But,therewasrecompenseinthejoywithwhichHerbertwouldcomehomeofanightandtellmeofthesechanges,littleimaginingthathetoldmenonews,andwouldsketchairypicturesofhimselfconductingClaraBarleytothelandoftheArabianNights,andofmegoingouttojointhemwithacaravanofcamels,Ibelieve,andofourallgoinguptheNileandseeingwonders。Withoutbeingsanguineastomyownpartinthesebrightplans,IfeltthatHerbert'swaywasclearingfast,andthatoldBillBarleyhadbuttosticktohispepperandrum,andhisdaughterwouldsoonbehappilyprovidedfor。
WehadnowgotintothemonthofMarch。Myleftarm,thoughitpresentednobadsymptoms,tookinthenaturalcoursesolongtohealthatIwasstillunabletogetacoaton。Myrightarmwastolerablyrestored;-disfigured,butfairlyserviceable。
OnaMondaymorning,whenHerbertandIwereatbreakfast,IreceivedthefollowingletterfromWemmickbythepost。
`Walworth。Burnthisassoonasread。Earlyintheweek,orsayWednesday,youmightdowhatyouknowof,ifyoufeltdisposedtotryit。Nowburn。'
WhenIhadshownthistoHerbertandhadputitinthefire-butnotbeforewehadbothgotitbyheart-weconsideredwhattodo。For,ofcoursemybeingdisabledcouldnowbenolongerkeptoutofview。
`Ihavethoughtitover,againandagain,'saidHerbert,`andIthinkIknowabettercoursethantakingaThameswaterman。TakeStartop。Agoodfellow,askilledhand,fondofus,andenthusiasticandhonourable。'
Ihadthoughtofhim,morethanonce。
`Buthowmuchwouldyoutellhim,Herbert?'
`Itisnecessarytotellhimverylittle。Lethimsupposeitamerefreak,butasecretone,untilthemorningcomes:thenlethimknowthatthereisurgentreasonforyourgettingProvisabroadandaway。Yougowithhim?'
`Nodoubt。'
`Where?'
Ithadseemedtome,inthemanyanxiousconsiderationsIhadgiventhepoint,almostindifferentwhatportwemadefor-Hamburg,Rotterdam,Antwerp-theplacesignifiedlittle,sothathewasgotoutofEngland。
Anyforeignsteamerthatfellinourwayandwouldtakeusup,woulddo。
Ihadalwaysproposedtomyselftogethimwelldowntheriverintheboat;
certainlywellbeyondGravesend,whichwasacriticalplaceforsearchorinquiryifsuspicionwereafoot。AsforeignsteamerswouldleaveLondonataboutthetimeofhigh-water,ourplanwouldbetogetdowntheriverbyapreviousebb-tide,andliebyinsomequietspotuntilwecouldpullofftoone。Thetimewhenonewouldbeduewherewelay,whereverthatmightbe,couldbecalculatedprettynearly,ifwemadeinquiriesbeforehand。
Herbertassentedtoallthis,andwewentoutimmediatelyafterbreakfasttopursueourinvestigations。WefoundthatasteamerforHamburgwaslikelytosuitourpurposebest,andwedirectedourthoughtschieflytothatvessel。ButwenoteddownwhatotherforeignsteamerswouldleaveLondonwiththesametide,andwesatisfiedourselvesthatweknewthebuildandcolourofeach。Wethenseparatedforafewhours;I,togetatoncesuchpassportsaswerenecessary;Herbert,toseeStartopathislodgings。Webothdidwhatwehadtodowithoutanyhindrance,andwhenwemetagainatoneo'clockreporteddone。I,formypart,waspreparedwithpassports;
HerberthadseenStartop,andhewasmorethanreadytojoin。
Thosetwoshouldpullapairofoars,wesettled,andIwouldsteer;
ourchargewouldbesitter,andkeepquiet;asspeedwasnotourobject,weshouldmakewayenough。WearrangedthatHerbertshouldnotcomehometodinnerbeforegoingtoMillPondBankthatevening;thatheshouldnotgothereatall,to-morrowevening,Tuesday;thatheshouldprepareProvistocomedowntosomeStairshardbythehouse,onWednesday,whenhesawusapproach,andnotsooner;thatallthearrangementswithhimshouldbeconcludedthatMondaynight;andthatheshouldbecommunicatedwithnomoreinanyway,untilwetookhimonboard。
Theseprecautionswellunderstoodbybothofus,Iwenthome。
Onopeningtheouterdoorofourchamberswithmykey,Ifoundaletterinthebox,directedtome;averydirtyletter,thoughnotill-written。
IthadbeendeliveredbyhandofcoursesinceIlefthome,anditscontentswerethese:
`Ifyouarenotafraidtocometotheoldmarshesto-nightortomorrownightatNine,andtocometothelittlesluice-housebythelimekiln,youhadbettercome。IfyouwantinformationregardingyouruncleProvis,youhadmuchbettercomeandtellnooneandlosenotime。Youmustcomealone。Bringthiswithyou。'
Ihadhadloadenoughuponmymindbeforethereceiptofthisstrangeletter。Whattodonow,Icouldnottell。Andtheworstwas,thatImustdecidequickly,orIshouldmisstheafternooncoach,whichwouldtakemedownintimeforto-night。To-morrownightIcouldnotthinkofgoing,foritwouldbetoocloseuponthetimeoftheflight。Andagain,foranythingIknew,theprofferedinformationmighthavesomeimportantbearingontheflightitself。
IfIhadhadampletimeforconsideration,IbelieveIshouldstillhavegone。Havinghardlyanytimeforconsideration-mywatchshowingmethatthecoachstartedwithinhalfandhour-Iresolvedtogo。Ishouldcertainlynothavegone,butforthereferencetomyUncleProvis;that,comingonWemmick'sletterandthemorning'sbusypreparation,turnedthescale。
Itissodifficulttobecomeclearlypossessedofcontentsofalmostanyletter,inaviolenthurry,thatIhadtoreadthismysteriousepistleagain,twice,beforeitsinjunctiontometobesecretgotmechanicallyintomymind。Yieldingtoitinthesamemechanicalkindofway,IleftanoteinpencilforHerbert,tellinghimthatasIshouldbesosoongoingaway,Iknewnotforhowlong,Ihaddecidedtohurrydownandback,toascertainformyselfhowMissHavishamwasfaring。Ihadthenbarelytimetogetmygreat-coat,lockupthechambers,andmakeforthecoach-officebytheshortby-ways。IfIhadtakenahackney-chariotandgonebythestreets,Ishouldhavemissedmyaim;goingasIdid,Icaughtthecoachjustasitcameoutoftheyard。Iwastheonlyinsidepassenger,joltingawayknee-deepinstraw,whenIcametomyself。
For,Ireallyhadnotbeenmyselfsincethereceiptoftheletter;ithadsobewilderedmeensuingonthehurryofthemorning。Themorninghurryandflutterhadbeengreat,for,longandanxiouslyasIhadwaitedforWemmick,hishinthadcomelikeasurpriseatlast。Andnow,Ibegantowonderatmyselfforbeinginthecoach,andtodoubtwhetherIhadsufficientreasonforbeingthere,andtoconsiderwhetherIshouldgetoutpresentlyandgoback,andtoargueagainsteverheedingananonymouscommunication,and,inshort,topassthroughallthosephasesofcontradictionandindecisiontowhichIsupposeveryfewhurriedpeoplearestrangers。Still,thereferencetoProvisbyname,masteredeverything。IreasonedasIhadreasonedalreadywithoutknowingit-ifthatbereasoning-incaseanyharmshouldbefallhimthroughmynotgoing,howcouldIeverforgivemyself!
Itwasdarkbeforewegotdown,andthejourneyseemedlonganddrearytomewhocouldseelittleofitinside,andwhocouldnotgooutsideinmydisabledstate。AvoidingtheBlueBoar,Iputupataninnofminorreputationdownthetown,andorderedsomedinner。Whileitwaspreparing,IwenttoSatisHouseandinquiredforMissHavisham;shewasstillveryill,thoughconsideredsomethingbetter。
Myinnhadoncebeenapartofanancientecclesiasticalhouse,andIdinedinalittleoctagonalcommon-room,likeafont。AsIwasnotabletocutmydinner,theoldlandlordwithashiningbaldheaddiditforme。Thisbringingusintoconversation,hewassogoodastoentertainmewithmyownstory-ofcoursewiththepopularfeaturethatPumblechookwasmyearliestbenefactorandthefounderofmyfortunes。
`Doyouknowtheyoungman?'saidI。
`Knowhim!'repeatedthelandlord。`Eversincehewas-noheightatall。'
`Doesheevercomebacktothisneighbourhood?'
`Ay,hecomesback,'saidthelandlord,`tohisgreatfriends,nowandagain,andgivesthecoldshouldertothemanthatmadehim。'
`Whatmanisthat?'
`HimthatIspeakof,'saidthelandlord。`MrPumblechook。'
`Isheungratefultonooneelse?'
