首页 >出版文学> GREAT EXPECTATIONS>第15章
  But,therewasrecompenseinthejoywithwhichHerbertwouldcomehomeofanightandtellmeofthesechanges,littleimaginingthathetoldmenonews,andwouldsketchairypicturesofhimselfconductingClaraBarleytothelandoftheArabianNights,andofmegoingouttojointhemwithacaravanofcamels,Ibelieve,andofourallgoinguptheNileandseeingwonders。Withoutbeingsanguineastomyownpartinthesebrightplans,IfeltthatHerbert'swaywasclearingfast,andthatoldBillBarleyhadbuttosticktohispepperandrum,andhisdaughterwouldsoonbehappilyprovidedfor。
  WehadnowgotintothemonthofMarch。Myleftarm,thoughitpresentednobadsymptoms,tookinthenaturalcoursesolongtohealthatIwasstillunabletogetacoaton。Myrightarmwastolerablyrestored;-disfigured,butfairlyserviceable。
  OnaMondaymorning,whenHerbertandIwereatbreakfast,IreceivedthefollowingletterfromWemmickbythepost。
  `Walworth。Burnthisassoonasread。Earlyintheweek,orsayWednesday,youmightdowhatyouknowof,ifyoufeltdisposedtotryit。Nowburn。'
  WhenIhadshownthistoHerbertandhadputitinthefire-butnotbeforewehadbothgotitbyheart-weconsideredwhattodo。For,ofcoursemybeingdisabledcouldnowbenolongerkeptoutofview。
  `Ihavethoughtitover,againandagain,'saidHerbert,`andIthinkIknowabettercoursethantakingaThameswaterman。TakeStartop。Agoodfellow,askilledhand,fondofus,andenthusiasticandhonourable。'
  Ihadthoughtofhim,morethanonce。
  `Buthowmuchwouldyoutellhim,Herbert?'
  `Itisnecessarytotellhimverylittle。Lethimsupposeitamerefreak,butasecretone,untilthemorningcomes:thenlethimknowthatthereisurgentreasonforyourgettingProvisabroadandaway。Yougowithhim?'
  `Nodoubt。'
  `Where?'
  Ithadseemedtome,inthemanyanxiousconsiderationsIhadgiventhepoint,almostindifferentwhatportwemadefor-Hamburg,Rotterdam,Antwerp-theplacesignifiedlittle,sothathewasgotoutofEngland。
  Anyforeignsteamerthatfellinourwayandwouldtakeusup,woulddo。
  Ihadalwaysproposedtomyselftogethimwelldowntheriverintheboat;
  certainlywellbeyondGravesend,whichwasacriticalplaceforsearchorinquiryifsuspicionwereafoot。AsforeignsteamerswouldleaveLondonataboutthetimeofhigh-water,ourplanwouldbetogetdowntheriverbyapreviousebb-tide,andliebyinsomequietspotuntilwecouldpullofftoone。Thetimewhenonewouldbeduewherewelay,whereverthatmightbe,couldbecalculatedprettynearly,ifwemadeinquiriesbeforehand。
  Herbertassentedtoallthis,andwewentoutimmediatelyafterbreakfasttopursueourinvestigations。WefoundthatasteamerforHamburgwaslikelytosuitourpurposebest,andwedirectedourthoughtschieflytothatvessel。ButwenoteddownwhatotherforeignsteamerswouldleaveLondonwiththesametide,andwesatisfiedourselvesthatweknewthebuildandcolourofeach。Wethenseparatedforafewhours;I,togetatoncesuchpassportsaswerenecessary;Herbert,toseeStartopathislodgings。Webothdidwhatwehadtodowithoutanyhindrance,andwhenwemetagainatoneo'clockreporteddone。I,formypart,waspreparedwithpassports;
  HerberthadseenStartop,andhewasmorethanreadytojoin。
  Thosetwoshouldpullapairofoars,wesettled,andIwouldsteer;
  ourchargewouldbesitter,andkeepquiet;asspeedwasnotourobject,weshouldmakewayenough。WearrangedthatHerbertshouldnotcomehometodinnerbeforegoingtoMillPondBankthatevening;thatheshouldnotgothereatall,to-morrowevening,Tuesday;thatheshouldprepareProvistocomedowntosomeStairshardbythehouse,onWednesday,whenhesawusapproach,andnotsooner;thatallthearrangementswithhimshouldbeconcludedthatMondaynight;andthatheshouldbecommunicatedwithnomoreinanyway,untilwetookhimonboard。
  Theseprecautionswellunderstoodbybothofus,Iwenthome。
  Onopeningtheouterdoorofourchamberswithmykey,Ifoundaletterinthebox,directedtome;averydirtyletter,thoughnotill-written。
  IthadbeendeliveredbyhandofcoursesinceIlefthome,anditscontentswerethese:
  `Ifyouarenotafraidtocometotheoldmarshesto-nightortomorrownightatNine,andtocometothelittlesluice-housebythelimekiln,youhadbettercome。IfyouwantinformationregardingyouruncleProvis,youhadmuchbettercomeandtellnooneandlosenotime。Youmustcomealone。Bringthiswithyou。'
  Ihadhadloadenoughuponmymindbeforethereceiptofthisstrangeletter。Whattodonow,Icouldnottell。Andtheworstwas,thatImustdecidequickly,orIshouldmisstheafternooncoach,whichwouldtakemedownintimeforto-night。To-morrownightIcouldnotthinkofgoing,foritwouldbetoocloseuponthetimeoftheflight。Andagain,foranythingIknew,theprofferedinformationmighthavesomeimportantbearingontheflightitself。
  IfIhadhadampletimeforconsideration,IbelieveIshouldstillhavegone。Havinghardlyanytimeforconsideration-mywatchshowingmethatthecoachstartedwithinhalfandhour-Iresolvedtogo。Ishouldcertainlynothavegone,butforthereferencetomyUncleProvis;that,comingonWemmick'sletterandthemorning'sbusypreparation,turnedthescale。
  Itissodifficulttobecomeclearlypossessedofcontentsofalmostanyletter,inaviolenthurry,thatIhadtoreadthismysteriousepistleagain,twice,beforeitsinjunctiontometobesecretgotmechanicallyintomymind。Yieldingtoitinthesamemechanicalkindofway,IleftanoteinpencilforHerbert,tellinghimthatasIshouldbesosoongoingaway,Iknewnotforhowlong,Ihaddecidedtohurrydownandback,toascertainformyselfhowMissHavishamwasfaring。Ihadthenbarelytimetogetmygreat-coat,lockupthechambers,andmakeforthecoach-officebytheshortby-ways。IfIhadtakenahackney-chariotandgonebythestreets,Ishouldhavemissedmyaim;goingasIdid,Icaughtthecoachjustasitcameoutoftheyard。Iwastheonlyinsidepassenger,joltingawayknee-deepinstraw,whenIcametomyself。
  For,Ireallyhadnotbeenmyselfsincethereceiptoftheletter;ithadsobewilderedmeensuingonthehurryofthemorning。Themorninghurryandflutterhadbeengreat,for,longandanxiouslyasIhadwaitedforWemmick,hishinthadcomelikeasurpriseatlast。Andnow,Ibegantowonderatmyselfforbeinginthecoach,andtodoubtwhetherIhadsufficientreasonforbeingthere,andtoconsiderwhetherIshouldgetoutpresentlyandgoback,andtoargueagainsteverheedingananonymouscommunication,and,inshort,topassthroughallthosephasesofcontradictionandindecisiontowhichIsupposeveryfewhurriedpeoplearestrangers。Still,thereferencetoProvisbyname,masteredeverything。IreasonedasIhadreasonedalreadywithoutknowingit-ifthatbereasoning-incaseanyharmshouldbefallhimthroughmynotgoing,howcouldIeverforgivemyself!
  Itwasdarkbeforewegotdown,andthejourneyseemedlonganddrearytomewhocouldseelittleofitinside,andwhocouldnotgooutsideinmydisabledstate。AvoidingtheBlueBoar,Iputupataninnofminorreputationdownthetown,andorderedsomedinner。Whileitwaspreparing,IwenttoSatisHouseandinquiredforMissHavisham;shewasstillveryill,thoughconsideredsomethingbetter。
  Myinnhadoncebeenapartofanancientecclesiasticalhouse,andIdinedinalittleoctagonalcommon-room,likeafont。AsIwasnotabletocutmydinner,theoldlandlordwithashiningbaldheaddiditforme。Thisbringingusintoconversation,hewassogoodastoentertainmewithmyownstory-ofcoursewiththepopularfeaturethatPumblechookwasmyearliestbenefactorandthefounderofmyfortunes。
  `Doyouknowtheyoungman?'saidI。
  `Knowhim!'repeatedthelandlord。`Eversincehewas-noheightatall。'
  `Doesheevercomebacktothisneighbourhood?'
  `Ay,hecomesback,'saidthelandlord,`tohisgreatfriends,nowandagain,andgivesthecoldshouldertothemanthatmadehim。'
  `Whatmanisthat?'
  `HimthatIspeakof,'saidthelandlord。`MrPumblechook。'
  `Isheungratefultonooneelse?'
