首页 >出版文学> GREAT EXPECTATIONS>第4章
  Estella,forherpart,likewisetreatedmeasbefore;exceptthatshedidnotcondescendtospeak。Whenwehadplayedsomehalfdozengames,adaywasappointedformyreturn,andIwastakendownintotheyardtobefedintheformerdog-likemanner。There,too,IwasagainlefttowanderaboutasIliked。
  ItisnotmuchtothepurposewhetheragateinthatgardenwallwhichIhadscrambleduptopeepoveronthelastoccasionwas,onthatlastoccasion,openorshut。EnoughthatIsawnogatethem,andthatIsawonenow。Asitstoodopen,andasIknewthatEstellahadletthevisitorsout-for,shehadreturnedwiththekeysinherhand-Istrolledintothegardenandstrolledalloverit。Itwasquiteawilderness,andtherewereoldmelon-framesandcucumber-framesinit,whichseemedintheirdeclinetohaveproducedaspontaneousgrowthofweakattemptsatpiecesofoldhatsandboots,withnowandthenaweedyoffshootintothelikenessofabatteredsaucepan。
  WhenIhadexhaustedthegarden,andagreenhousewithnothinginitbutafallen-downgrape-vineandsomebottles,IfoundmyselfinthedismalcorneruponwhichIhadlookedoutofwindow。Neverquestioningforamomentthatthehousewasnowempty,Ilookedinatanotherwindow,andfoundmyself,tomygreatsurprise,exchangingabroadstarewithapaleyounggentlemanwithredeyelidsandlighthair。
  Thispaleyounggentlemanquicklydisappeared,andre-appearedbesideme。HehadbeenathisbookswhenIhadfoundmyselfstaringathim,andInowsawthathewasinky。
  `Halloa!'saidhe,`youngfellow!'
  HalloabeingageneralobservationwhichIhadusuallyobservedtobebestansweredbyitself,Isaid,`Halloa!'politelyomittingyoungfellow。
  `Wholetyouin?'saidhe。
  `MissEstella。'
  `Whogaveyouleavetoprowlabout?'
  `MissEstella。'
  `Comeandfight,'saidthepaleyounggentleman。
  WhatcouldIdobutfollowhim?Ihaveoftenaskedmyselfthequestionsince:but,whatelsecouldIdo?HismannerwassofinalandIwassoastonished,thatIfollowedwhereheled,asifIhadbeenunderaspell。
  `Stopaminute,though,'hesaid,wheelingroundbeforewehadgonemanypaces。`Ioughttogiveyouareasonforfighting,too。Thereitis!'
  Inamostirritatingmannerheinstantlyslappedhishandsagainstoneanother,daintilyflungoneofhislegsupbehindhim,pulledmyhair,slappedhishandsagain,dippedhishead,andbutteditintomystomach。
  Thebull-likeproceedinglastmentioned,besidesthatitwasunquestionablytoberegardedinthelightofaliberty,wasparticularlydisagreeablejustafterbreadandmeat。Ithereforehitoutathimandwasgoingtohitoutagain,whenhesaid,`Aha!Wouldyou?'andbegandancingbackwardsandforwardsinamannerquiteunparalleledwithinmylimitedexperience。
  `Lawsofthegame!'saidhe。Here,heskippedfromhisleftlegontohisright。`Regularrules!'Here,heskippedfromhisrightlegontohisleft。`Cometotheground,andgothroughthepreliminaries!'Here,hedodgedbackwardsandforwards,anddidallsortsofthingswhileIlookedhelplesslyathim。
  IwassecretlyafraidofhimwhenIsawhimsodexterous;but,Ifeltmorallyandphysicallyconvincedthathislightheadofhaircouldhavehadnobusinessinthepitofmystomach,andthatIhadarighttoconsideritirrelevantwhensoobtrudedonmyattention。Therefore,Ifollowedhimwithoutaword,toaretirednookofthegarden,formedbythejunctionoftwowallsandscreenedbysomerubbish。OnhisaskingmeifIwassatisfiedwiththeground,andonmyreplyingYes,hebeggedmyleavetoabsenthimselfforamoment,andquicklyreturnedwithabottleofwaterandaspongedippedinvinegar。`Availableforboth,'hesaid,placingtheseagainstthewall。Andthenfelltopullingoff,notonlyhisjacketandwaistcoat,buthisshirttoo,inamanneratoncelight-hearted,businesslike,andbloodthirsty。
  Althoughhedidnotlookveryhealthy-havingpimplesonhisface,andabreakingoutathismouth-thesedreadfulpreparationsquiteappalledme。Ijudgedhimtobeaboutmyownage,buthewasmuchtaller,andhehadawayofspinninghimselfaboutthatwasfullofappearance。Fortherest,hewasayounggentlemaninagreysuitwhennotdenudedforbattle,withhiselbows,knees,wrists,andheels,considerablyinadvanceoftherestofhimastodevelopment。
  MyheartfailedmewhenIsawhimsquaringatmewitheverydemonstrationofmechanicalnicety,andeyeingmyanatomyasifhewereminutelychoosinghisbone。Ineverhavebeensosurprisedinmylife,asIwaswhenIletoutthefirstblow,andsawhimlyingonhisback,lookingupatmewithabloodynoseandhisfaceexceedinglyfore-shortened。
  But,hewasonhisfeetdirectly,andaftersponginghimselfwithagreatshowofdexteritybegansquaringagain。ThesecondgreatestsurpriseIhaveeverhadinmylifewasseeinghimonhisbackagain,lookingupatmeoutofablackeye。
  Hisspiritinspiredmewithgreatrespect。Heseemedtohavenostrength,andheneveroncehitmehard,andhewasalwaysknockeddown;but,hewouldbeupagaininamoment,sponginghimselfordrinkingoutofthewater-bottle,withthegreatestsatisfactioninsecondinghimselfaccordingtoform,andthencameatmewithanairandashowthatmademebelievehereallywasgoingtodoformeatlast。Hegotheavilybruised,forI
  amsorrytorecordthatthemoreIhithim,theharderIhithim;but,hecameupagainandagainandagain,untilatlasthegotabadfallwiththebackofhisheadagainstthewall。Evenafterthatcrisisinouraffairs,hegotupandturnedroundandroundconfusedlyafewtimes,notknowingwhereIwas;butfinallywentonhiskneestohisspongeandthrewitup:
  atthesametimepantingout,`Thatmeansyouhavewon。'
  Heseemedtobraveandinnocent,thatalthoughIhadnotproposedthecontestIfeltbutagloomysatisfactioninmyvictory。Indeed,IgosofarastohopethatIregardedmyselfwhiledressing,asaspeciesofsavageyoungwolf,orotherwildbeast。However,Igotdressed,darklywipingmysanguinaryfaceatintervals,andIsaid,`CanIhelpyou?'andhesaid`Nothankee,'andIsaid`Goodafternoon,'andhesaid`Sametoyou。'
  WhenIgotintothecourt-yard,IfoundEstellawaitingwiththekeys。
  But,sheneitheraskedmewhereIhadbeen,norwhyIhadkeptherwaiting;
  andtherewasabrightflushuponherface,asthoughsomethinghadhappenedtodelighther。Insteadofgoingstraighttothegate,too,shesteppedbackintothepassage,andbeckonedme。
  `Comehere!Youmaykissme,ifyoulike。'
  Ikissedhercheekassheturnedittome。IthinkIwouldhavegonethroughagreatdealtokisshercheek。But,Ifeltthatthekisswasgiventothecoarsecommonboyasapieceofmoneymighthavebeen,andthatitwasworthnothing。
  Whatwiththebirthdayvisitors,andwhatwiththecards,andwhatwiththefight,mystayhadlastedsolong,thatwhenInearedhomethelightonthespitofsandoffthepointonthemarsheswasgleamingagainstablacknight-sky,andJoe'sfurnacewasflingingapathoffireacrosstheroad。
  Chapter12
  MYmindgrewveryuneasyonthesubjectofthepaleyounggentleman。
  ThemoreIthoughtofthefight,andrecalledthepaleyounggentlemanonhisbackinvariousstagesofpuffyandincrimsonedcountenance,themorecertainitappearedthatsomethingwouldbedonetome。Ifeltthatthepaleyounggentleman'sbloodwasonmyhead,andthattheLawwouldavengeit。WithouthavinganydefiniteideaofthepenaltiesIhadincurred,itwascleartomethatvillageboyscouldnotgostalkingaboutthecountry,ravagingthehousesofgentlefolksandpitchingintothestudiousyouthofEngland,withoutlayingthemselvesopentoseverepunishment。Forsomedays,Ievenkeptcloseathome,andlookedoutatthekitchendoorwiththegreatestcautionandtrepidationbeforegoingonanerrand,lesttheofficersoftheCountyJailshouldpounceuponme。Thepaleyounggentleman'snosehadstainedmytrousers,andItriedtowashoutthatevidenceofmyguiltinthedeadofnight。Ihadcutmyknucklesagainstthepaleyounggentleman'steeth,andItwistedmyimaginationintoathousandtangles,asIdevisedincrediblewaysofaccountingforthatdamnatorycircumstancewhenIshouldbehaledbeforetheJudges。