`Nodoubthewouldbe,ifhecould,'returnedthelandlord,`buthecan't。Andwhy?BecausePumblechookdoneeverythingforhim。'
`DoesPumblechooksayso?'
`Sayso!'repliedthelandlord。`Hehan'tnocalltosayso。'
`Butdoeshesayso?'
`Itwouldturnaman'sbloodtowhitewinewinegartohearhimtellofit,sir,'saidthelandlord。
Ithought,`YetJoe,dearJoe,younevertellofit。Long-sufferingandlovingJoe,younevercomplain。Noryou,sweet-temperedBiddy!'
`Yourappetite'sbeentouchedlike,byyouraccident,'saidthelandlord,glancingatthebandagedarmundermycoat。`Tryatendererbit。'
`Nothankyou,'Ireplied,turningfromthetabletobroodoverthefire。`Icaneatnomore。Pleasetakeitaway。'
Ihadneverbeenstruckatsokneely,formythanklessnesstoJoe,asthroughthebrazenimpostorPumblechook。Thefalserhe,thetruerJoe;
themeanerhe,thenoblerJoe。
MyheartwasdeeplyandmostdeservedlyhumbledasImusedoverthefireforanhourormore。Thestrikingoftheclockarousedme,butnotfrommydejectionorremorse,andIgotupandhadmycoatfastenedroundmyneck,andwentout。Ihadpreviouslysoughtinmypocketsfortheletter,thatImightrefertoitagain,butIcouldnotfindit,andwasuneasytothinkthatitmusthavebeendroppedinthestrawofthecoach。Iknewverywell,however,thattheappointedplacewasthelittlesluice-housebythelimekilnonthemarshes,andthehournine。TowardsthemarshesInowwentstraight,havingnotimetospare。
Chapter53
ITwasadarknight,thoughthefullmoonroseasIlefttheenclosedlands,andpassedoutuponthemarshes。Beyondtheirdarklinetherewasaribbonofclearsky,hardlybroadenoughtoholdtheredlargemoon。
Inafewminutesshehadascendedoutofthatclearfield,inamongthepiledmountainsofcloud。
Therewasamelancholywind,andthemarsheswereverydismal。Astrangerwouldhavefoundtheminsupportable,andeventometheyweresooppressivethatIhesitated,halfinclinedtogoback。But,Iknewthemwell,andcouldhavefoundmywayonafardarkernight,andhadnoexcuseforreturning,beingthere。So,havingcomethereagainstmyinclination,Iwentonagainstit。
ThedirectionthatItook,wasnotthatinwhichmyoldhomelay,northatinwhichwehadpursuedtheconvicts。MybackwasturnedtowardsthedistantHulksasIwalkedon,and,thoughIcouldseetheoldlightsawayonthespitsofsand,Isawthemovermyshoulder。IknewthelimekilnaswellasIknewtheoldBattery,buttheyweremilesapart;sothatifalighthadbeenburningateachpointthatnight,therewouldhavebeenalongstripoftheblankhorizonbetweenthetwobrightspecks。
Atfirst,Ihadtoshutsomegatesafterme,andnowandthentostandstillwhilethecattlethatwerelyinginthebanked-uppathway,aroseandblundereddownamongthegrassandreeds。Butafteralittlewhile,Iseemedtohavethewholeflatstomyself。
Itwasanotherhalf-hourbeforeIdrewneartothekiln。Thelimewasburningwithasluggishstiflingsmell,butthefiresweremadeupandleft,andnoworkmenwerevisible。Hardby,wasasmallstone-quarry。Itlaydirectlyinmyway,andhadbeenworkedthatday,asIsawbythetoolsandbarrowsthatwerelyingabout。
Comingupagaintothemarshleveloutofthisexcavation-fortherudepathlaythroughit-Isawalightintheoldsluice-house。Iquickenedmypace,andknockedatthedoorwithmyhand。Waitingforsomereply,Ilookedaboutme,noticinghowthesluicewasabandonedandbroken,andhowthehouse-ofwoodwithatiledroof-wouldnotbeproofagainsttheweathermuchlonger,ifitweresoevennow,andhowthemudandoozewerecoatedwithlime,andhowthechokingvapourofthekilncreptinaghostlywaytowardsme。Stilltherewasnoanswer,andIknockedagain。
Noanswerstill,andItriedthelatch。
Itroseundermyhand,andthedooryielded。Lookingin,Isawalightedcandleonatable,abench,andamattressonatrucklebedstead。Astherewasaloftabove,Icalled,`Isthereanyonehere?'butnovoiceanswered。
Then,Ilookedatmywatch,and,findingthatitwaspastnine,calledagain,`Isthereanyonehere?'Therebeingstillnoanswer,Iwentoutatthedoor,irresolutewhattodo。
Itwasbeginningtorainfast。SeeingnothingsavewhatIhadseenalready,Iturnedbackintothehouse,andstoodjustwithintheshelterofthedoorway,lookingoutintothenight。WhileIwasconsideringthatsomeonemusthavebeentherelatelyandmustsoonbecomingback,orthecandlewouldnotbeburning,itcameintomyheadtolookifthewickwerelong。
Iturnedroundtodoso,andhadtakenupthecandleinmyhand,whenitwasextinguishedbysomeviolentshock,andthenextthingIcomprehended,was,thatIhadbeencaughtinastrongrunningnoose,thrownovermyheadfrombehind。
`Now,'saidasuppressedvoicewithanoath,`I'vegotyou!'
`Whatisthis?'Icried,struggling。`Whoisit?Help,help,help!'
Notonlyweremyarmspulledclosetomysides,butthepressureonmybadarmcausedmeexquisitepain。Sometimes,astrongman'shand,sometimesastrongman'sbreast,wassetagainstmymouthtodeadenmycries,andwithahotbreathalwaysclosetome,Istruggledineffectuallyinthedark,whileIwasfastenedtighttothewall。`Andnow,'saidthesuppressedvoicewithanotheroath,`calloutagain,andI'llmakeshortworkofyou!'
Faintandsickwiththepainofmyinjuredarm,bewilderedbythesurprise,andyetconscioushoweasilythisthreatcouldbeputinexecution,Idesisted,andtriedtoeasemyarmwereiteversolittle。But,itwasboundtootightforthat。Ifeltasif,havingbeenburntbefore,itwerenowbeingboiled。
Thesuddenexclusionofthenightandthesubstitutionofblackdarknessinitsplace,warnedmethatthemanhadclosedashutter。Aftergropingaboutforalittle,hefoundtheflintandsteelhewanted,andbegantostrikealight。Istrainedmysightuponthesparksthatfellamongthetinder,anduponwhichhebreathedandbreathed,matchinhand,butIcouldonlyseehislips,andthebluepointofthematch;eventhose,butfitfully。
Thetinderwasdamp-nowonderthere-andoneafteranotherthesparksdiedout。
Themanwasinnohurry,andstruckagainwiththeflintandsteel。
Asthesparksfellthickandbrightabouthim,Icouldseehishands,andtouchesofhisface,andcouldmakeoutthathewasseatedandbendingoverthetable;butnothingmore。PresentlyIsawhisbluelipsagain,breathingonthetinder,andthenaflareoflightflashedup,andshowedmeOrlick。
WhomIhadlookedfor,Idon'tknow。Ihadnotlookedforhim。Seeinghim,IfeltthatIwasinadangerousstraitindeed,andIkeptmyeyesuponhim。
Helightedthecandlefromtheflaringmatchwithgreatdeliberation,anddroppedthematch,andtroditout。Then,heputthecandleawayfromhimonthetable,sothathecouldseeme,andsatwithhisarmsfoldedonthetableandlookedatme。ImadeoutthatIwasfastenedtoastoutperpendicularladderafewinchesfromthewall-afixturethere-themeansofascenttotheloftabove。
`Now,'saidhe,whenwehadsurveyedoneanotherforsometime,`I'vegotyou。'
`Unbindme。Letmego!'
`Ah!'hereturned,`I'llletyougo。I'llletyougotothemoon,I'llletyougotothestars。Allingoodtime。'
`Whyhaveyouluredmehere?'
`Don'tyouknow?'saidhe,withadeadlylook`Whyhaveyousetuponmeinthedark?'
`BecauseImeantodoitallmyself。Onekeepsasecretbetterthantwo。Ohyouenemy,youenemy!'
HisenjoymentofthespectacleIfurnished,ashesatwithhisarmsfoldedonthetable,shakinghisheadatmeandhugginghimself,hadamalignityinitthatmademetremble。AsIwatchedhiminsilence,heputhishandintothecornerathisside,andtookupagunwithabrass-boundstock。
`Doyouknowthis?'saidhe,makingasifhewouldtakeaimatme。`Doyouknowwhereyousawitafore?Speak,wolf!'
`Yes,'Ianswered。
`Youcostmethatplace。Youdid。Speak!'
`WhatelsecouldIdo?'
`Youdidthat,andthatwouldbeenough,withoutmore。HowdaredyoutocomebetwixtmeandayoungwomanIliked?'
