlybrokeintoanangrymockingsmile。
  “Thereisnooneathome,“hesaidquietlyandemphatically。“Thelandladyhasgoneout,andit'swasteoftimetoshoutlikethat。
  Youareonlyexcitingyourselfuselessly。“
  “Whereisthekey?Openthedooratonce,atonce,baseman!”
  “Ihavelostthekeyandcannotfindit。“
  “Thisisanoutrage,“criedDounia,turningpaleasdeath。Sherushedtothefurthestcorner,whereshemadehastetobarricadeherselfwithalittletable。
  Shedidnotscream,butshefixedhereyesonhertormentorandwatchedeverymovementhemade。
  Svidrigailovremainedstandingattheotherendoftheroomfacingher。Hewaspositivelycomposed,atleastinappearance,buthisfacewaspaleasbefore。Themockingsmiledidnotleavehisface。
  “Youspokeofoutragejustnow,AvdotyaRomanovna。InthatcaseyoumaybesureI'vetakenmeasures。SofyaSemyonovnaisnotathome。TheKapernaumovsarefaraway-therearefivelockedroomsbetween。IamatleasttwiceasstrongasyouareandIhavenothingtofear,besides。Foryoucouldnotcomplainafterwards。Yousurelywouldnotbewillingactuallytobetrayyourbrother?Besides,noonewouldbelieveyou。Howshouldagirlhavecomealonetovisitasolitarymaninhislodgings?Sothatevenifyoudosacrificeyourbrother,youcouldprovenothing。Itisverydifficulttoproveanassault,AvdotyaRomanovna。“
  “Scoundrel!”whisperedDouniaindignantly。
  “Asyoulike,butobserveIwasonlyspeakingbywayofageneralproposition。It'smypersonalconvictionthatyouareperfectlyright-
  violenceishateful。Ionlyspoketoshowyouthatyouneedhavenoremorseevenif……youwerewillingtosaveyourbrotherofyourownaccord,asIsuggesttoyou。Youwouldbesimplysubmittingtocircumstances,toviolence,infact,ifwemustusethatword。Thinkaboutit。Yourbrother'sandyourmother'sfateareinyourhands。I
  willbeyourslave……allmylife……Iwillwaithere。“
  SvidrigailovsatdownonthesofaabouteightstepsfromDounia。Shehadnottheslightestdoubtnowofhisunbendingdetermination。
  Besides,sheknewhim。Suddenlyshepulledoutofherpocketarevolver,cockeditandlaiditinherhandonthetable。Svidrigailovjumpedup。
  “Aha!Sothat'sit,isit?”hecried,surprisedbutsmilingmaliciously。“Well,thatcompletelyalterstheaspectofaffairs。
  You'vemadethingswonderfullyeasierforme,AvdotyaRomanovna。Butwheredidyougettherevolver?WasitMr。Razumihin?Why,it'smyrevolver,anoldfriend!AndhowI'vehuntedforit!TheshootinglessonsI'vegivenyouinthecountryhavenotbeenthrownaway。“
  “It'snotyourrevolver,itbelongedtoMarfaPetrovna,whomyoukilled,wretch!Therewasnothingofyoursinherhouse。ItookitwhenIbegantosuspectwhatyouwerecapableof。Ifyoudaretoadvanceonestep,IswearI'llkillyou。“Shewasfrantic。
  “Butyourbrother?Iaskfromcuriosity,“saidSvidrigailov,stillstandingwherehewas。
  “Inform,ifyouwantto!Don'tstir!Don'tcomenearer!I'llshoot!Youpoisonedyourwife,Iknow;youareamurdereryourself!”
  Sheheldtherevolverready。
  “AreyousopositiveIpoisonedMarfaPetrovna?”
  “Youdid!Youhintedityourself!youtalkedtomeofpoison……I
  knowyouwenttogetit……youhaditinreadiness……Itwasyourdoing……Itmusthavebeenyourdoing……Scoundrel!”
  “Evenifthatweretrue,itwouldhavebeenforyoursake……youwouldhavebeenthecause。“
  “Youarelying!Ihatedyoualways,always……“
  “Oho,AvdotyaRomanovna!Youseemtohaveforgottenhowyousoftenedtomeintheheatofpropaganda。Isawitinyoureyes。Doyourememberthatmoonlightnight,whenthenightingalewassinging?”
  “That'salie,“therewasaflashoffuryinDounia'seyes,“that'salieandalibel!”
  “Alie?Well,ifyoulike,it'salie。Imadeitup。Womenoughtnottoberemindedofsuchthings,“hesmiled。“Iknowyouwillshoot,youprettywildcreature。Well,shootaway!”