  Whenthedaycameroundformyreturntothesceneofthedeedofviolence,myterrorsreachedtheirheight。WhethermyrmidonsofJustice,speciallysentdownfromLondon,wouldbelyinginambushbehindthegate?WhetherMissHavisham,preferringtotakepersonalvengeanceforanoutragedonetoherhouse,mightriseinthosegrave-clothesofhers,drawapistol,andshootmedead?Whethersubornedboys-anumerousbandofmercenaries-mightbeengagedtofalluponmeinthebrewery,andcuffmeuntilI
  wasnomore?Itwashightestimonytomyconfidenceinthespiritofthepaleyounggentleman,thatIneverimaginedhimaccessorytotheseretaliations;theyalwayscameintomymindastheactsofinjudiciousrelativesofhis,goadedonbythestateofhisvisageandanindignantsympathywiththefamilyfeatures。
  However,gotoMissHavisham'sImust,andgoIdid。Andbehold!nothingcameofthelatestruggle。Itwasnotalludedtoinanyway,andnopaleyounggentlemanwastobediscoveredonthepremises。Ifoundthesamegateopen,andIexploredthegarden,andevenlookedinatthewindowsofthedetachedhouse;but,myviewwassuddenlystoppedbytheclosedshutterswithin,andallwaslifeless。Onlyinthecornerwherethecombathadtakenplace,couldIdetectanyevidenceoftheyounggentleman'sexistence。
  Thereweretracesofhisgoreinthatspot,andIcoveredthemwithgarden-mouldfromtheeyeofman。
  OnthebroadlandingbetweenMissHavisham'sownroomandthatotherroominwhichthelongtablewaslaidout,Isawagarden-chair-alightchaironwheels,thatyoupushedfrombehind。Ithadbeenplacedtheresincemylastvisit,andIentered,thatsameday,onaregularoccupationofpushingMissHavishaminthischairwhenshewastiredofwalkingwithherhanduponmyshoulderroundherownroom,andacrossthelanding,androundtheotherroom。Overandoverandoveragain,wewouldmakethesejourneys,andsometimestheywouldlastaslongasthreehoursatastretch。
  Iinsensiblyfallintoageneralmentionofthesejourneysasnumerous,becauseitwasatoncesettledthatIshouldreturneveryalternatedayatnoonforthesepurposes,andbecauseIamnowgoingtosumupaperiodofatleasteightortenmonths。
  Aswebegantobemoreusedtooneanother,MissHavishamtalkedmoretome,andaskedmesuchquestionsaswhathadIlearntandwhatwasI
  goingtobe?ItoldherIwasgoingtobeapprenticedtoJoe,Ibelieved;
  andIenlargeduponmyknowingnothingandwantingtoknoweverything,inthehopethatshemightoffersomehelptowardsthatdesirableend。
  But,shedidnot;onthecontrary,sheseemedtoprefermybeingignorant。
  Neitherdidsheevergivemeanymoney-oranythingbutmydailydinner-norevenstipulatethatIshouldbepaidformyservices。
  Estellawasalwaysabout,andalwaysletmeinandout,butnevertoldmeImightkissheragain。Sometimes,shewouldcoldlytolerateme;sometimes,shewouldcondescendtome;sometimes,shewouldbequitefamiliarwithme;sometimes,shewouldtellmeenergeticallythatshehatedme。MissHavishamwouldoftenaskmeinawhisper,orwhenwewerealone,`Doesshegrowprettierandprettier,Pip?'AndwhenIsaidyesforindeedshedid,wouldseemtoenjoyitgreedily。Also,whenweplayedatcardsMissHavishamwouldlookon,withamiserlyrelishofEstella'smoods,whatevertheywere。Andsometimes,whenhermoodsweresomanyandsocontradictoryofoneanotherthatIwaspuzzledwhattosayordo,MissHavishamwouldembraceherwithlavishfondness,murmuringsomethinginherearthatsoundedlike`Breaktheirheartsmyprideandhope,breaktheirheartsandhavenomercy!'
  TherewasasongJoeusedtohumfragmentsofattheforge,ofwhichtheburdenwasOldClem。Thiswasnotaveryceremoniouswayofrenderinghomagetoapatronsaint;but,IbelieveOldClemstoodinthatrelationtowardssmiths。Itwasasongthatimitatedthemeasureofbeatinguponiron,andwasamerelyricalexcusefortheintroductionofOldClem'srespectedname。Thus,youweretohammerboysround-OldClem!Withathumpandasound-OldClem!Beatitout,beatitout-OldClem!Withaclinkforthestout-OldClem!Blowthefire,blowthefire-OldClem!
  Roaringdryer,soaringhigher-OldClem!Onedaysoonaftertheappearanceofthechair,MissHavishamsuddenlysayingtome,withtheimpatientmovementofherfingers,`There,there,there!Sing!'IwassurprisedintocrooningthisdittyasIpushedheroverthefloor。Ithappenedsotocatchherfancy,thatshetookitupinalowbroodingvoiceasifsheweresinginginhersleep。Afterthat,itbecamecustomarywithustohaveitaswemovedabout,andEstellawouldoftenjoinin;thoughthewholestrainwassosubdued,evenwhentherewerethreeofus,thatitmadelessnoiseinthegrimoldhousethanthelightestbreathofwind。
  WhatcouldIbecomewiththesesurroundings?Howcouldmycharacterfailtobeinfluencedbythem?Isittobewonderedatifmythoughtsweredazed,asmyeyeswere,whenIcameoutintothenaturallightfromthemistyyellowrooms?
  Perhaps,ImighthavetoldJoeaboutthepaleyounggentleman,ifI
  hadnotpreviouslybeenbetrayedintothoseenormousinventionstowhichIhadconfessed。Underthecircumstances,IfeltthatJoecouldhardlyfailtodiscerninthepaleyounggentleman,anappropriatepassengertobeputintotheblackvelvetcoach;therefore,Isaidnothingofhim。Besides:
  thatshrinkingfromhavingMissHavishamandEstelladiscussed,whichhadcomeuponmeinthebeginning,grewmuchmorepotentastimewenton。I
  reposedcompleteconfidenceinnoonebutBiddy;but,ItoldpoorBiddyeverything。Whyitcamenaturaltometodoso,andwhyBiddyhadadeepconcernineverythingItoldher,Ididnotknowthen,thoughIthinkI
  knownow。
  Meanwhile,councilswentoninthekitchenathome,fraughtwithalmostinsupportableaggravationtomyexasperatedspirit。Thatass,Pumblechook,usedoftentocomeoveranightforthepurposeofdiscussingmyprospectswithmysister;andIreallydobelievetothishourwithlesspenitencethanIoughttofeel,thatifthesehandscouldhavetakenalinchpinoutofhischaise-cart,theywouldhavedoneit。Themiserablemanwasamanofthatconfinedstolidityofmind,thathecouldnotdiscussmyprospectswithouthavingmebeforehim-asitwere,tooperateupon-
  andhewoulddragmeupfrommystoolusuallybythecollarwhereIwasquietinacorner,and,puttingmebeforethefireasifIweregoingtobecooked,wouldbeginbysaying,`Now,Mum,hereisthisboy!Hereisthisboywhichyoubroughtupbyhand。Holdupyourhead,boy,andbeforevergratefuluntothemwhichsodiddo。Now,Mum,withrespectionstothisboy!'Andthenhewouldrumplemyhairthewrongway-whichfrommyearliestremembrance,asalreadyhinted,Ihaveinmysouldeniedtherightofanyfellow-creaturetodo-andwouldholdmebeforehimbythesleeve:aspectacleofimbecilityonlytobeequalledbyhimself。
  Then,heandmysisterwouldpairoffinsuchnonsensicalspeculationsaboutMissHavisham,andaboutwhatshewoulddowithmeandforme,thatIusedtowant-quitepainfully-toburstintospitefultears,flyatPumblechook,andpummelhimallover。Inthesedialogues,mysisterspoketomeasifsheweremorallywrenchingoneofmyteethoutateveryreference;
  whilePumblechookhimself,self-constitutedmypatron,wouldsitsupervisingmewithadepreciatoryeye,likethearchitectofmyfortuneswhothoughthimselfengagedonaveryunremunerativejob。
  Inthesediscussions,Joeborenopart。Buthewasoftentalkedat,whiletheywereinprogress,byreasonofMrsJoe'sperceivingthathewasnotfavourabletomybeingtakenfromtheforge。Iwasfullyoldenoughnow,tobeapprenticedtoJoe;andwhenJoesatwiththepokeronhiskneesthoughtfullyrakingouttheashesbetweenthelowerbars,mysisterwouldsodistinctlyconstruethatinnocentactionintooppositiononhispart,thatshewoulddiveathim,takethepokeroutofhishands,shakehim,andputitaway。Therewasamostirritatingendtoeveryoneofthesedebates。Allinamoment,withnothingtoleaduptoit,mysisterwouldstopherselfinayawn,andcatchingsightofmeasitwereincidentally,wouldswoopuponmewith,`Come!there'senoughofyou!Yougetalongtobed;you'vegiventroubleenoughforonenight,Ihope!'