  `Nodoubthewouldbe,ifhecould,'returnedthelandlord,`buthecan't。Andwhy?BecausePumblechookdoneeverythingforhim。'
  `DoesPumblechooksayso?'
  `Sayso!'repliedthelandlord。`Hehan'tnocalltosayso。'
  `Butdoeshesayso?'
  `Itwouldturnaman'sbloodtowhitewinewinegartohearhimtellofit,sir,'saidthelandlord。
  Ithought,`YetJoe,dearJoe,younevertellofit。Long-sufferingandlovingJoe,younevercomplain。Noryou,sweet-temperedBiddy!'
  `Yourappetite'sbeentouchedlike,byyouraccident,'saidthelandlord,glancingatthebandagedarmundermycoat。`Tryatendererbit。'
  `Nothankyou,'Ireplied,turningfromthetabletobroodoverthefire。`Icaneatnomore。Pleasetakeitaway。'
  Ihadneverbeenstruckatsokneely,formythanklessnesstoJoe,asthroughthebrazenimpostorPumblechook。Thefalserhe,thetruerJoe;
  themeanerhe,thenoblerJoe。
  MyheartwasdeeplyandmostdeservedlyhumbledasImusedoverthefireforanhourormore。Thestrikingoftheclockarousedme,butnotfrommydejectionorremorse,andIgotupandhadmycoatfastenedroundmyneck,andwentout。Ihadpreviouslysoughtinmypocketsfortheletter,thatImightrefertoitagain,butIcouldnotfindit,andwasuneasytothinkthatitmusthavebeendroppedinthestrawofthecoach。Iknewverywell,however,thattheappointedplacewasthelittlesluice-housebythelimekilnonthemarshes,andthehournine。TowardsthemarshesInowwentstraight,havingnotimetospare。
  Chapter53
  ITwasadarknight,thoughthefullmoonroseasIlefttheenclosedlands,andpassedoutuponthemarshes。Beyondtheirdarklinetherewasaribbonofclearsky,hardlybroadenoughtoholdtheredlargemoon。
  Inafewminutesshehadascendedoutofthatclearfield,inamongthepiledmountainsofcloud。
  Therewasamelancholywind,andthemarsheswereverydismal。Astrangerwouldhavefoundtheminsupportable,andeventometheyweresooppressivethatIhesitated,halfinclinedtogoback。But,Iknewthemwell,andcouldhavefoundmywayonafardarkernight,andhadnoexcuseforreturning,beingthere。So,havingcomethereagainstmyinclination,Iwentonagainstit。
  ThedirectionthatItook,wasnotthatinwhichmyoldhomelay,northatinwhichwehadpursuedtheconvicts。MybackwasturnedtowardsthedistantHulksasIwalkedon,and,thoughIcouldseetheoldlightsawayonthespitsofsand,Isawthemovermyshoulder。IknewthelimekilnaswellasIknewtheoldBattery,buttheyweremilesapart;sothatifalighthadbeenburningateachpointthatnight,therewouldhavebeenalongstripoftheblankhorizonbetweenthetwobrightspecks。
  Atfirst,Ihadtoshutsomegatesafterme,andnowandthentostandstillwhilethecattlethatwerelyinginthebanked-uppathway,aroseandblundereddownamongthegrassandreeds。Butafteralittlewhile,Iseemedtohavethewholeflatstomyself。
  Itwasanotherhalf-hourbeforeIdrewneartothekiln。Thelimewasburningwithasluggishstiflingsmell,butthefiresweremadeupandleft,andnoworkmenwerevisible。Hardby,wasasmallstone-quarry。Itlaydirectlyinmyway,andhadbeenworkedthatday,asIsawbythetoolsandbarrowsthatwerelyingabout。
  Comingupagaintothemarshleveloutofthisexcavation-fortherudepathlaythroughit-Isawalightintheoldsluice-house。Iquickenedmypace,andknockedatthedoorwithmyhand。Waitingforsomereply,Ilookedaboutme,noticinghowthesluicewasabandonedandbroken,andhowthehouse-ofwoodwithatiledroof-wouldnotbeproofagainsttheweathermuchlonger,ifitweresoevennow,andhowthemudandoozewerecoatedwithlime,andhowthechokingvapourofthekilncreptinaghostlywaytowardsme。Stilltherewasnoanswer,andIknockedagain。
  Noanswerstill,andItriedthelatch。
  Itroseundermyhand,andthedooryielded。Lookingin,Isawalightedcandleonatable,abench,andamattressonatrucklebedstead。Astherewasaloftabove,Icalled,`Isthereanyonehere?'butnovoiceanswered。
  Then,Ilookedatmywatch,and,findingthatitwaspastnine,calledagain,`Isthereanyonehere?'Therebeingstillnoanswer,Iwentoutatthedoor,irresolutewhattodo。
  Itwasbeginningtorainfast。SeeingnothingsavewhatIhadseenalready,Iturnedbackintothehouse,andstoodjustwithintheshelterofthedoorway,lookingoutintothenight。WhileIwasconsideringthatsomeonemusthavebeentherelatelyandmustsoonbecomingback,orthecandlewouldnotbeburning,itcameintomyheadtolookifthewickwerelong。
  Iturnedroundtodoso,andhadtakenupthecandleinmyhand,whenitwasextinguishedbysomeviolentshock,andthenextthingIcomprehended,was,thatIhadbeencaughtinastrongrunningnoose,thrownovermyheadfrombehind。
  `Now,'saidasuppressedvoicewithanoath,`I'vegotyou!'
  `Whatisthis?'Icried,struggling。`Whoisit?Help,help,help!'
  Notonlyweremyarmspulledclosetomysides,butthepressureonmybadarmcausedmeexquisitepain。Sometimes,astrongman'shand,sometimesastrongman'sbreast,wassetagainstmymouthtodeadenmycries,andwithahotbreathalwaysclosetome,Istruggledineffectuallyinthedark,whileIwasfastenedtighttothewall。`Andnow,'saidthesuppressedvoicewithanotheroath,`calloutagain,andI'llmakeshortworkofyou!'
  Faintandsickwiththepainofmyinjuredarm,bewilderedbythesurprise,andyetconscioushoweasilythisthreatcouldbeputinexecution,Idesisted,andtriedtoeasemyarmwereiteversolittle。But,itwasboundtootightforthat。Ifeltasif,havingbeenburntbefore,itwerenowbeingboiled。
  Thesuddenexclusionofthenightandthesubstitutionofblackdarknessinitsplace,warnedmethatthemanhadclosedashutter。Aftergropingaboutforalittle,hefoundtheflintandsteelhewanted,andbegantostrikealight。Istrainedmysightuponthesparksthatfellamongthetinder,anduponwhichhebreathedandbreathed,matchinhand,butIcouldonlyseehislips,andthebluepointofthematch;eventhose,butfitfully。
  Thetinderwasdamp-nowonderthere-andoneafteranotherthesparksdiedout。
  Themanwasinnohurry,andstruckagainwiththeflintandsteel。
  Asthesparksfellthickandbrightabouthim,Icouldseehishands,andtouchesofhisface,andcouldmakeoutthathewasseatedandbendingoverthetable;butnothingmore。PresentlyIsawhisbluelipsagain,breathingonthetinder,andthenaflareoflightflashedup,andshowedmeOrlick。
  WhomIhadlookedfor,Idon'tknow。Ihadnotlookedforhim。Seeinghim,IfeltthatIwasinadangerousstraitindeed,andIkeptmyeyesuponhim。
  Helightedthecandlefromtheflaringmatchwithgreatdeliberation,anddroppedthematch,andtroditout。Then,heputthecandleawayfromhimonthetable,sothathecouldseeme,andsatwithhisarmsfoldedonthetableandlookedatme。ImadeoutthatIwasfastenedtoastoutperpendicularladderafewinchesfromthewall-afixturethere-themeansofascenttotheloftabove。
  `Now,'saidhe,whenwehadsurveyedoneanotherforsometime,`I'vegotyou。'
  `Unbindme。Letmego!'
  `Ah!'hereturned,`I'llletyougo。I'llletyougotothemoon,I'llletyougotothestars。Allingoodtime。'
  `Whyhaveyouluredmehere?'
  `Don'tyouknow?'saidhe,withadeadlylook`Whyhaveyousetuponmeinthedark?'
  `BecauseImeantodoitallmyself。Onekeepsasecretbetterthantwo。Ohyouenemy,youenemy!'
  HisenjoymentofthespectacleIfurnished,ashesatwithhisarmsfoldedonthetable,shakinghisheadatmeandhugginghimself,hadamalignityinitthatmademetremble。AsIwatchedhiminsilence,heputhishandintothecornerathisside,andtookupagunwithabrass-boundstock。
  `Doyouknowthis?'saidhe,makingasifhewouldtakeaimatme。`Doyouknowwhereyousawitafore?Speak,wolf!'
  `Yes,'Ianswered。
  `Youcostmethatplace。Youdid。Speak!'
  `WhatelsecouldIdo?'