  Douniaraisedtherevolver,anddeadlypale,gazedathim,measuringthedistanceandawaitingthefirstmovementonhispart。Herlowerlipwaswhiteandquiveringandherbigblackeyesflashedlikefire。Hehadneverseenhersohandsome。Thefireglowinginhereyesatthemomentsheraisedtherevolverseemedtokindlehimandtherewasapangofanguishinhisheart。Hetookastepforwardandashotrangout。Thebulletgrazedhishairandflewintothewallbehind。Hestoodstillandlaughedsoftly。
  “Thewasphasstungme。Sheaimedstraightatmyhead。What'sthis?Blood?”hepulledouthishandkerchieftowipetheblood,whichflowedinathinstreamdownhisrighttemple。Thebulletseemedtohavejustgrazedtheskin。
  DounialoweredtherevolverandlookedatSvidrigailovnotsomuchinterrorasinasortofwildamazement。Sheseemednottounderstandwhatshewasdoingandwhatwasgoingon。
  “Well,youmissed!Fireagain,I'llwait,“saidSvidrigailovsoftly,stillsmiling,butgloomily。“Ifyougoonlikethat,Ishallhavetimetoseizeyoubeforeyoucockagain。“
  Douniastarted,quicklycockedthepistolandagainraisedit。
  “Letmebe,“shecriedindespair。“IswearI'llshootagain。I……
  I'llkillyou。“
  “Well……atthreepacesyoucanhardlyhelpit。Butifyoudon't……then。“Hiseyesflashedandhetooktwostepsforward。Douniashotagain:itmissedfire。
  “Youhaven'tloadeditproperly。Nevermind,youhaveanotherchargethere。Getitready,I'llwait。“
  Hestoodfacingher,twopacesaway,waitingandgazingatherwithwilddetermination,withfeverishlypassionate,stubborn,seteyes。Douniasawthathewouldsoonerdiethanlethergo。“And……
  now,ofcourseshewouldkillhim,attwopaces!”Suddenlysheflungawaytherevolver。
  “She'sdroppedit!”saidSvidrigailovwithsurprise,andhedrewadeepbreath。Aweightseemedtohaverolledfromhisheart-perhapsnotonlythefearofdeath;indeedhemayscarcelyhavefeltitatthatmoment。Itwasthedeliverancefromanotherfeeling,darkerandmorebitter,whichhecouldnothimselfhavedefined。
  HewenttoDouniaandgentlyputhisarmroundherwaist。Shedidnotresist,but,tremblinglikealeaf,lookedathimwithsupplianteyes。Hetriedtosaysomething,buthislipsmovedwithoutbeingabletoutterasound。
  “Letmego,“Douniaimplored。Svidrigailovshuddered。Hervoicenowwasquitedifferent。
  “Thenyoudon'tloveme?”heaskedsoftly。Douniashookherhead。
  “And……andyoucan't?Never?”hewhisperedindespair。
  “Never!”
  Therefollowedamomentofterrible,dumbstruggleintheheartofSvidrigailov。Helookedatherwithanindescribablegaze。Suddenlyhewithdrewhisarm,turnedquicklytothewindowandstoodfacingit。
  Anothermomentpassed。
  “Here'sthekey。“
  Hetookitoutoftheleftpocketofhiscoatandlaiditonthetablebehindhim,withoutturningorlookingatDounia。
  “Takeit!Makehaste!”
  Helookedstubbornlyoutofthewindow。Douniawentuptothetabletotakethekey。
  “Makehaste!Makehaste!”repeatedSvidrigailov,stillwithoutturningormoving。Butthereseemedaterriblesignificanceinthetoneofthat“makehaste。“
  Douniaunderstoodit,snatchedupthekey,flewtothedoor,unlockeditquicklyandrushedoutoftheroom。Aminutelater,besideherself,sheranoutontothecanalbankinthedirectionofX。
  Bridge。
  Svidrigailovremainedthreeminutesstandingatthewindow。Atlastheslowlyturned,lookedabouthimandpassedhishandoverhisforehead。Astrangesmilecontortedhisface,apitiful,sad,weaksmile,asmileofdespair。Theblood,whichwasalreadygettingdry,smearedhishand。Helookedangrilyatit,thenwettedatowelandwashedhistemple。TherevolverwhichDouniahadflungawaylaynearthedoorandsuddenlycaughthiseye。Hepickeditupandexaminedit。
  Itwasalittlepocketthree-barrelrevolverofold-fashionedconstruction。Therewerestilltwochargesandonecapsuleleftinit。
  Itcouldbefiredagain。Hethoughtalittle,puttherevolverinhispocket,tookhishatandwentout。
  ChapterSixHESPENTthateveningtillteno'clock,goingfromonelowhaunttoanother。Katiatooturnedupandsanganotherguttersong,howacertain“villainandtyrant“-
  “begankissingKatia。“-