  AsifIhadbesoughtthemasafavourtobothermylifeout。
  Wewentoninthiswayforalongtime,anditseemedlikelythatweshouldcontinuetogooninthiswayforalongtime,when,oneday,MissHavishamstoppedshortassheandIwerewalking,sheleaningonmyshoulder;
  andsaidwithsomedispleasure:
  `Youaregrowingtall,Pip!'
  Ithoughtitbesttohint,throughthemediumofameditativelook,thatthismightbeoccasionedbycircumstancesoverwhichIhadnocontrol。
  Shesaidnomoreatthetime;but,shepresentlystoppedandlookedatmeagain;andpresentlyagain;andafterthat,lookedfrowningandmoody。
  Onthenextdayofmyattendancewhenourusualexercisewasover,andIhadlandedheratherdressingtable,shestayedmewithamovementofherimpatientfingers:
  `Tellmethenameagainofthatblacksmithofyours。'
  `JoeGargery,ma'am。'
  `Meaningthemasteryouweretobeapprenticedto?'
  `Yes,MissHavisham。'
  `Youhadbetterbeapprenticedatonce。WouldGargerycomeherewithyou,andbringyourindentures,doyouthink?'
  IsignifiedthatIhadnodoubthewouldtakeitasanhonourtobeasked。
  `Thenlethimcome。'
  `Atanyparticulartime,MissHavisham?'
  `There,there!Iknownothingabouttimes。Lethimcomesoon,andcomealonewithyou。'
  WhenIgothomeatnight,anddeliveredthismessageforJoe,mysister`wentontheRampage,'inamorealarmingdegreethanatanypreviousperiod。
  SheaskedmeandJoewhetherwesupposedshewasdoor-matsunderourfeet,andhowwedaredtouseherso,andwhatcompanywegraciouslythoughtshewasfitfor?Whenshehadexhaustedatorrentofsuchinquiries,shethrewacandlestickatJoe,burstintoaloudsobbing,gotoutthedustpan-whichwasalwaysaverybadsign-putonhercoarseapron,andbegancleaninguptoaterribleextent。Notsatisfiedwithadrycleaning,shetooktoapailandscrubbing-brush,andcleanedusoutofhouseandhome,sothatwestoodshiveringintheback-yard。Itwasteno'clockatnightbeforeweventuredtocreepinagain,andthensheaskedJoewhyhehadn'tmarriedaNegressSlaveatonce?Joeofferednoanswer,poorfellow,butstoodfeelinghiswhiskerandlookingdejectedlyatme,asifhethoughtitreallymighthavebeenabetterspeculation。
  Chapter13
  ITwasatrialtomyfeelings,onthenextdaybutone,toseeJoearrayinghimselfinhisSundayclothestoaccompanymetoMissHavisham's。
  However,ashethoughthiscourt-suitnecessarytotheoccasion,itwasnotformetellhimthathelookedfarbetterinhisworkingdress;therather,becauseIknewhemadehimselfsodreadfullyuncomfortable,entirelyonmyaccount,andthatitwasformehepulleduphisshirt-collarsoveryhighbehind,thatitmadethehaironthecrownofhisheadstanduplikeatuftoffeathers。
  Atbreakfasttimemysisterdeclaredherintentionofgoingtotownwithus,andbeingleftatUnclePumblechook'sandcalledfor`whenwehaddonewithourfineladies'-awayofputtingthecase,fromwhichJoeappearedinclinedtoaugurtheworst。Theforgewasshutupfortheday,andJoeinscribedinchalkuponthedoorasitwashiscustomtodoontheveryrareoccasionswhenhewasnotatworkthemonosyllableHOUT,accompaniedbyasketchofanarrowsupposedtobeflyinginthedirectionhehadtaken。
  Wewalkedtotown,mysisterleadingthewayinaverylargebeaverbonnet,andcarryingabasketliketheGreatSealofEnglandinplaitedstraw,apairofpattens,aspareshawl,andanumbrella,thoughitwasafinebrightday。Iamnotquiteclearwhetherthesearticleswerecarriedpenitentiallyorostentatiously;but,Iratherthinktheyweredisplayedasarticlesofproperty-muchasCleopatraoranyothersovereignladyontheRampagemightexhibitherwealthinapageantorprocession。
  WhenwecametoPumblechook's,mysisterbouncedinandleftus。Asitwasalmostnoon,JoeandIheldstraightontoMissHavisham'shouse。
  Estellaopenedthegateasusual,and,themomentsheappeared,Joetookhishatoffandstoodweighingitbythebriminbothhishands:asifhehadsomeurgentreasoninhismindforbeingparticulartohalfaquarterofanounce。
  Estellatooknonoticeofeitherofus,butledusthewaythatIknewsowell。Ifollowednexttoher,andJoecamelast。WhenIlookedbackatJoeinthelongpassage,hewasstillweighinghishatwiththegreatestcare,andwascomingafterusinlongstridesonthetipsofhistoes。
  Estellatoldmewewerebothtogoin,soItookJoebythecoat-cuffandconductedhimintoMissHavisham'spresence。Shewasseatedatherdressing-table,andlookedroundatusimmediately。
  `Oh!'saidshetoJoe。`Youarethehusbandofthesisterofthisboy?'
  IcouldhardlyhaveimagineddearoldJoelookingsounlikehimselforsolikesomeextraordinarybird;standing,ashedid,speechless,withhistuftoffeathersruffled,andhismouthopen,asifhewantedaworm。
  `Youarethehusband,'repeatedMissHavisham,`ofthesisterofthisboy?'
  Itwasveryaggravating;but,throughouttheinterviewJoepersistedinaddressingMeinsteadofMissHavisham。
  `WhichImeantersay,Pip,'Joenowobservedinamannerthatwasatonceexpressiveofforcibleargumentation,strictconfidence,andgreatpoliteness,`asIhupandmarriedyoursister,andIwereatthetimewhatyoumightcallifyouwasanywaysinclinedasingleman。'
  `Well!'saidMissHavisham。`Andyouhaverearedtheboy,withtheintentionoftakinghimforyourapprentice;isthatso,MrGargery?'
  `Youknow,Pip,'repliedJoe,`asyouandmewereeverfriends,anditwerelookedfor'ardtobetwixtus,asbeingcalc'latedtoleadtolarks。
  Notbutwhat,Pip,ifyouhadevermadeobjectionstothebusiness-suchasitsbeingopentoblackandsut,orsuch-like-notbutwhattheywouldhavebeenattendedto,don'tyousee?'
  `Hastheboy,'saidMissHavisham,`evermadeanyobjection?Doeshelikethetrade?'
  `Whichitiswellbeknowntoyourself,Pip,'returnedJoe,strengtheninghisformermixtureofargumentation,confidence,andpoliteness,`thatitwerethewishofyourownhart。'Isawtheideasuddenlybreakuponhimthathewouldadapthisepitaphtotheoccasion,beforehewentontosay`Andthereweren'tnoobjectiononyourpart,andPipitwerethegreatwishofyourhart!'