  `Youdidthat,andthatwouldbeenough,withoutmore。HowdaredyoutocomebetwixtmeandayoungwomanIliked?'
  `WhendidI?'
  `Whendidn'tyou?ItwasyouasalwaysgiveOldOrlickabadnametoher。'
  `Yougaveittoyourself;yougaineditforyourself。Icouldhavedoneyounoharm,ifyouhaddoneyourselfnone。'
  `You'realiar。Andyou'lltakeanypains,andspendanymoney,todrivemeoutofthiscountry,willyou?'saidhe,repeatingmywordstoBiddyinthelastinterviewIhadwithher。`Now,I'lltellyouapieceofinformation。
  Itwasneversowellworthyourwhiletogetmeoutofthiscountryasitisto-night。Ah!Ifitwasallyourmoneytwentytimestold,tothelastbrassfarden!'Asheshookhisheavyhandatme,withhismouthsnarlinglikeatiger's,Ifeltthatitwastrue。
  `Whatareyougoingtodotome?'
  `I'mgoing,'saidhe,bringinghisfirstdownuponthetablewithaheavyblow,andrisingastheblowfell,togiveitgreaterforce,`I'magoingtohaveyourlife!'
  Heleanedforwardstaringatme,slowlyunclenchedhishandanddrewitacrosshismouthasifhismouthwateredforme,andsatdownagain。
  `YouwasalwaysinOldOrlick'swaysinceeveryouwasachild。Yougoesoutofhisway,thispresentnight。He'llhavenomoreonyou。You'redead。'
  IfeltthatIhadcometothebrinkofmygrave。ForamomentIlookedwildlyroundmytrapforanychanceofescape;buttherewasnone。
  `Morethanthat,'saidhe,foldinghisarmsonthetableagain,`Iwon'thavearagofyou,Iwon'thaveaboneofyou,leftonearth。I'llputyourbodyinthekiln-I'dcarrytwosuchtoit,onmyshoulders-and,letpeoplesupposewhattheymayofyou,theyshallneverknownothing。'
  Mymind,withinconceivablerapidity,followedoutalltheconsequencesofsuchadeath。Estella'sfatherwouldbelieveIhaddesertedhim,wouldbetaken,woulddieaccusingme;evenHerbertwoulddoubtme,whenhecomparedtheletterIhadleftforhim,withthefactthatIhadcalledatMissHavisham'sgateforonlyamoment;JoeandBiddywouldneverknowhowsorryIhadbeenthatnight;nonewouldeverknowwhatIhadsuffered,howtrueIhadmeanttobe,whatanagonyIhadpassedthrough。Thedeathclosebeforemewasterrible,butfarmoreterriblethandeathwasthedreadofbeingmisrememberedafterdeath。Andsoquickweremythoughts,thatIsawmyselfdespisedbyunborngenerations-Estella'schildren,andtheirchildren-whilethewretch'swordswereyetonhislips。
  `Now,wolf,'saidhe,`aforeIkillyoulikeanyotherbeast-whichiswotImeantodoandwotIhavetiedyouupfor-I'llhaveagoodlookatyouandagoodgoadatyou。Oh,youenemy!'
  Ithadpassedthroughmythoughtstocryoutforhelpagain;thoughfewcouldknowbetterthanI,thesolitarynatureofthespot,andthehopelessnessofaid。Butashesatgloatingoverme,Iwassupportedbyascornfuldetestationofhimthatsealedmylips。Aboveallthings,I
  resolvedthatIwouldnotentreathim,andthatIwoulddiemakingsomelastpoorresistancetohim。Softenedasmythoughtsofalltherestofmenwereinthatdireextremity;humblybeseechingpardon,asIdid,ofHeaven;meltedatheart,asIwas,bythethoughtthatIhadtakennofarewell,andnevernevernowcouldtakefarewell,ofthosewhoweredeartome,orcouldexplainmyselftothem,oraskfortheircompassiononmymiserableerrors;still,ifIcouldhavekilledhim,evenindying,Iwouldhavedoneit。
  Hehadbeendrinking,andhiseyeswereredandbloodshot。Aroundhisneckwasslungatinbottle,asIhadoftenseenhismeatanddrinkslungabouthiminotherdays。Hebroughtthebottletohislips,andtookafierydrinkfromit;andIsmeltthestrongspiritsthatIsawflashintohisface。
  `Wolf!'saidhe,foldinghisarmsagain,`OldOrlick'sagoingtotellyousomethink。Itwasyouasdidforyourshrewsister。'
  Againmymind,withitsformerinconceivablerapidity,hadexhaustedthewholesubjectoftheattackuponmysister,herillness,andherdeath,beforehisslowandhesitatingspeechhadformedthesewords。
  `Itwasyou,villain,'saidI。
  `Itellyouitwasyourdoing-Itellyouitwasdonethroughyou,'
  heretorted,catchingupthegun,andmakingablowwiththestockatthevacantairbetweenus。`Icomeuponherfrombehind,asIcomeuponyouto-night。Igiv'ither!Ileftherfordead,andiftherehadbeenalimekilnasnighherasthereisnownighyou,sheshouldn'thavecometolifeagain。Butitwarn'tOldOrlickasdidit;itwasyou。Youwasfavoured,andhewasbulliedandbeat。OldOrlickbulliedandbeat,eh?
  Nowyoupaysforit。Youdoneit;nowyoupaysforit。'
  Hedrankagain,andbecamemoreferocious。Isawbyhistiltingofthebottlethattherewasnogreatquantityleftinit。Idistinctlyunderstoodthathewasworkinghimselfupwithitscontents,tomakeanendofme。
  Iknewthateverydropitheld,wasadropofmylife。IknewthatwhenIwaschangedintoapartofthevapourthathadcrepttowardsmebutalittlewhilebefore,likemyownwarningghost,hewoulddoashehaddoneinmysister'scase-makeallhastetothetown,andbeseenslouchingaboutthere,drinkingattheale-houses。Myrapidmindpursuedhimtothetown,madeapictureofthestreetwithhiminit,andcontrasteditslightsandlifewiththelonelymarshandthewhitevapourcreepingoverit,intowhichIshouldhavedissolved。
  ItwasnotonlythatIcouldhavesummedupyearsandyearsandyearswhilehesaidadozenwords,butthatwhathedidsaypresentedpicturestome,andnotmerewords。Intheexcitedandexaltedstateofmybrain,Icouldnotthinkofaplacewithoutseeingit,orofpersonswithoutseeingthem。Itisimpossibletoover-statethevividnessoftheseimages,andyetIwassointent,allthetime,uponhimhimself-whowouldnotbeintentonthetigercrouchingtospring!-thatIknewoftheslightestactionofhisfingers。
  Whenhehaddrunkthissecondtime,herosefromthebenchonwhichhesat,andpushedthetableaside。Then,hetookupthecandle,andshadingitwithhismurderoushandsoastothrowitslightonme,stoodbeforeme,lookingatmeandenjoyingthesight。
  `Wolf,I'lltellyousomethingmore。ItwasOldOrlickasyoutumbledoveronyourstairsthatnight。'
  Isawthestaircasewithitsextinguishedlamps。Isawtheshadowsoftheheavystair-rails,thrownbythewatchman'slanternonthewall。I
  sawtheroomsthatIwasnevertoseeagain;here,adoorhalfopen;there,adoorclosed;allthearticlesoffurniturearound。
  `AndwhywasOldOrlickthere?I'lltellyousomethingmore,wolf。Youandherhaveprettywellhuntedmeoutofthiscountry,sofarasgettingaeasylivinginitgoes,andI'vetookupwithnewcompanions,andnewmasters。Someof'emwritesmyletterswhenIwants'emwrote-
  doyoumind?-writesmyletters,wolf!Theywritesfiftyhands;they'renotlikesneakingyou,aswritesbutone。I'vehadafirmmindandafirmwilltohaveyourlife,sinceyouwasdownhereatyoursister'sburying。
  Ihan'tseenawaytogetyousafe,andI'velookedarteryoutoknowyourinsandouts。For,saysOldOrlicktohimself,""SomehoworanotherI'llhavehim!""What!WhenIlooksforyou,IfindsyouruncleProvis,eh?'
  MillPondBank,andChinks'sBasin,andtheOldGreenCopperRope-Walk,allsoclearandplain!Provisinhisrooms,thesignalwhoseusewasover,prettyClara,thegoodmotherlywoman,oldBillBarleyonhisback,alldriftingby,asontheswiftstreamofmylifefastrunningouttosea!