  SvidrigailovtreatedKatiaandtheorgan-grinderandsomesingersandthewaitersandtwolittleclerks。Hewasparticularlydrawntotheseclerksbythefactthattheybothhadcrookednoses,onebenttotheleftandtheothertotheright。Theytookhimfinallytoapleasuregarden,wherehepaidfortheirentrance。Therewasonelankythree-year-oldpinetreeandthreebushesinthegarden,besidesa“Vauxhall,“whichwasinrealityadrinking-barwhereteatoowasserved,andtherewereafewgreentablesandchairsstandingroundit。Achorusofwretchedsingersandadrunken,butexceedinglydepressedGermanclownfromMunichwitharednoseentertainedthepublic。Theclerksquarreledwithsomeotherclerksandafightseemedimminent。Svidrigailovwaschosentodecidethedispute。Helistenedtothemforaquarterofanhour,buttheyshoutedsoloudthattherewasnopossibilityofunderstandingthem。TheonlyfactthatseemedcertainwasthatoneofthemhadstolensomethingandhadevensucceededinsellingitonthespottoaJew,butwouldnotsharethespoilwithhiscompanion。FinallyitappearedthatthestolenobjectwasateaspoonbelongingtotheVauxhall。Itwasmissedandtheaffairbegantoseemtroublesome。Svidrigailovpaidforthespoon,gotup,andwalkedoutofthegarden。Itwasaboutsixo'clock。Hehadnotdrunkadropofwineallthistimeandhadorderedteamoreforthesakeofappearancesthananything。
  Itwasadarkandstiflingevening。Threateningstorm-cloudscameovertheskyaboutteno'clock。Therewasaclapofthunder,andtheraincamedownlikeawaterfall。Thewaterfellnotindrops,butbeatontheearthinstreams。Therewereflashesoflightningeveryminuteandeachflashlastedwhileonecouldcountfive。
  Drenchedtotheskin,hewenthome,lockedhimselfin,openedthebureau,tookoutallhismoneyandtoreuptwoorthreepapers。
  Then,puttingthemoneyinhispocket,hewasabouttochangehisclothes,but,lookingoutofthewindowandlisteningtothethunderandtherain,hegaveuptheidea,tookuphishatandwentoutoftheroomwithoutlockingthedoor。HewentstraighttoSonia。Shewasathome。
  Shewasnotalone:thefourKapernaumovchildrenwerewithher。
  Shewasgivingthemtea。ShereceivedSvidrigailovinrespectfulsilence,lookingwonderinglyathissoakingclothes。Thechildrenallranawayatonceinindescribableterror。
  SvidrigailovsatdownatthetableandaskedSoniatositbesidehim。Shetimidlypreparedtolisten。
  “ImaybegoingtoAmerica,SofyaSemyonovna,“saidSvidrigailov,“andasIamprobablyseeingyouforthelasttime,Ihavecometomakesomearrangements。Well,didyouseetheladyto-day?Iknowwhatshesaidtoyou,youneednottellme。“Soniamadeamovementandblushed。“Thosepeoplehavetheirownwayofdoingthings。Astoyoursistersandyourbrother,theyarereallyprovidedforandthemoneyassignedtothemI'veputintosafekeepingandhavereceivedacknowledgments。Youhadbettertakechargeofthereceipts,incaseanythinghappens。Here,takethem!Well,nowthat'ssettled。Herearethree5percent。bondstothevalueofthreethousandroubles。
  Takethoseforyourself,entirelyforyourself,andletthatbestrictlybetweenourselves,sothatnooneknowsofit,whateveryouhear。Youwillneedthemoney,fortogoonlivingintheoldway,SofyaSemyonovna,isbad,andbesidesthereisnoneedforitnow。“
  “Iamsomuchindebtedtoyou,andsoarethechildrenandmystepmother,“saidSoniahurriedly,“andifI'vesaidsolittle……
  pleasedon'tconsider……“
  “That'senough!that'senough!”
  “Butasforthemoney,ArkadyIvanovitch,Iamverygratefultoyou,butIdon'tneeditnow。Icanalwaysearnmyownliving。Don'tthinkmeungrateful。Ifyouaresocharitable,thatmoney……“
  “It'sforyou,foryou,SofyaSemyonovna,andpleasedon'twastewordsoverit。Ihaven'ttimeforit。Youwillwantit。RodionRomanovitchhastwoalternatives:abulletinthebrainorSiberia。“
  Sonialookedwildlyathim,andstarted。“Don'tbeuneasy,IknowallaboutitfromhimselfandIamnotagossip;Iwon'ttellanyone。
  Itwasgoodadvicewhenyoutoldhimtogivehimselfupandconfess。
  Itwouldbemuchbetterforhim。Well,ifitturnsouttobeSiberia,hewillgoandyouwillfollowhim。That'sso,isn'tit?