  ItwasquiteinvainformetoendeavourtomakehimsensiblethatheoughttospeaktoMissHavisham。ThemoreImadefacesandgesturestohimtodoit,themoreconfidential,argumentative,andpolite,hepersistedinbeingtoMe。
  `Haveyoubroughthisindentureswithyou?'askedMissHavisham。
  `Well,Pip,youknow,'repliedJoe,asifthatwerealittleunreasonable,`youyourselfseemeput'eminmy'at,andthereforeyouknowastheyarehere。'Withwhichhetookthemout,andgavethem,nottoMissHavisham,buttome。IamafraidIwasashamedofthedeargoodfellow-IknowIwasashamedofhim-whenIsawthatEstellastoodatthebackofMissHavisham'schair,andthathereyeslaughedmischievously。ItooktheindenturesoutofhishandandgavethemtoMissHavisham。
  `Youexpected,'saidMissHavisham,asshelookedthemover,`nopremiumwiththeboy?'
  `Joe!'Iremonstrated;forhemadenoreplyatall。`Whydon'tyouanswer——'
  `Pip,'returnedJoe,cuttingmeshortasifhewerehurt,`whichImeantersaythatwerenotaquestionrequiringaanswerbetwixtyourselfandme,andwhichyouknowtheanswertobefullwellNo。YouknowittobeNo,Pip,andwhereforeshouldIsayit?'
  MissHavishamglancedathimasifsheunderstoodwhathereallywas,betterthanIhadthoughtpossible,seeingwhathewasthere;andtookupalittlebagfromthetablebesideher。
  `Piphasearnedapremiumhere,'shesaid,`andhereitis。Therearefive-and-twentyguineasinthisbag。Giveittoyourmaster,Pip。'
  Asifhewereabsolutelyoutofhismindwiththewonderawakenedinhimbyherstrangefigureandthestrangeroom,Joe,evenatthispass,persistedinaddressingme。
  `Thisisweryliberalonyourpart,Pip,'saidJoe,`anditisassuchreceivedandgratefulwelcome,thoughneverlookedfor,farnornearnornowheres。Andnow,oldchap,'saidJoe,conveyingtomeasensation,firstofburningandthenoffreezing,forIfeltasifthatfamiliarexpressionwereappliedtoMissHavisham;`andnow,oldchap,maywedoourduty!
  Mayyouandmedoourduty,bothonusbyoneandanother,andbythemwhichyourliberalpresent-have-conweyed-tobe-forthesatisfactionofmind-of-themasnever——'hereJoeshowedthathefelthehadfallenintofrightfuldifficulties,untilhetriumphantlyrescuedhimselfwiththewords,`andfrommyselffarbeit!'Thesewordshadsucharoundandconvincingsoundforhimthathesaidthemtwice。
  `Good-bye,Pip!'saidMissHavisham。`Letthemout,Estella。'
  `AmItocomeagain,MissHavisham?'Iasked。
  `No。Gargeryisyourmasternow。Gargery!Oneword!'
  ThuscallinghimbackasIwentoutofthedoor,IheardhersaytoJoe,inadistinctemphaticvoice,`Theboyhasbeenagoodboyhere,andthatishisreward。Ofcourse,asanhonestman,youwillexpectnootherandnomore。'
  HowJoegotoutoftheroom,Ihaveneverbeenabletodetermine;but,Iknowthatwhenhedidgetouthewassteadilyproceedingup-stairsinsteadofcomingdown,andwasdeaftoallremonstrancesuntilIwentafterhimandlaidholdofhim。Inanotherminutewewereoutsidethegate,anditwaslocked,andEstellawasgone。
  Whenwestoodinthedaylightaloneagain,Joebackedupagainstawall,andsaidtome,`Astonishing!'Andthereheremainedsolong,saying`Astonishing'
  atintervals,sooften,thatIbegantothinkhissenseswerenevercomingback。Atlengthheprolongedhisremarkinto`Pip,Idoassureyouthisisas-TONishing!'andso,bydegrees,becameconversationalandabletowalkaway。
  IhavereasontothinkthatJoe'sintellectswerebrightenedbytheencountertheyhadpassedthrough,andthatonourwaytoPumblechook'sheinventedasubtleanddeepdesign。MyreasonistobefoundinwhattookplaceinMrPumblechook'sparlour:where,onourpresentingourselves,mysistersatinconferencewiththatdetestedseedsman。
  `Well?'criedmysister,addressingusbothatonce。`Andwhat'shappenedtoyou?Iwonderyoucondescendtocomebacktosuchpoorsocietyasthis,IamsureIdo!'
  `MissHavisham,'saidJoe,withafixedlookatme,likeaneffortofremembrance,`madeitwerypartick'lerthatweshouldgiveher-wereitcomplimentsorrespects,Pip?'
  `Compliments,'Isaid。
  `Whichthatweremyownbelief,'answeredJoe-`hercomplimentstoMrsJ。Gargery——'
  `Muchgoodthey'lldome!'observedmysister;butrathergratifiedtoo。
  `Andwishing,'pursuedJoe,withanotherfixedlookatme,likeanotherefforttoremembrance,`thatthestateofMissHavisham'selthweresitchaswouldhave-allowed,wereit,Pip?'
  `Ofherhavingthepleasure,'Iadded。
  `Ofladies'company,'saidJoe。Anddrewalongbreath。
  `Well!'criedmysister,withamollifiedglanceatMrPumblechook。
  `Shemighthavehadthepolitenesstosendthatmessageatfirst,butit'sbetterlatethannever。AndwhatdidshegiveyoungRantipolehere?'
  `Shegiv'him,'saidJoe,`nothing。'
  MrsJoewasgoingtobreakout,butJoewenton。
  `Whatshegiv','saidJoe,`shegiv'tohisfriends。"Andbyhisfriends,"
  wereherexplanation,"ImeanintothehandsofhissisterMrsJ。Gargery。"
  Themwereherwords;"MrsJ。Gargery。"Shemayn'thaveknow'd,'addedJoe,withanappearanceofreflection,`whetheritwereJoe,orJorge。'
  MysisterlookedatPumblechook:whosmoothedtheelbowsofhiswoodenarmchair,andnoddedatherandatthefire,asifhehadknownallaboutitbeforehand。
  `Andhowmuchhaveyougot?'askedmysister,laughing。Positively,laughing!
  `Whatwouldpresentcompanysaytotenpound?'demandedJoe。
  `They'dsay,'returnedmysister,curtly,`prettywell。Nottoomuch,butprettywell。'
  `It'smorethanthat,then,'saidJoe。
  ThatfearfulImpostor,Pumblechook,immediatelynodded,andsaid,asherubbedthearmsofhischair:`It'smorethanthat,Mum。'
  `Why,youdon'tmeantosay——'beganmysister。
  `YesIdo,Mum,'saidPumblechook;`butwaitabit。Goon,Joseph。Goodinyou!Goon!'
  `Whatwouldpresentcompanysay,'proceededJoe,`totwentypound?'
  `Handsomewouldbetheword,'returnedmysister。
  `Well,then,'saidJoe,`It'smorethantwentypound。'
  Thatabjecthypocrite,Pumblechook,noddedagain,andsaid,withapatronizinglaugh,`It'smorethanthat,Mum。Goodagain!Followherup,Joseph!'
  `Thentomakeanendofit,'saidJoe,delightedlyhandingthebagtomysister;`it'sfive-and-twentypound。'
  `It'sfive-and-twentypound,Mum,'echoedthatbasestofswindlers,Pumblechook,risingtoshakehandswithher;`andit'snomorethanyourmeritsasIsaidwhenmyopinionwasasked,andIwishyoujoyofthemoney!'
  Ifthevillainhadstoppedhere,hiscasewouldhavebeensufficientlyawful,butheblackenedhisguiltbyproceedingtotakemeintocustody,witharightofpatronagethatleftallhisformercriminalityfarbehind。
  `Nowyousee,Josephandwife,'saidPumblechook,ashetookmebythearmabovetheelbow,`Iamoneofthemthatalwaysgorightthroughwithwhatthey'vebegun。Thisboymustbebound,outofhand。That'smyway。Boundoutofhand。'
  `Goodnessknows,UnclePumblechook,'saidmysistergraspingthemoney,`we'redeeplybeholdentoyou。'
  `Nevermindme,Mum,returnedthatdiabolicalcorn-chandler。`Apleasure'sapleasure,alltheworldover。Butthisboy,youknow;wemusthavehimbound。IsaidI'dseetoit-totellyouthetruth。'
  TheJusticesweresittingintheTownHallnearathand,andweatoncewentovertohavemeboundapprenticetoJoeintheMagisterialpresence。
  Isay,wewentover,butIwaspushedoverbyPumblechook,exactlyasifIhadthatmomentpickedapocketorfiredarick;indeed,itwasthegeneralimpressioninCourtthatIhadbeentakenred-handed,for,asPumblechookshovedmebeforehimthroughthecrowd,Iheardsomepeoplesay,`What'shedone?'andothers,`He'sayoung'un,too,butlooksbad,don'the?