`WhendidI?'
`Whendidn'tyou?ItwasyouasalwaysgiveOldOrlickabadnametoher。'
`Yougaveittoyourself;yougaineditforyourself。Icouldhavedoneyounoharm,ifyouhaddoneyourselfnone。'
`You'realiar。Andyou'lltakeanypains,andspendanymoney,todrivemeoutofthiscountry,willyou?'saidhe,repeatingmywordstoBiddyinthelastinterviewIhadwithher。`Now,I'lltellyouapieceofinformation。
Itwasneversowellworthyourwhiletogetmeoutofthiscountryasitisto-night。Ah!Ifitwasallyourmoneytwentytimestold,tothelastbrassfarden!'Asheshookhisheavyhandatme,withhismouthsnarlinglikeatiger's,Ifeltthatitwastrue。
`Whatareyougoingtodotome?'
`I'mgoing,'saidhe,bringinghisfirstdownuponthetablewithaheavyblow,andrisingastheblowfell,togiveitgreaterforce,`I'magoingtohaveyourlife!'
Heleanedforwardstaringatme,slowlyunclenchedhishandanddrewitacrosshismouthasifhismouthwateredforme,andsatdownagain。
`YouwasalwaysinOldOrlick'swaysinceeveryouwasachild。Yougoesoutofhisway,thispresentnight。He'llhavenomoreonyou。You'redead。'
IfeltthatIhadcometothebrinkofmygrave。ForamomentIlookedwildlyroundmytrapforanychanceofescape;buttherewasnone。
`Morethanthat,'saidhe,foldinghisarmsonthetableagain,`Iwon'thavearagofyou,Iwon'thaveaboneofyou,leftonearth。I'llputyourbodyinthekiln-I'dcarrytwosuchtoit,onmyshoulders-and,letpeoplesupposewhattheymayofyou,theyshallneverknownothing。'
Mymind,withinconceivablerapidity,followedoutalltheconsequencesofsuchadeath。Estella'sfatherwouldbelieveIhaddesertedhim,wouldbetaken,woulddieaccusingme;evenHerbertwoulddoubtme,whenhecomparedtheletterIhadleftforhim,withthefactthatIhadcalledatMissHavisham'sgateforonlyamoment;JoeandBiddywouldneverknowhowsorryIhadbeenthatnight;nonewouldeverknowwhatIhadsuffered,howtrueIhadmeanttobe,whatanagonyIhadpassedthrough。Thedeathclosebeforemewasterrible,butfarmoreterriblethandeathwasthedreadofbeingmisrememberedafterdeath。Andsoquickweremythoughts,thatIsawmyselfdespisedbyunborngenerations-Estella'schildren,andtheirchildren-whilethewretch'swordswereyetonhislips。
`Now,wolf,'saidhe,`aforeIkillyoulikeanyotherbeast-whichiswotImeantodoandwotIhavetiedyouupfor-I'llhaveagoodlookatyouandagoodgoadatyou。Oh,youenemy!'
Ithadpassedthroughmythoughtstocryoutforhelpagain;thoughfewcouldknowbetterthanI,thesolitarynatureofthespot,andthehopelessnessofaid。Butashesatgloatingoverme,Iwassupportedbyascornfuldetestationofhimthatsealedmylips。Aboveallthings,I
resolvedthatIwouldnotentreathim,andthatIwoulddiemakingsomelastpoorresistancetohim。Softenedasmythoughtsofalltherestofmenwereinthatdireextremity;humblybeseechingpardon,asIdid,ofHeaven;meltedatheart,asIwas,bythethoughtthatIhadtakennofarewell,andnevernevernowcouldtakefarewell,ofthosewhoweredeartome,orcouldexplainmyselftothem,oraskfortheircompassiononmymiserableerrors;still,ifIcouldhavekilledhim,evenindying,Iwouldhavedoneit。
Hehadbeendrinking,andhiseyeswereredandbloodshot。Aroundhisneckwasslungatinbottle,asIhadoftenseenhismeatanddrinkslungabouthiminotherdays。Hebroughtthebottletohislips,andtookafierydrinkfromit;andIsmeltthestrongspiritsthatIsawflashintohisface。
`Wolf!'saidhe,foldinghisarmsagain,`OldOrlick'sagoingtotellyousomethink。Itwasyouasdidforyourshrewsister。'
Againmymind,withitsformerinconceivablerapidity,hadexhaustedthewholesubjectoftheattackuponmysister,herillness,andherdeath,beforehisslowandhesitatingspeechhadformedthesewords。
`Itwasyou,villain,'saidI。
`Itellyouitwasyourdoing-Itellyouitwasdonethroughyou,'
heretorted,catchingupthegun,andmakingablowwiththestockatthevacantairbetweenus。`Icomeuponherfrombehind,asIcomeuponyouto-night。Igiv'ither!Ileftherfordead,andiftherehadbeenalimekilnasnighherasthereisnownighyou,sheshouldn'thavecometolifeagain。Butitwarn'tOldOrlickasdidit;itwasyou。Youwasfavoured,andhewasbulliedandbeat。OldOrlickbulliedandbeat,eh?
Nowyoupaysforit。Youdoneit;nowyoupaysforit。'
Hedrankagain,andbecamemoreferocious。Isawbyhistiltingofthebottlethattherewasnogreatquantityleftinit。Idistinctlyunderstoodthathewasworkinghimselfupwithitscontents,tomakeanendofme。
Iknewthateverydropitheld,wasadropofmylife。IknewthatwhenIwaschangedintoapartofthevapourthathadcrepttowardsmebutalittlewhilebefore,likemyownwarningghost,hewoulddoashehaddoneinmysister'scase-makeallhastetothetown,andbeseenslouchingaboutthere,drinkingattheale-houses。Myrapidmindpursuedhimtothetown,madeapictureofthestreetwithhiminit,andcontrasteditslightsandlifewiththelonelymarshandthewhitevapourcreepingoverit,intowhichIshouldhavedissolved。
ItwasnotonlythatIcouldhavesummedupyearsandyearsandyearswhilehesaidadozenwords,butthatwhathedidsaypresentedpicturestome,andnotmerewords。Intheexcitedandexaltedstateofmybrain,Icouldnotthinkofaplacewithoutseeingit,orofpersonswithoutseeingthem。Itisimpossibletoover-statethevividnessoftheseimages,andyetIwassointent,allthetime,uponhimhimself-whowouldnotbeintentonthetigercrouchingtospring!-thatIknewoftheslightestactionofhisfingers。
Whenhehaddrunkthissecondtime,herosefromthebenchonwhichhesat,andpushedthetableaside。Then,hetookupthecandle,andshadingitwithhismurderoushandsoastothrowitslightonme,stoodbeforeme,lookingatmeandenjoyingthesight。
`Wolf,I'lltellyousomethingmore。ItwasOldOrlickasyoutumbledoveronyourstairsthatnight。'
Isawthestaircasewithitsextinguishedlamps。Isawtheshadowsoftheheavystair-rails,thrownbythewatchman'slanternonthewall。I
sawtheroomsthatIwasnevertoseeagain;here,adoorhalfopen;there,adoorclosed;allthearticlesoffurniturearound。
`AndwhywasOldOrlickthere?I'lltellyousomethingmore,wolf。Youandherhaveprettywellhuntedmeoutofthiscountry,sofarasgettingaeasylivinginitgoes,andI'vetookupwithnewcompanions,andnewmasters。Someof'emwritesmyletterswhenIwants'emwrote-
doyoumind?-writesmyletters,wolf!Theywritesfiftyhands;they'renotlikesneakingyou,aswritesbutone。I'vehadafirmmindandafirmwilltohaveyourlife,sinceyouwasdownhereatyoursister'sburying。
Ihan'tseenawaytogetyousafe,andI'velookedarteryoutoknowyourinsandouts。For,saysOldOrlicktohimself,""SomehoworanotherI'llhavehim!""What!WhenIlooksforyou,IfindsyouruncleProvis,eh?'
MillPondBank,andChinks'sBasin,andtheOldGreenCopperRope-Walk,allsoclearandplain!Provisinhisrooms,thesignalwhoseusewasover,prettyClara,thegoodmotherlywoman,oldBillBarleyonhisback,alldriftingby,asontheswiftstreamofmylifefastrunningouttosea!