  `Youwithauncletoo!Why,Iknow'dyouatGargery'swhenyouwassosmallawolfthatIcouldhavetookyourweazenbetwixtthisfingerandthumbandchuckedyouawaydeadasI'dthoughtso'doing,oddtimes,whenIseeyouloiteringamongstthepollardsonaSunday,andyouhadn'tfoundnounclesthen。No,notyou!ButwhenOldOrlickcomefortohearthatyouruncleProvishadmostlikeworetheleg-ironwotOldOrlickhadpickedup,filedasunder,onthesemesheseversomanyyearago,andwothekepbyhimtillhedroppedyoursisterwithit,likeabullock,ashemeanstodropyou-hey?-whenhecomefortohearthat-hey?——'
  Inhissavagetaunting,heflaredthecandlesocloseatme,thatI
  turnedmyfaceaside,tosaveitfromtheflame。
  `Ah!'hecried,laughing,afterdoingitagain,`theburntchilddreadsthefire!OldOrlickknowedyouwasburnt,OldOrlickknowedyouwassmugglingyouruncleProvisaway,OldOrlick'samatchforyouandknow'dyou'dcometo-night!NowI'lltellyousomethingmore,wolf,andthisendsit。There'sthemthat'sasgoodamatchforyouruncleProvisasOldOrlickhasbeenforyou。Lethim'warethem,whenhe'slosthisnevvy!Lethim'warethem,whennomancan'tfindaragofhisdearrelation'sclothes,noryetaboneofhisbody。There'sthemthatcan'tandthatwon'thaveMagwitch-yes,Iknowthename!-aliveinthesamelandwiththem,andthat'shadsuchsureinformationofhimwhenhewasaliveinanotherland,asthathecouldn'tandshouldn'tleaveitunbeknownandputthemindanger。
  P'rapsit'sthemthatwritesfiftyhands,andthat'snotlikesneakingyouaswritesbutone。'WareCompeyson,Magwitch,andthegallows!'
  Heflaredthecandleatmeagain,smokingmyfaceandhair,andforaninstantblindingme,andturnedhispowerfulbackashereplacedthelightonthetable。Ihadthoughtaprayer,andhadbeenwithJoeandBiddyandHerbert,beforeheturnedtowardsmeagain。
  Therewasaclearspaceofafewfeetbetweenthetableandtheoppositewall。Withinthisspace,henowslouchedbackwardsandforwards。Hisgreatstrengthseemedtositstrongeruponhimthaneverbefore,ashedidthiswithhishandshanginglooseandheavyathissides,andwithhiseyesscowlingatme。Ihadnograinofhopeleft。Wildasmyinwardhurrywas,andwonderfultheforceofthepicturesthatrushedbymeinsteadofthoughts,IcouldyetclearlyunderstandthatunlesshehadresolvedthatIwaswithinafewmomentsofsurelyperishingoutofallhumanknowledge,hewouldneverhavetoldmewhathehadtold。
  Ofasudden,hestopped,tookthecorkoutofhisbottle,andtosseditaway。Lightasitwas,Ihearditfalllikeaplummet。Heswallowedslowly,tiltingupthebottlebylittleandlittle,andnowhelookedatmenomore。Thelastfewdropsofliquorhepouredintothepalmofhishand,andlickedup。Then,withasuddenhurryofviolenceandswearinghorribly,hethrewthebottlefromhim,andstooped;andIsawinhishandastone-hammerwithalongheavyhandle。
  TheresolutionIhadmadedidnotdesertme,for,withoututteringonevainwordofappealtohim,Ishoutedoutwithallmymight,andstruggledwithallmymight。ItwasonlymyheadandmylegsthatIcouldmove,buttothatextentIstruggledwithalltheforce,untilthenunknown,thatwaswithinme。InthesameinstantIheardresponsiveshouts,sawfiguresandagleamoflightdashinatthedoor,heardvoicesandtumult,andsawOrlickemergefromastruggleofmen,asifitweretumblingwater,clearthetableataleap,andflyoutintothenight。
  Afterablank,IfoundthatIwaslyingunbound,onthefloor,inthesameplace,withmyheadonsomeone'sknee。Myeyeswerefixedontheladderagainstthewall,whenIcametomyself-hadopenedonitbeforemymindsawit-andthusasIrecoveredconsciousness,IknewthatIwasintheplacewhereIhadlostit。
  Tooindifferentatfirst,eventolookroundandascertainwhosupportedme,Iwaslyinglookingattheladder,whentherecamebetweenmeandit,aface。ThefaceofTrabb'sboy!
  `Ithinkhe'sallright!'saidTrabb'sboy,inasobervoice;`butain'thejustpalethough!'
  Atthesewords,thefaceofhimwhosupportedmelookedoverintomine,andIsawmysupportertobe——
  `Herbert!GreatHeaven!'
  `Softly,'saidHerbert。`Gently,Handel。Don'tbetooeager。'
  `Andouroldcomrade,Startop!'Icried,ashetoobentoverme。
  `Rememberwhatheisgoingtoassistusin,'saidHerbert,`andbecalm。'
  Theallusionmademespringup;thoughIdroppedagainfromthepaininmyarm。`Thetimehasnotgoneby,Herbert,hasit?Whatnightisto-night?
  HowlonghaveIbeenhere?'For,IhadastrangeandstrongmisgivingthatIhadbeenlyingtherealongtime-adayandanight-twodaysandnights-more。
  `Thetimehasnotgoneby。ItisstillMondaynight。'
  `ThankGod!'
  `Andyouhaveallto-morrow,Tuesday,torestin,'saidHerbert。`Butyoucan'thelpgroaning,mydearHandel。Whathurthaveyougot?Canyoustand?'
  `Yes,yes,'saidI,`Icanwalk。Ihavenohurtbutinthisthrobbingarm。'
  Theylaiditbare,anddidwhattheycould。Itwasviolentlyswollenandinflamed,andIcouldscarcelyenduretohaveittouched。But,theytoreuptheirhandkerchiefstomakefreshbandages,andcarefullyreplaceditinthesling,untilwecouldgettothetownandobtainsomecoolinglotiontoputuponit。Inalittlewhilewehadshutthedoorofthedarkandemptysluice-house,andwerepassingthroughthequarryonourwayback。Trabb'sboy-Trabb'sovergrownyoungmannow-wentbeforeuswithalantern,whichwasthelightIhadseencomeinatthedoor。But,themoonwasagoodtwohourshigherthanwhenIhadlastseenthesky,andthenightthoughrainywasmuchlighter。Thewhitevapourofthekilnwaspassingfromusaswewentby,and,asIhadthoughtaprayerbefore,I
  thoughtathanksgivingnow。
  EntreatingHerberttotellmehowhehadcometomyrescue-whichatfirsthehadflatlyrefusedtodo,buthadinsistedonmyremainingquiet-IlearntthatIhadinmyhurrydroppedtheletter,open,inourchambers,wherehe,cominghometobringwithhimStartopwhomhehadmetinthestreetonhiswaytome,foundit,verysoonafterIwasgone。Itstonemadehimuneasy,andthemoresobecauseoftheinconsistencybetweenitandthehastyletterIhadleftforhim。Hisuneasinessincreasinginsteadofsubsidingafteraquarterofanhour'sconsideration,hesetoffforthecoach-office,withStartop,whovolunteeredhiscompany,tomakeinquirywhenthenextcoachwentdown。Findingthattheafternooncoachwasgone,andfindingthathisuneasinessgrewintopositivealarm,asobstaclescameinhisway,heresolvedtofollowinapost-chaise。So,heandStartoparrivedattheBlueBoar,fullyexpectingtheretofindme,ortidingsofme;but,findingneither,wentontoMissHavisham's,wheretheylostme。HereupontheywentbacktothehoteldoubtlessataboutthetimewhenIwashearingthepopularlocalversionofmyownstory,torefreshthemselvesandtogetsomeonetoguidethemoutuponthemarshes。AmongtheloungersundertheBoar'sarchway,happenedtobeTrabb'sboy-truetohisancienthabitofhappeningtobeeverywherewherehehadnobusiness-andTrabb'sboyhadseenmepassingfromMissHavisham'sinthedirectionofmydining-place。
  Thus,Trabb'sboybecametheirguide,andwithhimtheywentouttothesluice-house:thoughbythetownwaytothemarshes,whichIhadavoided。
  Now,astheywentalong,Herbertreflected,thatImight,afterall,havebeenbroughtthereonsomegenuineandserviceableerrandtendingtoProvis'ssafety,and,bethinkinghimselfthatinthatcaseinterruptionmustbemischievous,lefthisguideandStartopontheedgeofthequarry,andwentonbyhimself,andstoleroundthehousetwoorthreetimes,endeavouringtoascertainwhetherallwasrightwithin。Ashecouldhearnothingbutindistinctsoundsofonedeeproughvoicethiswaswhilemymindwassobusy,heevenatlastbegantodoubtwhetherIwasthere,whensuddenlyIcriedoutloudly,andheansweredthecries,andrushedin,closelyfollowedbytheothertwo。
  WhenItoldHerbertwhathadpassedwithinthehouse,hewasforourimmediatelygoingbeforeamagistrateinthetown,lateatnightasitwas,andgettingoutawarrant。But,Ihadalreadyconsideredthatsuchacourse,bydetainingusthere,orbindingustocomeback,mightbefataltoProvis。Therewasnogainsayingthisdifficulty,andwerelinquishedallthoughtsofpursuingOrlickatthattime。Forthepresent,underthecircumstances,wedeemeditprudenttomakeratherlightofthemattertoTrabb'sboy;whoIamconvincedwouldhavebeenmuchaffectedbydisappointment,ifhehadknownthathisinterventionsavedmefromthelimekiln。NotthatTrabb'sboywasofamalignantnature,butthathehadtoomuchsparevivacity,andthatitwasinhisconstitutiontowantvarietyandexcitementatanybody'sexpense。Whenweparted,Ipresentedhimwithtwoguineaswhichseemedtomeethisviews,andtoldhimthatIwassorryevertohavehadanillopinionofhimwhichmadenoimpressiononhimatall。
  Wednesdaybeingsocloseuponus,wedeterminedtogobacktoLondonthatnight,threeinthepost-chaise;therather,asweshouldthenbeclearaway,beforethenight'sadventurebegantobetalkedof。Herbertgotalargebottleofstuffformyarm,andbydintofhavingthisstuffdroppedoveritallthenightthrough,Iwasjustabletobearitspainonthejourney。ItwasdaylightwhenwereachedtheTemple,andIwentatoncetobed,andlayinbedallday。
  Myterror,asIlaythere,offallingillandbeingunfittedfortomorrow,wassobesetting,thatIwonderitdidnotdisablemeofitself。Itwouldhavedoneso,prettysurely,inconjunctionwiththementalwearandtearIhadsuffered,butfortheunnaturalstrainuponmethatto-morrowwas。
  Soanxiouslylookedforwardto,chargedwithsuchconsequences,itsresultssoimpenetrablyhiddenthoughsonear。
  Noprecautioncouldhavebeenmoreobviousthanourrefrainingfromcommunicationwithhimthatday;yetthisagainincreasedmyrestlessness。
  Istartedateveryfootstepandeverysound,believingthathewasdiscoveredandtaken,andthiswasthemessengertotellmeso。IpersuadedmyselfthatIknewhewastaken;thattherewassomethingmoreuponmymindthanafearorapresentiment;thatthefacthadoccurred,andIhadamysteriousknowledgeofit。Asthedayworeonandnoillnewscame,asthedayclosedinanddarknessfell,myovershadowingdreadofbeingdisabledbyillnessbeforeto-morrowmorning,altogethermasteredme。Myburningarmthrobbed,andmyburningheadthrobbed,andIfanciedIwasbeginningtowander。
  Icounteduptohighnumbers,tomakesureofmyself,andrepeatedpassagesthatIknewinproseandverse。Ithappenedsometimesthatinthemereescapeofafatiguedmind,Idozedforsomemomentsorforgot;thenIwouldsaytomyselfwithastart,`Nowithascome,andIamturningdelirious!'