  Onepersonofmildandbenevolentaspectevengavemeatractornamentedwithawoodcutofamalevolentyoungmanfittedupwithaperfectsausage-shopoffetters,andentitled,TOBEREADINMYCELL。
  TheHallwasaqueerplace,Ithought,withhigherpewsinitthanachurch-andwithpeoplehangingoverthepewslookingon-andwithmightyJusticesonewithapowderedheadleaningbackinchairs,withfoldedarms,ortakingsnuff,orgoingtosleep,orwriting,orreadingthenewspapers-andwithsomeshiningblackportraitsonthewalls,whichmyunartisticeyeregardedasacompositionofhardbakeandsticking-plaister。Here,inacorner,myindenturesweredulysignedandattested,andIwas`bound;'
  MrPumblechookholdingmeallthewhileasifwehadlookedinonourwaytothescaffold,tohavethoselittlepreliminariesdisposedof。
  Whenwehadcomeoutagain,andhadgotridoftheboyswhohadbeenputintogreatspiritsbytheexpectationofseeingmepubliclytortured,andwhoweremuchdisappointedtofindthatmyfriendsweremerelyrallyingroundme,wewentbacktoPumblechook's。Andtheremysisterbecamesoexcitedbythetwenty-fiveguineas,thatnothingwouldserveherbutwemusthaveadinneroutofthatwindfall,attheBlueBoar,andthatPumblechookmustgooverinhischaise-cart,andbringtheHubblesandMrWopsle。
  Itwasagreedtobedone;andamostmelancholydayIpassed。For,itinscrutablyappearedtostandtoreason,inthemindsofthewholecompany,thatIwasanexcrescenceontheentertainment。Andtomakeitworse,theyallaskedmefromtimetotime-inshort,whenevertheyhadnothingelsetodo-whyIdidn'tenjoymyself。AndwhatcouldIpossiblydothen,butsayIwasenjoyingmyself-whenIwasn't?
  However,theyweregrownupandhadtheirownway,andtheymadethemostofit。ThatswindlingPumblechook,exaltedintothebeneficentcontriverofthewholeoccasion,actuallytookthetopofthetable;and,whenheaddressedthemonthesubjectofmybeingbound,andhadfiendishlycongratulatedthemonmybeingliabletoimprisonmentifIplayedatcards,drankstrongliquors,keptlatehoursorbadcompany,orindulgedinothervagarieswhichtheformofmyindenturesappearedtocontemplateasnexttoinevitable,heplacedmestandingonachairbesidehim,toillustratehisremarks。
  Myonlyotherremembrancesofthegreatfestivalare,Thattheywouldn'tletmegotosleep,butwhenevertheysawmedroppingoff,wokemeupandtoldmetoenjoymyself。That,ratherlateintheeveningMrWopslegaveusCollins'sode,andthrewhisbloodstain'dswordinthunderdown,withsucheffect,thatawaitercameinandsaid,`TheCommercialsunderneathsentuptheircompliments,anditwasn'ttheTumblers'Arms。'That,theywereallinexcellentspiritsontheroadhome,andsangOLadyFair!MrWopsletakingthebass,andassertingwithatremendouslystrongvoiceinreplytotheinquisitiveborewholeadsthatpieceofmusicinamostimpertinentmanner,bywantingtoknowallabouteverybody'sprivateaffairs
  thathewasthemanwithhiswhitelocksflowing,andthathewasuponthewholetheweakestpilgrimgoing。
  Finally,IrememberthatwhenIgotintomylittlebedroomIwastrulywretched,andhadastrongconvictiononmethatIshouldneverlikeJoe'strade。Ihadlikeditonce,butoncewasnotnow。
  Chapter14
  ITisamostmiserablethingtofeelashamedofhome。Theremaybeblackingratitudeinthething,andthepunishmentmayberetributiveandwelldeserved;but,thatitisamiserablething,Icantestify。
  Homehadneverbeenaverypleasantplacetome,becauseofmysister'stemper。But,Joehadsanctifiedit,andIhadbelievedinit。Ihadbelievedinthebestparlourasamostelegantsaloon;Ihadbelievedinthefrontdoor,asamysteriousportaloftheTempleofStatewhosesolemnopeningwasattendedwithasacrificeofroastfowls;Ihadbelievedinthekitchenasachastethoughnotmagnificentapartment;Ihadbelievedintheforgeastheglowingroadtomanhoodandindependence。Withinasingleyear,allthiswaschanged。Now,itwasallcoarseandcommon,andIwouldnothavehadMissHavishamandEstellaseeitonanyaccount。
  Howmuchofmyungraciousconditionofmindmayhavebeenmyownfault,howmuchMissHavisham's,howmuchmysister's,isnowofnomomenttomeortoanyone。Thechangewasmadeinme;thethingwasdone。Wellorilldone,excusablyorinexcusably,itwasdone。
  Once,ithadseemedtomethatwhenIshouldatlastrollupmyshirt-sleevesandgointotheforge,Joe's'prentice,Ishouldbedistinguishedandhappy。
  Nowtherealitywasinmyhold,IonlyfeltthatIwasdustywiththedustofsmallcoal,andthatIhadaweightuponmydailyremembrancetowhichtheanvilwasafeather。TherehavebeenoccasionsinmylaterlifeI
  supposeasinmostliveswhenIhavefeltforatimeasifathickcurtainhadfallenonallitsinterestandromance,toshutmeoutfromanythingsavedullenduranceanymore。Neverhasthatcurtaindroppedsoheavyandblank,aswhenmywayinlifelaystretchedoutstraightbeforemethroughthenewly-enteredroadofapprenticeshiptoJoe。
  Irememberthatatalaterperiodofmy`time,'IusedtostandaboutthechurchyardonSundayeveningswhennightwasfalling,comparingmyownperspectivewiththewindymarshview,andmakingoutsomelikenessbetweenthembythinkinghowflatandlowbothwere,andhowonboththerecameanunknownwayandadarkmistandthenthesea。Iwasquiteasdejectedonthefirstworking-dayofmyapprenticeshipasinthatafter-time;butIamgladtoknowthatIneverbreathedamurmurtoJoewhilemyindentureslasted。ItisabouttheonlythingIamgladtoknowofmyselfinthatconnection。
  For,thoughitincludeswhatIproceedtoadd,allthemeritofwhatIproceedtoaddwasJoe's。ItwasnotbecauseIwasfaithful,butbecauseJoewasfaithful,thatIneverranawayandwentforasoldierorasailor。
  ItwasnotbecauseIhadastrongsenseofthevirtueofindustry,butbecauseJoehadastrongsenseofthevirtueofindustry,thatIworkedwithtolerablezealagainstthegrain。Itisnotpossibletoknowhowfartheinfluenceofanyamiablehonest-heartedduty-doingmanfliesoutintotheworld;butitisverypossibletoknowhowithastouchedone'sselfingoingby,andIknowrightwell,thatanygoodthatintermixeditselfwithmyapprenticeshipcameofplaincontentedJoe,andnotofrestlesslyaspiringdiscontentedme。
  WhatIwanted,whocansay?HowcanIsay,whenIneverknew?
  WhatIdreadedwas,thatinsomeunluckyhourI,beingatmygrimiestandcommonest,shouldliftupmyeyesandseeEstellalookinginatoneofthewoodenwindowsoftheforge。Iwashauntedbythefearthatshewould,soonerorlater,findmeout,withablackfaceandhands,doingthecoarsestpartofmywork,andwouldexultovermeanddespiseme。Oftenafterdark,whenIwaspullingthebellowsforJoe,andweweresingingOldClem,andwhenthethoughthowweusedtosingitatMissHavisham'swouldseemtoshowmeEstella'sfaceinthefire,withherprettyhairflutteringinthewindandhereyesscorningme,-oftenatsuchatimeIwouldlooktowardsthosepanelsofblacknightinthewallwhichthewoodenwindowsthenwere,andwouldfancythatIsawherjustdrawingherfaceaway,andwouldbelievethatshehadcomeatlast。
  Afterthat,whenwewentintosupper,theplaceandthemealwouldhaveamorehomelylookthanever,andIwouldfeelmoreashamedofhomethanever,inmyownungraciousbreast。
  Chapter15
  ASIwasgettingtoobigforMrWopsle'sgreat-aunt'sroom,myeducationunderthatpreposterousfemaleterminated。Not,however,untilBiddyhadimpartedtomeeverythingsheknew,fromthelittlecatalogueofprices,toacomicsongshehadonceboughtforahalfpenny。Althoughtheonlycoherentpartofthelatterpieceofliteratureweretheopeninglines,WhenIwenttoLunnontownsirs,ToorulloorulToorulloorulWasn'tIdoneverybrownsirs?