  Andifso,you'llneedmoney。You'llneeditforhim,doyouunderstand?Givingittoyouisthesameasmygivingittohim。
  Besides,youpromisedAmaliaIvanovnatopaywhat'sowing。Iheardyou。Howcanyouundertakesuchobligationssoheedlessly,SofyaSemyonovna?ItwasKaterinaIvanovna'sdebtandnotyours,soyououghtnottohavetakenanynoticeoftheGermanwoman。Youcan'tgetthroughtheworldlikethat。Ifyouareeverquestionedaboutme-to-morroworthedayafteryouwillbeasked-don'tsayanythingaboutmycomingtoseeyounowanddon'tshowthemoneytoanyoneorsayawordaboutit。Well,nowgood-bye。“Hegotup。“MygreetingstoRodionRomanovitch。Bytheway,you'dbetterputthemoneyforthepresentinMr。Razumihin'skeeping。YouknowMr。
  Razumihin?Ofcourseyoudo。He'snotabadfellow。Takeittohimto-morrowor……whenthetimecomes。Andtillthen,hideitcarefully。“
  SoniatoojumpedupfromherchairandlookedindismayatSvidrigailov。Shelongedtospeak,toaskaquestion,butforthefirstmomentsshedidnotdareanddidnotknowhowtobegin。
  “Howcanyou……howcanyoubegoingnow,insuchrain?”
  “Why,bestartingforAmerica,andbestoppedbyrain!Ha,ha!
  Good-bye,SofyaSemyonovna,mydear!Liveandlivelong,youwillbeofusetoothers。Bytheway……tellMr。RazumihinIsendmygreetingstohim。TellhimArkadyIvanovitchSvidrigailovsendshisgreetings。
  Besureto。“
  Hewentout,leavingSoniainastateofwonderinganxietyandvagueapprehension。
  Itappearedafterwardsthatonthesameevening,attwentypasteleven,hemadeanotherveryeccentricandunexpectedvisit。Therainstillpersisted。Drenchedtotheskin,hewalkedintothelittleflatwheretheparentsofhisbetrothedlived,inThirdStreetinVassilyevskyIsland。Heknockedsometimebeforehewasadmitted,andhisvisitatfirstcausedgreatperturbation;butSvidrigailovcouldbeveryfascinatingwhenheliked,sothatthefirst,andindeedveryintelligentsurmiseofthesensibleparentsthatSvidrigailovhadprobablyhadsomuchtodrinkthathedidnotknowwhathewasdoingvanishedimmediately。ThedecrepitfatherwaswheeledintoseeSvidrigailovbythetenderandsensiblemother,whoasusualbegantheconversationwithvariousirrelevantquestions。
  Sheneveraskedadirectquestion,butbeganbysmilingandrubbingherhandsandthen,ifshewereobligedtoascertainsomething-forinstance,whenSvidrigailovwouldliketohavethewedding-shewouldbeginbyinterestedandalmosteagerquestionsaboutParisandthecourtlifethere,andonlybydegreesbroughttheconversationroundtoThirdStreet。Onotheroccasionsthishadofcoursebeenveryimpressive,butthistimeArkadyIvanovitchseemedparticularlyimpatient,andinsistedonseeinghisbetrothedatonce,thoughhehadbeeninformedtobeginwiththatshehadalreadygonetobed。Thegirlofcourseappeared。
  SvidrigailovinformedheratoncethathewasobligedbyveryimportantaffairstoleavePetersburgforatime,andthereforebroughtherfifteenthousandroublesandbeggedheracceptthemasapresentfromhim,ashehadlongbeenintendingtomakeherthistriflingpresentbeforetheirwedding。Thelogicalconnectionofthepresentwithhisimmediatedepartureandtheabsolutenecessityofvisitingthemforthatpurposeinpouringrainatmidnightwasnotmadeclear。Butitallwentoffverywell;eventheinevitableejaculationsofwonderandregret,theinevitablequestionswereextraordinarilyfewandrestrained。Ontheotherhand,thegratitudeexpressedwasmostglowingandwasreinforcedbytearsfromthemostsensibleofmothers。Svidrigailovgotup,laughed,kissedhisbetrothed,pattedhercheek,declaredhewouldsooncomeback,andnoticinginhereyes,togetherwithchildishcuriosity,asortofearnestdumbinquiry,reflectedandkissedheragain,thoughhefeltsincereangerinwardlyatthethoughtthathispresentwouldbeimmediatelylockedupinthekeepingofthemostsensibleofmothers。