  Theykeptmeveryquietallday,andkeptmyarmconstantlydressed,andgavemecoolingdrinks。WheneverIfellasleep,IawokewiththenotionIhadhadinthesluice-house,thatalongtimehadelapsedandtheopportunitytosavehimwasgone。AboutmidnightIgotoutofbedandwenttoHerbert,withtheconvictionthatIhadbeenasleepforfour-and-twentyhours,andthatWednesdaywaspast。Itwasthelastself-exhaustingeffortofmyfretfulness,for,afterthat,Isleptsoundly。
  WednesdaymorningwasdawningwhenIlookedoutofwindow。Thewinkinglightsuponthebridgeswerealreadypale,thecomingsunwaslikeamarshoffireonthehorizon。Theriver,stilldarkandmysterious,wasspannedbybridgesthatwereturningcoldlygrey,withhereandthereattopawarmtouchfromtheburninginthesky。AsIlookedalongtheclusteredroofs,withChurchtowersandspiresshootingintotheunusuallyclearair,thesunroseup,andaveilseemedtobedrawnfromtheriver,andmillionsofsparklesburstoutuponitswaters。Frommetoo,aveilseemedtobedrawn,andIfeltstrongandwell。
  Herbertlayasleepinhisbed,andouroldfellow-studentlayasleeponthesofa。Icouldnotdressmyselfwithouthelp,butImadeupthefire,whichwasstillburning,andgotsomecoffeereadyforthem。Ingoodtimetheytoostartedupstrongandwell,andweadmittedthesharpmorningairatthewindows,andlookedatthetidethatwasstillflowingtowardsus。
  `Whenitturnsatnineo'clock,'saidHerbert,cheerfully,`lookoutforus,andstandready,youoverthereatMillPondBank!'
  Chapter54
  ITwasoneofthoseMarchdayswhenthesunshineshotandthewindblowscold:whenitissummerinthelight,andwinterintheshade。Wehadoutpea-coatswithus,andItookabag。OfallmyworldlypossessionsItooknomorethanthefewnecessariesthatfilledthebag。WhereImightgo,whatImightdo,orwhenImightreturn,werequestionsutterlyunknowntome;nordidIvexmymindwiththem,foritwaswhollysetonProvis'ssafety。Ionlywonderedforthepassingmoment,asIstoppedatthedoorandlookedback,underwhatalteredcircumstancesIshouldnextseethoserooms,ifever。
  WeloitereddowntotheTemplestairs,andstoodloiteringthere,asifwewerenotquitedecidedtogouponthewateratall。OfcourseIhadtakencarethattheboatshouldbereadyandeverythinginorder。Afteralittleshowofindecision,whichtherewerenonetoseebutthetwoorthreeamphibiouscreaturesbelongingtoourTemplestairs,wewentonboardandcastoff;Herbertinthebow,Isteering。Itwasthenabouthigh-water-half-pasteight。
  Ourplanwasthis。Thetide,beginningtorundownatnine,andbeingwithusuntilthree,weintendedstilltocreeponafterithadturned,androwagainstituntildark。WeshouldthenbewellinthoselongreachesbelowGravesend,betweenKentandEssex,wheretheriverisbroadandsolitary,wherethewatersideinhabitantsareveryfew,andwherelonepublic-housesarescatteredhereandthere,ofwhichwecouldchooseoneforaresting-place。
  There,wemeanttolieby,allnight。ThesteamerforHamburg,andthesteamerforRotterdam,wouldstartfromLondonataboutnineonThursdaymorning。Weshouldknowatwhattimetoexpectthem,accordingtowherewewere,andwouldhailthefirst;sothatifbyanyaccidentwewerenottakenabroad,weshouldhaveanotherchance。Weknewthedistinguishingmarksofeachvessel。
  Thereliefofbeingatlastengagedintheexecutionofthepurpose,wassogreattomethatIfeltitdifficulttorealizetheconditioninwhichIhadbeenafewhoursbefore。Thecrispair,thesunlight,themovementontheriver,andthemovingriveritself-theroadthatranwithus,seemingtosympathizewithus,animateus,andencourageuson-freshenedmewithnewhope。Ifeltmortifiedtobeofsolittleuseintheboat;
  but,therewerefewbetteroarsmenthanmytwofriends,andtheyrowedwithasteadystrokethatwastolastallday。
  Atthattime,thesteam-trafficontheThameswasfarbelowitspresentextent,andwatermen'sboatswerefarmorenumerous。Ofbarges,sailingcolliers,andcoastingtraders,therewereperhapsasmanyasnow;but,ofsteam-ships,greatandsmall,notatitheoratwentiethpartsomany。
  Earlyasitwas,therewereplentyofscullersgoinghereandtherethatmorning,andplentyofbargesdroppingdownwiththetide;thenavigationoftheriverbetweenbridges,inanopenboat,wasamucheasierandcommonermatterinthosedaysthanitisinthese;andwewentaheadamongmanyskiffsandwherries,briskly。
  OldLondonBridgewassoonpassed,andoldBillingsgatemarketwithitsoyster-boatsandDutchmen,andtheWhiteTowerandTraitor'sGate,andwewereinamongthetiersofshipping。Here,weretheLeith,Aberdeen,andGlasgowsteamers,loadingandunloadinggoods,andlookingimmenselyhighoutofthewateraswepassedalongside;here,werecolliersbythescoreandscore,withthecoal-whippersplungingoffstagesondeck,ascounterweightstomeasuresofcoalswingingup,whichwerethenrattledoverthesideintobarges;here,athermooringswasto-morrow'ssteamerforRotterdam,ofwhichwetookgoodnotice;andhereto-morrow'sforHamburg,underwhosebowspritwecrossed。AndnowI,sittinginthestern,couldseewithafasterbeatingheart,MillPondBankandMillPondstairs。
  `Ishethere?'saidHerbert。
  `Notyet。'
  `Right!Hewasnottocomedowntillhesawus。Canyouseehissignal?'
  `Notwellfromhere;butIthinkIseeit-Now,Iseehim!Pullboth。
  Easy,Herbert。Oars!'
  Wetouchedthestairslightlyforasinglemoment,andhewasonboardandwewereoffagain。Hehadaboat-cloakwithhim,andablackcanvasbag,andhelookedaslikeariver-pilotasmyheartcouldhavewished。
  `Dearboy!'hesaid,puttinghisarmonmyshoulderashetookhisseat。
  `Faithfuldearboy,welldone。Thankye,thankye!'