  ToorulloorulToorulloorul-still,inmydesiretobewiser,Igotthiscompositionbyheartwiththeutmostgravity;nordoIrecollectthatIquestioneditsmerit,exceptthatIthoughtasIstilldotheamountofToorulsomewhatinexcessofthepoetry。Inmyhungerforinformation,ImadeproposalstoMrWopsletobestowsomeintellectualcrumbsuponme;withwhichhekindlycomplied。
  Asitturnedout,however,thatheonlywantedmeforadramaticlay-figure,tobecontradictedandembracedandweptoverandbulliedandclutchedandstabbedandknockedaboutinavarietyofways,Isoondeclinedthatcourseofinstruction;thoughnotuntilMrWopsleinhispoeticfuryhadseverelymauledme。
  WhateverIacquired,ItriedtoimparttoJoe。Thisstatementsoundssowell,thatIcannotinmyconscienceletitpassunexplained。IwantedtomakeJoelessignorantandcommon,thathemightbeworthierofmysocietyandlessopentoEstella'sreproach。
  TheoldBatteryoutonthemarsheswasourplaceofstudy,andabrokenslateandashortpieceofslatepencilwereoureducationalimplements:
  towhichJoealwaysaddedapipeoftobacco。IneverknewJoetorememberanythingfromoneSundaytoanother,ortoacquire,undermytuition,anypieceofinformationwhatever。YethewouldsmokehispipeattheBatterywithafarmoresagaciousairthananywhereelse-evenwithalearnedair-asifheconsideredhimselftobeadvancingimmensely。Dearfellow,Ihopehedid。
  Itwaspleasantandquiet,outtherewiththesailsontheriverpassingbeyondtheearthwork,andsometimes,whenthetidewaslow,lookingasiftheybelongedtosunkenshipsthatwerestillsailingonatthebottomofthewater。WheneverIwatchedthevesselsstandingouttoseawiththeirwhitesailsspread,IsomehowthoughtofMissHavishamandEstella;andwheneverthelightstruckaslant,afaroff,uponacloudorsailorgreenhill-sideorwater-line,itwasjustthesame-MissHavishamandEstellaandthestrangehouseandthestrangelifeappearedtohavesomethingtodowitheverythingthatwaspicturesque。
  OneSundaywhenJoe,greatlyenjoyinghispipe,hadsoplumedhimselfonbeing`mostawfuldull,'thatIhadgivenhimupfortheday,Ilayontheearthworkforsometimewithmychinonmyhand,descryingtracesofMissHavishamandEstellaallovertheprospect,intheskyandinthewater,untilatlastIresolvedtomentionathoughtconcerningthemthathadbeenmuchinmyhead。
  `Joe,'saidI;`don'tyouthinkIoughttomakeMissHavishamavisit?'
  `Well,Pip,'returnedJoe,slowlyconsidering。`Whatfor?'
  `Whatfor,Joe?Whatisanyvisitmadefor?'
  `Thereissomewisits,p'r'aps,'saidJoe,`asforeverremainsopentothequestion,Pip。ButinregardtowisitingMissHavisham。Shemightthinkyouwantedsomething-expectedsomethingofher。'
  `Don'tyouthinkImightsaythatIdidnot,Joe?'
  `Youmight,oldchap,'saidJoe。`Andshemightcreditit。Similarlyshemightn't。'
  Joefelt,asIdid,thathehadmadeapointthere,andhepulledhardathispipetokeephimselffromweakeningitbyrepetition。
  `Yousee,Pip,'Joepursued,assoonashewaspastthatdanger,`MissHavishamdonethehandsomethingbyyou。WhenMissHavishamdonethehandsomethingbyyou,shecalledmebacktosaytomeasthatwereall。'
  `Yes,Joe。Iheardher。'
  `ALL,'Joerepeated,veryemphatically。
  `Yes,Joe。Itellyou,Iheardher。'
  `WhichImeantersay,Pip,itmightbethathermeaningwere-Makeaendonit!-Asyouwas!-MetotheNorth,andyoutotheSouth!-Keepinsunders!'
  Ihadthoughtofthattoo,anditwasveryfarfromcomfortingtometofindthathehadthoughtofit;foritseemedtorenderitmoreprobable。
  `But,Joe。'
  `Yes,oldchap。'
  `HereamI,gettingoninthefirstyearofmytime,and,sincethedayofmybeingbound,IhaveneverthankedMissHavisham,oraskedafterher,orshownthatIrememberher。'
  `That'strue,Pip;andunlessyouwastoturnheroutasetofshoesallfourround-andwhichImeantersayasevenasetofshoesallfourroundmightnotactacceptableasapresent,inatotalwacancyofhoofs——'
  `Idon'tmeanthatsortofremembrance,Joe;Idon'tmeanapresent。'
  ButJoehadgottheideaofapresentinhisheadandmustharpuponit。`Oreven,'saidhe,`ifyouwashelpedtoknockingherupanewchainforthefrontdoor-orsayagrossortwoofsharkheadedscrewsforgeneraluse-orsomelightfancyarticle,suchasatoasting-forkwhenshetookhermuffins-oragridironwhenshetookaspratorsuchlike——'
  `Idon'tmeananypresentatall,Joe,'Iinterposed。
  `Well,'saidJoe,stillharpingonitasthoughIhadparticularlypressedit,`ifIwasyourself,Pip,Iwouldn't。No,Iwouldnot。Forwhat'sadoor-chainwhenshe'sgotonealwaysup?Andsharkheadersisopentomisrepresentations。Andifitwasatoasting-fork,you'dgointobrassanddoyourselfnocredit。Andtheoncommonestworkmancan'tshowhimselfoncommoninagridiron-foragridironISagridiron,'saidJoe,steadfastlyimpressingituponme,asifhewereendeavouringtorousemefromafixeddelusion,`andyoumayhaimatwhatyoulike,butagridironitwillcomeout,eitherbyyourleaveoragainyourleave,andyoucan'thelpyourself——'
  `MydearJoe,'Icried,indesperation,takingholdofhiscoat,`don'tgooninthatway。IneverthoughtofmakingMissHavishamanypresent。'
  `No,Pip,'Joeassented,asifhehadbeencontendingforthat,allalong;`andwhatIsaytoyouis,youareright,Pip。'
  `Yes,Joe;butwhatIwantedtosay,was,thatasweareratherslackjustnow,ifyouwouldgivemeahalf-holidayto-morrow,IthinkIwouldgoup-townandmakeacallonMissEst-Havisham。'
  `Whichhername,'saidJoe,gravely,`ain'tEstavisham,Pip,unlessshehavebeenrechris'ened。'
  `Iknow,Joe,Iknow。Itwasslipofmine。Whatdoyouthinkofit,Joe?'