Hewentaway,leavingthemallinastateofextraordinaryexcitement,butthetendermamma,speakingquietlyinahalfwhisper,settledsomeofthemostimportantoftheirdoubts,concludingthatSvidrigailovwasagreatman,amanofgreataffairsandconnectionsandofgreatwealth-therewasnoknowingwhathehadinhismind。Hewouldstartoffonajourneyandgiveawaymoneyjustasthefancytookhim,sothattherewasnothingsurprisingaboutit。Ofcourseitwasstrangethathewaswetthrough,butEnglishmen,forinstance,areevenmoreeccentric,andallthesepeopleofhighsocietydidn'tthinkofwhatwassaidofthemanddidn'tstandonceremony。Possibly,indeed,hecamelikethatonpurposetoshowthathewasnotafraidofanyone。Aboveall,notawordshouldbesaidaboutit,forGodknowswhatmightcomeofit,andthemoneymustbelockedup,anditwasmostfortunatethatFedosya,thecook,hadnotleftthekitchen。Andaboveallnotawordmustbesaidtothatoldcat,MadameResslich,andsoonandsoon。Theysatupwhisperingtilltwoo'clock,butthegirlwenttobedmuchearlier,amazedandrathersorrowful。
  Svidrigailovmeanwhile,exactlyatmidnight,crossedthebridgeonthewaybacktothemainland。Therainhadceasedandtherewasaroaringwind。Hebeganshivering,andforonemomenthegazedattheblackwatersoftheLittleNevawithalookofspecialinterest,eveninquiry。Buthesoonfeltitverycold,standingbythewater;heturnedandwenttowardsY。Prospect。Hewalkedalongthatendlessstreetforalongtime,almosthalfanhour,morethanoncestumblinginthedarkonthewoodenpavement,butcontinuallylookingforsomethingontherightsideofthestreet。Hehadnoticedpassingthroughthisstreetlatelythattherewasahotelsomewheretowardstheend,builtofwood,butfairlylarge。anditsnameherememberedwassomethinglikeAdrianople。Hewasnotmistaken:
  thehotelwassoconspicuousinthatGod-forsakenplacethathecouldnotfailtoseeiteveninthedark。Itwasalong,blackenedwoodenbuilding,andinspiteofthelatehourtherewerelightsinthewindowsandsignsoflifewithin。Hewentinandaskedaraggedfellowwhomethiminthecorridorforaroom。Thelatter,scanningSvidrigailov,pulledhimselftogetherandledhimatoncetoacloseandtinyroominthedistance,attheendofthecorridor,underthestairs。Therewasnoother,allwereoccupied。Theraggedfellowlookedinquiringly。
  “Istheretea?”askedSvidrigailov。
  “Yes,sir。“
  “Whatelseisthere?”
  “Veal,vodka,savouries。“
  “Bringmeteaandveal。“
  “Andyouwantnothingelse?”heaskedwithapparentsurprise。
  “Nothing,nothing。“
  Theraggedmanwentaway,completelydisillusioned。
  “Itmustbeaniceplace,“thoughtSvidrigailov。“HowwasitI
  didn'tknowit?IexpectIlookasifIcamefromacafechantantandhavehadsomeadventureontheway。Itwouldbeinterestingtoknowwhostayedhere。“
  Helightedthecandleandlookedattheroommorecarefully。Itwasaroomsolow-pitchedthatSvidrigailovcouldnotonlyjuststandupinit;ithadonewindow;thebed,whichwasverydirty,andtheplainstainedchairandtablealmostfilleditup。Thewallslookedasthoughtheyweremadeofplanks,coveredwithshabbypaper,sotornanddustythatthepatternwasindistinguishable,thoughthegeneralcolour-yellow-couldstillbemadeout。Oneofthewallswascutshortbytheslopingceiling,thoughtheroomwasnotanattic,butjustunderthestairs。
  Svidrigailovsetdownthecandle,satdownonthebedandsankintothought。Butastrangepersistentmurmurwhichsometimesrosetoashoutinthenextroomattractedhisattention。Themurmurhadnotceasedfromthemomentheenteredtheroom。Helistened:someonewasupbraidingandalmosttearfullyscolding,butheheardonlyonevoice。