  Againamongthetiersofshipping,inandout,avoidingrustychain-cablesfrayedhempenhawsersandbobbingbuoys,sinkingforthemomentfloatingbrokenbaskets,scatteringfloatingchipsofwoodandshaving,cleavingfloatingscumofcoal,inandout,underthefigure-headoftheJohnofSunderlandmakingaspeechtothewindsasisdonebymanyJohns,andtheBetsyofYarmouthwithafirmformalityofbosomandhernobbyeyesstartingtwoinchesoutofherhead,inandout,hammersgoinginshipbuilders'yards,sawsgoingattimber,clashingenginesgoingatthingsunknown,pumpsgoinginleakyships,capstansgoing,shipsgoingouttosea,andunintelligiblesea-creaturesroaringcursesoverthebulwarksatrespondentlightermen,inandout-outatlastupontheclearerriver,wheretheships'boysmighttaketheirfendersin,nolongerfishingintroubledwaterswiththemovertheside,andwherethefestoonedsailsmightflyouttothewind。
  AttheStairswherewehadtakenhimabroad,andeversince,Ihadlookedwarilyforanytokenofourbeingsuspected。Ihadseennone。Wecertainlyhadnotbeen,andatthattimeascertainlywewerenot,eitherattendedorfollowedbyanyboat。Ifwehadbeenwaitedonbyanyboat,Ishouldhaverunintoshore,andhaveobligedhertogoon,ortomakeherpurposeevident。But,weheldourown,withoutanyappearanceofmolestation。
  Hehadhisboat-cloakonhim,andlooked,asIhavesaid,anaturalpartofthescene。Itwasremarkablebutperhapsthewretchedlifehehadled,accountedforit,thathewastheleastanxiousofanyofus。
  Hewasnoindifferent,forhetoldmethathehopedtolivetoseehisgentlemanoneofthebestofgentlemeninaforeigncountry;hewasnotdisposedtobepassiveorresigned,asIunderstoodit;buthehadnonotionofmeetingdangerhalfway。Whenitcameuponhim,heconfrontedit,butitmustcomebeforehetroubledhimself。
  `Ifyouknowed,dearboy,'hesaidtome,`whatitistositherealongermydearboyandhavemysmoke,arterhavingbeendaybydaybetwixtfourwalls,you'denvyme。Butyoudon'tknowwhatitis。'
  `IthinkIknowthedelightsoffreedom,'Ianswered。
  `Ah,'saidhe,shakinghisheadgravely。`Butyoudon'tknowitequaltome。Youmusthavebeenunderlockandkey,dearboy,toknowitequaltome-butIain'tagoingtobelow。'
  Itoccurredtomeasinconsistent,thatforanymasteringidea,heshouldhaveendangeredhisfreedomandevenhislife。ButIreflectedthatperhapsfreedomwithoutdangerwastoomuchapartfromallthehabitofhisexistencetobetohimwhatitwouldbetoanotherman。Iwasnotfarout,sincehesaid,aftersmokingalittle:
  `Yousee,dearboy,whenIwasoveryonder,t'othersidetheworld,Iwasalwaysalookingtothisside;anditcomeflattobethere,forallIwasagrowingrich。EverybodyknowedMagwitch,andMagwitchcouldcome,andMagwitchcouldgo,andnobody'sheadwouldbetroubledabouthim。Theyain'tsoeasyconcerningmehere,dearboy-wouldn'tbe,leastwise,iftheyknowedwhereIwas。'
  `Ifallgoeswell,'saidI,`youwillbeperfectlyfreeandsafeagain,withinafewhours。'
  `Well,'hereturned,drawingalongbreath,`Ihopeso。'
  `Andthinkso?'
  Hedippedhishandinthewaterovertheboat'sgunwale,andsaid,smilingwiththatsoftenedairuponhimwhichwasnotnewtome:
  `Ay,Is'poseIthinkso,dearboy。We'dbepuzzledtobemorequietandeasy-goingthanweareatpresent。But-it'saflowingsosoftandpleasantthroughthewater,p'raps,asmakesmethinkit-Iwasathinkingthroughmysmokejustthen,thatwecannomoreseetothebottomofthenextfewhours,thanwecanseetothebottomofthisriverwhatIcatchesholdof。Noryetwecan'tnomoreholdtheirtidethanIcanholdthis。
  Andit'srunthroughmyfingersandgone,yousee!'holdinguphisdrippinghand。
  `Butforyourface,Ishouldthinkyouwerealittledespondent,'saidI。
  `Notabitonit,dearboy!Itcomesofflowingonsoquiet,andofthatthereripplingattheboat'sheadmakingasortofaSundaytune。
  MaybeI'magrowingatrifleoldbesides。'
  Heputhispipebackinhismouthwithanundisturbedexpressionofface,andsatascomposedandcontentedasifwewerealreadyoutofEngland。
  Yethewasassubmissivetoawordofadviceasifhehadbeeninconstantterror,for,whenweranashoretogetsomebottlesofbeerintotheboat,andhewassteppingout,IhintedthatIthoughthewouldbesafestwherehewas,andhesaid。`Doyou,dearboy?'andquietlysatdownagain。
  Theairfeltcoldupontheriver,butitwasabrightday,andthesunshinewasverycheering。Thetideranstrong,Itookcaretolosenoneofit,andoursteadystrokecarriedusonthoroughlywell。Byimperceptibledegrees,asthetideranout,welostmoreandmoreofthenearerwoodsandhills,anddroppedlowerandlowerbetweenthemuddybanks,butthetidewasyetwithuswhenwewereoffGravesend。Asourchargewaswrappedinhiscloak,Ipurposelypassedwithinaboatortwo'slengthofthefloatingCustomHouse,andsoouttocatchthestream,alongsideoftwoemigrantships,andunderthebowsofalargetransportwithtroopsontheforecastlelookingdownatus。Andsoonthetidebegantoslacken,andthecraftlyingatanchortoswing,andpresentlytheyhadallswunground,andtheshipsthatweretakingadvantageofthenewtidetogetuptothePool,begantocrowduponusinafleet,andwekeptundertheshore,asmuchoutofthestrengthofthetidenowaswecould,standingcarefullyofffromlowshallowsandmudbanks。
  Ouroarsmenweresofresh,bydintofhavingoccasionallyletherdrivewiththetideforaminuteortwo,thataquarterofanhour'srestprovedfullasmuchastheywanted。Wegotashoreamongsomeslipperystoneswhileweateanddrankwhatwehadwithus,andlookedabout。Itwaslikemyownmarshcountry,flatandmonotonous,andwithadimhorizon;whilethewindingriverturnedandturned,andthegreatfloatingbuoysuponitturnedandturned,andeverythingelseseemedstrandedandstill。For,now,thelastofthefleetofshipswasroundthelastlowpointwehadheaded;
  andthelastgreenbarge,straw-laden,withabrownsail,hadfollowed;
  andsomeballast-lighters,shapedlikeachild'sfirstrudeimitationofaboat,laylowinthemud;andalittlesquatshoal-lighthouseonopenpiles,stoodcrippledinthemudonstiltsandcrutches;andslimystakesstuckoutofthemud,andslimystonesstuckoutofthemud,andredlandmarksandtidemarksstuckoutofthemud,andanoldlanding-stageanoldrooflessbuildingslippedintothemud,andallaboutuswasstagnationandmud。
  Wepushedoffagain,andmadewhatwaywecould。Itwasmuchharderworknow,butHerbertandStartoppersevered,androwed,androwed,androwed,untilthesunwentdown。Bythattimetheriverhasliftedusalittle,sothatwecouldseeabovethebank。Therewastheredsun,onthelowleveloftheshore,inapurplehaze,fastdeepeningintoblack;
  andtherewasthesolitaryflatmarsh;andfarawaythereweretherisinggrounds,betweenwhichandusthereseemedtobenolife,savehereandthereintheforegroundamelancholygull。
  Asthenightwasfastfalling,andasthemoon,beingpastthefull,wouldnotriseearly,weheldalittlecouncil:ashortone,forclearlyourcoursewastoliebyatthefirstlonelytavernwecouldfind。So,theypliedtheiroarsoncemore,andIlookedoutforanythinglikeahouse。
  Thusweheldon,speakinglittle,forfourorfivedullmiles。Itwasverycold,and,acolliercomingbyus,withhergalley-firesmokingandflaring,lookedlikeacomfortablehome。Thenightwasasdarkbythistimeasitwouldbeuntilmorning;andwhatlightwehad,seemedtocomemorefromtheriverthanthesky,astheoarsintheirdippingstruckasafewreflectedstars。Atthisdismaltimewewereevidentlyallpossessedbytheideathatwewerefollowed。Asthetidemade,itflappedheavilyatirregularintervalsagainsttheshore;andwheneversuchasoundcame,oneorotherofuswassuretostartandlookinthatdirection。Hereandthere,thesetofthecurrenthadworndownthebankintoalittlecreek,andwewereallsuspiciousofsuchplaces,andeyedthemnervously。Sometimes,`Whatwasthatripple?'oneofuswouldsayinalowvoice。Oranother,`Isthataboatyonder?'Andafterwards,wewouldfallintoadeadsilence,andIwouldsitimpatientlythinkingwithwhatanunusualamountofnoisetheoarsworkedinthethowels。
  Atlengthwedescriedalightandaroof,andpresentlyafterwardsranalongsidealittlecausewaymadeofstonesthathadbeenpickeduphardby。Leavingtherestintheboat,Isteppedashore,andfoundthelighttobeinawindowofapublic-house。Itwasadirtyplaceenough,andI
  daresaynotunknowntosmugglingadventurers;buttherewasagoodfireinthekitchen,andtherewereeggsandbacontoeat,andvariousliquorstodrink。Also,thereweretwodouble-beddedrooms-`suchastheywere,'
  thelandlordsaid。Noothercompanywasinthehousethanthelandlord,hiswife,andagrizzledmalecreature,the`Jack'ofthelittlecauseway,whowasasslimyandsmearyasifhehadbeenlow-watermarktoo。
  Withthisassistant,Iwentdowntotheboatagain,andweallcameashore,andbroughtouttheoars,andrudder,andboat-hook,andallelse,andhauledherupforthenight。Wemadeaverygoodmealbythekitchenfire,andthenapportionedthebedrooms:HerbertandStartopweretooccupyone;Iandourchargetheother。Wefoundtheairascarefullyexcludedfromboth,asifairwerefataltolife;andthereweremoredirtyclothesandbandboxesunderthebedsthanIshouldhavethoughtthefamilypossessed。
  But,weconsideredourselveswelloff,notwithstanding,foramoresolitaryplacewecouldnothavefound。
  Whilewewerecomfortingourselvesbythefireafterourmeal,theJack-whowassittinginacorner,andwhohadabloatedpairofshoeson,whichhehadexhibitedwhilewewereeatingoureggsandbacon,asinterestingrelicsthathehadtakenafewdaysagofromthefeetofadrownedseamanwashedashore-askedmeifwehadseenafour-oaredgalleygoingupwiththetide?WhenItoldhimNo,hesaidshemusthavegonedownthen,andyetshe`tookuptoo,'whensheleftthere。
  `Theymustha'thoughtbetteron'tforsomereasonoranother,'saidtheJack,`andgonedown。'
  `Afour-oaredgalley,didyousay?'saidI。
  `Afour,'saidtheJack,`andtwositters。'
  `Didtheycomeashorehere?'