`Youwithauncletoo!Why,Iknow'dyouatGargery'swhenyouwassosmallawolfthatIcouldhavetookyourweazenbetwixtthisfingerandthumbandchuckedyouawaydeadasI'dthoughtso'doing,oddtimes,whenIseeyouloiteringamongstthepollardsonaSunday,andyouhadn'tfoundnounclesthen。No,notyou!ButwhenOldOrlickcomefortohearthatyouruncleProvishadmostlikeworetheleg-ironwotOldOrlickhadpickedup,filedasunder,onthesemesheseversomanyyearago,andwothekepbyhimtillhedroppedyoursisterwithit,likeabullock,ashemeanstodropyou-hey?-whenhecomefortohearthat-hey?——'
Inhissavagetaunting,heflaredthecandlesocloseatme,thatI
turnedmyfaceaside,tosaveitfromtheflame。
`Ah!'hecried,laughing,afterdoingitagain,`theburntchilddreadsthefire!OldOrlickknowedyouwasburnt,OldOrlickknowedyouwassmugglingyouruncleProvisaway,OldOrlick'samatchforyouandknow'dyou'dcometo-night!NowI'lltellyousomethingmore,wolf,andthisendsit。There'sthemthat'sasgoodamatchforyouruncleProvisasOldOrlickhasbeenforyou。Lethim'warethem,whenhe'slosthisnevvy!Lethim'warethem,whennomancan'tfindaragofhisdearrelation'sclothes,noryetaboneofhisbody。There'sthemthatcan'tandthatwon'thaveMagwitch-yes,Iknowthename!-aliveinthesamelandwiththem,andthat'shadsuchsureinformationofhimwhenhewasaliveinanotherland,asthathecouldn'tandshouldn'tleaveitunbeknownandputthemindanger。
P'rapsit'sthemthatwritesfiftyhands,andthat'snotlikesneakingyouaswritesbutone。'WareCompeyson,Magwitch,andthegallows!'
Heflaredthecandleatmeagain,smokingmyfaceandhair,andforaninstantblindingme,andturnedhispowerfulbackashereplacedthelightonthetable。Ihadthoughtaprayer,andhadbeenwithJoeandBiddyandHerbert,beforeheturnedtowardsmeagain。
Therewasaclearspaceofafewfeetbetweenthetableandtheoppositewall。Withinthisspace,henowslouchedbackwardsandforwards。Hisgreatstrengthseemedtositstrongeruponhimthaneverbefore,ashedidthiswithhishandshanginglooseandheavyathissides,andwithhiseyesscowlingatme。Ihadnograinofhopeleft。Wildasmyinwardhurrywas,andwonderfultheforceofthepicturesthatrushedbymeinsteadofthoughts,IcouldyetclearlyunderstandthatunlesshehadresolvedthatIwaswithinafewmomentsofsurelyperishingoutofallhumanknowledge,hewouldneverhavetoldmewhathehadtold。
Ofasudden,hestopped,tookthecorkoutofhisbottle,andtosseditaway。Lightasitwas,Ihearditfalllikeaplummet。Heswallowedslowly,tiltingupthebottlebylittleandlittle,andnowhelookedatmenomore。Thelastfewdropsofliquorhepouredintothepalmofhishand,andlickedup。Then,withasuddenhurryofviolenceandswearinghorribly,hethrewthebottlefromhim,andstooped;andIsawinhishandastone-hammerwithalongheavyhandle。
TheresolutionIhadmadedidnotdesertme,for,withoututteringonevainwordofappealtohim,Ishoutedoutwithallmymight,andstruggledwithallmymight。ItwasonlymyheadandmylegsthatIcouldmove,buttothatextentIstruggledwithalltheforce,untilthenunknown,thatwaswithinme。InthesameinstantIheardresponsiveshouts,sawfiguresandagleamoflightdashinatthedoor,heardvoicesandtumult,andsawOrlickemergefromastruggleofmen,asifitweretumblingwater,clearthetableataleap,andflyoutintothenight。
Afterablank,IfoundthatIwaslyingunbound,onthefloor,inthesameplace,withmyheadonsomeone'sknee。Myeyeswerefixedontheladderagainstthewall,whenIcametomyself-hadopenedonitbeforemymindsawit-andthusasIrecoveredconsciousness,IknewthatIwasintheplacewhereIhadlostit。
Tooindifferentatfirst,eventolookroundandascertainwhosupportedme,Iwaslyinglookingattheladder,whentherecamebetweenmeandit,aface。ThefaceofTrabb'sboy!
`Ithinkhe'sallright!'saidTrabb'sboy,inasobervoice;`butain'thejustpalethough!'
Atthesewords,thefaceofhimwhosupportedmelookedoverintomine,andIsawmysupportertobe——
`Herbert!GreatHeaven!'
`Softly,'saidHerbert。`Gently,Handel。Don'tbetooeager。'
`Andouroldcomrade,Startop!'Icried,ashetoobentoverme。
`Rememberwhatheisgoingtoassistusin,'saidHerbert,`andbecalm。'
Theallusionmademespringup;thoughIdroppedagainfromthepaininmyarm。`Thetimehasnotgoneby,Herbert,hasit?Whatnightisto-night?
HowlonghaveIbeenhere?'For,IhadastrangeandstrongmisgivingthatIhadbeenlyingtherealongtime-adayandanight-twodaysandnights-more。
`Thetimehasnotgoneby。ItisstillMondaynight。'
`ThankGod!'
`Andyouhaveallto-morrow,Tuesday,torestin,'saidHerbert。`Butyoucan'thelpgroaning,mydearHandel。Whathurthaveyougot?Canyoustand?'
`Yes,yes,'saidI,`Icanwalk。Ihavenohurtbutinthisthrobbingarm。'
Theylaiditbare,anddidwhattheycould。Itwasviolentlyswollenandinflamed,andIcouldscarcelyenduretohaveittouched。But,theytoreuptheirhandkerchiefstomakefreshbandages,andcarefullyreplaceditinthesling,untilwecouldgettothetownandobtainsomecoolinglotiontoputuponit。Inalittlewhilewehadshutthedoorofthedarkandemptysluice-house,andwerepassingthroughthequarryonourwayback。Trabb'sboy-Trabb'sovergrownyoungmannow-wentbeforeuswithalantern,whichwasthelightIhadseencomeinatthedoor。But,themoonwasagoodtwohourshigherthanwhenIhadlastseenthesky,andthenightthoughrainywasmuchlighter。Thewhitevapourofthekilnwaspassingfromusaswewentby,and,asIhadthoughtaprayerbefore,I
thoughtathanksgivingnow。
EntreatingHerberttotellmehowhehadcometomyrescue-whichatfirsthehadflatlyrefusedtodo,buthadinsistedonmyremainingquiet-IlearntthatIhadinmyhurrydroppedtheletter,open,inourchambers,wherehe,cominghometobringwithhimStartopwhomhehadmetinthestreetonhiswaytome,foundit,verysoonafterIwasgone。Itstonemadehimuneasy,andthemoresobecauseoftheinconsistencybetweenitandthehastyletterIhadleftforhim。Hisuneasinessincreasinginsteadofsubsidingafteraquarterofanhour'sconsideration,hesetoffforthecoach-office,withStartop,whovolunteeredhiscompany,tomakeinquirywhenthenextcoachwentdown。Findingthattheafternooncoachwasgone,andfindingthathisuneasinessgrewintopositivealarm,asobstaclescameinhisway,heresolvedtofollowinapost-chaise。So,heandStartoparrivedattheBlueBoar,fullyexpectingtheretofindme,ortidingsofme;but,findingneither,wentontoMissHavisham's,wheretheylostme。HereupontheywentbacktothehoteldoubtlessataboutthetimewhenIwashearingthepopularlocalversionofmyownstory,torefreshthemselvesandtogetsomeonetoguidethemoutuponthemarshes。AmongtheloungersundertheBoar'sarchway,happenedtobeTrabb'sboy-truetohisancienthabitofhappeningtobeeverywherewherehehadnobusiness-andTrabb'sboyhadseenmepassingfromMissHavisham'sinthedirectionofmydining-place。
Thus,Trabb'sboybecametheirguide,andwithhimtheywentouttothesluice-house:thoughbythetownwaytothemarshes,whichIhadavoided。
Now,astheywentalong,Herbertreflected,thatImight,afterall,havebeenbroughtthereonsomegenuineandserviceableerrandtendingtoProvis'ssafety,and,bethinkinghimselfthatinthatcaseinterruptionmustbemischievous,lefthisguideandStartopontheedgeofthequarry,andwentonbyhimself,andstoleroundthehousetwoorthreetimes,endeavouringtoascertainwhetherallwasrightwithin。Ashecouldhearnothingbutindistinctsoundsofonedeeproughvoicethiswaswhilemymindwassobusy,heevenatlastbegantodoubtwhetherIwasthere,whensuddenlyIcriedoutloudly,andheansweredthecries,andrushedin,closelyfollowedbytheothertwo。
WhenItoldHerbertwhathadpassedwithinthehouse,hewasforourimmediatelygoingbeforeamagistrateinthetown,lateatnightasitwas,andgettingoutawarrant。But,Ihadalreadyconsideredthatsuchacourse,bydetainingusthere,orbindingustocomeback,mightbefataltoProvis。Therewasnogainsayingthisdifficulty,andwerelinquishedallthoughtsofpursuingOrlickatthattime。Forthepresent,underthecircumstances,wedeemeditprudenttomakeratherlightofthemattertoTrabb'sboy;whoIamconvincedwouldhavebeenmuchaffectedbydisappointment,ifhehadknownthathisinterventionsavedmefromthelimekiln。NotthatTrabb'sboywasofamalignantnature,butthathehadtoomuchsparevivacity,andthatitwasinhisconstitutiontowantvarietyandexcitementatanybody'sexpense。Whenweparted,Ipresentedhimwithtwoguineaswhichseemedtomeethisviews,andtoldhimthatIwassorryevertohavehadanillopinionofhimwhichmadenoimpressiononhimatall。
Wednesdaybeingsocloseuponus,wedeterminedtogobacktoLondonthatnight,threeinthepost-chaise;therather,asweshouldthenbeclearaway,beforethenight'sadventurebegantobetalkedof。Herbertgotalargebottleofstuffformyarm,andbydintofhavingthisstuffdroppedoveritallthenightthrough,Iwasjustabletobearitspainonthejourney。ItwasdaylightwhenwereachedtheTemple,andIwentatoncetobed,andlayinbedallday。
Myterror,asIlaythere,offallingillandbeingunfittedfortomorrow,wassobesetting,thatIwonderitdidnotdisablemeofitself。Itwouldhavedoneso,prettysurely,inconjunctionwiththementalwearandtearIhadsuffered,butfortheunnaturalstrainuponmethatto-morrowwas。
Soanxiouslylookedforwardto,chargedwithsuchconsequences,itsresultssoimpenetrablyhiddenthoughsonear。
Noprecautioncouldhavebeenmoreobviousthanourrefrainingfromcommunicationwithhimthatday;yetthisagainincreasedmyrestlessness。
Istartedateveryfootstepandeverysound,believingthathewasdiscoveredandtaken,andthiswasthemessengertotellmeso。IpersuadedmyselfthatIknewhewastaken;thattherewassomethingmoreuponmymindthanafearorapresentiment;thatthefacthadoccurred,andIhadamysteriousknowledgeofit。Asthedayworeonandnoillnewscame,asthedayclosedinanddarknessfell,myovershadowingdreadofbeingdisabledbyillnessbeforeto-morrowmorning,altogethermasteredme。Myburningarmthrobbed,andmyburningheadthrobbed,andIfanciedIwasbeginningtowander。
Icounteduptohighnumbers,tomakesureofmyself,andrepeatedpassagesthatIknewinproseandverse。Ithappenedsometimesthatinthemereescapeofafatiguedmind,Idozedforsomemomentsorforgot;thenIwouldsaytomyselfwithastart,`Nowithascome,andIamturningdelirious!'