  Svidrigailovgotup,shadedthelightwithhishandandatoncehesawlightthroughacrackinthewall;hewentupandpeepedthrough。Theroom,whichwassomewhatlargerthanhis,hadtwooccupants。Oneofthem,averycurly-headedmanwitharedinflamedface,wasstandingintheposeofanorator,withouthiscoat,withhislegswideaparttopreservehisbalance,andsmitinghimselfonthebreast。Hereproachedtheotherwithbeingabeggar,withhavingnostandingwhatever。Hedeclaredthathehadtakentheotheroutofthegutterandhecouldturnhimoutwhenheliked,andthatonlythefingerofProvidenceseesitall。Theobjectofhisreproacheswassittinginachair,andhadtheairofamanwhowantsdreadfullytosneeze,butcan't。Hesometimesturnedsheepishandbefoggedeyesonthespeaker,butobviouslyhadnottheslightestideawhathewastalkingaboutandscarcelyheardit。Acandlewasburningdownonthetable;therewerewineglasses,anearlyemptybottleofvodka,breadandcucumber,andglasseswiththedregsofstaletea。Aftergazingattentivelyatthis,Svidrigailovturnedawayindifferentlyandsatdownonthebed。
  Theraggedattendant,returningwiththetea,couldnotresistaskinghimagainwhetherhedidn'twantanythingmore,andagainreceivinganegativereply,finallywithdrew。Svidrigailovmadehastetodrinkaglassofteatowarmhimself,butcouldnoteatanything。Hebegantofeelfeverish。Hetookoffhiscoatand,wrappinghimselfintheblanket,laydownonthebed。Hewasannoyed。“Itwouldhavebeenbettertobewellfortheoccasion,“hethoughtwithasmile。Theroomwasclose,thecandleburntdimly,thewindwasroaringoutside,heheardamousescratchinginthecornerandtheroomsmeltofmiceandofleather。Helayinasortofreverie:onethoughtfollowedanother。Hefeltalongingtofixhisimaginationonsomething。“Itmustbeagardenunderthewindow,“hethought。“There'sasoundoftrees。HowIdislikethesoundoftreesonastormynight,inthedark!Theygiveoneahorridfeeling。“HerememberedhowhehaddislikeditwhenhepassedPetrovskyParkjustnow。ThisremindedhimofthebridgeovertheLittleNevaandhefeltcoldagainashehadwhenstandingthere。“Ineverhavelikedwater,“hethought,“eveninalandscape,“andhesuddenlysmiledagainatastrangeidea:“Surelynowallthesequestionsoftasteandcomfortoughtnottomatter,butI'vebecomemoreparticular,likeananimalthatpicksoutaspecialplace……forsuchanoccasion。I
  oughttohavegoneintothePetrovskyPark!Isupposeitseemeddark,cold,ha-ha!AsthoughIwereseekingpleasantsensations!……Bytheway,whyhaven'tIputoutthecandle?”heblewitout。“They'vegonetobednextdoor,“hethought,notseeingthelightatthecrack。
  “Well,now,MarfaPetrovna,nowisthetimeforyoutoturnup;it'sdark,andtheverytimeandplaceforyou。Butnowyouwon'tcome!”
  Hesuddenlyrecalledhow,anhourbeforecarryingouthisdesignonDounia,hehadrecommendedRaskolnikovtotrusthertoRazumihin'skeeping。“IsupposeIreallydidsayit,asRaskolnikovguessed,toteasemyself。ButwhataroguethatRaskolnikovis!He'sgonethroughagooddeal。Hemaybeasuccessfulrogueintimewhenhe'sgotoverhisnonsense。Butnowhe'stooeagerforlife。Theseyoungmenarecontemptibleonthatpoint。But,hangthefellow!Lethimpleasehimself,it'snothingtodowithme。“
  Hecouldnotgettosleep。BydegreesDounia'simagerosebeforehim,andashudderranoverhim。“No,Imustgiveupallthatnow,“hethought,rousinghimself。“Imustthinkofsomethingelse。It'squeerandfunny。Ineverhadagreathatredforanyone,Ineverparticularlydesiredtorevengemyselfeven,andthat'sabadsign,abadsign,abadsign。Ineverlikedquarrellingeither,andneverlostmytemper-that'sabadsigntoo。AndthepromisesImadeherjustnow,too-Damnation!But-whoknows?-perhapsshewouldhavemadeanewmanofmesomehow……“
  Hegroundhisteethandsankintosilenceagain。AgainDounia'simagerosebeforehim,justasshewaswhen,aftershootingthefirsttime,shehadloweredtherevolverinterrorandgazedblanklyathim,sothathemighthaveseizedhertwiceoverandshewouldnothaveliftedahandtodefendherselfifhehadnotremindedher。
  Herecalledhowatthatinstanthefeltalmostsorryforher,howhehadfeltapangathisheart……
  “Aie!Damnation,thesethoughtsagain!Imustputitaway!”