  `Theyputinwithastonetwo-gallonjar,forsomebeer。I'dha'beengladtopisonthebeermyself,'saidtheJack,`orputsomerattlingphysicinit。'
  `Why?'
  `Iknowwhy,'saidtheJack。Hespokeinaslushyvoice,asifmuchmudhadwashedintohisthroat。
  `Hethinks,'saidthelandlord:aweaklymeditativemanwithapaleeye,whoseemedtorelygreatlyonhisJack:`hethinkstheywas,whattheywasn't。'
  `IknowswhatIthinks,'observedtheJack。
  `YouthinksCustum'Us,Jack?'saidthelandlord。
  `Ido,'saidtheJack。
  `Thenyou'rewrong,Jack。'
  `AMI!'
  Intheinfinitemeaningofhisreplyandhisboundlessconfidenceinhisviews,theJacktookoneofhisbloatedshoesoff,lookedintoit,knockedafewstonesoutofitonthekitchenfloor,andputitonagain。
  HedidthiswiththeairofaJackwhowassorightthathecouldaffordtodoanything。
  `Why,whatdoyoumakeoutthattheydonewiththeirbuttonsthen,Jack?'
  askedthelandlord,vacillatingweakly。
  `Donewiththeirbuttons?'returnedtheJack。`Chucked'emoverboard。
  Swallered'em。Sowed'em,tocomeupsmallsalad。Donewiththeirbuttons!'
  `Don'tbecheeky,Jack,'remonstratedthelandlord,inamelancholyandpatheticway。
  `ACustum'UsofficerknowswhattodowithhisButtons,'saidtheJack,repeatingtheobnoxiouswordwiththegreatestcontempt,`whentheycomesbetwixthimandhisownlight。AFourandtwosittersdon'tgohangingandhovering,upwithonetideanddownwithanother,andbothwithandagainstanother,withouttherebeingCustum'Usatthebottomofit。'Sayingwhichhewentoutindisdain;andthelandlord,havingnoonetoreplyupon,founditimpracticabletopursuethesubject。
  Thisdialoguemadeusalluneasy,andmeveryuneasy。Thedismalwindwasmutteringroundthehouse,thetidewasflappingattheshore,andIhadafeelingthatwewerecagedandthreatened。Afour-oaredgalleyhoveringaboutinsounusualawayastoattractthisnotice,wasanuglycircumstancethatIcouldnotgetridof。WhenIhadinducedProvistogouptobed,IwentoutsidewithmytwocompanionsStarlopbythistimeknewthestateofthecase,andheldanothercouncil。Whetherweshouldremainatthehouseuntilnearthesteamer'stime,whichwouldbeaboutoneintheafternoon;orwhetherweshouldputoffearlyinthemorning;
  wasthequestionwediscussed。Onthewholewedeemeditthebettercoursetoliewherewewere,untilwithinanhourorsoofthesteamer'stime,andthentogetoutinhertrack,anddrifteasilywiththetide。Havingsettledtodothis,wereturnedintothehouseandwenttobed。
  Ilaydownwiththegreaterpartofmyclotheson,andsleptwellforafewhours。WhenIawoke,thewindhadrisen,andthesignofthehousetheShipwascreakingandbangingabout,withnoisesthatstartledme。
  Risingsoftly,formychargelayfastasleep,Ilookedoutofthewindow。
  Itcommandedthecausewaywherewehadhauledupourboat,and,asmyeyesadaptedthemselvestothelightofthecloudedmoon,Isawtwomenlookingintoher。Theypassedbyunderthewindow,lookingatnothingelse,andtheydidnotgodowntothelanding-placewhichIcoulddiscerntobeempty,butstruckacrossthemarshinthedirectionoftheNore。
  MyfirstimpulsewastocallupHerbert,andshowhimthetwomengoingaway。But,reflectingbeforeIgotintohisroom,whichwasatthebackofthehouseandadjoinedmine,thatheandStartophadhadaharderdaythanI,andwerefatigued,Iforbore。Goingbacktomywindow,Icouldseethetwomenmovingoverthemarsh。Inthatlight,however,Isoonlostthem,andfeelingverycold,laydowntothinkofthematter,andfellasleepagain。
  Wewereupearly。Aswewalkedtoandfro,allfourtogether,beforebreakfast,IdeemeditrighttorecountwhatIhadseen。Againourchargewastheleastanxiousoftheparty。ItwasverylikelythatthemenbelongedtotheCustomHouse,hesaidquietly,andthattheyhadnothoughtofus。
  Itriedtopersuademyselfthatitwasso-as,indeed,itmighteasilybe。However,IproposedthatheandIshouldwalkawaytogethertoadistantpointwecouldsee,andthattheboatshouldtakeusaboradthere,orasnearthereasmightprovefeasible,ataboutnoon。Thisbeingconsideredagoodprecaution,soonafterbreakfastheandIsetforth,withoutsayinganythingatthetavern。
  Hesmokedhispipeaswewentalong,andsometimesstoppedtoclapmeontheshoulder。OnewouldhavesupposedthatitwasIwhowasindanger,nothe,andthathewasreassuringme。Wespokeverylittle。Asweapproachedthepoint,Ibeggedhimtoremaininashelteredplace,whileIwentontoreconnoitre;for,itwastowardsitthatthemenhadpassedinthenight。
  Hecomplied,andIwentonalone。Therewasnoboatoffthepoint,noranyboatdrawnupanywherenearit,norwerethereanysignsofthemenhavingembarkedthere。But,tobesurethetidewashigh,andtheremighthavebeensomefootpintsunderwater。
  Whenhelookedoutfromhisshelterinthedistance,andsawthatI
  wavedmyhattohimtocomeup,herejoinedme,andtherewewaited;sometimeslyingonthebankwrappedinourcoats,andsometimesmovingabouttowarmourselves:untilwesawourboatcominground。Wegotaboradeasily,androwedoutintothetrackofthesteamer。Bythattimeitwantedbuttenminutesofoneo'clock,andwebegantolookoutforhersmoke。
  But,itwashalf-pastonebeforewesawhersmoke,andsoonafterwardswesawbehinditthesmokeofanothersteamer。Astheywerecomingonatfullspeed,wegotthetwobagsready,andtookthatopportunityofsayinggood-byetoHerbertandStartop。Wehadallshakenhandscordially,andneitherHerbert'seyesnorminewerequitedry,whenIsawafour-oaredgalleyshootoutfromunderthebankbutalittlewayaheadofus,androwoutintothesametrack。
  Astretchofshorehadbeenasyetbetweenusandthesteamer'ssmoke,byreasonofthebendandwindoftheriver;butnowshewasvisible,comingheadon。IcalledtoHerbertandStartoptokeepbeforethetide,thatshemightseeuslyingbyforher,andIadjuredProvistositquitestill,wrappedinhiscloak。Heansweredcheerily,`Trusttome,dearboy,'andsatlikeastatue。Meantimethegalley,whichwasveryskilfullyhandled,hadcrossedus,letuscomeupwithher,andfallenalongside。Leavingjustroomenoughfortheplayoftheoars,shekeptalongside,driftingwhenwedrifted,andpullingastrokeortwowhenwepulled。Ofthetwosittersoneheldtherudderlines,andlookedatusattentively-asdidalltherowers;theothersitterwaswrappedup,muchasProviswas,andseemedtoshrink,andwhispersomeinstructiontothesteererashelookedatus。Notawordwasspokenineitherboat。
  Startopcouldmakeout,afterafewminutes,whichsteamerwasfirst,andgavemetheword`Hamburg,'inalowvoiceaswesatfacetoface。
  Shewasnearingusveryfast,andthebeatingofherpeddlesgrewlouderandlouder。Ifeltasifhershadowwereabsolutelyuponus,whenthegalleyhailedus。Ianswered。
  `YouhaveareturnedTransportthere,'saidthemanwhoheldthelines。
  `That'stheman,wrappedinthecloak。HisnameisAbelMagwitch,otherwiseProvis。Iapprehendthatman,andcalluponhimtosurrender,andyoutoassist。'