  Inbrief,JoethoughtthatifIthoughtwellofit,hethoughtwellofit。But,hewasparticularinstipulatingthatifIwerenotreceivedwithcordiality,orifIwerenotencouragedtorepeatmyvisitasavisitwhichhadnoulteriorobjectbutwassimplyoneofgratitudeforafavourreceived,thenthisexperimentaltripshouldhavenosuccessor。BytheseconditionsIpromisedtoabide。
  Now,JoekeptajourneymanatweeklywageswhosenamewasOrlick。HepretendedthathischristiannamewasDolge-aclearimpossibility-buthewasafellowofthatobstinatedispositionthatIbelievehimtohavebeenthepreyofnodelusioninthisparticular,butwilfullytohaveimposedthatnameuponthevillageasanaffronttoitsunderstanding。Hewasabroadshoulderedloose-limbedswarthyfellowofgreatstrength,neverinahurry,andalwaysslouching。Heneverevenseemedtocometohisworkonpurpose,butwouldslouchinasifbymereaccident;andwhenhewenttotheJollyBargementoeathisdinner,orwentawayatnight,hewouldslouchout,likeCainortheWanderingJew,asifhehadnoideawherehewasgoingandnointentionofevercomingback。Helodgedatasluice-keeper'soutonthemarshes,andonworkingdayswouldcomeslouchingfromhishermitage,withhishandsinhispocketsandhisdinnerlooselytiedinabundleroundhisneckanddanglingonhisback。OnSundayshemostlylayalldayonsluice-gates,orstoodagainstricksandbarns。Healwaysslouched,locomotively,withhiseyesontheground;and,whenaccostedorotherwiserequiredtoraisethem,helookedupinahalfresentful,halfpuzzledway,asthoughtheonlythoughtheeverhad,was,thatitwasratheranoddandinjuriousfactthatheshouldneverbethinking。
  Thismorosejourneymanhadnolikingforme。WhenIwasverysmallandtimid,hegavemetounderstandthattheDevillivedinablackcorneroftheforge,andthatheknewthefiendverywell:alsothatitwasnecessarytomakeupthefire,onceinsevenyears,withaliveboy,andthatImightconsidermyselffuel。WhenIbecameJoe's'prentice,OrlickwasperhapsconfirmedinsomesuspicionthatIshoulddisplacehim;howbeit,helikedmestillless。Notthatheeversaidanything,ordidanything,openlyimportinghostility;Ionlynoticedthathealwaysbeathissparksinmydirection,andthatwheneverIsangOldClem,hecameinoutoftime。
  DolgeOrlickwasatworkandpresent,nextday,whenIremindedJoeofmyhalf-holiday。Hesaidnothingatthemoment,forheandJoehadjustgotapieceofhotironbetweenthem,andIwasatthebellows;butby-and-byhesaid,leaningonhishammer:
  `Now,master!Sureyou'renotagoingtofavouronlyoneofus。IfYoungPiphasahalf-holiday,doasmuchforOldOrlick。'Isupposehewasaboutfive-and-twenty,butheusuallyspokeofhimselfasanancientperson。
  `Why,what'llyoudowithahalf-holiday,ifyougetit?'saidJoe。
  `What'llIdowithit!What'llhedowithit?I'lldoasmuchwithitashim,'saidOrlick。
  `AstoPip,he'sgoingup-town,'saidJoe。
  `Wellthen,astoOldOrlick,he'sagoingup-town,'retortedthatworthy。`Twocangoup-town。Tan'tonlyonewotcangoup-town。
  `Don'tloseyourtemper,'saidJoe。
  `ShallifIlike,'growledOrlick。`Someandtheirup-towning!Now,master!
  Come。Nofavouringinthisshop。Beaman!'
  Themasterrefusingtoentertainthesubjectuntilthejourneymanwasinabettertemper,Orlickplungedatthefurnace,drewoutared-hotbar,madeatmewithitasifheweregoingtorunitthroughmybody,whiskeditroundmyhead,laiditontheanvil,hammereditout-asifitwereI,Ithought,andthesparksweremyspirtingblood-andfinallysaid,whenhehadhammeredhimselfhotandtheironcold,andheagainleanedonhishammer:
  `Now,master!'
  `Areyouallrightnow?'demandedJoe。
  `Ah!Iamallright,'saidgruffOldOrlick。
  `Then,asingeneralyousticktoyourworkaswellasmostmen,'saidJoe,`letitbeahalf-holidayforall。'
  Mysisterhadbeenstandingsilentintheyard,withinhearing-shewasamostunscrupulousspyandlistener-andsheinstantlylookedinatoneofthewindows。
  `Likeyou,youfool!'saidshetoJoe,`givingholidaystogreatidlehulkerslikethat。Youarearichman,uponmylife,towastewagesinthatway。IwishIwashismaster!'
  `You'dbeeverybody'smaster,ifyoudurst,'retortedOrlick,withanill-favouredgrin。
  `Letheralone,'saidJoe。
  `I'dbeamatchforallnoodlesandallrogues,'returnedmysister,beginningtoworkherselfintoamightyrage。`AndIcouldn'tbeamatchforthenoodles,withoutbeingamatchforyourmaster,who'sthedunder-headedkingofthenoodles。AndIcouldn'tbeamatchfortherogues,withoutbeingamatchforyou,whoaretheblackest-lookingandtheworstroguebetweenthisandFrance。Now!'
  `You'reafoulshrew,MotherGargery,growledthejourneyman。`Ifthatmakesajudgeofrogues,yououghttobeagood'un。'
  `Letheralone,willyou?'saidJoe。
  `Whatdidyousay?'criedmysister,beginningtoscream。`Whatdidyousay?WhatdidthatfellowOrlicksaytome,Pip?Whatdidhecallme,withmyhusbandstandingby?O!O!O!'Eachoftheseexclamationswasashriek;andImustremarkofmysister,whatisequallytrueofalltheviolentwomenIhaveeverseen,thatpassionwasnoexcuseforher,becauseitisundeniablethatinsteadoflapsingintopassion,sheconsciouslyanddeliberatelytookextraordinarypainstoforceherselfintoit,andbecameblindlyfuriousbyregularstages;`whatwasthenamehegavemebeforethebasemanwhosworetodefendme?O!Holdme!O!'
  `Ah-h-h!'growledthejourneyman,betweenhisteeth,`I'dholdyou,ifyouwasmywife。I'dholdyouunderthepump,andchokeitoutofyou。'
  `Itellyou,letheralone,'saidJoe。
  `Oh!Tohearhim!'criedmysister,withaclapofherhandsandascreamtogether-whichwashernextstage。`Tohearthenameshe'sgivingme!
  ThatOrlick!Inmyownhouse!Me,amarriedwoman!Withmyhusbandstandingby!O!O!'Heremysister,afterafitofclappingsandscreamings,beatherhandsuponherbosomanduponherknees,andthrewhercapoff,andpulledherhairdown-whichwerethelaststagesonherroadtofrenzy。
  BeingbythistimeaperfectFuryandacompletesuccess,shemadeadashatthedoor,whichIhadfortunatelylocked。
  WhatcouldthewretchedJoedonow,afterhisdisregardedparentheticalinterruptions,butstanduptohisjourneyman,andaskhimwhathemeantbyinterferingbetwixthimselfandMrsJoe;andfurtherwhetherhè;
  wasmanenoughtocomeon?OldOrlickfeltthatthesituationadmittedofnothinglessthancomingon,andwasonhisdefencestraightway;so,withoutsomuchaspullingofftheirsingedandburntaprons,theywentatoneanother,liketwogiants。But,ifanymaninthatneighbourhoodcouldstanduplongagainstJoe,Ineversawtheman。Orlick,asifhehadbeenofnomoreaccountthanthepaleyounggentleman,wasverysoonamongthecoal-dust,andinnohurrytocomeoutofit。Then,Joeunlockedthedoorandpickedupmysister,whohaddroppedinsensibleatthewindowbutwhohadseenthefightfirst,Ithink,andwhowascarriedintothehouseandlaiddown,andwhowasrecommendedtorevive,andwoulddonothingbutstruggleandclenchherhandsinJoe'shair。Then,camethatsingularcalmandsilencewhichsucceedalluproars;andthen,withthevaguesensationwhichIhavealwaysconnectedwithsuchalull-namely,thatitwasSunday,andsomebodywasdead-Iwentup-stairstodressmyself。
  WhenIcamedownagain,IfoundJoeandOrlicksweepingup,withoutanyothertracesofdiscomposurethanaslitinoneofOrlick'snostrils,whichwasneitherexpressivenorornamental。ApotofbeerhadappearedfromtheJollyBargemen,andtheyweresharingitbyturnsinapeaceablemanner。ThelullhadasedativeandphilosophicalinfluenceonJoe,whofollowedmeoutintotheroadtosay,asapartingobservationthatmightdomegood,`OntheRampage,Pip,andofftheRampage,Pip-suchisLife!'
  Withwhatabsurdemotionsfor,wethinkthefeelingsthatareveryseriousinamanquitecomicalinaboyIfoundmyselfagaingoingtoMissHavisham's,matterslittlehere。Nor,howIpassedandrepassedthegatemanytimesbeforeIcouldmakeupmymindtoring。Nor,howIdebatedwhetherIshouldgoawaywithoutringing;nor,howIshouldundoubtedlyhavegone,ifmytimehadbeenmyown,tocomeback。
  MissSarahPocketcametothegate。NoEstella。
  `How,then?Youhereagain?'saidMissPocket。`Whatdoyouwant?'