Theykeptmeveryquietallday,andkeptmyarmconstantlydressed,andgavemecoolingdrinks。WheneverIfellasleep,IawokewiththenotionIhadhadinthesluice-house,thatalongtimehadelapsedandtheopportunitytosavehimwasgone。AboutmidnightIgotoutofbedandwenttoHerbert,withtheconvictionthatIhadbeenasleepforfour-and-twentyhours,andthatWednesdaywaspast。Itwasthelastself-exhaustingeffortofmyfretfulness,for,afterthat,Isleptsoundly。
WednesdaymorningwasdawningwhenIlookedoutofwindow。Thewinkinglightsuponthebridgeswerealreadypale,thecomingsunwaslikeamarshoffireonthehorizon。Theriver,stilldarkandmysterious,wasspannedbybridgesthatwereturningcoldlygrey,withhereandthereattopawarmtouchfromtheburninginthesky。AsIlookedalongtheclusteredroofs,withChurchtowersandspiresshootingintotheunusuallyclearair,thesunroseup,andaveilseemedtobedrawnfromtheriver,andmillionsofsparklesburstoutuponitswaters。Frommetoo,aveilseemedtobedrawn,andIfeltstrongandwell。
Herbertlayasleepinhisbed,andouroldfellow-studentlayasleeponthesofa。Icouldnotdressmyselfwithouthelp,butImadeupthefire,whichwasstillburning,andgotsomecoffeereadyforthem。Ingoodtimetheytoostartedupstrongandwell,andweadmittedthesharpmorningairatthewindows,andlookedatthetidethatwasstillflowingtowardsus。
`Whenitturnsatnineo'clock,'saidHerbert,cheerfully,`lookoutforus,andstandready,youoverthereatMillPondBank!'
Chapter54
ITwasoneofthoseMarchdayswhenthesunshineshotandthewindblowscold:whenitissummerinthelight,andwinterintheshade。Wehadoutpea-coatswithus,andItookabag。OfallmyworldlypossessionsItooknomorethanthefewnecessariesthatfilledthebag。WhereImightgo,whatImightdo,orwhenImightreturn,werequestionsutterlyunknowntome;nordidIvexmymindwiththem,foritwaswhollysetonProvis'ssafety。Ionlywonderedforthepassingmoment,asIstoppedatthedoorandlookedback,underwhatalteredcircumstancesIshouldnextseethoserooms,ifever。
WeloitereddowntotheTemplestairs,andstoodloiteringthere,asifwewerenotquitedecidedtogouponthewateratall。OfcourseIhadtakencarethattheboatshouldbereadyandeverythinginorder。Afteralittleshowofindecision,whichtherewerenonetoseebutthetwoorthreeamphibiouscreaturesbelongingtoourTemplestairs,wewentonboardandcastoff;Herbertinthebow,Isteering。Itwasthenabouthigh-water-half-pasteight。
Ourplanwasthis。Thetide,beginningtorundownatnine,andbeingwithusuntilthree,weintendedstilltocreeponafterithadturned,androwagainstituntildark。WeshouldthenbewellinthoselongreachesbelowGravesend,betweenKentandEssex,wheretheriverisbroadandsolitary,wherethewatersideinhabitantsareveryfew,andwherelonepublic-housesarescatteredhereandthere,ofwhichwecouldchooseoneforaresting-place。
There,wemeanttolieby,allnight。ThesteamerforHamburg,andthesteamerforRotterdam,wouldstartfromLondonataboutnineonThursdaymorning。Weshouldknowatwhattimetoexpectthem,accordingtowherewewere,andwouldhailthefirst;sothatifbyanyaccidentwewerenottakenabroad,weshouldhaveanotherchance。Weknewthedistinguishingmarksofeachvessel。
Thereliefofbeingatlastengagedintheexecutionofthepurpose,wassogreattomethatIfeltitdifficulttorealizetheconditioninwhichIhadbeenafewhoursbefore。Thecrispair,thesunlight,themovementontheriver,andthemovingriveritself-theroadthatranwithus,seemingtosympathizewithus,animateus,andencourageuson-freshenedmewithnewhope。Ifeltmortifiedtobeofsolittleuseintheboat;
but,therewerefewbetteroarsmenthanmytwofriends,andtheyrowedwithasteadystrokethatwastolastallday。
Atthattime,thesteam-trafficontheThameswasfarbelowitspresentextent,andwatermen'sboatswerefarmorenumerous。Ofbarges,sailingcolliers,andcoastingtraders,therewereperhapsasmanyasnow;but,ofsteam-ships,greatandsmall,notatitheoratwentiethpartsomany。
Earlyasitwas,therewereplentyofscullersgoinghereandtherethatmorning,andplentyofbargesdroppingdownwiththetide;thenavigationoftheriverbetweenbridges,inanopenboat,wasamucheasierandcommonermatterinthosedaysthanitisinthese;andwewentaheadamongmanyskiffsandwherries,briskly。
OldLondonBridgewassoonpassed,andoldBillingsgatemarketwithitsoyster-boatsandDutchmen,andtheWhiteTowerandTraitor'sGate,andwewereinamongthetiersofshipping。Here,weretheLeith,Aberdeen,andGlasgowsteamers,loadingandunloadinggoods,andlookingimmenselyhighoutofthewateraswepassedalongside;here,werecolliersbythescoreandscore,withthecoal-whippersplungingoffstagesondeck,ascounterweightstomeasuresofcoalswingingup,whichwerethenrattledoverthesideintobarges;here,athermooringswasto-morrow'ssteamerforRotterdam,ofwhichwetookgoodnotice;andhereto-morrow'sforHamburg,underwhosebowspritwecrossed。AndnowI,sittinginthestern,couldseewithafasterbeatingheart,MillPondBankandMillPondstairs。
`Ishethere?'saidHerbert。
`Notyet。'
`Right!Hewasnottocomedowntillhesawus。Canyouseehissignal?'
`Notwellfromhere;butIthinkIseeit-Now,Iseehim!Pullboth。
Easy,Herbert。Oars!'
Wetouchedthestairslightlyforasinglemoment,andhewasonboardandwewereoffagain。Hehadaboat-cloakwithhim,andablackcanvasbag,andhelookedaslikeariver-pilotasmyheartcouldhavewished。
`Dearboy!'hesaid,puttinghisarmonmyshoulderashetookhisseat。
`Faithfuldearboy,welldone。Thankye,thankye!'