  Hewasdozingoff;thefeverishshiverhadceased,whensuddenlysomethingseemedtorunoverhisarmandlegunderthebedclothes。
  Hestarted。“Ugh!hangit!Ibelieveit'samouse,“hethought,“that'sthevealIleftonthetable。“Hefeltfearfullydisinclinedtopullofftheblanket,getup,getcold,butallatoncesomethingunpleasantranoverhislegagain。Hepulledofftheblanketandlightedthecandle。Shakingwithfeverishchillhebentdowntoexaminethebed:therewasnothing。Heshooktheblanketandsuddenlyamousejumpedoutonthesheet。Hetriedtocatchit,butthemouserantoandfroinzigzagswithoutleavingthebed,slippedbetweenhisfingers,ranoverhishandandsuddenlydartedunderthepillow。Hethrewdownthepillow,butinoneinstantfeltsomethingleaponhischestanddartoverhisbodyanddownhisbackunderhisshirt。Hetremblednervouslyandwokeup。
  Theroomwasdark。Hewaslyingonthebedandwrappedupintheblanketasbefore。Thewindwashowlingunderthewindow。“Howdisgusting,“hethoughtwithannoyance。
  Hegotupandsatontheedgeofthebedsteadwithhisbacktothewindow。“It'sbetternottosleepatall,“hedecided。Therewasacolddampdraughtfromthewindow,however;withoutgettinguphedrewtheblanketoverhimandwrappedhimselfinit。Hewasnotthinkingofanythinganddidnotwanttothink。Butoneimageroseafteranother,incoherentscrapsofthoughtwithoutbeginningorendpassedthroughhismind。Hesankintodrowsiness。Perhapsthecold,orthedampness,orthedark,orthewindthathowledunderthewindowandtossedthetreesrousedasortofpersistentcravingforthefantastic。Hekeptdwellingonimagesofflowers,hefanciedacharmingflowergarden,abright,warm,almosthotday,aholiday-
  Trinityday。Afine,sumptuouscountrycottageintheEnglishtasteovergrownwithfragrantflowers,withflowerbedsgoingroundthehouse;theporch,wreathedinclimbers,wassurroundedwithbedsofroses。Alight,coolstaircase,carpetedwithrichrugs,wasdecoratedwithrareplantsinchinapots。Henoticedparticularlyinthewindowsnosegaysoftender,white,heavilyfragrantnarcissusbendingovertheirbright,green,thicklongstalks。Hewasreluctanttomoveawayfromthem,buthewentupthestairsandcameintoalarge,highdrawing-roomandagaineverywhere-atthewindows,thedoorsontothebalcony,andonthebalconyitself-wereflowers。Thefloorswerestrewnwithfreshly-cutfragranthay,thewindowswereopen,afresh,cool,lightaircameintotheroom。Thebirdswerechirrupingunderthewindow,andinthemiddleoftheroom,onatablecoveredwithawhitesatinshroud,stoodacoffin。Thecoffinwascoveredwithwhitesilkandedgedwithathickwhitefrill;wreathsofflowerssurroundeditonallsides。Amongtheflowerslayagirlinawhitemuslindress,withherarmscrossedandpressedonherbosom,asthoughcarvedoutofmarble。Butherloosefairhairwaswet;therewasawreathofrosesonherhead。Thesternandalreadyrigidprofileofherfacelookedasthoughchiselledofmarbletoo,andthesmileonherpalelipswasfullofanimmenseunchildishmiseryandsorrowfulappeal。Svidrigailovknewthatgirl;therewasnoholyimage,noburningcandlebesidethecoffin;nosoundofprayers:thegirlhaddrownedherself。Shewasonlyfourteen,butherheartwasbroken。
  Andshehaddestroyedherself,crushedbyaninsultthathadappalledandamazedthatchildishsoul,hadsmirchedthatangelpuritywithunmeriteddisgraceandtornfromheralastscreamofdespair,unheededandbrutallydisregarded,onadarknightinthecoldandwetwhilethewindhowled……
  Svidrigailovcametohimself,gotupfromthebedandwenttothewindow。Hefeltforthelatchandopenedit。Thewindlashedfuriouslyintothelittleroomandstunghisfaceandhischest,onlycoveredwithhisshirt,asthoughwithfrost。Underthewindowtheremusthavebeensomethinglikeagarden,andapparentlyapleasuregarden。There,too,probablytherewereteatablesandsinginginthedaytime。Nowdropsofrainflewinatthewindowfromthetreesandbushes;itwasdarkasinacellar,sothathecouldonlyjustmakeoutsomedarkblursofobjects。Svidrigailov,bendingdownwithelbowsonthewindow-sill,gazedforfiveminutesintothedarkness;theboomofacannon,followedbyasecondone,resoundedinthedarknessofthenight。“Ah,thesignal!Theriverisoverflowing,“hethought。“Bymorningitwillbeswirlingdownthestreetinthelowerparts,floodingthebasementsandcellars。Thecellarratswillswimout,andmenwillcurseintherainandwindastheydragtheirrubbishtotheirupperstoreys。Whattimeisitnow?”Andhehadhardlythoughtitwhen,somewherenear,aclockonthewall,tickingawayhurriedly,struckthree。
  “Aha!Itwillbelightinanhour!Whywait?I'llgooutatoncestraighttothepark。I'llchooseagreatbushtheredrenchedwithrain,sothatassoonasone'sshouldertouchesit,millionsofdropsdriponone'shead。“