  WhenIsaidthatIonlycametoseehowMissHavishamwas,Sarahevidentlydeliberatedwhetherornosheshouldsendmeaboutmybusiness。But,unwillingtohazardtheresponsibility,sheletmein,andpresentlybroughtthesharpmessagethatIwasto`comeup。'
  Everythingwasunchanged,andMissHavishamwasalone。
  `Well?'saidshe,fixinghereyesuponme。`Ihopeyouwantnothing?
  You'llgetnothing。'
  `No,indeed,MissHavisham。IonlywantedyoutoknowthatIamdoingverywellinmyapprenticeship,andamalwaysmuchobligedtoyou。'
  `There,there!'withtheoldrestlessfingers。`Comenowandthen;comeonyourbirthday-Ay!'shecriedsuddenly,turningherselfandherchairtowardsme,`YouarelookingroundforEstella?Hey?'
  Ihadbeenlookinground-infact,forEstella-andIstammeredthatIhopedshewaswell。
  `Abroad,'saidMissHavisham;`educatingforalady;faroutofreach;
  prettierthanever;admiredbyallwhoseeher。Doyoufeelthatyouhavelosther?'
  Therewassuchamalignantenjoymentinherutteranceofthelastwords,andshebrokeintosuchadisagreeablelaugh,thatIwasatalosswhattosay。Shesparedmethetroubleofconsidering,bydismissingme。WhenthegatewascloseduponmebySarahofthewalnut-shellcountenance,I
  feltmorethaneverdissatisfiedwithmyhomeandwithmytradeandwitheverything;andthatwasallItookbythatmotion。
  AsIwasloiteringalongtheHigh-street,lookingindisconsolatelyattheshopwindows,andthinkingwhatIwouldbuyifIwereagentleman,whoshouldcomeoutofthebookshopbutMrWopsle。MrWopslehadinhishandtheaffectingtragedyofGeorgeBarnwell,inwhichhehadthatmomentinvestedsixpence,withtheviewofheapingeverywordofitontheheadofPumblechook,withwhomhewasgoingtodrinktea。Nosoonerdidheseeme,thanheappearedtoconsiderthataspecialProvidencehadputa'prenticeinhiswaytobereadat;andhelaidholdofme,andinsistedonmyaccompanyinghimtothePumblechookianparlour。AsIknewitwouldbemiserableathome,andasthenightsweredarkandthewaywasdreary,andalmostanycompanionshipontheroadwasbetterthannone,Imadenogreatresistance;consequently,weturnedintoPumblechook'sjustasthestreetandtheshopswerelightingup。
  AsIneverassistedatanyotherrepresentationofGeorgeBarnwell,Idon'tknowhowlongitmayusuallytake;butIknowverywellthatittookuntilhalf-pastnineo'clockthatnight,andthatwhenMrWopslegotintoNewgate,Ithoughtheneverwouldgotothescaffold,hebecamesomuchslowerthanatanyformerperiodofhisdisgracefulcareer。Ithoughtitalittletoomuchthatheshouldcomplainofbeingcutshortinhisflowerafterall,asifhehadnotbeenrunningtoseed,leafafterleaf,eversincehiscoursebegan。This,however,wasamerequestionoflengthandwearisomeness。Whatstungme,wastheidentificationofthewholeaffairwithmyunoffendingself。WhenBarnwellbegantogowrong,IdeclarethatIfeltpositivelyapologetic,Pumblechook'sindignantstaresotaxedmewithit。Wopsle,too,tookpainstopresentmeintheworstlight。Atonceferociousandmaudlin,Iwasmadetomurdermyunclewithnoextenuatingcircumstanceswhatever;Millwoodputmedowninargument,oneveryoccasion;
  itbecamesheermonomaniainmymaster'sdaughtertocareabuttonforme;andallIcansayformygaspingandprocrastinatingconductonthefatalmorning,is,thatitwasworthyofthegeneralfeeblenessofmycharacter。
  EvenafterIwashappilyhangedandWopslehadclosedthebook,Pumblechooksatstaringatme,andshakinghishead,andsaying,`Takewarning,boy,takewarning!'asifitwereawell-knownfactthatIcontemplatedmurderinganearrelation,providedIcouldonlyinduceonetohavetheweaknesstobecomemybenefactor。
  Itwasaverydarknightwhenitwasallover,andwhenIsetoutwithMr。Wopsleonthewalkhome。Beyondtown,wefoundaheavymistout,anditfellwetandthick。Theturnpikelampwasablur,quiteoutofthelamp'susualplaceapparently,anditsrayslookedsolidsubstanceonthefog。
  Wewerenoticingthis,andsayinghowthatthemistrosewithachangeofwindfromacertainquarterofourmarshes,whenwecameuponaman,slouchingundertheleeoftheturnpikehouse。
  `Halloa!'wesaid,stopping。`Orlick,there?'
  `Ah!'heanswered,slouchingout。`Iwasstandingby,aminute,onthechanceofcompany。'
  `Youarelate,'Iremarked。
  Orlicknotunnaturallyanswered,`Well?Andyou'relate。'
  `Wehavebeen,'saidMrWopsle,exaltedwithhislateperformance,`wehavebeenindulging,MrOrlick,inanintellectualevening。'
  OldOrlickgrowled,asifhehadnothingtosayaboutthat,andweallwentontogether。Iaskedhimpresentlywhetherhehadbeenspendinghishalf-holidayupanddowntown?
  `Yes,'saidhe,`allofit。Icomeinbehindyourself。Ididn'tseeyou,butImusthavebeenprettyclosebehindyou。By-the-bye,thegunsisgoingagain。'
  `AttheHulks?'saidI。
  `Ay!There'ssomeofthebirdsflownfromthecages。Thegunshavebeengoingsincedark,about。You'llhearonepresently。'
  Ineffect,wehadnotwalkedmanyyardsfurther,whenthewellrememberedboomcametowardsus,deadenedbythemist,andheavilyrolledawayalongthelowgroundsbytheriver,asifitwerepursuingandthreateningthefugitives。
  `Agoodnightforcuttingoffin,'saidOrlick。`We'dbepuzzledhowtobringdownajail-birdonthewing,to-night。'
  Thesubjectwasasuggestiveonetome,andIthoughtaboutitinsilence。
  MrWopsle,astheill-requiteduncleoftheevening'stragedy,felltomeditatingaloudinhisgardenatCamberwell。Orlick,withhishandsinhispockets,slouchedheavilyatmyside。Itwasverydark,verywet,verymuddy,andsowesplashedalong。Nowandthen,thesoundofthesignalcannonbrokeuponusagain,andagainrolledsulkilyalongthecourseoftheriver。Ikeptmyselftomyselfandmythoughts。MrWopslediedamiablyatCamberwell,andexceedinglygameonBosworthField,andinthegreatestagoniesatGlastonbury。Orlicksometimesgrowled,`Beatitout,beatitout-OldClem!Withaclinkforthestout-OldClem!'Ithoughthehadbeendrinking,buthewasnotdrunk。
  Thus,wecametothevillage。Thewaybywhichweapproachedit,tookuspasttheThreeJollyBargemen,whichweweresurprisedtofind-itbeingeleveno'clock-inastateofcommotion,withthedoorwideopen,andunwontedlightsthathadbeenhastilycaughtupandputdown,scatteredabout。MrWopsledroppedintoaskwhatwasthemattersurmisingthataconvicthadbeentaken,butcamerunningoutinagreathurry。
  `There'ssomethingwrong,'saidhe,withoutstopping,`upatyourplace,Pip。Runall!'
  `Whatisit?'Iasked,keepingupwithhim。SodidOrlick,atmyside。
  `Ican'tquiteunderstand。ThehouseseemstohavebeenviolentlyenteredwhenJoeGargerywasout。Supposedbyconvicts。Somebodyhasbeenattackedandhurt。'
  Wewererunningtoofasttoadmitofmorebeingsaid,andwemadenostopuntilwegotintoourkitchen。Itwasfullofpeople;thewholevillagewasthere,orintheyard;andtherewasasurgeon,andtherewasJoe,andtherewasagroupofwomen,allonthefloorinthemidstofthekitchen。
  Theunemployedbystandersdrewbackwhentheysawme,andsoIbecameawareofmysister-lyingwithoutsenseormovementonthebareboardswhereshehadbeenknockeddownbyatremendousblowonthebackofthehead,dealtbysomeunknownhandwhenherfacewasturnedtowardsthefire-
  destinednevertobeontheRampageagain,whileshewasthewifeofJoe。