Againamongthetiersofshipping,inandout,avoidingrustychain-cablesfrayedhempenhawsersandbobbingbuoys,sinkingforthemomentfloatingbrokenbaskets,scatteringfloatingchipsofwoodandshaving,cleavingfloatingscumofcoal,inandout,underthefigure-headoftheJohnofSunderlandmakingaspeechtothewindsasisdonebymanyJohns,andtheBetsyofYarmouthwithafirmformalityofbosomandhernobbyeyesstartingtwoinchesoutofherhead,inandout,hammersgoinginshipbuilders'yards,sawsgoingattimber,clashingenginesgoingatthingsunknown,pumpsgoinginleakyships,capstansgoing,shipsgoingouttosea,andunintelligiblesea-creaturesroaringcursesoverthebulwarksatrespondentlightermen,inandout-outatlastupontheclearerriver,wheretheships'boysmighttaketheirfendersin,nolongerfishingintroubledwaterswiththemovertheside,andwherethefestoonedsailsmightflyouttothewind。
AttheStairswherewehadtakenhimabroad,andeversince,Ihadlookedwarilyforanytokenofourbeingsuspected。Ihadseennone。Wecertainlyhadnotbeen,andatthattimeascertainlywewerenot,eitherattendedorfollowedbyanyboat。Ifwehadbeenwaitedonbyanyboat,Ishouldhaverunintoshore,andhaveobligedhertogoon,ortomakeherpurposeevident。But,weheldourown,withoutanyappearanceofmolestation。
Hehadhisboat-cloakonhim,andlooked,asIhavesaid,anaturalpartofthescene。Itwasremarkablebutperhapsthewretchedlifehehadled,accountedforit,thathewastheleastanxiousofanyofus。
Hewasnoindifferent,forhetoldmethathehopedtolivetoseehisgentlemanoneofthebestofgentlemeninaforeigncountry;hewasnotdisposedtobepassiveorresigned,asIunderstoodit;buthehadnonotionofmeetingdangerhalfway。Whenitcameuponhim,heconfrontedit,butitmustcomebeforehetroubledhimself。
`Ifyouknowed,dearboy,'hesaidtome,`whatitistositherealongermydearboyandhavemysmoke,arterhavingbeendaybydaybetwixtfourwalls,you'denvyme。Butyoudon'tknowwhatitis。'
`IthinkIknowthedelightsoffreedom,'Ianswered。
`Ah,'saidhe,shakinghisheadgravely。`Butyoudon'tknowitequaltome。Youmusthavebeenunderlockandkey,dearboy,toknowitequaltome-butIain'tagoingtobelow。'
Itoccurredtomeasinconsistent,thatforanymasteringidea,heshouldhaveendangeredhisfreedomandevenhislife。ButIreflectedthatperhapsfreedomwithoutdangerwastoomuchapartfromallthehabitofhisexistencetobetohimwhatitwouldbetoanotherman。Iwasnotfarout,sincehesaid,aftersmokingalittle:
`Yousee,dearboy,whenIwasoveryonder,t'othersidetheworld,Iwasalwaysalookingtothisside;anditcomeflattobethere,forallIwasagrowingrich。EverybodyknowedMagwitch,andMagwitchcouldcome,andMagwitchcouldgo,andnobody'sheadwouldbetroubledabouthim。Theyain'tsoeasyconcerningmehere,dearboy-wouldn'tbe,leastwise,iftheyknowedwhereIwas。'
`Ifallgoeswell,'saidI,`youwillbeperfectlyfreeandsafeagain,withinafewhours。'
`Well,'hereturned,drawingalongbreath,`Ihopeso。'
`Andthinkso?'
Hedippedhishandinthewaterovertheboat'sgunwale,andsaid,smilingwiththatsoftenedairuponhimwhichwasnotnewtome:
`Ay,Is'poseIthinkso,dearboy。We'dbepuzzledtobemorequietandeasy-goingthanweareatpresent。But-it'saflowingsosoftandpleasantthroughthewater,p'raps,asmakesmethinkit-Iwasathinkingthroughmysmokejustthen,thatwecannomoreseetothebottomofthenextfewhours,thanwecanseetothebottomofthisriverwhatIcatchesholdof。Noryetwecan'tnomoreholdtheirtidethanIcanholdthis。
Andit'srunthroughmyfingersandgone,yousee!'holdinguphisdrippinghand。
`Butforyourface,Ishouldthinkyouwerealittledespondent,'saidI。
`Notabitonit,dearboy!Itcomesofflowingonsoquiet,andofthatthereripplingattheboat'sheadmakingasortofaSundaytune。
MaybeI'magrowingatrifleoldbesides。'
Heputhispipebackinhismouthwithanundisturbedexpressionofface,andsatascomposedandcontentedasifwewerealreadyoutofEngland。
Yethewasassubmissivetoawordofadviceasifhehadbeeninconstantterror,for,whenweranashoretogetsomebottlesofbeerintotheboat,andhewassteppingout,IhintedthatIthoughthewouldbesafestwherehewas,andhesaid。`Doyou,dearboy?'andquietlysatdownagain。
Theairfeltcoldupontheriver,butitwasabrightday,andthesunshinewasverycheering。Thetideranstrong,Itookcaretolosenoneofit,andoursteadystrokecarriedusonthoroughlywell。Byimperceptibledegrees,asthetideranout,welostmoreandmoreofthenearerwoodsandhills,anddroppedlowerandlowerbetweenthemuddybanks,butthetidewasyetwithuswhenwewereoffGravesend。Asourchargewaswrappedinhiscloak,Ipurposelypassedwithinaboatortwo'slengthofthefloatingCustomHouse,andsoouttocatchthestream,alongsideoftwoemigrantships,andunderthebowsofalargetransportwithtroopsontheforecastlelookingdownatus。Andsoonthetidebegantoslacken,andthecraftlyingatanchortoswing,andpresentlytheyhadallswunground,andtheshipsthatweretakingadvantageofthenewtidetogetuptothePool,begantocrowduponusinafleet,andwekeptundertheshore,asmuchoutofthestrengthofthetidenowaswecould,standingcarefullyofffromlowshallowsandmudbanks。
Ouroarsmenweresofresh,bydintofhavingoccasionallyletherdrivewiththetideforaminuteortwo,thataquarterofanhour'srestprovedfullasmuchastheywanted。Wegotashoreamongsomeslipperystoneswhileweateanddrankwhatwehadwithus,andlookedabout。Itwaslikemyownmarshcountry,flatandmonotonous,andwithadimhorizon;whilethewindingriverturnedandturned,andthegreatfloatingbuoysuponitturnedandturned,andeverythingelseseemedstrandedandstill。For,now,thelastofthefleetofshipswasroundthelastlowpointwehadheaded;
andthelastgreenbarge,straw-laden,withabrownsail,hadfollowed;
andsomeballast-lighters,shapedlikeachild'sfirstrudeimitationofaboat,laylowinthemud;andalittlesquatshoal-lighthouseonopenpiles,stoodcrippledinthemudonstiltsandcrutches;andslimystakesstuckoutofthemud,andslimystonesstuckoutofthemud,andredlandmarksandtidemarksstuckoutofthemud,andanoldlanding-stageanoldrooflessbuildingslippedintothemud,andallaboutuswasstagnationandmud。
Wepushedoffagain,andmadewhatwaywecould。Itwasmuchharderworknow,butHerbertandStartoppersevered,androwed,androwed,androwed,untilthesunwentdown。Bythattimetheriverhasliftedusalittle,sothatwecouldseeabovethebank。Therewastheredsun,onthelowleveloftheshore,inapurplehaze,fastdeepeningintoblack;
andtherewasthesolitaryflatmarsh;andfarawaythereweretherisinggrounds,betweenwhichandusthereseemedtobenolife,savehereandthereintheforegroundamelancholygull。
Asthenightwasfastfalling,andasthemoon,beingpastthefull,wouldnotriseearly,weheldalittlecouncil:ashortone,forclearlyourcoursewastoliebyatthefirstlonelytavernwecouldfind。So,theypliedtheiroarsoncemore,andIlookedoutforanythinglikeahouse。
Thusweheldon,speakinglittle,forfourorfivedullmiles。Itwasverycold,and,acolliercomingbyus,withhergalley-firesmokingandflaring,lookedlikeacomfortablehome。Thenightwasasdarkbythistimeasitwouldbeuntilmorning;andwhatlightwehad,seemedtocomemorefromtheriverthanthesky,astheoarsintheirdippingstruckasafewreflectedstars。Atthisdismaltimewewereevidentlyallpossessedbytheideathatwewerefollowed。Asthetidemade,itflappedheavilyatirregularintervalsagainsttheshore;andwheneversuchasoundcame,oneorotherofuswassuretostartandlookinthatdirection。Hereandthere,thesetofthecurrenthadworndownthebankintoalittlecreek,andwewereallsuspiciousofsuchplaces,andeyedthemnervously。Sometimes,`Whatwasthatripple?'oneofuswouldsayinalowvoice。Oranother,`Isthataboatyonder?'Andafterwards,wewouldfallintoadeadsilence,andIwouldsitimpatientlythinkingwithwhatanunusualamountofnoisetheoarsworkedinthethowels。
Atlengthwedescriedalightandaroof,andpresentlyafterwardsranalongsidealittlecausewaymadeofstonesthathadbeenpickeduphardby。Leavingtherestintheboat,Isteppedashore,andfoundthelighttobeinawindowofapublic-house。Itwasadirtyplaceenough,andI
daresaynotunknowntosmugglingadventurers;buttherewasagoodfireinthekitchen,andtherewereeggsandbacontoeat,andvariousliquorstodrink。Also,thereweretwodouble-beddedrooms-`suchastheywere,'
thelandlordsaid。Noothercompanywasinthehousethanthelandlord,hiswife,andagrizzledmalecreature,the`Jack'ofthelittlecauseway,whowasasslimyandsmearyasifhehadbeenlow-watermarktoo。
Withthisassistant,Iwentdowntotheboatagain,andweallcameashore,andbroughtouttheoars,andrudder,andboat-hook,andallelse,andhauledherupforthenight。Wemadeaverygoodmealbythekitchenfire,andthenapportionedthebedrooms:HerbertandStartopweretooccupyone;Iandourchargetheother。Wefoundtheairascarefullyexcludedfromboth,asifairwerefataltolife;andthereweremoredirtyclothesandbandboxesunderthebedsthanIshouldhavethoughtthefamilypossessed。
But,weconsideredourselveswelloff,notwithstanding,foramoresolitaryplacewecouldnothavefound。
Whilewewerecomfortingourselvesbythefireafterourmeal,theJack-whowassittinginacorner,andwhohadabloatedpairofshoeson,whichhehadexhibitedwhilewewereeatingoureggsandbacon,asinterestingrelicsthathehadtakenafewdaysagofromthefeetofadrownedseamanwashedashore-askedmeifwehadseenafour-oaredgalleygoingupwiththetide?WhenItoldhimNo,hesaidshemusthavegonedownthen,andyetshe`tookuptoo,'whensheleftthere。
`Theymustha'thoughtbetteron'tforsomereasonoranother,'saidtheJack,`andgonedown。'
`Afour-oaredgalley,didyousay?'saidI。
`Afour,'saidtheJack,`andtwositters。'
`Didtheycomeashorehere?'