  Atthesamemoment,withoutgivinganyaudibledirectiontohiscrew,heranthegalleyabroadofus。Theyhadpulledonesuddenstrokeahead,hadgottheiroarsin,hadrunathwartus,andwereholdingontoourgunwale,beforeweknewwhattheyweredoing。Thiscausedgreatconfusiononboardthesteamer,andIheardthemcallingtous,andheardtheordergiventostopthepaddles,andheardthemstop,butfeltherdrivingdownuponusirresistibly。Inthesamemoment,Isawthesteersmanofthegalleylayhishandonhisprisoner'sshoulder,andsawthatbothboatswereswingingroundwiththeforceofthetide,andsawthatallhandsonboardthesteamerwererunningforwardquitefrantically。Stillinthesamemoment,Isawtheprisonerstartup,leanacrosshiscaptor,andpullthecloakfromtheneckoftheshrinkingsitterinthegalley。Stillinthesamemoment,Isawthatthefacedisclosed,wasthefaceoftheotherconvictoflongago。Stillinthesamemoment,IsawthefacetiltbackwardwithawhiteterroronitthatIshallneverforget,andheardagreatcryonboardthesteamerandaloudsplashinthewater,andfelttheboatsinkfromunderme。
  ItwasbutforaninstantthatIseemedtostrugglewithathousandmill-weirsandathousandflashesoflight;thatinstantpast,Iwastakenonboardthegalley。Herbertwasthere,andStartopwasthere;butourboatwasgone,andthetwoconvictsweregone。
  Whatwiththecriesabroadthesteamer,andthefuriousblowingoffofhersteam,andherdrivingon,andourdrivingon,Icouldnotatfirstdistinguishskyfromwaterorshorefromshore;but,thecrewofthegalleyrightedherwithgreatspeed,and,pullingcertainswiftstrongstrokesahead,layupontheiroars,everymanlookingsilentlyandeagerlyatthewaterastern。Presentlyadarkobjectwasseeninit,bearingtowardsusonthetide。Nomanspoke,butthesteersmanhelduphishand,andallsoftlybackedwater,andkepttheboatstraightandtruebeforeit。Asitcamenearer,IsawittobeMagwitch,swimming,butnotswimmingfreely。
  Hewastakenonboard,andinstantlymanacledatthewristsandankles。
  Thegalleywaskeptsteady,andthesilenteagerlook-outatthewaterwasresumed。But,theRotterdamsteamernowcameup,andapparentlynotunderstandingwhathadhappened,cameonatspeed。Bythetimeshehadbeenhailedandstopped,bothsteamersweredriftingawayfromus,andwewererisingandfallinginatroubledwakeofwater。Thelook-outwaskept,longafterallwasstillagainandthetwosteamersweregone;but,everybodyknewthatitwashopelessnow。
  Atlengthwegaveitup,andpulledundertheshoretowardsthetavernwehadlatelyleft,wherewewerereceivedwithnolittlesurprise。Here,IwasabletogetsomecomfortsforMagwitch-Provisnolonger-whohadreceivedsomeverysevereinjuryinthechestandadeepcutinthehead。
  Hetoldmethathebelievedhimselftohavegoneunderthekeelofthesteamer,andtohavebeenstruckontheheadinrising。Theinjurytohischestwhichrenderedhisbreathingextremelypainfulhethoughthehadreceivedagainstthesideofthegalley。HeaddedthathedidnotpretendtosaywhathemightormightnothavedonetoCompeyson,but,thatinthemomentofhislayinghishandonhiscloaktoidentifyhim,thatvillainhadstaggeredupandstaggeredback,andtheyhadbothgoneoverboardtogether;
  whenthesuddenwrenchingofhimMagwitchoutofourboat,andtheendeavourofhiscaptortokeephiminit,hadcapsizedus。Hetoldmeinawhisperthattheyhadgonedown,fiercelylockedineachother'sarms,andthattherehadbeenastruggleunderwater,andthathehaddisengagedhimself,struckout,andswumaway。
  Ineverhadanyreasontodoubttheexacttruthofwhathethustoldme。Theofficerwhosteeredthegalleygavethesameaccountoftheirgoingoverboard。
  WhenIaskedthisofficer'spermissiontochangetheprisoner'swetclothesbypurchasinganysparegarmentsIcouldgetatthepublic-house,hegaveitreadily:merelyobservingthathemusttakechargeofeverythinghisprisonerhadabouthim。Sothepocketbookwhichhadoncebeeninmyhands,passedintotheofficer's。HefurthergavemeleavetoaccompanytheprisonertoLondon;but,declinedtoaccordthatgracetomytwofriends。
  TheJackattheShipwasinstructedwherethedrownedmanhadgonedown,andundertooktosearchforthebodyintheplaceswhereitwaslikeliesttocomeashore。Hisinterestinitsrecoveryseemedtometobemuchheightenedwhenheheardthatithadstockingson。Probably,ittookaboutadozendrownedmentofithimoutcompletely;andthatmayhavebeenthereasonwhythedifferentarticlesofhisdresswereinvariousstagesofdecay。
  Weremainedatthepublic-houseuntilthetideturned,andthenMagwitchwascarrieddowntothegalleyandputonboard。HerbertandStartopweretogettoLondonbyland,assoonastheycould。Wehadadolefulparting,andwhenItookmyplacebyMagwitch'sside,Ifeltthatthatwasmyplacehenceforthwhilehelived。
  Fornow,myrepugnancetohimhadallmeltedaway,andinthehuntedwoundedshackledcreaturewhoheldmyhandinhis,Ionlysawamanwhohadmeanttobemybenefactor,andwhohadfeltaffectionately,gratefully,andgenerously,towardsmewithgreatconstancythroughaseriesofyears。
  IonlysawinhimamuchbettermanthanIhadbeentoJoe。
  Hisbreathingbecamemoredifficultandpainfulasthenightdrewon,andoftenhecouldnotrepressagroan。ItriedtoresthimonthearmIcoulduse,inanyeasyposition;but,itwasdreadfultothinkthatI
  couldnotbesorryatheartforhisbeingbadlyhurt,sinceitwasunquestionablybestthatheshoulddie。Thattherewere,stillliving,peopleenoughwhowereableandwillingtoidentifyhim,Icouldnotdoubt。Thathewouldbelenientlytreated,Icouldnothope。Hewhohadbeenpresentedintheworstlightathistrial,whohadsincebrokenprisonandhadbeentriedagain,whohadreturnedfromtransportationunderalifesentence,andwhohadoccasionedthedeathofthemanwhowasthecauseofhisarrest。
  Aswereturnedtowardsthesettingsunwehadyesterdayleftbehindus,andasthestreamofourhopesseemedallrunningback,ItoldhimhowgrievedIwastothinkthathehadcomehomeformysake。
  `Dearboy,'heanswered,`I'mquitecontenttotakemychance。I'veseenmyboy,andhecanbeagentlemanwithoutme。'
  No。Ihadthoughtaboutthat,whilewehadbeentheresidebyside。
  No。Apartfromanyinclinationsofmyown,IunderstoodWemmick'shintnow。Iforesawthat,beingconvicted,hispossessionswouldbeforfeitedtotheCrown。
  `Lookeehere,dearboy,'saidhe`It'sbestasagentlemanshouldnotbeknowedtobelongtomenow。OnlycometoseemeasifyoucomebychancealongerWemmick。SitwhereIcanseeyouwhenIamsworeto,forthelasto'manytimes,andIdon'tasknomore。'
  `Iwillneverstirfromyourside,'saidI,`whenIamsufferedtobenearyou。PleaseGod,Iwillbeastruetoyou,asyouhavebeentome!'
  Ifelthishandtrembleasitheldmine,andheturnedhisfaceawayashelayinthebottomoftheboat,andIheardthatoldsoundinhisthroat-softenednow,likealltherestofhim。Itwasagoodthingthathehadtouchedthispoint,foritputintomymindwhatImightnototherwisehavethoughtofuntiltoolate:Thatheneedneverknowhowhishopesofenrichingmehadperished。