  Hemovedawayfromthewindow,shutit,lightedthecandle,putonhiswaistcoat,hisovercoatandhishatandwentout,carryingthecandle,intothepassagetolookfortheraggedattendantwhowouldbeasleepsomewhereinthemidstofcandleendsandallsortsofrubbish,topayhimfortheroomandleavethehotel。“It'sthebestminute;
  Icouldn'tchooseabetter。“
  Hewalkedforsometimethroughalongnarrowcorridorwithoutfindinganyoneandwasjustgoingtocallout,whensuddenlyinadarkcornerbetweenanoldcupboardandthedoorhecaughtsightofastrangeobjectwhichseemedtobealive。Hebentdownwiththecandleandsawalittlegirl,notmorethanfiveyearsold,shiveringandcrying,withherclothesaswetasasoakinghouse-flannel。ShedidnotseemafraidofSvidrigailov,butlookedathimwithblankamazementoutofherbigblackeyes。Nowandthenshesobbedaschildrendowhentheyhavebeencryingalongtime,butarebeginningtobecomforted。Thechild'sfacewaspaleandtired,shewasnumbwithcold。“Howcanshehavecomehere?Shemusthavehiddenhereandnotsleptallnight。“Hebeganquestioningher。
  Thechildsuddenlybecominganimated,chatteredawayinherbabylanguage,somethingabout“mammy“andthat“mammywouldbeather,“andaboutsomecupthatshehad“bwoken。“Thechildchatteredonwithoutstopping。Hecouldonlyguessfromwhatshesaidthatshewasaneglectedchild,whosemother,probablyadrunkencook,intheserviceofthehotel,whippedandfrightenedher;thatthechildhadbrokenacupofhermother'sandwassofrightenedthatshehadrunawaytheeveningbefore,hadhiddenforalongwhilesomewhereoutsideintherain,atlasthadmadeherwayinhere,hiddenbehindthecupboardandspentthenightthere,cryingandtremblingfromthedamp,thedarknessandthefearthatshewouldbebadlybeatenforit。Hetookherinhisarms,wentbacktohisroom,satheronthebed,andbeganundressingher。Thetornshoeswhichshehadonherstockinglessfeetwereaswetasiftheyhadbeenstandinginapuddleallnight。
  Whenhehadundressedher,heputheronthebed,coveredherupandwrappedherintheblanketfromherheaddownwards。Shefellasleepatonce。Thenhesankintodrearymusingagain。
  “Whatfollytotroublemyself,“hedecidedsuddenlywithanoppressivefeelingofannoyance。“Whatidiocy!”Invexationhetookupthecandletogoandlookfortheraggedattendantagainandmakehastetogoaway。“Damnthechild!”hethoughtasheopenedthedoor,butheturnedagaintoseewhetherthechildwasasleep。Heraisedtheblanketcarefully。Thechildwassleepingsoundly,shehadgotwarmundertheblanket,andherpalecheekswereflushed。
  Butstrangetosaythatflushseemedbrighterandcoarserthantherosycheeksofchildhood。“It'saflushoffever,“thoughtSvidrigailov。Itwasliketheflushfromdrinking,asthoughshehadbeengivenafullglasstodrink。Hercrimsonlipswerehotandglowing;butwhatwasthis?Hesuddenlyfanciedthatherlongblackeyelasheswerequivering,asthoughthelidswereopeningandaslycraftyeyepeepedoutwithanunchildlikewink,asthoughthelittlegirlwerenotasleep,butpretending。Yes,itwasso。Herlipspartedinasmile。Thecornersofhermouthquivered,asthoughsheweretryingtocontrolthem。Butnowshequitegaveupalleffort,nowitwasagrin,abroadgrin;therewassomethingshameless,provocativeinthatquiteunchildishface;itwasdepravity,itwasthefaceofaharlot,theshamelessfaceofaFrenchharlot。Nowbotheyesopenedwide;theyturnedaglowing,shamelessglanceuponhim;theylaughed,invitedhim……Therewassomethinginfinitelyhideousandshockinginthatlaugh,inthoseeyes,insuchnastinessinthefaceofachild。“What,atfiveyearsold?”Svidrigailovmutteredingenuinehorror。“Whatdoesitmean?”Andnowsheturnedtohim,herlittlefaceallaglow,holdingoutherarms……“Accursedchild!”Svidrigailovcried,raisinghishandtostrikeher,butatthatmomenthewokeup。
  Hewasinthesamebed,stillwrappedintheblanket。Thecandlehadnotbeenlighted,anddaylightwasstreaminginatthewindows。
  “I'vehadnightmareallnight!”Hegotupangrily,feelingutterlyshattered;hisbonesached。Therewasathickmistoutsideandhecouldseenothing。Itwasnearlyfive。Hehadoverslepthimself!Hegotup,putonhisstilldampjacketandovercoat。Feelingtherevolverinhispocket,hetookitoutandthenhesatdown,tookanotebookoutofhispocketandinthemostconspicuousplaceonthetitlepagewroteafewlinesinlargeletters。Readingthemover,hesankintothoughtwithhiselbowsonthetable。Therevolverandthenotebooklaybesidehim。Someflieswokeupandsettledontheuntouchedveal,whichwasstillonthetable。Hestaredatthemandatlastwithhisfreerighthandbegantryingtocatchone。Hetriedtillhewastired,butcouldnotcatchit。Atlast,realisingthathewasengagedinthisinterestingpursuit,hestarted,gotupandwalkedresolutelyoutoftheroom。Aminutelaterhewasinthestreet。