`Theyputinwithastonetwo-gallonjar,forsomebeer。I'dha'beengladtopisonthebeermyself,'saidtheJack,`orputsomerattlingphysicinit。'
`Why?'
`Iknowwhy,'saidtheJack。Hespokeinaslushyvoice,asifmuchmudhadwashedintohisthroat。
`Hethinks,'saidthelandlord:aweaklymeditativemanwithapaleeye,whoseemedtorelygreatlyonhisJack:`hethinkstheywas,whattheywasn't。'
`IknowswhatIthinks,'observedtheJack。
`YouthinksCustum'Us,Jack?'saidthelandlord。
`Ido,'saidtheJack。
`Thenyou'rewrong,Jack。'
`AMI!'
Intheinfinitemeaningofhisreplyandhisboundlessconfidenceinhisviews,theJacktookoneofhisbloatedshoesoff,lookedintoit,knockedafewstonesoutofitonthekitchenfloor,andputitonagain。
HedidthiswiththeairofaJackwhowassorightthathecouldaffordtodoanything。
`Why,whatdoyoumakeoutthattheydonewiththeirbuttonsthen,Jack?'
askedthelandlord,vacillatingweakly。
`Donewiththeirbuttons?'returnedtheJack。`Chucked'emoverboard。
Swallered'em。Sowed'em,tocomeupsmallsalad。Donewiththeirbuttons!'
`Don'tbecheeky,Jack,'remonstratedthelandlord,inamelancholyandpatheticway。
`ACustum'UsofficerknowswhattodowithhisButtons,'saidtheJack,repeatingtheobnoxiouswordwiththegreatestcontempt,`whentheycomesbetwixthimandhisownlight。AFourandtwosittersdon'tgohangingandhovering,upwithonetideanddownwithanother,andbothwithandagainstanother,withouttherebeingCustum'Usatthebottomofit。'Sayingwhichhewentoutindisdain;andthelandlord,havingnoonetoreplyupon,founditimpracticabletopursuethesubject。
Thisdialoguemadeusalluneasy,andmeveryuneasy。Thedismalwindwasmutteringroundthehouse,thetidewasflappingattheshore,andIhadafeelingthatwewerecagedandthreatened。Afour-oaredgalleyhoveringaboutinsounusualawayastoattractthisnotice,wasanuglycircumstancethatIcouldnotgetridof。WhenIhadinducedProvistogouptobed,IwentoutsidewithmytwocompanionsStarlopbythistimeknewthestateofthecase,andheldanothercouncil。Whetherweshouldremainatthehouseuntilnearthesteamer'stime,whichwouldbeaboutoneintheafternoon;orwhetherweshouldputoffearlyinthemorning;
wasthequestionwediscussed。Onthewholewedeemeditthebettercoursetoliewherewewere,untilwithinanhourorsoofthesteamer'stime,andthentogetoutinhertrack,anddrifteasilywiththetide。Havingsettledtodothis,wereturnedintothehouseandwenttobed。
Ilaydownwiththegreaterpartofmyclotheson,andsleptwellforafewhours。WhenIawoke,thewindhadrisen,andthesignofthehousetheShipwascreakingandbangingabout,withnoisesthatstartledme。
Risingsoftly,formychargelayfastasleep,Ilookedoutofthewindow。
Itcommandedthecausewaywherewehadhauledupourboat,and,asmyeyesadaptedthemselvestothelightofthecloudedmoon,Isawtwomenlookingintoher。Theypassedbyunderthewindow,lookingatnothingelse,andtheydidnotgodowntothelanding-placewhichIcoulddiscerntobeempty,butstruckacrossthemarshinthedirectionoftheNore。
MyfirstimpulsewastocallupHerbert,andshowhimthetwomengoingaway。But,reflectingbeforeIgotintohisroom,whichwasatthebackofthehouseandadjoinedmine,thatheandStartophadhadaharderdaythanI,andwerefatigued,Iforbore。Goingbacktomywindow,Icouldseethetwomenmovingoverthemarsh。Inthatlight,however,Isoonlostthem,andfeelingverycold,laydowntothinkofthematter,andfellasleepagain。
Wewereupearly。Aswewalkedtoandfro,allfourtogether,beforebreakfast,IdeemeditrighttorecountwhatIhadseen。Againourchargewastheleastanxiousoftheparty。ItwasverylikelythatthemenbelongedtotheCustomHouse,hesaidquietly,andthattheyhadnothoughtofus。
Itriedtopersuademyselfthatitwasso-as,indeed,itmighteasilybe。However,IproposedthatheandIshouldwalkawaytogethertoadistantpointwecouldsee,andthattheboatshouldtakeusaboradthere,orasnearthereasmightprovefeasible,ataboutnoon。Thisbeingconsideredagoodprecaution,soonafterbreakfastheandIsetforth,withoutsayinganythingatthetavern。
Hesmokedhispipeaswewentalong,andsometimesstoppedtoclapmeontheshoulder。OnewouldhavesupposedthatitwasIwhowasindanger,nothe,andthathewasreassuringme。Wespokeverylittle。Asweapproachedthepoint,Ibeggedhimtoremaininashelteredplace,whileIwentontoreconnoitre;for,itwastowardsitthatthemenhadpassedinthenight。
Hecomplied,andIwentonalone。Therewasnoboatoffthepoint,noranyboatdrawnupanywherenearit,norwerethereanysignsofthemenhavingembarkedthere。But,tobesurethetidewashigh,andtheremighthavebeensomefootpintsunderwater。
Whenhelookedoutfromhisshelterinthedistance,andsawthatI
wavedmyhattohimtocomeup,herejoinedme,andtherewewaited;sometimeslyingonthebankwrappedinourcoats,andsometimesmovingabouttowarmourselves:untilwesawourboatcominground。Wegotaboradeasily,androwedoutintothetrackofthesteamer。Bythattimeitwantedbuttenminutesofoneo'clock,andwebegantolookoutforhersmoke。
But,itwashalf-pastonebeforewesawhersmoke,andsoonafterwardswesawbehinditthesmokeofanothersteamer。Astheywerecomingonatfullspeed,wegotthetwobagsready,andtookthatopportunityofsayinggood-byetoHerbertandStartop。Wehadallshakenhandscordially,andneitherHerbert'seyesnorminewerequitedry,whenIsawafour-oaredgalleyshootoutfromunderthebankbutalittlewayaheadofus,androwoutintothesametrack。
Astretchofshorehadbeenasyetbetweenusandthesteamer'ssmoke,byreasonofthebendandwindoftheriver;butnowshewasvisible,comingheadon。IcalledtoHerbertandStartoptokeepbeforethetide,thatshemightseeuslyingbyforher,andIadjuredProvistositquitestill,wrappedinhiscloak。Heansweredcheerily,`Trusttome,dearboy,'andsatlikeastatue。Meantimethegalley,whichwasveryskilfullyhandled,hadcrossedus,letuscomeupwithher,andfallenalongside。Leavingjustroomenoughfortheplayoftheoars,shekeptalongside,driftingwhenwedrifted,andpullingastrokeortwowhenwepulled。Ofthetwosittersoneheldtherudderlines,andlookedatusattentively-asdidalltherowers;theothersitterwaswrappedup,muchasProviswas,andseemedtoshrink,andwhispersomeinstructiontothesteererashelookedatus。Notawordwasspokenineitherboat。
Startopcouldmakeout,afterafewminutes,whichsteamerwasfirst,andgavemetheword`Hamburg,'inalowvoiceaswesatfacetoface。
Shewasnearingusveryfast,andthebeatingofherpeddlesgrewlouderandlouder。Ifeltasifhershadowwereabsolutelyuponus,whenthegalleyhailedus。Ianswered。
`YouhaveareturnedTransportthere,'saidthemanwhoheldthelines。
`That'stheman,wrappedinthecloak。HisnameisAbelMagwitch,otherwiseProvis。Iapprehendthatman,andcalluponhimtosurrender,andyoutoassist。'
Atthesamemoment,withoutgivinganyaudibledirectiontohiscrew,heranthegalleyabroadofus。Theyhadpulledonesuddenstrokeahead,hadgottheiroarsin,hadrunathwartus,andwereholdingontoourgunwale,beforeweknewwhattheyweredoing。Thiscausedgreatconfusiononboardthesteamer,andIheardthemcallingtous,andheardtheordergiventostopthepaddles,andheardthemstop,butfeltherdrivingdownuponusirresistibly。Inthesamemoment,Isawthesteersmanofthegalleylayhishandonhisprisoner'sshoulder,andsawthatbothboatswereswingingroundwiththeforceofthetide,andsawthatallhandsonboardthesteamerwererunningforwardquitefrantically。Stillinthesamemoment,Isawtheprisonerstartup,leanacrosshiscaptor,andpullthecloakfromtheneckoftheshrinkingsitterinthegalley。Stillinthesamemoment,Isawthatthefacedisclosed,wasthefaceoftheotherconvictoflongago。Stillinthesamemoment,IsawthefacetiltbackwardwithawhiteterroronitthatIshallneverforget,andheardagreatcryonboardthesteamerandaloudsplashinthewater,andfelttheboatsinkfromunderme。
ItwasbutforaninstantthatIseemedtostrugglewithathousandmill-weirsandathousandflashesoflight;thatinstantpast,Iwastakenonboardthegalley。Herbertwasthere,andStartopwasthere;butourboatwasgone,andthetwoconvictsweregone。
Whatwiththecriesabroadthesteamer,andthefuriousblowingoffofhersteam,andherdrivingon,andourdrivingon,Icouldnotatfirstdistinguishskyfromwaterorshorefromshore;but,thecrewofthegalleyrightedherwithgreatspeed,and,pullingcertainswiftstrongstrokesahead,layupontheiroars,everymanlookingsilentlyandeagerlyatthewaterastern。Presentlyadarkobjectwasseeninit,bearingtowardsusonthetide。Nomanspoke,butthesteersmanhelduphishand,andallsoftlybackedwater,andkepttheboatstraightandtruebeforeit。Asitcamenearer,IsawittobeMagwitch,swimming,butnotswimmingfreely。
Hewastakenonboard,andinstantlymanacledatthewristsandankles。
Thegalleywaskeptsteady,andthesilenteagerlook-outatthewaterwasresumed。But,theRotterdamsteamernowcameup,andapparentlynotunderstandingwhathadhappened,cameonatspeed。Bythetimeshehadbeenhailedandstopped,bothsteamersweredriftingawayfromus,andwewererisingandfallinginatroubledwakeofwater。Thelook-outwaskept,longafterallwasstillagainandthetwosteamersweregone;but,everybodyknewthatitwashopelessnow。
Atlengthwegaveitup,andpulledundertheshoretowardsthetavernwehadlatelyleft,wherewewerereceivedwithnolittlesurprise。Here,IwasabletogetsomecomfortsforMagwitch-Provisnolonger-whohadreceivedsomeverysevereinjuryinthechestandadeepcutinthehead。
Hetoldmethathebelievedhimselftohavegoneunderthekeelofthesteamer,andtohavebeenstruckontheheadinrising。Theinjurytohischestwhichrenderedhisbreathingextremelypainfulhethoughthehadreceivedagainstthesideofthegalley。HeaddedthathedidnotpretendtosaywhathemightormightnothavedonetoCompeyson,but,thatinthemomentofhislayinghishandonhiscloaktoidentifyhim,thatvillainhadstaggeredupandstaggeredback,andtheyhadbothgoneoverboardtogether;
whenthesuddenwrenchingofhimMagwitchoutofourboat,andtheendeavourofhiscaptortokeephiminit,hadcapsizedus。Hetoldmeinawhisperthattheyhadgonedown,fiercelylockedineachother'sarms,andthattherehadbeenastruggleunderwater,andthathehaddisengagedhimself,struckout,andswumaway。
Ineverhadanyreasontodoubttheexacttruthofwhathethustoldme。Theofficerwhosteeredthegalleygavethesameaccountoftheirgoingoverboard。
WhenIaskedthisofficer'spermissiontochangetheprisoner'swetclothesbypurchasinganysparegarmentsIcouldgetatthepublic-house,hegaveitreadily:merelyobservingthathemusttakechargeofeverythinghisprisonerhadabouthim。Sothepocketbookwhichhadoncebeeninmyhands,passedintotheofficer's。HefurthergavemeleavetoaccompanytheprisonertoLondon;but,declinedtoaccordthatgracetomytwofriends。
TheJackattheShipwasinstructedwherethedrownedmanhadgonedown,andundertooktosearchforthebodyintheplaceswhereitwaslikeliesttocomeashore。Hisinterestinitsrecoveryseemedtometobemuchheightenedwhenheheardthatithadstockingson。Probably,ittookaboutadozendrownedmentofithimoutcompletely;andthatmayhavebeenthereasonwhythedifferentarticlesofhisdresswereinvariousstagesofdecay。
Weremainedatthepublic-houseuntilthetideturned,andthenMagwitchwascarrieddowntothegalleyandputonboard。HerbertandStartopweretogettoLondonbyland,assoonastheycould。Wehadadolefulparting,andwhenItookmyplacebyMagwitch'sside,Ifeltthatthatwasmyplacehenceforthwhilehelived。
Fornow,myrepugnancetohimhadallmeltedaway,andinthehuntedwoundedshackledcreaturewhoheldmyhandinhis,Ionlysawamanwhohadmeanttobemybenefactor,andwhohadfeltaffectionately,gratefully,andgenerously,towardsmewithgreatconstancythroughaseriesofyears。
IonlysawinhimamuchbettermanthanIhadbeentoJoe。
Hisbreathingbecamemoredifficultandpainfulasthenightdrewon,andoftenhecouldnotrepressagroan。ItriedtoresthimonthearmIcoulduse,inanyeasyposition;but,itwasdreadfultothinkthatI
couldnotbesorryatheartforhisbeingbadlyhurt,sinceitwasunquestionablybestthatheshoulddie。Thattherewere,stillliving,peopleenoughwhowereableandwillingtoidentifyhim,Icouldnotdoubt。Thathewouldbelenientlytreated,Icouldnothope。Hewhohadbeenpresentedintheworstlightathistrial,whohadsincebrokenprisonandhadbeentriedagain,whohadreturnedfromtransportationunderalifesentence,andwhohadoccasionedthedeathofthemanwhowasthecauseofhisarrest。
Aswereturnedtowardsthesettingsunwehadyesterdayleftbehindus,andasthestreamofourhopesseemedallrunningback,ItoldhimhowgrievedIwastothinkthathehadcomehomeformysake。
`Dearboy,'heanswered,`I'mquitecontenttotakemychance。I'veseenmyboy,andhecanbeagentlemanwithoutme。'
No。Ihadthoughtaboutthat,whilewehadbeentheresidebyside。
No。Apartfromanyinclinationsofmyown,IunderstoodWemmick'shintnow。Iforesawthat,beingconvicted,hispossessionswouldbeforfeitedtotheCrown。
`Lookeehere,dearboy,'saidhe`It'sbestasagentlemanshouldnotbeknowedtobelongtomenow。OnlycometoseemeasifyoucomebychancealongerWemmick。SitwhereIcanseeyouwhenIamsworeto,forthelasto'manytimes,andIdon'tasknomore。'
`Iwillneverstirfromyourside,'saidI,`whenIamsufferedtobenearyou。PleaseGod,Iwillbeastruetoyou,asyouhavebeentome!'
Ifelthishandtrembleasitheldmine,andheturnedhisfaceawayashelayinthebottomoftheboat,andIheardthatoldsoundinhisthroat-softenednow,likealltherestofhim。Itwasagoodthingthathehadtouchedthispoint,foritputintomymindwhatImightnototherwisehavethoughtofuntiltoolate:Thatheneedneverknowhowhishopesofenrichingmehadperished。
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